Kaonashi Akogare

a fool's mind

[outsh]

The Otherside by Jacob Howard  

[kvonvshi]

for nearly a decade this has been the only place where I could let out all my thoughts

[kvonvshi]

I’ve loved this site from the beginning and it was always a place where I could just say stuff and I knew that no one would see it -

[kvonvshi]

For the first time in a long time I felt something again, and it’s crazy to think that it was just through a presence of someone. Someone who I was drawn to so naturally. and nothing physically and maybe not even romantically but in a way two souls just idk chill? vibe? I am thankful for these moments, but whatever i feel now is just like something I thought I got rid of. And the craziest part is, nothing happened. Like absolut nothing. I shot my shot and I missed, which is ok and I rather miss than regret saying nothing at all. I overthink too much again

[kvonvshi]

summer nights are great but if you spend them alone it’s just emptiness

[kvonvshi]

and now I sit here, alone in the apartment I’ve always wanted, with every material thing I always wanted and it feels like I got nothing and no one

[kvonvshi]

it’s nothing but it gave me a shimmer of what could’ve been and a hard reset to reality - loneliness

[kvonvshi]

it’s crazy to think that just one encounter with a random person can make you feel things again you thought were something from the past

[aachanel]

[thepersonalquotes]

this app is literally my public private place to talk to myself

[kvonvshi]

there is so much beauty in this world, so many songs to listen to, books to read, smells to enjoy, food to eat, love to give - i was so afraid to miss so much that i stopped enjoying life in general a long time ago. but i see a light at the end of this dark tunnel, that i was in for the past few years. the wind feels more refreshing, the sun shines a bit brighter than usual, everything tastes a bit better, i smoke less and if i do, i do it because i enjoy it and not because of stress. i’m not there yet, i’m not fully out of this dark lonely hole i dug for myself but i’ll get there. step by step. day by day. there will be good days and there will be bad days. but i’ll get there.

[marcellreign]

Salma Hayek

[kvonvshi]

i get it

[kvonvshi]

i’ve stopped caring about so many things i used to find joy in. life has become grey.

[kvonvshi]

haven’t felt rain in years

[kvonvshi]

think what i need rn is a good cry

[kvonvshi]

i miss the sound of birds

[marcjacobs]

Anya Joy wearing Marc Jacobs Spring ‘17 shoes by Piczo, styled by Monika Tatalovic for Jalouse Magazine.