The journey within

A lost soul's journey

[knowinglost]

Sometimes I wish I didn't love you so much. I wish my eyes could forget your face. I wish my arms could forget your embrace. I wish the scar you left on my heart could heal.

Sometimes, only sometimes. But I fear if I forget you, I'll forget myself. I don't know if I miss you or that piece of my heart that left me to follow you forever.

[knowinglost]

I know only how to love you.

I've tried, but I can't love anyone else. I really tried. But my eyes search for you in every face, and my heart searches for you in every soul.

[knowinglost]

I tried to forget you, but the footprints you left on my heart keep reminding me. Just when I think they've faded enough, a memory of you hews my heart asunder again. I cannot have you, I cannot leave you.

Why, when I am surrounded by others, do I still feel alone without you?

Why, when beauty abounds around me, do my eyes only wish to behold you?

Is this a blessing or a curse?

[knowinglost]

I feel you drifting and I'm trying so hard to stay strong. I wish you'd just tell me that you don't love me. I'll die inside, but maybe it'll stop hurting so much.

There's days that are grey when I think about everything but you and the pain is gone

Then there's days when I think of nothing but you and those days are filled with colour but they remind me that my world is coloured only by you.

When I miss you too much, its suffocating. I feel like I'm drowning and I don't want to breathe without you.

[knowinglost]

I'm numb without you.

I'm wrapped in something, taste and feeling seem to be repelled from me. I know it's there but I can't feel it.

[knowinglost]

Why can't I find someone else like her?

My heart: there is no one else like her.

[knowinglost]

My love for you is like a dagger in my side. I walk around with it, smile and talk to people. For a moment, fleeting as a hummingbird's wingbeat, I forget that you are in my heart. Then I remember and I feel the love cutting so deep, so fine, exquisite in its pain yet more beautiful than the sunrise.

I cannot pull you from me, you are with my every breath, threatening to overwhelm me. But if I cannot have all of you, I will take this.

[knowinglost]

How do I teach you, my beating heart,

That she who you love, doesn't love you.

She doesn't dance to your beat

She doesn't feel your pain

[missinyouiskillingme]

One of the cruelest things you can do to another person is pretend you care about them more than you really do.

[knowinglost]

If I ever lose you, I will be lost.

[love-letters-i-never-sent]

[missinyouiskillingme]

how?

[knowinglost]

Sometimes I wonder, did I fell in love with you, or the mask you were wearing?

[knowinglost]

I don't want to find someone to replace you.

I don't even want to look.

[knowinglost]

If you don't love me, just tell me.

Or block me. Walk away and never look back. But don't toy with me.

The heart you're playing with isn't made for breaking, it can't be put back together. This heart can only break from within, and you are inside. You shaped it. You fill it completely. There isn't space for anyone else.

[arabwife]

the saddest thing i’ve ever done was beg someone to love me the way I loved them

[knowinglost]

Lovesick

I understand it now. It is raw, like the anguish it brings out. Joining together memory and hope to dance to it's tune, playing its harp whose strings are heart.

It is love, and sickness, together and yet apart.

It is the dreamer and the dream, as one intertwined.

[knowinglost]

Surrounded by mirth, inside I cry

Surrounded by friends, I am alone

In the midst of happiness, I am devoid of joy

Did you take my soul, or did it leave me to search for you?