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[sugarsprinklesoul]

Small ways to activate your "happiness" chemicals

DOPAMINE: the reward chemical

• Complete a task

• Doing self care activites

• Eating some food

• Celebrating your little wins.

OXYTOCIN: the love hormones

• Playing with a dog

• Playing with a baby

• Holding hands

• Hugging someone

• Giving someone else a compliment

SEROTONIN: the mood stabiliser

• Meditating

• Running

• Be in the sun

• Walk in nature

• Swimming

ENDORPHIN: the pain relief

• Laughing exercises

• Essential oils

• Eating dark chocolate

• Running

[lamoscaazul]

We were apart for a month, I had a trip planned since last year, so we didn’t see each other for what it seems a long time (I know I exaggerate but it’s too long for me).

Everything that happens, I see it as an opportunity, this time was the chance to miss each other since we were meeting like 2-3 times per week.

The re encounter was amazing, I’m starting to feel sure about what we have, and I want to take care of our relationship and of him.

I’m feeling way too loved and respected, he listens to me and understands me.

I’m on cloud 9 and no one can take me down.

[lamoscaazul]

Updateeeee!

Well, remember I had two important events with him? Well we only had one haha, the trip.

We went on his bike, it was not scary but it was difficult for me because it was the first time that I rode on one, for a veeery long time, 7 hours!!

He was very attentive, he protected me a lot! The city where we arrived is one of my favourites, we were with his family, it was an easy trip, like everything flowed normally and we had a great time and I feel like we bonded.

We went back and everything has been really good. Maybe some ups and downs, because of my behaviour and my need for attention, I’m still working on it and I’m learning how he works and manages.

We are a couple now, we are together, and I couldn’t be happier, we didn’t started well, it was about 7 and a half years ago when we met (this may be another post), I think life is giving me the opportunity to grow along with him, we are both at the same stage in life, learning a lot of things from each other.

I feel the need of admitting that I’m learning a lot from him, he is teaching me patience, self love, he has helped with my anxiety (sometimes because he really knows how to push my buttons).

I’m very happy about what we are building, and this will be constant, I’m gonna give everything, I want to take care of him and kiss him every time I can.

I’ll keep you posted 😚

[wordswithloveee]

[blvckchvrn]

BlvckChvrn & Co. 🌹

[lamoscaazul]

Things have been going great!

I’m still scared tho, because I need reassurance every now and then. I’m working on it with my therapist, step by step, every week is an opportunity for me to grow, to understand that I need to do the things for me.

About him… he’s really a man!! Like he makes me feel protected. He has been introducing my with his friends and his mom, he provides me with everything I need: attention, caring, smiles, sex… but I wonder if he likes me, if he has feelings for me the way I’m starting to have feelings for him.

Only time will tell. We have two important events coming soon, his graduation and our first trip on my birthday. We’ll see how we manage.

In the meantime I trust that I’m investing my energy in the right place, because he gives back.

Wish me luck, and more than that, wish me success! For me and myself only.

[lamoscaazul]

It has been a long time since I felt this way.

I’m scared because it feels way too real. And I’m keeping myself from feeling, but this is getting stronger, and is winning over me.

Should I let this win? Should I just flow and see what happens.

I’m scared, I’ve been hurt so much over the past years, I don’t know if I’m capable of doing this one more time. Maybe I’m the one who fucks up everything and never take the blame, so I continue making the same mistakes.

I don’t know what else to do.

[lamoscaazul]

I come here when I need to write, hoping somebody sees it and feels identified. Here I go.

The past maybe 10 months have been sooooo difficult I thought i wouldn’t survive but HERE I AM.

The day before yesterday I told the person I was dating that I couldn’t do it anymore because he wasn’t taking me serious and he said: ok, I never meant to make you think I wanted something serious with you, so please try not to like me and stop having feelings for me.

WORST FEELING EVER

Why spend so many days and nights going out, talking, making plans, having dinner, having breakfast, watching movies, fucking… sending me gifts, talking about the future, our future, running errands together for no reason just for you to tell me I never meant to make you think I wanted something serious with you???

Are guys for real!!??

Stop having feelings for me? Like, yes imma erase you from my thoughts and my life rn and imma stop having feelings, like easy right?

Anyway, anyone can say I have a perfect life bc I have the perfect job, a beautiful house, a car, imma start my masters degree but I DO NOT FEEL COMPLETE!

What am I missing?

[kto-to69]

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[lamoscaazul]

It has been so long since I felt what they call butterflies in my stomach, and it hasn’t been the most awesome sensation as I thought it was going to.

Have you ever had that crush you feel he likes you back for one little act but the rest you feel you’re suffocating and annoying him?

Well, I’ve been the one talking to my crush first and trying to get his attention during one whole week and guess what? I’m already tired. I’ve never chased anyone, and as rude as it sounds, I’m always chased… so this has been exhausting for me and I’m done.

If he wants something to do with me, he’ll talk, if no… goodbye!!!

This are 3:45am thoughts.

[brianstowell]

[lamoscaazul]

Moving to a new life

So... I had moving day a day ago, I didn’t move far from where I was, but it is a BIG CHANGE. 

I took the decision because, where I lived, I didn't see the sunlight after 10am, and I felt that that was starting to affect me physically (lack of vitamin D) and mentally (I felt like my day was shorter, so at 12m I wanted to sleep even though I was half way through the day, because the apartment was already dark). 

Since I’m a new citizen with sunlight that goes directly to my apartment, I’m enjoying every single minute of it, so I’m going to share with you two pictures of the sunset today. Take into account that where I live is mostly cloudy, so it’s not common to have full blue skies. 

[lamoscaazul]

I haven’t posted in a little while... maybe three years or so...  I found myself in a place of complete happiness that lasted for about two years, but this last one has been one of the most difficult years of my life. 

I always thought that people who had suicidal thoughts were weak, but since I started to think about it, I’ve realised that we are the strongest ones (I’m including me in this list since I’ve had some of those thoughts), because even though we are thinking always in negative, we show our selves to the outside as the most enthusiastic and happy people. 

So... shout out to all the people who are struggling right now with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts; to the ones who hope that one night it’ll all end... and you can wake up in a better place, in a better mood, living a better life. 

I know that we can all support each other, I think we are the only ones that understand what is it like to be living like we do, so don’t be afraid to talk... ever.

[sidewindervx]

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