this soul of mine will never break

cha jinwoo . 21 . painting & photography major. "hearts don't break around here."

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

he tilted his head up and kissed him back. his heart couldn’t handle this, and he could be that jinwoo could feel it beating… embarrassingly so. he gently rested a hand on jinwoo’s cheek, letting his thumb softly stroke it. “imagine if i didn’t… both of us would be suffering right now.” he chuckled. only to hear a voice speaking loudly from one of the rooms: “don’t fuck on my couch!!” minho sighed. “well… great. moment ruined.”

the feeling of minho’s hand on his cheek was enough to bring the butterflies back to jinwoo’s stomach, more sure than ever of how much he liked him. “yeah, i-” he was interrupted by his roommates voice, making him roll his eyes. he shouted back some cursewords at him, before looking at minho again. “maybe if you kiss me again the moment will come back?” he joked, leaning back again and absentmindedly starting to play with minho’s hair. “want to go to my room?”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho scooted closer to him, and wrapped his arms around jinwoo’s body as he rested against him. like he expected, it was comfortable. just like all the times they’ve randomly cuddled before. “i’m not.” minho rolled his eyes, but felt the butterflies erupt the moment jinwoo kissed his temple. he never expected him to act this soft. “i’ll stay.” he tightened his arms around him for a short moment before letting them loose again. “i have to go in the morning, though… i’m sorry.” he sighed. “i’ll stay longer next time.” 

he appreciated the small gesture of the tighter hug, even if he was telling he had to leave earlier than expected. “that’s fine, what matters is you’re staying.” he answered, this time quieter and more sincere. he was still for a moment, before moving his body just a little to face minho better. he rested his hand under his chin to tilt it up, leaning down to meet his lips. he left a soft kiss there, dragging it out for a moment before pulling back. “i’m glad you came over.”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho couldn’t stop smiling. how could this man manage to be this adorable? and this understanding?? he really appreciated that about him. minho rolled his eyes. “we don’t have to stop that.” he said with a laugh. he continued to listen to him, and nodding here and there as he gently played with jinwoo’s hand. “well… i like you a lot to not want to be exclusive.” he responded quietly, and looked at him with a little smile. “i want all of that too.” there was a short pause before minho spoke again. “i’m sorry for being awkward, by the way. i… i’m not used to this.” he chuckled.

when minho mentioned being awkward, jinwoo tugged on his hand a little, bringing him closer towards him. he let go of their hands to rest his arm on the back of the couch, inviting minho to rest against him. “you’re really cute.” he couldn’t resist complimenting him, pressing a kiss to his temple. “i’m not usually romantic. i just like you a lot.” he chuckled. “stay tonight? i’ll even be big spoon.”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho couldn’t help but smile against his lips too when he heard what jinwoo said. he leaned back and looked at him, his eyes shinning with happiness and endearment. “i do.” he confirmed with a short nod. “well…” he shrugged. he leaned back on the couch and kept his hand held in jinwoo’s. “i’d love that… i want to date you. yes.” minho answered as he stared at their hands. “just… jinwoo, i don’t want things to move fast.” he admitted. “just admitting to feelings is hard enough… i want to be with you, but i don’t want to get… overwhelmed.” he paused and looked at jinwoo to see his expression. “so, uh… what do you think?”

jinwoo’s smile grew as minho answered, cheeks a little pink. “going slow works for me.” he responded without hesitation. it was a lot for him to take in too, and all he wanted was for minho to be comfortable. “wait. slow doesn’t mean we have to stop... you know?” he half joked, wiggling his eyebrows at the other boy. “we don’t have to label anything, and i don’t exactly expect a ring. i just want us to be exclusive, and i want to keep holding your hand, and i want take you on a real date.”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

his smile widened a bit, and it matched jinwoo’s own smile. he could tell just how fast the other’s mood changed, and he felt reassured to know that jinwoo was truly happy to hear him say all of what he said. minho playfully rolled his eyes, and rested his free hand on jinwoo’s cheek, before he leaned in slowly and kissed him so gently. it was so different to all the times he’s ever kissed him. it was always fast and heated, but this time was slow and sweet. 

jinwoo was certain that if minho got any closer, he’d feel his heart hammering in his chest. he matched the softness of the kiss, and it felt more intimate than anything else they’d done together before. after a short while, jinwoo couldn’t stop his smile from interrupting the kiss. “you like me.” he muttered against minho’s lips, leaving a few more small kisses there before leaning back again. “you like me.” he repeated it once more, laughing a little from relief. “so, now what? are we... is this... are we dating?” the question came out awkwardly and he shook his head, trying to get this right for once. “do you want to go on a date with me?”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho wasn’t expecting his heart to go off so easily he watched jinwoo intertwine their fingers. the look on jinwoo’s face alone could easily make him melt as well. he nodded silently. “… if it wasn’t obvious enough… i must be such a good actor.” he smiled a little.

“oh.” he repeated himself, this time with a smile. he moved his free hand to rest over their hands, just taking the moment in as he thought of what to say next. whatever nerves he had before were now replaced with excitement, and he couldn’t drag his eyes away from minho. “kiss me.” he spoke finally, a smile still on his lips. 

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho’s eyes were stuck on him now… this was too much. he finally sat down next to him and rested a hand over jinwoo’s. he stayed silent for a bit, now looking at his their hands. it was hard to get the words out, and minho was embarrassed of how he was opening his mouth to speak and closing it again in the silent. he finally looked at jinwoo again and shook his head. “you won’t lose me.” he said. “uh… i get it. i… i’ve been scared too. i’ve been in big denial this whole time. i didn’t want to get my hopes up until…” he paused to take a deep breath. “well, u-until i heard you actually tell me this…” he looked away from him. “i may have been oblivious… but only because i didn’t want to make myself believe that this… you feeling this… is possible.” 

jinwoo’s stared at their hands as minho spoke, the butterflies coming back as he shyly moved his hand to intertwine their fingers as he listened. he looked up at him again after a few moments, taking in his features as he kept talking. “oh.” he tilted his head in thought, eyebrows furrowing a little. “you like me?”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

he’s been denying it to himself all this time. his past has resulted to him always being in denial and refusing to believe anything related to feelings. even hearing it now, it was hard to believe. minho stared at him, his expression was unchanged, but there was an obvious bit of shock on it. “you…” he spoke quietly, almost in a whisper. “… don’t lie like that, please…” 

hearing such a quiet voice from minho made jinwoo almost reach out to hold his hand, but he stopped himself. “hey,” he spoke gently, trying to ignore how fast his heart was beating. “i wouldn’t lie about this.” he continued, searching minho’s features for some sign of how he felt. “i’ve been scared to admit how i feel. i haven’t been able to open up to someone in a long time and i really...” he lent back, gaze dropping to the floor. “i don’t want to lose you. even if it’s just as a friend, i want you in my life.” 

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho walked in and took his shoes off by the door like he usually did whenever he came over, then followed jinwoo to the living room. but he couldn’t sit down. “i’m sorry… i should’ve waited until tomorrow. but it’s been bothering me.” he shrugged, fiddling with the phone in his hands. the more jinwoo said he didn’t even want to end it, the more minho tried to keep his hopes down. it was hard. “then what happened? we were fine all this time…” 

jinwoo wasn’t good with talking about his feelings on a good day, but it was especially difficult now. “no, i’m sorry.” he sighed. “we were fine, we were more than fine. it’s been great.” he took a moment to think, trying to get his thoughts in order. “that’s kind of the problem. because i started to like you. i’ve tried to deny it, but i do. at first i could ignore it, but now i get butterflies when we kiss. when we watch a movie, i just want to reach over and hold your hand. i... i’m happiest when i’m with you.” he offered with a sad smile. “that’s why i have to stop because if i keep doing this, i’m going to break my heart. it’s too hard to be with you like that and pretend that i’m not falling for you.” 

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

closed for; @kngjinwoo 

minho was pacing in front of jinwoo’s door at this point as he typed on his phone in response to mina’s texts. he could hear jinwoo and yubin whisper arguing behind the door, and it was only tiring at this point. his feet hurt. “just open the door already, god damn. it’s not that hard to turn a knob, is it?” he sighed, shoulders slumping as he stood in front of the door again. suddenly, the door finally opened and he saw jinwoo standing there, and figure behind him running to another room. he figured it was yubin. “… hey.” he swallowed the hard lump in his throat. “i just wanted to talk… i couldn’t wait until tomorrow…” 

jinwoo was more nervous than he’d been in a long time, bickering with his friend because he was so on edge. “hey.” jinwoo answered quietly, fiddling with the t-shirt he’d thrown on in replacement of his pjyamas. “that’s okay, come in.” he moved out of the way before shutting the door, leading them both towards the living room. he sat down on the couch and took in a deep breath before finally meeting minho’s gaze. “i don’t know what to say, i thought i’d have time to prepare.” he laughed breathily. “i want you to know, i really didn’t want to end this.”

[kngjinwoo]

closed for @kngminho

“so,” jinwoo had just paused the movie they put on, both of them deciding it was far too boring to continue trying to finish it. “wanna go get some food? because, no offence, but your cooking is awful.” he teased with his typical wide smile, his arm moving to loosely rest across he back of the couch as he awaited a response.

[kngjinwoo]

closed for @crdlos

“no, i swear she does this really cute thing.” jinwoo argued with a smile as he waited for his daughter to do her new trick, who was too busy smiling at her aunt to listen to her father. “little one, just...” he put his hand to his mouth to hint to her, and she finally followed by blowing a kiss and giggling loudly afterwards.

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho wasn’t expecting to get tackled. he let out a surprised yelp and a loud laugh, arms wrapping tightly around jinwoo as he flipped them over. minho looked down at him, his smile so wide, it almost broke his face. he couldn’t help but lean down and kiss him. “i would love that a lot.” he nodded, lightly bumping his nose against jinwoo’s.

“i love you a lot.” jinwoo replied, smiling even though he knew how predictable it was. as he looked up at him, his softened, hand moving to brush hair away from minho’s face. it was messy from sleep, and jinwoo found him adorable as ever. “so, how does being old feel? do i need slow down when we walk now so you can keep up?”

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

minho giggled softly when he felt the little kisses on his face. he couldn’t help but move his face to kiss him properly once. “you didn’t have to.” he shook his head, smiling nonetheless. minho took the note and read it, his smile growing wider slowly. “my heart can’t handle this, you’re so cute!” he spoke, looking up at him again. “thank you, baby. i love you so much.” he opened his arms wide, silently asking for a hug. 

instead of just gently taking him into his arms, jinwoo took his opportunity to dive into minho inside. he tackled him back down onto the bed, hugging him tightly and laughing. he then rolled over whilst holding onto his husband, letting minho rest on top of him now. “i think we should go out to celebrate today.” he grinned from beneath him.

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

if there was one thing minho hated, it was waking up from a good night’s sleep. he whined when he was woken up, stretching his arms and legs under the sheets. “what…?” he mumbled, finally opening his eyes and looking at his husband. “oh!” he smiled widely. “it’s minho day!” he said cutely, arms reaching up as if asking for help sitting up. his eyes settled on the flowers next to him, and immediately looked at jinwoo again. “for me??” 

jinwoo just laughed softly as minho whined, endeared by it all. “it’s you day!” he laughed, clapping his hands excitedly. he helped him sit up, not resisting the temptation to kiss his face again, this time once on his cheek and once on the corner of his lips. “for you, there’s a note there too.” he added, pointing to the little yellow card inside the bunch. inside, it read “to my dear minmin, i hope you have the brightest birthday, i love you always” in the neatest handwriting jinwoo could muster. 

[kngjinwoo]

closed for @kngminho

“morning, sunshine.” jinwoo smiled as he walked into their shared room, the bouquet of flowers he’d sneakily bought that morning already sat on the bedside table besides minho. they were a mix of yellow, pink and white, of course featuring daisies and roses. he’d left minho’s usual mug filled with coffee on the coaster, as he sat perched on the edge of the bed. he lent down to kiss his forehead, pulling back with a wide smile. “happy birthday, baby.” 

[kngjinwoo]

kngminho​:

“jinnie… no.” he answered, his frown so clear on his face and his head tilted slightly as if saying he wouldn’t take this right now. he wiped away his husband’s tears yet again, thumbs gently running over his cheeks. “it’s just one hard day.” he nodded in agreement. “and you got through it. you did your best. i’m so proud of you.” minho smiled gently. “i love you, really. i couldn’t have asked for a better husband. and i know solji loves you so much too.” he sighed. “just because it was one bad day, it doesn’t mean you’re any less of a great dad. okay?” 

every time jinwoo opened up about something, minho knew exactly how to comfort him. it had always been that way, and jinwoo didn’t know how he did it. he kissed his forehead in response, showing his gratitude that way. “okay.” he answered quietly, nodding his head. his shoulders slumped as the pressure started to lift off himself, looking down at his hand again when he stepped back from minho. “do we have any bandaids?” he pouted cutely, the cut still stinging.