Kushndarhymz

Real Eyes Realize Real Lies

[kushndawizdom]

My wrongfull behavior towards you made a toxic love story i guess I made my own love story.

[kushndawizdom]

When I catch you lurkin I just laugh, why you so stuck in the past? There's no way that shit would last. What we had is gone for good, oh you're so misunderstood? Nah bitch more like toxic, I cut you off cause that's just logic. Your whole plan was just a bust, now keeping distance is a must. Im so sick of your lies, all you did was waste our time. You're afraid to be alone, You had me wrapped around your finger, even controlled. Of course that's before all your bullshit got exposed. Now you're stuck here crying, but it's karma for not understanding when I was trying You claimed how much you loved us, did you even really mean it? Words don't Metter now because I am leaving.

[captain-whisky]

Spruch meines Lebens 🤙

[urwordsrknives]

I don't trust my "husband" and I'm tired of it being on me. You lie to me once, twice, three times..... it's not my fault. It's yours.

[kushndawizdom]

She never did lol

[urwordsrknives]

I made the hardest decision in my life and I just blocked him everywhere. My heart hurts. I'm done reaching out. I'm done putting shit behind me. In done being a fool.

I love him so much but he's been hurting me and doing shit behind my back all of our relationship.

I have never loved someone so much in my life. I really wanted things to change and I wanted him.

I know my life will only continue on and continue to get better. But it still hurts bexause I wanted him to be around for that. I know when the love is gone I will be so thankful I did this and so relieved bexauae I won't have someone playing games and hurting me nor will I have someone making emails, downloading dating sites etc etc.

I just wish he didn't do any of that. I wish he loved me. When I said I loved him more, I meant it. He just thought it was something to say.

I really dont understand why God put him in my life if this is what I was going to go through. But maybe one day I'll understand. I don't regret him because at the end of the day he's who I've wanted for 5+ years. But I regret staying when all he wanted to do was leave. I regret letting him back in the first time he broke up with me.

I thought marriage would've been different. I thought he woukd never do the shit he's done. I do hate him, because I know as I move on into other relationships I won't be able to trust like I once did. Maybe that's a good thing, but I don't want to think people are always out to get me and hurt me.

I guess this makes me stronger. I'm far away from home. Doing a stressful thing, while in the middle of this stressful situation.

I've been praying to God a lot more and the blessings have been amazing and I'm so thankful. I just dont see why this has had to happen and continued to happen.

I guess God is doing me a favour, but it doesn't feel like it right now.

[kushndawizdom]

Goodbye

[kushndawizdom]

I don't give a shi anymore at his point yeah my life will be hard but I will be happier I will be more lively then living in a controlled environment and being told everyday your not a good person or being told I could never do anything right.

I ran out of words to explain how I felt long ago when you didn't care how I felt.

Now there's no feelings

Just the thought of loving you.

[kushndawizdom]

I used to pretend like I care I can't even pretend anymore.

[destroymylife]

[kushndawizdom]

once upon a time it was us. now its just what you want. I guess its the broken trust. I tried to make us one. So my love What are we waiting for because flowers in your heart will never grow. I screw up and torn you more. You are soft you are gentle, you are a flame like a candle burning down slowly. Can you feel us dieing slowly, you say hold me I am scared of you hurting me.

[kushndawizdom]

I don't care 😅😅

[kushndawizdom]

Baby

What have we become,

once strangers to lovers, now we hate each other, But the hearts live in each other. We say we love, but spill poison in one another. You said i was passiveagrsive but you also were possessive, I was loving you with my heart but my soul was living in the dark. Feels like a second ago you were in my arms, now Im feeling numb, broken hearts like dust, we was lost in lust. You want to break my heart because I did you wrong.

what have we become,

once upon a time it was us. now its just what you want. I guess its the broken trust. I tried to make us one. So my love What are we waiting for because flowers in your heart will never grow. I screw up and torn you more. You are soft you are gentle, you are a flame like a candle burning down slowly. Can you feel us dieing slowly, you say hold me I am scared of you hurting me.

what have we become

i met you summer 2016 you were so naive and sweet. You say leave me in peace but i see you in peacies. You loved me like no other and cared for me like no one ever. you gave me what ever and I took forever. I should've treasured. You won't ever be the same and I wont ever love anyone again.

We can not blame each other for what we became its what God wrote in ours names.

[kushndawizdom]

You ever just lay in bed, high as fuck on adibales and while you rub your bread,with music on...

[kushndawizdom]

Some people just drain the niceness right the fuck out of you.

[kushndawizdom]

No family tree, just broken branches

[kushndawizdom]

[everhthinginsidemyhead]

[danger]