Beautiful Death

" I'm not the bad guy. " [ Indie OC } - { selective ] written by Vic

[angstmemes]

Basic Angst Starters

because sometimes what’s left to the imagination is much more terrifying.

“Are you feeling alright? You don’t look it.” “I just heard something… Something bad…” “Why didn’t you tell me about this?!” “What’s all this blood?!” “Will you tell me what the fuck is going on?” “Don’t give me that look! It wasn’t my fault!” “You should probably sit down for this.” “Please tell me you forgive me!” “I can’t live without you!” “Oh god, It was a mistake coming here… I’m sure of it.” “What the hell happened to you?!” “Where have you been?! I’ve been waiting for hours!” “You promised you wouldn’t do this anymore!” “I knew not to trust you!” “What’s that in your bag…? Is that–? Tell me it’s not!” “Is this what a dislocated shoulder feels like?!” “How could you do this to me?!” “Wake up! Wake up!!! You’re having a nightmare!” “I feel weird… what was in that drink…?” “I don’t want to leave you, but you’re not really giving me another option.” “Please… you’re scaring me…” “Ssh, I heard something again. How aren’t you hearing it? It was loud… and getting closer.” “Are you okay in there? You’ve been so quiet.” “I came as soon as I could! Did he/she get to you already?” “I don’t know whether I want to do this. I don’t know whether I CAN do this.” “Do you remember anything?” “You have to tell me who did this to you!” “No, no, I’m not alright. I’m definitely not alright.” “What’s your fucking problem?!” “Are you crying?” “You’re freaking me out! Please calm down!” “I’m leaving. And I’m not intending to come back.” “You… are dying?” “Did you drink the whole bottle while tripping? Seriously?” “Do you have a deathwish or something? Jesus!” “Ever been held at gunpoint? Want to know what it feels like?” “Stop screaming! Shh, calm down! You have to keep quiet!” “When’s the last time you slept?”.

[rp-meme-central]

4 word sentence starters

1. “I don’t like you.” 

2. “What’s going on here?” 

3. “Buy me a drink?” 

4. “Act serious for once.” 

5. “Have we met before?” 

6. “So, what’s your name?” 

7. “Just don’t look down.” 

8. “Get away from me!” 

9. “You are so stupid.” 

10. “You are so cute.” 

11. “Don’t forget your ___.” 

12. “Don’t get cocky, kid.” 

13. “Did you do this?” 

14. “Did I scare you?” 

15. “Please stop doing that.” 

16. “I love you too.” 

17. “Don’t mess this up.” 

18. “Keep your head down.” 

19. “Can I help you?” 

20. “What do you want?” 

21. “Did I/they hurt you?” 

22. “Don’t look at it.” 

23. “You need to eat.” 

24. “I brought you dinner.” 

25. “I’m at the hospital.” 

26. “It’s not safe here.” 

27. “Can you hear me?” 

28. “It’s so beautiful outside.” 

29. “Stay out of there.” 

30. “May I kiss you?”  

31. “Don’t look at me.” 

32. “Do you need help?” 

33. “What do you need?” 

34. “Who’s cooking dinner tonight?”

35. “You. Me. Movie marathon.” 

[secrets-of-universes-archiv-blog]

“Why wouldn’t I? Isn’t it normal wanting to know when something different crosses one’s realm?” Ashlee crossed her arms in front of her chest, just like this unknown stranger. 

[laobscuredesastre]

Well, she could at least understand it. So with a sigh she replied; “ Fine. I’m a death god. “ Half of her at least was.

[secrets-of-universes-archiv-blog]

Ashlee knew every face of London and every person in this realm had the similar bad aura around them. This person wasn’t from the realm abandoned by hope. “It’s not my business but usually people stay away from here if they don’t want more problems that their pathetic life already has”, female said with a slightly bored tone as she observed the stranger. “You’re clearly not human, what are you?”

[laobscuredesastre]

Anita would just cross her arms in front of her chest, head tilted to the side. Her heterochromatic eyes on the one in front of her. Not sure what to think about her. “ Why do you want to know that? “ 

[youremymiracleelliot]

It took the hatter almost an entire hour to take care of everything, especially of Ben before he could leave the estate unseen. He hadn’t to search long, soon spotting Anita, approaching her. “Thanks for waiting. I’m sorry that it took so long but I’m an important man and can’t simply leave as I please”, he told her, stopping next to the demon. He had no clue that Anita had planned to meet her adoptive father and so actually was busy and now that she had to wait so long maybe even might be highly annoyed and angry.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ You really got a nerve to keep me waiting.  I hope you appreciate it enough that i didn’t simply leave! “, Her tone said everything; don’t make a woman wait this long. Probably she will not at home not be able to change before spending time with her father. “ So, what was it you wanted from me? “

[youremymiracleelliot]

“Well, you couldn’t know. But now I guess, both of us made our points clear”, Leonard replied, frowning next as he watched Anita. Nonetheless, he didn’t hesitate for a moment and took his gun and the note from her. He didn’t put the weapon away, holding it in his hand while unfolding the piece of paper. Quickly he read it, then folded it and put it into the inner pocket of his tailcoat.

“Oh, Leon received a love letter~”, Ben giggled amused, not having another idea what might have been standing on the paper. Leonard decided to just go with that concept, using it to play with the demon. “I appreciate your admiration, miss Black”, the hatter started but Ben interrupted him. “Did Nita seriously write she admires you?”, he asked curiously, looking up at Leonard with his big eyes. “Indeed, she did, Ben”, Leonard smiled sweetly, “she stated me as being attractive, maybe even the most attractive mortal she’s ever met.” Then he looked at Anita again. “I feel honored that you’re not feeling like refusing me though just a moment ago you’ve been cautious I might mean danger to you. If I’m free to choose, we’ll surely see again soon”, this was his answer to her note, telling her he’d join her outside.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Oh, now you even told him. Do mortals have to show off like that if a god compliments them? “ She just went with it as well, but had to keep her laughter in as Leonard came up with her calling him attractive. Well he wasn’t that wrong, a few years younger and Leonard definitely would be Anitas Type. “ Well then, thanks for having me. I’ll see you again “ she waved, before turning and leaving. Out of the palace she stopped, waiting then for Leonard.

[youremymiracleelliot]

“Don’t worry, Nita! Leon would never shoot you as long as you’re no danger to us”, Ben replied, giggling as if it was the most logical thing in the worlds.

Leonard walked over to Ben to pretend wanting to be able to protect the boy just in case, then turning to the demon. “I’m the head butler but also a guard in this palace, so it’s just natural for me to worry about the princes. But if you’re seriously no danger, give my gun back and then you’re free to walk off. I’m not planning to attack you.” This was right. He was planning something else but there was no need to tell anyone. For now the plan was to keep up his show until the death god left.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Hmm... I guess that makes sense. Sorry. At some places intruders are immediatly shot if they surprise someone, i couldn’t possibly know that you’re not like that. “ She looked for a moment at the gun in her hand, but didn’t immediatly give it back. At first she took out a little diary, which she opened. Taking out a pen, she quickly wrote something into it and ripped out the paper. Folding it, she then extended her arm with the gun and the piece of paper towards Leonard.

What she wrote down on the paper was a message to the Hatter, which contained following words; 

   { You’re a good actor, i’m impressed.             What is it you really desire, and are you ready to pay the price?        Then meet me outside. -- Anita Black ♡ }

[youremymiracleelliot]

He grit his teeth, considering his options. He could tell her the truth, telling her that he’d come to ask her to bring him to purgatory to rescue the King of Clubs. But the problem was, this indeed might displease her, as far as he knew death gods did never agree in such requests. They tended to take their job pretty serious. The other option was, to simply tell her he’d come because he had been worried about the princes. After all death gods always were surrounded by darkness and death.

After thinking for a moment, the hatter decided to go with the third option. “Well, I could tell you the truth but this might displease you and I like my head to stay where it is. I’ve got some experience in spending some time without head, after all I’ve been with Q for quite a while. So let’s just go with I came because I’ve been worried about the princes”, Leonard whispered to Anita, so only she could hear him. “Honey, I’d like you to release me. I don’t want Ben to wonder and worry why you’re holding me like this”, he then added in a louder voice to involve the boy.

Immediately Ben nodded. “Yeah, Nita, what are you doing with Leon?”

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Playing the smart one, ehh? “, she whispered back, actually this was an answer she’d decide to kill him... but maybe there was more to come later. Well, for now he just mentioned Ben and the demon knew that it would be no good to kill Leonard now and here. 

She put a smile and looked at Ben. “ I’m an intruder after all... “ She let go and immediatly got hold of Leonards gun, taking it out. Of course she didn’t really meant to use it anyways but jsut wanted to show it.  “ He searched for me, and i was afraid he’s ruin my dress with this thing here. The safety isn’t on, he probably would’ve reaced to it on instinct and shot me. “

[youremymiracleelliot]

Ben kept quiet when Anita asked him to, but this was why he didn’t know how to respond to Leonard. “Umm….”, he stuttered, searching for anything to say.

Then everything happened pretty fast and Leonard found himself unable to move his arms. Damn, like this he couldn’t reach for his gun. However, actually this would be useless, there was no use in shooting a death god. A smirk was his reply, as he looked back at the small girl. “Indeed, indeed. I might have been searching for you…, if you are the death god who’s been in the dungeon before. Buuuut, I’m not sure, whether a true god would act like this. I’ve learnt they are pretty proud of themselves, holding their noses highly up in the air and refuse mortals to approach them as being unworthy of being in a god’s presence. But you’re the real opposite, it means, honey…” He didn’t move at all, waiting for her reaction.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Oh, you’re talking about ordinary gods, silly, we are rather close to mortals since we gotta take care of your sweet sweet souls. “ The demon chuckled a little, playing it off with innocent gestures -- so innocent it must be acted and fake of course. “ But anyways... Yes, i was the one earlier in the dungeon, sweetheart. So what is it you come to search me for? I hope for you it won’t take much of my time... “ Now up on her tiptoes, she whispered quietly into the mans ear so that Ben won’t hear anything; “ If your answer displeases me i’m gonna snap your soft neck within less than a second of consideration. “

[youremymiracleelliot]

Ben of course didn’t know the truth about what happened to Elijah in purgatory. He wasn’t stupid, being aware of the darkness and danger in purgatory but he had no clue that his daddy got tortured down there. Therefore he didn’t see why he shouldn’t be allowed to visit him for a short while.

“Oh, you’re adopted, too?”, the boy asked blinking his eyes. He could understand how important it was to her to see her adoptive father. So he wouldn’t hold her back, after all if he now was able to go and see his adoptive father, he’d do it as well, at once. “Okay, I don’t want your daddy to have to wait for you. When you find some time, come back to visit us, okay?”, he smiled at her friendly.

Suddenly fast footsteps approached the chambers of the princes. Whoever it was, they heard this someone at first stopped in front of Matthew’s room and then walked in, obviously checking over him. After that this someone left the young heir’s room and now walked over to Ben’s room, stopping in front of his door, knocking and then already opening it, without waiting for an answer. “Ben, are you all right?”, Leonard asked before adding, “our god”, he often addressed Lunael like that, demonstrating that he saw him as their property, “told me there’s a death god in here….”

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Hmm... maybe i will visit you again.. “ Or most probably she will. Due to work the death god anyways will have to return to Wonderland. Anitas gaze wandered to the door as she heard steps, unlike before though she has to hide now her appeariance consciously from the Hatter. And once the door got opened she took a step aside. Crimson eyes for a short moment on the boy who still could see her, a finger on her lips asking him to keep quiet.

Then she sneaked past Leonard, gaze wandereing back and forth between Ben and Leonard. Until she was behind the Man. “ Oh dear, did you search for me sweety? “ Her body getting now materilized she wrapped her arms from behind around Leonard to make him unable to move his arms, a grin appearing on her features. Even if Leonard was an adult man, he couldn’t possibly fight against the force of a demon. “ unfortunately i was already about to leave. “ 

[youremymiracleelliot]

He blushed. “Umm…., I – I just thought I could visit daddy… Only for five minutes. Nothing else. Only seeing him, talking to him, a bit and then we can leave again… I haven’t seen him for years. Please, Nita…”, he blinked his big puppy eyes, his gaze was pleading her to give in. “Mommy isn’t in right now and we’ll be back before she returns, so she won’t find out about it! And then she won’t have any reason to be angry with you and cut off your head! Plus, I actually think, she’d even be grateful, if you helped me to visit daddy. After all she loves him very much and I’m sure she still misses him, too, though she’s found a new man.”

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Are you serious kid? No way your mother would be fine with that, ever! “ Not only would it be almost kidnapping and bringing a living mortal to a horrible and dangerous place, but it would be also showing him how his father gets tortured. No that’s nothing Anita wants to have to do with.

“ Besides... have you forgotten that i was actually about to leave? I kinda was invited to my adoptive father to have some tea and i’m not gonna miss out on that. “

[youremymiracleelliot]

“Oh, thank you!!”, Ben replied, seriously happy that she accepted his apology. The boy ran over to hug the demon tightly. “See! You’ve just proved it yourself! You aren’t evil, therefore demons in general aren’t evil!” He looked up at her, smiling widely and sweetly.

Then he pulled away, jumping from one foot onto the other. “Can I ask you one more question, please? You’re a death god…so you can go to where dead people are, right?” Nervously he grasped the lose piggy tail on his shoulder, playing with it. “Umm…, can you– can you even enter heaven, hell and purgatory?”

[laobscuredesastre]

Other than her death god counterpart would, the demon didn’t really react to being hugged. Might be mostly because she didn’t like those kinds of things when outside of her family. But it wasn’t like she had anything against such a sweet innocent gesture so Anita just endured it as it lasted. 

“ Of course i can, any immortal being can. “ Heaven would be for a part-demon more of a difficult task though. “ But to make it clear, i’m not going to do anything that involves anyone from the heaven realms or purgatory. I like to have my head on my shoulders and not in my arms if you get what i mean... “

[youremymiracleelliot]

He tilted his head but smiled in triumph. “Well, if you can’t even describe it, I don’t see any reason why I should believe in your concept. Plus, I like mine more!”, he chuckled lightly. Happy with his conclusion his legs dangled in the air. “…hm, if demons aren’t that different from humans, then actually it shouldn’t be true that demons are evil. Because humans aren’t evil, too!” Did this even make sense to Anita? To Ben it definitely did! He frowned suddenly in thoughts. “Oh, I just noticed…, if it’s true what I’ve just said, you as well can’t be evil…. I’m sorry for accusing you of this earlier. Seriously!”, he really was sorry and meant to apologize by heart.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Well... can’t argue with that logic. “ Believe only in what can be described or explained, that’s exactly the thing that made the thinking of mortals and the thinking of immortals different. So she’ll just go with that.

The demon slightly tilted her head as he talked about how humans arent evil. And there was even a genuine smile lightening up her expression. It was rare to see anyone getting to the conclusion that demons aren’t evil, something refreshing to her usual day.

“ For once i will accept your apology. But that only because you’re the first one in a long time that actually thought about the words i said. “

[youremymiracleelliot]

Ben looked at her, blinking his eyes. “Demons have dreams, too?” Now his interest was caught and he forgot to be angry with her. “You know, as long as you can dream and imagine it, it still can become true”, he told her, sitting down on his bed once again. “So as long as I believe in Myles being in heaven, he truly might be there. It’s the same with gods, isn’t it? They exist because someone believes in them. Faith is important, no matter what. And faith in it makes everything possible. Even in a world without magic. Besides, if Myles isn’t in heaven but gets reborn anytime, where is he right now?”, he asked curiously for her ‘story’, though he wouldn’t believe her, no matter what she replied.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ of course demons have dreams as well... like i said, demons aren’t that different from mortal beings “ She turned once again back to Ben, though staying closer to the door rather than returning. Honestly, Anita still wanted to leave. Even though her good side agreed on staying here if the boy wants her to, the demon had things planned which she’d rather not miss.

“ Where he is? ... It’s ... difficult to explain to mortals. The whole concept of souls, life and death are more complex than we can explain to people with a mind narrowed down to words that exist and discribe. “

[youremymiracleelliot]

If Anita was telling the truth…, it would mean his mommy lied to him! And he just couldn’t believe this! “Shut up! That’s not true! You’re a liar! Where else could Myles be but in heaven?! I’m not falling into despair, because there’s no reason to be desperate! You’re just a liar! You’re not the Nita I’ve been talking to! Maybe you’re not even a death god like Nita is, so you don’t know– you can’t know anything!”, he yelled at her, getting to his feet, glancing up at her as the tears began to stream down his cheeks.

“You’re something evil because you’re saying such mean things to hurt me and to make me not believing in mommy! But it won’t work! Whoever, whatever you are! I won’t believe any of that nonsense your saying!!” He didn’t have to ask Lunael whether she was telling the truth, he already knew the answer.

[laobscuredesastre]

“ I’m something evil? What a mean thing to say, we demons are not even that different from mortals. “ A quiet sigh escaped the demons lips as she turned around on her heel, and then took a few steps into the direction of the door. “ Mortals are so fragile... you’d rather believe an illusion than the reality. No wonder demons are considered evil since we force you to face reality. I wouldn’t want to be woken up from my dream either. “

[youremymiracleelliot]

Ben wanted to ask more questions about foreseeing death but then Anita suddenly changed, it confused him and he instinctively shifted a bit away from her. What had happened? He didn’t understand it but her eyes were red, all of a sudden! “Umm, the…the Faustian contract?”, he repeated, not knowing what this is.

Her next words were the worst for him! He couldn’t believe it, he didn’t want to and he clenched his fists. “That’s not true! Humans are able to enter heaven! I know it! Myles is in heaven! Mommy told me! And the moment I die will be the moment when I’ll go to heaven, too, to see him again!” His eyes got teary. It just had to be true what his mother once told him! If his dead brother gets reborn, he’ll most probably never see him again, besides they won’t even recognize each other, being unable to remember their shared past. No, this was a lie! It had to be a lie!

[laobscuredesastre]

“ Child, my mother raised me to never lie. You asked about it, didn’t you? Who decides between heaven and hell, and here i told you there is no such decision for death gods. “ Anita stood up, letting one hand play with a strand of her long blond hair. Her crimson eyes still on Ben as she took a step away from the boy. “ Ask your friend, Lune. He should know that don’t you think so? “ 

She could go a bit further with this, she could give him false hope and lure him into the place humans call ‘hell’.  into the just mentioned ‘contract’. But she wondered if such a boy would even be of any use, he seemed too emotional, too stubborn and not really the best in following rules. Not Anitas type of person.

“ But now don’t fall into despair yet, sweety. Myles was your twin, wasn’t he? You most certaintly will be reborn as twins again. And maybe you two wont remember this life and your experiance here... but in the next life you can probably experiance even more fun stuff. Heaven for eternity is boring anyways, you will surely have more fun living again and go on adventures with your brother!  “

[laobscuredesastre]

send my muse a cheesy pick-up line to see how they respond!

"Are you an interior decorator?Because when I saw you, the entire room became beautiful."

"Are you a hipster? Because you make my hips stir."

"Do you have a Band-Aid? Because I just scraped my knee falling for you."

"I'm not a photographer, but I can picture me and you together."

"If I were a stop light, I'd turn red everytime you passed by, just so I could stare at you a bit longer."

"My lips are like skittles. Wanna taste the rainbow?"

"I wanna live in your socks so I can be with you every step of the way."

"Did you sit in a pile of sugar? Cause you have a pretty sweet ass."

"I'm not trying to impress you or anything, but... I'm Batman!"

"Let's commit the perfect crime - I'll steal your heart, and you'll steal mine."

"I don't have a library card, but do you mind if I check you out?"

"Did you invent the airplane? Cause you seem Wright for me."

If God made anything more beautiful than you, I'm sure he'd keep it for himself."

"Was that an earthquake or did you just rock my world?"

"You be the Dairy Queen and I'll be your Burger King - You treat me right, and I'll do it your way."

"If beauty were time, you'd be eternity."

"Are you a parking ticket? 'Cause you've got fine written all over you."

"I'm no organ donor, but I'd be happy to give you my heart."