champion .

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okay, I've officially remade this blog. like this post if you want me to follow you on the new one.

for the moment, while I feel unhappy with my hawke, I'd prefer if people only followed the new account if you're genuinely interested in building a connection with her. but I will likely open the blog up more in the new year.

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account archived, please read my pinned post if you’re still interested in interacting

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I think I’m probably going to archive and remake this blog

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plotting / interacting call

feel free to interact whether we have plots, outstanding threads or nothing currently. NATURALLY feel free to mix and match hearts. you can comment on this post or send me an ask.

comment 🩷 if you'd like me to send you a few memes

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comment 💛 if you are interested in plotting a platonic / familial dynamic

comment 💙 if you would like to plot a few threads in depth

comment 💚 if you'd like me to tag you in a random starter & go from there

if you'd like to plot, let me know where. i may have your discord already. if not, I'll dm you on here first.

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just remembered that they don’t have Anders properly open up to a fem!Hawke about Karl I hate hate hate you devs.

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funniest dlc

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playing mark of the assassin after act 3 and I’m going to cry about how much happier Anders sounds

[kingsmemes]

In honor of SPOTIFY WRAPPED,  send me a number 1-100 and I’ll write you a starter based on the song.

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plotting / interacting call

feel free to interact whether we have plots, outstanding threads or nothing currently. NATURALLY feel free to mix and match hearts. you can comment on this post or send me an ask.

comment 🩷 if you'd like me to send you a few memes

comment ❤️ if you are interested in shipping ( romantically )

comment 💛 if you are interested in plotting a platonic / familial dynamic

comment 💙 if you would like to plot a few threads in depth

comment 💚 if you'd like me to tag you in a random starter & go from there

if you'd like to plot, let me know where. i may have your discord already. if not, I'll dm you on here first.

[kingsmemes]

In honor of SPOTIFY WRAPPED,  send me a number 1-100 and I’ll write you a starter based on the song.

[lone-blade]

"It was Seeker Pentaghast who convinced me I might be." Carver shifts ever slightly, relaxing into his chair and letting out a long-held breath as he does. Good at it as he may be, the toll and taxation of his station are evident; the skin under his eyes is ashen, the hair of his beard has begun to gray to match the waves of brown atop his head, and his body seems stiff---perhaps from too many nights spent falling asleep at his desk. Yes, Carver is good at this, but there are more concerns beyond the general stress of the job, one that lies with in his blood and mind.

"I thought much of the same, but give the people an image to rally behind and threaten the balance of the world....well..." he shrugs. "People tend to put aside their differences and work together...for the most part." A grin finds his lips, if only for a moment. It is becoming easier to talk to her, to accept her words and intentions. Whatever made it so hard in the first place? Was it his jealousy, the chip on his shoulder, that only grew the more their father paid her more attention? Or is it Bethany, the Deep Roads, and mother?

Carver stills a moment, hues flickering as they find more interest in the grooves of the wood beneath them. Why did he ever blame Hawke for those things? His jaw tightens.

Fear, he realizes. Fear of it all, of the world, mixed with some unspoken understanding that Hawke was supposed to protect them. But couldn't. No one could, in the end.

"Well, I wouldn't say it all worked out." A grumble of sorts. "Everything is still a right bloody mess, but there is traction and a cause to rally for; that alone is more than anyone thought we could do." Another long silence stretches on before them, and Carver chances a glance up at his sister. She sits there, a bit more present and a bit firmer than when he had found her.

"Thank you." he says suddenly. For what? For the half compliment just given, or for more? He can't say, and wouldn't even if he could.

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Nothing takes a toll on a person like heroism. In fact, this might be the most they’ve ever resembled each other – the eldest Hawke always looked a little more like those on the Amell side. And while the unhappiness of her mind speaks for itself, there’s a subtlety to the toll on her body, too. She hides it well – too well – but the Champion is a little thinner, a little paler, a little rougher than she ever was in Kirkwall, much of her light hair faded into colourlessness. To see it all reflected in him concerns her in the ways that an elder sister will probably always be concerned, but it’s hardly a shock, or a surprise. 

“For the most part?” she echoes, eyebrow raised and curious. “I’ll bet you have a few good stories there. Or… really underwhelming stories to remind me that we have completely different standards for people ‘working out their differences’… Or getting along with each other,”

Oh, but she misses it. Kirkwall crushed her shoulders, but there was something beautiful in what she’d found there. Nights upon nights of drinking, fighting and endless bickering, misfits in a dour city bonded together by… something more tangible than fate. He might make her yearn for those days again, but she does want to hear about his stories, for his ‘bloody mess’, for every part of a life well lived without her. They're the only that the other has left.

Carver’s last two words startle her, though. They pierce through the heart like a fine blade, and she can’t hide the startled reaction they cause. Long, uncomfortable moments pass while Hawke retraces her steps, retraces his steps, conjures images of Bethany and mother and father and tries to work out what brought this on. Because she’s so sure she didn’t say the words she’d been thinking, and this conversation has hardly been about her helping him. Quite the opposite.

They’ve always been on opposite sides of a chasm – the eldest daughter who bore the family’s burdens and swore to protect them, and the only son, the soldier between two mage sisters. It was always so easy to understand Bethany, safe in the knowledge that they had each other. And twins are twins, so maybe Carver felt the same about her, just in other ways? What is truly supposed to connect the two with no common ground? 

But they do have common ground. It’s easier to see now. They’re far more alike than she once thought, stubborn flowers both vying for sunlight in a dark world. 

She hadn’t tried to understand him either – or, when she did she failed. She knew that Carver was jealous, but she never said anything. It was easier to assume that it was all about being seen as the Hawke, while he was always treated like the spare, the second. The only way she’d ever thought to help was to include him, to keep stringing her brother along, but even that had been its own form of damnation. 

“Why?” she asks, with an uncomfortable laugh. And she’s not really sure whether it’s rhetorical or born of a genuine desire to talk about something painfully honest. “What could you possibly have to thank me for?”

And she’s not trying to tease it out of him. She just doesn’t know why.

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honestly, I don't see my hawke joining the inquisition. not of her own will or anything.

she could certainly aid the inquisitor, or her friends.

but by inquisition, she's burnt out, has no faith in the chantry or, tbh, big power structures in general.

and her addiction to being the hero of every situation is something she's recovering from post-kirkwall. she'd want to help people, absolutely, but can't trust something like that. I think she sees the possibility of power and corruption and wants no part in it. even though their goal is just to seal the rifts.

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one thing i do find frustrating about ALL the da games is how they somehow always seem to sour me on my previous protagonist's ending?

like, I get it & how hard that sort of thing can be to implement, but whenever I encounter (or someone mentions) my protagonist in the next game, they aren't where I expect them to be.

and for hawke that's REALLY apparent. it kinda hurts to expect hawke to be off with their love interest, and then here lies the abyss will have them just... leave that person & come help the inquisition. it just doesn't ring true to me because it doesn't feel like she's doing anything for anders or carver.

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they mean so so so much to her.

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big reason why i joined the da rpc is because I can't write fanfiction for shit but had so many thoughts about the entire da2 party bickering in a cave after the damn finale, man.

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took the nightmare polycule on a romantic boat trip and nothing else happened.

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plotting / interacting call

feel free to interact whether we have plots, outstanding threads or nothing currently. NATURALLY feel free to mix and match hearts. you can comment on this post or send me an ask.

comment 🩷 if you'd like me to send you a few memes

comment ❤️ if you are interested in shipping ( romantically )

comment 💛 if you are interested in plotting a platonic / familial dynamic

comment 💙 if you would like to plot a few threads in depth

comment 💚 if you'd like me to tag you in a random starter & go from there

if you'd like to plot, let me know where. i may have your discord already. if not, I'll dm you on here first.