[kpopsk1nn7]

[kpopsk1nn7]

Haven’t been on here in a while but I’m back 😐👀

[kpopsk1nn7]

I ate sm yesterday it always happens when I buy food out I’m bringing food with me next time fuck this. I purged almost all of it but still I’m not even so concerned about the calories that day because of how much I was restricting before it it’s the fact that purging usually leads to me binging more often and purging more and yeah it makes me feel so shit.

[kpopsk1nn7]

I can’t keep down hardly any of my food anymore and it’s making eating even harder. Yes I’m losing weight but I get faint really easily and even eating my safe foods like jelly etc I can’t keep down most of the time.

[kpopsk1nn7]

I’ve lost over 11lb in just over a week 🎉🎉🎉

[kpopsk1nn7]

Honestly one of my biggest thinspp is G dragon

[kpopsk1nn7]

I just want small hips and a flat stomach like cis guys

[kpopsk1nn7]

I’m tired of people romanticising EDs having a bowl of sick under your bed to throw away when your parents aren’t looking because you couldn’t cope with having a full stomach isn’t aesthetic or romantic it’s fucked up

[kpopsk1nn7]

I ate these noodles with vegan cheese and it made my calories for the day like 1020 and I felt so guilty and just the feeling of gross food in me. I couldn’t stand it and I purged. My ed is getting worse and idk what to do.

[kpopsk1nn7]

I think the thing that hit me the most was when I was at my lowest weight and my grandpa said I’m wasting away if I carry on I won’t be around anymore. The saddest part was that’s what I wanted.

[kpopsk1nn7]

I’m like why do I actually look skinnier and then I remember I’ve lost 10lb already bdjdhehu

[kpopsk1nn7]

Now (134lb)

Before (first time I got really bad with my ed) just under 100lb

My goals 95lb now I want people to know I’m sick

[kpopsk1nn7]

I keep on doing the whole “I’m gonna recover and get better and eat normally” and then I’ll eat and end up purging because I feel awful and the next day I restrict again. I’m not doing that anymore because I’m not gonna put on the weight I worked to lose. Im nearly at my second goal weight and I’m not giving that up. Im gonna try start eating a bit more so I won’t binge and actually have meals instead of just junk that doesn’t fill me up.

[kpopsk1nn7]

You know you’re getting bad again when you’re constantly cold again

[skinnypleasekiss]

[kpopsk1nn7]

Just bought a bunch of safe foods (5 cal jelly pots and 90cal soup things). I haven’t eaten yet but I plan to have one meal later that’s 435 cals but I was on my feet all day so I probably burnt that off.

[kpopsk1nn7]

I only feel beautiful when I’m starving. I only feel clean when I’m starving. I’m only good enough if I’m starving. I’m only happy if my weight drops and when I haven’t eaten for days I feel complete.