THE Sunday Oak and Goro Akechi of jiraiblr!!!! sunday & akechi irl! my dms are open if you want to talk or be friends!! ♡ — banner by @prismaticvampire ! if you think you know me, no, you don't.
My usernames: mirai0nna > dissociating-beauty > sweetest-requiem > landminepilled
Hi, I'm Misa, your local vampire internet girl archive! This blog may contain sensitive content, as i am a mentally ill person and recovering slowly. I am a jirai joshi — you can ask me anything about jirai fashion, I'll respond! You can ask me for tips and this kind of thing, my dms are always open! (unless you're over 21.. please don't dm me if so)
Be aware this is a jirai blog, so if you feel uncomfortable, just block me, don't report, please!
A little more about myself...
You can also call me Sunday or Goro! — I am a teenager, almost 14, so please, don't be weird. I am a lesbian demigirl, my pronouns are she/they!
I am diagnosed with depression has been a year by now, I'm taking medication since. This can be also taken as a mh blog, as i will probably talk about what I'm going through. I will not judge anyone, you're safe here. — As may as I can seem really cheerful here, in real life I am really introverted and quiet. But I like to yap sometimes! About my interests! I am a great listener too.
How did I got into jirai kei?
I was interested in jirai since 2023, but I was too young and... ahem... kinda devoid of knowledge.
In the start of 2025, mid april, my parents discovered my sh habits and got very worried about me. I was really disturbed by this. It was like my life turned upside down. I was going through a heavy depression since 2024 without even acknowledging it.
I already knew about jirai kei, and, as I researched more about it, I saw there was more people like me. I felt welcome. As may as it seems controversial, it was one of the things that helped me. Suddenly, I was more excited to do my makeup, to do my hair, to take care of myself.
A lot of people say jirai kei is problematic, but it really isn't. It's just a place to welcome mentally ill people and that's really sweet. Remember, being unstable will not make you problematic or a bad person.
𝑳𝘪𝘬𝘦𝘴 & 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴
My favorite show is Hannibal from NBC, but i reaaaally like the movies too! Uuh my favorite games are ZENO remake and resident evil (my fav one is re7) ,, my favorite actor is Anthony Hopkins and my favorite movies are Silence Of the Lambs and Hannibal Rising! I'm also getting into the show Breaking Bad.
I have a lot of other interests, but they are too many to write down here... ehe.
I love spicy food. I love to cook and bake and I'm also a cosplayer.
𝑫𝘪𝘴𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦𝘴 ::
Well, I dislike a LOT of things. My sister say that i hate more things than i like. Well, i don't like loud noises, annoying people, socializing, math, bittersweet food, leaving my house and, sadly, I can't stand kids. (I don't have anything against kids at all, I just... don't like them. They annoy me. Sigh.)
𝑫𝘯𝘪!
Pedos, jirai antis, MAGA - ICE - Trump - Israel supporters, homophobes, racists, shota/lolicons & nsfw/gore accs.
If you kin the same characters as me. Strictly!!!
Well, if you're older than 21, please don't interact or interact with caution.
#me list:
Sunday (Honkai Star Rail) — Goro Akechi (Persona 5) — Fuyu Ushirono (ZENO) — He Xuan (Tian Guan Ci fu) — Luka (ALNST)
Doubles (?) strictly dni!!
Tags::
# the midnight choir - normal and/or random posts
# feeling is a disease - vent posts
# as the sun burns my skin - rants
# I'll catch you! - gossip
# coming from hell - my daily life
# misa explains! - asks!!
# even I have a heart - just mee being sweet for once
I'm gonna start producing sugar candy but colored blue and I'll sell it and say it's walter white's 99% pure blue meth so I'll get rich and buy lizlisa setups
I'm really wondering if I am aroace. All makes sense now. Having a relationship, in theory, it's cool, but in practice it's just uncomfortable. It takes things I can't give in any way. Like physical contact. I love hugging my friends, but.. when I think about it with a partner? It's weird and all this kind of thing. By the way, platonic bonds are stronger and more important than romantic ones, at least for me. It's just so complicated. I have more to speak about that but I have to sleep so I'll post more about that tomorrow.
Okay I'm back!!! What I'm going to say kinda has to do with the girl I'm ALMOST dating (not dating yet.). Okay. She's clearly in love with me, like CLEARLY in love with me, but I can't fucking feel the same!!!!! I already posted about that before. Like, she's cool, she treats me the way I ever wanted, she's understanding, she's pretty but... there's something wrong. Not with her. There's something wrong with ME. I can't see myself in a relationship. I don't want proximity. I'm disgusted by that. By touch, by relying on her - by her relying on me. I wanted to feel the same but I just can't and that's frustrating.
I'm really wondering if I am aroace. All makes sense now. Having a relationship, in theory, it's cool, but in practice it's just uncomfortable. It takes things I can't give in any way. Like physical contact. I love hugging my friends, but.. when I think about it with a partner? It's weird and all this kind of thing. By the way, platonic bonds are stronger and more important than romantic ones, at least for me. It's just so complicated. I have more to speak about that but I have to sleep so I'll post more about that tomorrow.
It's so fucking confusing!!! All that is so fucking confusing!!!!! She verbalizes that she wants me, she jokes about dating me, she already told me she loves me, so why can't I feel the same???? I want her, I do, but at the same time I dont!!! I want her to ask me to be her girlfriend and I want to date her but at the same time I don't!!!! Can I even feel romantic attraction at this point ?????
