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Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

“That’s okay. It’s not something you can control. At least you know some of it,” Bianca comforted, glancing to the side for a split second.

“And I hope you know you’re not too much.”

”no I- I am..too much…” he buried his head in his hands “it’s stupid…everything’s stupid…”

“It’s not stupid, “ Bianca countered softly. Despite the opposition, her tone was one of reminder, not scolding.

“You aren’t too much. You’re just experiencing a lot.” She continued.

”I-….okay…” his voice was barely above a whisper.

he spoke up after a few moments

“Ive been getting nightmares…they’re worse than normal…”

Nico slipped out of his bed, sitting by Kylo's side. "Can you tell us what you remember from these dreams? No pressure at all," he said, looking at Kylo gently.

Kylo’s hands started to shake. “I saw…I saw my father…and-…” he is breath hitched.

“I…I saw…I saw your dad…” he didn’t meet Nico’s gaze, now shaking violently in his wake.

“I-…I’m scared…..”

"We are here for you, Kylo. No one is going to hurt you again, okay?" Nico said, passing a hand through Kylo's hair. "Did Hades or Uranus say something bad to you? No need to respond if you don't want to. We can just change topics and have this conversation later, when you feel better."

forcedtoshine

”Nico is right. You’re safe. Everyone gets scared sometimes, you don’t have to keep it in,” Will nods, “say what you want and need, whatever feels right. You don’t owe us anything.” He moves closer, still keeping some distance. He sits on his knees, folding his hands in front of him.

“No they- they didn’t do anything- they just- stood there! I- it doesnt make sense and-“ his eyes welled up.

“I don’t know! I’m confused! And- and I’m scared! And I- I just feel like I’m breaking!” He broke into a sob despite his efforts not to

“..my eyes are raining…why can’t I make it stop….” He muttered, wiping his eyes, bud doing so in a way that looked like he was desperately trying not to touch his tears (he’s hydrophobic(

“You aren’t breaking. It’s okay for it to not make sense right now,” Bianca insured, “may I?” She lifted up her hands, gesturing to his face, noticing how panicked it was making him.

“You want to know something that helps me?”

“I-…”

Kylo’s gaze softened ever so slightly as he nodded.

“First I imagine a triangle, you don’t need too. I just like it. Then I follow the triangle’s points in my head. Breathe in until you reach 3. Again you can just do the breathing if it’s better. You don’t need to imagine the triangle,” Bianca explained, wiping his tears, “then you breathe out to 3. It stimulates some nerves, I guess. I never bothered to pay attention.” A lopsided smile appeared on her face.

“It won’t fix things but it’ll help you calm down. I also like to think of people close to me,” Bianca’s eyes darted to Nico then back to Kylo, “or something I like. Archery makes sense to me. More than my own feelings sometimes. So I think of archery.”

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

”a triangle…?” Kylo couldn’t help but let out a small chuckle, but seemed more and more interested in the idea

“the triangle…” he followed her instructions, racing a small triangle in the air in front of him.

his eyes didn’t dry completely, but just enough for tears to stop falling. “Thank you, Bianca…”

Kylo’s mouth twisted into a weak, small, but genuine smile.

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

“That’s okay. It’s not something you can control. At least you know some of it,” Bianca comforted, glancing to the side for a split second.

“And I hope you know you’re not too much.”

”no I- I am..too much…” he buried his head in his hands “it’s stupid…everything’s stupid…”

“It’s not stupid, “ Bianca countered softly. Despite the opposition, her tone was one of reminder, not scolding.

“You aren’t too much. You’re just experiencing a lot.” She continued.

”I-….okay…” his voice was barely above a whisper.

he spoke up after a few moments

“Ive been getting nightmares…they’re worse than normal…”

Nico slipped out of his bed, sitting by Kylo's side. "Can you tell us what you remember from these dreams? No pressure at all," he said, looking at Kylo gently.

Kylo’s hands started to shake. “I saw…I saw my father…and-…” he is breath hitched.

“I…I saw…I saw your dad…” he didn’t meet Nico’s gaze, now shaking violently in his wake.

“I-…I’m scared…..”

"We are here for you, Kylo. No one is going to hurt you again, okay?" Nico said, passing a hand through Kylo's hair. "Did Hades or Uranus say something bad to you? No need to respond if you don't want to. We can just change topics and have this conversation later, when you feel better."

forcedtoshine

”Nico is right. You’re safe. Everyone gets scared sometimes, you don’t have to keep it in,” Will nods, “say what you want and need, whatever feels right. You don’t owe us anything.” He moves closer, still keeping some distance. He sits on his knees, folding his hands in front of him.

“No they- they didn’t do anything- they just- stood there! I- it doesnt make sense and-“ his eyes welled up.

“I don’t know! I’m confused! And- and I’m scared! And I- I just feel like I’m breaking!” He broke into a sob despite his efforts not to

“..my eyes are raining…why can’t I make it stop….” He muttered, wiping his eyes, bud doing so in a way that looked like he was desperately trying not to touch his tears (he’s hydrophobic(

“You aren’t breaking. It’s okay for it to not make sense right now,” Bianca insured, “may I?” She lifted up her hands, gesturing to his face, noticing how panicked it was making him.

“You want to know something that helps me?”

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

“I-…”

Kylo’s gaze softened ever so slightly as he nodded.

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

“That’s okay. It’s not something you can control. At least you know some of it,” Bianca comforted, glancing to the side for a split second.

“And I hope you know you’re not too much.”

”no I- I am..too much…” he buried his head in his hands “it’s stupid…everything’s stupid…”

“It’s not stupid, “ Bianca countered softly. Despite the opposition, her tone was one of reminder, not scolding.

“You aren’t too much. You’re just experiencing a lot.” She continued.

”I-….okay…” his voice was barely above a whisper.

he spoke up after a few moments

“Ive been getting nightmares…they’re worse than normal…”

Nico slipped out of his bed, sitting by Kylo's side. "Can you tell us what you remember from these dreams? No pressure at all," he said, looking at Kylo gently.

Kylo’s hands started to shake. “I saw…I saw my father…and-…” he is breath hitched.

“I…I saw…I saw your dad…” he didn’t meet Nico’s gaze, now shaking violently in his wake.

“I-…I’m scared…..”

"We are here for you, Kylo. No one is going to hurt you again, okay?" Nico said, passing a hand through Kylo's hair. "Did Hades or Uranus say something bad to you? No need to respond if you don't want to. We can just change topics and have this conversation later, when you feel better."

forcedtoshine

”Nico is right. You’re safe. Everyone gets scared sometimes, you don’t have to keep it in,” Will nods, “say what you want and need, whatever feels right. You don’t owe us anything.” He moves closer, still keeping some distance. He sits on his knees, folding his hands in front of him.

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus #a sun son

“No they- they didn’t do anything- they just- stood there! I- it doesnt make sense and-“ his eyes welled up.

“I don’t know! I’m confused! And- and I’m scared! And I- I just feel like I’m breaking!” He broke into a sob despite his efforts not to

“..my eyes are raining…why can’t I make it stop….” He muttered, wiping his eyes, bud doing so in a way that looked like he was desperately trying not to touch his tears (he’s hydrophobic(

I think all my sanity has vanished.

Why did liking boys cost me so much in terms of my mental health?

This is a dumb question considering that I've been suffering with internalized homophobia since I was a kid but whatever. It's okay to be dumb sometimes.

oh!

#nico di angelo

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

“That’s okay. It’s not something you can control. At least you know some of it,” Bianca comforted, glancing to the side for a split second.

“And I hope you know you’re not too much.”

”no I- I am..too much…” he buried his head in his hands “it’s stupid…everything’s stupid…”

“It’s not stupid, “ Bianca countered softly. Despite the opposition, her tone was one of reminder, not scolding.

“You aren’t too much. You’re just experiencing a lot.” She continued.

”I-….okay…” his voice was barely above a whisper.

he spoke up after a few moments

“Ive been getting nightmares…they’re worse than normal…”

Nico slipped out of his bed, sitting by Kylo's side. "Can you tell us what you remember from these dreams? No pressure at all," he said, looking at Kylo gently.

#Kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

Kylo’s hands started to shake. “I saw…I saw my father…and-…” he is breath hitched.

“I…I saw…I saw your dad…” he didn’t meet Nico’s gaze, now shaking violently in his wake.

“I-…I’m scared…..”

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

“That’s okay. It’s not something you can control. At least you know some of it,” Bianca comforted, glancing to the side for a split second.

“And I hope you know you’re not too much.”

”no I- I am..too much…” he buried his head in his hands “it’s stupid…everything’s stupid…”

“It’s not stupid, “ Bianca countered softly. Despite the opposition, her tone was one of reminder, not scolding.

“You aren’t too much. You’re just experiencing a lot.” She continued.

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

”I-….okay…” his voice was barely above a whisper.

he spoke up after a few moments

“Ive been getting nightmares…they’re worse than normal…”

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

“That’s okay. It’s not something you can control. At least you know some of it,” Bianca comforted, glancing to the side for a split second.

“And I hope you know you’re not too much.”

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

”no I- I am..too much…” he buried his head in his hands “it’s stupid…everything’s stupid…”

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

"What happened with Apollo?", Nico asked Kylo, looking worried. He looked at Will again, searching for answers.

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

He let out a semblance of a chuckle ”I was getting to be too much for the Apollo kids, so Apollo himself took me to Delos..”

he sighed, “I don’t really know…it’s all kinda blurry..”

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

"You don't, Kylo," Nico says, looking straight at him. "Did Uranus tell you something that made you upset?" he asked, now moving his look to Will. Nico made a gesture, trying to tell him to bring some water for Kylo.

@forcedtoshine

#kylo #from the clouds in the sky to the depths of tartarus

Kylo didn’t meet his gaze, pulling his knees to his chest “nothing..nothing out of the ordinary..”

“It’s just ….more consistent since that thing with Apollo…”

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”

He looked up, ”..why?” His hand went up to pick at a bit of acne on his face “why do you want to help?” Kylo’s voice was quiet, and genuine.

“Why wouldn’t we?” Bianca countered, “you don’t deserve to feel this way.” Their eyes lingered on the way he picked at his face, eyebrows knitting together in worry.

#kylo #From the clouds in the sky to the depths of Tartarus

his breath hitched, just for a moment, just long enough to be noticeable. “I-…” he closed his mouth, unable to get more out. He moved on from his face, his hand going to grab a necklace that he soon realized wasn’t there. “I don’t…?”

When Nico arrived at cabin 13, he immediately threw his body in his bed, sitting there. "Let's have a talk, we all," he said, clearly worried. "What is happening?

@ourfatalflaw

@kylograyson

@forcedtoshine (tagging in case you want to participate!)

mod: the other was getting too long

Kylo sat on the floor across from Nico’s bed. “I don’t even know anymore” he sighs

“You don’t have to know,” Bianca reassured him. Her braid was laid over her shoulder and she was playing with it subtly.

“We just want to help how we can.”