Mental illness sucks!!! One minute your feeling fine, the next minute your so low you can’t get yourself out of bed, you lose the will to take care of yourself, you lack motivation to take care of your hygiene, you feel helpless…I feel helpless! I’ve been struggling for a while and it hurts. I don’t want to be around anybody and I don’t want to talk about it, yet I just want a man to scoop me up and just hold me. I know I have friends and family to call, but I just don’t want to. I have my counseling session tomorrow and I’m just not sure what to say or where to start. I’ve been with my counselor for almost a year and we’ve made some progress, but I just feel like there’s way more to go. I’m tired and I just don’t want to do it. Part of me wants to ‘no show’ tomorrow, the other part knows I can’t afford to do that to my mental and emotional health. This is a horrible place to be in.