k.may

I think a little too much

[howlsmovingdesk]

handmade journals & sunrays

[kues]

amochichi

[howlsmovingdesk]

finally had the time to bullet journal after so long 😌

[ludimagister-deactivated2017063]

In essence, when you practice and develop any skill you transform yourself in the process. You reveal to yourself new capabilities that were previously latent, that are exposed as you progress. You develop emotionally. Your sense of pleasure becomes redefined. What offers immediate pleasure comes to seem like a distraction, an empty entertainment to help pass the time. Real pleasure comes from overcoming challenges, feeling confidence in your abilities, gaining fluency in skills, and experiencing the power this brings. You develop patience. Boredom no longer signals the need for distraction, but rather the need for new challenges to conquer.

Robert Greene, Mastery (via conceptvals)

[pigmenting]

sometimes i forget how many times i’ve picked myself off the floor, how many times i’ve washed away smudgy makeup and put myself to bed. how many times i’ve said no to something unhealthy. said yes to something good. how many times i’ve treated myself with kindness and patience. i forget how many times i’ve tended to wounds and made peace with my own anger. if i was taking care of a body that was not my own, i’d believe i was doing everything i could. so here’s to remembering that i’m doing the best i can.

[kmayflair]

HER

                                   2pm I 27.10.17 I friday 

so i went out to dry my hair 

in the warm sun

  as i was walking past the park i saw 

those  empty swings  begging for someone to sway with them 

and i went

 without thinking twice about what could go wrong

 like I am taught to do so 

i started to swing 

slowly at first- like testing the waters

i found myself getting conscious of my attire-

revealing my long slender legs that were out in the open 

beyond the insecurity jail

my dark now short bush- like hair staining wet the white t-shirt 

that once belonged to my mother

my colorful shoes that looked bigger than my feet 

but the swing did not stop 

and i kept moving 

to and fro 

to and fro 

to and fro 

i let myself drench in the moment 

and i could feel my eyelids shutting away the world 

and then 

there was the wind again 

reaching me swiftly past my diffidence

and lead me to Her 

she did not care about 

the middle aged man looking at her through his window 

or the people on the bench silently judging her 

or taking pictures of her 

or laughing at her 

or her thin legs 

or her fluffy hair 

or huge shoes 

and 

every time she went back she came forward higher than the last time 

why did she not care ?

why would she bother to move forward if she was going to be pushed back anyways ?

i realized the swing was slowing down now 

as i dropped to reality and 

she was gone 

teaching me that 

she had loved herself too much to care for what they think 

and strived relentlessly for what she desired 

She was Me 

not now 

but so long ago that i forgot i had her in me 

my hair was dry now 

so i went home 

hoping to meet her more often 

as food for the dreamer in me. 

- Kmay 23.10

[academiix]

41/100  days of productivity -  for SAT subject tests last month, I literally studied a whole Barron’s review textbook in one week. It was really difficult, but here are some tips for doing it!

[studyblr]

never stop going.

[notinuze-deactivated20180311]

artist, simon eng

[athenus]

i feel like i want to do a calligraphy tutorial and help others out in improving their calligraphy hmmmm cause i had this bizarre experience where i improved it (to the point where im satisfied im crying) in just one night and its so weird??? so yeah i just dont know if i should just make a video? or just pictorial instructions? idk what do u think

[kmayflair]

Yes! Please I want to learn so bad now that I have a new set of calligraphy pens ..I guess.

[teshuvahdyke]

environmental racism isn't a thing. God how can people be so stupid. Plants don't have fucking opinions.

I’m … legitimately blown away that you think environmental racism is about the marginalization of plants.

[studyblr]

You’re full of interests and passions, such a thirst for knowledge and learning. Your friends are all so glad you’re there to lighten up their day with your bad jokes and great advice. Your books are so glad you exist, even though you tend to buy more and more of them without having finished reading your previous ones. You have so much potential in you, so much to achieve and do and enjoy. Go on, I believe in you.

[kmayflair]

Vibe

[inteqrals]

//170531// Getting through the last few days of school with Macbeth and AP literature notes (my watch is also cracked but I’m too lazy to fix it ㅠㅠ) ✨ 🌿

[kmayflair]

Goals

[ivymic-deactivated20160110]

I hate when textbooks try and throw in a dry joke stfu we’re not friends just tell me what i need to know and bounce

[amormedarei-deactivated20200116]

🌿

[aoke]

/_so.ra

[remade-kim-taeyeon-deactivated2]

“I will not be another flower, picked for their beauty and left to die. I will be wild, difficult to find, and impossible to forget.”