el mayarah

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luthorname‌:

       lena smiled into the kiss and made no attempt to deepen or end it. only when she needed to breathe did she pull away to rake air into her lungs. she stayed closed brushing their lips together a few more times. “way better than i remember.” she placed another kiss before trailing a few kisses up her jaw in the same soft manner. “you’re a menace too. i’ve seen you around food. and you’re being well behaved tonight.” her fingers curled into kara’s hair as she dragged her impossibly closer. “you hungry yet? or more time in the tub kissing me? both good options.” lena felt lighter than she had in months. it was a strange feeling and something shot into her with just a few kisses. 

“I’m not a menace,” Kara mumbled but she was too enthralled in Lena and her lips and being close to her to put much  more thought into forming a better argument. But food -- food was maybe just distracting enough. Grinning, she kissed Lena one more time and pointed one of her fingers as if to pause them there. “I’m starving,” Kara answered. She hadn’t thought much about it but it turned out dying really sucked the sustenance out of a person. “I think it was a late onset thing. Food is good. Kissing is good. Let’s rinse off and get out of here. There are way more accommodating places to kiss someone in this apartment than the bath.” 

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luthorname‌:

        “you might revoke it? bold.” she ran her nose along the expanse of skin she just kissed. “i haven’t seen that one yet. i was saving it just in case.” she smiled around the words instead of retreating. it felt good to just talk about anything except the weight of the world on their shoulders. “my favorite was lilo and stitch. it reminded me of you. except, stitch is way cuter.” her smile turned into a grin as she did her best to not let it overtake her whole face. “is it still revoked or what?” her heart picked up in her chest at how grounded she felt now. 

“Stitch was a menace and would absolutely use too much bubble bath for you. But I’ll allow it.” Kara’s smile widened and she peered down at Lena, who was so closer to her now. She turned just a little so she could reach her better and lay a hand against the side of her face, brushing a drop of water off her cheek bone. “I’ll give it to you this time,” she answered quietly, eyes falling to Lena’s lips before she kissed her, slow and gentle but with as much certainty as Kara could put behind it. 

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luthorname‌:

       a gasp left her lips. it had been so long since kara help her and kissed her like this. it made her feel warm. it radiated from her spine to the tips of her toes and she leaned into her girlfriend harder. “we can figure it out together.” it was the best lena could do. she wanted to give in and she would, piece by piece. “one thing at a time.” she nodded and closed her eyes as she tried to nuzzle harder into her. “you haven’t kissed me yet.” her lips turned up into a half smile as she allowed herself to give into the hot water and bubbles. she tilted her head enough until she could plant her lips on kara’s jaw. she focused so hard on being present in the moment, her mind scrambling. “i watched all the disney movies on netflix. you should be proud.”

“Together,” Kara repeated. Together sounded good. They were both going to need time for different reasons. Her lips twisted at Lena’s next words and she bit down on the lower one for a second. “I -- “ Kara closed her eyes as Lena kissed her jaw. A small smile pulled at her lips, genuine and a little shy, even if it was Lena. “I didn’t want to overstep. I don’t -- I can...kiss you now...if you want. Although I might revoke it if you finally watched Frozen without me.”

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luthorname‌:

       “it means everything, kara. it makes me believe it more because my head is so fucked up, it would already be showing cracks. i’m just… jumpy.” she sighed at the kiss and immediately felt better. kara had a way about her, one hug or kiss and lena mostly forgot about everything outside of their apartment. “i know the world will always need you, but i feel so selfish. and i hate it, i hate wanting to keep you to myself. the fact that i can’t even button up and swallow it down means i’m at the end of my rope. and fuck, alex needs you too.” she frowned and turned her head a little doing her best to shift without losing any contact. “how can i make it better? how can i make you not feel far away?” she brought up a hand to touch kara’s face softly. 

Kara took the hand that Lena had just touched her cheek with and kissed the knuckles of it as Lena talked. With their hands together, she brought them back down toward her knee and then slid her hand up Lena’s arm, back to her neck, as if touching her as much as Kara could would help her believe it was real. With fumbly fingers she pushed a stray wisp of hair down by Lena’s area, before dragging her fingers back to the base of her neck and kissing here there, against the bone of her spine. Kara took a deep breath against her skin. Maybe a part of her needed to feel Lena too. Even if it all felt real to her. Maybe that helped. “I don’t think you can,” Kara whispered, almost under her breath. “I don’t -- I think I just need time to readjust to this reality. Let’s take care of you for now, okay? Let’s be here. Then we can worry about Alex and sharing me and when I eventually have to put that suit back on. Once thing at a time.”

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luthorname‌:

       “i’d love you even if you were a vampire. i don’t think anything could change that.” she kept her tone light and nothing hurt. not until she talked about reanimating. she began to calculate numbers and figures until kara was pulling her back to reality. “very warm and i prefer it like this. it feels like home.” her words came out softer than she wanted.  lena stretched her neck back so she could turn her head and be closer to kara. “i’m scared you’re going to disappear, but i’m trying not to think about it. i feel better and worse than i have in months. i’m happy and terrified. i just want to feel you and block everything else out for a few days. can we do that?” her eyes fluttered open as she nuzzled into kara’s neck. “where’s your head?”

Kara listened as best as she could, trying everything to understand even a fraction of what Lena could be dealing with right now. And even then it was hard. She didn’t know how to convince the other woman that she was really here, that it wasn’t a dream. But Kara wasn’t sure there was a way. “I know it doesn’t mean anything, because I’m sure if I were a hallucination I’d say the same thing, but I’m not going to disappear. I promise.” Kara muttered the words against Lena’s ear where her head was and then pressed a soft kiss to the top of her shoulder. “But yeah, we can definitely do that.” When Lena asked where her head was, Kara didn’t move. She stayed, wrapped around Lena, head in her neck, but quiet for a minute, trying to find the right words. “I don’t know wher my head is. I’m... confused about what to do and how to feel. This... horrible thing happened to you -- to me -- and I can’t understand how you feel. I mean -- grief I get but not -- this whole thing happened and I wasn’t here. And I don’t feel anything about it. It’s weird and .. numb I guess. Makes me feel sort of far away from everything.”

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luthorname‌:

       lena didn’t need to be told twice as she climbed into the tub after kara. her head told her to slow down and take things as they came, but now, she wanted to feel kara’s arms around her waist. she settled between her legs and wasted no time allowing her head to drop back on her girlfriend’s shoulder. “i was wondering why it didn’t look like a foam party in here. i told you i didn’t mind.” she sighed happily as she allowed herself to relax. “you’re still just as warm.” a dopey smile found her lips as she spoke. 

Once Lena settled into the water, Kara laid back and pulled their bodies as close togther as possible. This was better, easier than standing in front of Lena like some sort of offering. Here, she could hold her and let their skin touch and rest her chin against Lena’s shoulder. Kara inhaled long and deep for a second, resting her head against the side of Lean’s. “Perks of not being a vampire,” she quipped back. “At least I think I’m not. I’m not really sure how reanimating alien corpses works. You’re the genius. I’m sure Alex has some numbers you can stare at if you want them. But all signs point to warm.” Again, Kara was afraid it was too light, that the wrong word would drudge up the wrong things. It was going to keep happening if they kept doing this. So instead she settled her arms a little tighter around Lena and lowered her voice. “Talk to me. Where’s your head?”

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luthorname‌:

       lena smiled warmly as kara tucked a piece of her hair behind her ear. “just because you can fall asleep anywhere doesn’t mean you should.” it was so easy to fall back into it. she wanted to give into kara and she was so close. she could deal with everything else another day because it had been four months without this and she felt close to exploding. she blinked a few times trying to clear her eyes. she wasn’t going to ruin this because she couldn’t control herself. “i put everything in the washer, but we can deal with it tomorrow.” her eyes drifted down to kara’s mouth before she swallowed thickly. “into the tub.” she did her best smirk as she took a step back to begin undressing. it wasn’t a tease or a way to entice kara like usual. instead, lena was eager to climb into the tub with her girlfriend. she threw her hair up into a messy bun before meeting kara’s gaze again. “can i be the little spoon?”

“Sleep anywhere, eat anything. We’ll get you living on the edge yet, Lena Luthor.” Kara had to resist an urge about how even death couldn’t keep her down. She kept having to remind herself that while she didn’t remember the last four months at all, Lena had a very real pile of emotions she was carrying around. At Lena’s request, Kara nodded and finally dropped her towel, settling into the water before the other woman so her back was against the back of the bath tub. “Come on. I didn’t even go too crazy on the bubbles. Just for you.”

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luthorname‌:

       lena looked up at kara, unsure and nervous. it seemed like her kara. she could tell by the cadence of her voice and the way she touched her. everything made sense with her near. lena couldn’t help herself. she wrapped her arms around kara’s waist the best she could while looking up at her. she nodded once. “you can say i look like shit. i still have eyes. i’ve been actively avoiding mirrors for a reason.” she gave a smile so that kara knew she was mostly joking. a sigh left her lips when kara’s hands found her neck. she felt safe now from that simple act. “okay. i’ll put on those really soft ones i bought you.” the confirmation that she could make the bed and do something useful made her invigorated. “shut up.” she actually cracked a smile and shook her head. “go.” she took a step back and pushed kara away, no matter how badly she didn’t want her to go. “you can even use extra bubbles. i’ll allow it.” 

      smirking to herself, lena stripped the bed and began to pick up the various articles of kara’s clothes she’d worn and discarded during those four months. she took her time making sure everything was perfect. she stuffed the dirty sheets and clothes into the washing machine, but opted not to run it. once the bed was done, she touched a pillow gently. she rummaged around the drawers and pulled out two pairs of comfortable pajamas before she finally decided to make her way to the bathroom. she slipped off her heels and inhaled deeply. “you ready for me?” she ducked her head inside careful not to crowd kara. 

Kara was grateful for the small moment of space between them. It allowed her to catch her breath, slow down, process so that she could help Lena process. She felt useless despite being the one thing Lena apparently needed right now. But she was unsure what to do, how to make things feel okay, how to help with grief she knew nothing about, for a person who was alive. It all made her head spin. But Kara forced herself to focus. She turned the water in the bath on, and slowly peeled herself out of her suit. Her eyes fell to her arms, and her legs, all of the skin unmarked, unbruised. It was as though it were entirely new. Something about that didn’t settle well with her. No matter how many times she’d been hurt and healed, it never felt this way, never felt like someone had replaced her with a different version. But Kara tried not to dwell on that feeling. Lena. Lena needed her and that was where her head had to be. She pulled a towel out of the cabinet and wrapped it around herself instead and then filled the bath, adding bubbles but not too many. Kara knew Lena didn’t like when there were too many bubbles. She liked things orderly. It was part of their balance. 

“Hey,” Kara smiled when Lena came in, her voice low and quiet like she had no idea how to do this either. Some of her confidence she’d arrived at L-Corp with was shaking off but Kara stepped closer to Lena anyway. “Always ready.” Kara nodded, tucking a stand of Lena’s hair away from her eyes. “Is the bed back to your liking?”

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luthorname‌:

      “you always know the right thing to say.” a small smile found her lips when she felt kara’s lips on her forehead. she sighed happily and took it all in. she followed her with no questions asked until she was instructed to hold on. arms clasped around her girlfriend’s neck, she tucked her face in to protect from the wind. she hated flying, but she felt safe with kara here. once they landed at kara’s apartment building, lena felt cold dread curl in her stomach. she hadn’t been inside in a few weeks – couldn’t bring herself to enter. “i’ll have someone come and clean it, but tomorrow.” opening her eyes, she looked around, but couldn’t seem to peel herself away from kara. “let me put new sheets on the bed or we can get on the couch. are you sure you aren’t hungry? should we call alex? do you need to shower? i think… you should change.” 

It was a moment of peace. The rush of the air, Lena’s weight in her arms, high above the city. Again, Kara would think about letting the rest of the world know Supergirl wasn’t dead later. There was an odd sense of dread in the air in National City. Surely Reign had not been good to it in her absence. But all of that was for another day, because now, Kara had Lena to save. They touched down at her apartment, a home Kara felt like she had been in only yesterday and yet it was different. The second she set Lena down, Kara could feel the nervous energy radiating off her, unsettled and unsure. It was so entirely opposite from the Lena Luthor she knew. Kara had to try to not let it tug her heart open any more than it already had. She needed to keep it together if she was going to fix this. “Lena it’s fine,” Kara answered quickly. “The apartment is fine and the bed is fine. Alex knows I’m with you. I’m always hungry. We’ll order delivery in a second. Just -- I need you to look at me okay?” Kara laid her hands on Lena’s shoulders, both of them, firm and steady. “You need to  breathe. I feel like I just walked out of the toy factory. I’m good. You’re ... not so good.” It suddenly made sense. Lena’s busy hands and the anxious fluttering of things that needed doing. She needed to do something. Kara took a breath, slid her hands up Lena’s neck to her jaw line. “Go change the sheets. I’ll get out of this and run a bath. If you needed me out of my clothes so badly you could have just opened with that.”

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luthorname‌:

       lena listened and once their hands were brought together, she lifted them up to press a soft kiss to the back of kara’s. “you’re back now. it… it’s okay. you know i don’t sleep right unless you’re next to me. that hasn’t changed.” she gave a weak smile as she tugged her girlfriend close, unable to bear so much space between them. “you’re here now. that’s all that matters. i never thought i’d be able to feel you again. just be with me.” she leaned up and pressed another kiss to the underside of kara’s jaw unable to help herself. “can we go home? it… might be a mess. i… i didn’t leave your bed for a few weeks. it smelled like you. i just want you to hold me and touch me and make sure you don’t disappear.”

It was like Lena was committing her to memory all over again, all of her touches slow and yet somehow still frantic. Kara didn’t dare interrupt them. She ran her thumb over the top of Lena’s knuckles and offered a small smile. “I’m here now, and I like messes.” With that, she finally pulled away enough to drag Lena a few steps toward the balcony door. Once they were outside, she turned, took either side of Lena’s head in her hands and placed a long, soft kiss against her forehead. “Hold on,” she muttered as she pulled away. “I’ll hold you the whole way there.”

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luthorname‌:

        “can you hear it now? can you still hear it? you still have your powers? since you flew here. stupid question. i’m…” lena’s thumbs grazed kara’s cheeks with soft certainty. “please don’t. please don’t apologize. you… it wasn’t on purpose. and i’ve been broken and sad and angry, but mostly, kara…” she trailed off and shrugged. “i just missed you. if this is a dream, i’ll handle it. but i really hope it isn’t.” she smiled the best she could before leaning up and pressing her lips to the underside of her girlfriend’s chin. “do you need to go back to the deo? what… do we do? i haven’t been home much. i tried… i kept paying for your apartment because it…” her throat closed up and she gave another tiny shrug. “should we go see alex or? do you want potstickers? or…” lena was trying to push away all the negative thoughts trying to overtake her mind. 

“But I am sorry,” Kara’s head hung a little when she said it and she reached for Lena’s arm again, now unsure which of them she was really holding up. “I’m sorry you were alone, and I’m sorry I didn’t .. open my eyes. I’m sorry you had to do all of this and pay for my apartment and -- I’m sorry that I have no idea what you’re feeling. I can hear your heartbeat now, yeah. But I didn’t miss it. It was just a second for me. I just -- I don’t want you to  scramble any more than you have to. I want to fix this, Lena. I want to take care of you. You ... look like you haven’t slept in a year. I want you to tell me what you need, what I can do for you. I --” all the emotion Kara had promised herself she’d hold back came up anyway, her eyes glossing over now and her voice watery. But Kara steeled herself, steeled her shoulders, inhaled a breath and let her fingers fall to take Lenas hand between them. “Can I take you home? To my place I mean. How can I make you sure this is real?”

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luthorname‌:

      lena buried her face so tightly into kara’s neck that she was sure she might suffocate. but she needed this – to be surrounded completely by the superhero. if this all turned out to be an elaborate dream, she was going to hold on as long as she could. she pressed her lips over kara’s pulse on her neck. she kept them there as she counted out her heartbeats – solid and real. her nose ran up the expanse of skin until she settled at the shell of her ear. “i love you.” the kryptonian was watery, but it needed to be said. their own secret code when they needed to speak to each other without the rest of the world interfering. “i never got to say it to you before…” she trailed off and did her best to swallow the knot forming in her throat. pressing soft kisses all over kara’s face – over each eye, the slopes of her cheeks, the corners of her mouth – she pulled back to take her in. “did alex run all your vitals? are there any side effects? what’s the last thing you remember?” 

“I love you.” Kara said it back, in english, clear and confident with the added pressure in her grip on Lena making it clear. She had so much she wanted to say. And while Kara didn’t feel like she’d been away for four months, it felt like she suddenly had four months worth of words to pour out and deliver at Lena’s feet like peace offerings for whatever war her girlfriend had been fighting alone this whole time. Instead, she stood still and strong and steady, let Lena take her in and wrap her head around all of it however she needed, and concentrated on trying not to let tears well in her own eyes. “She ran everything, all afternoon. I’m good as new. And not going anywhere. I don’t -- the last thing I remember was your heartbeat.” That came out quieter. “I kept listening for you, hoping it would make me stronger. And then nothing. I don’t -- I remember thinking I was going to die. But that’s it. And then I was ... at the DEO. Like blinking. I didn’t... even know how long it had been. I’m -- Lena I’m so sorry.” 

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luthorname‌:

        lena tried to focus on kara in front of her, but it was all overwhelming. she took her in – her skin put together and no scars. nothing to show that she had died. it twisted her heart inside her chest and lena wasn’t sure if it was being pulled back together or breaking even more – tiny shards being ground down into dust. “you’re real?” she echoed her words back unable to help herself. the moment she allowed herself to accept this reality, it was over. 

      her eyes immediately closed as kara stroked her skin. it felt like being touched by the sun and all lena wanted was more of it. she gasped and leaned into the touch. her eyes fluttered open at the mention of alex. “alex? she did it? she didn’t tell me…” tears filled her eyes and she wanted to call her to confirm it was real, but she couldn’t bring herself to move away from kara. “because i lost the only good thing in my life. because i’ve been empty ever since i held you in my arms and you didn’t open your eyes. i…” she swallowed thickly before a sob slipped out. “i put my head on your chest and there was nothing. no heartbeat to guide me home.” with that, she threw herself in kara’s arms and buried her face into her neck as tears blurred her vision. “you’re real. are you okay?” 

“I know .. I know.” The words came out quiet and rushed. Kara felt immediately bad for saying anything that may have come off as a joke, as a lightness, when Lena was standing in front of her appearing as though she had crawled out of the rubble of the very fight that had crushed Kara. She didn’t say anything else, just let Lena start to process and eventually took her into her arms and held on to her as tightly as she could. A hand lifted to the back of Lena’s head, smoothing her hair, trying to ground herself. “I’m so sorry,” Kara mumbled against the top of her head, tears blurring her vision once again as she repeated assurance like some kind of mantra. “I’m okay, I’m sorry. I’m here now. It’s okay.”

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luthorname‌:

      “no, no, no, no, no, no.” she whispered the words to herself furiously over and over. she felt like she was falling and no one was around anymore to catch her. she envied people who didn’t know they were on the edge. she hated that she knew she was breaking and there was nothing she could do to stop it. because once she opened her eyes and stepped off the ledge, that was it. she would never get it back. she could give into a hallucination of kara and deal with the rest of it later. tears pricked at her eyes as she whined and rhythmically hit her temples with her soft fits. 

        then kara spoke to her in kryptonian. and if this was a hallucination or something sent to break lena completely, it was worth it. she opened her eyes and blinked back at the tears and brightness of her office. standing there was kara in her supergirl uniform – the last thing she had seen her in. the tears hit her hard then as she found it impossible to move once again. “are you really alive?” the words came out in kryptonian, smooth and sure like she’d been speaking it all her life. “please be real. i can’t take it if you’re not real.” shakily she stood up from her desk, much thinner than the last time kara has seen her. her face was gaunt with bags drooping down her cheeks. she took a step toward her. “how?”

Kara’s heart just kept breaking. It was like some kind of beating she’d never had before, blow after blow of heart shattering, soul crushing breaking. Every sound Lena made, the desperate clench of her fingers against her palms, the unsteady way she stood, the tears in her eyes, the fragility in her voice. Kara stepped closer again, as if she could catch her. She nodded, chewing on her own lip to the stop the tears slowly forming in her eyes now. Kara wanted to shove them back down. It wasn’t her turn to cry, even if it was out of pain for Lena. “It’s me, it’s Kara. I’m real. I promise.”

She stepped a little closer now, closing the space remaining between them and laid her hand against Lena’s elbow, like a crutch. Slowly and gently Kara reached to touch the side of her face, along the curve of her even more prominent cheek bones. “I don’t know,” she shook her head, “something Alex did. I -- how is it I died and you’re the one who looks like a ghost?” Kara tried to smile despite the concern pulling the air out of her throat. She wanted to feel like herself, to show Lena she was herself, anything to convince her that whatever nightmare they’d been in was over.

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luthorname‌:

      four months and lena couldn’t remember the last time she slept. passing out happened regularly when she couldn’t keep her eyes opened anymore. alex showed up with food and a look of understanding. lena was fairly sure the only reason she hadn’t given up was because she couldn’t let down kara’s sister too. not when in rare moment’s the deo director would smile and she caught glimpses of her girlfriend. enough that she swore kara would come flying in with too much food and a horrible movie recommendation for a girls’ night. if she gave up, then alex would have to look after her too and whatever semblance of sanity lena had wouldn’t allow that – it was a tribute to the only woman she’d ever loved.

       she spent most of her time in the lab below l-corp. noting made sense. she was one of the smartest people on the planet, but she couldn’t do this one thing for kara (no, herself). on the good days, jess could coax food into her. on the bad days, she barricaded her door, unwilling to head home and be reminded of kara. the first few weeks, she didn’t leave their bed. not until she couldn’t smell her anymore. the thought of permanence scared lena more than anything else. 

       lena sat at her chair, balcony door open. a call to kara or reign or whatever other being wanted to visit her. it was a pipe dream – kara coming back to her or ending reign’s life in retaliation. deep down, she was a luthor. the anger and rage still burned bright within her. the soft thud on the balcony called her attention and she didn’t move. she sat still, back ramrod straight as she stared straight ahead. and then her name coming from the doorway. “no, no, no.” she brought hands up and covered her ears. she didn’t dare look over her shoulder. it wasn’t real. she was so close to some sort of break in her research. she couldn’t lose her sanity now. “it’s not real. it’s not real. it’s not real.” the repetition made it easier for her as she curled into herself. 

Lena didn’t move, didn’t even turn around but Kara could see the tension in her back, could hear the uptick in her heart beat. Still familiar, still Lena. She could remember the night she fought Reign, could remember trying to hear Lena’s heartbeat then, how it kept her going, how it was the last thing she heard because Lena was close -- too close. And now she was here. It was like a blink. Kara didn’t remember dying. But she imagined it felt something like this. Her mouth went dry, the words stopped in the air, her bones stiff and stuck and statue still and all she could feel was something wringing her heart like they wanted it to stop beating. Kara could only watch as Lena went nearly fetal at her desk, the tone of her voice something intimate and personal and fractured.  

Kara wanted to reach for her. This must be what death felt like -- far away, stuck, unreachable. But she wasn’t dead. She was alive. Kara didn’t even remember dying, even if Lena remembered it, even if Lena was living with it, every day, reminded of it in moments just like this. Kara was alive. That thought sprung her to action and she took a few more steps into the office. “It’s real, Lena.” She said it gently, soft and cautious but earnest and sure. “I swear it is. Lena, look at me.” The last words came out in Kryptonian, a language that had become somewhat of a code for them both -- something Lena had learned and Kara always knew. “Look at me.”

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Four months. That’s what Alex had said when Kara woke up. Four months since she’d fought Reign -- four months since Reign defeated her -- four mouths since she’d died. Kara had woken up on a table or in a bed at the DEO so many times that she hadn’t realized at first that this was any different, that time had passed. And yet by the look on her sisters’s face -- it had. Kara was shocked by the explanation given to her, wracked her brain for answers or explanations, memories of something -- anything. But it was gone. Like she had simply blinked and woken up four months later. She was tired and her limbs felt heavy and oddly new but it all worked. Alex refused to let her move from that bed while they ran more tests and prodded. She insisted she’d call Lena but Kara asked her to wait. Lena. Kara wanted to see her more than anything. It was the first thought she’d had upon realizing four months had passed -- four months where her loved ones thought she was dead. But she didn’t want to call Lena and have it all go wrong, have her wind up lost again. Alex seemed so worried that it wouldn’t stick. Test after test was run, machines beeping and buzzing and Kara laid there, begging for conclusions that said she could go -- go find Lena, fix it. 

Alex was all business when she finally delivered the results, that they seemed conclusive and promising. But Kara could see the tears in her eyes and feel the desperation in her arms when she’d finally wrapped them around Kara’s shoulders. 

Not two hours later she was on her way to L-Corp, assuming Lena would be at her office, no matter the hour. Kara’s fingers vibrated with energy, looped into her blue sleeves. Her blue and red outfit, cape and all had been memorialized in some case in the DEO that made Kara’s jaw twitch. She shouldn’t have put it on. Should have put on something more subtle, so as to not alert Reign or anyone else in National City that Supergirl wasn’t dead. But Kara wasn’t thinking about that. She was thinking about Lena, the open door on her balcony that Kara could see from where she was in the sky -- left open, as though she were...waiting. Something about that thought cracked Kara’s chest. She had no way of knowing how Lena would have handled this, how okay she’d be, or not okay. Her thoughts swirled with possibility but Kara landed on the balcony all the same, on to gentle feet, with a quiet thud as she stepped through the doorway. “Lena?”

[lasttdaughter]

luthorname‌:

     her eyes opened to focus on kara’s face – bruised, but still beautiful. lena wanted to spend time counting each freckle. then she’d kiss kara for each one she’d inventoried. she blinked back the tears, but made no noise when a few spilled onto her cheeks. she laughed watery and broken before meeting kara’s gaze again. “it’s not your job to get hurt. i think it’s the only thing alex and i could agree on at this moment.” it’s lena’s turn for her fingers to glide back up kara’s neck to settle on her sharp jaw. “i would do anything for you. and if i have to pay for certain things, i’ll do that too. i know..” she cleared her throat and shook her head. “can i hug you? please. i’m so tired and no one would tell me if you were okay and i’m not sure how much longer they’ll let you in here.” 

“Might not be my job description but it comes with the territory,” Kara shrugged, with a crooked smile not unlike a cowboy who had just been dragged out of a bar fight. “It’s all going to heal just fine. A couple days and I’ll be good as new.” She settled in to the touch of Lena’s fingers against the back of her neck, but only shakes her head when Lena says she’ll pay for it. Kara doesn’t have any intentions on letting that happen. The DEO will listen to her. She was there. At Lena’s question she shakes her head again, smiling just a little, “No,’ answers, pressing her lips together, “not yet.” As she says it, she leans forward, an elbow on the knee she isn’t kneeling on, her other hand at the back of Lena’s neck, pulling her closer until their lips touch in a single, soft kiss.”Now you can.”