katie

your azn baby girl ✨

[ktstrphe]

late in the night feeling alright

recently i’ve been thinking about age-related dread and whether or not it’s really just the same dread we will face through our entire lives with different names?

i’ve felt a pang in my soul since i’ve gotten more serious about my career where i feel like i no longer feel able to be as creative as i used to be. in some ways, i feel less like myself and my mind is so focused on ways i can please others at work. is it cynical for me to frame pleasing others as billable labor?

i’ve also been trying to craft escapist fantasies to deal with this mysterious dread. it’s been a hard task, to be honest, and i’m starting to wonder if maybe i am actually very, very okay.

[sandyminn]

pull up, hop out, air out, made it look sexy (at Fire Island, New York)

[yeezys-girl]

[nycbambi]

[labella-instagram]

[colorfulgradients]

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[thequotejournals]

A book can teach you, a conversation can assure you, a poem can seduce you, a genius can inspire you but only you can save yourself.

Anthony Anaxagorou (via thequotejournals)

[ktstrphe]

9) it’s okay to take space sometimes. it’s okay to desire things and do things for your interest. it’s okay to be selfish out loud. everybody is a little.

10) you make your choices. some will be good but some will be bad. in the end it’s only what you create of it.

[ktstrphe]

I TRIPPED ON LSD

hey i just got back from vegas for my ~birthday celebration~ and i tripped on acid for 17 hours so i got some new thoughts about my life right now that i want to post:

1) my relationship with my phone. phones as extensions of ourselves and being able to understand that we are already cyborgs.

2) un-muting my negative feelings. slowly being able to unravel them and understand that having bad thoughts does not make me a person incapable of existing.

3) being comfortable with death as how to define life.

4) being alright with binary. understanding that meaning in life is always binary. we create meaning through difference. (and this includes social meanings constructed through racialization and gender!!!!!)

5) answering the questions: who are you? where do you come from? what do you want to do? what do you want? in ways that you are comfortable with.

6) being okay with needing love from certain types of people. needing escape from specific places.

7) not being afraid of an active mind. no need to be afraid of speed. you just have to trust yourself and trust your environment.

8) recognize that everybody has an understanding of good/bad. it’s okay to be bad sometimes. it’s okay to hate yourself a little bit.

[lonniiii-deactivated20170829]

If you’re serious about change, you have to go thru uncomfortable situations & stop trying to dodge the process. It’s the only way to grow.

[scar-ball]

[ciggeret-deactivated20160603]

hello tumblr, this is my guilty pleasure.

[unbelievingezra]

[jenniferlawurence]

#BLACKLIVESMATTER

[sandyminn]

Night life is the best life. @aagdolla

[votedami]

Ironically, the people who insist on saying ‘All Lives Matter’ don’t realize that the goal of saying ‘Black Lives Matter’ is to eventually make ‘All Lives Matter’ a true statement.

[pamelarivas]

Cubellas, Barcelona

September 2015