' He laughed as he fell ' @laughsoficarus - Tumblr Blog

" One day "

× Stormz/Sable | 19 | He/it

× Fictive of some guy from SMPs nobody gaf about (Bliss/Infuse/Mace) | Nonhuman/angelthing

× System blog - @system-x-failure | In our system's hierarchy terms I'm basically one of our 2 main "hosts" long-term

× I post whatever. I reblog whatever. Go my reblog slop. Some might be suggestive sometimes but usually not. Usually I reblog seals

× I had a sideblog but I wanted my own blog #gomygreed so I'm probably only using that one to interact easier with my sysmates' sideblogs

× DNI is if I don't like you I'll block you I can't be bothered

Follow Nezo he's my little guy @noahshoki also my little brother @mediocremasquerade

" I am gonna grow wings "

#🥀.txt #system stuff #sysblr #mcyt fictive

Wanted to look at seal posts that my tl here is usually full of but it's all just Nezo's dogs, consequences of sharing an account with your sysmate

#It's okay neither of us have used this in a while I guess it just left off with his dogs #🥀.txt

medkitphightingirl

fuck human expressions of anger. bring back growling. bring back snarling. lets snarl at each other.

Sky so beautiful right now it has me yearning

#It looks so ethereal #🥀.txt

I love complaining about missing sysmates like I don't have free will to hang out with them in headspace

#''I miss Nezo'' brother you could have gone to see him any time #I say as I also frequently do and recently have #I just like being around Nezo a lot that's my little guy #🥀.txt

laughsoficarus

Falling into another one of those paranoid episodes where everything feels weird and I'm terrified of the concept of either dying or just losing my mind soon/having my mental state deteriorate further and have something in my reality break and it's like the most terrifying it has been lately

laughsoficarus

One of the worst parts of this is that I can rant about it as much as I want in places where our closest friends can see, not a single one will say a word to me about it or even care that I'm terrified and doing horrible but even then what do I even want them to do, what could they even do

#Part of the problem is I'm struggling alone physically with no one in real life to turn to #I cannot keep dealing with this by squeezing my own hand trying to stay grounded while all I have is another voice trying to soothe me #I can't keep dealing with this alone #It doesn't matter if my identity is split into however many dissociative parts in my head they cannot all support each other enough for thi #We can't keep dealing with this physically alone as one body and mind and no other person of support #But that's what we're stuck with #And I'm scared of how much worse it might get #Every time it gets like this we go through a slightly worse breakdown and the slowness of that is fucking terrifying #Because we're witnessing our own slow descent and spiral into this where its just every scattered episode chips away at it all #It chips away at our mind just a little further every time and something about that is fucking horrifying #🥀.txt

Falling into another one of those paranoid episodes where everything feels weird and I'm terrified of the concept of either dying or just losing my mind soon/having my mental state deteriorate further and have something in my reality break and it's like the most terrifying it has been lately