diary entry from when i first broke up with my ex boyfriend (i fell straight into his arms a few days later)
tell me, why have i memorised your grandmaโs name?
have you already moved on to the next young thing?
and does she love you? what do you want from her?
is it just sex? would you move countries for her?
and i donโt care enough to ask you, but itโs gonna happen again
that you have a girl fall over just to get up immediately
and i wonโt be there when it happens,
but tell me, will you hold her close?
once youโve crushed all of her dreams
to be your favourite and need you most?
will you be honest, will you tell her
that youโre broken and fucked over,
that you cannot truly love,
that youโre a man without emotions?
will you tell her to stay quiet while sheโs passionate and free?
will you tell her to bend over, cause to you thatโs everything?
will you stop her while sheโs dancing, will you make her feel so blue?
iโm not saying that you have to, but itโs what i felt with you
i still lay down and picture her inside my head
that while i was aching to see you again
there was another girl that caught your eye and claimed your bed
oh wonโt you say sorry?
wonโt you whine and cry in vain
wonโt you bend down on both your knees, and wonโt you please ask me to stay?
wonโt you beg me, baby? beg for me!
beg for love and beg to end your immaturity
youโre the most heartless man iโve ever made
oh wonโt you beg me, darling? beg for me!
let me see that all you want to have is me!