it's so weird being avoidant and isolating but still really wanting attention from and to spend time with people.. wish my own mind didn't confuse me sometimes ( ꩜ ‸ ꩜;)
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it's so weird being avoidant and isolating but still really wanting attention from and to spend time with people.. wish my own mind didn't confuse me sometimes ( ꩜ ‸ ꩜;)
i think something that does keep me from frequently replaying the game (and, therefore, limits my interactions with the fandom) is how it feels like.... being "transgender" or queer is kind of a secondary thought, almost? like a last minute addition for ""extra"" inclusivity.
this is a bit of an iffy topic to specifically discuss, but it just, like... it just feels like a cishet friendly portrayal of queer identities. atleast, that's how it feels for me.
and of course, like, this isn't me saying we need to write queer characters as stereotypes and focus their entire character on their identity, nor is this me saying that to be trans or nonbinary you have to act and look a certain way! i'm a masc presenting nonbinary person like ren, and it can frustrate me when people mistake me for a man!
it just feels.... thoughtless, to a point. like it's an AFTERTHOUGHT rather than actually planned and executed with intention.
this is VERY blatant with the mc and how the mc is written. "gender neutral"? even "masculine"? i still feel like mc is written like a woman. i saw someone say that it felt like ren is painfully straight and....... i hate to say it but i agree 😭. even being "queer" it still feels like the dynamic between ren and angel is just... written like a cishet dynamic, but the boyfriend actually cares.
it should say something about how you write the mc when everyone immediately assumes mc/angel is a woman, without necessarily projecting onto mc/angel. maybe this is me being nit picky? maybe it's justified? who knows.
it just feels lackluster and disappointing. the thing that drew me to the game was the self proclaimed "inclusivity", the "queer" characters. i never play the game because i can't stand to! of course, this is just a personal problem at the end of the day, but it's dysphoric! it's disappointing going into a game hearing it hyped up as queer friendly, just for it to not feel that way at all. 😕
It was ugly, a sign of the hardness of things, that the world had no way of accounting for the size and scale of her personal loss.
Brandon Taylor, from The Late Americans
every time i check into fandom spaces i see circles turning more and more... insulated. if that makes sense? and i feel like it makes people more hesitant to reach inside, which makes circles turn tighter and smaller as people drop out for whatever reason. there is an air of exclusivity almost, and anyone that doesn't partake in fandom the same way can perhaps feel a bit left out. but i'm just yapping idk TT
disappearing because being there for everyone is too exhausting
Hey, how are you today? Are you in bed rn? I'm not gonna tell you to get up or turn off your phone or anything like that but what I will ask of you though is while you're laying down in bed please put your knees up at a 90° angle and kick them up and down on each side like a can can girl. And then while 90° just push them down completely straight and then back up. Please keep your blood circulating and your body moving at least a little bit. I love you as you are and we can do this a little at a time. Its just so stuff doesn't hurt us as bad later on.
Self isolating final boss.