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Freshly 18🪽

[l3akylittl3lady]

I want to keep touching myself so bad but I’m soo close and sore that it hurts.. so I just can’t continue ☹️

[l3akylittl3lady]

I keep getting so horny during my period that I forget that I have it.. and then blood just feels similar to being wet anyways, like some sort of lube. I’m always so embarrassed when I’m done with edging for the night (too exhausted to continue, I’m not sure I can ever truly be “done with edging”)

When I’m done and see the stains on my fingers and I’m too tired to get up and actually wash my hands soo instead I just lick and suck my little fingers clean! 😋

[l3akylittl3lady]

I don’t know how I’ll survive the upcoming year of school, I’ve been so busy melting my brain this summer..? I feel like I won’t remember or understand anything that they try to teach.. 💔

[l3akylittl3lady]

Going to sleep over at a friend’s house tomorrow.. promised her to not tell weird jokes about her dad, I feel like I won’t be able to keep my promises at all 😓

Not my fault her dad is so cute, I just wish I could sit on him or something?? ✨

[l3akylittl3lady]

About two years ago my parents found out about my so called problem with older men.. (my friends told my mom because they were “afraid something might happen to me.”? 🙄)

They wouldn’t stop talking about how “that is not what love is, those people will never love you, they only ever want to harm you.”

I really wanted something terrible to happen to me, and I didn’t want love at all, or money? I just wanted to be used for someone’s pleasure.

[l3akylittl3lady]

mini memory 4

Okay so my mom was reading me this bedtime story.. and halfway through it my dad came home and was being all weird and stood by the door staring at us. Suddenly some of the cute night lamps had started flicker, and he walked up to the side of my bed and threw my mom out of my bed and somehow managed to make her stay down..?

He got on top of me and started to unzipped his pants, I cried and tried to look over at my mom as some sort of comfort but he forced my frightened little eyes to meet his as he was about to push himself deep inside of me..

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(Sadly this one was is a dream.. but! in this dream my fav number was like 6.. so I think it counts into this little series of mine!)

Anyways after that I woke up all shaky and scared.. gosh with a nightmare, right? I couldn’t look at my dad in the eyes that day and when it was finally night I felt like that uncomfortable feeling had almost lifted and so I decided to touch myself to thoughts of this dream and as a fell asleep with my hand between my legs I hoped that I would get to how this dream continued.. 🌙

[l3akylittl3lady]

mini memory 3

Had a friend how was like obsessed with true crime stuff and once she told me about a man who had kidnapped a girl and forced her to push an ice popsicle inside her..

Couldn’t wait to get home that day and try that out and pretend like someone was forcing me to do the same!

(fav nr was about 12 here! 🍨)

[l3akylittl3lady]

mini memory 2

On a vacation with my family and was so proud of myself for knowing a few english words so little me wanted to impress her parents and came up when the brilliant little sentence..

“my dad is hot! 😇” without really knowing what it meant, but when I think back on it I must have known?

- My mom scolded me and told me that “handsome” would probably be a better a word for me to use in that case. or just not say things like that at all..

- My dad sort of couldn’t stop smiling and looked a bit embarrassed/proud of himself.. but I could never figure out why? ✨

(fav number was.. probably 10 or 11 something like that?)

[l3akylittl3lady]

mini memory 1

Once I shoved this hair brush inside my little hole and because I hadn’t really been touching myself so much at that time I did it so fast and hard that it stared to bleed..

(my fav number was 12 at this time)

[l3akylittl3lady]

I feel like I can’t cum on my own? and I can almost only get close if I fantasise about how someone is doing something against my will..?

Whenever I get super close it’s like my body refuses to let me cum most of the time? So instead I just lay there and shake in my little bed all sore and needy and don’t know what to do!

I think this is all because of the fact that I feel like don’t really deserve to cum, if I’m doing it only to please myself? Cause honestly what even is the point of it then? Why should I do it if I’m not being useful to anyone at that moment, it just makes me feel soo weird. Putting my own pleasure first. I’m desperate to please others, not myself??

I think I’ll only cum if someone else were to force me to..? 💗

[l3akylittl3lady]

Period cramps are the worst I wish someone could just rape my little hole until I can’t feel it anymore pls!! ☹️

[l3akylittl3lady]

I have no trauma whatsoever.. that I can think of or remember at least?? so I don’t understand where all this desire for violence comes from?

[l3akylittl3lady]

You ever pissed your panties as an adult?

I’ve only been an adult for like less than a week or something.. soo can’t say I have!

but I could easily do it 4 you. 💕

[l3akylittl3lady]

Gosh why does my little head hurt so much??

Must be from all the useless thinking right? 😇

[l3akylittl3lady]

Sometimes I’ll just like sit and droll until there’s a nice messy spot on my mattress and then I’ll shove my face in it and arch my back, start touching myself and don’t stop until I can feel how the sheets are or almost are dry..! <33

[l3akylittl3lady]

I wish there was a way to like turn off my abilty to cum but still feel pleasure and stuff? So that I could just edge forever and never ever have to stop because I accidentally got too close!! 💔

[l3akylittl3lady]

I am really grateful for people who spam like all my post in one go, it’s very sweet and all and I really appreciate it!

but there’s just something about liking a few of my post, texting me, and wait until after I send before you keep on liking stuff as some sort of thank you?

Or if you just text me without liking anything or following me or whatever but then when I send you do..? It just really shows my worth in a way, idk? I just really like that for some reason.. 💗