lactool

i am existing.

[kosmogrl]

[lactool]

when i was 14 i kept telling myself it will get better eventually.

now i am 21 and it was indeed better for some time until i realised it actually never truly got better.

maybe some things changed, but the original feeling never went away.

i am maybe too busy nowadays to feel it all the time, but still haunts me and never left.

[lactool]

WHEN DOES IT ACTUALLY GET BETTER???

[lactool]

Why am I like this?

[lactool]

Watching those ‘Never Have I Ever’ dad scenes knowing that you never have and never will experience something like that even though your dad is still alive

[lactool]

noticing that its getting bad again => isolating myself and spending my whole time with sleep, uquiz and tumblr/pinterest 

[lactool]

I really want to be able to communicate my feelings, I really do but I never in my life learned how and it makes me so mad

[originsender]

don’t be worried if i just stop messaging people back, it’s not even worth it anymore

[lactool]

I am the problem. 

[lactool]

july wasn’t it 

[lactool]

We are home.

Emily Henry

[lactool]

Read a thousand books and your words will flow like a river.

Virginia Woolf

[lactool]

i wish i could be the person you deserve and not the one who loves you and tries to make you feel it but fails horribly at it. not the one who hurts you while you are the sunshine in my life. 

[teklarain-deactivated20230102]

the most romantic thing a person can do is read and annotate your favorite book and then give it to you.

[lactool]

It’s all about the first person you wanna tell good news to 

[sw-66]

In the mood to delete everything and go missing .

[lactool]

My deplorable mania for analysis exhausts me. I doubt everything, even my doubt.

Gustave Flaubert, from a letter to Louise Colet