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Yes

Into the lair of love I shall nevermore dwell, I succumb to the darkness and bid life farewell. To the next warrior I wish luck upon thee, That they conquer you demon and set true love free

lambberry

There is NO FUCKING WAY I wrote this... this is a quote, right? ...but I can't find the quote. LolHow?!

discolor3d

snakeantlers

last summer before we played folk the park 6. the secret story behind this picture is that i smoked too much weed and was internally panicking and trying to calm myself down before our set. somehow it turned out really nicely. thanks sue!

lambberry

Remember when I said I wish I could fucking cry, cry as hard as I should be? It happened. It happened right in front of her. It wasn’t pathetic, weak, or forced it was genuine. She broke down too, because I broke down. We didn’t rehash the same talks that never helped, maybe made things worse. We heard each other’s pain and felt it’s honesty. It was beautiful and we were human again. She couldn’t hold back or stop from saying something, probably the only thing that would remind me she truly loves me. I’ve never come back from doubting I was loved. I thought it wasn’t possible to come back from that kind of pain. She did the one thing I thought never happens. She wasn’t trying to prove she loved me or apologize at all. Didn’t have to. She didn’t do it to make me feel better. She couldn’t help spilling her heart. She’s not programmed for such a display. Yet, there she was, heart exposed fur just the second time in 9 years. I fell in love with her all over again. The same love, the same feeling, the same reason and the same moment. It was so beautiful. It was exactly what I needed and wanted and I didn’t even know I needed it or wanted it at all.

I know saying all this here might be crazy. I know I’ve been fucked up for days. Still I tried to find catharsis and was confident I could handle the worst. But nothing was okay. Now this gorgeous unique moment is bigger than every broken feeling.

Now for the rest of my life I’ll know love is impossible and possible to rebuild.

lambberry

Now that we have both hurt each other again. We think we know what that love actually means. Too bad the drugs destroyed our perception. Too bad I destroyed my sanity. Too bad she lost her mind. Too bad I have to feel like shit to destroy my darkest crime. Sitting here destroying myself is destroying her instead. Hollowing her insides out, starting with her head.

lambberry

Don't forget her

You’re soft spoken I’m full of hot air. Fell for your brevity when you shared your fears Every listen every talk every joke and night we fought I fell harder and tried to wait while you tried drink your pain away

Then I broke and set the tone Met rejection but not alone Been living by your rules and didn’t know it To afraid to confront, so you never told it

Like it is, like it has to be Can’t trust your heart So you hide half from me

And hell it hurt to learn the truth a thing a thought I already knew That’s how I am, I “know everything” And you know that still let me believe it Again my arrogance leaves me bleeding

It’s not your fault, I was weak, Played it tough, That’s what you needed So we latched on as we fell As the ground got closer We figured “what the hell”

So this love is not convenient Because we took what we needed So we’ll give back Just before we leave it

I won’t forget what was us And how we remembered to give a fuck That we we taught each other that we matter even as you, me, we or alone

…we learned each other while consumed by insecurities then built each other back up. …It’s nice to finally meet you.

lambberry

Guess I didn't really take this seriously and neither did you. Have to work on myself just to get wrecked for you.

#can't practice what you preach #dumbass #The magnificent retard and his band of angry NEETs

lambberry

Remember when I said I wish I could fucking cry, cry as hard as I should be? It happened. It happened right in front of her. It wasn’t pathetic, weak, or forced it was genuine. She broke down too, because I broke down. We didn’t rehash the same talks that never helped, maybe made things worse. We heard each other’s pain and felt it’s honesty. It was beautiful and we were human again. She couldn’t hold back or stop from saying something, probably the only thing that would remind me she truly loves me. I’ve never come back from doubting I was loved. I thought it wasn’t possible to come back from that kind of pain. She did the one thing I thought never happens. She wasn’t trying to prove she loved me or apologize at all. Didn’t have to. She didn’t do it to make me feel better. She couldn’t help spilling her heart. She’s not programmed for such a display. Yet, there she was, heart exposed fur just the second time in 9 years. I fell in love with her all over again. The same love, the same feeling, the same reason and the same moment. It was so beautiful. It was exactly what I needed and wanted and I didn’t even know I needed it or wanted it at all.

I know saying all this here might be crazy. I know I’ve been fucked up for days. Still I tried to find catharsis and was confident I could handle the worst. But nothing was okay. Now this gorgeous unique moment is bigger than every broken feeling.

Now for the rest of my life I’ll know love is impossible and possible to rebuild.

lambberry

Now that we have both hurt each other again. We think we know what that love actually means. Too bad the drugs destroyed our perception. Too bad I destroyed my sanity. Too bad she lost her mind. Too bad I have to feel like shit to destroy my darkest crime. Sitting here destroying myself is destroying her instead. Hollowing her insides out, starting with her head.

The biggest lie is the one you tell yourself. That's why there's only room in this place for one person.

#lier #hypocrite #manipulator

justbadpuns

thewindowofthesummerhouse

Remember when I said I wish I could fucking cry, cry as hard as I should be? It happened. It happened right in front of her. It wasn't pathetic, weak, or forced it was genuine. She broke down too, because I broke down. We didn't rehash the same talks that never helped, maybe made things worse. We heard each other's pain and felt it's honesty. It was beautiful and we were human again. She couldn't hold back or stop from saying something, probably the only thing that would remind me she truly loves me. I've never come back from doubting I was loved. I thought it wasn't possible to come back from that kind of pain. She did the one thing I thought never happens. She wasn't trying to prove she loved me or apologize at all. Didn't have to. She didn't do it to make me feel better. She couldn't help spilling her heart. She's not programmed for such a display. Yet, there she was, heart exposed fur just the second time in 9 years. I fell in love with her all over again. The same love, the same feeling, the same reason and the same moment. It was so beautiful. It was exactly what I needed and wanted and I didn't even know I needed it or wanted it at all. I know saying all this here might be crazy. I know I've been fucked up for days. Still I tried to find catharsis and was confident I could handle the worst. But nothing was okay. Now this gorgeous unique moment is bigger than every broken feeling. Now for the rest of my life I'll know love is impossible and possible to rebuild.

Beach House Livin'

I got a whole list of reasons why I should stop before I start. But the only thing stronger than my head is my heart.

#antifolk

I'm not complaining to complain Or trying to cast you in shame. I'm not shouting or counting in a damn thing to change. I know you're still here It's now painfully clear That most of you's a ghost of you You've vanished my dear.

#antifolk #charles latham #nice to me