So Yeah....

Eru. 24. Writer, director, actor and chronic illness badass

[asomebunny]

things to say when i love you isn’t cutting it

i. i understand you didn’t have the energy to text me back and i’m not mad. i’ll be here whenever you need me, and if i send you anything don’t feel obligated to reply.

ii. did you eat enough today?

iii. don’t forget your medications.

iv. do you want to come over and we can sit together in silence while we work on separate things and just enjoy each others presence?

v. i hope you’re in my life for a long time.

vi. you’re not too much for me. you are perfectly enough, almost like you were made for me.

vii. no matter what happens, because we never truly know, i will always be putting your wellbeing in consideration.

viii. you make breathing a little easier.

ix. the hard obstacles in life seem like little distractions when it comes to doing them with you. thank you for being around when life tries to beat me down.

x. i want you to be able to communicate anything you want with me and know i will listen and be patient as best as i can. 

[valtsv]

when the WTNV official twitter said "whisper a dangerous secret to someone you care about. now they have the power to destroy you. but they won't. that is what love is."

[ladyeru]

Sometimes there are days when I feel so ill I can't pull myself out of bed. And on those days, I am lucky enough to have Ethy who will curl up with me and watch pingu.

Side note, pingu is such an entitled prick 😂

[cluelessbutch]

people who don’t experience chronic pain will never understand what it’s like to expect to be in pain for the rest of your life.

you don’t understand what it’s like to have to take your pain and your limitations into account when searching for housing or employment.

you don’t understand what it’s like to quit a job or an activity you love bc it’s exacerbating your pain levels.

you don’t understand what it’s like to send the “sorry, gotta cancel” text to the same friend four days in a row because your pain is just too intolerable.

you don’t understand what it’s like to have to choose between leaving early (again) or suffering through something that will cause you hours or days or weeks of increased pain.

you don’t understand what it’s like to have your accommodations/self-advocacy/self-care viewed as laziness or rudeness or apathy.

i don’t know where i’m going with this exactly but basically living with chronic pain is really hard, shout out to people who deal with chronic pain, and if you don’t then please be understanding toward those of us who do, please assume we are doing our best, because taking care of ourselves often has to come before anything else

[ladyeru]

This. Just all of this.

[remem-brandt]

the main thing about living with a chronic illness is that you just kinda get used to it. you’re USED to being in pain. you’re USED to being tired. it isn’t until you talk to non chronically ill people that you remember that this isn’t normal.

[ladyeru]

Wow. Three years...

It's been three years since I last posted here. So much has happened I don't really know where to start.

But, for anyone who still remembers me or cares, here is a break down....

*I have been diagnosed with Fibromatosis. A benign cancer that is crushing my internal organs (start strong I always say)

*Because of said tumour I also have two Nephrostomy bags, which were put in a month ago when I was so sick, I was in hospital for two weeks.

*I graduated university with a 2:1 in film and television production

* Interned at my first job in the field

* I was lead actress in a short film that has since won two awards.

* I have also been cast lead in a feature by the same director. The excitement is real.

* I got engaged! A man named Ethan proposed to me after dating me for 3 months, because he found out I was seriously ill and he loves me. 3 and half years later we are still going strong.

*I lost my nana. Her and grandad will always live in a special place in my heart. I'm glad I was there for her last days.

*I wrote and directed my own short film, which has an original score and I'm so proud of.

*Lastly I started a page on Facebook to help me talk and vent about chronic illness. I was also in a short documentary about my struggles, which is interesting.

And... That's everything intresting. If you still remember me (Changed from Erurainia to LadyEru) feel free to message me, some of you literally saved me when I was younger. Know that I will always appreciate that.

[ladyeru]

Holy shit i’ve been gone for a while. So much shit has happened I got distracted haha

[ladyeru]

Now I remember why I never come on this site any more....

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[fanbylife]

Heterosexual refers to the gender to which one is attracted towards. It does not inherently mean that attraction is sexual. It can be romantic as well. Just because people have not known about Ace people, does not mean that we were not around. People who are hetero only attracted are straight.

Cishet people are the oppressors and we do not need to let them into our community simply because they do not experience sexual attraction. The LGBT community is about saving those who are oppressed via homophobia and transphobia. That is it. 

We are not “spreading hate” by protecting our community from its oppressors! You would not claim to be part of the undocumented citizens community when you were born into that country. People do not need to belong to every group.

You belong to the ones that match your identity. So unless you fall under the L,G, B, or T- you are not LGBT. 

[ladyeru]

Are pan people not part of LGBT then? And Ally’s are allowed, even though they are part of the oppression too? (P.s I know that some are closeted and it can be used for them, but it isn’t most of the time.)

There are a lot of people spreading hate. I have seen it and i feel it’s pointless. You are not going to change my mind. They suffer the same as us and we will be treated like any one else. 

[fanbylife]

The B includes all multi-gender attracted people, such as Pan folks. Just as the T includes all non-cis folks. I never added an A so I do not know where you are going with that. Cishet Ace people do not suffer the same as us. They have all the rights and privileges that non-Ace Cishet people have. They are our oppressors and we are allowed to hate these people who oppress us.

When all LGBT people are equal, then we can have a love fest community, but right now, we need to fight for our rights.

[ladyeru]

A lot of people add in  A, thats what I was saying.

So what you’re saying is if you can pass as straight then you have the same rights as a straight person? So someone who is trans female and looks feminine, by the same logic is also straight as they pass?

Straight aces do face issues that are prevalent in LGBT, such as correctional rape, slurs (Being called a mistake from god ect.) and medical professional constantly saying there must be something wrong with us.

I’m not saying we face the all same issues, but we are fighting for the same goal. 

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[bipeoplearentyourpawns]

this is because the split attraction model isn’t recognized by mainstream society. heterosexual, in this case, means all kinds of hetero. straight ace people are still straight, and cishet ace people still don’t belong in the LGBT community.

also, way to throw cis heterosexual aromantics under the bus lmao

[ladyeru]

How did I throw them under the bus exactly?

Even if it’s not recognised, they would still come under the “not conventional” Meaning of the word. 

You’re not going to change my mind on this. They belong. I’m just fed up of the constant bullying. (Not from you, just people who share your views.)

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[ace-aro-spectrum-ppl-can-b-str8]

Ahh yes definitions don’t change over time 

not to mention that definition doesn’t recognize a-spectrum people and erases aro’s and aro and ace spectrum demi/flux/grey people.

[toxxicognaths]

Not to mention the definition doesn’t mean sexual/romantic it means ‘opposite gender’ @aces pick up a book for once in your lives

[ladyeru]

Oxford dictionary. I know exactly what the word means. 

[toxxicognaths]

Are you willingly ignorant or are you this much of a chump? you lot invented the romantic/sexual split, heterosexual, the term, was coined back when sex was synonymous with gender. Someone is heterosexual, even if they’re aromantic. Someone is heterosexual even if they’re asexual. Because it means opposite sex, or, in today’s terms, “opposite binary gender.” You can’t worm your way out of this, and you dirtbags can’t redefine sometime as quickly as you think.

[ladyeru]

What? We didn’t invent it.... It’s been around for ages. There have been people who are sexually attracted to one gender and only romantically attracted to another. 

Not to mention it doesn’t just say attracted. It specifically say’s sexually.

You my sir are rude. “Definitions change over time, but only when I want them too.” Thats all i’m hearing from you. 

I am an educated lady and i have done my research. I know exactly what im talking about. I’d appreciate it if you were polite if you reply.

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[ace-aro-spectrum-ppl-can-b-str8]

Ahh yes definitions don’t change over time 

not to mention that definition doesn’t recognize a-spectrum people and erases aro’s and aro and ace spectrum demi/flux/grey people.

[toxxicognaths]

Not to mention the definition doesn’t mean sexual/romantic it means ‘opposite gender’ @aces pick up a book for once in your lives

[ladyeru]

Oxford dictionary. I know exactly what the word means. 

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[ace-aro-spectrum-ppl-can-b-str8]

Ahh yes definitions don’t change over time 

not to mention that definition doesn’t recognize a-spectrum people and erases aro’s and aro and ace spectrum demi/flux/grey people.

[ladyeru]

They do, but that definition is from the 2016 dictionary....

I’m not sure how it erases them? It’s a definition of Straight people, not of ace, aro or anyone on the spectrum

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[fanbylife]

Heterosexual refers to the gender to which one is attracted towards. It does not inherently mean that attraction is sexual. It can be romantic as well. Just because people have not known about Ace people, does not mean that we were not around. People who are hetero only attracted are straight.

Cishet people are the oppressors and we do not need to let them into our community simply because they do not experience sexual attraction. The LGBT community is about saving those who are oppressed via homophobia and transphobia. That is it. 

We are not “spreading hate” by protecting our community from its oppressors! You would not claim to be part of the undocumented citizens community when you were born into that country. People do not need to belong to every group.

You belong to the ones that match your identity. So unless you fall under the L,G, B, or T- you are not LGBT. 

[ladyeru]

Are pan people not part of LGBT then? And Ally’s are allowed, even though they are part of the oppression too? (P.s I know that some are closeted and it can be used for them, but it isn’t most of the time.)

There are a lot of people spreading hate. I have seen it and i feel it’s pointless. You are not going to change my mind. They suffer the same as us and we will be treated like any one else. 

[ladyeru]

So I’m not quite sure where this has popped up from all of a sudden, but i’d just like to remind people that straight is, as defined by the dictionary; 

3. informal A conventional person.

3.1 A heterosexual person.

Being asexual thus makes you part of the LGBT+ space, no matter whether they are hetroromatic or not, as to be asexual means you are not conventional nor hetrosexual.

I know we haven’t faced all the same issues as some in the community, but we do face some. Love is Love is it not? Then why spread hate.

[ridleydaisy]

[psych2go]

If you are awake right now, what time is it there and what are you thinking about?