2018/06/22 - 15:53
I'm freaking out. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm feeling. It's mostly because I don't understand what I feel. He overwhelms me most of the time. I don't know what my reaction should be. I have not spoken to him in a month. At all. Nothing. No word in a month. And then I receive a message and now I'm mush. I'm feeling like I'm floating on a cloud. It's all I'm thinking about. I feel like I'm losing focus on everything else. I do love him so. At the end of the day I guess that is all that matters. But then what do I do about my feelings? Does this mean that I don't value my feelings if I just let myself be swept away by a message, albeit a very sweet and endearing one, followed by a series of *incredibly* gorgeous pictures? Am I wrong to feel okay about the past month that I've just been basically freaking out that I have had absolutely no communication from him? Is this okay?












