I am alive. Summer 2022 has been literal shit and I don't want to think about it anymore. If I could delete the past three months from my memory that would be great.
Also does anyone know the storyline of Don't Worry Darling because I have watched the trailers so many times and I am sooooo confused.
Also I need to read something. Give me Rec Lists/Accounts.
Monday night a heavy storm hit the town I live in leaving thousands without power during a major heat wave for the area we live in. I've gone through two power blocks already for my phone and laptop.
Once power is restored I will update as soon as I can but we have another day or two before they think they'll be finished with repairs.
Harry was awake and making breakfast before the sun was breaking the horizon the morning of the twenty-fourth. He made a full English breakfast with a side of cinnamon rolls because Louis had said he wanted cinnamon rolls a few days ago. It took enough time out of the morning that by the time he was finished it was reasonable time to wake the kids up considering they had to leave for Louis' families soon. After waking both kids up he sent them to wake up Louis while he finished setting out their outfits for today and making sure everything was packed in the Murano along with the kids' tablets, so they had them for the drive. He was just finishing setting the table with the food when Louis came down with Maddie and Freddie.
"If I'm good with your baby brother and sister, can I get a sister sooner?"
"I think a baby is the perfect birthday present Papa."
"Do you hear this, Harry? All morning they've been talking about a baby."
"Guys we have already told you there will be no baby for quite some time. Trust me I am doing everything to make sure of that. We do not need a pregnant Louis filled with hormones this Spring and Summer. Especially Summer."
"But Daddy I want a little sister." Maddie pouted
"And I wanted to sleep in with my fiancé, but alas kids and birthday boy has to eat, and we have to drive an hour to Doncaster on one of the busiest and most dangerous days of travel. So, sit down and eat up so we can get on the road." Harry said as he guided her to her chair then he pulled out Louis' seat and pressed a kiss to his lips, "Happy birthday."
"Thank you and we could have stopped somewhere on the way if you wanted to sleep in longer."
"For your first birthday here? With me? Absolutely not. I'm still in the spoiling you stage. It'll last for another fifty years I'm afraid. No take backs."
"Maybe twenty years you're almost fifty after all."
"I'm not even thirty you take that back."
"Closer to fifty than I am."
"Sit down and eat your food or else I'll make you drive. December is your attitude month I think."
"It's the cold and the holidays. Makes me stressed and that makes me cranky. The fact my birthday falls into that mess doesn't help."
"Well eat up then we'll get everyone ready, and we'll be on our way. You can sleep for the drive."
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Almost two hours later Harry was getting both kids into the back of the Murano making sure they were the safest they have ever been before. Not that he ever let them not be securely buckled, but this time he made sure to tighten the strap just that much tighter and made sure to check them at least three times before we closed and the door and made sure the security system was activated and the doors were locked. After that he headed to the driver door and got into the seat adjusting it discreetly.
"I am not that short compared to you." Louis said with an eyeroll
"I have long legs." Harry defended, "Alright are we good to go? Anyone has to go potty before we leave?"
"They already did I made sure of it." Louis told him as he looked back at the kids, "We're good let's get there as quickly as possible."
"On that we agree."
The drive to Doncaster wasn't as terrible as they had been prepared for, but neither was it easier and they were thirty minutes later than expect.
"I hope my mother lost all embarrassing photos of me." Louis said as they pulled into the driveway of his childhood home, "I swear if she shows you the one of me completely naked."
"Nothing I haven't seen before Louis and trust me, it's grown since then."
"You did not."
"I did." Harry grinned as he leaned over the middle console and pressed his lips against Louis'.
"Hey LouLou?"
"Mm. Yes Maddison?" Louis asked turning to look back at her blushing as Harry chucked smugly beside him.
"What do I call your mom?"
"What do you mean?"
"Freddie calls her Nana, right? So, do I call her Nana too? Or should I call her Ms. Tomlinson?"
"Oh well her to start her last name isn't Tomlinson anymore its Deakin. My family is a bit more complicated than your dad's. But as far as a title for her you can call her Nana or Jay. Whichever you're comfortable with."
"Okay...and you're sure she wants me here?"
"Of course, she does. We all do. Come on I will show you where my mother hides the desserts just give her your biggest puppy eyes and she'll pretend she saw nothing all day."
"What kind of desserts?" She asked as Harry and Louis helped them out of their seats and back into their coats.
"My mom is makes all kinds, changes every year for each holiday however there is one kind that has been a constant since I was three."
"Let me guess something chocolate related?" Harry asked as he came over to their side carrying Freddie in his arms.
"Actually no. Peanut butter pie. Don't worry I won't make you eat it and if my mother tries, I'll protect you." Harry made a face at the mention of peanut butter which Louis has learned Harry hasn't bought a jar of in his life.
"What's peanut butter pie?" Maddie asked
"It's really yummy Maddie. You'll love it I always have two slices." Freddie told her, Louis took Maddie's hand and helped her to the house through the snow and ice on the sidewalk.
"Boobear! Happy Birthday!"
"With that greeting one would think I was five not twenty five." Louis said thought despite his words he hugged his mother and kissed her cheek. He could still feel some tension from last weekend when Freddie stayed only to come early, but he would ignore it for now. He stepped aside and looked to Harry as he collected the kids' coats and boots, "Maddison you remember my mom from Halloween?"
"Hi." Maddison greeted shyly as she sides stepped closer to Louis.
"Hello dear it's good to see you again especially for the holidays. Freddie why don't you take Maddison through the house? Show her all the toys around here yeah?"
"Okay Nana. Come on Maddie through here."
"I'll go get the gifts you stay inside." Harry told him
"I can come help it'll take too many trips-"
"I've got it you stay warm." Louis nodded watching as he left then he turned to his mother again, "how is everyone?"
"They're all excited to see you and Harry of course. How's the wedding planning going?"
"It's been great. We're done with everything by now all that is left is a fee last minute things such as rings and final fittings."
"I can't believe my baby is getting married."
"It was bound to happen one day you realize."
"Yes, but I expected a little bit more warning than just a few months and I expected to have met the boyfriend before he was a fiancé. It's still a little odd to me that you're doing this so quickly though after Halloween I understand why."
"All that matters is that I am very happy."
"Yes of course. Come on let's get you to see everyone." Louis followed his mother deeper into the house and grinned when he saw Maddie was already making herself at home with Lottie and the girls. Freddie was still in Louis' father's lap while his stepfather was holding Doris bouncing her lightly.
"See there he is!" Dan said quickly handing Doris over to Louis, "She heard your voice and was determined to go find her LouLou."
"Where's the husband?" Mark asked
"Fiancé and he's getting the presents. Made me stay inside."
"Probably learned you're a real ass when you're cold." Louis decided against commenting on the lie and instead turned his attention to Doris.
"Do you hear the lies they're talking about me? Can you believe that they have the audacity to say such things when they are completely false? It's wrong I tell you."
Louis' family Christmas was different every year. Some years they ate then played games then did presents, other years they did presents then games and then dinner. It was never the same. This year it was different for multiple reasons such as it being Christmas Eve instead of Christmas Day and Christmas Dinner was actually his Birthday dinner. This didn't bother Louis, it wasn't the first time his family had to switch things around for the holidays.
This year it was apparently Games first. Games included various things from snow angels in the yard to actual board games inside. It varied and changed and was usually up to the kids. Maddie and Freddie chose to be outside as soon as the choice became available. Louis however stayed inside, in the kitchen with a mug of hot chocolate as he watched Harry play and interact with the younger kids and his sisters.
"He seems like a good guy. Not that I ever thought you'd date a bad one with Freddie in the picture, but this one...he seems great." Mark said standing beside him
"Yeah, he is. He loves kids, loves Maddison. There's nothing he wouldn't do for her."
"Freddie obviously loves him." Louis nodded watching as Harry spun Freddie around before they fell into the large snow pile together, "He loves Freddie."
"I know."
"I'm not going to lie I was a worried when you told me you were getting married to a guy after only dating him for a year and he only meeting Freddie a handful of times. Then you told me you were moving in with him. I thought you had lost your mind. Then a little part of me thought you were settling down with a rich doctor for the rich part. Don't give me that look your mother slapped me three ways to Sunday when I mentioned it. I was worried about you, but I can see now that you two love each other and he is a wonderful stepfather for Freddie, and he is obviously going to treat you right. So, he has my approval, not that he needed it apparently you already have the venue."
"Will you guys let it go already. Yes, I am getting married in less than two months. Yes, the wedding was planned in four months. But it wasn't as if I was truly giving up something important. I don't care about a big wedding, actually Harry is the one who had his wedding planned out for every season since he was a child so really, he's the one sacrificing stuff not me. Besides if you met Maddison's mother, you'd encourage us to elope just to speed up the process."
"Your mother keeps bringing it up?"
"Repeatedly. Plus, last weekend Harry sort of put our foot down for the first time as a couple and towards her so...there's a bit of tension still. He wasn't rude by any means, he did the same thing I would have done and what I have told him I would want done in that scenario. Mom is used to arguing with me who caves in with her sometimes, Harry doesn't cave unless it's the kids. It's actually one of things I love about him, he has strong boundaries with Maddison and how he parents her and Freddie too. I may not understand some of his points, but I know he comes from a good place and the one issue we didn't agree on we solved pretty quickly all things considered."
"What was the issue?"
"Maddison came into our room and started asking about a future baby brother or sister which led to the dreaded 'where do babies come from' question. Harry answered in a medically correct way by talking about ovulation and eggs and sperm and he said sex but didn't actually explain what sex was just said the word. Anyway, I didn't agree with that, and we argued a little bit."
"She's how old?"
"Five turning Six. His reasoning is sound and again he didn't go into details and when she asking an inappropriate question, he told her it was inappropriate, and she moved on from it. It's a scary world these days for little girls...women in general. He needs to prepare her for that unfortunately. That includes letting her know a baby is made with a mommy and a daddy love each other very much. Not all babies are made with love after all."
"I can see both sides of the argument with that defense."
"Exactly. I think he can be a little less...doctorly...and maybe be more relaxed, but at the end of the day no one is perfect."
"You two will be great together, I hope there are more grandbabies soon."
"At least one more just not for a while. We want kids, a lot of kids, but we haven't decided how many yet and the only thing we know is that we don't want to try for about a year."
Forty-five minutes later everyone was inside and warmed up and what was supposed to be a family friendly game of Broadway Song Trivia turned into Harry and Louis teaming together and beating everyone.
"Okay new rule the Gays are not allowed to team up together when playing Broadway Trivia." Lottie said
"That's not fair." Louis argued
"Too bad. Pick someone other than my brother Harry."
"Fine. I'm still keeping the card." Harry said grinning as he looking to Maddison who was playing with Freddie a few feet away, "Maddie sweetie come here."
"Wait-"
"No, you said someone other than your brother so I am. Can't argue now." Harry said as Maddison came over, Maddie I am going to say a word that goes to a song ready?"
"What song?"
"You have to guess it."
"Okay."
"The word is Betcha."
"Oh, it's Maybe."
"That's my girl. Okay off you go. Lottie, I believe it's your turn."
"I quit." Lottie said laughing as she stood up from the floor.
"So, do I. You two win." Mark said
"I thought we were very impressive." Louis said looking to Harry
"I was very impressed you got We Both Reached For The Gun."
"I knew it was Chicago. I just had to go through each song and compare them to what you said and how you said it. Great word choices by the way."
"Thank you. You too. Remind me to get us tickets to Rocky Horror Picture Show next October for London. We'll make it a weekend up there and stay at my parents. Make them babysit while we...go to a show."
"I am so glad you said October, I talked to this guy once who went to a smaller community production of Rocky Horror in April."
"Oh gross. Why."
"That was exactly what I thought. Stop talking to him literally that same night."
"As you should. He was probably a serial killer."
"Right."
"Oh my god you two are insane." Lottie said shaking her head, "You can't judge someone base on when they watch a musical."
"If you ever seen Rocky Horror Picture Show trust us you definitely can. When you're eighteen we'll take you to your first viewing." Louis told her, she gave him a look that told him she still thought he was completely crazy, but otherwise didn't comment.
Soon the kids became too excited for gifts to wait any longer so while his mother gathered Maddison's and Freddie's gifts to open Louis went about giving the girls and Ernie their gifts from him and Harry. Though mostly him as he was the one who went shopping in exchange of Harry overseeing the wrapping and bow making because Louis wasn't the best gift wrapper and he never made bows.
"We all know you definitely didn't do the wrapping." Lottie teased
"I will take it back."
"He's lying." Harry told her earning an elbow in the ribs. After the Christmas gifts that were being opened had been opened Louis was forced to endure his birthday presents.
"This one is from me." Maddie told him as she handed him a gift bag, "I made it all by myself in art class."
"You did?"
"Yeah, open it." Louis looked to Harry curious if he knew anything
"I know nothing. She refused to tell me or show me anything."
"Right. Well, that's because it's for me Harold not you." Louis told him as he pulled out the three sheets of rainbow tissue paper before he pulled out two photo frames decorated with yarn with a picture of Maddison in one frame and Freddie in another.
"Now you can have a picture of us on your school desk."
"I love it. I will definitely put theses up as soon as I return to work. These are beautiful Maddison thank you."
'"You're welcome. Happy Birthday."
"Thank you."
"I don't have handmade frames." Harry pouted as he grabbed them from Louis' lap to look at them.
"It's not your birthday Daddy. Take a chill pill." Louis' jaw dropped as he looked to Harry who looked shocked and highly amused.
"Well then. I guess I don't want one anyway." Harry said setting the frames in the bag
"Your turn Freddie." Maddie said turning to Freddie holding a bag in his hand that he gave to Louis.
"Happy Birthday Papa."
"Thank you, Freddie. It is the best birthday I've had already." Louis kissed his forehead as he took the bag and opened it pulling out the red tissue paper this time before he pulled out a white mug that had four persons painted on it.
"I painted it for you."
"You did I can see that, but how-"
"Daddy helped me."
"All I did was put it in the oven and take it out once it was cooled. Otherwise, it was all him." Harry explained
"This is my new favorite mug, and I shall be very careful with it. It's great thank you Freddie. These are both amazing gifts."
"You're welcome, Papa. Daddy's turn now, right?"
"Actually, I have two gifts for your papa, one of them is at home which is the main gift. However, this gift I found inside a store, and I had to buy it for you." Harry said grinning as he handed over a small box, "It's great and I know you will love it and use it every day."
"Oh no. I'm going to hate it aren't I?"
"Just read what your gift says." Harry was already laughing so Louis already knew it was going to be something stupidly funny and as he pulled out a travel mug and read the words, he was ashamed of himself when he laughed.
"You're a dick."
"I thought it was brilliant."
"Well tell us what it says Louis." His mother told him
"To quote Hamlet. Act 3 Scene 3 Line 87 'NO'." Louis read as he showed the mug to his family, "Harry has these weird doctor pun hoodies and sweaters and some shirts and so since I had to wear one of his hoodies and insulted them, he has made it his personal mission to find every pun related or just stupidly sayings regarding our professions to torment me with."
"Because they're hilarious."
"They are so lame."
"You wear them still."
"Doesn't mean I like them, Harold. I cannot believe you found a travel mug like this."
"It was the last one in the store. It was meant to be."
"Thrown away. It was meant to be thrown away." Despite his words Louis knew he was still going to use it and take it to work and clean it as soon as he got home like he did with his other travel mugs. He knew he was going to defend the mug to students and torment them with the saying until they leave his classroom at the end of each school year. Just like he did whenever he wore Harry's clothes with Doctor jokes on them.
*****
"Do I have to carry you into the house too?" Harry asked as he turned off the Murano inside the garage.
"As tempting as that sounds....no. I'll get Freddie."
"Oh, sure get the smaller one. You're lucky you're cute Mister Tomlinson."
"Uh huh." Harry went to go unlock the door leading inside the house and Louis heard him shut the alarm off before he was coming over to lift Maddison out of the car.
"Should be a straight shot there wasn't anything on the ground when we left." Harry told him
"I'll find something to trip over I assure you." Turns out that something ended up being the first step of the stairs, "Told you."
Once the kids were laid down, they headed back downstairs to finish their own things for Christmas morning such as pilling the presents under the tree and doing the stockings. When those were done, and they were getting ready for bed Harry gave him a square squishy thing with birthday wrapping paper on it.
"It's technically Christmas now, but this is your real birthday present."
"I loved the mug."
"I bought that after I bought this, and a mug isn't a gift. Unless it's from Freddie. Which I am jealous about just so we are clear. Open your gift."
"We all knew I was the favorite." Louis joked as he tore open the gift revealing it to be not only a heated blanket but a weighted heated blanket, "It's both? I didn't even know they made a both one."
"Neither did I until I found it. It does not go on the bed."
"Oh yes it does."
"You're over heated fiancé will literally die in his sleep."
"He can sleep on the floor then." Louis said before he set the blanket to the side and straddled Harry's lap pressing a kiss to his lips, "Thank you for your torture device."
"You're welcome. Happy Birthday and Merry Christmas."
"Best one yet."
"Alright you go ahead and get it on my bed I have to pee." Louis grinned as he climbed off of Harry and watched him go towards the bathroom. He did in fact set it up under the duvet then he got himself ready for bed by removing most of his clothing.
"You could have waited for me to come back to enjoy the show you jerk."
"It's two in the morning Harold. We are sleeping."
"Boo you whore."
"Did you quote Mean Girls at me again?"
"Yes."
"I can't believe I'm marrying you." Harry chuckled as they climbed into the bed together, Harry cuddling in close to him, "Goodnight."
"Okay I think we have the holidays finally organized." Harry said as he flopped back onto the sofa beside Louis.
"What's the final verdict then?" Louis asked having given up trying to organize everything three days ago.
"The twenty third my family is coming down to do Christmas then we will leave Christmas eve morning to spend the day with your family for your birthday. That night we will come back and have our Christmas eve gift exchange for the kids, do Father Christmas prep, then tuck them into bed. After that we will do any last-minute things, we need to do and have Christmas that morning. I'll will take Maddie to her mother's then we will have the rest of day to relax. New Year's Eve we are all heading to my family's home, your family is invited as well for the New Year's Eve party. Kid friendly until ten then the real fun begins. We'll stay there New Year's day then leave that night or the next morning depending on how we feel. Sound good?"
"I am very impressed. It won't be too much driving though, will it? London is four hours and Doncaster is one and a half."
"Nah we'll just make sure the tablets are charged for the car ride. It'll be fine I've taken the drive multiple times it goes by faster than you think."
"Okay. Are we finished Christmas shopping at least?"
"Well-"
"You are not buying a car."
"Then yes we're done." Louis looked over at Harry with narrowed eyes but he only grinned, "we got a lot of gifts for all of the kids and teenagers, our parents have gifts as well, so we just need to finish wrapping and figure out which gift Father Christmas got them and get it situated like are we wrapping it or are we putting a Santa Approved tag on it or what."
"I've done both I think the tag is more believable, but the wrapping is more fun for the kids, so it doesn't matter. Does Maddie still believe in Father Christmas?"
"She's questioning it but so far she believes it still. Mostly because everything she's asked for from Father Christmas has actually shown up here and not at her mothers. She's asked when she was younger if I was Father Christmas, I thought she was too young to not have that magic still, so I told her no. If she asks again, I'll probably tell her the truth away from Freddie. She's old enough to understand, I think. I didn't believe obviously so being able to give that to her is great."
"I couldn't imagine a Christmas as a kid without it." Louis said shaking his head.
"Our gifts were usually secondhand clothes, shoes, a nice new coat, or a few more extra food items. My first Christmas with a ton of presents was an eye opener."
"Is that why you don't have a limit for gifts?"
"Kind of and also because it's Christmas. The more things they get the more they give away which means the more we can donate. If Maddie gets two of something she donates one or she give two toys away instead of one. Her birthday she has like three to five gifts from me but Christmas she doesn't get limit. I understand why a lot of families do limit though, but I just never did it. The one time a year I can spoil her rotten? Hell yeah I'm doing it."
"Anything else we need to do for the holidays?" Louis asked shifting to lay his head on Harry's lap.
"No but we do have a check list of things we need to do for the wedding."
"Hit me with it."
"Prepare photo and video list?"
"Done and sent to the photographer."
"Finalize details with vendors?"
"Done copy of the email exchange was forwarded to you two days ago."
"Is that a jab?" Harry asked looking over at hit from his checklist on his planner specifically for the wedding.
"No of course not. Continue." Harry pinched his nipple but turned back to his planner with a huff.
"Rehearsal dinner invites/texts?"
"Done. We have a group chat for that."
"Two jabs. Final fitting?"
"I have had mine and your appointment is next week. It's in our shared calendar." Harry gave him a look but otherwise didn't comment.
"Seating chart? Are we doing that?"
"It's just family and close friends I don't think we need to."
"Marriage license?"
"We have it."
"Pick up wedding rings?"
"First week of January."
"Then that's it. For now." Harry said flipping his planner closed and setting it and the pen on the end table by the sofa.
"Thank God. We're having a bachelor party together, right?" Louis asked laying his head back against the cushion.
"Yes. Me, you, and our friends. I heard Zayn mention strippers but I'm pretty sure it's for them."
Louis shook his head already knowing Zayn and Liam were planning on getting strippers just for the hell of it.
"I'll strip for you." Harry said turning to him with a grin and an eyebrow wiggle
"One track mind. Do you even have stripping attire? I'm pretty sure I'd have seen it by now."
"Attire?! I don't know if I find this teacher talk sexy or not."
"You're wrong on so many levels Harold. My point remains I'm pretty sure I'd have seen some sort of outfit in the drawers by now if you had anything remotely sexy."
"I keep it well hidden I'll have you know. Give me five minutes and I'll put on some fishnet and leather."
"I prefer my strippers with lace actually."
"I have lace."
"I don't think that's what my mother meant when she said for us to finish any last-minute things we need to do while she took Freddie for the night."
"We're almost newlyweds surely she knows where the night will end up at with no kids in the house." Louis rolled his eyes grinning as he pushed himself to a sitting position, "Besides who wouldn't want all of this." Harry said waving his hand down himself making Louis laugh.
"Me now that you've done that. How much longer on my food mister?"
"I'll go check it." Harry groaned as he pushed himself to stand then head into the kitchen. Louis heard Harry move around in the other room and the smell had him standing to follow him only a few minutes later.
"It smells amazing, and I hope you're going to tell me it's ready to eat."
"More or less just needs a few finishing touches." He walked up behind Harry and wrapped his arms around his waist as he looked over his shoulder staring down at the delicious looking chicken that Harry was topping with something green.
"What are you topping it with?"
"Basil you uncultured swine."
"You know I could say so many mean and hurtful things to you, but I won't because I'm nice."
"Coming from someone who called a teacher an uneducated 'yes man' puppet...two days ago."
"He deserved it." Harry hummed amused as he turned to face Louis, "You're lucky you're cute."
"Only cute?"
"Sometimes you're rather dashing...but at the moment cute works." Harry grinned as he leaned in brushed his nose with Louis' before brushing their lips together.
"Sometimes I look at you I realize we only met three months ago, and it honestly shocks me."
"It's only been three months? No...it's been longer than that." Louis was sure that it has been longer than three months as he pulled away from Harry to do his own math, but he kept getting to the same number, "That's crazy." Louis said shocked that it has only been three months of knowing Harry.
"I know. I'm glad I'm not the only one that is completely floored by the revelation."
"I'd have used realization in that sentence."
"Well I used revelation it's the same thing Lewis."
"It is not Harold. Realization and Revelation are different. Realization is the act of figuring out or becoming aware while Revelation is the act or revealing or disclosing."
"Yes and I revealed to you that it was only three months."
"That is not- we're not doing this Harry." Louis said shaking his head, "I'm not arguing with someone who still writes like my son." Harry's jaw dropped before he laughed
"Emotional Abuse is a real thing Lewis."
"It's about to Physical if you keep it up." Louis said grinning as he leaned in to press a quick kiss to Harry's cheek. Harry scrunched his face at him before he leaned over and pressed a kiss against his lips.
"Anyway tonight is our last night alone together for quite sometime why not enjoy it with some wine and a movie and maybe I'll put on my lace afterwards. If you're nice to me." Louis grinned hitting Harry with the closest thing near him which happened to be a paper towel roll.
"I'll get you some plates." Louis stepped over to the cabinets and pulled down two large plates handing them over to Harry then he grabbed silverware and wine glasses as he asked, "So does this dish have a ridiculous name that is definitely made up or did you not name it?"
"It in fact does have a name it's called Marry Me Chicken."
"That is definitely made up."
"It is not. Google it."
"Oh, I will. I will google this recipe while you're stripping for me in your lace later."
"No phones allowed when I'm performing, I'm afraid."
"What a shame. I was going to record you too." Harry laughed as he threw a piece of potato at him that Louis expertly dodge.
"Come on let's go watch a movie grab the wine, will you?" Louis grabbed the wine that was on the counter then followed Harry to the basement where the larger TV was for game nights with the boys and movie night. The sofa down here was extra comfy as well with dozens of places to put a drink and plates at.
"What do we want to watch?"
"Anything except romance please. One more romantic holiday movie and I'm actually going to throw myself off the roof."
"So....Gremlins?"
"Gremlins?"
"You said not a romance and it's a classic."
"Fine, but only because I want to know why you consider this a Christmas classic."
"I have a very compelling argument that will convince you of it being a holiday classic by the end of the movie. Just wait and see."
Louis settled on the couch as Harry got the movie started then he settled in beside him. He pulled Louis' feet into his lap and made his legs into a table as the movie started.
"Alright first argument it's Christmas time-"
"Very observant Harold."
"Keep it up and we're having sex until that attitude is gone. Food be damned."
****
"So?" Harry asking two hours later as Louis finished laughing
"You've convinced me. Unfortunately."
"Told you I would." Louis shook his head as he grabbed their plates and empty wine glasses, "I can do that."
"So can I. Stay I'll only be a minute."
"Fine, but only because I'm too comfortable to protest." Louis headed up the stairs to the kitchen and made sure to put all the dishes into the dish washer after putting away what was left of the dinner. Once the dishwasher was started, he headed back down to find Harry laid out on the couch clicking through their options, so he made himself comfortable on top of Harry, laying his head on Harry's chest.
"What are you looking for?"
"Nothing in particular. I'm not tired at the moment, are you?"
"Not yet, how about we move this cuddle session to the bedroom and just relax in bed though."
"That means I have to get up though."
"I'll be naked."
"I am suddenly very motivated."
Louis laughed as he stood up and helped Harry off the couch. They turned everything off and double checked the locks as they went, the dogs following them straight up the stairs and to the bedroom. Bear laid on the loveseat in the bedroom while Gizmo tried to lay on the bed straight away which Louis stopped. They were allowed on the bed once he was asleep, no sooner.
"Sorry Gizzy." Harry whispered to the Great Dane as they undressed and climbed under the covers, "You're so mean to the poor thing."
"The poor can damn well wait for me to fall asleep before he plasters himself to my body." Louis grumbled as he cuddled into Harry's warm body, "Now put something on and hold me."
"Come here." Harry held him close as he put on a random show and turned the volume down. Harry snuggled down into the blankets and rubbed his hands over his body until they settled one around his shoulders and the other holding his ass.
"Seriously?"
"Hey, you knew what you were getting when you suggested naked cuddling. I get to hold the cheek without complaint. It's in the vows." Louis huffed as he snuggled in deeper breathing in his scent, "Comfy?"
"mmm."
"Warm?"
"Mmm."
"Sex?"
"No."
"It was worth a shot." Harry said chuckling as he kissed his forehead, "I've got you. Go to sleep."
"You're just so warm. I can't help myself."
"I'm glad I could be here as your heater. No where else I'd rather be."
********
Harry was woken up in the pitch-black room by a loud annoying buzzing coming from his bedside table. Groaning Harry reached out and answered the call praying that it wasn't the hospital.
"Hello?" Harry asked quietly as he rolled out of bed so he didn't wake Louis.
"Harry? Oh I'm sorry for calling. It's just Freddie had a bad dream and is demanding to go home so I compromised and asked if a phone call would work instead. Do you mind?"
"What? Oh no of course not. Put him on the phone I'll see what I can do." Harry headed to the closet as he heard Jay mumbling on the other line.
"Daddy Harry?"
"Hey kiddo. What's the matter?"
"I wanna come home."
"Yeah? Okay. Tell me what's wrong first won't you?"
"I had a bad dream and I just want to come home...Nana says she can't take me home right now, but can you come and get me? Please Daddy."
"Of course, I can baby. Put Nana on the phone okay?"
"Okay."
"I'm sure he'll fall back to sleep in no time don't worry about it Harry. Not my first bad dream I had to take care of." Jay said and Harry didn't doubt that she definitely had it covered, but Freddie had asked to come home and even if the hour and a half drive came out to be a waste Harry was still going to do it.
"It's not a problem Jay. I told Freddie I would come and get him no matter the time of night no matter the drive if he ever wanted to come home. I'll just slip my shoes on and I'll be on my way to get him."
"Oh, it's really not worth the drive Harry. I'm sure once we end the call he'll be asleep within minutes." Harry hesitated as he was pulling a pair of socks on but took a relaxing breath and continued on with his plan.
"I know you can take care of him and bad dreams without a problem, but Freddie is asking to come home which means he is clearly not uncomfortable at the moment there and even if the drive ends up with him staying there with you until morning, I will feel more comfortable coming and giving him the option. Freddie is expressing the want to leave and come home where he is more comfortable and as his parent it's my responsibility to do just that. So I am going to come to get him, tell him I'm on my way there and I'll be there in less than two hours." Harry ended the call quickly then left the closet and looked at Louis still fast asleep in bed. He walked over to the bedside table and hesitated. He wanted to just write a quick note to Louis, but Louis had already told him if it regarded the kids he wanted to be woken up. He stood there for a moment before he sighed and walked to Louis' side of the bed.
"Louis." Harry gently woke him with a light shake to his shoulder.
"What? You don't work go back to sleep." Louis grumbled, "Where are you going at...three in the morning? Your side piece's house? This is where it begins? It's not even a year in yet you home wrecker."
"If I was trying to sneak out I wouldn't have woken you up silly. Your mom called. Freddie had a bad dream and he wants to come home so I'm going to go get him." That woke him up far faster than breakfast in bed did which Harry was honestly a little surprised at. Louis was suddenly sitting up and rubbing the sleep from his face.
"What?"
"Freddie wants to come home after a bad dream."
"Okay...yeah...alright let's uh- let me find my shoes and-"
"You can stay here."
"No I'm coming with you." Harry grabbed Louis' slipper by the bed and handed them to him then also grabbed a pair of joggers and a sweater, "Thanks."
"I'll get the car ready." Giving Louis a quick kiss to his forehead Harry turned and left the bedroom with the keys in his hand.
It was less than ten minutes later when they were on the road to Louis' mothers. Louis had Freddie's favorite blanket, pillow, and Patches in the backseat with the heat on so they were warm. He also had a blanket for himself as he rode in the passenger seat on the phone with his mother who had called him a few minutes ago.
"No mom it doesn't matter he is asking to come home, so we are coming to pick him up- No- No mom I- I know he has had nightmares over there before, but he has never asked to come home before- NO- Okay you know what I'm ending this call. No I love you mom but this is a boundary I have had with my child for as long as he left my house. I told you multiple times if he ever wanted to come home I would get him no matter what. I love - Put Freddie on the phone. Hey squirt...yeah baby we're on our way...okay kid love you buh-bye sweetie." Louis ended the called with a deep breath then he promptly silenced it and looked at him, "I love her, I do and she is an amazing mother and grandmother but that woman I swear sometimes-"
"Don't. It's just a new parenting boundary that grandparents just don't understand. It's new and it's affecting her for the first time. She's bound to try to push the boundary."
"I know but why can't she just accept it. I remember asking to go home during sleepovers and when she didn't get me I felt so uncomfortable for the rest of the night and I could never fall back to sleep."
"She'll learn. The first time is always hard, but if he ever asks again it'll be easier you'll see."
The hour and a half drive went by faster than usual due to the empty streets and calming ride. They got to the house just shy of four thirty and was met with a wide awake Freddie all ready to leave. Harry gathered him in his arms and took him to the running vehicle his Louis talked with his mother for a few minutes. Jay came out and kissed Freddie goodbye then they were back on the road again getting home as the sun was beginning to rise and Freddie was fast asleep in the car. They laid him down in their bed and fell asleep cuddling him between them as a family.
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Holidays are over and my stress levels have lowered. Will be uploading two or three chapters in the next coming days for both stories as an apology and gift because yall deserve it.
Do you know how hard it is to write a good Christmas chapter when December IS FUCKING GREEN!?!
Where the hell is the snow at!?
I swear to fucking God if I have a green Christmas..
Like I know there is SO much more to worry about in today's world than SNOW, but y'all don't understand.
Santa Claus needs the snow on the roof to quiet his sleigh landing in the middle of the night so he doesn't wake up anyone.
I go all out for Christmas guys. I pay people to put tracks on my rooftop and magical reindeer food crumbs. Like I need the snow. The world can't give me snow cold weather without the fucking snow.
How do people do this?! Don't even get me started on Australia and their Christmas in Summer bullshit.
A quick note regarding a few questions I've had over the past year of publishing my stories.
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Please!
Let me know if you publish it and I will read it I promise you I will be more than happy to see you take your own style to my ideas.
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My birthday was yesterday (the 2nd) so enjoy a chapter.
"Papa?" Louis looked up from his grading and turned to Freddie as he stood in the doorframe of the bedroom.
"Yes Freddie Bear?"
"Why are you in bed?"
"Because I am very lazy today. I don't want to get out of bed and Harry is at work for another few hours."
"When can we make Christmas lists?" Freddie asked as he came up onto the bed and laid beside him.
"Probably the next time Maddison is over so you guys can make a list together. Why already got ideas?"
"Maybe...Papa Maddie told me to put a baby brother or sister on my list." Louis laughed as he set his pen down on the papers he was looking over before turning to Freddie.
"Do you want a baby brother or sister?"
"Maybe next year."
"I agree. So what can I do for you my love?"
"When is Harry coming home?" Louis looked over at the clock on the bedside table.
"He should be getting off soon but his job sometimes makes him stay later remember? It depends why?"
"He's been working a lot is all. He use to be here a lot and now he's not ever home for more than a few hours before bedtime."
"I know he works a very busy job but it's an important one."
"I know but I still miss him. I drew him a picture and I want to show it to him before bed."
"Tell you what I will text him and ask if he'll be on schedule tonight and we'll go from there. I need to start dinner soon anyway."
"Okay Papa." Louis grabbed his phone and sent a quick text to Harry before he headed downstairs to the kitchen to start the preparation for dinner. It was well past an hour before the front door opened and Freddie's squeal of 'Harry!' filled the house.
"Freddie Bear!" Harry said groaning slightly and Louis could picture Harry lifting the boy up and spinning him around, "Where's your Papa?"
"In the kitchen but I have a drawing for you."
"You do?! Well go get it for me and I'll go see if Papa needs help okay?"
"Okay." Moments later Louis felt the familiar arms of Harry wrapping around his waist and the press of lips against his shoulder.
"You need help?"
"No I'm fine, but you can stay tight there." Harry chuckled but tightened his arms and moved his lips slowly up to Louis' ear pressing lingering kisses on his way up, "your daughter told my son to put a baby sister or brother on their Christmas list."
"Oh? Well we should practice giving them just that. Practice makes perfect after all."
"You're in a mood today." Louis said chuckling as he felt Harry mouth at his neck where it met his shoulder.
"With you around? Always." Harry gave Louis one last kiss before he backed away just in time for Freddie to come running into the kitchen with a piece of paper in his hand.
"It's my family drawing from last month remember? We got it back today. I lost points because of Bear though. But lookey there's Papa and Maddie and me and look there's you Harry and that's Gizmo and Bear." Freddie pointed to each stick figure excitedly as he stood beside Harry and showed him the drawing.
"Why did you loose points that looks exactly like Bear."
"Because my teacher is a bitch. Papa says so." Louis' eyes widen as he looked at Freddie then he fixed his eyes directly on the meatballs currently being made as he felt Harry look at him.
"Papa said that did he."
"Yeah Monday after she told him that I'm spoiled."
"She said what?"
"See it wasn't uncalled for and I didn't say it to her face I said it in the car." Louis said blushing, "Freddie don't say that word."
"But you do."
"Yes but I'm older. You can cuss when you have double digits in your age and your balls have dropped until then no."
"Bur your balls haven't dropped they're still attached."
"No I meant- Harry stop your laughing."
"Come on Freddie I'll save your dad an aneurysm and explain it to you." Harry was still giggling as he sat at the table later that night earning several kicks under the table from Louis.
"Keep laughing and we will be sleeping with separate blankets tonight." Louis told him as he watched Harry load the dishwasher.
"Oh come on kids say the funniest things."
"I think you're a bit sleep deprived if you find it so funny you are giggling hours later. You're almost thirty Harry."
"Ew don't remind me. You know you'll he twenty five soon you don't have much room to talk."
"Only about five more years of it." Harry gave him a glare as he closed the dishwasher and started it then he walked over to Louis and pinned him against the island.
"You are very lucky I already promised Freddie I'd play with him or else I'd show you all the advantages of being almost thirty. One of them involves you sitting right here." Louis blushed as he pushed Harry away from him when he pointed to his face.
"Go away I have things to do that does involve that."
"What a shame." Louis shook his head as Harry winked before he headed back to the play room where Freddie was.
***
Louis was not at all surprised when the moment they closed Freddie's bedroom door after bedtime Harry was all but dragging him to their room. They haven't had sex in awhile for various reasons of no time and the kids.
"You are unbelievable. Can't even wait for him to fall asleep." Louis teased
"I'm horrible I know. Tell me all about it later." Louis chuckled pulling Harry into a deep kiss as he backed up to the bed.
He dug his hands under Harry's shirt pressing his hands against the warm stomach then slowly trailed his hands up removing the shirt. His hands then trailed back down slowly, brushing over his nipples briefly before he found his waistband of his pants and briefs. Pulling them down he smiled into the kiss as he felt Harry step out of the clothing. Harry turned them around and sat on the edge of the bed then he broke the kiss only to mouth at his neck.
"Harry." Louis' voice was barely above a whisper with his eyes closed and his head tilted to give Harry as much room as he could.
His large hands were spread across his back keeping him close as he bit a particular spot that make Louis jerk. Those hands slid down and pulled off the sweater Louis had been wearing in one quick motion tossing it somewhere across the room. Harry pulled Louis with him as he laid down making it easier for him grasp his ass in his hands as his mouth found his nipples.
Louis moaned grinding himself against Harry momentarily forgetting he was still in jeans while Harry was nude. Harry hissed a little wincing but otherwise didn't stop his ministrstions as he held Louis and rolled them a little too close to the foot of the bed for Louis' liking. The edge dipped dangerously and Louis was worried they would fall for a second and had every intention of telling Harry to move them, but then Harry's leg was rubbing against his Jean trapped cock and all thoughts left his brain.
"Harry! Oh fuck."
Harry's mouth trailed up to kiss him then he trailed down as his hands undoes his jeans outing them down with his briefs. His cock wasn't out for more than a few seconds before Harry's mouth was around it. Louis gasped, one hand going into his hand while the other grabbed the foot post closest to his head to try to move him away from the edge but it was useless so instead he just held it. His hips jerked which caused his body to shift which them caused him to slid a little and him falling was all that he could think about now.
"Harry. Harry. Harry! Harry! You one tracked minded dick stop I'm literally about to fall off the bed you caveman." Harry laughed as he pulled off of Louis to look at him hanging on to a foot post and his upper body off of the bed.
"Sorry." Harry had the decency to say as he helped Louis back onto the bed then he moved them so they're were on the bed the right way, "better?"
"Much. Thank you. Except we need lube and I pretty sure it's still under the bed from when we dropped it last time." Harry groaned but moved and laid over the edge looking under the bed. Louis stared at his perky butt for a total of five seconds before he smacked it. What followed that singular smack was the funniest thing to happen while in the middle of foreplay in Louis' entire sexually active life. Harry had jerked and then flipped off the edge of the bed landing on his back however Harry had tried to save himself and had also knocked over and essentially breaking the bedside table and clock that was on Louis' side of the bed. He also ended up knocking over the glass of water from earlier causing an entire mess. Louis had burst out laughing unable to help himself as he sat up and leaned over looking down at Harry.
"You didn't even ask what my safeword is." Louis laughed falling back onto the bed, "seriously Louis what if I couldn't have handled more than one. Then what. I'd just the saying pineapple for the fun of it to you."
"Stop I can't breathe." Harry laughed as he popped up kneeling beside the bed grinning at him. Louis giggled a few more times as Harry tried to fix the bedside table, but it was definitely broke so instead he just let it lay there. He grabbed a piece of clothing and laid it over the water mess before he climbed back onto the bed with the lube bottle setting it off to the side. Louis was still giggly as Harry laid beside him grinning at him then Harry leaned in and kissed him a few times lovingly. When they pulled away Louis smiled as he watched Harry's eyes roam over him as if memorizing him.
"I love you." Harry said suddenly as he let a hand rest against his cheek ans his thumb rub over Louis' cheekbone. Louis' smile fell a little as the air shifted into something more serious, he hesitated before his smile returned and he kissed Harry again.
"I love you too." Harry's eyes lit up and his smile widened then he was kissing him again.
"Well try sex tomorrow." Louis laughed, his head falling back against the pillow and Harry laughed beside him, "good news is the lube will be easier to reach next time."
"Stop." Louis laughed out before he was pulling Harry down for another kiss or two or five.
"I'll get you something to sleep in." Harry said before he kissed Louis once more then he climbed out of bed and headed for the closet.
He came back out with one of his own sweaters that Louis like to sleep in with the new cold weather. He helped Louis into the sweater then laid them down pulling the duvet over them. Louis snuggled into Harry's chest, it was rather early for sleep, but Harry had been working long hours the last few days and Louis was always okay with cuddling a sleeping Harry. They stayed up watching the TV for an hour before Harry was sleeping, Louis was awake for another hour before he too fell asleep.
***
With Harry off the next day there was a full plate of healthy breakfast waiting for them when they came downstairs.
"I need your phone today Haz." Louis said
"When you find it it's all yours." Harry said as he had a tendency to loose it more often than should be humanly possible, "why?"
"Because you gave my phone a bath yesterday." Harry's eyes widen and he looked at Louis who nodded.
"It's also smashed to even more pieces than before."
"I am so sorry. I didn't know your phone was there."
"Neither did I. It's fine I have everything backed up anyway. I'll get another one after work. I just need a phone for the staff at Freddie's school to reach me in case of an emergency. You'll have the iPad here anyway. I guess I could take an iPad-"
"You can have my phone you know I don't care about that. I'll go look for it for you and while you're at work I'll get you a new phone." Harry kissed Louis' cheek before he headed off to search for his cellphone for the hundredth time this week. Louis spotted said phone not a minute later beside Harry's keys on the counter from yesterday when he got home and hugged Louis as he had cooked dinner. Louis let Harry waste a good twenty minutes before he finally told him where it was getting a pinch as payback.
"You're a jerk."
"I know."
"So a new phone and a new bedside table. Anything else I broke unknowingly?"
"Well the weeks not over who knows you may break a car or the TV or the couch." Harry rolled his eyes
"If anything we would break the couch."
"One track mind."
***
Louis slid into the Murano quickly closing the door to fight the cold air only to find himself attacked by a slobbery dog.
"Oh okay hi Bear yes I missed you too but why the hell are you here."
"Ms. Daisy is going to be one very sorry teacher today. How was work?"
"You- nevermind. It was fine same as always really. How was your day off?"
"I got a lot done today. I went to Ikea and got a new bedside table set, I then got you a new phone and add you onto my phone plan because it seemed silly to be on separate plans. I kept your old number however for obvious reasons. I also put your first photo on the phone. Did you see it?"
"The dick pic? Yes Harry I saw it."
"What did you think? I thought the lighting was perfect."
"Well I stared at it for a minute then I thought 'damn he really thinks he's something doesn't he'." Harry's jaw dropped as he laughed, "then I thought waiting until our wedding night sounded like a brilliant idea. However I looked at it one more time and decided if you put that much effort into a dick pic it's safe to assume you have some idea of how to do it yourself therefore you don't need me at all."
"You're a dick." Louis chuckled as he leaned over the middle console and kissed him deeply. He let his hand slid down to grope him smiling when he felt Harry gasp against his lips.
"Later. Also if you ever send me a dick pic again I will have no shame in forwarding it to Zayn and I promise you he will do everything he possibly can to turn into an art piece that we unknowingly hang in our home and only Zayn will know where the dick is hidden at."
"Did you breathe during that sentence?" Louis slapped Harry then settled back into his seat
"Just drive dick pic." Harry grinned as he kissed Louis before he pulled out of the parking space and heading across the street. They both got out with Harry grabbing Bears leash and the drawing Freddie had shown him yesterday.
"Harry you can't be serious."
"Oh but I am come on." Louis followed Harry into the building then signed themselves in before they headed to the classroom.
"Mr. Tomlinson how was work?" Mrs. Hillary asked smiling at him
"It's was fine Mrs. Hillary. How was Freddie today?"
"BEAR!" Freddie shouted running up to them with a big smile as he hug the big fluffy dog that attacked him with kisses.
"Freddie that is not a bear it's a dog." Ms. Daisy said
"Bear sit. Good Boy stay. Freddie stay here with Bear okay?" Louis watched as Harry stepped around a nodding Freddie before he stepped up to Ms. Daisy extending his hand, "Ms. Daisy correct? I'm Dr. Harry Styles."
"Oh...Dr. Styles I'm sorry are you Freddie's uncle or something. It's a pleasure to meet you."
"No I'm not his uncle actually I'm the owner of the dog that you marked not one, not two, but three points off my son's drawing for because you keep insisting to him he is fake. So I brought Bear, my Newfoundland who is a literal fluff ball of a dog, in to show you why you are going to fix this marking here and why you are going to apologize to my son." Louis' eyes widen as he watched Ms. Daisy go from flirting to defensive within seconds.
"Excuse me?"
"No. Your behavior is inexcusable and you're lucky I decided to come in. Now you either fix his marking and apologize to him or I get you fired. Your job isn't to tell my son what is and isn't inside his home. He brought in proof proof you and yet you still marked him down. This is purely your choice of course, but just know if you don't apologize to him you will not work anywhere where my family is located either it be Doncaster or London. Your inexcusable behavior will follow you and you'll be lucky if you get hired again."
"You can't get me fired."
"Wanna bet your next paycheck on that? Apologize to my son and fix his mark because he damn sure didn't do anything wrong or you won't come into work tomorrow morning."
"Freddie isn't your son-"
"I do hope you enjoyed your last day working his Ms. Daisy because I promise you it is your last. Come on Freddie." Louis watched as Harry led Freddie out of the classroom with Bear following obediently, he turned to Mrs. Hillary and hesitated.
"Did you know about Ms. Daisy's inappropriate behavior with my son?"
"No we split our students up. Freddie and a few either kids mentioned a fee things but every kid has a bad day with am adult so I just figured that's what it was."
"Have a nice day Mrs. Hillary." Louis looked at Ms. Daisy for a moment before he headed out to the car. Harry already had Freddie buckled, Bear settled down, and was already sitting in the driver's seat waiting for him. The drive back home was quiet but relaxed and when they got home Harry took his phone and disappeared into his office with a kiss to both of their heads and a promise to cook dinner tonight.
"Papa Harry called me his son."
"That's because he sees you as his son. You're just as much his kid as Maddie is just not the same way." Louis said
"So...he's like my daddy?" Louis' heart sped up.
"Yeah he is, but you don't have to call him that if you don't want to. He can stay Harry or you can call him dad. It's up to you."
"Okay."
"Come on let's do your homework."
It was well over an hour later when Harry came out.
"Ms. Daisy will be on unpaid leave for a week while they investigate and talk to other parents. Then she will most likely be fired. They'll be bringing in a new teacher for Freddie's side of the classroom and Mrs. Hillary will be told to take the students complaints more seriously and investigate further than just assuming it's an off day." Louis smiled as he pulled Harry down to kiss him
"You didn't have to do that."
"Of course I did. I love him, he's my boy, and I love you."
"I love you too." The kiss was interrupted by the best possible interruption Harry could have possibly hoped for.
"I love you too Daddy." Freddie said hugging Harry's neck suddenly making them pull apart, "Thank you." Harry's eyes widen and teared up as he hugged Freddie lifting him and looking at Louis. He smiled as his son with his face buried into Harry's neck.
"You're welcome Freddie. I love you so much." Harry pulled back grinning at Freddie, "tell you what. How about we go out for dinner just you and me and we bring Papa something back."
"Can it be ice cream?".
"It can be whatever you want. Come on. Your new phone is on the island bye love you!" Harry shouted as he carried Freddie out of the house after grabbing his shoes and coat by the door. Louis laughed shaking his head as he went back to grading smiling as he thought about his boys going put together for no other reason than Freddie calling Harry 'daddy'. Harry always liked to say Louis couldn't say no, but Harry was so whipped compared to Louis.
How do One-Shot writers not get anxious whenever their fic is more than 3k words like...HOW?! I’ve had to divide chapters and delete paragraphs because of my fucking anxiety and y’all are over here writing 25k worded one shots without fear. Excuse me ma’am...no. I wrote a 3.5k chapter and had a PANIC ATTACK BECAUSE IT WAS TOO LONG ON MY FUCKING PHONE?!?!?!?! Fuck all of you.
Not really though because y’all are amazing and I love you.
I promise I am fine and alive it's just depression has been making really hard to write lately but here's to hoping my favorite seasons can brighten me up and get me writing again. The Autumn and Winter always seems to give me the best ideas.
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