[lacecross]

i’ve gotten a bit better about myself, i don’t wear baggy things that often i fit back into the clothes i would wear when i was 16 i’ve spent my whole life hiding from shorts but ill wear them now only with tights and leg warmers

i still feel horrible about myself and i still feel like i look the same but im trying to be better

[lacecross]

i genuinely don’t know how i’ve been losing this much weight i don’t know if it’s just restricting or maybe the weight coming off from my binge or quitting smoking weed but i have a feeling it’s just pure stress

[lacecross]

got to 165 and then drank back to 172 with caymen jacks just found out how many cals are in those i don’t want to drink but if i do i’ll stick to vodka

[lacecross]

update: i don’t have self control

[lacecross]

i’ve fasted all day and then i went out to the movies and it all went wrong

we got doughnuts and popcorn

i tried not to eat too much in the theater but when we got back i gave in and ate another doughnut i’ve been so bad about binging lately

i didn’t realize the doughnuts were 240 cals until i looked in the box once we got home

i feel like i ate 1 1/2 maybe 2 and i feel so guilty

480 calories just from that

that was so calorie dense on top of popcorn and other things i messed up my whole day

i’m guessing i ate maybe 800-900 cals today way over what i want to eat daily but hopefully i can have self control and not eat anymore today

[lacecross]

my june diet pray 4 me

[lacecross]

my life would be so much easier if i could make myself puke

[lacecross]

i hate being home i get stressed and all i do is eat

[lacecross]

i had a car full of people stop next to me while i was out walking and they yelled out you’re so fucking ugly

i know it was stupid and i shouldn’t let it get to me im usually good about brushing things off but im genuinely at an all time low and it really got to me

i feel horrible how ugly do you have to be for that to happen

[angel9383737]

the worse feeling is looking at old photos of yourself knowing that you let yourself gain back so much. I feel disgusted with myself.

[lacecross]

peaking at 16 is horrible i can’t handle looking at pictures of younger me and seeing how much i fell off

[lacecross]

i’m scared of using tags i don’t want people seeing my thoughts i need a diary

[lacecross]

started off at 215 in january i’m 174 now i still feel gross i still look the same

[lacecross]

i’ve always had a weird fear of dessert scented makeup

chocolate scented lipglosses make me feel like i’m absorbing calories through my skin

[fatpinkpig]

My face would be so beautiful if it wasn’t hiding under this disgusting layer of viscous yellow slop🤢

[lacecross]

bruh i need to

lock in

[lacecross]

the thinner i get the easier i bruise

[zleeepykat]

oh my gee, how to lose 40 pounds in one hour