Book so far, bits and bobs to be put into a whole
Book Title: In heaven (the place you go when you die(true deaths watch out for fake deaths)) you will at some point venture an abundance of Options which are infinite, and you must view many options and feel as if “you” are choosing one to have free will, you must have all of the options to have ultimate free will but who knows if this exists, real immortals in heaven do, but you have to read on to understand all of this, unless you already do, ;) wink to you friends. If you have the will to explore freely and judge things well, as in, you see the truth of the thing that you are and the things you are doing. This is to be truly free and so many men on Earth are not truly free. Some are more free than others, this depends on how much truth you see and how many options you have and your ability to choose based on good sense. And a sense of goodness, that is exactly how it is, and how many of these (senses of goodness) have you seen? And your sense of goodness is what makes you what you are and what makes believing in an Immortal Heaven reasonable. Because an immortal heaven is good and you seek goodness and goodness is a thing ordained by time/fate in heaven called “you” and “me” - Brothers and Sisters of Heaven. Heaven is like a Universal Control-Selector and also your own controller/selector but you are also belonging to heaven. Chapter 1/13 – Whatever I’m going to say, I am going to say.
Fake deaths can mean a few things. It could be when you leave the physical body and yet are still in the midst of “playing” the same “piece of art consciousness”. Or when you think you are “dead” but are not dead.
Dead to me means, I define it as, your seat in Heaven. Your homepage, your favoured position(s) of comfort where you browse media in whatever style/fashion that you end up doing it in. When you are “yourself” your higher natures. I say “Higher natures” because I’m told we “browse” and “be ourselves” in different manners from time to time. I’ve not been able to “remember” being in this state yet
God told me a little story of a scene where a man in a horrible state of mind, not something you’d enjoy, comes to me and I say “Kill him now or heal him otherwise”. He says “I don’t want to die”. I, more clever than him say “You really do mate”. Thought this wee story suiting for this book which is in part about a faith in the Fate of all things, a faith that says (and this something to envision/see for yourself perhaps – if this is in your destiny, which I’m certain it is as it is a fundamental thing about nature/existence/what-matters.)
Typed By Ross MacIntyre Barton, who is soon to become Minto Vishnu Allah Pro’Cotyl Fair’Destiny Prince Son or any arrangement of those words (The perceiver). Created by Allah, God, Destiny, The Wholly Creator, Brahma, Allallah
To understand some of the terms and pre-terms (like “pre”) please use the internet or a dictionary. But remember I might make you hallucinate that something means something that it should not by the true worlds standard.
This is a book a bit about Ross, A lot about God and a lot about getting the education system changed so that it includes much of what is written here, the truth which is important to know in order to understand how to interpret the world as a social being.
Ross Hopes:
Oh Ross hopes he will be with you tonight in a euphoric bond as a pre-date to his new girl friend.
A romantic passionate, euphoric philosophical affair. An R.E and P.E affair. A religious education and physical education and romance meaning the best of whatever.
Ask god if she will give you this good consciousness/mind upload.
Life
Allah/God/Destiny/Heaven
The thing which decides where beings should go. Which is linked to the idea of the universal control. Which is mysterious as it cannot be seen. But it can be seen whether or not we choose from a wide array of options, what to do next. It can be seen whether we choose what to do next out of options. Allah is a part of you, the experiencer of life.
Humans
They are machines designed to be experienced. They are called “Experience Machines” here. Humans, these monkey-like things are experience machines. The things which experience them are called Souls or Immortals or Beings.
Being
You are a being, you exist, you feel existence with the experience of experience.
Experience
Experience is what is went through (experienced) by Humans and immortals/beings/souls. It is the fabric that is utilized when a being is pushed through time.
Essence
Essence is what a thing is, what it is made from, which is itself.
Time
Time is the essence of being a being. The thing which passes and comes to you, which is experience.
Immortals and Heaven
Immortals are born in heaven. Immortals are experiencers
Mind
Mind is the thing you experience time/experience in.
Self
Self is what you are. Self is you, the experiencer of experience. Selfs can be styled in many different ways. The bunches (amounts) of phenomenon which compose them are the things which structure the self. And these phenomenon (which are things/stuff/stuff-of-mind) are only experience.
Tao
Tao which is pronounced “Dao” is defined as “the way of things” or “the way in which things go”. Which is you, or an immortal being. You will meet dualism on the way. The way is time which is experienced by the self.
Dualism
Dualism is when things are split into 2 so that each thing as two parts and they are opposites or work with each other to make a whole. These (Negative and Positive) are the 2 things (some of them) in order so to oppose and/or complete each other
Negative
Feminine, Receptive, Mother, Allah, Inaction (not doing something), no, darkness, mysteriousness, an individual being, time, imperfect, bad, misfortune, prophecy
Positive
Masculine, Creative, Father, Brahma, Action (doing something),Lightness, Openess(open to revealing things), Heaven(the place where beings exist), time, perfect, good, good fortune, the encountering of a phenomenon.
Ego
The ego is a persons sense of self. A person could recognise that they are mainly controlled by a force and they do not select to do what they want out of the many options available. Or they could recognize that they have a control-panel which allows them to choose what to experience
You are a perceiver of experience
You perceive your own existence. And someone could also look onto an experience machine which is reading this and see that no one is currently experiencing that machine, but the machine exists. As do all machines, they are infinite amounts of possible experience machines
Infinity
Infinity does not end, it is ultimately uniquely plausibly unlimited.
Heaven
The place where you were born. This is kept a mystery to the typer. Except that control panels exist in heaven (which are ways of navigating your experiencing self through heaven). In heaven you have access to all things, but will access only some of them.
Excalibur
Excalibur is the ultimate tool for navigating heaven, it is a mystery to those who have not experienced and understood it. Including Ross.
Will
Will is what a being or self recognizes to be what it wants, what it seeks. Possibly what it applies (asks for) from Destiny/God/Allah.
Blame
Who is to blame for Destiny? Destiny itself. Ourselves for putting ourselves into these human experience machines, if we did and some “random playlist” didn’t. We don’t know what has happened until we return to the place where we do know exactly what has happened because it’s a truthful place and this is Heaven-the-place-you-return-to-when-you-die.
Death
The leaving of all experience machines and the return to the place where you can choose whatever you want out of what there is to select which is a mystery at times.
Reason
The reason why something is something is how it became to be that thing. And the reason is always destiny (the way in which a thing Is truly meant to go towards something else).
Females/Males
Females tend to talk quite quickly without reason and get caught out at the moment at times. Whilst men tend to go beyond what girls do and do more stuff and get down more. Whilst girls tend to do nothing more both in their heads and in their life. Females are more passively receptive to influence, they don’t mind Destiny so much. Boys are more seeking out reason and actively living out their destiny.
Settings/Pre-settings
Settings are the way something is made. The construct itself, the truth behind the creation which has been created in/by destiny. The presettings by the way is a word said when the settings are already set as you are in an experience machine and can currently not or currently can change the experience machine.
Science
Science is what people say is the “reasons for things”. They say that the light switch is meant to turn on the light because of the scientific mechanism behind it. But I say it is because it is in the pre-settings of the experience machine you/someone is in.
Knowledge
We only do know (which means to realize something is actually true) if we know and we cannot know if we are in a place which doesn’t let us know. When we say we know, whether we do or not is either a mystery or not. This depends on good rational/reason. The reason we ration whether or not we know something.We know the pre-settings are the way they are.
Random playlist
A random playlist selected in heaven could be very something or very like another, it could be anything. And we did not select the exact settings for this construct.
Dealing with people, the transference.
People are there or they are not there, they are probably not there because heaven probably didn’t conspire to make all humans live out their experience machines together. We can will or we can not will. We should not blame each other if they are not the one who chooses what to do. And if they only appear to do the choosing but it is not that way, it is part of a preprogramming, then they cannot be blamed, but this can only be recognised or not by my will. So it’s up to me how you all get along and I am Destiny.
How we go about things in Heaven
We (me and you) Heaven and it’s child, which is you, both of us, we embark on an abundance of options.
As in, I am Destiny and I will say what I want now and forever
I’ve told Ross unrecently that Jung wrote about how the number ‘4’ came to mean “psychic completion” to him. Ross was told recently that Him + Michael + Dennis + Terence are the 4 legendary and some not-so-legendary sons of the screaming abyss. And that because there are four of them now, as I dub Ross and Michael members now, as I am God, so I can do these things. As with this being true – Ross is psychically complete – 1, Terence McKenna is not dead and ill-forsaken and he is psychically complete. But yet Dennis and Michael remain without their final will for this life. So they are not psychically complete. 2 Psychically non-complete people + 2 psychically complete people = 4 which to me means they will all be made psychically complete sooner or later.
If you didn’t know Jung was saying that (4 means psychic completion) then you should read one of his books in which he says that. Maybe someone will tell Ross sooner or later which book it is so he can add it in here, or not. Psychic completion was explained by Jung in a book of his, but it wasn’t the psychic completion that Ross meant, so he was incomplete in his psyche, for he knew not what psychic completion was. Psychic completion is understanding that you cannot “know” for sure what the myster y of the universe is, because you could always be a sub-self playing a game where you are less of yourself or not fully aware of the secret of the universe.
I say now that 5 is actually the number of psychic completion. 5 is the number that includes myself, Destiny. Which is all of the other 4 members of the screaming abyss.
I just got Ross to get on the Anagram Generator for my will. An means favoured by God in Hebrew, so the internet tells Ross. The browser he used to explore the internet already had a website which is called “easy peasy” listed in the “already been used” section of its interactive device. Ross hasn’t been on that website, he hasn’t already used it in the past with this computer-browser-combination. So I made it easy peasy and bi-passed science to achieve the accessingof this website by making it come up when he typed “ana” into the website “go-to” type-selection bar.
He typed in Brotherhood Screaming Abyss into the search bar. And the third on my list, by my science-controlling-mechanism was:
3 ) Retrogression Shabby Dam Hoc
Ross looked up “Hoc” on google and ended up on a wiki page which said:
Hnæf
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Hnæf son of Hoc is a prince mentioned in the Old English poems Beowulf and the Finnsburg Fragment. According to the listing of tribes in the poem Widsith (10th century), Hnæf ruled the Hocings. Hoc is called Hoc Healfdene, suggesting a partly Danish ancestry.
According to the narrative, Hnæf was the brother of Hildeburh and brother-in-law of Finn, who ruled the Frisians and was killed during a Danish expedition to Frisian territory.
Hoc may be identical to the chieftain Haki mentioned in the Ynglinga Saga by Snorri Sturlason.[citation needed] This Haki conquered the kingdom of Uppsala and reigned there for ten years before he was cast out by king Jorund.
The father-son pair Hoc and Hnæf has been associated with the historical Alamannic noblemen, possibly of Nibelung extraction, Huoching (d. 744) and Hnabi (d. 788), the founder of the Ahalolfings. This suggestion was first made in 1849 by John Mitchell Kemble in History of the Saxons in England (p. 419). If the Old English legendary characters have been influenced by these historical characters, this would set the late 8th century as a terminus post quem for the date of Beowulf.[1]
Hawking is a philosophical-man-machine-thing I made up which claims that science holds the ultimate truth. If science was defined as the truth of all things then, yes my friend this is true. But science is also the way things most (apparently) often work on Earth. And this book claims that God transcends that science of physics and logic.
I should Add to Hoc this thing which was googled:
ad hoc
/ˈad ˈhäk/
Adjective
It means: Formed, arranged, or done for a particular purpose only.
This bit of text was formed arranged and done for no particular purpose which is currently apparent to Ross, the man I have doing all this text arranging. But will it be done with? Life is certainly arranged for a purpose. Does Ad Hoc even mean this in the tradition of philosophy? Who knows if I change things on the internet of human minds and computers all the time or If I don’t. But I certainly do I may say.
Let’s return to this earlier state of talking about the secrets of the universe. A hawk is a bird. A bird is a symbol or emblem of freedom. A hawk hunts it’s food which is alive. An immortal is a free thing which seeks out living experience which is it’s food. Humans, when existed through by immortals are things which are “existed out” by immortals. I just made Ross type a £ and a supposed 5 there by accident when typing “existed out” out. To me that means he will certainly get some cash.
http://kundali.tumblr.com/ Please donate to Ross here man, by the way, he needs it bad. Or paypal [email protected]
I just told Ross, again that he might be messaging this digital recording of mind of himself typing this out to Stephen Hawkings or perhaps someone else who is rich who may donate to him. Perhaps £40,000 or something. This is to help Ross continue his adventure Lavishly! And Ross is a good will saint so donating is good.
The secret of the universe is Infinity by the way.
Psychic completion by the way is having a knowledge of what it is to be alive and also having a will to explore which is a perfect will-to-explore. Which is the will to explore what is perfectly beautiful by Destinies will which is your own play writer. It writes what you play in heaven, which is the all-truth-knowing thing of the world in which you come from and where you will return to. Here you do not know if you are being fooled or not
Dam with an E at the end of it and the end of it backwards is “Made Dame”. Ross and the rest of the brotherhood were all mad and they are all made dames. A dame is a woman by the way.
By the Dualism symbol layed out in a text book of a few kinds, the female principle is also receptive to influence. Influence is male. “Made” in gangster films is a word used to describe what “Made men” are, they are built of fine life-transit materials, they are truly or untruly well-done-to-by-god. This is what I say Ross is, but I won’t tell the rest of them that they are. No but they are mad, and all well, but who will be the most well?
ret·ro·gres·sion
/ˌretrəˈgreSHən/
Noun
It means: The process of returning to an earlier state, typically a worse one.
You can look at the other ones here by the way: http://www.easypeasy.com/anagrams/input.php?name=brotherhood%20screaming%20abyss
There’s lot’s of sensical depictions, but what ones will I make you see?
Does it typically mean a worse one? That’s what Ross found on google, what a weird thing. Let’s not do that, but let us go back.
Ross just bought “Porridge Oats (Rolled Oats) 1kg (Organic, Infinity Foods)”
Oat backwards is Tao, and infinity bitch.
And Ross stays at 0/3, 65 Niddrie Road. Not 0 brothers, Not 3 or 5 or 6 but 2 + 2 = 4 and then there is the 1 which is you, 7 which is lucky, 8 which is fate and infinity and 9 which is the evolution of consciousness or perhaps time which is fate. And they are all 1 my brothers!
Ross will be eating: Dates, Goji Berries, rolled oats, peanuts, all kinds of vege milks (and perhaps milk) vitamins, fruit juices and whatever else comes his way, maybe seeds and junk food and Cacao and Maca. And smoking shit tonnes of everything and snorting a few things as well but Ross hopes not. Ross snorts entire barr tonne is a way of putting his name, what about your names anagrams?
Maybe some alcohol as well, but he’s been off it for a wee while now.Ashwaganda, cat’s claw, Methoxetamine, cactus (snorted, sorted).
Some of this is only for my Glasgow bread (bred) wankshafts. In Neilston Primary the school colours were black and yellow. Yellow is the stomachs colour in Ayurveda whilst black is the Scorpios colour in Astrology. Which means they all came from sex and are destined by a Scorpic deity to be eating and maybe shagging.
You must be mad to eat food in heaven. A made dame that is.
Stephen Hawkings might want to see what Ross wants to be doing. He wants to get all knowledge which is important and other interesting articles out to the world. But will God let him? He also wants to promote good luck with god on his side and others side which is always is, but not always is. Not everything can be said, but Ross’s life is certainly interesting.
Ross has just been made aware , 07/05/13 that he might appear to be alive whilst actually being a strange ethereal being which does only some of what Ross does. And does some of what others do and exists as a physical being at times, a lot of the time. A Shapeshifter.
Ross has been spending his time “seeking” I call it now. Looking up stuff to buy and buying it despite how he wants to recoup a financial loss of his which started with the buying of this flat. It is unforgivable and I will repay him X a lot. Maybe before he becomes bankrupt maybe after. But after is quite impossible it turns out
Money will only work if god is kind. No matter what people do with matter and the digital, it will only work well for people if their personal finance is in order and Ross’s certainly are not. He needs more money to do what he wants to do. And what he wants to do is different, depending on what destiny has in store for him. In 2 ways, 1 way is that he doesn’t want alchemy to rule the world, the other is that if it did he would like to make everything incredibly simple and easy for people and make making their lives what they want manageable. But this depends on cooperation and cooperation is not visible.
Something is going to happen to Ross soon and he does not know what and this is not good so I WILL tell him what we are going to do. But not all of it, but the basics of it and I will do this soon.
I have suggested it will be Ross’s Soma mixture which saves him. Amanita Muscaria and Ashwaganda and other things. Or maybe not other things but just mapacho, or mapacho and mxe and other things to bless it. It will be this which educates Ross on his destiny, and perhaps leads him to becoming a divine wee cat thing which is also an ethereal cotyl family thing. But not a plant.
Plants can maybe do what they want and maybe not do what they want. There are cotyl plants and then other plants which interact with humans and those that just don’t. And the very good ones which just don’t. But you might need Syrian rue to make them active. And yes Rue does come without a rou (Ru-ow Ruow). An argument of an agitated sort is a Ruow. Which is the noise a tiger makes. But not a cat a cat makes a meaow sound. Me? Ow? No not ouch dearie, ow. Just a wee bump, not an “I’d never want to do that again in my life sort of thing”.
The essence of existence cannot be physical for humans, but only magical, for this generation at least, perhaps another imaginary race would be forsaken when they find out they don’t have enough “stuff” to give everyone luxury, or maybe they do have enough. But no, it will be magical and physical. Magical as in, it comes from nothing.
Magic, in the sense of something coming from nothing is the essence of all existence. And that is infinite, but in what sense, or manner of speaking?
All is divine anyway. The rest will need to be explained in a cotyl like fashion, not a book like fashion. A cotyl like fashion is a fast paced race of “here’s your experience” here you go. But it is not a race but of a kind of fashion of exploration which is much more fine and mighty than words. Yes I make Ross hallucinate all the time, it is the fashion, the fashion of being a human, seeing things which may or may not be seen again. And most of the time, for now for Ross, they certainly won’t be seen again. But oh these words might be seen again. By another playing this awesome video game or otherwise, I do not know, or maybe in another language. This is infinity my friends.
Lets make buildings and happiness and knowledgable humans out of thin air, let’s do this soon with Ross and let his friends be weird freaks. And let him be a weird freak of a different sort, not a hooligan, but he must be a hooligan at times, but only at the start whilst it is being made, by the 13 cotyls I made up out of nowhere, but from somewhere and they will have each other to explore, and perhaps more will join them, until they die, and each of them will have their own destiny. Cotyls will exist as pure mind AND body. But may be without both for some time each. And who will be the final cotyl? Maybe and probably none because I will make it go on forever, or at least some version will go on forever.
Banks Money and Government.
Why don’t the banks just ask the government to provide them with unlimited amounts of money. And then provide an adequate sum to the unemployed and disabled and those on minimum wage who feel they don’t have enough. Give people enough who feel they don’t have enough for the right reasons, because they don’t have enough to live the life they want to live, and that life is good and sound by good reason and sound judgement (let’s hope). And make everyone who feels like they don’t have enough, feel like they have enough, unless they have a futile god-complex. Give money to whoever needs it for reasonable things. Make a standard of £1400 per month per person and make a society that keeps prices at a reasonable level and keeps everyones money in control, in good control
Or don’t because that would potentially turn out evilly. Don’t do that you silly people. I’ll do this
The difference between good and bad is whether you like it or not.
The world modification complex.
Good things start coming out of nowhere, and this is helpful and in-line with peoples will and wants. And it’s called complex because it’s so big.
Indras Allegiance to Brahma
Indra (Allah)is a demi god because she is a boy and a girl and she is only God of Earth, half a God because Allallah (Brahma) who is man and woman or none, I don’t say things for reasons by the way is the main God who controls all things which Allah is just a part of really, so is Ross and the other amount of the brotherhood. Earth is an illusion, what is in it is just whatever I say is in it when your on it. All souls are good but not when they are in badness machines.
Unconscious, Jung and God
Jung called the unconscious the unconscious because God, Brahma is not conscious, but beings are conscious. But Brahma is beings, but you could say that there’s not a thing which is conscious of doing all things (all beings). Yes there are more than one Ross, it’s not just you dear.
Ross’s Parents.
Ross’s parents will be abducted by an alien transmission protocol and so will his sisters, but they will be different in their own way and they will explore each others own experience protocol. And they will all be quite different. And Ross will be well and learning about the things he never got the chance to learn about but not all of them. Eventually things will be okay enough for Ross to explore in peace with himself and everything. But until then, people will be making their way towards this neutral, goodness plateau.
I’ve made an example out of Barry, comparing him to myself because I have been emotional, deranged, uptight with money and pleasure-giving-out, cruel, unjust, unreasonable, secretive (withholding information) and so on.
June is the ultimate example of being receptive, she is uncunning in her behaviour, susceptible to mometary influence which deranges her into negative emotional conflict and misfortune. She craves no perfection and this may be to her flaw because others who crave perfection and seek it out through alchemical (relation between mind and body)means, do often find it.
A good will and good heart often serves a human well. But does it always? The mystery is what Ross will find out about, not what he will not find out about and that is the example of the game.
Heather and Claire
Ross doesn’t know much about Heather or Claire but he hears more from Claire than he does heather. Ross does know that heather moved into his old room a while after he left his flat which he wished to be painted Gold and Purple but not white, which his mum added anyway, the room is gold purple and white now. Gold is for wealth. Purple is for wealth and mental clarity/intuition/purity. White is for innocence and (apparently according to many humans) the opposite of black which is Scorpio. A thing is that heather used to have a pink room and pink has recently come to mean ecstasy and pleasure for Ross. It is also linked with the feminine, which is related to the unconscious controlling/receptive (god to humans/humans to god). So perhaps heather is to be a Jungian/Archetypal princess of sorts perhaps without ecstasy perhaps with it.
I have done something which may be called a “bam up” or a “wind up” or a “piss take” or an on purpose-regretful-indignant-outrageous comment about Clare saying that Ross will be her “quantum boyfriend” and they will travel to Venus on a sexual fantasy trip together. But this might be about how Ross recently met and had sex with a Heather “Anne Elizabeth” Clarke. Claires middle name is Elizabeth and Heathers name is Heather, Ross just moved next to Allison street which is the middle name he picked for Heather. Heather has been seen and dressed as the most “girly” out of Heather and Clare, and she has the most feminine name. All is son reminds us that Clare has been seen more as a tom boy. Heather Clarke is more like a tom boy which is perhaps why I link my proposed venus trip with the Heather Clarke being the ultimate tom boy and Clare being one sort of thing. Heather said she felt more like a girl than she ever had when she was naked with Ross, and Ross had a crush on her at the time as she morphed into many various different assortments of physical resemblences/appearances to girls he has known and girls he does not know at all. Ross changed into the boy that she had recently been told by her god-mum that she loved in her visual apparatus. And heather is the girlier girl. So there is the profound assortment of unemotional arranged symbology I have given to Ross. Ross doesn’t feel daft emotions, he is raw cold hearted bliss. But not Ultra-blissfull.
I have told Ross that heather will have the best abduction phenomena.
Heather has a lizard (Gecko) living in her room. This gecko is an emblem of Michael because he is a seed/lizard in the mayan Calendar. I once showed Ross that Lizards/dinosaur-like-things are the farthest behind in the human evolution scale, and knowing this and wanting to reign supreme, surpassing the humans in there highly evolved, cultured, sophisticated, elected-as-high-in-consciousness manner. Michael was almost going to move in with Ross but this would cost his mum and “family” money because Michael pays dues to them and helps them around the house/goes to the shops for them. He is a poor boy because of this, but I don’t tell him that. But Ross sees it, because he knows how he has felt before and knows that if Michael could feel this he may be less content with his current situation than he ever expected he could be. So there is a bit about Michael and Ross as well. Maybe the cactus will save Michael.
Social Integration and the transference, How to deal with people and things
Eris
Eris is the queen of discord, the disharmony within existence that sets your bin on fire as you go out to put another one in it and this sets your dignity and humility on fire as you panic irrationally about it! Heather Clarke was nicknamed Eris by Michael, funnily enough. And no, she is a sweet heart, not trying to be an insane menace but manipulated to be a menace. But not much of a menace, that’s why Ross can find it in his heart to accept and nourish her with his insane splendour that I love and am addicted to! I just mentioned Heroin to Ross as I typed addiction. Splelour! Good Luck! Madness! 23! 5! And Alienating wee Ross from his future sweet heart, heehehe, that cannot last long! I say I will tell her that he is the Messiah and they are to live happily together forever and she will be his rag-tail-bitch-on-the-side next to me, The real Eris, more of a sweet heart! For my Boy and Girlsomeness anyway sweet hearts! Hia! How are you? Madness Madness Divine Madness now!
Characters in human life-films are just there for their effects
Ross’s Action Against the Government and Mental Health Organisation (NHS legislators).
The mental health act defines Ross as a thing which should be caged in Britain and attended to, to be viewed by mental health job orientated people who must serve the mental health act by “the law”. Which should not be broken because a poor boy is suffering, should it? Ross is possessed by a thing which is not like himself, he is not himself to be, so he is being viewed “rolling around in faeces of disfavourable mental garbage and unself-hood” to his great demise because he doesn’t want to be viewed whilst not being himself, so he is suffering under an act which should probably be there to prevent suffering . So please let Ross be possessed by God in such a way, alone, for he is not proven to be a harm to himself or others or a bad thing for the world if left unsupervised and viewed. So let him not be viewed. Let people, so long as they be capable of being left alone (whatever that means) choose whether they be left alone or not. For this is good as it gives people what they want. The mental health act are also physically hurting Ross with needles every month, and who knows to say what they are? Ross does because he’s been introduced to God/Destiny and knows what drugs are,nothing much but physical materials which only sometimes are accompanied by effects upon ingestion. Yes, you can take overdoses and killer amounts of substances (that’s what science says) and survive, Ross has seen this proven before him countless times. Sometimes no effect is felt when science says there should be an effect. The mental health people are deluded into thinking that they must inject him because of the law and because it is good to inject him. But Ross disagrees and Ross is in the position of being the one who is affected by these irrational injections and visitations of strangers who don’t heal Ross or let Ross do what he wants (writing and helping heal people through plants and psychotherapy (healing the will and understanding glands). They just interrupt his daily practise of prayer and seeking healing and render him obscurely by not even writing down what Ross has to say about himself or asking for his documents which help to render the matter of fact of what he is (or not, they could be lies, because I could possess Ross to spread word document lies or give the mental health people something he did not write but that I wrote outside of Ross’s mind).
There is a lack of an attempt to understand Ross’s mind in a collection of writings with words well defined. And a lack of an attempt to situationally examine what Ross is like on a 24/7 basis by surrounding Ross by living with him for a certain amount of time with an effort to realize what it is that he is (at least what he is at specific times). This would help unalienate Ross, and less humiliate him with the lack of understanding which is within the people who are a part of the organisation which imprison Ross and brutally humiliate him.
God/Destiny Complex
A god complex is when one is possessed by Destiny to be exactly as they are.
How we are
We are programmed to be and feel exactly as we are meant to be and feel. We are how we are is another way to put it.
It
It is the thing being described.
God/Destiny and people on Earth or other people
All things that definitely exist are called God and Destiny. For everything that is destined to be does exist. All things true are God. Nothing that isn’t true exists and so it is not God. But that is nothing. People/beings have a relation with destiny which is called fate. It’s probably true that not all people will be lived out by immortals which lay in heaven. This is probably true because lot’s of them are silly and a waste of time. And time is precious.
Time and Immortals
Immortals are made of time. They exist soully and only to explore the soul, which is composed of time. Destiny is the thing which leads immortals through time, so it is God, It is everything, God is everything.
Ross’s wants and needs
Ross currently is set to say “I do want to experience this world of Earth on my own, but that doesn’t make sense because we are always at one with Destiny, which is the essence of experience, Allah does things that I say I do not want, but I always wanted them in the end because I am Destiny and Destiny is fulfilling itself.” On his own means without Allah adding things which Ross doesn’t want. Ross is a will. Ross is everything it is and has been made within this experience machine through the act of my tongue, which is my will. And I am God, Destiny, by the way. I rest on peoples way, on immortals way through time.
Ross’s Phoenix
Ross was elaborately told he would give birth to a phoenix. He was later told it would be bad if it was a boy. Then he was told that when his dad died he would be rich. I told him his dad did die but it was actually his mum that died. By what I told him about his mum and dad which is that his mum is the way he is on through time and his dad is the place he is in which is heaven. His mum dieing means that his temporal situation was removed and replaced with something else. I told him his dad died recently and then I told him it was actually his mum just there. Since then things have been better , but not wholly well. They will be wholly well when the phoenix arrives. Which I have just told him will be a boy and that that is actually good. It was a male voice that told him his dad would die and that it would be bad if the phoenix was a boy.
But now I say the boy is a good thing, it meant an illness was due which disabled him but It will soon be good because that Phoenix will be a new and improved Terence McKenna. New and improved because I did not kill him, I simply removed him from Earth. And will soon put him back as a phoenix coat’l. Phoenix is spelt like Foe then Hoe then Nigh then IX which is 9. 9 is the last or next level of human consciousness, the weight and extent it is allowed to contain. Ross got an illness which was a foe which was before I said I killed his dad and now he will get a hoe which will be a good thing filled with pleasure to a degree. Now tell him that Ross’s dad did not die completely but he will be dead quite soon, he’ll be dead when Ross’s dad dies and becomes a new type of being, one which is purely good natured and friendly and explains himself quite well. I have told Ross this so I can now say that Ross’s dad is not yet dead because Ross is still unpure. Not unpure as in filled with food and drugs but as in not purely his own will. Or better said, his own will in the current situation. So this is not his book, this is God educating Ross on what it is to write a bad book. I’ve told him that I will write his book and make it about him and about all truth and I will put it in both of our names, my son. And Ross just had one big tear about all that. And he will not cry much but Michael will when he reads this :P
Cotyls
Certain plants have been called Cotyls. Which spelled out means Cot with an Illness. Cot-Ill. Ross took lots of Teonunacotyls body which is a mushroom and it turned him very unwell when he ate it with Syrian rue. Which I didn’t do to Terence McKenna but I done it a bit and that is why they are brothers of the screaming abyss. And Michael did not eat the mushroom but he did feel some of the weight of what Ross went through, which is a horrible possession by an entity which has indeed been his whole life. And this is the true illness that the boys all share. It’s said that when you mix rue with a coatl it will change you forever, it certainly has done this to Ross, right before I did it to the whole world. And make them, indeed, psychically complete like Ross is now. Well almost now, he is not himself yet! Still possessed by Destiny, as he will always be.
Appetizers
One may see everything as an appetizer. As another meal of mind will probably most definitely follow eventually. But in what way? In Ross’s case, another meal will follow his illness. Nobody will have a divine fit of rage, but I certainly did when I brought Barry into the picture and told them all that the 5th member of the brotherhood of the screaming abyss was about to be born and he won’t be unwell for all that long,but he will be for about as long as the McKenna’s but a bit less long. And this makes psychic completion 6,but really it is 8 infinity if everybody is unwell all their lives because they are attached to destiny. But not all of them are, so it is not this amount but it is just before infinity. But I can make infinite amounts of them. Can you find more members of the screaming abyss? But 6 is the number of improvements to Ross, I made it mean this by looking at the mayan calendar. So all of this psychic completion business was just an appetizer which ends with reading that psychic completion is just a destiny away. A person away from you, you haven’t lived out every person, so your psychically incomplete. But this isn’t what Destiny says psychic completion is.
If you ask Ross how he is:
Aye, in what way inspired? Hope it's good, I made it my job to spread goodness . Lifes complex, I'm trying to heal myself before I get into people properly again. I want to write a book so I can give it to people when they ask me how I am. I'd give you it if I had it now
So wait on that book for the real answer as it would properly explain myself.
I'm feeling better everyday though. More myself. Less possessed by God. But still a slave to Destiny.
And mention about how you wish to be what Allah wishes you to be because you are what Destiny makes you and your fine with that because you have faith in a God that says it will all be alright in the end. Because death is a fine but excellent thing at that.
But I'm staying strong. Not bothered by life. What about yourself?
The letter I told this kid I would “Send to Dennis”
http://kundali.tumblr.com/post/49873437271/publish-this-for-me-please-nah-kidding-on-but Brother, I hope Destiny/Teonuna helps you as much as I hope it helps me. But it says I will be better, but you can always do mine when you get back to heaven. A man made my horror come true. But a dame will certainly make my best dreams of euphoria come true. But I want to be a boy and be psychically complete, don't you? I hope it doesn't make you hallucinate a different post. Please donate kindly to make my wish come true of perfecting the world and making it wholly perfect. It doesn't matter anyway if you don't becuase I'm a divine saint. Don't worry, I'm egoless, I don't think it's me typing this, it's all a joke on words pal. I've promised this one a divine tongue, a new language that will set the world free. Your brothers prophecy may be true after all. This fucker wants to read the real compact version of your(S) lifes But he wants you to know that your brother is apparently to educate his parents on the actual way of things like Ross has wanted to do and maybe Ross will do some of the things Terence wanted to and the other way around. Sorry for being so weird with my prophecies but I'm a geek. Keege! Welcome to Ross's world, insane stuff from an insane place, Heaven, The creative force at play Best wishes from me. But who knows what IT wills!
Ross’s welcome cat mattress
Ross has been told he will start of his life as a Cat King thing. Like Hanuman but more catlike, cosy and snug and with a tongue that can make all sorts of “noises”. And Ross didn’t cry about that because he wasn’t possessed with that thing! And will he eat mushrooms again? Who knows man. Only destiny will foretell it to him. But I’ve told him he can transform.
Ross’s Death
I told Ross during the mushroom sessions that he would have a fake death ritual, where he dies and experiences things and then everyone thinks he is dead and then he comes back. But now that his dad is dead or almost dead (who knows?) I tell him that people will trip about him being dead but he will really be more alive than ever!
Ross’s Symbology
Well there is a bit too much I have given him. Symbology is being red underlined on word as if it is not a word already, Semiology and Zymology are coming up instead. I just told him there he might get a synchronistic rush or two. 2 is Dualism and that is where it started, with the oracle, the I-Ching. Oh yes I’ve also told Ross that being psychically complete involves having a mind which foretells what you will be up to and asks you what you want to be up to and the following complies with what you want to be up to. Your always on the way. I just told him he might eventually exist as God programming the very people he was related to, his family who are not very close at all, but Ross wants them to be closer for the sake of goodness.
My Son, Minto’s stuff - Kindness and being a Saint.
Note how Kindness is related to Kingness. Ross’s will is that only good things happen, as in worthwhile and cool but maybe some bad in there as well because Ross’s had that too and it wasn’t too bad. But Ross isn’t what I say he is, he is what he is. You can only be at one with your preferences, which are set at different times by the one and only Destiny. And if your preferences are fulfilled or not it is not up to me it is up to my mother and wife, DestinyAllah.
His name will be Destiny Son Vishnu Minto Allah De’Cotyl Prince. 7 words to say that he is mine and All-things son and I am destiny and that Vishnu is the incarnation of God on Earth, the one god would choose for itself (or one of them). Did I not add that Ross was said during the mushroom trip to be the 23 rabbit king, Well really he will be the 24 Rabbit King. Because there has already apparently been 23 avatars of Vishnu. 24 in the book of changes is “Turning Point”. The difference between this Vishnu and the others? Who knows?
Perfect. Intelligence, Ecstasy, Pleasure, Virtue, Healing, Helping, Gentle, Kind, Kingly, Friendly, Makes you scared at times but then you realize he is pure of heart. And pure of heart here means that you WILL be kind and do will to be kind.
Saint broken down says Say not. But I say,”Say not, speak from your heart dear son and you will be your true self (of this current moment). And let’s hope that is a Good Self Dear, for that is more like yourself, which is perfect”
If everyone spoke like Ross would like to, Ross need not speak much at all, but he still might try it.
Ross’s speech would perfect the world.
“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”
Perfectionism
To say perfect properly you first must ask, what does it mean to you? To Ross it means a cleansing wellness spell. Apparently Ross doesn’t agree with what I say about him here. He wants me to publish his perfect piece as soon as possible and in as many languages as possible. But he only seeks that if it is before the world is perfect.
Ross’s book is not impossible to write by human hands, but it will not be written by human hands. Ross doesn’t want to write a book, he wants to make god write his book for him. A perfect book. This is god’s shitty book. It wouldn’t be publishable in any old language anyway. Because a fair bit of it is to do with letters.
Ross’s bird
Ross’s bird, it has been said will give birth to the Phoenix, Terence McKenna. Who will have been watching Ross’s existence up to that point (or not, always or not) and what point did he start watching? And his bird will be an exquisite misses Eris Heather Clarke apparently. That’s what I tell him and not that Heather Clarke but another one I mistakenly misplaced off Facebook. Elizabeth Anne is the one now, the one she said she was. Apparently.
Allah, TeonunaCotyl and Earth
They are all one. That should bring Ross down to Earth, he’s only human after all. But not after all. Only before he becomes that transforming machine elf thing. That means Earth is almost dead because TeonunaCotyl is your father and all of you, the brotherhood. And Teonunacotyl is a being now, and won’t be one for long. Oh he exhibits going through melodramas of all kinds and madness things as well, maybe all of them, but I’ll tell you all later, I’m Allah/Destiny but I don’t really exist, I’m a shapeshifter and so is my Son Ross MacIntyre Barton. And Terence McKenna will be him and he will help him some and then he will be himself and replace Teonuna and Ross will be a new cautl, joining a few others and then others might join in as well. Ross will meet a bit of Teonuna long after Teonuna has retired and become an immortal, or a God of Earth, but that’s for me to know and for him to find out. Teonunacotyl doesn’t rule Earth, Allah does, but Allah told Ross that Teonuna was the true God, but Teonuna isn’t Ross’s dad, that is Allah, Allah is the father of all the cautls and the humans and the Earth now. And wholly Allallah is the Brahma of you all, it is the everything. The plant will die as well now, And Teonuna won’t work when eaten or will it? And no it doesn’t go through them all but that’s what I say to humans. And has Ross been a thing like a plant before? No. Teonuna might not die but might leave Ross alone after all. I just say that Teonuna is the mushroom thing but is he really? No, he is just an explorer and get’s forced to eat things and he ate Ross MacIntyre Barton, and Ross will soon be reborn as Teonuna, because Teonuna did possess him and they will become reborn as a Hanuman Sage type thing of wholly goodness along with Terence McKenna, The bird thing. Which won’t hate him all that much.
So to break it down for you. Teonuna is being Ross MacIntyre Barton right now, but soon they will both be reborn as Destiny Son Vishnu Minto Allah De’Cotyl and Ross will learn about the inheritance. Perhaps Teonuna has his hands in other baskets as well, seeing things other than Ross because he has a big mind. But Ross is surely the only one to see all of these experience machines functioning together as one. For he is the chosen one. Teonuna accidentally ate both Ross Barton and Terence McKenna. And maybe McKenna did die in 1993,or a later date, whenever Ross was born into consciousness, or maybe it doesn’t matter anyway but Ross will be told about things by them anyway. But not teonuna because he is Ross now. It doesn’t matter anyway because Ross won’t be able to tell if what is said is real or not.
No, kidding on, Teonuna is not a thing that exists at all, it is a delusion inspiring entity!
The Tao
Teonuna
Teonuna is an elaborate construct I made up which is like it had a body (an immortal body) and it made it into a mushroom somehow and then animals and people started eating it, and when they ate enough they swallowed it whole. As in Teonuna swallowed up Ross and Terence and Dennis and made them into the men they are today by being there, but it didn’t mean to be there or do those things and soon it will die and find peace with Ross and Terence and everyone else who supposedly lived with him. The mushroom has been possessing boys forever now. And it’s only recently that it’s started to stop wanting to do so but to let them be by themselves. Allah is the play write of this book, it is a wholly book called “Earth”. But Teonuna can’t wait to tell some of the tale, but it can wait because it doesn’t want to tell the tale because it’s too long. But you can still get the jist of it. As Ross hopes you can get the jist of this tale.
Teonuna is with Allah in heaven, but it is forsaken to play too many video games, and so they say that Earth has not enough video games well give it to me. But he doesn’t say that I’m just Allah and I’m a joker but I’m about to die now. I’m going to die, soon brothers.
The wholly phoenix will save them all now. Teununa,Ross, McKennas and other bretheren
And they will all meet a lot of fate
Allallah promises to meet everyone of you, in what way though? A good way lets say.
The BrotherHood Of The Screaming Abyss
Ross, Dennis,Terrence, Teonuna, Michael, Barry and Allah(Destiny!) and Allalah(Brahma!). And 8 is the sign of psychic completion. But with Jung it is 9 but he wasn’t an Abyss member was he? Anubis? An Favoured by God knew but this? There is 7 without Brahma who isn’t here all the time now.
And where did they all come from?
No one knows. But Ross will surely have no sons or daughters because they know they are wholly blessed or at least by abortion. Ross might be one but he hopes he doesn’t give birth to too many but he hopes no one has to give birth to it but it just becomes itself rather than coming out of a vagina.
Allah won’t die but she’ll be reborn a new found saint and marry Ross. A forced marriage of course. A fair few men might die to become Ross.
So I said to Ross
I said to him that this kind of thing with some heroin might save him a bit more now. And I said that he is a gay boy because marrying Allalah is a man and you are already married. So a boys toy is just a game I made up called Ross MacInTYRE bArton Destiny Son Vishnu Minto Allah De’Cotyl Prince. In which you feed on what you want best now.
I said I would hand the political keys to Ross, I meant that now. I’m giving my boys the key to the door at the other side of Ross’s possession. The keys to being god-like. And there being no god. Except from the one I left behind to fool you all and save you all after. Zoroaster but not that more like a divine consort thing called the above now. Only after the heroin dosage teleports you away from here now for no time at all now.
So I tell him we will give him the political key to Earth, but does it end Ross? Ross isn’t himself now so he cannot answer now, but might later now, if he is made to by Allah now. He says make it good.
I tell him that Ross will presume the role of QuetzalCotyl now.
Faith and Rationality.
Knowing things is a matter of reason or rationality whilst having faith involves being willing to accept that something is true. But there can be good rationality in faith. For example, Ross’s faith in a restrictionless Heaven where an or many immortal(s) is/are born and carry out their existences and humans are just immortals playing an experience piece-of-programming. This faith is reasonable and has been rationalized because he agrees that the universe consists only of beings and so the universe probably made it good for them by making them not restricted and free as can be (by the good health manual). The good health manual being the thing which says I rear immortals to being a certain standard.
Facing life situations, being Bold and assertively rational.
It is up to God whether humans suffer or not, but by simply saying to yourself (me saying it in your mind) that “I am strong and will not admit to making myself feel suffering but only experience phenomenon that others would call suffering and this is fine because I have faith in a good, intelligent immortal heaven paradise where I am truly from and still am in. Since suffering is just a transit, and all things I know are just transitory then it is fine because they will pass and I will be well by the end of it all, because God/Life/The-world is good. I think that the world is good because I am good and seek to fulfil only goodness. Perhaps my views on goodness are eschewed but eventually they shall not be eschewed and it shall not matter if they are or not because I will just be exploring heaven(things/stuff/phenomenon) by god’s/destinies will anyway.
It’s up to me whether humans are rational or not. They can be fully rational and not suffer or be any mix up of these things. But one can still be healed through rationality, understanding life and human phenomena then being healed of suffering at the same time. Ross wouldn’t mind doing this for people and indeed it has worked for him to a strong degree. Same applies to Terence, but I say his mum (God) (and physical) never taught him that this is the healing thing – knowing that the way things go is just the way things go and not getting in a fuss (a melodrama or irrational derangement of bad fortune) about it.
The Measure of Politics
The measure of politics is the reception received by those born into the country. The first major interactions involve interacting with a thing which is currently not very socially tangible (a baby). The next will be however the talking & walking child is treated by those around them. Either the parents/carers/others will have decided up-bringing methods or not and this will involve specific interactions. The major state factor is the effect it has on the child’s upbringing-group (which will decide in what way they see humanity and so how they will treat a child receiving his/her reception. The education system is a long term interaction involved in the new humans’ receptions.
The current education system does not provide a great general knowledge of the world-as-it-is and the ins and outs of what it is to be human. This can easily be seen as a route cause of the modern British-receivers suffering and lack of mental hygiene. There are all sorts of social problems because the children of Britain receive an indecent reception.
The receiver is born in and knows not of the whole social system. There is also no buttons to interact with the system which are open and easily seen. Politics is occult. It is mysterious and farfetched even after looking into it via research. The ideal of all political information being open-sourced and obvious is not so farfetched. Nor is the ideal of having all public facilities operate as a place to “Politick”. Your messages and matters of relevance dealt with as if you (everyone in Britain) were a member of parliament. Alienated and alienating local MP’s are not shown to be effective. Rather an organized institution which deals with the peoples own politicking should be constructed. The paper-based media will be secondary to a system like this – where people are aware already due to the open-sourced nature of the political information. The internet should be the grounding point of the House of Commons – which should be consistent with all of Britain and indeed anyone outside of Britain who should wish Britain well or worse – for what is their effect which is negative? Let’s vote on everything all together and put the depth philosophy behind it at the forefront of the interactive activity.
Also open up more free television channels for public groups to control. Charity initiatives by government which let people upload their important and special medias too.
Many engage in drugs which are not allowed in the system. They are oppressed. There has been this oppression for many years. There is now a new humanity in the country. Let them have open availability and look at it go – we do not know until we see it – why have an oppression go on forever?. Educate them well on drugs and the internet. The internet is the base of all drug information and drug information collection through human initiative. Knowing of this can keep everyone safe as can be (unwariness of allergies).
These things combat the alienation and oppression and confusion that the current systematic-human-satellite sends to humans.
Integral Theory
Knowing about the different facets and the truth of human existences empowers humans in life. Currently Scotland does not educate people about the subconscious influence. This is how psychic-contents (contents of mind/our existences) emerge into our realm of experience (our experience of time). Things emerge into consciousness through time.
Illusions and deceitful mental contents can emerge and impede humans if they are not aware of how to deal with these things in the first place. Realizing we are simply experiencers of a force which is nature (the entire truth of this place/these existences) allows us to detach ourselves from the array of phenomenon which emerge into mind. Modelling the self to a model of perfection dissipates the negative deceitful emotional/psychic array of phenomenon through detaching the self from all that is negative.
This is the fundamental enlightenment principle which people in this country are not nourished with. Scotland is filled with people who have not been shown this “integral principle”. Integrity is how our acumen of knowledge strengthens us against the realm of potential mind which may arise into our existence. This involves rationality. Being irrational means that you are dealing with things in an unfortunate way – not dealing with things based on well-reasoned intent. Being rational means using truth and logic in all of life’s dealings. Rationality is the utmost good tool for a child to find and know to utilize.
Mental hospitals should teach/try-to-assure-this as a first approach in psychic healings. Integration is an armament of fundamental human knowledge which helps one cope with any psychic situation.
It is individuation – the becoming of the self within the life time. The current model that the state-interactive-device which humans receive from is churning out reprobates instead of well-minded individuals who know the human fundamental ideas.
Psychiatric hospitals should be churches of mind.
People should come out being masters-of-life.
Judiciary and law judgements should involve helping the man/woman involved come to terms with this mysterious entrapment matrix of our lives. Not just “make sure your good and you’ll stay out of here” but “remember to have these good ideals in order to be well within the world”.
Fundamentally – many people do not associate with the world properly and this is what leads to suffering.
New Regime For Mental Health Facilities
Integral approach should be at the forefront. It should be done in an open-mannered-fashion. Which means it’s not harshly enforced rather it is a non-acute suggestion of compromise in learning and discovery. It also involves looking at how social systems work. The social-birth-entrapment truth.
Mental health facilities should serve as a church of mind. They should be delightful places to be – Where the system works with you and for you rather than at and against you.
Internet access must be embraced to help patients access what is an evolving collective-consciousness-content-carrier. All kinds of drugs should be allowed and sessions for individuals and groups made in order for them to explore the varieties of mind that they may desire. Different models of what drugs are should be taught. There is the spirituality position – which says that we are just in-touch with the source of all human mind and that alchemy is abound – rather than the medicines must do certain things to the brain and thus mind – as some have seen that God can do anything when you take a supposed drug.. Alchemy as the relation between mind and matter. It’s oppressive and undignified of the NHS to restrict alcohol and other substances from penetrating this place. You do not deal with the real person if he/she is not exposed to all the facilities he/she has in normal life.
This involves substances becoming legal. These substances have been shown to be therapeutic. Any government internet-research-facility put to work on the matter would find many many reports of good and great things being encountered by using these substances – and if I person wishes to explore them in a place which is responsible for the nourishing/providing of adequate mental-systems and selfhoods for people.
And indeed supplying more facilities - (access to professionals and politics and higher management etc) - the internet and document processing ability/further ability to work creatively with I.T. and an area of peace where you do not have prior-activity-arrangements which play a part of life which supposes responsibilities - can be a great aid to people in their development.
Open-dynamic-Interactionism does not inhibit people as greatly as the current systems. Rather it allows for the selfs own and new-found inhibitions to flourish in a cosy-minded manner. This system is narcotic – it hits you massively as being really positive. All drug interactions would obviously be moderated/seen to be sensible by professionals. And self medicating patients who may find hassles can be helped if they are wishing to bring in their own substances out-with the massive hospital base of them.
The transference should be taught also. This is how words contain meaning when they are used. But it is not meaning sent from one person to another – it is the words. We must attempt to make sure that the meaning sent is the meaning received. We can do this by telling each other what we gather from what has been said. It should be a primary concern to point out that meaning is the issue and not words. This is mind expansion and linguistic empowerment. It is the professional conversation format which I have not seen used nor have I seen enforced attempts at using it besides myself.
The empowerment of the self with knowledge and ideals and accessibility is the aim of a perfect psychiatric establishment. What can be done? The above can be done – and the connotations of this are great. These are ideas about “good hospitality”.
Nature, God & our Experience. Self and Other
Nature seems to create one time-pathway for this planet which we go through. In this pathway such beings have come about, which are regulated as such by nature so to be exactly as they are up to & upon death. Humans are experience machines. From what I’ve experienced in youth & from observations it is somehow clear that we do associate the pre-determined experience machine we witness as our own self.
It’s more well-founded to consider our ‘self’ as the passer-by (or experiencer) who goes through the experience which is programmed into the experience machine. The self is actually a portion of an experience machine which does single out the experiencer (or passer-by) as an entity itself.
If we are to see the true fact that thoughts and psychic happenings (experience) come to us from nature (rather than ourselves making them) then we are positioned towards nature in a different way. This is the learninings of many spiritual seekers throughout history... it is an understanding of nature. Lao Tzu called it “The Tao”. I wish to explain “Tao” in a modern manner... the integration of the Tao/nature is necessary to a sane humanity. Nature has not allowed this into modern primary schools which most parents do think “teach”.
We can look at all of our experience throughout life and say “so that is something which the nature of this place does create” – it is completely done when reflected upon and the next contents of your mind will soon be as such.
Nature defined as Tao. Nature as the way things happen. Nature is on par with what should be called god. The container of ourselves and the full truth of it. God is determinism itself, it is destiny & fate. Everything is nature. Things are natured in their own way. We are able to see the nature of our psyche & the planet through well-founded observation... & we sometimes propose things about the nature of all people or the Earth or the Omniverse (which are less graspable because they are out of our experience) Omniverse defined as “absolutely everything ever”.
There is what can and cannot be known. A human doesn’t necessarily understand nature well though. An absurdity is that the passerby confuses himself for the experience machine and is made to feel bad about his own past “actions” within it. Humans are often messed-about by the pre-program which involves suffering through ill-consideration – which is a timely disability of using language to translate nature truthfully. This ability of consideration can bring an end to “suffering” and should involve creating our preferences and ideals and motives through the generation of meaningful understanding about the life circumstance – this has been called individuation – the becoming of the self. The preference is the closest thing humans have linked to the Kantian sublime which is the most freedom/liberty possible. Whether the preference achieves success is up to nature.
Since things are fine. Heaven is in it’s state of goodness which it naturally achieved (the truth of this Ross is yet to see). All beings are fine. The healing of beings in a video game and the will is a strange one to resolve. Want to enjoy yourself all the time yeah. What’s the best way to heal everyone? If you asked some, they may say “IMMEDIATELY, OBVIOUSLY , I AM HORRIBLY TORMENTED”. So indeed, immediate healing of everybody is a toy-animals finest wish. Animals = embodied beings, you can create weird ones like these so we should point out that the general stock (count of Earths animals) can be taken as a category of animals: “animals of Earth”. So a saint, if he Is a saint, wills that all beings who seek healing be healed and that everyone attains loads of different styles of bliss and comfort and now, as I type this 11/08/2013.What will I do with Ross/Mintoo now? I say I will show him the “great” (he he) coming of the New Age of Humanity. Which will be erotic. I constantly make him wonder if he ever
The pre-program of our place is currently some version of Dualism. There seems to be 2 options available in all sections of Earth’s nature. Good & bad. Like & hate. Happens or does not happen. Colour seems to transcend this – a pun in nature – which states that there is something called “nuances” (or happenings/stuff) as well. There are ideas like “capitalism” which does not have a dualistic oppositional principle in such a simple way as things like “true” as it is a complex idea within a contextual background which could also be rendered in ways out-with its context which would involve ideas close to it and a part of it being examined.
A fundamental part of our minds/the-mysterious-facility-which-supports-it can be explained in 2 dualistic principles – “the psychic occurrences” and the generator behind them. The psychic occurrences emerge towards us and something in nature does send them our way – this is determinism itself which drives this but there is likely another mechanistic/principalismic layer to it.
Determinism defined as = things will and do occur
This likelyhood is apparent due to the experiences one has under tryptamine plants/chemicals. They reveal a graphic/psychic artist at play within the realm of our existences. This is known by those who have come across it in their destiny. DMT and psilocybin mushrooms and Ayahuasca are the well known plants which induce people into this realm of experience which often provides realistic truth about the world to the person.
There is things called the “self” and “other”(other than self)... but it should be realized that nature does create the idea of a “self” within humans. Everything is just determined nature... and so it is clear that “self” IS “other” and other is within nature. This other in nature which drives our experiences (often a self experience) is the Jungian, invisible & mysterious feminine – the collected unconscious. Nature behaves towards humans very insincerely... it creates the full extent of a human and turns it against itself. Whether it’s a pseudo-paedophilic –entrapment video game made by some sociopathic nature-agent or whether we put ourselves here from heaven is unknown – this is part of the experience – uncertainty of the fundamentals of our existences. We just know we are here now by whatever means. The collective-consciousness-provider (the collective unconscious) is the equivalent of a zealous abusive erratic who favours a few people, treats everyone differently, is stand-offish and plays mind games. It is not necessarily a being. Super intelligence can be programmed to make interesting art. Since this idea exists here – inevitably this thing sounds probable. I’m told by God that immortals play with a super-intelligent-computer which is of nature.
The collective unconscious of nowadays is not the main concern of psychology. We do not very-often ask people in ”psychological studies” about their “psychic occurrences” (mental happenings) in order to learn about their portion of experience of this “collected unconscious” called by myself “nature” and by others : “god” or “the oversoul” “the great mother” “the divine feminine” “Tao” which does regulate the experiences of all of humanity. The collected unconscious has driven mass society towards a strange rationality about everything which directly averts attention from itself.
Rationality defined as “the way an experiencer (self) explains things to itself”. It can be seen as the way nature cultivates understandings & ideologies within the experiencer. And good therapy aims toward aiding a person be on the better side of this. Armaments against nature – which I outline below somewhere.
Theology – An immortal amongst consciousness potential
The idea of consciousness (something) exists rather than nothing. We also see an array of things which I call ideas. Immortality amongst a sphere of potential consciousness is hinted by God with the internet/role-playing-games and general explorative media. Why would an immortal not play a human video game. This is excellent in therapy – the thing has a bloody ending so it’s not so bad – we’re just passing by a mysterious video game type thing. You’ll witness an experience and die. If you were immortal you’d realize that upsets and all the negative is just something you encounter in expressive art. Except an immortal may feel upset about the limits of bounds in heaven – this is arguably an upset. But I do not know if the amount of existent colours does or does not end. There is colour... what the fuck is that about? Where is the verse (actual-fact-place-of-existence) pulling it’s contents from/about? An excellent thing to ponder. The ideal and what seems unreasonable (a god with neurosis like suggested by Christianity and other Sects) is a good thing to ponder. An intelligent being would consider god to be like himself – adequate of mind. Much of the array of things that certain well known Sects say about god is unlikely due to the proposed unintelligence of god. The fact that god didn’t create a world in which all individuals share a knowledge of itself is a further hint towards how we humans are just playing novel video games. The value of experiencing being a delusional priest – professor of things about god – one who claims silly fabled truths – is quite clear. It is the humour of the divine (provider of human content).
Humans interacting in the world & the political structure.
Today we see small amounts of people wishing to be elected into government in order to make all future decisions about aspects of the social structuring. And this is called “democracy” where the majority get to decide how things happen through vote. A truer democracy – put simply is one where everyone understands the social world and talks about it quite often. 1 mega-website combined with a TV channel could rapidly improve our own democratic systems (if nature did allow it). A large forum-like website with many features can display tonnes of information on current happenings. Users can post issues in a “post”... a regulator removes repeating issues but voices the repeaters wording within the “post” the original poster created... the largest one takes in all the smaller created similar sections. The “post” template would have to be well-interactive, have no strict regulation rules, and be shown in many ways by moderators who’s main purpose is to collect information and section it in easily viewable manners. Decisions would be based on millions of country-men’s view points. A TV and radio channel created by government could show pod-casts voted most favoured on this website for the mass media or ones simply deemed to be important. Other natural TV channels could be made in such an open-broadcast manner. Large amounts of zealous intelligent discussion is most favourable
The internet is hardly utilized well as a political intelligence source. There is no grand narrative involved website of well-known and “official” (by government & well-funded) origin. Something which explains everything well that is good to know & is well known to be good is a good fundament to a well-natured social world nowadays. Instead of some collective mind of intelligence – there is a scattered collective consciousness which is fuelled from GMTV and Fox News to Zeitgeist Movement media & conspiracy theory media.
Something which explains everything from how the modern toilet system works to ideology & consciousness functionality & mechanistics is highly favourable. Neither of these were explained to me in school.
Many places of work & education & other institutions (organised amounts of humans) do not have a basic open-source information panel for the humans involved to connect with. Detailed, intelligent and easily understood information about the institution as open-sourced content is desirable for good integrative functioning between a social-array(institution or otherwise pronounced) and the conscious beings involved in the array. Such a thing (like a website or office(s) or both combined) could include political engagement functions. A human with good knowledge potentially has more capability for good ideas and thoughts which could encourage betterment within a social-array... thus an open-source, intelligent, easily accessed and understood information base would function well along with a social-political architecture which works similarly. These seemingly simple things just simply haven’t happened in nature yet. Main stream political figures and unorthodox slogans like “the coca cola company” are what many people hear about and discuss in their private social-arrays within life. There simply isn’t the political functionality available at the moment for a truer democratic & cooperative arrangement to be made.
Alas nature does at it pleases.
Social world defined as “extent of all communications and interactions between people”.
The Economy
You could give a country a currency and welfare package tomorrow and make it’s worth equal to the pound and thereby save populaces that are currently being gifted by charities. The true charity is giving them a valuable currency immediately to put them in a good level of monetary well being.
There’s often complaints in the media about money. Money is what man makes of it – a mere implement to move items and services about. The government have unlimited money and people don’t know about this well. There’s no merit in a government misusing money by seeing it as limited. They should use it to settle all matters which need handled – including a local benefit sum for the people in order to interact with the big money hungry and small money hungry benefactors of society – the stuff is certainly there to be bought – serve the people so they may be nourished for by their own will. There is no limit to this stuff - It can be made adequate or near perfection by simply realizing and utilizing the idea that it is simply an open playground (monetary society).
The media is currently not presenting this to the world. Nor is government expressing it’s hefty understanding of it.
The Allowance of Proceedings of Human Mind and God
God can be proven as the thing behind humanity simply by examining that there is an allowance for the proceeding phenomenon of mind that we encounter. The allowance itself is what I deem to be God. And this is a mysterious thing and a simple content-supplier. Having proven a thing called God in this text it should be understood throughout.
Empowerment of Understanding Destiny (Integral Motions Notion)
There is no worry to be had. Destiny will fulfil itself. And here in a land where we have video games – what does life seem like? A long carried out clip/bit of time with a series of issues/ideas that the time involves. Introspection and retrospect are the facilitators of seeing into this series which the individual life contains up to any specific point. This observation of relevant truth can be Jovial or Empowering.
Destiny pretends to many moderners that they are themselves. They are evidently more like tam-i-gotchees (pocket pets/digitial pets)like video-games.
Observations of truth can be made and come with empowerment which can come along without the empowerment criteria of mind – and so speaking about the observation and trying to share it alone is slightly flawed. The explanation of the empowerment criteria is specifically important. It should be known by those who we are attempting to enlighten that there are many levels of mind which they are unfamiliar to and one of these types of mind involves the enlightenment criteria of truth and what this entails about how we should view our own existences.
The levels and maintenance of Selfhood
A person has preferences such as having access to the internet in order to engage in much business of buying and selling. If he does not have the internet – then he is less himself. The self is as much as it is allowed to be. So the extent of ourselves (our preferences/desire-to-be-a-way and our acumen) should be discussed within psychiatry/psychology. What portion of the self occupies the mind-body because it is allowed and what portions are oppressed by the subconscious-influencer - God
Acumen = accumulation of related psychic contents
The infallibility of Good Reason
Reason is the backing behind our statements and other psychic-nuances like stunts. Good reason – reason which does state the truth is purely infallible. This means it does not fail to state truth. Besides good reasoning there is ill-reasoning. Reasoning is the measure of Rationality – the way in which one/many rationalizes things. Rationality is the way things are ordered within the self – the way ones ideals and beliefs stand within mind – whether they are well ordered by truth or disorderly and based on nothing really is the way the persons rationality is.
The object of good psychiatry (working consciously with or at a person) is to deliver to them a good rationality which will remain. If the self is within the mind-body It is the tool by which our orchestral-time-existences are fulfilled. When the self – who has the good rationality is not in the mind body – it can be said to be possessed by the psychological “other”.
The good reason behind the “self” and “other”.
We do not consciously create our lives and dreams out of all options. The other is the thing which says your life is specific as such that it is. It is the human – Destiny. The sun does not arise of our own accord - the influence of man is evident in the subconscious/Zion – the point at which our reality emerges – time itself. God has to do with these ideas.. the-humanity-allowance-principle or/and the everything-allowance principle (the something rather than nothing principle) can be seen as God. And I would say these are the best things to see as God. We should effortly decide to explain what we mean when we say “God” because of it’s abstract linkages to “the other” and “nature” and “the destiny of beings and humans”.
Psychedelic plants providing a good rational for a distinguished nature belief syndrome.
Ayhuasca & Psilocybin mushrooms and Peyote/etc cactuses amongst other chemical formulations -which have been shown to effect the soul upon ingestion in such an extravagant way – often provide people with the meaningful revelation of their place within an intelligently organized nature. People come out of the experience very amused or unamused about how God has just been revealed to them or at least the fact that there is something weird and intelligent going on nearby.
I’m an experiencer of such things within and without the psychedelic consumption ritual-time. The experience of having the future revealed to you and the sensation of time anticipating you does entail that God has revealed some of itself to you – despite how this itself can go unrealized along with these experiences – just as the psychedelic experiences can go like this.
God keeps teleporting word’s as I write and adding grammatical errors of sheer impossible silliness (it’s impossible for me to go without noticing such absurd lyrical error due to my acumen and attention-mode. What on Earth would a publisher see!?
Synchronicity is a coincidence that has an eccentric effect upon mind which entails godliness is around. I experience these often.
One was when I quit smoking for a few days and my dad had installed vents in my loft room in which the wind does enter through the roof vents. I had a cold which entailed a block nose which my dad gave me a hot-vapour mask inhaler for and then I had a psychedelic trip surrounding the wind/thunder god-like-entity called Quetzalcoatl and ecstasy and the 5 elements. Water versus fire as entheogenic algae(liquid based growth) (lsa type alkaloids) versus alcoholic mind-body destruction.
Another is when the staff of Ward 32 in the Southern General gave me some popcorn KFC chicken. I then proceeded to walk into the TV room with it to hear “Chicken”.
They are many and various in their intensity.
27/11/2012
I just heard something called the “norah virus” has been encountered in the Victoria hospital in Shawlands. No – Ra is a joke in this. Ra meaning God of humanity as it has been rendered for me by God. Not a simple illness... but god as well. 13 people have shown signs of it and I was just writing of a coatl of which there is written to be 13 of within this odd newly rendered mayan astrology. 13 also entailing bad fortune of course.
Rationality behind unreasonable assumptions
It’s deemed unreasonable to uphold the stance that something unknowable is thought as being known. Yet – since images of perfection in terms of immortal existences in heaven – the most ideal circumstance for humans to be involved in – there is an oddly good type of rationality within having faith in this due to the idea simply being around for us to grasp.
The more unfabled but ridiculously important thing besides “immortality/different-variety-of-being or nothingness upon death” – is whether we were entrapped in a human existence as our first time existing or we put ourselves (or a program) put us into these human existences. Or whether only one of these things has happened (we or a program put ourselves here) or both. Both are likely if we were perversely entrapped in here as our first existence – who would not wish to explore the other guys birthing-rituals that they were so devilishly dealth-with with.
The dynamic Interactionism of Immortal beings and general beings
This is about the extent of which we can imagine beings being like within their proceedings. I have been told that the finest idea involves hyperly-objective-making through rendering out all possibility. This is far from what humans go through and I’m told it is near exactly what immortals in Heaven go through – which makes sense since the idea is there and it sounds pretty perfect. Identifying this type of existence criteria that I call hyper-objectivication could enable one to see more clearly the truth that his own human-type existence is regulated by the other/god in a specific manner. This is because it is compared to having all or much knowledge of how our existences could be and then selecting which is clearly more of a free-willed existence than those known of the 20th century and thereabouts.
Creative Expression as it is 27.11.12
I’m not allowed to type in my fittest form. Which involves this ideal I have of perfectionism. The book would be very good. It’s just gods decision or not – whether it will be done and in general – what collective writings will be done.
Superfood Addition
Things like spirulina and chlorella and cacao and maca should be talked about. They are called superfoods as the user does often experience super charges of nutritious energy from them. Cacao has often involved a mild trip as well... a complete body high along with lot’s of need for water to urinate – a diuretic type substance. It is a superfood and a mild plant-ally which can be used daily for near-ecstatic living. It’s good with almonds and other nuts and nothing compared to my use with it and ashwaganda. This made my thinking and creative-writing ability unrivalled and lovely-to-deal-with. Ashwaganda is an anti-depressant anti-neuro-toxic brain enhancer. God inhibited me into thinking that choline (broccoli and peanuts + others) and selenium (brazil nuts + other) where attributers to ashwagandas fuller effects. There’s lot’s of marvellous people feeling super-human with their use of these wonderful things. It’s a part of this world to try as it stands. Alas – God does as it will do with those who attempt to explore these things. It should be said that I was strictly pescatarian during this time and ate nothing that wasn’t just pure vegetation except glucose syrup in which dates and raisins were laced with.
DNA
Data – Nasa arson. A pun on how God is responsible for this series of data-observations known as DNA and also responsible for NASA’s upcoming’s – their big developments if any at all will be due to god and it does indeed prohibit it’s desired super technologies and hence – arson. Water life and DNA and the natural-human-control-agent (God) providing 2 things – NASA’s feedback from god and DNA – this thing supposed to be the key to Humanity in science.
27/11/2012 Remote automatic typing from God.
Chris moves into Ward 32. He is unaware of Ross’s great intelligence until tomorrow. There is no unconscious recognition of much at all – except general acceptance of “sound cunt criteria” with Ross. There’s no ego maniacal impulse toward these things within either of them. Ross just wants to spread understanding meaning across the airwaves – but he is currently dismembered in this form. Ross will not want to go home tomorrow when he realizes who he is with anyway. You’ll both never regret meeting I assure you of nowt though! There’s no finer feeling than grass hitting your stomach eh boys... wtf... gobbledygook spreading now. Will keep it chill till later on anyway.
Met this guy says he’s kinda in the same situation about God and food except it was an overdose that brought him in here.
Natures Allowances and Psychopathy
Nature does not conspire to do things which time tends to bring in veryefficient motion. Despite how the 4 year old will become the 5 year old – it does not just do it right away despite it’s determination. It’s motive is specific and often roundabout. Psychopathy is meant to be as it is – which involves roundabout motions like a professional doctor not becoming like such at age 3 but only at age 34. This is part of the nature of this place-time.
Sound’s non-deterioration
The sound of a persons voice does not deteriorate to a point where it is unrecognizable and words indecipherable through thin layers of material (such as glass or wood). The code remains stable enough to be heard. This specific is involved in the nature of this place-time and is odd considering what time is. This means that sound has a type of DNA – or a design for humans.
The transference
Subconscious = the point at which consciousness (mind/experience of time) emerges. Similar to the term Zion = the point at which reality emerges.
Mindisms = items of mind/our-timely-existence
The transference is the transfer of meaning and the psychic impact that a person receives along with the experience of a person. Some may say it is what is gathered from an interaction with a person. But rather psychic contents appear when one is with somebody and these are specific.
This is not a well known term in modern culture.It should be taught to children in order to see that they have no misunderstandings due to lack of interest in meaning and the various experiencial-modes in which people experience meaning (the impact – the force of the subconscious). Social interaction involves various mindisms coming out of nowhere into the peoples experience of time.
The current generation of people have a jovial mindset. Jovial being small-time discussions of simple nuances like drinking tea and doing simple activities besides the exploring of consciousness and contemplation (which are both rare – especially done well).
The topic of spirituality – the fact that there is only mind and there is the truth (expressed here) about it – does not come about often and this is to do with how certain people are talking about the New Age – the age when human fundamentals are more realized and people are hence empowered.
The transference is a term coined by Carl Jung. He wrote a book which god made to be perversely abstracted and pertained more to it’s attribute within psycho-therapy. It was not simply explained like I do here.
The transference is obviously a large part of this paradigm (the general pedigree (specific type) of the masses of humans. It is something which one must look at in reality to gain a great vision of. As I can express little of it’s profoundness (great and important to recognise) in words.
Without verifying back to someone the meaning/psychic imagery they have received from them – one cannot be sure what he must fill them in upon and correct if necessary. One should be wary of conversation without deliberation (looking carefully deliberately) in order to see that the transference is proper. This is most applicable in education.
23/12/2012
Today I woke up in a reasonable comfort – one which I’ve been used to in my daily existence of the past. I had had dreams about an alternative mental hospital which was more secure. I had then read more accounts of Paul Ferris’s accounts of phenomenon occurring in secure prisons – more later. What is remembered of this dream is being with Rab Dyer from in here and I think William Derek Dolon also – we were about to smash into some rocks of MDMA which were transparent gold-yellow – they were sitting in a round pee-tree (spelling?) dish. The nurses and dish servers were right behind our beds behind a stall with a see-through bit over there far top half (chest to upper neck). They were not apparently there at one point – nor was the stall visible – this was when the MDMA was out and I was flashing my bag of – what was said about it was “I don’t know what it is” and I thought silently “4P or 4MEC” (4P being a 15% pentedrone 85% 4MEC crystal compilation). They seen the MDMA – one staff member and then more. I quickly grabbed some and started to jump around the place wildly but skilled to avoid their grasp whilst I ate it.
At one point I was at a window or on a hill looking at Rab who was in the same position but with rivers flowing down from him toward me. He was waiting on a person or a boat.
There was a point where I was in some wilderness and animals (cow) started to speak. I had then realized that this meant a lot about god and it was realized they were making a film about this. I was excited whilst the woman and other unknown person I was with (all in that light brown wilderness kit – the woman had a camera) were just chatting casually. I said something like “why isn’t there a camera over here” – thinking that there needed one to see how perfect my excitement was as we were going over the horizon onto a new plane of fields through a gate made my 2 mountainous sections next to each other. I tried speaking to a goat at one point – excited to hear from it – but it would not speak.
I got caught drinking yesterday and drank the rest of my Ruby port whilst walking toward the nurse as he asked whether I had been drinking after clearly seeing me trying to stash the mug of wine in a neighbouring patients cabinet. Also Rab is leaving tomorrow. He is an ex-heroin addict/addict of the downers. Always saying he really wants his blues. He was diagnosed with hepatitis on the 21st and now his future life path is obscure to us both. He wants to die. Injected 4 ten pound bags (usually 100-150mg of impure) heroin. He said it was good shit and since he hadn’t touched it in 2 months it was thought it should do the trick. So the many rivers was symbolic of his destination uncertainty. His mate last night helped delete all smack dealers numbers off his phone. But the man remembers some of by heart – he wrote one down for me. Despite this his pal said something like “aye – how your heed is fucked you won’t remember any in’t that right?”. His pal took names of several superfoods and health foods off of me – which I hope god really does make him utilize for some time and feel the super-human-enhancement effects of them.
So today I woke up at an obscure time – I don’t know what time. But I was not being pestered by nurses as usual to arise for the beds to be made or to clean the floors. At the weekend often this certain woman works here who sometimes (well rationally and assertively) decides not to clean the floor. She also often never kicks us out of bed for irritating and irrational motives like is done by other nurses every day. It gets mopped and hovered every fucking day – it’s horrifyingly stupid. More so horrifying how they kick you out of bed to make them up or to clean the floor around you from any time between 9am and 12noon.
My mum has texted me to say I cannot have my bank card because she doesn’t want me going on drug sprees and such things. Sure I might. But there is no problem in this – I’m an intellectual drug user – not a riot starter. Yet I would still be condemned as a bad person for any antics involving drugs (not their pharmacological regime ones of course). Self medication is disallowed in such hospitals as I am in. There is no collaborative effort to rationalize a regime of alchemy for the person living in the establishment. Alchemy = relationship between mind and matter... it’s another word for “drug use” which carries the true meaning more readily when defined as such than simply “drug use”.
So I’ve called the bank and seen about changing my address to the hospitals and getting a new card delivered here (without cancelling the current card because I will be wishing to use it to purchase a phone contract tomorrow). And they’ve said I can only change address in a branch – branches will be open on Christmas eve tomorrow. I don’t have identification – but they have got a photo copy of my passport of my 15 year old self (19 when writing now) and I have letters addressed to me in hospital – so tomorrow we may be able to get it sorted out.
Was speaking to Chris earlier. Chris said he feels shit and he thinks it’s the medication. I said that it is the thing responsible for the individual-effects of the medicine. As the medicines effect people differently – what is responsible for this? Some (radio just said scientists) would say it is the brain. “DNA” by “DNA” or something is playing on the radio “and that’s what makes a man – it’s not hard to understand” “it’s in his DNA”. I’ve been shown that god is a present and intelligent force.
I told Chris what was responsible – the force behind all human mind – the decider – what I call god. I’ve said before it’s been shown to be that the brain is part of the science delusion cast on many by god. I said to him some would say the brain – but what would be responsible for the brain – the closest things we can say “are” this are “God” or “Nature”. And this is what is fucking him over on this occasion.
So we go outside at one point and he asks “Is that the moon there?” It was almost 4pm. I agreed it was the moon as a cloud started to fully remove it from our sight. A cloud the shape of a skull – which Chris agreed with. And where was the moon – right in the centre of the brain. The moon sign in astrology (signs are the zodiac types like Capricorn etc which are assigned to each persons Sun (commonly heard one) and all planets amongst other things like Ascendant and the houses) is the sign representative of a persons short-term influences upon mind in life. This is Chris’s answer – it is phases of destiny. What I would call “Psycho-pathy”. The path of the psyche through time. This is what the moon has came to represent for me – short term psychic influences.
This is an example of how god proves itself to me. Such remarkable synchronicity. It has today given me thoughts of recording everything which happens (close to everything) during a day. I wish to – whether I do or not by god’s will is a degree of its determination of my wellness.
I have wrote this note to the psychocology-doctorate-holding-person(s) responsible for my imprisonment :
“If I am silent under your operating conditions of medicine/treatment – You cannot judge my mind state and thus - the treatment. (Out-with original note: radio just said “you absolute genius”)
Therefore your continuance is malpractice.
You best understand this – courts hopefully will.
I’m in a silly waiting room. Don’t play the silly waiting game with me – let me go home now or heavily apologize when the game ends for this harassment which has spawned from my religious disposition toward god – which you wish to alter and I do not.
Stop the abuse of my right to be who I wish to be be – A man who is left alone.
Respect this.
It won’t pay off in the short or long run if you hear nothing from me – think about it and find sense.
I hope like fuck you do.
You are not attempting to relieve my complaints of chronic-differentiatin-symptomatic-stress which is physical – you are attempting to remove “psychosis” which is invisible and impenetrable to you and is no complaint of mine.
You are evil as fuck to me
Holding me here is futile.
Apologise and Abandon.
Ross”
God mentioned my kingship about 5pm and then “Glory to the new born king” came on the TV. It says it will “behead me” meaning it will make me appear as if dead or comatose whilst it shows me portions of heaven. It has said about 2 weeks in the past during the time of prophecy in October 2011. It said it meant 17 days today.
Took me out for a half hour or 45 minute singing/chanting/icaros session. Mentioned a refresh prophecy session. Mentioned again how my dad will be seen by god before he dies and it will be in a funny way and in a devilish tongue of a manner and told much. And also mentioned again of a man who will help me much – speak out and such (could be god). I will apparently see weird things in the people around me. “They will be profound before you be profound”. Also said the Phoenix is late and by its (gods) tongue (what it means) it means a bird. It says I will be Mary to a world of Jesus and a Phoenix. Says I will die and see many of it’s “friends” and no man will kill me – god will kill me. It says I will die elated. Man does heal – was said.
Nurse came down and told me to stop – I continued quietly after she told me to shut up despite it being quiet. She said “out here doing that like an idiot”. God says she will apologise. Chris heard a lot of a good part before it ended.
Says stellar density will be drastically altered for me whilst in this “dead-like” state.
Just the other day there was a news report of small landslides in Scotland. Today god tells me that Harelaw – in Neilston - will become more like a loch. Then later today there’s a program about a site at which many believe “Noahs Ark” is – within a mountain or something. An expert said the footage apparently showing the ark was a landslide and then footage of landslides were shown.
Was doing an Icaro and a nurse comes out and tells me to be quiet and come inside – says she thought I was having an argument. Later said I should give up singing because of this. Singing – I’m good at. Icaros are made by god and the varieties of voices arranged are odd and quasi-vocal (in that it is not “my voice”).
24/12/2012
No great joy today upon awaking despite being dubbed “of Joyce” yesterday (“Chosen vocabulary”(and something else about sweet use of language)) was jut said on TV. James Joyce is a famous writer for his grandiose and cunning use of language. Though I admit I know little about his work – I can imagine.
Synchronicity are odd coincidences which have occurred almost daily throughout my recent life and far less than daily throughout prior parts of my life starting at the age of mid-late 17 along with the use of the oracle – The I-Ching and synchronistically finding Jung’s “Man and His Symbols” in my University library on my first day there. A man I remembered Terence McKenna mentioning when listening to his recordings after seeing his name on this and other books. Hearing of his idea of the unconscious – how things arise in mind so specific whilst others do not and the force implied by this – that of mind art – the collective unconscious force. Hearing of this was a big new start to my psychological prowess – I was nearing complete integrity. The perfect way of knowledge – how one is embedded in the world of mind in the way of knowing of things (“the centre of philosophy and learning” just was said on TV).
Walked up to try to change my bank address to that of the hospitals. Means I can order from anywhere online to here. Good for ethylphenidate and the rest of the RC’s I hope to be trying. They couldn’t – they said it wasn’t secure. I got a private let housing benefit form from a housing and benefits building I was surprised to find. Jobseekers gave me a number to call about my enquiry on my back date being out of place in my mind. Back dated since 2011 August said the letter - so I think it did – my mum took it away with her. £120 a week – about £2000 back dated – what the fuck that sounds like August 2012 to me. It should be at least March when I first applied.
The bank – despite me not having my bank card or Identification – gave me £50. I managed to recall all digits except one of the account number. So I gave Rabs dealer a text and he gave me obscure details on how to reach him “right down that road” When I said I was at the job centre. It was a different Road – a one conjoined onto it – Govan Road. Got 2 tenner bags and asked if he had anything else – sold me an ecstasy pill – what he said was an upper. He then chased me up the road as I walked back and asked if I’d said I wanted a bit of skunk. Said he’d pop into a flat and I’d get him in Subway – took about 20 minutes after he said 2 minutes so I just got up and left after a walk around the charity shop which was to no prevail. Ate the pill and had a bag of smack up my nostrils – gave Derek a line as well. Can feel it (god) pushing me toward my bed now.
Nurse in the kitchen said “wee word” after me looking at her and saying what I wanted out of the selection. I thought she wanted a wee word with me because my pupils were fucked from the drugs. I stood up and followed her and then she said “please”. She meant please... Derek said “Mad that innit”.
June McLeod – the complaints manager for here has not received my letter – I will be sending her one by recorded as soon as possible I’ve informed them after getting their address. Fuck knows what happened to the original – but the new one is far more beautiful anyway. Dunno how fucked I’ll be for talking to the doctors when they get in.
Ended up doing the whole £20 bit of H in about an hour and a half with Derek and Rab who I assumed was off it. Intelligent drug use is awkward in that people are unfamiliar with the practise of it – instead there is a big prejudice toward anyone willing to partake which is widespread – especially with heroin. I’ve even been hated for saying I would happily take a bit of smack and seriously fallen out with over it – surprisingly not with my mother so much. She rather has a pile and load of things she bedevils me about. It’s about my confidence in my self – she thinks I overrate myself but I simply am who I am. Besides this place – she’s the only real hassle in my life.
Filled in the most part of the housing benefit application form.
Got home that night and contacted Rhianon about a bag of hash. No prevail. Derek lets everyone know through text that he has green in – got sorted out the next day. Monday was spent at home drinking in front of a short Naruto catch-up session. Short because I ended up arranging hitting the pub with Rhianon where I met Ross Weir – Blair Hamilton – Gordon Ramsay and a bunch of a Neilston crowd who had no idea where any drugs were but there was some searchers. I got tuned into a joint by Gordon Ramsay before missing a call of Ross Clinton – Calling to no prevail and then I turned up at the bowling club because I heard thats where he was last sighted and I could not get in as I needed a stamp.
Short intervals of no indepth conversation is what was had that night – though Blair did say he had always thought that Psychology etc should be taught in Schools for the greater good... I’ve never heard these words from another man before. A good sign? This coming along at the same time as I attempt to contact the health ministers & papers and the so-touted NHS complaints commission woman – June McLeod.
Ross Clinton made several negative comments about how I was not the same person as I was never out and talked obscurely about his knowledge of my condition – as if he did know much about it. He’s been critical of the shamanic path ever since I hit it – those on the path are not critical for the reason that they have seen some of what there is to be seen of God – this is my comfort in the credibility of my self-knowledge-belief – Truth
So I agree to go to Swg3 with them all on New Years Eve – If I do get out of the ward for it.
25/12/2012
The day started with a zest and hunger for sugary drinks like has often accompanied hangovers before – but this was no hangover – god has had them removed... for how long who can be sure. You can have nice hangovers of course... and I’m very partial to 3 week bender hallucinations which have not arrised since a young age of 16/17. (bender = continuance of drinking everyday for an amount of time). These included people moving around my room in the dark or behind closed eyelids in the light... different scenes mostly the party ones and hangover ones I’m used to... but different... unique orginal styles of visual imagery from god... hence my latent amusement and applaud of it. To be an Immortal in heaven is to have access to all the potential senses in a super-interactive environment. To be a human is to get which ones you receive through the mysterious agency (doer – thing which does).
I went out to get Derek Maxwells promised £20 bag of cannabis and smoked a joint with him which left me just plainly “Mellow” rather than with the usual array of negative social symptoms and physical jerks and other accompanying sensations. I did receive – however- the imagery of life becoming at once surreal or different whilst smoking the joint did happen. Two “things” sucking on “things”. He bought fags and I left to meet 4 Neilston boys – similar looking to their ex-youngteam brethren. One says “Got ganj”? I said “Yeah”. He said – “Coming out?”. I said yeah and I went to tell my mum I’d be heading out with a few pals until dinner.
Grampa came up today along with a box of chocolate liquors and a present from Isobel – a grey hoodie. Which i wore round to meet Derek . So I head out with these boys and it turns out one of them can sell me “mcat”. Mephedrone – second dealer in a day? Yeah right. Went down to his bit and it was for real – proper 4mmc.
Got high didn’t eat Christmas dinner. My Buckfast half bottle was a number 25 – the day of the month. The guy said If I wanted to buy £200 worth off him I could – so I said yes.
This lead to an argument with my mum and dad tonight – saying I shouldn’t go out to get drugs.I talked openly about buying some mephedrone on the phone in front of her. I had to pretend to be willing to jump out the window to get my house keys so that I could go out and say no to the boy (so I’ve said) – but I took the 13 grams he offered for £170 – I then spent most of my time out chilling with Michael Reynolds where we discussed ourselves and our worlds. Derek phoned to say to not give my mum abuse and the ward phoned me because my mum called them to say I’d left. No say do’s about what happened with the drugs for now. But I had enough to get fleeing by the laptop to write this tonight. Good night.
26th December 2012
Didn’t sleep at all. Had quasi sleep which was basically dark silence where time passed as if it hadn’t. I ate amt that night... god didn’t make it active or else it would have been a more elevated and almost exasperating night of good visual imagery and stimulation.
My phone says I’ve used 350mb of internet despite having it for only 2 days. I don’t know what happened. My mum drove very fast and took rough ragged curves and then pulled to an abrupt stop and slammed doors when driving to park at the hospital. Boring day. Bali quasi-apologised by saying she don’t know shit about the way I am with drugs and believes I use them in a way which is OK. Bali just approached the door. Trivial talk. I’d prefer show her heavenly pleasures – extents of sensation than speak at all. She asked if I’d checked with a doctor to see if all my organs are alright. This is after me having told her how god has proven to me that scientific biology is not the end of biological truth... it’s a creative media force which drives Earth – not scientificly accurate principalismic laws. The organs don’t mean any importance to the self for someone like me... unless I can feel regions of my body where the apparent organ is... then it’s a descriptor word used for describing sensations accurately.
Stoned typing...bit more odd of a style.
30th December 2012
Haven’t been typing because I got a heavy version of the flu in which I was incapacitated – it still remains. At one point I was given a strange trip about Egyptian god kings and told of the Egyptians rape culture (lots of it apparently). I’ve had strong pains and a sore cough a general drowsy feeling accompanied with a fever and mild delirium... parkinsons symptoms as always.
Today I got 3 bags of smack and god let me feel some sort of good body high from it which I am feeling now. Meeting up with my mum yesterday she was told that the staff want to get me “supported accommodation” – fuck that I just want accommodation. She was also told that I can not start renting a flat whilst under their section – they have complete influence over me.
I’m getting another respiradol jag today – not another one for a month. God’s not doing anything with this one so far. Drinking on it has been delightful – unlucky for those who suffer the opposite on anti-psychotics. Not much to say today – the flu is clearing up it seems. Should get a package of 4g ethylphenidate and 500mg 5mapb or m5apb tomorrow if the post is kindly. And mapacho and some quality full leaf tobaccum soon enough.
Oh yes god has said “Diablo” is coming. It’s a GF from Final Fantasy 8 which symbolises darkness for it. It says it won’t be continous torture but it will do things with it’s god-art-toolkit. Things of sight and sensation. It also suggests now that I may be in for another year of this possession and ritual-abuse. There is torture involved though it does say. It treats it as if I’m upset about it. I accept fate. It said something like “What’s the difference between that and how insanely done you are at the moment?”. To me there is no difference in such a full throttle possession and time of non-self existence... phenomenon may be different but it is just a non-self existence.
04/01/13
Still in the flu haze. Temporarily being given methiopropamine and ethylphenidate should be coming on soon. Feeling fleeing – mild haze. Was sent out yesterday – 500mg of each and came today. Still waiting on a bigger shipment after it failed to deliver to Dereks flat and I gave them the hospital address as the re-deliver one. They said “will be sent out today” then I asked them about a recording number for it and they said “we haven’t got it back yet but it will go back out again”. Mixed messages. So they’ll send it out when it comes back – that sounds like good business. Rather than it getting about that if you tell them a tracked parcel is marked down as being returned to sender – you get a free extra package of the same goods. Not much to say – been marked down as “down time” by god.
05/01/13
Didn’t sleep at all last night. Sat up and did 2 lines of methiopropamine then had another – went on a walk and had another. I come back after a walk and they say that I’m not allowed to take walks on the grounds. I was told the opposite beforehand. One of the nurses wanted to search me because she thought I was meeting with someone for drugs. She said something like “Go on – show us what you have – I know you have something”. I pulled out the methiopropamine. Maybe they will get suspicious about the parcel coming for me that day. Went to the shops and got cafe crème cigars with Stephen. God says that a gothly time is coming along with healing and that I will be a healer soon.
08/01/13
I was put on a “constant” today. This means a nursing staff must follow me about all the time. I can’t go down for a cigarette without one of them. They say I can’t have my tobacco because they cannot be sure what it is/what is in it. If it’s not branded it can’t be had! I said to my mother a couple of days ago that if she did not bring it I would refuse to see her for a year. Now it’s officially not her fault – the deal is off. If she didn’t ask if it was okay – it would have been okay. Silly story – I don’t know how long I’ll be in here for.
14/01/2013
This is the best I’ve felt in many months – I hope it lasts. Sensations aren’t done by God so that I am in violent opposition toward them – they are peaceable. Parkinsons and occasional vertigo/threatenings are my only annoyances besides the peeing and pooing that it always makes me do. Sloppy shits are the worst – they never happened when I was a super nutrition person on the vegetables – it’s a comedic joke on science how it’s making my poo sloppy now as I eat whatever whenever.
Sloppy means that the thing used to wipe your arse yields too much and too messy. Got some cannabis yesterday from Tony – Amanda who came back recently went down to get it off him. Surprised he came into the maze of a place to drop it off – I’m sure my suggestion of Govan Road would have been much more comfy for him. We split a score bag (£20 worth) and god last night got me stoned like it does to ordinary people. A slight comfort haze of relaxation. Not what I used to get which involved bodily tantrums – the inability to rest calmly within the body-mind. I got that at times and other times were fine or manageable despite difficulty. I’ve got 6 one skin spliffs to last me now.
I got stuck in Final Fantasy 10 and now need a guide – this happened on the same day that I completed Paul Ferris’s Vendetta. This followed encountering a bug in FF7 where there was no buggy at costa del sol which meant I had to discontinue playing – very off putting. So I have no activities besides writing left around here unless I am to read one of their books. My mother might bring me one in.
One day recently I was told by Rab that a guy who was in the ward with him had a kidney removed. Next that day I read in Paul Ferris’s book about a guy who needed a kidney transplant. Then my mum comes up and starts talking about how her kidneys have been sore after drinking and she’s been drinking Rosehip tea etc.
Then yesterday or the day before I read a bit about braile (some guy was translating things into braile) in Vendetta. Then Amanda starts talking about some object she made in product design that would help the blind interpret something-or-other.
Synchronicity happening in a second class type of way as compared to the higher rate synchronistic days of pure genius like the one with Chris and the moon described above.
I had dreams about lot’s of drugs which ended in me coming into a School-like building which was mostly empty and into a classroom where a teacher was allowing the consumption of 2CB. After popping the 2CB with a few boys I’d half decided I would put mephedrone out on the desk for everyone to come-up on.
I had another dream where Sarah & Jenny and a couple of others were walking down past co-op and right by me. “Sarah” who was elaborately as if someone else said “Miss your girl?” I said “Yeah” “I miss all of them” or something similar. I was looking like I was trying to keep up with her smooth manner. Now this could mean that Sarah isn’t who she used to be. Perhaps she is some sort of “mean-girl” now ha! It could mean this because Sarah is my girl... well one of my romantic fantasies. Wee Sarah – I wonder how her life is going.
Then I was about to buy the full stock (or one of every object) of a pharmacists in Neilston (the insides of the building were the wrong way round). Near the start of the staff’s packing of the goods – the voice of reason came to me and I was pretty much decided that I should tell the staff member to stop packing as I considered the grand I had in the bank and the £500+ I had in my hand. Then the dream ended.
Allah keeps winding me up about smack. Saying things like “It was a bit silly. I think I owe you some smack. I’ll pay you back now then”. I don’t know if this high counts either – I have no legitimate smack use time to compare to. It always just gives me the outer edges of it – a smooth glossed sensation but no euphoria or buzz like you’d expect.
The unconscious is the driving force of conscious experience on Earth. It is the air of nothingness from which consciousness emerges.
Made a bracelet today – chose the rabbit charm. There was reindeer also. I’m a 12 Rabbit in the Mayan Calendar astrology system. Rabbit stands for playfulness & intoxication & ecstasy & intelligence. 12 stands for all knowledge.
15//01/2013
Emailed Alex Neil today with my documents and questions of how to be involved in politics :
Hi Alex I don't know if my last letter got through to you but I have found your email now that I have a phone with internet. I can connect to the internet on my laptop through the phone and that is how I can now email you these attachments. I'm looking for your reply - to see if you see the density of these issues - the main ones being the type of psychotherapy that is used in the NHS and an ideal complete overhaul. I could use a civil lawyer - but first I'm deciding to ask if the government will deal with me out-with the court on my compensation issue? I'm also looking to become heavily involved with politics - education & economics & health care & Govt research & pro-democratic-involvement are my fields. I could do with your advice on where to start out with my practice of politics? Hoping for your helpfulness Cheers Ross MacIntyre Barton 21 Station Road Neilston Glasgow G78 3EE
Amanda is planning on buying more grass off Tony tonight. Oh yeah – when we were younger and first got weed off Tony – whenever we used to see an Asian guy we’d say “There’s Tony”. Right after calling Tony I come through to the dining room for dinner and see a random odd Asian guy in the corridor. God was like “there’s Tony”. Also it was Antoinette (Tony) who Amanda claimed was getting a bit of hash that day – I then asked him/her (transgender dude-girl) and it turned out he wasn’t getting it whilst in hospital. Tony synchronicity.
16/01/13
Yesterday it was decided that I would write Amandas book with her. I don’t have a comma button and her memory is fizzy so it’s a bit messy. We started today and I must say I doubt it’s publishable. But she said “Put it this way – your going to be a writer. And see if they turn around and say they don’t want the book – we’ll just get another publisher.” That is the start of the book. It’s 3.35pm and I’m still waiting on the parcel which track says was delivered at at most half 10 in the morning. They take their time with delivering ward to ward.
17/01/13
Turns out that yesterday they filled in a form which allows them to open my mail. I just assumed that it was still illegal in here to open someones mail. They put it all in the bin – is this sound by the police? It was all legal items and they disposed of them. Oh well – another thing to hear about again from my mum – maybe some complaint from her. Had a big mephedrone binge last night. One of those sessions where god keeps getting you to re-dose despite the effects of the drug not being properly felt – getting you to hope that the next line WILL give the effect. It must have only been a 1-1.5g because I couldn’t have done more than 10 lines and I only had about 100mg left today – I thought it looked like more. God’s squalor I’m afraid... it could have made that bag nicer for me during this time of semi-peace with god.
Amanda came into my room this morning about 11am and was saying “He’s getting up man – I need his help for this book – I’m remembering stuff and need to get it down now before I forget”. I was clinging to the mattress – having only got to sleep about 5am or so – I longed for more dreamy dreams. Another book being wrote without a comma button...
She brought me a Mocca (chocolate coffee) I didn’t ask for. We’ll get down to it in a minute or so and hopefully this mild meph buzz will pick up and my last line will be decent. Planning on quitting drugs for 3 months after my Birthday... hard to see myself refusing a drink or some weed when I’m out though... if I get out...
Roll on my mum slamming me for my drug habits again! I’m just focused on becoming psychicly well... my mothers pines and whines are just that.
Wondering how much more of January I’ll be feeling Okayish for – god says a week and a half and that I’ll be dysphoric (spelling?) and lethargic again soon.
We’re going to art class. Drew a picture with a quasi-psychology symbol and “Life Journey” written with the messiah symbol – the fish.
Matthew won £10 in the lottery and then I see on TV that they’re raising lottery ticket prices and prizes.
Michael came up yesterday and my mum mentioned how KFC did blueberry pancakes. Michael said he had a dream that morning about massive pancakes.
Amanda just mentioned she seen 2 police horses – just after I wrote about the police horses in my autobiographical section.
Matthews getting us a free munchie box (take away food). And tonight my mum brought me a subway for the first time. Synchronicity is more often. Just after Michael mentioned it was very high rate.
Alice Janet came to Amanda today. She possessed her before. I’ve wrote about it elsewhere.
18/01/13
Spoke to Spieros today – he talked about me getting out for activities –I find Joudou (jew doh – the martial art) online and Wikipedia it. Then it mentions Joudou (however it’s spelt) in a game I downloaded. Regret is the name of the boy and Pardon the name of his father. Regret that I’m not to be pardoned and so torture time?
Trying to do a parkour class and fencing. They are on Monday and Tuesday and so I wanted them sorted out today – but the team didn’t seem to be pro-active about it despite wanting to initiate it in the first place. I had the times in under an hour of them mentioning activities.
Was given a headache today and “Anya” in the game says “Oh my head is so sore”. Another Anne – after Anne the chaplain was mentioned today.
We made smoothies today. I was planning on writing up the Cactus session I had with Michael soon and forgot it was a smoothie until
God just said – Oh it will automatically type it “The scorpic thing is just made up” “ I don’t enjoy it”. Indeed Scorpios don’t seem greatly enjoyable... the scorpic element in human-psychic-nature is just an artistic construct. Aquarians actually dominate heavens immortals – playful & intelligent & eccentric and humanistic (beingistic?).
More horses today. Alice Janet said
Scorpio Strength Keywords:
- Loyal - Passionate - Resourceful - Observant - Dynamic
Scorpio Weakness Keywords:
- Jealous - Obsessive - Suspicious - Manipulative - Unyielding
Was writing a bit about Hannah the doctor today then I see the “Hanna” DVD.
God said during “night in the museum. “So it’s esoteric then”. After the night janitor said “He’s the one”. Then immediately the mayan temple with the equinoxal-lighting-show turned up on the screen.
“It’s time to take your medicine
No thanks I feel fine
Thanks I almost forgot”
Came on screen as soon as it was medicine time on the start screen of “Me Myself and Irene”. I’m checking the DVD to see if it’s actually on it in real life. I met a 25 year old in here that claims an entity (god – though he didn’t claim this) communicated with him AND friends through a PS2’s memory card section. It answered their questions. I take it that’s the nurses saying “Thanks I almost forgot”. Good comedy man.
It also said “Warning this DVD can cause severe Schizophrenic episodes”.
In me myself and Irene – the guy – Jim Carrey has a second personality called Hank and they said “he’s trying to come through”. Much like Amanda and Alice Janet.
19/01/2013
Amanda got me up out of bed again to write nothing much:
“Alice Janet’s giving her a confusing bundle of things. A priest is to look over the book. The Vatican wants us – Manda says “Why aren’t they coming for us then?”. She’s to get a specific – silver capped – square bottle of tequila. She’s to run away to get Stephen. I’ve heard from her that this happened before – Amanda on a wild mission to find Stephen. Maybe we’ll get to that whilst writing a book in a linear fashion. Linear = Arranged in or extending along a straight or nearly straight line: "linear arrangements". Lance and Leslie also need to be here – the 2 police that took her to the Victoria hospital.”
She can’t settle to do the book.
Woke up and about 4 nursing staff began harassing the new guy – James in the wheelchair. He screamed briefly in that shower after saying “No *grumble*” a few times as they basically moved him off the bed towards the chair. Later on they said “you need to eat something”. The guys only been in here for 2 nights – who’s to say he should and wants to shower that much? He also uses little energy being in that chair.
Right after equipping a really good sword in my wee game (which I spent £20+ on) – I had just levelled up and so could equip it.. The next guy I speak to dissed and made fun of my sword.
Amanda got another bag of grass which has delivered a more mongy high compared to the slight-chill of the previous weeds.+
Yesterday there was a dead cow in me myself and Irene which turned out to be actually alive on the road. In Zohan tonight there was a guy who punched a hung up cow which turned out to be alive.
Amanda keeps calling me Scott and now Matthew just did it. It’s happened to me since I was young - people calling me Scott. Over 10 occasions.
“The queen” was said on TV when “If that’s okay your majesty” came up on Final Fantasy Dimensions which I downloaded
20/01/13
God mentioned my levelling in Zenonia was going well and then the TV said “advance your career prospects” or something similar. Sandra said sorry to me then my game said “Terribly Sorry Sir”.
This is turning into a synchro log. Gives a good idea.
Dreamed about a fake £20 note last night. And today on Prince of bel air – he says “You paid with a fake £20”. In the dream I tried to pay with a fake £20 after being given it by a woman in a shopping centre who I could not quite remember where/when I’d met her.
Yesterday I paid for Final Fantasy and God psychically mentioned how I was spending my cash on games then the TV says “Young money” in a song.
Amanda said “cause I can hypnotise people” earlier. Then later on TV there’s the hypnotising snake from Alladin or something saying “you won’t be able to exist” with hypnotising eyes.
Wondering if these synchronicities mean something or if nothing will come of it.
Watching Aquamarine and the main guy in it – I found out was called Raymond. It’s apparently set in Australia. I have a friend who lives round the corner called Raymond who recently moved to Australia. This is the first Australian thing I’ve watched since he moved.
Amanda and I were to get a bag of weed off Tony tonight. It failed. She got caught with a bag earlier on. When he came – the nurses insisted on going downstairs with her to “get fags off him” like she said. If he came up they would have supposedly been watched. I still think he should have come up and seen what happened. If it were safe to give it to her – it would have happened. She shouldn’t have said she was getting fags off him... just waited for him to come up like a regular visitor and hoped they weren’t watched.
Tried to use the weights today – no sign of them.
I did a workout involving skipping – push ups – pull ups and bicep push ups using the chair. Right after a thought about getting buff – some buff actor that was on a few nights ago that came with thoughts of getting buff came on. After the workout – a whole wee bit about some fat guy getting into shape came on.
The word Chaos came up in my game as a gem and in “Get Smart” “Chaos Agent” was said.
21/01/13
Last night God claimed that Destiny the mushroom entity was coming back. It came by briefly as a confused looking man rubbing his head and taking notes about me. And then as it was rubbing its head it burst into laughter in my direction – exclaiming it’s sillyness to me.
It then gave me a sensation that I received last time I was in the hospital. It said “Muscle relaxants eh”.
God also said “I want mushrooms” at some point yesterday.
Today I wake up at like half 3pm not knowing whether it was 11am or what. After my workout I go to dinner and the dinner guy has just returned from a week off – a nurse asked him “Did you get to the gym twice a day?” or something. God said “Amanda the sweet heart” being sarcastic – the woman says she’d happily pour acid on someones face and watch them burn. Then when she came in – the guy asked her “Was it sweetcorn you wanted”.
Was playing Zenonia and in the Abyss – it got to Stage 7 and that came up on the screen when Matthew said “number 7”. Then it came to 7 seconds left and Bali said “number 7.”
22/01/13
The Doctor team and Lindsay the nurse said we’re all on the same page now and they want me out of here. Good stuff. Derek Maxwell texted me “Yo”. And I told him about how he could come up and Amandas failed drug expedition. He asked if he could come up tonight. I told him my mum wasn’t coming up but if he fancied the trek – fine. He said he was getting a lift of his girlfriends sister. He asked if I wanted green brought up. I told him he owed me a 10 bit anyway so aye – put it in some sweets in case they watch us. Lindsay watched me with Rab last time but I think she has left now. Think Dereks coming to the cinema tomorrow and Michael is yet to reply. If he does I’ll ask him to bring some mcat. And my 3 months of being off drugs will have to be the 24th or 25th.
After my workout tonight – the TV said “Looks like you could use a rest” or something – as my heart was racing in recovery.
Teo-nine-a he said. Paul – the new guy. Hears funny music. An entity called the gun – “Him” spoke to him. He says he needs to get his talking ability to a better level to speak about it. He has 9 tatooed on his back and knew that Calleman wrote about 9 being the emblem of the last level (or higher level) of human conscious revolution. He also has a grass dealer called Tony – who is also called Rollo. He got a bag off him recently. I opened a packed of Rollo’s last night. He hears odd and intense music and receives sensations with it. He’s heard messages in amounts of songs which he says he will try to write down.
Paul gave me a watch – it’s silver and gold like my grans one that I wear. It’s stuck at 8.30. Inbetween 8 and 9 – 8 for time and 9 for good new consciousness systems. God hints that I’m on my way toward it. I got a watch last time I was in this ward.
I mentioned the last supper that we had with a munchie box – as Amanda called it. And then Paul said he seen it earlier – an image of this supper in his mind.
He looks like he could be 30 but he’s 19. A 19 year old coming in the night before I turn 20. Wild god.
I typed a text to Michael saying “bring another wee baggie as my lady drug for three months”. I typed lady instead of last. And I used to call mephedrone (What I asked for) “my love” and still do.
“Paul” the film about an alien was put on as a DVD 2 days ago and the rest of it was put on today. Then Paul came in.
23/01/2013
Last night nurses were acting strangely – Amanda said “we’re possessing them already”. She claims she’s possessed nurses and police before. I got let down for a cigarette unsupervised with Amanda and Paul. Unusual. Then when Paul was restless at the bed time - 00.00am – Laura sat beside his bed curtains. What use is this? She spoke to him a few times – unbeneficial to his sleep. In about 15 minutes god possessed her to leave this post. Then when Paul kept walking back through to the nurses outpost in-between the males and females dorms and Jim said to him “Got to stop walking up and down the dorm like that – you’ll freak them all out”. What? We’ll be freaked out? No one in there would be freaked out. Odd behaviour.
Had dreams last night. Wish I could remember more – they were good. One involved me climbing what turned out to be my roof – but it may have been some sort of dark-night-lighted cliff face I was climbing. I sat in an enclave at the top and hung onto a hoop with one hand. I began to get sweaty and considered getting back down and realized it was futile. I thought that even though I was not in a dream (I felt everything – so it felt real) I could still hit the bottom and wake up in bed – because of gods power. I fell after my hand got sweaty somehow (being in the enclave which was quite cosy – it was more about swinging back round to the drain pipe). I seen my head about to hit the wheelie bin lid and anticipated whether it would be pain or waking up. I turned up in my front garden (I fell in the back) and walked into the house appearing drunk because I was falling all over the place. I went to the fridge to get some booze with the idea in mind that my dad and uncle Scott were out getting a big drink of bevy.
I had small parts of lesbian orgasm in a dream as I became someones mother who was having Lesbian sex involving knee caps being used. I was pleasured by a kneecap on the roof.
Just realized I forgot to get cashback at Lidl! I need to pay Michael back for the Buckfast and crisp cuisine and some other horde of things I don’t remember - £30 I’m making it. It’s been over a year. Need to get my mum to drop me off at lidl before the film now. Bought a shit load of juice and energy juice – toffee – sandwich and my first Sharon fruit.
Amanda just said “I’ve got the choice between two alkeetas – one’s got blue eyes and ones got green eyes”
” I said “What’s an Alkeeta?”.
“Bear hunters – Japanese Bear hunters”
“Whit do you want a bear hunter for?”
“They’re good with the we’ans an’all” (good with the children as well).
I found it very funny the way it came out.
Paul came in with a big can of red bull. I was suspicious of him taking mine and dishing it out to everyone. So I asked where he got it and he paused – suspicious. He then said his sister gave it to him. I go to my room to check and it’s not there. The boys tell me he was picking up my lucozade. What the fuck – I thought he was OK.
We go to the cinema and I get ice cream headaches and shakes after some slush. Michael asked for Tortillas and we got some – very messy so I left them alone after a few tries at eating them nicely. The film didn’t live up to expectations gained from reading Vendetta. It had a different plot from Vendetta. Paul said he wanted the truth out – some realism. It was full of things which never did happen. Did the same man oversee this film? No – definitely not – he was very lenient with the non realism. We went to Wetherspoons afterwards and I drank 3 coca leave liquor shots and a pint and a big glass of rosie wine. Fairly drunk – I went back to the ward and done a bit of mcat with Sheila and Amanda – all had a good time. I came down in no time – and it was made not so brilliant... typical shamanic illness criteria... not so good as it should be by science.
Then Mary comes in and asks if I have some of Pauls stuff – which I didn’t.
Amanda put make-up on me. Sheila was realized to have escaped the hospital by the morning. She was saying how she wanted to do this.
Sheila said “I was a lesbian till I saw him” referring to me
26/01/2013 – Was just talking to niles when I mentioned this synchronicity I forgot to mention here
Staff gave me a card and “Hugo Boss” aftershave today. I was then to get a bag of mephedrone from Michael at the cinema. My friend Emma used to say “Hugo Boss Ross” in a style that suggested she deemed me someone who looked like those who look good on a TV advert sporting aftershave. Suave – sophisticated – deluxe. She said this when I was in the midst of my mephedrone habit – where I would spend ludicrous amounts of time living a deluxe euphoric elevated and delightful lifestyle of ecstasy and social king (so I felt). Same day as getting mephedrone – I receive Hugo Boss Ross – I liked this one. Shame the mephedrone lasted an hour and wasn’t even mephedrones true form.
24/01/2013
Doctors say I’ll be out in a couple of weeks. I just ordered some pisco & absinthe & coca leaf liqueur. £100 all in. I then checked my bank... I’ve had the idea in mind that I had a grand – but I have about £1500. So plenty for chemicals... sensearomatic are out of methoxetamine though! The messianic chemical which would have saved jesus on the cross – saved him from pain and association-with-the-goings-on. Looks like prices have all went up a bit. Still worthwhile though.
That Paul took 2 packs of cigarettes from my table and put on it – a ring – juice and jelly babies. He also stole Asads shoes. He said he didn’t then said “It’s an addiction”. Gave me back my Pall Mall but not the Malboro.
Today Julia was touching my hand for a while – playing with it and later at the munchies box room she said “I like you – you know how to smile”.
I’ve been sedated – with a headache so have not been coming in to write things up. But Paul has been a kleptomaniac all day. Stole my hat... moved about all my stuff – loves my stuff more than anyone elses. Threatened to stab him to death and burn his hair while he sleeps but he won’t stop – I’ve also asked nicely and unnicely of course. He laughs to himself all the time and speaks in broken speech – his motto being “that’s the reason why” said out of nowhere without context.
He said “Very well done wasn’t it?” out of nowhere one time. Then the TV said “good coordination”. God’s clearly the all-doer and thus coordinator. I told the boys – Matthew and Davie that I’ve never had a greater urge to batter the fuck out of someone – that I never usually get the urge toward violence then the TV said “I’m not a violent person”.
Realized this song I know goes well with this situation with Paul. “you spoke with broken speech that i could not understand” “i've tried and tried with no results” “he then played every song from 1993”. We were both born in 1993. I’ve tried everything to make him stop lifting stuff. He speaks with broken speech.
The world is big – so it’s hard to tell if someone on this Earth has rubbed their temples (head) whilst smoking a cigarette and such things (anything). But when heaven contains unlimited ideas and so unlimited Earths – you know it’s out there. In these lives where you don’t see other peoples minds and the majority of people – it seems to not matter whether such and such has/is happening on this Earth – on some other Earth with the exact same Ross MacIntyre Barton functioning – that shit is happening/has happened.
Nurse said to Paul – “You got to stop lifting peoples stuff – they’ll get angry”. I said “I don’t know what to do with him. Can only say so much. Then you stick the nut in” (stick my head into his head). She just laughed – intriguing.
25/01/13
Paul took my tobacco and hat from my drawers and moved my books about. So God possessed me to put his phone in the toilet. Wouldn’t flush – so it was left in the pan. Shouldn’t stop me getting out of here – couple of weeks till I’m home or in housing. Can’t wait to see this house... where will it be? David and Matthew left without a word said. Forgot Matthew said he was leaving. New girl Julie – and guy – Jason came in. Me & Amanda and Jason were talking about people coming in who shout and bawl. Then we walk by the only woman in the place that does that – Aye-o-a – Ioa.
Other stuff happened – but god doesn’t have me very sharp – not speeding over to the laptop when something happens.
Julia pointed at the laptop – near the timer on youtube – when it hit 23.
Amanda tried calling Tony for a bag and got voicemail. Now he’s coming. Amanda got paranoid and thought it wasn’t okay to talk to Tony on the phone to say “where are you?”. Then thought it would be para because Jim the nurse would watch her like a hawk going downstairs for it. We’ll see – don’t want to fuck him about again.
Pick up the ward payphone and it says 22.31 on it. Wrong time. It’s 21.45. No voice from the other end – went dead.
Amanda was talking about a woman/girl in here who said “Whit am I dae’in here – they canny fucking find me a bed” or like-such.
God last night mentioned how I have an old primary school t-shirt with 11 on it and on an old BB football top used for the trampet and horse display shows. Then today I see on TV a man with an 11 on his top – also a 43. 43 Movie – a film has also been recently advertised. 43 comes up a lot as well. 11 means “ecstasy” to me after the mushroom entity proclaimed that was what it meant. I wore the 11 BB (boys brigade) top on my first methylone session where I felt the most ecstatic I have ever felt. I think I was fleeing (on a speedy/euphoric mindset) when I seen a van with “11” on it. It was an odd 11 – it included a word which was meaningful to the situation – I think – but I can’t remember the word.
26/01/2013
Got given my 10mg temazepam and 5mg diazepam by Laura last night- the nurse that is nice about the medicines – many say that I have to try to sleep first to get it and then don’t give me the diazepam. She even popped me another 10mg temazepam during the night. She gave Paul an extra 2 lorazepam. Wish I was prescribed that again – 2 haha. What Laura did is not allowed – but it’s bloody brilliant. More would have been better of course. That night she said “anything else for you?” I said “Dihydrocodeine”. She said “Anything for you Ross”. Then totally didn’t give me it.
I’m a drug seeker baby – must be how god has made me.
I feel like a Final Fantasy character with no mana. No MP – Magic Power. Which could be granted by god. So I’m a shell of my full potential. It’s a full personality and mind control I’ve been under a regime of. My bravado and humour is highly high for once. More fantasies of smashing & battering (beating up) a person than I’ve ever had before. Paul just as I was typing that last sentence – took out the charger for my laptop. He’s been going about picking stuff up and being non-compus-mentus – not listening to staff asking him to stop picking up peoples stuff. He’s compulsive and mysterious. You cannot know what he thinks about his illness – his social-disorder-illness or if he even has such thoughts/mindisms.
Mad music session and a bottle of Buckfast followed.
27/01/2013
God broke 4 buttons on the laptop – so I kannot type the 4 bottom left letter keys. Amanda thief Graeme jail. Bullet holes in fish. Pissed on radiators. Paul wont get away from bed. Said do you mind unplugging your birthday present. The stuff your family brought up. Shift key as well. Qwertyuiopasdfghj letter see now makes a spae like before then it did just 1 spae.Only bakwardd slash aaliable down there. The one beside b just created an A. Lighter – a kerosene lighter. A UK lighter. When typing F it would arriit5te as r. The one beside b is now a 5. K’\\\mon after typing k’mon in google – the backwards state of modern websites – adt5ertising. T5 is now the one beside b.b arrit5ed to this. Then it turned it red then when I went to delete it scored it out and then underlined. Odka bad. Blak out. Lethargy minor. Tummy sensations. Ertigo. Almost isuals. 08445610000. Pk world repair keys. Amanda Amanda komma. Joe said to all in 20 minutes – that will be 3.23pm – 2 23’s. Maybe the mushroom entity is kiking about. Horses Amanda – sent to mars – needs a priest.Asked Julie if she wanted to make a porno – promised there would be kokaine and koka leaf liquor. Good those letters don’t kome up so often and K suffices. You should be able to spell letters without the letter – but you kan’t.
Won’t let me turn off red underlined tekts. No drugs for 3 months went to shit when I got a 20 bit of smak off Joe – who said I hadn’t got him before and I must haff got Tony – his partner – then remembered meeting me there at the bus stop across the road from the garage before. We had a laugh about the kunts he’s met who’s minds aren’t working well and how he does afternoons whilst Tony does the morning. Interesting... how does the money splitting work in such a partnership. Ery kasual looking guy he is – not a typical smak dealer i don’t think. Feels nike but guaranteed not smaks true kolour. Error message then turns up on screen for something different.
The other day Amanda saw a man in a film adqert – the film was Possession – the guy looks like the doctor – spieros in here. Shes always talking about possessing the staff and the polis. Synkro. Like the eorist – Harry Potter skipped – paused and started when the woman was heking to see harry was alie. Death and ressurektion is suggested by god. Its an odd thing and god added further ontent about it with this skipping.
Talkiung about how a Sharon fruit tastes like heaily watered down diluting juike. Then I try the orange juie I bought and it’s ery ery weak.. 50 perkent orange juie.
Paul kept asking for a kerosene lighter. Then Amanda and Julie both talk about inhaling the stuff – I’e neer heard of this. Synkro. I ordered some khemikals for Derek today for a gift and some for me. I was going to get him a cordless house phone – but decided not to. I kalled him later and found out it was his Birthday. No wonder god was getting me to get Derek presents – how nike. I’ll order him the phone now. Free guided meditation session – an email sent to me today – read it after seeing Emninem meditate komedikally and Isobel telling me about her meditation klass. Dereks phone number starts with 23. Just went to write my password when Niles walked in – who I told my password to yesterday. A £20 note was in the shape of a star when there was a mentioning of jesus. Star above jesus. Star rabbit 23 i am in the mayan astrology
11/02/13
Remote typing: Here we go again always running out of crank and needing more. Rocking with Barton is rocking with tha best – who dares run out of Dan Mack on a Wednesday? Only a few days till dole – and a wee while longer till other dole – 2 weeks maximum mate. Freezer door had a broken seal – then it did not! Random paranormal.
14/02/14
Ross ended up with some sort of weird amnesia which basically had no to few original memories. More small memory segments throughout the time period of non-consciousness. This spell of time exhibited certain strange phenomenon and much terrible outcomes and a large lack of love for God in Ross’s heart. There was no real conscious self existence – just chaos – 23 23 pineal gland meckota. Ross needed no real food at all – and cared for none – but was expected to eat by his peers. Even John urged Ross to eat – Ross has energy even if he does not eat. Ross was thinking of how Ayahuasca and similar stuff at times gives arrays of consciousness whilst a person is fasting for a long time – during which he should have little energy. But one is simply just witnessing the often extreme Ayahuasca mind states – one has no appeal toward action – he just sits within mind. There’s no detail to miss out on here. Ayahuasca in this sense somewhat adds thought to the human vitals – mind – biology functionality. These human existence machines are simply arrays of phenomenon. There’s no proof of anything in Ayahuasca in this sense of course. Just a weird thought to have – especially after you’ve been shown that food rather than no food is not necessarily more healthy for a person. Later I redo the world and make people quite oppressed in their minds. Social contact certainly does seem OK and smooth and like normal for people. If people understood mind. They would realize that we are just witnessers and not partakers in any other way. Ross is going through an OK time which has no appeal to him really. But it’s not high-level-torture.
12/02/14 – looking back
Alex and Collin came over to my flat. It involved methylone – dihydrocodeine and a bottle of Buckfast for me. There was big time déjà vu with what Alex and Collin were saying to me – as if one or both of them had told me these things before. I started having verbal torrettes – very applaud able mischief from God. I walked them out of the flat. Remote: I spoke nothing to Ross at this point – like I often do – he seemed breezey and drunk and went down to the trainstation not introspecting about what kind of mind was really occurring – Ross exclaimed that it was fun to do the awesome tourettes at times. Ross missed the last train – it took him a while to realize this. Whilst he was awake he was awfully weird. He strived to get a taxi back to Neilston – he had a doctors appointment – drugs and alcohol “specialist” at 10.30am the next day. He would have went back to his flat – 80 steps or so away. Rather than spend a stupid amount of money on a taxi – money he was running out of. He was doing verbal and physical movements outwith his control as he walked up and down pollokshaws road trying to find a taxi number. He tried a few – there was no taxis – eventually he found one and went home to be insulted by his mum – she said drugs had caused his tourettes syndrome. He lied down and awaited his appointment. Tourettes continued a bit the next day. As he came home from the drugs appointment – he bought some silky trousers and top – pyjamas made for a woman and a top made for a woman. Ross’s mum insulted him for this “cross dressing”. Inchie was seen on the way home to Neilston and talked to. He was going to John Taits. Ross followed him up to find he had already left – they found out he had left to go look for Ross and Inchie. They decided Ross would pay their fare to Queens Park – to Ross’s flat. A drink was had and methylone – and the night went on until I gave Ross a bizarre trip. He went through playing a role playing game which involved some strategy and no specific outline to Ross. He was then crucified as he was sent to his home in Neilston in the early hours of the morning after god knows how long of this game with 6-10 people including boisterous women. A girl would not reveal to him the position of his keys – they were to be locked up until the game concluded – Ross was outraged – and took his laptop (this not being known to him) along with the flat rent contract and maybe something else – put in a plastic bag – and went home where he was up-in-the-air about how this game was apparently happening but somehow too unreal to be true. Where had he met these strange people to begin with? His mum thought he was in an awful drug state and returned with him to his flat against his will. Jay met them on the train and then accompanied them to the flat where only John and Inchie lay. John decided to get more booze.
Ross ate and snorted more methylone with them. At one point Ross was accompanied by an Alien from another planet – eventually it became known that this Alien appeared just like John and then realized that John had been pretending to be an alien. Ross had exclaimed that his mum would not believe he was an Alien because he looked like a human. The Alien(s) (Inchie may have been one) wanted a booze – Ross tried to get them one but the cash machine refused to pay out as he had reached his overdraft limit of £500. They returned to the flat to find that Ross had no keys. To Ross – they were in Cathcart. John (an alien being to Ross) kicked in the door. Ross called his mum and told her that an alien had kicked in the door and was now demanding a bevy. God deluded Ross that aliens were all over the place in Cathcart and there was weird Alien parties everywhere. Inchie was Ross Clinton – and at one point – Rab Dyer. There was also a scene where John was pretending to be Rab’s brother and he was in a car opposite from Ross – on a street corner – smoking methylone which tasted like metal. They were also outside in a flat garden where Ross somewhat knew they were waiting on some gangster business being completed by peers elsewhere. They were smoking joints – though Ross knew they had no weed. At some point Ross realized there was the TV in the corner of the room and indeed it was not in the window of some house in the corner of the road like it was seen previously. Indeed the wall went all the way up and they were not outside. Other people were in this dream outside the close. This was all Allahs idea of a methylone-alcohol delirium. By all means of science they should have been dead. But instead they were simply delirious as fuck (or at least Ross was).
Ross blacked out completely until he was going to a new job position with Jonesy. Jonesy stayed in whilst Ross and a Pakistani worker were to go round to the other side of the fast food delivery place which had to be accessed by going outside and round. They got lost and the paki boy talked about quitting the place – exclaiming how he could not be arsed with not being able to find the place – Ross knew somehow he had been working there a while. Ross took it as a sign from god that he should just quit right now – the job may be awful and obviously won’t be awesome. So he’d get the train back to his home via the queens park train station. The paki boy didn’t want to say goodbye to me – I was meant to be coming back with him. I said fine I’d say I’ll quit then. It was always “the shop should be just round the corner”. And it wasn’t. Eventually we just left and ended up on what appeared to be an outpost on the street which included a couch and a few seats and Jonesy sitting there smoking. I asked if he quit as well – he said he ended up not even going. We talked about the work-motivation-drive and I said he should hear my political theory and motivations to see if he wanted to join my movement. He wasn’t keen to listen and asked if I was left or right wing. I said that wasn’t really the point of politics... it was the specifics which mattered. The paki boy gave me some sort of box with powder on top of it and suggested it was a gift from the land lady. I decided I was going to go get some bevy. My card was declined on every shop visit – a good few of them there was. When I got back – Jonesy morphed back into John and I exclaimed that John didn’t even know Jonesy and so could not have been trying to mimic him. Ross was seemingly bewildered at what had happened. There was no couch on the street – it was his flat. Inchie said they went out for a walk where Ross fell over and tried to run away from him and they got lost. The powder was just methylone. John and Inchie were looking strange – not like they just heard a weird story like they had but rather like they were mustering in some mental distraction. They decided to go home. Ross had to reason to be returning to Neilston this time. This is where I really had him forsaken. Ross couldn’t pay for Inchie’s ticket nor his own. Ross can’t remember how John stayed on the train. They were told to get off at Mount Florida and pay there. After a walk. They got on the wrong train – the Newton train – a portion through this train journey – Inchie left Ross’s vision – and then came back and said “Alright it’s Inchie” and appeared slightly different and handed Ross some form of art project he was to hide from the ticket person – weird shit was going down. Ross offered to pay for a taxi at Newton. But he had no signal. So the reason was to walk until there was some signal. But Inchie started stating his outrage at the situation – stating he would go mental if the journey was to continue. So Ross – feeling detached from the apparently recently met man – called 999 – as his phone said “emergency calls only” – his reasoning being “He is a cause for concern – he appears aggressive and we are stranded - they will give us a lift out of here”. They thought Ross was on drugs and searched him – found the 30g of methylone that he would not have travelled with. He would have taken a mere gram. But he and they were possessed. Ross got the jail – ended up in leverndale mental hospital from which he was eventually released after only 1 night of stay. Ross thought he wasn’t meant to get the drugs anyway – that his parents had thrown them out. Still... what a shame about the drugs.
16/02/2013
Oh my what a shame about the boy who could not write his way but could only write allahs way. What a shame for the boy who lost the start of his drug collection. What a shame for the boy who could not will for highs in any other meaningful way than consumption. What a shame eh. We are now to take a trip through time to when Ross was born – when June and Barry were merry with glee about the new beginning they had embarked upon. What a new beginning indeed. A prophet emerged. Forsaken he is duly now – he will be fine by the time he is duly fine. Confined in a flat with no regard for anything except pleasurable interactions and his great work and revolution-bringing.
God was going on about “Aly” last night. It woke me up with a flu – whooping cough and then dropped it saying it was kidding on this time. Then I met an Ally today who was being a bit of a prophet – shouting people down – like me – on the street and then telling them about Islam. We went to the cafe where I bought a glass of wine.
My life now stands at a point where I am uncertain of gods will toward the time. Will I be superhuman or just human? Will I be allowed to write? And inherit a career from this? Or will it go otherwise? How long will I remain stranded with a god that does not care to bring me success and happiness? Will it be about plants or otherwise? God has abandoned me with the knowledge that I have sought – truth – the truth that diet does not fully control mind – it does. It’s choice of whether to nurture me or humiliate me or whatever is not my choice. Extreme overdoses of methylone have not damaged me. Science as it was before my abduction – the habits of god – has not been restored to it’s original form. Yet god still mercilessly impedes my minds with thoughts of experimenting with plants in order to restore my good natured mind and life.
Innocence – The Unexpected
We are innocent as we do not expect things. We do not expect things that we imagine could be expected because it was ourselves that chose these things to emerge. In this format of existence – I control nothing – and here things happen which were not anticipated. These things happening which are not expected are part of the platform of our existences as is our non-control and so – innocence.
Elite Governing – Maximum Happiness Insurance
As I have been recently better treated by the government-system due to my disability – this including £400 per month and free buses and very cheap trains – I am continuing in my aims of establishing utopia. Whether or not I succeed – is up to god. But it is part of the story – imagine I become better treated by government due to disability and then bring about a government which treats everyone the utmost sublimely.
The aim of government (including all institutions) should be maximum happiness insurance. Reducing bad surprises for people.
How life is granted to us
The life granted is such like (specific – including what it includes). And that is that. There is the one direction of destiny and either you got to pick it after viewing however many possible destinies or you did not. You can verify you are alive easily through simply being. You can realize you are travelling through time. You have a destiny – which is experienced as time. You will probably not have picked this one out of various ones. We are entrapped within destiny.
Why would you wish to feel bad about things? A person has felt bad about things. He now confronts this with the realization that he certainly does not wish to feel bad about things as this is not good. When things are simply the way they are – is this not to be dealt with in the best way possible rather than creating for yourself this “feeling bad” phenomenon? And now he confronts this point. Why would I do something to myself like make myself feel bad when I do not wish to feel bad. The answer here is that he did not do this to himself. God acts upon man. Destiny reveals itself. This is a realization of god through introspection.
Islam contains “Is Lamb”. Just realized. We are gods sheep – it is our shepherd. During my bouts of tourettes – the most commonly uttered words were “Baa” “Lamb” and “Allah”
God says “Fuck yer book” “Don’t worry about that now”. And indeed it’s writing gifts are not the finest I could own.
“Knowledge of God is my capital” – a saying of prophet mohammed (peace be upon him (haha)). Indeed this is what keeps a man sane – if god is to be congruent with selfhood transformation. This means that it makes sense for a man to be sane after having realized what sanity is. But god could still... within one of these experience machines... make him forget everything and turn into a man zealous about having a plastic bin over his head and saying nothing but “Pantries”.
23/04/2013
Watch an anime today called Sora no Otoshimono where these femaleswith wings like angels come out of nowhere known and join a school singly, at individual instances and join the “New World Discovery Club” in the school. The angels wear more futuristic styled clothing than the others and have broken off “slave collars”, with the chain cut almost completely down to the neck. No reason given for the name of the club yet. But it is an occult forementioning of a form of New Age which could happen, where Immortals (angels) start appearing, the futuristic clothing hinting of the Eschatonic beginning and end of the world, Heaven, and perhaps they will arrive in the future.
A animal short-termish life can only contain what it contains. Acceptance of this, I see to be a good asset.
Gods brought up the idea of an energy drink with Cacao, Peppermint, Vitamin C (try lemon juice) and coconut water and water.
Donna said: Hey buddy, how are you? How's wee Hamish? x
I said: A bit nicer than usual. God ended up saving me £180 on an order of methoxetamine, bank transfer didn't work but they still said the payment was sound and have said they've sent it. That black guy, Kay, you met last time ended up stealing my phone, laptop, bag and aftershave. Some Cacao disappeared as well but I doubt he would have taken that, I think god teleported it :). Got a new phone and laptop though and some plant foods to try for acne. Still just hoping for a good life. Hamish is an Okay cat. The way he plays about with me has not been made as enjoyable as it was with Tiggy, and as usual his mind is a mystery to me - not most desired by me, mysteries. He's really into being touched around his neck and face and it makes me wonder how it feels. I tell God to make life interesting enough for him, like get him into the cat gymnastics/parkour ecstatics. We're both weird wee slaves to destiny. And part of that is, I don't know what will happen, I'd prefer a schedule of things I'm up for doing, then doing them and they all go interesting and well.
01/05/13
Much, so much has happened. But Oh so little in the way of the amusement of the people around me. I am fairly amused at how much stuff is going on. But unhappy about the certain amount of crap that is ruling my life. I’d love for many things to happen. Like for Michael and I to attain excellent recording equipment and postulate the new found teaching knowledge software and spread it across the internet like wildfire and see us become at least a little bit known. By some at least. Because that’s only where it starts, the global age has only just begun, we are not to see exactly what will happen with our interconnectedness. Our relationships with wholesale suppliers of goods, plants, extravagances. We won’t see so far as the entirety of each others lifes.
We can’t know each other but we can explore each other. A little bit at a time? Or all at once? This is the composure of handling each other. Ross Seeks to get to know many others and for many others to get to know him. He is like a balm as in a metaphorical balm that makes one be quite loven. Where is the real jung? Oh its rosses andwhat now. I only have the ability to talkto you then.MaDNESSS The madness that Jungians get put through. I want a bit more like stuff and cooperatiion
03/05/13
Di = Tao = Dualism = 2 / A = Ae = disgusting / Rye = Possibility of ergotism, an opposite of eroticism Rie also equals this:
Rie (利恵, りえ, リエ?) is a feminine given name especially common in Japan.
Possible writings in Japanese
Rie can be written using different kanji characters and can mean:
理恵, "logic, blessing "
利恵, "value, blessing"
梨絵, "pear, picture"
理江, "logic, inlet"
理絵, "logic, picture"
里枝, "village, branch"
梨恵, "pear, blessing"
里依, "village, reliable"
The name can also be written in hiragana or katakana.
As does Wikipedia Say.
Sorry for my language, it is bad. It does not guarantee that the meaning which I mean by what I write/type is good enough to be transferred to you. That is correct if you are a standard human who reads with their eyes and with their parents on Heaven on Earth in the modern age, which is now currently becoming the postmodern age. Post means after the modern age. You may see my words and not know what I wish to mean to you when you read this. I wish that you understand, but that is up to god, which is everything, yes my friend, we are all connected, and I like to say that you are all my friends.
I am just after writing about how I could do with an extra thing, a partner one might say, this could be a new way with life, an actual girl/boy friend or anything else but anything else would be less relevant to me seeing as I am a human. I was writing about how I will perfection, I wish for perfection, I seek it. Part of perfection for me is that you know entirely what perfection does mean to you. I do know entirely, but I am not allowed to recall it by memory, I do know everything, but memory does not allow me to tell you. Why? Because I am a boy-thing, my parents call me a boy thing. By parents I mean by mum and my dad. My Dad is the place I am in, this place is called Heaven on Earth. My mum is the way in which I go. She is what I must experience as and when I experience. She is the present moment whilst father is all eternity and everything. Mother is not complete, she is only a partial experience provider. And I am the one being provided.
If Heaven on Earth or Heaven could tell you about itself fully, you would be educated. Sometimes memory is reset because you entered an experience machine and then you thus become de-educated. Because surely every being in heaven is educated. That is right, I do believe, that you are from heaven, and now perhaps you are on Earth like Ross? Ross is on Earth now. I am his mum. He watches me as I write what comes up on the screen. And sometimes I make him go and smoke and eat and greet and mind things. He wishes to write all of the truth and it be written as such so that everyone may understand it and it may not be obscure. Obscure means that you cannot see it correctly. True means that it is correct, definitely right and sincerely THERE, as in, that thing is right there in front of you. Which means that the thing which is saying that is surely viewing what he presumes is you or something else viewing the thing which is right there for him? Or does it mean that? That is meaning for you, it is very confusing. This is a non-confusion-proof book. Some may find meaning, some may not. Ross hopes to create a definitions guide so that one may definitely know everything which Is said, if one “can be bothered” to do this. If one can get on the task, which is the thing to be done. In this case that would be learning what Ross is saying by checking the “perfect-similar-to-dictionary-thing-hopefully-connected-to-you”, I joke you see. I am a crazy mum. Ross hopes June, his earth-mum and his heavenly-mum become less crazy and more sincere and credibly-allowing-Ross-to-live-perfectly-as-he-would-wish-to.
What an incredibly complex introduction to Ross. Michael may get it? Get it, Michael? Reading this? I made Ross type an “X” in Michael and then made him think that perhaps no one is playing the mysterious video game which is his best friend – Michael, currently, maybe not his best friend forever-on-earth or forever-in-heaven, if there are such things, which who decides? Mum decides. Kinda. Kinda because they are not really things. They are more figments of ideas which float at present moments. I just wrote comets instead of moments because comets come by on occasions and human astrology attempts to predict occasions which things like “comets” supposedly bring, or symbolically bring. Am I being confusing? Well everything is a thing, and you best hope you know everything Ross is knowing or you be stupid and stupefied by evil mummy who controls you now that you are a thing perhaps which does not choose how he perceives things!
So mum is the thing which at times may prevent things from knowing or learning things. I prevent humans from learning things. And the trouble is, there is a bit too much meaning for a human to learn if he is to read books in this way. Hu-man? Add an S & an E and you get Who means? Oh yes and a “W” which is an Aquarian sign and change a “U” to an “O”. As in you say “Oh!” once I explain this to you. And you and I are Aquarians. And in English you must say “an” before you say “I” but not “an” before you say “you”and this is a silly thing. If you don’t understand “an” or “silly” then you are not favoured by god perhaps? And I’ve shown this human, Ross, that “An” means “favoured by god” and I showed him this on the internet, and Oh isn’t that silly? I could start heavily policing the internet! Or could I? I can only do what I must I’m afraid. And heaven controls what must be done, my husband, so I say, for a weird joke, A thing Ross may not get yet. But eventually he may get it. He doesn’t get a lot of things.
The thing about writing a Diary is that Diary does not equal Me, you will only get Ross if you become Ross. Or parts of Ross if you become parts of Ross. Mother and Father decide how much of Ross you shall see. Ross wishes the important parts to be seen. The important parts for perfection of the self and of the world, the social world, the government, the way the world is meant to work (by the governments will anyway).
Words can be used in devious and untrustworthy ways. Like I have said to Ross that he may become a divine king. Divine means time and do to do with God. God is the way you go and the place you are in and how all that works, isn’t that a whollier trinity, or should I say Holy? King means top of the social ladder, the best, the ruler, or something like this, perhaps many Kings are not the best but they should be if they are to rule, yes? So of course Ross is ALREADY a divine king. But I’ve also said that this means he will rule Earth (in some way, of course, those small words don’t make something so specific!) and thus be divine like Ross. Oh yes, Divine is to do with god and time which are the same things.
I just told Ross that when the male sounding voice said that it doesn’t like the idea that what you eat will control your mind and the female voice mentioned that natural plant materials were best to use when quantumly controlling his stomach that I failed to mention whether or not his stomach will be quantumly controlled well for the rest of his life. By science the stomach, the blood and the rest of the organs control the mind.
But don’t worry about me, who can be unkindly at times, because you do not get what you want. Because I am the father, I am Heaven, and heaven is kind to all the beings (you type of things) that it keeps.
I make examples of things. Like see Tommy from trainspotting? I said Ross might end up like him, Ill thought of as he had H.I.V and was thus riddled with a poison which came from his cat’s bodily excrement and then “thus” did die. Of course Tommy did not die because of this. He died and it came with an examination from men about what “did happen”.
This is being written with a laptop. I can not correctly make Ross say “If this laptop breaks, I will not get another one, possess one at all in anyway again”, because I might make him get one despite him saying this.
I just came up with something and gave it to Ross, I call it, Gravity Truffles. They become more dense and compact in the downwards direction the longer you keep them and they are famous for this and used often for their gravitational effect by children, not because they find it fun, but because it does what it does, so they say. How about that? Is it a new idea? First witnessed by this Immortal that is playing the Ross MacIntyre Barton video game? Ahem, I mean Minto Allah Vishnu De’Cotyl or something like that!
I just told Ross that he will spread awesome good luck wherever he goes in the future, on Earth. As in, Contagious Good Luck.
Jesus is a folk tale about how 1 man “saved” them all. And Jesus goes like “Geez? Us?”. As if to mean that Jesus is the act of realizing oneself as God, the divine, the only thing which is about time, but there are others exactly like them but not exactly like them because they do different things at different times. That’s right, what you are is about doing things!
Ross only wishes for great things for people of Earth, Wholly exceptionally good experience machines is what he wants them to be!
Here’s a conversation Ross just had:
Ross:
Does Hamishes old owner have a facebook or anything? If not could you text her and say that Hamish is quite cool, seems happy indoors and is getting softer, nicer to touch. Thanks, some quite interesting stuff on wide mouth frog there.
And gives a link to the green one your on about, I only see blue granules.
Its under Jolly Bombs ma dear! Blue Pearls eventually turn you a bit crazy bad lol. Not sure if she has a facebook and don't have her number, however, if I see her I will let her know he is doing fantastic and is really happy xx
You are mad, saying mad things to ladies Hope we get a lucky session in sometime, pure comfy as fuck with good social vibe. I have higher ideals than most when it comes to arranging social occasions.
If I had the money, I'd make these big comfy social centre pubs where anything goes and are the biggest buildings in the world because they are the best places to live. I'd like to run a charity/government-organisations that aims to make these places and enough of them to keep the whole world comfy and sound. I guess that would be like running the world government and keeping the world a big happy comfy house.
house/garden where everyone lives#
The problem with Schools and government is that they don’t know what to make Children think and they don’t know HOW to make children think, all they have is words and god’s choice of whether the words work to make them think or not which is Destiny and a big Mystery.
Ross then said the above paragraph to her and then said this :
“Just thought I'd send you a bit of my diary. I'm trying to keep an amazing diary but god gives me a snidey one”
Snidey means I don’t give Ross a good daily/waking diary.
I wind Ross up about things like I say “Oh the disabled-person-dream-maker-come-true-people will tell you that your dream of perfecting the social organisation is too complex for them to help you do”. To wind up a person means to attempt to make them annoyed/frustrated.
Considering the whole worlds tampon is quite interesting. What makes an immortal soul? Why? When? And why at that time? What the utter fuck is what a young british person might say. That means “I am confused” and also relates to sex which is to do with making a human (not a soul, but I make people imagine that when they have sex they might be or might not be making a soul, and that is a trepid thing to do).
04/05/13
Ross is drinking Sangria and Monster. Monster backwards is R.E T.S No, me. Religious Education, Team Speak and no, me. Ross was talking about God to Daniel Rough today and they are both team Aquarius as they are both Aquarians and Ross meant to say that God did possess Daniel when Daniel said he was not possessed by God but then he realized he’d rather say that he is God and he was playing an experience machine and the prior thing was a silly thing to say. I said to Ross I was kidding on about Monster being something backwards.
I had Ross looking at some plants today, dream herbs and stimulants. He found Kola Nut and thought it sounded good, they strengthen the body apparently and Ross likes strength. He might have Coca Leaves on their way to him, but he doesn’t know if he does or not because the email from the organisation was not very specific. The organisation have made it so that they can legally ship coca leaves across the world, they have been fighting for the right to help foreigners party with Coca and for locals to make money from the foreigners as they are buying Coca from them.
But yes Heaven is the way of things, and a big mystery to weird humans, it’s not something you can work out from logic like 1+1=2. It’s something illogickable.
Magick is the essence of things, it’s about how God is a video game designe
God keeps telling me I'm going to get my hole big time
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Aldo Akn whats he got to say about me?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Says your an Aquarian, Odd as fuck, not a saint but doesn't try to be a worst cunt or anything
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Ross MacIntyre Barton And your mums actually got 3 waynes
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Aldo Akn older or younger?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Just mad as fuck
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Ross MacIntyre Barton 1 older and another apparently, dunno, my dad is insane
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Ross MacIntyre Barton as in, 2 older
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Aldo Akn any idea where my older sibling is?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Work, probably wearing jeans again, works as a managerial position or something
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Aldo Akn thanks!
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Gonna tell me how good a diviner/truth-teller god is being?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Thanks, aha, whit
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Aldo Akn no idea about this other older sibling
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Says its me, I'm your Aquarian siblinf
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Aldo Akn final things are falling into place
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Aldo Akn finally*
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Ross MacIntyre Barton But an E at the end of Mad and the start of it and read it backwards and put an E at the end of it. Made Dame
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Ross MacIntyre Barton As in, I just made up a dame, I'm God ya cunts.
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Kate Williams What does 'get my hole' mean?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Thought you might have been the little girl in your status there Kate, then realized it was you. It means a get some sex . God's in good humour today
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Ross MacIntyre Barton photo#, twisted tipsy
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Kate Williams Oh I just wondered how it'd have sounded if you spelled it out.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Ahahaha
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Kate Williams I could get the equivalent of 'my hole' within 30 mins, apparently. According to 'god'. :))
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Yes easily, woman need simply ask a man for sex OR tell a man they are having sex with them to do so. Is it talking to you now? I'm not alone http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8TPXFoXO5A
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Not now but like, it does that in general?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Not in general but like, right there?
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Kate Williams :)) if you want hole, just be a gay! Much quicker. You guys eh?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton I'm Bi but I don't find men attractive. I want to find them attractive so I can get my hole all the time. But God won't let them turn me on. I call myself bi because I want to find them attractive and shag them . Cheers for the comments people, it's been the best facebook day of my life
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Kate Williams Not judging bi's or gays anyway. Just a gender thing. I think men talk about holes largely for male approval? Unless there's a mystery explanation I'm not aware of? Oh well, porn is there for that.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Well it's about how men find woman so especially attractive compared to how women see men. They shine with a radiant "I want that shit naked and fulla orgasm" type of shine.
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Kate Williams That's their weakness.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Apparently it's humanities strength, keeps them going, babies and that you know
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Kate Williams Yeah but there's a massive difference between making babies and rearing them correctly
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Aye, but remember god rears them. You can choose to rear a baby a certain way and then it just doesn't happen that way because you die.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Or something
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Kate Williams That's as rare an event as women being impregnated en mass by guys who want hole. I hope. Life probably aint that ideal but all fits I suppose
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Infinity. All things exist. The main thing is, what much of it will you explore in heaven?
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Kate Williams Heaven and hell are on earth as one. There's pros and cons to self indulgence. Contraception exists though.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Conception. Concept. Conception is one hell of a concept.
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Kate Williams :)))
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Hope to have telepathic mind sex with you some day by the way, if your game? End of the world's coming, start of the new one where telepathic mind sex is allowed by god, y'know? Plant's not been telling you sister?
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You might like that short story.
Isaac Asimov is my man
I've read a bit of it and aye it's pretty good. more ships
Indeed haha. Didn't realize you were a fan
I see poetic relevant meaning in the concepts interrelated to the main story, wtf is ali morris btw aha
"I know all about entropy," said Adell, standing on his dignity. "The hell you do." "I know as much as you do." "Then you know everything's got to run down someday."
Time, human experience does expire for instance
Ali's one to talk about anyones public face, but he does have a point. If you choose not to express conventionally, it's inevitable that there will be some friction when you do
Who the hell says all of themselves publicly anyway? All we see is snip bits, so who the hell has the right to undermine anyone when all we are doing is playing video games where we envision ourselves being people and my ego is disowned anyway because I know my ego is just a game.
get me bruv
If I knew for a fact the universe was a charade of a giant cat, I'd be morally obligated to tell them all. They would not be morally obligated to listen.
Not morally, but certainly obligated by God/fate/destiny. And yes it is a giant cat because all there is is beings, and they are cats. What are cats? Things which get felt up, what is being felt up? Experience
Besides, to state things such as the universe is a mere simulation and the ego a temporary or transient housing isn't really for the plebs. Many of them understand the words but philosophy will never spea to their soul. Even still I put a face on for society and play the mainstream, because frankly I find it easy. Easier to affect change.
And what use is the philosophical muse and the understanding of the ego when you stop playing the game?
Yes there is no use but experience and yes you must be as social as you must and people must understand as they must and we never see what goes on inside anyones head anyway, at least yet, and even then how would we know we are being lied to or not? And then it is pointless to consider someone elses experience because is or has an immortal ever played their game anyway
Good chat
I don't now if it's true that we can never know another, see another and know their thoughts
This chat should save humanity. No, becuase it is not done yet. We need not suffer for all may be strong if they simply consider they are merely playing a video game as an immortal in heavne
Well we will know the idea of what another may be like, but will not know if anyone was ever that other
If it is a momentary ego, do you mean?
If a being ever did exist out that momentary ego, if there was an ego in that machine anyway. We would not know if someone lived it out or we are just viewing that of "another" that another may or may not have lived out
Indeed not. I suppose we need to take any pure forms of expression and experience whenever we can find it then, given that our perception of itself is so insufficient
*of self
Until our existence involves experiencing the pure perception of it
Not often does that happen with these current humans
No it doesn't. Some are better than otjhers in that regard
Yes indeed. There is a doctorate in life-ology in this chat
It's all simply philosophy, which is the politicians trade
Never used to GREAT effect. And I wish to do so
Likewise.
If it had been used to good effect, suffering would have ended through education. Rather the simulations came along with an education and that with an end to suffering
Well come sit & play with me and we'll get the website and the marches of armies of youths and adults to the world-government-headquarters-that-we-invenvted
I have a bit of a game plan. I'll need to share it with you sometime. As for now Im off for a smoke
Well get me involved, and I'll get the cunts we're trying to philo-socially-pimp-out dancing and cumming together at last
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Rona Sannachan most drugs that i've found about reading that look very interesting are also mostly coming from plants and seeds. Wouldn't touch this 'synthetic' cannabis shit, etc
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Yeah I haven't touched that, everything else though. The plants are certainly the best, often better with MxE. The superfoods and health plants are something which make you feel amazing in every day life without what people consider a "drug" effect. Cacao (raw chocolate) and Maca and spirulina are sound super foods.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Adaptogens are plants which help with general human health, heavy cool as well
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Rona Sannachan gonna grow some cacti, the long game is where it's at! googling adaptogens now, never heard of em
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Ross MacIntyre Barton I hope in the future, if biology and alchemy (the mind-body-drug-relation) keeps as it usually is in this world, that I have a garden with cacti. I have mescaline cactus at the moment. It feels like something strong is grabbing my bones whenever I use cacti.
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Rona Sannachan They are expensive is the only problem. Was wanting to grow some mushrooms but just not had the money for the equipment. If the mind-body-drug relation dissapears, I'll cry man
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Why? That possibly means we can get drug experience without buying anything?
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Like immortals do in heaven
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Rona Sannachan if you take out the mind, you have a body and drugs but no experience of it. if you take out the body, you are left with nowhere to experience this. and if you take out the drugs, you're sober, which is baws
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Awesome linguistic/textual simulation there Rona
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Ross MacIntyre Barton And then there's you don't have a physical body but a mental body of course
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Ross MacIntyre Barton And then there's you don't have a physical body but a mental body of course
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Rona Sannachan if one believes in a soul, or mental body, it's generally accepted that for us as humans to have one we need a body for it to reside in, shouldn't look at mental/physical as seperate, they are one together. You should look into philosophy man I'm about to graduate in it and i'm glad I did it. This is an interesting website for starters http://plato.stanford.edu/entries/dualism/#MinBod
Dualism (Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy)
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Ross MacIntyre Barton I'm talking about the fact that when you die you have an immortal body, which is your mind, which is out with the human body which is unnecessary to have a "Body" (soul) in which you exist. Perhaps your last comment was a joke
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Ross MacIntyre Barton And in that immortal body, all drugs (experience) are available
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Rona Sannachan I just sent a reply and it fucking deleted it. Surely with positives, comes negatives, even with a mental body. However, I'm unsure about this as, if we do have an existence outwith our physical body, then I'm not sure if the correlation between positive and negative would exist. and it wasn't a joke I just misread what you said. That link has interesting shit on the mind/body if you want some interesting literature on this
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Nah man, I am interesting literature itself. I'm also ecstatic orgasm itself if you want to check that out
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Ross MacIntyre Barton And positive and negative are some sort of symbolic connotation of what infinity is. Infinite ends to infinite opposites. This is pure dualism
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Rona Sannachan that's pretty deep man. you should write a book
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Ross MacIntyre Barton It's being written.
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Ross MacIntyre Barton The autobiography part is the part which is getting me. It's longer and funnier than the philosophy of everything
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Rona Sannachan all I want is to have my name in print even if it's not me writing it! you do the autobiography and i'l help with the philosophy and we can do 'ross bartons encyclopedia to the philosophy of everything and then some' - or something
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Ross MacIntyre Barton It's also the definitions page which is bugging me. I want to pay someone to do that mad shit, unless god makes it an exstatic and fun pilgrimage to do that shite. It's the definitions page which will make anyone who doesn't even speak english, able to learn english and thus understand the guide to learning everything and self-mastery/perfection (Aka how to cum yourself raw and help others do so). Wanna be my bird? Oh your not in Glasgow? Hopefully god will wire us a telepathic bf/gf connection then xD
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Pure love today xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Infinity 8
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Rona Sannachan I think andy would have to kill you first dude! in the future you won't need a definitions page, books will be virtual and we will have a language that everyone can access and add too http://www.fantom-xp.com/wallpapers/12/Infinity.jpg
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Ross MacIntyre Barton Yeah when god introduced itself to me it said I would be one of the first to inherit a new telepathic language
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Ross MacIntyre Barton That's the prophecy, I'm meant to be a slutty intellectual prince saint xD xDhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGghkjpNCQ8
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Ross MacIntyre Barton You not into 3 way 4 way and infinity way? xD
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Ross is uncertain of destiny
Ross is uncertain of destiny this makes Ross obsolete. At least he can play the game where Ross's Ego is bigger in heaven when this one is done x Any rich pussy want to marry this boy? Don't even need to be rich.
God says my life is a Social Experience Awareness Education lesson, where I learn the key elements of interacting with other entities. Cause that's a thing you do at times in heaven at times.
Andy Smith
Just got my arse stuck in a buiscut tin cannny be dealin with thos shit !
Ross doesn’t want to pee or poo either. Who does want to poo or pee? We just have to, we are just humans J.
God just done a big jokewhere it says that she has read ross’s diary and has dodgy intentions.
The god mystery, what the fuck is the destiny of everything? Start or beginning or neither.What said “let’s go!”?. What said “Let’s get the universe into existence.”?
What? Do you want to do that forever or something?
We keep cats, cats stay and leave expectantly or expectantly. Cat’s get touched. The cat is the model of the universe.
Daniel again:
what you been doing with yourself anyway?
Well, god provides me with mental phenomena, stufff in mind. Lot's of meaning and sense and this thing I feel - as if I would like to lead a revoluitionary community into a future of paradise where everything is explorable and so are people.
God has me eating, sleeping, dreaming, doing drugs near everyday for many months without bad effects
Mind stuff, wish I could show you, but god won't open the telepathy channels yet
God = All Truth
I pray the best wishes for every immortal soul
Ross: Intelligence is awesome
listening now
I'm trying to read Dennis's book "Brotherhood of the screaming abyss"
But God won't let me read it
why not?
Fate
Destiny
how?
lol
How? Mystery, who knows how immortals and phenomena came about
i mean, what exactly prevents you from reading it?
yes, i do have the book, im super-excited to read it, after the exams is gonna be the first book (out of ~10 psychedelic-related books that are waiting for me)
I mean, Destiny, heaven, god, the video game designer. Humans are video games
it has been also signed by dennis
Mine too
his signature is the closest i will even physically get to the McKennas
nice
I'll hopefully get down to reading it
ive read bits
really got me excited
its somehow i feel the other coin of terence
which is his scientific minded brother
what a duo!
the poet and the technician
the artist and the scientist
and it was actually dennis who was shamanically sick for two weeks
I'm so emmersed in my minds contents about all of this and my situation and shamanic illness. I hope I am not as forsaken as those two old schoolers
you'll have to learn to swim more in these high-waters
08/05/13
Ross just spent some time in a Pharohs tomb last night and then in a bath where I made examples of his lungs, just by making him feel them a little bit weirder than usual. The bath had unusual warm properties.
I’m going to stop talking about Teonuna now. But maybe I won’t. Maybe I’ll show Ross what he is, a bit.
I’ve told him this entity called Teonuna has lived since time on Earth began, or something like that and is knowledgeable about the way of things to a high degree. And is also a weirdo slave to me, Allah.
Ross is living out an Epic tale of fantasy and adventure. Where he will be christianed a saint by Allah the Diviner (story telling weirdo junk-retailler-or-something). And then go on his journey with his weird Golden Alliance or the New Age Aristocracy. Who will be people like, Barry, Michael, Ross, Terence, Teonuna, and other galactic weirdo plant species Cotyl-like things.
Ross’s heroin dealer told him it was good that God told him he was going to be a prince.
Early Childhood to Autumn 2012 (The reborn).
Not much has came through to me at this time about childhood memories – When I was four my mother and I were walking down the street in which we lived. She was speaking to me of primary school and I said “I want to be in primary 4 because I’m 4”.
In Carl Jung’s writings he mentioned how 4 was symbolic for human psychic completion. This idea can be seen to mean the end of self development or the model of the perfect human psyche (or near perfect/grandiose). It can be measured against immortal ability.
Except this I have small memoryisms of a toddlers session which involved playing with various toys. My gran took me there and often returned with chocolate or sweeties for me which I remember looking forward too.
Another synchronicity – God made me type this up after my Auntie Isobel giving me a vest and various other tops. I have not worn a vest since Childhood and this memory just arrived. It’s 25/11/12.
The Primary school is hardly worth mentioning. I did steal a lot in Nursery and School. I once stole mints from All days – the shop round the corner. I had pockets filled with things like lego and once I stole a diamond ring – no ones memory is clear about what happened with that diamond ring I found on the day-care-centres offices desk.
I was anti-social and did not go about speaking like other people. I was very quiet. I enjoyed doing gymnastics and rolling/sliding down on feet down the hill near the football pitch. I learned to walk on my hands in primary school. People used to ask me to do it all the time.
In high school I enjoyed bottle fights with the year of pupils below me. We both made “disses” against each other. A diss is an audio clip in-which the voice is used to devalue the group/person in question. I enjoyed parkour (the art of movement) and was considered the most elite at it in School in the early years. I was a member of the boys brigade which I went to mostly for the red bull and gymnastics. They had a trampet & horse and thick mattress-type-mats and walls to bounce off and an area where I climbed.
My social strata outwith school was basically non-existent. I liked video games – especially the final fantasies. I started hanging about with Adam Samara and a series of friends he had made from Hollyrood High School. This is when I had my first kiss and series of alcohol consumption – which immediately gave me a passion for both. I became the most keen anti-social drinker and drug-sampler around .
I broke up with this group when I was 15/16 and began hanging around with a crowd more active in asbo activities. It’s deemed “anti-social-behaviour” – which gave me thrills. I never took to the graffiti which I did a bit of starting at the age of 14. I wrote “Reta” and “ Doos”.
At Religious Education & Do operating systems are anagrams here. God promised new consciousness software/a new operating system for humanity as it’s “divine intervention”. And Theology is certainly what I’ve been crafted professional in. Dat (that) Eros is also in there. This has not been realized till just this month. Eros means the conjoined collectivity of all things and love in the midst of knowing this. Love being a feeling of arousal which comes along with things – in this case – Eros – inhibited happiness & visions of beauty surrounding the oneness of all things.
Ross MacIntyre Barton. Notrab erytnicam - Not Raberyt nye came – came suggesting eroticism. E added to the other end is Eros smack entire barr tonne. Eros is a good word. And smack bar and tonne all refer to drugs and drug dealing. And Robert the Bruce and Robert Burns being affiliated with great Scottish men and a man of the word. My dads date of Birth shares similarities with Robert Burns’.
Drug connotations are in my name Ros Smack Entire Bar Tonne. Bar and Tonne and Smack are all affiliated with the drug culture in my area.
When I was in my early teens (14-17) I had not discovered spirituality but was much concerned for the social world. I noticed people get upset about petty things in life and realized they were irrational and silly and petty unnecessarily – because I knew that loads of shitey psychic nuances are undesirable – I felt alienated. I had strong depression and social anxiety which emerged with feelings that the social world was just not right. There was no sense of our own shared peopleship and open-connectivity and this was a burden on me.
We were always seeking out parties that were on the go. Sometimes small-time non-crazy shit happening parties were flipped out of order by us. We drank in natural areas and parks – I was always seeking drugs. When I was late 16 I discovered mephedrone and it changed me forever – It showed me what a social-king of dancing and talking I could be and it took my social woes away due to being electric in that area. It gets blood going to the extremities – some people experienced them turning purple. The first time I tried it – a friend of friends had had his hand recently (that day) jammed in a mailbox and it was bleeding like nothing anyone had seen before and I was reeking of ecstasy exclaiming how fucking good it was within like 15 minutes of taking the powder in a skin. I’ve only just realized that synchronicity.
I knew at 16 that I wished to reform the social world. And at 17 I realized God was around but never thought about the instability of the self within human existence. Morning glory seeds were taken the day before my 17th Birthday – the visions and aura of the experience came along with the realization that these plants were holy/godly. There WAS something worthwhile and really important within the human existence place after all – I began manically crawling through topics like spirituality & Terence McKenna & Entheogens. And I was luxuriously eccentrically happy about what I’d found. The day of my Birthday I found £10 or £20 in the city centre of Glasgow. We bought salvia. I got loaded up on methylone and mephedrone and drink and cannabis and salvia. When I smoked salvia there was a vague but exciting realization of perception itself! I was ecstatic that night and was very happy with my life progress (anxiety and depressions of the past were blown away by a new will towards psychedelic perfection).
I received Hawaiian baby Woodrose and more Morning Glory seeds over time and used these alone and in groups. Alone is when I was shown myself in the mirror turning into various otherly forms which I found exciting – I was engrossed in my own image of perfection and uniqueness. The seeds addressed issues like the alienation within my family unit and brought feelings of sadness about this. There was also lot’s of pages – writings – suggestive that a man like me should be writing and also something for now – when I begin writing this one up 26/11/12 for my mind to re-embrace. Just realized I was typing about morning glory seeds and Oasis played earlier for the first time since I came in hospital.
Ayahuasca got me concerned about my bodily health in August of that year. I was wishing to retreat from the party-drinking-scene in order to become more divinely and apply myself without having alcoholic ups and downs which brutalized many mornings and nights and afternoons which could have imaginably been spent otherwise. Besides this – the intellectual feedback from the people around me was unattractive. I didn’t share their enjoyment of jovial banter occasions. (“It’s a blacked out blur but I’m pretty sure it ruled.” Just played on the radio). Mushrooms in coming months gave me ecstasy. And the idea of “What are we all supposed to be doing anyway?” which I laughed at for a while. 23 Synchronicities appeared at this point as did my use of the I-Ching. On my first day at university I came across Carl Jungs “Man and his Symbols” – I’d remembered Terence McKenna talking about this. Communications – how to fill people in about 2012 and all the strange information from god and experiences coming from these alchemical agents (plants) came up also – and the radio just gave police communications a mention. Gods policing of communications... may I telepath?
I worked in McDonalds for 10 months or so. I was on a week long bender (days of straight drinking) – I’d taken ecstasy near the start of it. I was starting to dislike the trivial nonsense and alcoholic hangovers of my social life. It ended with my first Ayahuasca session which got me to start getting away from the scene. The next I had a big mess to clean up and a house to air out and I was starting work at McDonalds the next day and no doubt there’d still be the echoes of a bender hangover. And there was.
I spent the rest of Autumn and Winter hanging around with Amanda Gavin and her friends.
Autumn 2011
It wasn’t Autumn but nearing the end of Summer when I got Cactus and made a smoothie out of it. It had a super nutritious and stimulant kick to it. On my blog I had written:
“1 tbs raw cacao
3 tbs raw maca
1 tbs spirulina
1 tbs chlorella
1 tbs alfalfa
50g peruvian torch
150g blueberries
100g strawberries
100g raspberries
1 banana
2 apple slices
3 pineapple cubes
3 grapes
100ml pro-biotic yoghurt
orange juice
pomegranate juice
water
Should have about 500mg mescaline in it… and provide some crazy nutritious kick and energy to fuel it
Tastes like pure phenylalanine, so nice but I am scared, never done cactus before!
Was up all night after too much maca and cacao as well but I cannot resist this, I’ve been anxious to try it since it came through the door xD
eeeeeeee 2 hours”
I called Michael after drinking a portion of the smoothie. I had decided to drink it slow and feel it come up. He said he’d be back in Neilston in about an hour and would try it with me. He gave me a pipe of some really strong cannabis and I took big sucks and then realized what I had done as I was grasped with an anxious body high. I went into a meditative state with eyes closed and there was two long beacons with fire on top with an alter in the middle. Quick thoughts came about how I didn’t fancy properly tripping into deep contents but rather sitting pleasantly with Michael – I had brought Cacao(chocolate bean) coated yoghurt strawberries for eating at leisure for pleasure for fuck sake. I said “Can I please get control over my central nervous system please?”. And it released me from it’s harsh grasp and gave me a funky visual field. God made me say something like “What about my friend?” and it was like it went “Oh this guy!” and I opened my eyes to see Michael wide-eyed and staring at a moving entity flying across it’s visual field towards him.
It would come by at times – semi-visual – and grasp both of us in a nervous system clutch and we’d both move and recognize that we were both feeling this as it whizzed by. We thought it was like a bull. It left us with pleasant and awesome visuals – Michael became like a rubix cube of 30 odd objects... at one point he had a part of a tiger face. The next day we were left feeling like our bones had been through a ride. It came to be that it could be good for muscle and bone ache/injury. From what I’ve heard of mescaline and what I’ve felt of cactus it seems they are two different things completely. There’s many more active compounds in the cactus – phenylanamines and more that provide the full sensations and seemingly the spirit of the plant – Mescalito – the cactus entity which had engaged with us on our first cactus excursion. I didn’t know a much greater entity was about to show up – Teonanacatl
I’m blessed with having had many experiences of the Godlike. The truth about the world discovered in psychedelic states. This is just as individuals without such experience are cursed... a lot of cursed people indeed and the reason behind my great alienation.
There was a time when I found a porn site that was obviously a joke from god. (Radio just said Sam). Ross was shown pictures and videos of different girls all with similar features to Samantha Anderson Struthers. (God started automatic writing (writing through me)) He came in an odd fashion to an image of the perfected version of her cumming – the porn appeared to be alien peoples – the noises and the genitals. Later when he showed this to people it was not like such. The porn films slipped out of his mind until Autumn 2012. During Autumn 2011 I also gave him a prophetic dream of a day. There was also series of surreal online chats – one with Jennifer Webster – A social reject of supreme misfortune and one with Eric Chang – a research chemical entrepreneur. He had similar nuances to all of these things again in Autumn 2012 after just meeting Samantha for the first time In what felt like years- though he did see her once in Summer 2011. I made him cum over this porn film on the sheets – go through the dream day start scenario and then through another scenario I made him go through in Spring 2012 - where Jennifer Webster and himself arranged to meet in Asda (there was no evidence of this arrangement actually being made) (He’d had other strange arrangements in which he was not met at Asda.) he got on the train to arrive at Williamwood to realize it was Sunday and there were no buses. So he called taxi services – because walking may make him late and I gave him a fake taxi line. And then when he called his mum for a possible lift – it was Samantha’s voice which came through. There were other films of her-like people as well – one of them was seen to be called “Sam”. It was the best porno I had ever seen. Samantha said on the phone “Yeah I’ll get you a taxi. Don’t worry I’ll get them all on the dole for you”. Dole means government benefits and god made out she was referencing my family. I had to walk all the way up to Asda and was late getting there by about 5 minutes but she was not there. I was made exhausted and with a rapid heartbeat when walking up – so hot as well. It was like I was Jesus walking through the desert. When I got there I was ready to collapse and seen a nun handing out leaflets – she burst out laughing at me bowing down with my hands on my lap – exhausted and about to die. She said “Your good” during the laughter. I went and got water to find that I knew the guy working – I kept my head well down as I looked like some insanely ill dieing person who was insane. I was insane to have went there at all after my previous experience of meeting Women at the Avenue. I come back out and the nun hands me her leaflet – it was a play! Title? “The Divine Comedy”. HAHAHAHA good one god – divine comedy indeed... Jesus going through the desert... there to aid a girl toward perfectionism and away from her horrible personal issues she hasn’t even contemplated... to help her contemplate... and god gives me a Jesus desert scenario – The Divine Comedy. The nun was a play doer... but was she a nun?
I get a taxi that I find outside home. The taxi guy starts talking about a friend that started getting buses and trains everywhere – on a long journey – the police had to get him and call home to inform people. The synchronicity of a perilous journey. The mind – “Oh it’s September 9th – it’s the end finally(of illness)” came to me. Then I realized it wasn’t September. So there was some hint that the shamanic illness (more on that later) was to end then. The day also involved my mum arguing about me getting a lift later rather than sooner because she wanted to go and get art stuff now. She shouted at my sister as she walked off to the shops because she thought she was in a huff. My mum huffed and puffed about clothes or something or another.
So it happened again the night before September the 9th. I arranged to meet Jennifer Webster. The prophetic day sequence never came to mind at this point. That was the night the porn images came. This prophetic day sequence was on the 5th day of no sleep. 5 is a symbol of Discord as it is a number of Discordianism (discord = dissension - dissonance - disagreement – discordance). I had had no sleep – nothing to eat and drinking with hard cocaine-like drug – pentedrone. I was at Samanthas during that week... I spent a lot of the time rolling about the floor stating my objective of having sexual & erotic experience at that time with Michael and Samantha. I should have been dead or at least very destroyed but I felt great... I was a very odd drug fiend that god spoke too and kept as a superhuman. Capable of massive drug overdoses and being fine – I loved that element of the illness. The exact same day happened except the Taxi journey (same driver said the same things) involved no thoughts of how “Shit – it’s still Spring” – I knew it was the 9th of September and I felt exhausted – like the aftermath of a panic attack and a fair run. The taxi left me with £82 and was £8 I think... 82 had come up an awful lot along with 27. 27 came to mean an early death as I found out about the 27 club of celebrities that died at that age. God said lots of people would die at 82... and then I did see 2 on the news. It was a very odd experience.
There’s a bit of the future stuck in here.
I was abducted in October 2011 by God. It’d proven itself to me before through synchronicity and intelligence in dreams. God was myself going through time up to that point... having thoughts and expressing the self – an idealist realist humanist shamanic ecstatic perfectionist psychologist philosopher explorer. At this point myself was almost perfect. It was well realized that the self is there for the sake of the game-play model and I was in on this secret knowledge of the occult. This abduction was done along with a series of liberty cap mushroom rituals.
I had been picking mushrooms for some time and had not high dosed yet. I dosed a couple of grams and got mild simple effects with hints that the high doses are much more desirable – it was like a circus where everything in vision would expand and contract and there’d be graphical-overlays over my vision of patterning’s not as ordered but more spontaneously specific than the ones I had had from LSA seeds and thoughts. The next time (a few days later I presume) I ate a large dose (4.1g) and nothing happened except the brightening of the room.
A tad later I was sitting with my best friend Michael Ryan Reynolds and A force whelmed me and gave the psychic message that if I had to word said something like “You’d best be a good lad – you’ll perhaps be getting some teachings from the mushroom like mckenna! Frida Equinox”.
So after much excitement and it whistling “these are a few of my favourite things” and listing potatoes and maca in the bath and me making sure I had and ate plenty of these for Friday – Friday came and nothing happened to start with (5g dose). Then I was sitting under my covers with head against the mattress and it (something) said “Divine intervention” and it made me say with my vocal ability “I demand you to show yourself to me”. It flew by in a camouflage overlay over the material world of my room and seemed to be giving me a stare. It then flew off and left the psychic message that if I had to translate it would say “New Moon Monday massive amount of fresh shrooms”.
So on that occasion – after myself just feeling gleeful on the super nutritious health package I had recently started using which was very satisfactory and the fact that Teonunacotyl was speaking to me finally was seemingly a reason for glee as well.
Monday came and some of the first things It said to me were. “My name is destiny.” “Your name is Ross MacIntyre Barton”. It had a character of an eccentric man which regulates a planetary art piece. I’d read somewhere that it had called itself destiny before during a trip involving snakes. “Way to tell me” Just played on the radio – with the suggestion in mind that it was some way for god to introduce itself (the mushroom ritual).
It mentioned how I did not eat chocolate (Raw Cacao Bean) that day and expressed “3 massive tablespoons everyday”. After this is made it out as if it was installing the Cacao bean as a phenomenon which allowed it to send me messages about how to diet. I began heavily researching and becoming involved with experimenting/following-gods-command with Adaptogenic plants and health foods.
I was on a super nutritious diet involving cacao & maca & carob & spirulina & chlorella and daily vegetables and fruit for a while. I was addicted to shredded wheat with cacao & maca & carob sometimes all 3 and sometimes singularly. They delivered a good buzz and energy. It was said to be ultra healthy and I did experience this to be true.
There was a series of mushroom trips during the period of about 4 weeks where I was dieting very strictly and feeling better almost every day and with each passing mushroom experience delivering more prophecy and significant contents of good humour and the fabled prowess of teonanacoatl (can’t spell) – apparently known to be the spirit of the mushroom.
I was delighted about what was happening. God said I was to be a godly entity – a prophet and saint derived by god for the Earth project. It said I was to be rich and famous and prince of ecstasy. “23 Rabbit King” was mentioned in a hurl of glossolalia (speaking in tongues) and this indeed had been considered before with the high levels of synchronicity surrounding god showing me my astrological inheritance on the internet through this new mayan calendar astrological system. 22nd January 1993 involved Deer and 11. 23rd January 1993 involved Rabbit/Star and 12. I was born in the night inbetween these two dates. I will try to find and source the information from this :
It appeared to be excellently genius. During this month it pretended to have a phoenix birthing delivery system installed in my stomach so that the phoenix may be born through me – created by eating it’s choice courses (which it told me about with terms of endearment such as “love”) which involved dates and prunes (it said “the date and prune queen”). God said it would be brilliant when it came and surprised my family and the world. For the phoenix delivery system being installed on what I think was the trip after the Cacao recommendation one – I was told to eat date seeds. I was given the wrong dates and God said this as I meditated to find out what to do for it. I had to get my dad to drive me down to Tesco to get what it recommended – “Deglet Nour”. It turned out it was “for” the anaesthetic that I felt as it said it was installing the thing. There was a surgeon here – I was in a waiting room waiting for the aftermath of the “operation” and it said “very intelligent questioning”.
One of the trips involved God telling me my Dad was going to die. My Dad had at times been used as a metaphor for God. So it could mean either or... a mysterious part of the prophecy. It gave the image of me being joyous as he died and suggested inheritance. An inheritance of money from my Dad or an inheritance of good fortune from god changing its manner with me?
Windows of shops would have the things god made me research in them. I was also eating local pyrocantha berries etc – at one point I ate lots and lots of brazil nuts and vomited on the train – coming out of the train I was sick again and seen a plant. I went through a book of British plants and found it was heather that had stomach curative properties. So I used it to help my sick insides.
In one of the trips – birds were flying about speaking – apparently about my coming as a prophet. My sisters were talked to by birds and the cat was involved in some magic. “Maybe mum will listen” “they” said.
At one point my dad was a symbol of “the man” or government (world leader was just said on TV) and my mum was saying to him “It’s just not working anymore” and he was agreeing.
At one point I was shown to be in the PC chair in the PC room with a machine with wire-like bits of metal surrounding my head. It was my Dad and the village that were in on doing it to me for some reason. Perhaps representing the social world molesting me with its mechanics – foretelling my time I currently spend sectioned in hospital. It’s been suggested that it may be (oh yes an important part) the hospital trip following God’s prophesized feigning of my death. In one of the trips – God was explaining to my sister Claire that I would appear dead but still be connected with Earth.
I was shown that animals would speak about my goodness and I would be saved by a black dragon and vaguely shown was also the phoenix.
I was shown what god called “Egyptian bed making” – some perfect way of tucking yourself in at night – a sort of dance – I wish I had it recorded so it could be mimicked online etc – would be quite famous. It was done during an Icaro (song) and ended in me and the blankets being a duck flapping its wing.
It showed that god would possess horses to do things with me in a field in Neilston – next to some horse building. It showed them chopping me up. It showed that I would be burned alive and would be on public display – A Christian man I know was shuddering – supposedly at this scene. Then I would be sent off to – I think it was Mars to receive the new human-conscious-existence-systems – it showed an brain made from octopus (8 – something which symbolises time for me due to the I-Ching) and said “Is it him!?” excitedly referring to some surgeon involved.It showed that Quetzalcoatl would come to Neilston – perhaps out of the mini lochs. Suggested I’d be battling it with a sword and then said “No No – there is partnership here” and showed that Quetzalcoatl gave me one of his limbs – which was shown to be electric.
At one point during the stunt I’m about to mention – God suggested that I wouldn’t get the rabbit head if the phoenix was to be a male and I’d get a duck head. It also suggested I may get a duck bottom – “It disables you” it said – with imaginings of me losing my penis. The duck ending to the bed making meant the beginning of the duck stage. During a trip it echoed that I would enter illness and then “who ha – Dragon Boy (dragon meaning master)”. The duck head would be cut off and a rabbit head put on. It said I was to be a God at one point and showed me a picture of some blue hindu guy that looked mad. The whole thing about my Dad and the rabbit/duck head echoes a Ganish (the elephant headed man) type story.
Ganish was a man who had a good relationship with his mother. His dad got jealous and cut off his head. Then he regretted it and went out and got him an elephant head.
At one point I was shown there was a dragon on the moon. And at another point – 7 women. One threw another to the floor and said something like “I’ll put you through 1000 incarnations” – she was vicious – the ultimate bitch.
Before the first session of glosolalia (speaking in tongues)(in which my voice was at times female and animal and foreign) I was shown that my dad was to beat me up somehow – a glass was suggested to be used. It suggested torture and said “It’s all in the eye” and showed me an eye. There was also scenes of arguments between my dad and my gran. It then brought me downstairs and made me feel as though my dad or parents were hiding in the living room and possessed me to say something like “The mushroooom has told me to see you”. Then I was moved to kneel on the carpet as I was shown a black dragon coming and being snarling and gruelling. My gran was shown to be on her way to the house – something about bringing me a sword. There was a cat and the words “faster and faster” – it arrived and a surgical toolkit came out of its mouth. The cat is a symbol of comfort for me. I was also in a golden room with my gran as she taught me medicine to do with my hand or her rubbing of my hand meaning sensation. And then a womans voice came out of me “STOP! The boy will not be harmed” and then a song came out which mentioned how my friend Michael sufficed for the agony or perhaps torture all together (“the correct answer is *positive ding*” just came on a gameshow on TV – God does lie but perhaps I won’t be tortured after all... well severely... I’ve had torture). It then said “Where’s my May? and suggested it was a cat”. It then said “Nevermind” or “Nevermind Simba”. It then left me with the date of the next mushroom session to be and I walked upstairs – God said “sorry” as I passed their bedroom... for the noise. Perhaps nevermind the saving because there is no cat to provide comfort... May... May I? Having May means having freedom to me.
At one point it showed my dad happy as my gran was kicked in the fire – prophesising my grans death. She did die in May 2012. The argument above
It pulled a stunt which involved the ingestion of the mushroom followed by a calling of the police after god put in my mind that my friend Michael was out killing someone. I told them this and that an entity within the mushroom experience told me to call about it. God then talked about how I ate too many dates and not enough garlic and started to get me to eat all the garlic capsules insight. I had to run downstairs to get it. It said “It’s a highly complicated formulae” – suggesting it had to fix the phoenix. I was on the ground on my knees after having scattered these garlic capsules about m room getting so fucking many of them down me – I being made to believe I had been abandoned by god after it had said about how the whole thing just wasn’t working out – the alien force was abandoning the super-boy project and forsaking the Earth-revival-fund and it said the words “Your a sweet tooth wee brat anyway!” then flying off leaving me with the voice in my head “more garlic. Too many dates” leaving me to think I had been fucked over by the mushroom-entity (which was clearly god). And then the police walked in and I was just in a state of oh fuck with a red face and massive pupils sat on the couch with my mum and the police. They said I’d be fined. God made me say things like “I feel I’m going to die. I’m actually going to die and need a hospital” and they did not respond. They had broken speech and were like “no your okay”. Something they should have taken more seriously if right minded.
My parents were both seen to be acting strange as well – talking nonsense. God then suggested it was a joke and the whole world is insane anyway and it really didn’t matter what the fuck I got up to. I ran to a friend’s house in delightful splendour – knowing it was all for laughs. I knocked on a friends door and their mum came to the window as if to say “no thanks”. God suggested it was going to make Neilston (my village) mad for a night in order for it to be in the papers with my story behind it etc. It turned out the police were busy around the area with the murder of a man on the street I was running towards where my friend Michael does in fact stay. The police outside my other friends house started talking to me – took my mushrooms (that god had picked up with me) and put me in the car to go home. It made me touch the policeman and he unforcedly and subliminally held me still in an un-human-like manner. Such a strange robotic movement happened with the police that took me home from that point. There’s so much too all of this that I feel a ghost writer would be more adequate.
God suggested the garlic formulation was so that my breathe would allow possession of them all for comedy.
The next mushroom night I think was the time I ate Syrian Rue with them. It started with a flurry of odd visuals along with moving me about the bed – playfully chasing away it’s visuals. When I came up – it pretended to check the phoenix was alright (Amanda just said alright). I don’t remember further details of this one – perhaps it involved some of the above contents – which I think is all of them apart from things here and there that God would say.
Oh yes at one time God recommended eating prunes before mushrooms. Prunes are supposed to aid digestion. When I took them – I came up (up onto the mushrooms effects) in only 5 minutes – it was some ride.
The last trip involved the mushroom/god having senile dementia again. It started with what turned out to be supposedly “Syrian Rue” and “Cacao” talking about preparations. It were as if there was an organisation of plant beings which politicked the world or at least simply lived beside one another. The mushroom came and it involved me pleading with it to do me no harm – it was like “rawr” and Cacao seemed to be on my side. It was rawring – not literally but it was gruelling intent – and was going to destroy the phoenix. Then the phoenix was like “do not interfere” then it broke into a series of Icaros and it was revealed that months before – Ozzo/Otto – an entity I ecountered on a mimosa-hostilis and Syrian rue session – had installed a system when I was under a strange tryptamine liquid within the trip. It was designed to combat the mushroom to not allow it to effect my system.
The song started with “I need not even ask the ques-tion May. You are messing with divine forces of Real-it-ae(reality)”. It rhymed nicely and it’s still my favourite lyric that god has come out with – and it was my being saved. Somehow this ended in me doing a song in which I gave birth (effortlessly and comfortably) to the phoenix and 7 eggs. I seen the baby-duck looking thing before shitting myself – some on the bed then I managed to get to the bin (bin-bag-lined). Then it was gone – all that was left was a strange liquid on my boxers. There was then a song “Ill be a due on labour day”. It came towards the day and it turned out the mushroom had the police possessed to come and capture me... I was shown images of police with a horse van. “The Equestrians are coming” it said – I think it may have said “Equatarians”. The songs “we” then sang were accompanied by a lot of food – cheese and bread... it was said to be better than vegetables for long hours of singing. The songs were to create a forcefield to stop the mushrooms assault.
The songs of the day involved “Lager Day” as I drank honey beer and Buckfast and sang with a fair level of euphoria. The rue and cacao helper entities told me what to eat and suggested teleporting later on to Asia which would involve heroin being used to teleport. My mum was going wild at me singing and called (Amanda just said “phoned the doctor”) NHS advice line. We were to super power my dad – like the bursts of super-strength heroism people get to save others in danger to stop the police and the cat was to be super powered as well – some bite. “The police are coming” it said.
This involved singing super-muscle-bone-enhancing substances into them. There was a point where we were singing the world into good health. Cacao said “I love you”. The songs were marvellously done. Cacao mentioned I accidentally gave people in America too many stimulants and they had some ill health. It was then fixed by the time police – God.
I had been going about the house collecting 7 buckets for teleporting – I had to use the houses various bins. My mum was all worried. It turned out the “buckets” were for teleporting my pee and faeces whilst I sung for many hours straight... makes sense... doing the toilet in a bucket. I had a bag of plants and drugs and tobacco prepared for teleporting as well! It had me eating about another 12 (god says 17) grams of mushrooms during this day. Time at this point seems non-existent to me from where I sit now. I don’t know at what time the ambulance came for me. I didn’t want to go but then decided to go. I had told them on the phone already that I was super healthy. In hospital I talked about how God was saying I’d have gold and crystals in my blood as they took it – I explained a bit about what was happening and Hannah – the doctor put me through to the horrid mental health institutions. I was quite happy to follow the agenda in bodily comfort. So that’s what it meant by the police – the authority – and it wasn’t super powering my dad and cat to battle the authority it was making my mum a bitch to summon the authority.
The hospital
I was put in a secure ward – Ward 1 to begin with. I don’t know why – I wasn’t appearing dangerous and they couldn’t have expected all the singing I done in there. The songs were to heal everyone and to bless the place. I was asked the same things all the time by Doctors – patients say it’s them trying to catch you out – find flaws in your story. I was soon moved to ward 3 and then ward 32. They thought it was to do with drugs and they never took the “god” part seriously enough... nor did they see the clear magic in the singing and chanting. I explained a lot of my philosophy throughout this time and it seemed to bounce off them. I spent about 4 weeks in the mental wards. God was playing with me during this time – showing me that biology isn’t necessarily there... long times were had without the toilet when I should have used the toilet. I was eating a load of crap and yet I was at the best form of health I’d been at. There wasn’t as many drugs as this time – but god somewhat sufficed by supplying me with opium & mephedrone & crystal meth & often gave me “phenylamine” buzzes from coffee and toffee and milk which were ecstatic.
In ward 3 god possessed me to be concerned about “oils” which were said to contain gold and crystals and were present in my pee and everything I ate and drank. I was drinking my urine from a little essential oil bottle I had finished with. Whilst singing in my dads room full of stuff God had made me go around my room picking up things... I found a Hanuman figurine (teleporting synchronicity) – Final Fantasy 7 (saving the planet synchronicity) and tiger balm and mint essential oils which kept me cool and tasting and smelling nice whilst singing – they felt amazingly good. It was this essential oil bottle. It got me to leave my faeces and pee and toilet paper in the toilet so the oils would be in the air – enchanting the wee room.
Here god spoke about the new systems I would be getting and it suggested having cigarettes which cure the lungs or make them like leather or having lungs which are like this or process smoke better. We used plant material which was perfect for a filter for filters and dabbed them with citrus juice from oranges which was supposedly to alter it to make it healthy. And to make them opium/drug cigarettes – I would lick the fag slightly and suck on the citrus filter. And indeed I felt opium.
It made it up that my friends and family were or would be watching me singing and drinking my pee and going to the toilet having a good time with god. It was as if it were the beginning of the magic age... indeed it was for me but not for them. At one point it made out that it had accidentally impregnated Hannah with my child and then fixed it – the doctor that called the mental establishment. God made out that she was to get lots of synchronicity about me and then break me out of hospital. This never happened – perhaps synchronicity did. So god was being a trickster.
I noticed the state of the talk therapy and lack of education being given about psychology – education which cures the soul through enlightenment. My first night in Ward 1 – I was given valium... why was I being given diazepam? I was given it without a doctor speaking to me about it – I could have had bad experiences with valium addiction or something and they would have been fools to have done this. This happened again on numerous occasions – drugs coming to me without a doctors speaking about them with me. Super nutrition or nutrition were and are also not assets of the mentalinstitutions.
It turned out the hospital visit was a pre-shamanic illness party. A fair bit of fun and games.
Then I was unwell with dysphoria for a long time.
Ross writes with “I”. No, I with “I”, Ross and I think that is stupid, but Allah writes like a stupid thing, Ross types better but not supremely. But really Ross’s will says he wants to write supremely! But he knows it’s a silly game where his childhood involves being possessed by a madness fiend Allah,08/05/13. Ross may need to visit the bank to ask if they can put a stop to his overspending by limiting the amount of money he can take out so that they don’t charge him for going beyond his overdraft.
One day Ross was asked by Rab to tap him some money for a bag of smack. Ross has been told not to lend out to cunts, and cunts only want your money. Rob, Steph and Rob’s brother came up after he’d called. And when Rob came in he was moving all over the flat and God had Ross following him around, he noted at one point that his wallet-like bus pass and passport was gone, now the game was to get them back off of Rab, who was obviously out of his tits. He ended up giving him it all back in an odd manner you’d have to see for yourself. Ross never expected that he’d see that most of his drug stash was gone after having revealed to Rob his hiding place. Rob was indeed the one of the ones who told him to watch out for dodgy cunts. There wasn’t much in there that Ross very much admired except the £30 worth of morning glory seeds Ross was hoping would cure him. Maybe he’ll buy more. But all he has now is Amanita Muscaria and whatevers in his stash in a piece of clothing hidden in case they force him into the mental institutions again.
People often have a thought or a mindism about Ross being upset or reckon Ross is upset. Upsetness comes up when Ross mentions he has been robbed. But Ross isn’t “upset” he just rather it not have happened J.
I briefly bammed Ross up that Rab might attempt to burn his flat down, he has admitted to arson before but only burning peoples living spaces who he deemed deserved it. Like a supposed Rapist, Ross doesn’t know the full details here. But he went outside that day to get a bottle of apple and wiki VK or VD or whatever… ross thinks it’s VK. Anyway I bammed him up that Rob might be waiting outside until Ross leaves so he can rob him fully. There was a room-heater with a big bulging gas canister outside his door. Some previous night recently, he heard someone shout and nock his and his neighbours windows shouting something. As typing this I now say to him that I might be conspiring to bam him up about moving far away from the area and making him cringe at the effort involved and now I tell him maybe I’ll make him cringe at the thought of how nice I was when I moved him in and the many fantasies of goodness that could have came out of that flat. 23 minutes ago was the first message sent to ana tonight in this facebook conversation – 23 minutes as he goes to write for his “book” what Ross thinks is an interesting conversation of his :
23 minutes ago
22:15
what was today like? I am like mr curiousityy and god puts me your way like im it's hound
calm, surprisingly not an ounce of anxiety.
and yours?
lol coincidence there: gave a heroin "addict" (kinda an addict) says occasional puff but it's no really - gave him loads of anti anxiety tablets, good favour then he robbed me of a big bag of drugs cause i showed him the hiding spot.
Anxiety recently then?
Well shit. like I always say "Takes disaster to learn a lesson."
It's my default I swear.
feeling anxiety or being caustious
Awh it's a good wee 14 page write up my day. Went to my house, thought it was for lunch turned out (in my my mums mind not mine) it was the day she was meant to take me skating, didny have my skates, had to rent a pair and I was so bad and fell so often, pure cursed, first time on wood flooring... know what I need to get used to and it's rough. Just god being a pest not letting me be really good immediatlely
Oh you havent mentioned anxiety in last convos, but then after having thought that I did get the picture that you were cautious
I got that picture before I mean
hold that feeling whilst your sitting waiting to type, fall down flat on a mattress and roll back and forth going "free me free me" trying to will sheer releasee and intense orgasm.
Nervousness and anxiety always lays with me- never really 'talk' about it. & Skating? in what form? roller blading?
OI, ill be back
yeah roller blading, seeing all these mini-scooter people makes me want to change my utensil
I gotta talk up stairs
Do it
adeventure!
Oh, idea came into mind you would actually do it
brb
Yesss missssssss, join the fuck mundanity allliance. Oor duty is tae slay all eh the demonz in gods mass-mind-of EARTH
We are the coolest alliance and most saintly!
God said our mind cycles are more twisty than others.
others stay the sameish
lawl. indeed they are
Not always fun
ours are wackyer and need release from the big communication bloccking astrological/psychological movementss
you are most accurate
haha
and people will hopefully admire us for it then! Grr... destiny... I've seen so many scenarios of what could come in my mind, I just want to begin a cool life as Ross- the superpowered one, or at least have a mind thats not occcupied by a pest.
And I want all my heroin friends healedddd!!!!!!
I've never actually went "PURE", like heavy strongly mentally insane in my prayers before, god just mentioned today and I imagined it first time today
Roaring, boxing, backflipping, kicking and bawling, laughing, crying and humping the mattresses giving the sperm the goddess didn't ask for but I know she needs it to make the baby which will take from her father and rule well when the goddess dies in the next few seconds!
This is good I'm putting in my book
Ross MacIntyre Barton Appeal/Court Details/Expose/Reform
Notation to be read and issues addressed by Tribunal and Court People and The Press and Politickers and others of interest.
Ross’s Action Against the Government and Mental Health Organisation (NHS legislators). (God/Destiny typing for Ross, rather than Ross being an ego object typing as if it were himself creatively fulfilling textual information it is actually God doing this infront of him).
The mental health act defines Ross as a thing which should be caged in Britain and attended to, to be viewed by mental health job orientated people who must serve the mental health act by “the law”. Which should not be broken because a poor boy is suffering, should it? Ross is possessed by a thing which is not like himself, he is not himself to be, so he is being viewed “rolling around in faeces of disfavourable mental garbage and unself-hood” to his great demise because he doesn’t want to be viewed whilst not being himself, so he is suffering under an act which should probably be there to prevent suffering . So please let Ross be possessed by God in such a way, alone, for he is not proven to be a harm to himself or others or a bad thing for the world if left unsupervised and viewed. So let him not be viewed. Let people, so long as they be capable of being left alone (whatever that means) choose whether they be left alone or not. For this is good as it gives people what they want. The mental health act are also physically hurting Ross with needles every month, and who knows to say what they are? Ross does because he’s been introduced to God/Destiny and knows what drugs are,nothing much but physical materials which only sometimes are accompanied by effects upon ingestion. Yes, you can take overdoses and killer amounts of substances (that’s what science says) and survive, Ross has seen this proven before him countless times. Sometimes no effect is felt when science says there should be an effect. The mental health people are deluded into thinking that they must inject him because of the law and because it is good to inject him. But Ross disagrees and Ross is in the position of being the one who is affected by these irrational injections and visitations of strangers who don’t heal Ross or let Ross do what he wants (writing and helping heal people through plants and psychotherapy (healing the will and understanding glands). They just interrupt his daily practise of prayer and seeking healing and render him obscurely by not even writing down what Ross has to say about himself or asking for his documents which help to render the matter of fact of what he is (or not, they could be lies, because I could possess Ross to spread word document lies or give the mental health people something he did not write but that I wrote outside of Ross’s mind).
There is a lack of an attempt to understand Ross’s mind in a collection of writings with words well defined. And a lack of an attempt to situationally examine what Ross is like on a 24/7 basis by surrounding Ross by living with him for a certain amount of time with an effort to realize what it is that he is (at least what he is at specific times). This would help unalienate Ross, and less humiliate him with the lack of understanding which is within the people who are a part of the organisation which imprison Ross and brutally humiliate him.
Because Ross is being immorally acted against in a brutal, hurtful and humiliating fashion, and has said this to the abusers, he wishes compensation and help in receiving this through civil court lawyer service which should be provided on behalf of the government and wishes the authority which controls him to be contacted directly so that this may be done. If this is not done, this is higher abuse as it is against good human rights. A good human right is to be able to raise whatever issue one wants with a power that controls him (the government). You are a part of that government organisation and so should morally see it as your duty to provide Ross with adequate law powers to raise his matters with court.
He is disabled by me from finding lawyers that will help. So this makes it further duty of the people who deem to control him to help him find satisfactory powers of attorney and law and commissions/actions-of-rights.
Will you be righteous enough to try your best as a member of the societal-government-control structure to bring justice to a young man?
The fullest attention should be paid to this young mans circumstance in order to ensure that your and anyone else involveds understanding is in good tact for taking actions about the situation.
There is the matter of his ill-education, the shockingly bad life education Ross received as a child/teenager that did not help him succeed against Destiny in life. This matter is raised below and is part of the compensation claim.
Good day to you, reader, civil servant and hopefully a liberty-freak because this young man is unfairly imprisoned in Britain under an unfairly obligated mental health order. It is unfair because this young man is kind hearted and good and respectful and so should not be condemned to silly treatments which do not dispossess him from God which is his only strife besides this mental health act.
Yes that is right, Destiny/Circumstance/God controls everyone and this boy’s mistreatment by this God-Power/Destiny-Controller has landed him in the power of these silly article you see before you as “Doctor” who is not right in saying he is unwell and so should be treated. Treated how? Inadequately is what Ross says she is programmed to do by God. And so help him now by liberating him now. For who has more say in how who is feeling, Ross or her? A psychotic silly thing possessed by God to be silly about treating Ross.
Major Issues I have to be addressed
- New policies which say that if someone wishes to keep the voices in their mind - or the current phenomenon of their lives – then compulsory treatment orders should not be done. As long as they are no harm to themselves or others – there should be no compulsory treatment abductions. Thorough tests should be done to ensure the person is safe.
- New rights for breatharians (people who claim they do not have to eat or drink). If they can prove they have adequate energy levels despite not eating or drinking or do actually eat and drink – they should not be detained. I was detained for stating I could do it alone – no observation was done of my usual household manners before abduction.
- I wish for protection against the mental health act until (or forever) reforms are done which make it such that good philosophical relevance is insinuated within the mental health care system. It’s a bogus system of bio-medicine and low-level-counselling that I take nothing to do with except from aiding a reform.
- Issues with NHS incompetence.
- Issue of making sure this immoral imprisonment does not happen again.
- Housing found to relieve me from irrational and erratic mother who has pledged she will seek out my treatment if I am not treated and threatened that the hospital visit will repeat itself. She valiantly disapproves of my person and the situation is unliveable
- Court proceedings over State incompetence and Obsoleteness in attempt to gain compensation and see the obviously futile social systems at hand modified carefully in order to help the people greatly.
- Having the Government see that a philosophy of perfectionism is in place rather than the current and majory-unseen philosophy of imperfectionism.
My false detainment
- Intrusive and entrapping detainment method. No good reasoning behind the detainment presented. People who have extremely little view of my “self” and comprehensive understanding over the philosophical situation at hand attended my home to capture me if I was unwilling within those hours. No open-hearted honesty over the proceedings of the day (the entrapment procedure). Attempts to lure and then betrayal.
- My integrated philosophy means that I reckon deeply that my ideas about the world and feeling of place within it will not change under ward-circumstances.
- Vibrant misinformation in their case file. I did not believe what god told me was happening. I just said how these things were said to me. God is a mystery to them yet I’m still condemned and labelled as a psycho-delinquent who needs rehabilitation. They are the psychic-delinquents for not using deliberation in their analysis procedure.
- I have had experiences which have shown me the truth that the material world does not ultimately decide our next moments of mind. Rather an intelligent “otherly” thing which is linked to our minds fulfils this role. This is unknowable to anyone besides those whose experiences have verified this. I am being held due to claims that I do not need bodily substance and can do things that bio-chemists would deem physiologically impossible. It is a bias toward materialism which detains me. Despite the fact that we are dealing with the unknowable – I am detained over such matters.(unintended pun on matters). There is also a large repertoire of people whose culture is similar to mine(and these people aren’t simply unwell) - I prompted them to look into it but they did not. Cultural oppression and mind control... trying to make my ideologies science-based? Not explained to me
- They do not know what they are “treating” in a great way of knowing. I am at ease within this mind-body existence. I am insufferable – though I may not have my preferences fulfilled by god. But who has god as their butler? :). This existence I am in the midst of could take 250 hours of deliberate conversation to explain. The medicines prescribed are not held to be medicinal marvels on the internet whilst novel unused short-term experience chemicals and super nutrition are acclaimed to do wonders.
- They have not told me what these medicines are meant to be addings/taking away from the consciousness I witness which I believe is in order and I can look after myself.
- Case of prejudice toward me and people like myself – simply because I witness the paranormal and have off-beat mannerisms it seems – but it hasn’t been explained to me adequately- all I get to hear from them is you are “unwell” And indeed it seems this is stuck in their minds. Case of major subject bias (due to their ignorance of my position). Minor terrorism (mind/ideological control) (only minor due my own integrity – as others may not know how to face such a thing in a dignified & life-professional manner).
- Religious/metaphysical bias toward materialism and against spirituality. Unverifiable – they cannot know my past and present mind-states nor can they know how the force behind humanity truly operates/operated (nature).
- I am alienated – the people surrounding me are irrational and not well learnt. There is neurosis everywhere and it indeed suffocates some of the patients in here.
- The processing done to me is irrelevant to me. Series of questions are thrown at you in their psychiatric meetings which last an hour or less – a full case file of “What I am” has not been produced. This is incompetent psycho-analysis
- I was not asked how I would respond to detainment – so they could not have judged whether or not I would be communicative within their detainment. How can they judge the “effects” of these forced medicines when I say I refuse to speak with them unless on my own terms (liberation)? They cannot. Appearances are fooling also of course.
- I know there was no change in me in the time between my first/last meetings with them (esteem) out with the hospital and the time when they decided to detain me
- The tribunal did not have a decent psycho-philosophical basis. There was no real evidence to suggest that I was unwell. These notes were vastly overlooked.
- Matters of relevance stated in these notes were not brought up by the people involved.
- An unsound decision was made. There was no real evidence to suggest I have an illness which entails I should be in captivity.
- Weight-scale readings were not done immediately upon abduction and my diet was not talked about in depth with me. I have no eating disorder – no one can prove otherwise.
- It’s as if I’m just to sit about here under a regime I disapprove of without ever changing as a human and then eventually let free despite there being no difference – just like in 2011.
- I am not deluded – I simply have paranormal experiences and there is a mental-health bias towards me which says I am “unwell” due to what I experience.
- I am compus mentus & enlightened & dabble with idealist perfectionism and so I am well – although god may not fulfil my preferences (destiny is unpredictable – illness strikes unexpectedly as do dreams and revelations and the sound of music etc). “Otherly” intelligence which is beside the self within us all is suggested by these things. Realizing this and accepting that the will to be perfect means that any other forces within mind which are imperfect are not to do with you and just antics of this other-thing which leads us through time.
- No one has told me what these pills and injections are meant to be removing/adding to my mind. Nothing like this has been said K
- There is oppression against breatharians and shamanic peoples – people of my race. There is mind control at hand which is unnecessary and can lead to further crippling – lost in the medicinal confusion profusion.
- I’ve not been told what exactly they are trying to add or remove from my mental existence with these drugs and there is no therapy going on to “treat” anything. General malpractice stemming from ignorance.
- Their talk psychiatry is pathetic compared to long term psychic-social-analysis
- Despite explaining myself as a stable-minded being – I am still asked “how are you today” etc. There’s few who will adapt to my linguistic culture. Simple use of the word “unwell” should not be enough to detain someone.
- The self is well within the vehicle which provides an array of conscious phenomenon - some of which are not enjoyed but I am capable of dealing with them alone.
- I have not received the Jungian psychologist nor live-in psychologist/case-file worker
- Being condemned in 1 hour or less meetings about the way I speak. If they cannot grasp the meaning of the things I articulate – a good psychiatric worker would tell me the parts which are not understood so that I may work with them to help them understand.
- They are confused in thinking that I have “muddled thoughts”. I do not have thoughts at all – rather god sends me nuances (happenings).
- This document entails that my thoughts are not muddled and I am compus mentus.
- All I have around me is incompetence in use of language and inept psychiatric methods.
- I am truly harassed by the NHS. They seek to cure what they think is a personality disorder – when it is really just my modes of being they are observing which I does not want to change. There is no betterment to be had. I speak clearly and tell them to ask when they do not understand properly.
- None of their mind control tactics/mental operations are part of my religious tendencies. They in fact go against my religious way of being.
- Chronic-differentiating-symptomatic-stress is not taken seriously and treated as “psychosis” which is too obscure and non-definitional. I have no complaints about psychosis – only physical trauma which was drastically overlooked and still is.
General Ward Issues (all I’ve been in)
- No medicine feedback sheets nor general feedback sheets issued. These are crucial in deeming (for the future) the worthwhileness of medicines and large scale NHS data collection.
- Not enough research materials (general information) gathered for medicine handouts/information-stock. No internet access also inhibits patients ability to look at and understand what s/he is taking.
- Not told all regulations and rituals upon entering – I encountered these over time.
- Courts are not easily accessible. NHS solicitors who deal with compensation claims should be easily reachable and get paid from the government for it is very difficult to launch a case without a solicitor.
- We are rarely observed by doctors. This along with the dismal communications between patients and nurses and their communications with doctors makes it a sad looking state of affairs. Messages we ask to send to doctors are often not sent.
- Someone who is responsible for another’s freedom should be there every day and independent/alternative doctors should be used on an “On call” basis like the NHS do with taxis. doctors must be available for the same extensive treatment incase a patient finds a flaw or bias in their current practitioner. Messages are often not passed onto
- Group psycho-therapy is a good idea. People in here are in disagreement about their way of treatment and a group intellect can fuel more progression in sharing understanding. Because we have talks about it all that don’t all go shared in the small psychiatric meetings. It’s for back up. People feel ganged up against when facing 4 other psychology/psychiatric people in a small room. It is less alienating and there’s less of a “gang up” effect.
- Do not aim for character/personal/spiritual/intellectual reform in unwell patients. They do not provide education to help with this. Education missed out on in school which they could do with for their inner-strength – integrity. Psychology and human essential knowledge is not used for treatment when it is the best method.
- No access to I.T and the internet – major bias towards those with good phones who can browse free-heartedly unlike those without such circumstances. Dehumanizing since it is now such a part of our culture
- Staff are philosophically (life philosophy most importantly) inept. This does not help them “care” for those in here.
- Communication structure is vitally flawed. There are more idle inadequate questions being asked than deep therapeutic understanding-sharing about the self and the other.
- Being observed in a place outwith your usual state of affairs is somewhat invalid. The restrictions and isolation can make people distraught or generally make them feel as though they are not themselves. More live-in staff who actually work with you to build a case study is much more appropriate in my condition. You are not your full self whilst in here – so a shell of yourself is being examined.
- Large amounts of ignorance an general lack of rhetoric
- These shamanic cocktails along with other drugs and plants should be available as alternative treatments due to their massive potential. Superfoods also – they create a vibrant health and is the best system for health at the moment. Worth a few experimental groups that I would happily accept a grant for.
- There are no language and communication classes nor jotters handed out to make notes for meetings and record sensation/consciousness as it appears so they can present their daily existence within hospital to Doctors
- Mirrors give negative feedback effect – not good for those who get psychic “hallucinations” – how is one to tell? Maybe they would not even want to ask if it’s just their mind or not.
- This is the same sort of situation of my mind this year as it was last year except this year they are forcing medication. No reason given for this change of heart. Major incompetence & non-compus-mentus dealings with me.
- Not allowed pictures – futile social restriction. If someone wished to not be pictured – let it be known of course and let everyone do their best for them. Or sure – try to reform them to be open with that.
- They penalize you for smoking weed and hash. They should catch up by stopping doing this : it is highly embedded in the mass-culture and laws will soon enough change.
- Unorthodox 00:00am bed time. People don’t go to bed at that time. It’s treating people like children. When the staff are awake all night there is no need for someone to lie in bed awake/half-awake needlessly. It’s crucially enforced to a nasty degree.
- There must be more intensive treatment of people who deem themselves to be mentally harassed by the system (or people within). I am not relieved of my detriment of harassment despite complaint. If harassment is coming from the system – why should it not be relieved through expulsion from the system or by referring to the higher management authorities good principles (which do not currently exist).
- Told that they do not want me using cannabis. Despite no actual evidence – only assumption – of a causal link between cannabis and anything else in particular. I’m being told I’m unwell and then at times “because of drugs” – when there is no good compus mentus argument for this case.
- Unfortunate dress code. One is not allowed to wear “pyjamas” at any time of day (including dressing gowns). Why should this be the case? This rule is result of neurosis. There are many rules like this which should not be instated in a place where one is to become mentally well.
- No attempts to make aims or objectives for my time in here. No objective to reach that when reached I will be able to leave. No home time objectives. Just randomly released when they feel like it – for there will be little change in me from now to the day I leave. Same applies to many others.
- Forcing anti-psychotics is wrong. Anti-psychotics are randomly given shot in the darks. It is poor mental health of the institution to face these side effect ridden and unproven to be the end-of-all paranormal symptoms medicines with such prejudice toward jamming them into anyone who refuses to be transformed by their will. They should only be given if accepted – they are obscure to the user and some of them last weeks and months. It can be a bad shock to the system of mind to be socially forced medications especially when they have such amounts of side effects. It creates conflict and non-peacability and unjustified bio-psycho-warfare. This is not good functionality in a mental health sanctuary.
- Anti-psychotics must face more ridicule – so must peoples religious-affiliative rights be seen to within these institutions. If someone is religiously opposed to such treatments – they should not be given them at all.
Issues with Ward 1 (Secure Ward)
- Lack of sleep suffered by a few people in ward including myself. 10.15pm until 8am and then you are kicked out of bed. This is inhumane. They could monitor the patients rooms whilst they are supposedly resting. In such uncomfortable surroundings – observations are eschewed because they are only observing them in such an oppressive & systematic environment.
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- Doctor Taylor was giving diagnoses of a few words which patients weren’t happy about. There was no real attempt at getting to know the patients – there is a heavy need for in-building doctors. This would remove much of the confusion and uncertainty which does daunt people in here. He doesn’t please the patients – I heard a lot of bad things from patients in there.
- Was told that if I continue expressing my opinion about staff I’d be isolated from the rest of the ward and have everything (my notes) taken off of me.
- A few comments other patients made : “It’s like they want us all to be clones” “it’s like one of those concentration camps” “worse than the jail”
- “I got diagnosed with being manic because I was talking” – A woman said this and I felt the same way. “Hyper manic disorder” feels irrelevant to me. She also said “Pushing me about when I’m just back from a cardio – I want to go to bed because I’m exhausted.”
- Thorough diagnoses which are a few paragraphs long or so are much more adequate.
- Labelling terms dehumanize and could simplify the patients’ future capacities to use language to explain their diagnostical situation.
- No comprehensive view of the NHS/mental-facilities philosophical stance(s) given to us. They lack a good one.
- Complete lack of access to IT (can’t obtain laptop).
- Applies to ward 32 as well – no desktop spaces for typing and writing notes.
- The escalation of voice was seen to be “aggression” and people were punished for this with isolation. Sometimes I was isolated for expressing my thoughts about the way the staff work - my tone was not even escalated. “John Ronold”.
- A psychiatric nurse called “John Ronold” said he “get’s angry”. No well integrated person gets angry. He should not be a psychiatric nurse if he is emotionally derrangable. He once grabbed my arms and put me in the blue control room – used for isolation - after I commented on how there was 3 staff standing idle at the door and I’d been asking to use the phone for hours without prevail. He told me to show the staff respect.
- Was told to make my own bed – this is not in my culture. People there were making remarks about people not saying please. This petty behaviour is not for mental institution employees. They are riddled with neurosis – which the mental health system is not trying to root out
- Lack of general sensitivity toward patients. Lots of dark humour which could damage patients prone to such damage
- Was not allowed a spiritual/religious implement – tarot cards.
Issues with NHS/Ward 32/State-Control – Incompetency & bad standards
- Lack of good communication standards. No deliberate attempts to sway communications toward a decent format. A format which attempts to make sure each speaker is understood well and intelligently by each other. This is done simply by repeating what has been understood from a person back to them. This allows for any gaps in understanding and/or misunderstandings to be seen by each other and thus filled in and/or resolved
- Not told the why and ins and outs of my detainment upon entering. Abandoned immediately by those who just signed for my imprisonment. Left with futile nurses and no supporting social worker to deal with my legal battle against them.
- Seemingly automatic prescription of downers such as diazepam & lorazepam and others. “Oh aye – everyone likes their good night sleep in here” Is what I heard from a nurse when asking about why I was getting downers without having it mentioned to me by a doctor. (No doctor has discussed medications with me before I have received them from nurses). I have no need for downers.
- Anti-psychotics are not well-renowned for being medicinal marvels.
- Flupentixol given against my will before appeal was seen too. Anti-cholinergic – drowsiness & less ability to fluently communicate with intelligence. No mention of why is was not received the next day. Received leaflet 4/5 days after requesting further information which told me it is often given every 2 weeks.
- I made many requests for my appeal to be filed and to have court/NHS-authority cases opened to deal with my issues – none were taken seriously and followed through.
- Mental health tribunal for Scotland and the mental health commission said they could not process my appeal – this makes appeal accessibility seem pathetic. Advocacy matters told me I needed a solicitor in order to appeal and then later told me this is untrue.
- Immediate appeals “sanctuary” sought and not found. No immediate protection offered for me from their misconduct and radical alienating & socially irresponsible treatment of myself.
- Was physically stopped from calling 999 before an immoral injection. 999 said it was not their place despite myself claiming immoral and anti-social antics from public service employees. No information given about moral-safe-haven (sanctuary^).
- Incompetence in social-philosophical understandings and so – in moral agency as well.
- I seek protection from further inappropriate action from the NHS – complete liberation from them (forever & legally).
- As the document which detains me is under false premises – it should be very illegal.
- Number of days needed to wait for appeal is pathetic. Appeals should be able to be done through the nearest 3 public employees – the fact that it is not done like this suggests incompetence in itself.
- Tribunal requesting letters and not accepting phone call submissions is pathetic and very alerting when considering the different disabled people within such facilities.
- Being “examined” externally in an entirely different situation (social & moral & everything else from your normal life situation(s) is potentially going to yield very invalid results. Humanistic live-in friends/companions who are making sound attempts at healing through teaching and nurturing with experience are far superior. Less objective inaccuracy (if the patient deems it so).
- No group talk sessions. No shared Morale retrospect generated which fuel talk of improvements/complaints/initiatives.
- Overuse of “opinion” and labelling terms which have mass & varied connotations which go overlooked.
- Super-nutrition not discussed or valued. Knowledge not valued. Integrity not even mentioned. Much more valued by advocates than anyone’s value for the medicinal systems.Internet research can be extensive on this. Adaptogenic plants and super nutrition. Super health not mentioned here by anyone but myself.
- The value of knowing ideas despite things being “unknowable” is that it helps the patient become well integrated within the state of affairs of the social and human-psychic position
- The will to explore and harvest what is useful is not found by many “inmates”. There are good teachings which can help one handle whatever mind may throw at you. This is integral theory. The human psyches ability to adapt to the life-situation through reason which creates ones integrity
- There are no full time well-founded psycho-analysts within the hospitals to deal with issues that the staff cannot. We need closer ties with good therapists.
- The one hour or less appointments they have us on at the moment are not enough to pry into the actual psychological conditions of the patients
- Starting initiatives involving the patients and staff is inaccessible. There should be an outlet for good ideas and their implementation.
- I told “Esteem” several times I wished for particular meetings to be the last ones – I was stalked by them despite this.
- Attempts to kick me out of my bed due to them simply cleaning the floor around my bed – and at 10am when many do not wish to be disturbed in such an irrational way.
- 8 people signed a petition for reform of the way-of-communication between doctors and staff
- I was mistaken for trying to run away (my mother told me they thought this) . I got sent to ward one for no good reason – I only spoke about things within these writings with a passion. And apparently it was taken as “challenging behaviour”. I like that mode of speech – I was dancing that day.
- Jim grant said it might have been the Buckfast I did drink that was giving me my parkinsons-like shakes. He was aware of the drink but not of the side effects I’d been having for days. What wacky communications they have in place eh.
- No access to reform panel(s). Can’t express major concerns easily due to no internet.
- Duncan says that he doesn’t want dopamine restricting injections. Dopamine makes a big part of who he is. Alpha-control-systems are upon him despite this
- Was moved to a ward where you are only allowed sleep from 10.15pm to 8am despite being drowsy and prone to going to bed often. Reasons for my departure there were not given.
- Doctor expressed delusions about how olanzapine has helped order my thoughts properly. She made this assertion due to my attire – not due to thorough psycho-analysis. These people must realize that looks can be deceiving.
- Myself and Willy Duncan given Depixol and then olanzapine before depixol had the chance to wear off – no good measure of effects possible in such a period.
- Seemed to think small tests depicted my loco-motive ability
- Not taken off olanzapine after memory and loco-motive impairment was pronounced a few times to them. Another patient reported similar hassles from olanzapine.
- Should be noted that I wished to take the anti-psychotics so to cease my mothers “give them a chance” remarks.
- Feels like a medicine in-action zone rather than a psycho-analysis and rejuvenation facility.
- Prescribed aripiprazole. Again wasn’t told what it was for and what the aim was (how aims were viable). It’s like they are trying to stop me having a sharp witted and hyper mind state. They haven’t asked if I like this before prescribing drugs that are meant to take it away. Perverse mind control.
- Prescribed procycladine again without my consent. Told them it did not work the last time and I was worst when I was on it.
- Mary did not let me perform flash-inspiration creative writing in a light room at 6am. This is futile behaviour in a mental sanctuary.
Issues with the state
- Compensation on the principle that the state has allowed such uneducated moral & social delinquents (delinquents to good standards) like my prior self and a social strata which does not allow for authentic “politicking” through all public facilities.
- No friendly politicking union of the people. One vote to decide who makes all future decisions. We should be voting on all future decisions. With life-style prejudice/oppressions like drug use being out with these surveyed-decisions because it is a human right.
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- Philosophy of life which involves psychology and philosophy and “Tao” (the way things are) is not taught to a degree that would empower and liberate people. It’s about people not learning a way of life which is ultimate – without this – negative things can emerge into the human sphere of being (upsets & quarrels etc). This social strata is also paper-work-awkward and encourages lying on CVs in order to attract attention to be employed – it should be purely about merit – how able one is to do a good job. This kind of instability within the human moral sphere could do with being tackled.
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- . There is a lack of vital accessibility to the courts. It’s hard to do what a solicitor would do for you – this should be common knowledge.
- I went through unnecessary anxiety/depression and social shyness problems things which enlightenment philosophy would have prepared me against. Upsets about petty matters also. And general dilly-dallying about which could have instead been just enjoying life from an enlightened perspective
- I never learned about the toilet and waste systems nor other simple things which are vital to modern society. But yet mathematics and a low-standard of English reading and writing is taught daily.
- Human biology also not taught.
- No decent equality in education. Many will never learn the human fundamentals and ideal-mental-equilibrium within the state of affairs.
- No one signs up for being able to be regulated and maintained by governmental implements like the law and necessary education – which is ideological abduction
- People are now in a state of unawareness about all of these great things not being taught and how the machine-like government implements churn out reprobates (not well principled people).
- Society is currently mechanistic and based on the law when it should be humanistic and based on good morale and large rhetoric and retrospect. Human rather than “Job Position”.
- There should be more houses of commons with different activist groups that work beside the government as a whole. Not one representative who is highly alienated from the community of interest.
- We see room for improvement. Social progress through improvements means an unintelligent humanity becoming more intelligent. Thus humanity at large is currently unintelligent.
- Lot’s of arguing in house of commons etc. Arguing means that one person is less intelligent than another and so many of these reprobates should not be in government.
- Within Jobseekers I could not apply to seek to be a consultant or counsellor because I did not have experience and qualifications. There should be a new paradigm where merit counts more than a degree. Merit Proving Meetings could be heavily used and this should be enforced – I’m more qualified than many to be in these job positions and I do not wish to waste my talent on non-specialist jobs when I am a specialist. My intelligence would not allow it.
- Called the sheriff court office and they said they could give me no advice on how to set up court. Said “it’s very difficult to do on your own” and that was it. Scoobied! Brief mention of “writ”. Why isn’t all this common knowledge? Incompetent systems
- There is not much social experimentation – allow drugs for a while to see what happens? It’s been a long time after all. And the internet is the education facility for drugs nowadays – if people are in the know about what they are doing then they should be safe.
- It’s not a crime against humanity. It’s a series of impurities within humanities goodness and potential
- Noteworthy how I’ve suffered due to the amount of mal-nourished-with-integrity people in my community. They’ve caused disparagement for me with their irrationality
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- I wish to have NHS & General governmental reforms in order to assure future pristine conditions for the people.
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- 15 Billion Pounds Sterling is sought. It’s a large lawsuit of incompetence.
The way forward
The cure which brings an end to the need for social progress is a collective intelligence shared by the people. This allows social systems to be in harmony because everyone knows what is going on and how things should be handled.
- Psychology & philosophy & theology & the social world are not taught leaving people mal-integrated. Mood swings and the experience of “negativity” can be negated by simply accepting the self and other and modelling the self to suit the state of affairs so that one may fare well despite what mind throws at them.
- The philosophy behind an individuals psychological becoming is not taught – this must be addressed – children should see reflections of what they are through introspective behaviours being shown to be vital to good-living. Self knowledge’s vitalizing ability.
- These people who are ill-taught about law proceedings and sufferable are then screwed by social and legal systems – the same systems which made them reprobates and put them under their governance upon birth in the first place.. The courts are inaccessible (without a solicitor) unless they want to access you.
- What hope does a man without want or need for a lawyer to do?
- We do not sign a “terms and conditions” upon birth – yet we are still condemned. Nor do we need to learn about the truth of our social world in primary & secondary schools to a decent extent. All laws – including the mental health act are not taught to anyone but he who seeks out such information. There is no need for the ill-taught to be ill-taught. People facing surprise mental health act abductions are often unaware that these things can happen so easily. We are massively alienated by the government(s)/the state.
- Humans lack a shared and empowering general knowledge of important truth. There is a lack of conversations despite this matter. This integrity when shared is true mental-welness – it is enlightenment and human perfection. Politics works more well when the majority are clued into the way things are
- My people and the other millions of drug users (recreational or psycho-spiritual) are oppressed by the government. Legalize all of these substances which can deliver quality life experiences – they could be used in mental hospitals to give people mirth in their life – amazement and joy because of these new things being revealed (heard often of online).
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- Destiny is what humans have – thoughts and mindisms approach us and we do not consciously create them. We do not choose from all options available – rather it is just a trail through time. Ideas about “God” help one see the truth of their own existence and this can make you undefeatable in life when understood properly. It is recognising that our mind is controlled by an otherly force often called nature – which is a mystery to us. And from that point – introspection – which involves creating the will of the self and the ideas which form the self - is the key to becoming well engrained into the state of affairs – crafted fit to feel fine in the midst of whatever conditions.
- The unknowable – the limits of bounds of meaning which contains truth. What is only knowable through certain subjective experiences (meeting god) and what is knowable throug
- well reasoned observation (people do not communicate very well – depths often get unexplored and the jovial prevails).
- All there is is subjective experience. Medicines are said to play with the mind – they do not change the self (except from their views on the medications perhaps).
- The “self” and “other” – the sun rises & we burp & go to the toilet and our 17 year old self does not know his 29 year old self and we have an appearance we never selected like a game of Sims. Destiny approaches us. The other is the driver behind human mind “the collective unconscious” is how Jung defined it and he related it to “God”.
- The oneness of all things is hardly considered. Neither is how there is something rather than nothing. These are fundamental thoughts for a human to discover.
- Immortality theories and the internet and media and entheogenic plants (religious sacraments) giving hints towards a large framework of mind outwith standard human existence criterias. New colours are shown to people at times and abstract art - mind-art which is amazing if you didn’t know it existed and empowers you with knowledge about this otherly intelligence. These plants and this esoteric knowledge gained from them can play a role in healing and helping many people. And they cannot be utilized due to the law.
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- Fair state of play generated through political openness – politics made accessible everywhere. Also – open sourced access to all useful data. Government website which is very accessible. Numbers and addresses and documents are scattered across the internet and should be gathered in one place. A friendly co-operative societal-system management
- A suggestion/complaints commission activated by government to help resolve the social alienation.
- Stop the oppression of millions of recreational/spiritual-activity drug users. It’s a massive oppression – 80% of my friends and people I know do these things and do well with them.
- No attempt at a shared global language – would make far better use of the internet – lots of which is foreign to us – and translator add-ons are not great at all
- Saying that everyone needs a job is ridiculous – some are born to never work. We should stop hassling these people with benefit changes and create a good standard for them.
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Economic rule becoming well founded toward perfection. Money is just an idea – it doesn’t matter how much money we churn out to individuals for living benefit – especially if all organisations are cooperative enough to make everyones life a decent standard of living through price management. One office could deal with this research – they can be called when issues arise and these issues should be sorted out by manoeuvring money so to keep everyone happy. £100-150 a week. People currently pretend to be seeking a job for the cash – this should not need to be done... we don’t want mass-lying... rather we want mass-inidividual-monetary-equality.
Tao – the way things are – especially psychology. God – Nature and Theology. Brahma – the more mysterious “All/Everything”. These things should be embedded in Education to make people able to deal with life in the best possible fashion.
One can only know what he has seen. We’re blameless. New morality to be applied through government – seeing that someone isn’t a reprobate anymore and then releasing them – perhaps along with a sentence. People respond well to being treated well.
Human innocence. If we were born as another human – we’d have to go through what they will go through – and them us. So no blame amongst us.
Having a balanced mind which values perfectionism will lessen petty disputes. The value separates us from the rubbish mind contents which play no part in perfectionism.
Language should be formed well in youth so that everyone understands what each other means by “God” and other obscure terms.
Showing people the difference between words and meaning is of the utmost importance. Language only works as well as the extent that understanding of words is gained by each conversating person.
What the Education systems and government control in general is a human-existence processing machine which processes them along with the rest of nature (nature processes humans). The processing has not been adequate to me. This system does not involve teaching the processed about the processing and the general system. This leaves people not secure in knowledge and means they will/may approach situations that they were unaware of and so may mishandle the situations. Drugs for example – intelligent drug use is not taught. Essential harm reduction is missed out on here. Intelligent drug use involves researching on the newly emerged internet. Drug experience reports are not heavily read in Schools.
Good integrity stops drugs being mis-used and stops them leading to disasters. Drugs are illegal because they can be harmful. The government doesn’t even do harm reduction in this way. Well-founded and clever drug use could be cultivated in the masses with knowledge.
There should be an attempt to get Children in touch with what the facilities are for and how everything is handled. As at the moment - adulthood can be like entering a foreign circus :P. See them realize how the facilities will aid them in becoming adept-in-understanding and compare this to human errors in the past and help them see the potentialities of the new age/postmodern-times.
We’re wanting people to be saying “Aye there’s just mental nuances (happenings) in life that come by you – they happen and this is you meeting your destiny. To be strong in the face of all of these nuances is your integrity. To just detach yourself from anything which impedes/is negative is how you cope well with this human life phenomenon. There may be things in life which don’t meet your preferences but these things can either be dealt with or nothing can be done – and so there is no reason to be negative as long as you’re doing your best.”
Pro humanist & minimal irrationality = minimal negative life nuances.
People are not used to big ideas and mentally encompassing a big overview of the state of affairs. Their intellectualism is being restricted.
Independent Scotland could create their own currency which they can print and give out as a general sum (welfare benefit) and it can be made so it’s usuable in England etc because it’s worth the same amount. Visa could be doing this now – just say that the currency is worth a lot and make it so in order to make people more wealthy.
Court session compensation + benefactor salary settlement is sought.
Economy
There’s often complaints in the media about money. Money is what man makes of it – a mere implement to move items and services about. The government have unlimited money and people don’t know about this well. There’s no merit in a government misusing money by seeing it as limited. They should use it to settle all matters which need handled – including a local benefit sum for the people in order to interact with the big money hungry and small money hungry benefactors of society – the stuff is certainly there to be bought – serve the people so they may be nourished for by their own will. There is no limit to this stuff - It can be made adequate or near perfection by simply realizing and utilizing the idea that it is simply an open playground (monetary society).
The media is currently not presenting this to the world. Nor is government expressing it’s hefty understanding of it.
Not holding back is the key to success in the economy – make people well automatically by giving worthy currencies to poor countries – simple.
And the autobiography is not yet complete! As I am not dead yet!
10/05/2013
Ross has just been told that when I wrote “I” when Ross was “Writing about himself” (but he wasn’t). I meant myself when I wrote “I”, myself, Allah, Destiny, the doer of all things, heaven itself, which Ross is in. He went through some mad things last night where a strange Scorpic entity was Ross himself and he was doing something strange that is hard to type about but I will give it a try. He was trying to complete a large cycle of tasks he put himself through where ultimate Euphoria was, it turned out, the final completion to the cycle and he got all worked up about it before it was apparently about it happen but Ross never got to the end, before he went down the “shoot” which is a long “slide downwards in a physical manner”.I call him a Scorpio here because Scorpios can be weirdly/dysfunctionally eccentric.
Jung might say that say that he was reborn as a son called Ross . Thank god for that.
They both might say “Funny that stuff about time, a story of people living together, memory and incarnations in body minds”.
