I Am A Whore

I am learning to accept it. I’m vanilla on the outside and pure freak on the inside. I am a GOOD fucking whore too. My existence on this earth is to serve and amuse men (and women too) I desire to be owned by the one whom I love. I am working on earning back that privileged and sacred position. I may not have the flashiest Tumblr, but that means I’m a real person experiencing real things.

[ladypaine2016]

July 22, 2021 7:30 pm

I have learned many things this week for which I am forever grateful.

I am not that person any more.

Please fuck me. Please let me entertain you, as I am a whore for public use. I am a mere toy for entertainment.

[ladypaine2016]

my critic, the one who whispers in my ear the bad thoughts, the constant droning of untruths.

You can’t…

You won’t…

You’re a failure…

You’re stupid…

You’re a glutton…

You’re fat..

You’re ugly…

You’re a slob..

You’re disorganized…

You’re distracted..

Who is telling me these things?…myself.

[insatiablegarbage1]

He hit me and it felt like a kiss

[extremeslavebreaker]

Reblog if you are a good girl like her.

[ladypaine2016]

5/31/2021 10:38 am

Yesterday I didn’t do my walk or any exercise. I was active but that doesn’t count. So I do know that today I went for a walk even though it’s hot out. I’d rather be hot than feel guilty.

I always have time for the things I do first.

The one whom I love has a friend and I walked by to check on her. I thought I saw her at the nearby park. But my eyesight wasn’t well enough to see clearly.

All my best wishes off to her this day.

[ladypaine2016]

5/31/21 6:34 am

I missed a day of blogging and fisting. Although I was very active yesterday I did not exercise formally.

I am just waking up. This morning I am sore which surprises me since I last worked about 1.5 days ago

The things I did yesterday to show I listened-

-read in a non fiction book

-drank a gallon of water

-had sex

-watched what I ate, although it was within range it was not well balanced.

It doesn’t seem very remarkable so I guess I didn’t listen.

There is always today.

[ladypaine2016]

5/29/21 12:36

Last night I didn’t finish my second 45 minute workout but I stopped because I chose to. I practiced fisting my butthole and my cunt.

I didn’t want to walk by the woman’s house the one I love asked me to keep an eye on, but I did it any way.

[ladypaine2016]

5/28/21 9:17 pm

I’ve listened. But I’m not done yet. I was distracted by an ugly cry session. I still have one more workout and fisting to do.

[ladypaine2016]

5/28/21 1:23 am

The ways I listened today

-I haven’t gone to bed yet so this is still considers part of 5/25

-healthy breakfast

-walked to work plus more walking - total of 45 minutes

-healthy lunch

-I read 10 pages of “book of proof”.

-put 3 carrots each in my ass and cunt.

-stretched for 45 minutes.

-dinner was McDonald’s but within my calories

-that’s it, goodnight.

[ladypaine2016]

05/26/2021 8:52 PM

The ways I’ve listened today:

I walked to work which was part of a 45 minute walk.

I did 3 pushups.

I read 11 pages of a self help book.

I ate healthy without fail.

I walked this evening for 45 minutes.

I prepared for tomorrow already.

I got 3 fingers in my ass up to the base of the fingers. I got my fist in cunt just about to the base of the thumb.

I went by the one I love’s dear one and checked on them.

Day 1 of listening.

[ladypaine2016]

May 26, 2021 1:08 am

It’s 1 am, do you know where your whore has been? Me either.

[ladypaine2016]

April 27, 2021 7:15 PM

I have been absentia lately. I’m sorry about that. I had a task. Look up queen snake porn and watch 5 clips. Report back. Here is my report.

1. Toilet Brush Stepsisters— two gals involved in some play using a toilet brush, the bottle brush kind. One even was double ended so both at once were fucking it like a double ended dildo. I thought hmmm, This is something I could try. When I had a yeast infection many years ago it was something I would have welcomed. Those are very itchy and scratching it feels so much better. Until you stop.

2. Submissive Painslut Pussy insertions with pencils. I was curious like really? She was on like 75 when they all popped out like missiles. Safety glasses should have been recommended, as one could lose an eye. I was seriously like “what?” With the pencils. I wanted to freeze the clip and count the pencils. I didn’t. One thing I did think interesting is that it makes sense to do many insertions of small items as it will increase gradually. Something to think about.

3. Gladiators-Holly vs Jessica. Damn these women are tough. They hang on and smack each other with a whip thing. I’m fairly certain I would scream. It did look fun, sort of. It would take training and fitness to do well.

4. Puppy Jebby— this device was interesting. I couldn’t see well enough to understand the mechanics of the attachment to Jebby, but I did she she was in charge of meting out her own pain. She was attached to a rubber band that was attached to something else. She was made to crawl forward and eventually the rubber bands would release and smack her hard on her cunt. She was definitely in pain and there were marks. I could only imagine how tense that would make me. I imagine it would be like doing a Jack in the box or opening a can of biscuits. Cringing just thinking about it.

5. Twenty Five—this chick used a vacuum thing to engorge her nipple and then she inserted 25 syringe heads into it. It was like a damn sunburst on her tit. She then masturbated. You could see her tense up as she got close.

(Apparently I can’t count)

6. Clit clash—her clit was engorged with a vacuum thing. And then another thing attached to it. Mechanically I couldn’t figure out what was happening other than pain on her clit. I don’t know who was in control. This one looked like it needed to be worked up into.

I was asked how much I was prepared to suffer. I didn’t write down the exact words.

I am a bit amazed at the levels of pain out there, I had no idea of the depth of it.

I will suffer at the hands of the one I love. I will suffer and also be content with any kindness he shows me, or any comfort he provides be it with a pet or a friend or a partner of some sort.

[ladypaine2016]

Jan 3, 202111:49 am

I am amazed how many things well up inside when I journal and stop to think about why I just wrote what I did. I am working hard to change some habits and some others I haven’t started yet. Tomorrow morning I will attempt fisting my vagina. And then after that my ass. I don’t have any stretching tools or a big fist dildo, it’s just not in my budget. I will have to make do. Or maybe you might have an idea of things I can do for extra money.

Today’s weight 183.2 which is good. Clean eating is washing out my indulges over the holidays. Overall, this week I have been proud of myself and I also identified some stubbornness as well.

Here’s to a new day every day. Also, please love on the seniors in your life. They might need a mental boost these days.

[ladypaine2016]

January 2, 2021 5:33 am

I have been quite busy. I did many hard things yesterday, and I’m very proud of that. I am still continuing with not cumming until Feb 14, and I will be working on fisting both my vagina and my asshole. I have many other projects I can tell you about but I will save those for another day.

Yours truly, Ladypaine.

[ladypaine2016]

12/28/2020 5:10 PM

I am starting a new set of routines. This morning was successful but now I’m at a loss without feeling the crushing weight of frustration. Isn’t that something?

I am not going to cum until Valentine’s Day. Only 48 more days.

[ladypaine2016]

12/23/2020 10:26 pm

I am not going to cum until Valentine’s Day.

-truly yours, a super horny whore.

[ladypaine2016]

12/22.2020 4:40 pm

The one whom I love will be noticing my blog has slipped in production.

I am hard at work defining my path, a reasonable one, for 2021. I’m tired of wanting things and not knowing how to get there. I just have to have a path or I’ll forget. Written reminders, routines, muscle memory, better habits.

I’m not done with this work, it’s intense! So many layers that I feel like I’m doing an autopsy of my old self.

I want to fuck very badly. I’ve not been allowed to cum in several days. I swear I could edge here and now just thinking of it. The only choice I have for a poke is my husband. I will be making the moves on him later.

I love my former Master and began begging to take me back. I love him and want to care for him and his needs the rest of my life.

[thedownfallofyou-deactivated8535]

Reblog this if you want a LONG(or short) anonymous message saying what they think of you.

[kinky-dirty-daddy]

Sure I’m fine to hear this if it’s anonymous or not anonymous i way to see what people think of me because of my page and think the type of daddy I am 😈😏🤔