— i do not like people; i like what consumes them.

house so EMPTY, need a centerpiece. twenty racks, a table cut from ebony. cut that ivory into skinny 𝚙𝚒𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚜. then she 𝒸𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓃 up with her FACE... You talking money, need a hearing aid. you talking 'bout me, I don't see the SHADE. switch up my STYᒪᙓ, i take any lane. i switch up my cup, i kill any pain...

[kwonxjayeon]

small notice!

i'm going on a trip so, that means i'm officially on a hiatus. ( sea is calling me, and i'm literally packing my stuff while i'm writing this ) i won't be around next week. have fun without me, fam! see you on the flip side. ♥

[kwonxjayeon]

( nxrii )

The others words cause a small sting but Nari can simply painfully laugh. “It’s nice to know my economic status is well known.” Taking the pills gratefully, Nari stands, slightly irritated by the others comments, but still stubbornly thankful, after a moment of placing the pills in her bag, she looks down at her flimsy pack. “Okay well,what do you suggest then? This was uh, only a short term solution anyway.”

‘‘life is a class system. we all have to accept it. but, your economic status does not interest me. i'm not that superficial.’‘such things never meant much to her. she usually acted like a spoiled brat, but most of it was just acting.’‘well, my solution is very simple. never let anyone hit you. if that person is bigger and stronger than you, then you must outsmart them. inside a viper's nest you must be a viper too. i guess my advice won't help you now, so maybe try using a concealer?’‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( jaeyxng )

“ they’re great. my korean family are so… stoic compared to the russians. almost as if the stereotype is reversed. “ jaeyoung smiled at his own words, and he let out a sincere laugh as jayeon spoke. it was nice to relax like this with her, saying honest words and funny jokes. “ catherine the great? yekaterina? i’ll call you yekaterina. if you’re tsarina yekaterina, then i’m tsar nikolai. really. “ he laughed again - it was not often he brought out his russian name - sometimes he did it when he wanted to amp up the intimidation or to sound distinguished - but joking around like this with jayeon felt natural. 

jaeyoung was never someone who was into literature and poetry, but of course, he appreciated it. plus, jayeon seemed so passionate about it - how could he deny her that? “ and i’ll be a very lucky teacher. “ he murmured to her softly. her words mid-kiss took him off-guard, and he had to be honest… he didn’t recognise that poem. not in that moment anyway - his thoughts were elsewhere. “… no. “ he muttered honestly, before his lips moulded to hers again in a more forward kiss, one hand coming up to rest on jayeon’s cheek. he disregarded his unsteady and unsure feelings in that moment, just wanting to focus on the right now instead.

‘‘tsarina yekaterina?  yes, i like the sound of that. i'll be your yekaterina.’‘she joked, forgetting all the real historical facts. ‘‘tsar nikolai? the last tsar of russia? i think i like it. it suits you very well. i think he was a handsome man. but, all russians emperors had mustaches. so, i think that's the only problem. no matter what happens between us, i’ll always be honest with you, my tsar. ‘‘ despite her joking tone, the promise was real.  

of course, she was obsessed with literature. she felt safer in the worlds of her favorite writers.‘‘yes, i know it now. you'll be my favorite teacher.’’caring about someone was like playing with fire. try to pass it on, and you risk hurting someone else. hold onto it and eventually, you’ll get burned. but, she didn't care. all her life, she had been afraid of her own emotions. but with him, it was different. her cheeks grew warmer with every second that passed.‘’... i doesn’t matter. just don't let me go.’‘she murmured, with sadness in her voice. she cupped her hands around his face, stroking his cheeks and enjoying in the kiss. perhaps she just didn't want to let him slip through her fingers. she was so foolish and naive, but she knew her feelings were real.

[kwonxjayeon]

( jvhoon )

He had no issue if she wanted to sit down on the bench. The bench didn’t belong to him anyways and people were welcome to sit on it when they wanted to. Jihoon didn’t mind moving his things to make room if the person needed it. He wouldn’t mind them sitting besides him as long as they didn’t annoy him in any sort of way. He really didn’t want to sit by people that would annoy him or bother him too much to prevent him doing whatever it may be. “There’s room on the bench to sit down and you’re not interrupting anything.” As long as she didn’t bother him the both of them were okay. Plus, what he was doing wasn’t even related to any of his classes so she had nothing to worry of. Jihoon would just go on with his business and the female could go on with hers.

many thoughts plagued her mind. but she hid her feelings behind a facade of condescending politeness.‘‘it's good to know. thank you.‘‘she commented and immersed herself in her book. it was so heavy but it was a masterpiece. she felt much better in another world - leo’s world. but then the book started another negative stream of thoughts with a passage that stated: ‘we are asleep until we fall in love ’.it sounded so absurd and she quickly closed the book. she didn't want to think about such silly things. so, she focused her attention on the other person.‘‘what were you writing?‘‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( scngsunwoo )

“I know, it’s even more tragic than Hamlet, seriously Opehlia can go fuck herself, the food here is the real tragedy,” Sun stated with a groan. “My existence is a divine thing, I have an effect on everyone’s life at some point.” They hummed, before smirking. “Unless it’s valium, no.” 

‘‘don't even try to say something bad about ophelia. she’s misunderstood, misrepresented, and denied the power of her self expression.she's such an interesting character and most people are not smart enough to see her qualities. but i always prefer the greek tragedies.antigone, medea, andromache? that sort of stuff.’‘ she let out a sigh of disappointment.‘‘nice, but i don’t believe you. and don't fly too high, your wings might melt.’‘she opened her purse and said,‘‘yeah, i think i have it. sometimes you just can't survive a rough morning without a few extra pills.‘‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( jaeyxng )

“ a custom… yeah, i guess it is. my family are so kind and welcoming when we visit. and my mother is the same with guests. “ he mused - he’s lived with two separate cultures his whole life, and comparing them was interesting at times. “ but yes, i’m serious. i prefer soju. stop feeding the stereotype! i like vodka, but… with alcohol i am full korean at heart. “

jaeyoung listened to jayeon intently again, and he recognised the poem she quoted. poems are always said to be better in their original language, with the true intent of the words staying unspoiled, but coming from her mouth, it sounded just as pretty in korean. “ i recognise them. i like them. “ he stated simply, before turning his head to return her gaze. “ i’ll be your teacher. “ jaeyoung said with a slight joking tone, revelling in the way she looked at him. it only took a few moments for him to be drawn in, for his head to lean down without hesitation so he could press his lips to hers in a soft kiss, much different from the previous night’s rushed and sloppy kisses.

‘‘it sounds like you have a wonderful family.  it must be nice to have someone so far away. i understand now. it’s the custom of your family.’‘her mother wasn't sweet nor generous. still, not all people were like her parents and it was nice to know that.’‘soju tastes just like juice. but, it's a nice stereotype. probably the best. when you drink vodka, you feel like a tsar. trust me, every time i drink vodka i feel like a tsarina. you can call me the new catherine the great.’‘

‘‘i'm glad you like them. most people don't know anything about alexander. let alone his poems.’‘not enough people appreciated the beauty of poems. she knew just how powerful they really were.his answer brought a smile to her face. ‘‘then, i'll be the luckiest student in this world.‘‘she exclaimed with obvious delight. the kiss was soft and sweet, and it took her by surprise. it was also different, but she loved it. after a moment, she closed her eyes, letting herself enjoy in the kiss. she parted her lips and said,’‘in ecstasy my heart is beating.’‘perhaps life was just like a poem. her eyes were still closed, but she shivered,’‘do you remember this poem?’’she no longer needed alcohol to fuel her bravery. she didn't want to run away and hide. but she was still very afraid of her own emotions.

[c-sand]

[kwonxjayeon]

( jaeyxng )

jaeyoung laughed quietly at jayeon’s english - the girl didn’t seem so mean and tough to him when she was like this beside him. the same could probably be said for him, though. “ seems like you’re one of the few who actually know me, then. it’s nice. “ he hummed softly, taking a glance down to jayeon at his side. “ well… it’s only polite to bring you breakfast… you’re my guest. “ his reply was rather awkward, and the implication of labelling their relationship as anything in particular may be uncomfortable for them both.

“ well, i’m pretty polite and i’ll stick with my korean side on that one - i’m a soju man. i’ll break the stereotype. “ jaeyoung chuckled in amusement, and he then goes quiet to listen to jayeon speak. jaeyoung is smart, but he’s studious smart - jayeon is smart and she just knows so much. it’s admirable, and listening to her gush about a favourite writer made him smile, a hint of affection playing at his features. “ i would help you if you want. there’s night and weekend classes at university, too, i’m sure. “ her words made him almost feel sheepish - suddenly jaeyoung realised that this is what it’s like to have a crush on someone. “ when you say things like that… i would talk to you all day. “

‘‘again, i can say the exact same thing.’‘she grinned shamelessly at him and nearly laughed. however, that thought made her sad. not even her own parents knew her well. she was just their beautiful pawn. they only bragged about her achievements, but they never cared about her feelings. she didn't have many real friends - most of her friendships were based on superficial factors. yet, she felt comfortable with him, even though she felt a little nervous too.‘‘ah, is that one of the many customs in russia? trust me, not all people are so hospitable.’‘

‘‘really? i agree with the first part, but soju? are you serious? no, i refuse to believe you. all russians love vodka. i think that's written in every history textbook. even i love vodka more than soju and i’m not even russian.’‘she said, shaking her head.‘‘allow me to quote alexander.’’she cleared her throat before she began to speak. ‘‘i want to understand you, i study your obscure language.”that was of course, the korean version of the poem.‘’my whole life has been pledged to this meeting with you...’’another one of his famous quotes.perhaps even her favourite.‘‘the university always has a lot to offer. but not all professors are good.‘‘ she was only looking for an excuse to see him again.‘‘would you really?’’she gazed up at him, with admiration in her eyes.

[kwonxjayeon]

( jaeyxng )

“ yes, as they say. “ jaeyoung’s fingertips brushed absentmindedly over jayeon’s bare arm as he spoke. “ i know i seem emotionless and that i’m cold. people who are not already close to me don’t want to talk to me because i apparently have a reputation for… being cold. “ jaeyoung snickered at his own words - and he knows he’s right. but he doesn’t feel upset about it, especially not at that moment. he was relaxed and… content. no negative emotions clouded his mind at that moment. it was calming.

“ a lot of people just have the wrong impression about russians and… our language, i guess. “ he shrugged his shoulders carelessly - it was nothing new to him anyway. jayeon’s words were sweet, and he couldn’t help the smile that came to his lips. “ thank you, though. and you’re welcome. if you have time, you should learn a new language. you’re very smart, i think it’d be a challenge you’d enjoy. “

‘‘i get that. most people think the same thing about me. but, i don't give a damn 'bout my reputation.’’she hummed the last part in english. ahe always acted like she didn't care. it was the easiest option. people loved a good performance. but, it bothered her sometimes.’‘well, i don't think you're cold. i think this kind of behaviour suits you better. i'm glad i know the real you. but usually, cold people don't bring breakfast to their... buddies.’‘at that moment, she wanted to kiss him, but it just didn't seem appropriate.

‘‘the wrong impression? so, they're not just impolite savages who like to drink vodka?’’ jayeon chuckled and added,’‘their culture is so rich and russian history is very fascinating. plus, russia had many wonderful writers and poets. alexander sergeyevich pushkin is one of my favourite writers. i've read almost all of his poems. he was so talented. and maybe i will! it'd be nice to read all those poems again. the original versions are always better. and you're right. i love a good challenge. maybe you can help me out. i could listen to you talk all day.’‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( jvhoon )

@kwonxjayeon

The male was sitting at a bench with his earphones in and a notebook in his hand. His other hand was holding a pencil as he was writing down a few things. Those that knew the male knew his talents with music. Some would envy his talents and get jealous of him. He really didn’t care much about those people. He ignored the people that were passing and walking by as he wrote. What was he writing? Well, that was a secret. He stopped writing for a moment to go into his bag to pull out a water bottle that he packed earlier. He pulls out the water bottle and looks up to find a person standing in front of him. He was guessing she wanted to sit down or something? He didn’t know, but he moved his backpack onto his lap if the person wanted to sit. “You can sit down if you want, you know.”

after a boring class, jayeon only wanted to get some rest. but it was too early for her to go to bed. at least she had some free time for reading. she walked up to her usual spot, but someone was already sitting there. that surely wasn't good. she wanted to turn around and leave, but then she heard the other person's voice. he didn't seem like a troublemaker.‘‘um, all right.‘‘she hesitantly sat down and pulled out a heavy book from her bag - war and peace, the first volume. it wasn't a part of any assignment. she simply wanted to read that classical novel. she wasn't just a cute cheerleader -  she had a voracious appetite for books. but, she usually didn't talk about her hobbies to anyone.’’i just didn't want to bother you. it seemed like you were writing something interesting.’‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( scngsunwoo )

“I refuse to eat on campus, the food here is so fucking shitty, I’m pretty certain if I tried I’d die.” Sun lamented, their typical excuse to why the only thing they were having for lunch was an iced coffee. “Do you want me to die? Actually, don’t answer, I know a lot of people who would say yes. But you get my point, it’s fucking disgusting. I swear I saw a roach earlier, and I am not eating in the same venue a roach does, there could be cross-contamination or some shit.

‘‘yes, of course. that’s understandable. but, what are you even doing here? don't you have a chef? that's a true tragedy.’’she shook her head in a deliberate way, as if to underscore her disdain.’‘no, not really. your existence has no effect on my life, so i really don't give a fuck. but, i have a few antidepressants in my purse. they're so delicious and nutritious. would you like to try them?’‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( jianjfs )

“– or maybe i’m just having a mid life crisis, i might die when im forty ‘ya know.” the boy chuckled, shaking his head. “hey, i find offense to that,” he feigned hurt, running his fingers through his hair, “but you say that like it’s such a bad thing,” jian nudged the other. “why so many questions ?? i genuinely feel like i’m being interrogated right now.” jian raised his eyebrows.

‘‘ a mid life crisis? what the fuck? you're not old enough for that shit. you just want attention. i don't think so, james dean. selfish bastards live forever. so, we don't have to worry about anything.’‘she resisted the urge to roll her eyes.‘‘newsflash! i don't care. and yes, it’s a bad thing. i think kanye is a good rapper, but i don't want my friends to look like hoboes.’‘she managed to stifle a yawn.’‘because this is an interrogation. i'm like the fashion police.’‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( jaeyxng )

“ you won’t upset me. you know what i’m like - emotionless, as they say. “ jaeyoung let out a slight bitter chuckle, and he finally slid his arm out to rest over jayeon’s shoulders - it felt natural, like they should be lying in this position, hungover and sleepy in the late morning. it didn’t feel awkward or strange. his hand rested over her bare arm, revelling in the touch of her skin against his own.

jaeyoung smiled at jayeon’s reaction to his little speech, very thankful that she didn’t understand it at all. he knew she didn’t, even when she played around. it just felt nice to actually admit his feelings to someone for once.  “ some people say it’s weird if they hear me speak russian. so… thank you. “ his words were almost sheepish, as if he was embarrassed about speaking his second language around jayeon. but he was relieved that it sounded “beautiful” to her. “ i… i just told you that i haven’t visited russia in a while and that i’d like to go back sometime soon to see some family. “ sure, it could pass off as that. 

‘‘as they say? that's not a good excuse. people say a lot of nasty things about me. that doesn't mean they're true.’‘ice queen, friendless robot, those were just some of her many monikers. she always had to be cool and collected. but, for once, it was nice to forget about all the silly rules.she felt happy being so close to him.  that same happiness was destroying the walls around her heart. jayeon felt vulnerable, but she didn't want to leave.

‘‘well, those people are idiots. i think it’s wonderful and you’re welcome. but, i also like your voice.’‘the words rose unbidden to her lips. perhaps she should have kept her mouth shut.‘‘okay, that’s very sweet. you must really like them. it sounds like they're special people.’’ she turned her eyes towards him and smiled once again. ’‘thank you for fulfilling my silly request. i truly appreciate it. russian is beautiful. i'd love to learn it one day. they say, to learn a language is to have one more window from which to look at the world. sometimes, you just have to try new things. the fear of the unknown is the worst fear. but, you still have to try.’‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( jvngyubin )

“ THERE’S A LOT of things i know a lot more than you, my dear. ” yubin’s expression grew dark for a moment, smile fading, before she tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear and straightened up her posture. “ aww, thank you! nothing wrong being careful with money and being cute. sometimes people can somehow make designer brand clothing look like garbage. ” in the most obvious way, she gave jayeon a once-over. “ well, i can’t wait to see you at practice. i hope you haven’t lost your touch since break. ”

‘‘yes, of course. i like your attitude. self-confidence is the key to success. just keep believing in yourself. too bad those are just lies.’‘ she chuckled again.’’it's good i'm not one of those people.’’she proudly added, staring at her christian louboutin shoes.‘’ yes, i'm looking forward to our next practice. and well, i guess it's time for me to go now. i have less boring people to talk to. take care and you don’t have to seize the last word, my dear. i'll just assume it was something witty. i don't even want to hear a simple goodbye.‘‘

[kwonxjayeon]

( nxrii )

&& open!

The black eye that adorns Nari’s face is barely covered by a watered down ice pack. Though pain is evident in her gritted teeth, a bigger problem is her lack of sight. She stumbles, internally wondering if starting THAT fight was the best idea, granted, his face is a lot worse than hers. Though she may be small, Nari packed quite a PUNCH. In the midst of her internal dialogue, she slips, tumbling into the other and dropping her bag, a pack of pills landing by the others feet. A harsh sigh, before Nari finally reaches out her hand forward, trying to find the bottle through her blurred vision. “If you run off with my SUPPLY I’ll murder you.”

with a book in her hands, jayeon really wasn't paying much attention to her surroundings. her book was simply too good. she didn't even notice the poor girl. but her attitude, on the other hand, seemed quite interesting.‘‘don't worry, dear. i don't steal from the poor. people say it's a sin.‘‘ she quickly bent down and picked up the pill bottle. she was just being a good samaritan.’‘you're hurt. you shouldn't be doing anything. here you go.‘‘she gave her back the bottle and added,’‘that ice pack won't help you. it seems like you aren't an experienced fighter. it's definitely a rookie mistake.’‘she wasn't a doctor, but she knew a thing or two about such injuries.

[kwonxjayeon]

( jaeyxng )

“ understandable. i’m always on some sort of caffeine rush anyway. “ jaeyoung smiled in slight amusement to himself. “… okay. okay, it’s forgotten. “ he could sense the conversation would have turned negative, and dropping it was for the better. he almost tensed up when he felt the weight of jayeon’s head on his shoulder, but he stayed still. his arm almost lifted to drape over her shoulders, but he kept it still out of hesitation. “ tell you something…? “ he murmured as he thought – he was confused at the sudden request, but also hesitant about which language she wouldn’t understand. english or japanese was risky, being a language frequently learned in korea. but nobody around him knew russian. 

“ i… there’s something i can’t explain. it feels different. with you. “ the language feels natural to him, and it’s somehow nice to speak it to someone other than his mother or his father’s business partners. it’s almost as if he can express himself easier in his second language when nobody else can understand what he’s saying. “ i only just realised it. we both know i kinda sleep around, but… i want you to stay here with me for a bit longer. it’s hard to admit this but… i’m sort of afraid of this feeling.  i think it’s one i’ll keep to myself. “ jaeyoung glanced down at the girl for a moment, expression blank, before he let out an airy laugh. “ does it sound weird? “

‘‘at least you're addiction isn't so bad.’‘she knew alcohol was dangerous and that it that could kill her, but she just did not care. she still had a strong liver, so it didn't matter. on the other hand, she was an avid smoker. and her poor lungs weren't as strong as her liver. she was slowly killing herself. it was such a cliche.’‘okay, good. the last thing i want to do is upset you.’‘she was telling the truth. she wanted to wrap her arms around him and just enjoy in the moment. but, she wasn't brave enough. so, she dismissed the thought quickly. ‘‘yes, anything you want.‘‘

she listened to his every word carefully, but she didn't understand anything. every word sounded the same to her untrained ear. but, it was undeniably beautiful. the words mesmerized her and she thought she could listen to him speak for hours. it was another dangerous idea.‘‘wow, i understood everything. that’s nice.’’she congratulated herself on keeping her voice perfectly neutral. a few seconds later she burst into laughter. ’’i'm just joking. i didn't understand a single word. and no, it doesn't sound weird. it sounds so beautiful, mature and sophisticated. and also a little soft. it sounded like you were telling a story. a nice story. but, what were you really saying?’’

[namjoohyeok]

[kwonxjayeon]

namjoohyeok :

Goddess