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04/05/1994(Tue)
>> be me
>> be a gifted child since i started school (05-06 years old) and be treated as such despite lacking any skill, any motivation, and any will
>> grows up on the internet despite being an extremely sheltered kid raised in religion and completely coddled all my life
>> becomes an incompetent and lazy ass fat fucking chud while straight a+'s tank and suicidal thoughts take place
>> pussies out and can't even do kitten scratches- multiple breakdowns over the span of two years >_<
>> loses all but two friends and is unable to make anymore due to being shy and self-degrading. internet becomes my whole life
>> join tumblr
>> suicidal thoughts and perversions get worse. gets depressive moments and school counselor becomes one of my closest friends
>> become a d1 pervert, unable to function as a member of society due to the extreme sexual thoughts i should not be having as a believer of God and a good, regular person
>> almost kill myself (fails in the most embarrassing way possible.)
>> make a vent blog as if it'll help one at all
>> life is failing but i spend 7+ hours on tumblr alone and neglect my life and myself
does it ever get better, or do i gotta die first?
โbout ! แกแ ตใแกแ โพโ vent blog and a horny blog. yay. don't we fucking loveeeee that? lowkey what do people even say in intro posts. like that's about it. i like jacking off my nonexistent t-dick and also want to kill myself every other day.
i haven't watched 0day yet. but i will get to it.
i am a anti-nonconsensual contact paraphile + pro-fiction (though being real i don't really fuck with radqueers. just leave me alone. i'll reblog shit and won't talk, you can do the same if you can use your brain when talking to me.) i love blood, guts, and other gory stuff >_< aren't i soooo based hikikoneet whatever the fuck buzzword buzzword pinterest search term?! i am a very open person so you can literally ask whatever the hell about anything i'm into and i will say it because i crave attention and approval like nobody's business. just. every sexual thing is either a complete fantasy or just joshing around because i have a #boyfriend that i #love very much and refuse to drag him into anything he does not want to be dragged into. okay thanks bows my head.
is it cringe to say i think i have undiagnosed adhd and depression? yes? okay. sorry. i'll give you my organs in a heart-shaped box to make up for it.
byi, this blog might go into eating issues/weight issues (i don't have an ed, and therefore won't call it an ed) territory? also, like i said, paraphile horny bullshit on this blog. and mental health shit !! the wholeeee package, aren't you just blown away?!
if you actually care to know more about me as a person go to my main?? i like. nirvana and radiohead and chainsaw man. and neon genesis evangelion, though i haven't finished either nge or csm. i don't know?!?!? my oc is my header, his name is leรณn and he's a total masochist so i get he fits here. i like guns (and will get my gun permit eventually- though i don't know much about guns, it's more of a 'haha gonna shoot myself with this cool weapon!'), art, writing, roleplaying. i want to go into pharmacology/biochemistry and create prescription drugs.
hello mutuals. hi cal and barko and night. stares at y'all nervously.
no dni. if i don't like you i just will protect my own peace. feel free to talk to me i guess ? question mark ? anyways. gun divider on my diary entries by @/bbyg4rlhelps and bullet belt divider by @/sugarish
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