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SYNOPSIS: The three times Regulus Black stumbled upon Hailey Potter on the corridors, and the one he decided to stop pretending it was an accident.
OR Hailey is surprised to find the mysterious Slytherin boy she keeps seeing might just be more than an inconceivable menace.
->based on a old fic I wrote once
->black cat boyfriend x golden retriever girlfriend aesthetic
->All characters belong to the HP universe except my OC
->please pardon me for the mismatched timeline and other minor inconveniences
->alternative world where Voldemort doesnât exist, but everything else is still happening according to headcanons
->if you stumble upon phrases youâve seen before in my other fics, no you didnât xx
Enjoy xxx
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1975, September 1st
It was a warm day in Autumn. Hailey stood on the long corridor of the Hogwarts Express, watching as the horizon blurred into a blotch of green and blue in the background.
She was agitated. When he left, James had instructed her to wait until he returned to get her, but that was more than ten minutes ago, and the corridors have cleared up almost entirely since. If she didnât start walking, not only their booth but everywhere else would fill up too.
Normally she wouldnât âresortâ to the Maraudersâs mercy, but her best friend, Sonja, fell ill with dragon pox at the beginning of the summer and she hasnât made it back since.
This turnout of events led to her current state of being entirely alone. She deserves it, for trusting a ridiculously smitten boy after all. Merlin knows, James might as well be preoccupied with Lily. If that was the case, he wouldâve forgotten about anything else, and she wasnât about to spend the whole journey to Hogwarts staying left out.
It was a late, starry night in July when James, apparently having ran out of options, decided to confide in her about his relentless crush on their yearâs redheaded star pupil, Lily Evans.
Hailey had heard so much about Lily that it felt like she actually knew her at this point, even though they barely ever spoke. She was neither blind, nor senseless, so sheâd figured his quest to charm her was hopeless, if not stupid pretty early on.
But James wasnât the type to give up, and so they didnât even try to persuade him to anymore. Hailey wasnât entirely sure heâd come out alive in the end, but she gave him the benefit of the doubt.
Having her mind made up, she turned to the side, making her way towards the vague direction of the Marauderâs booth. Most girls would only dream of enjoying the famous trouble maker quartetâs company so free of charge, but to her it was like second nature.
The Marauders had spent so much time at their house over the years that she considered them all like brothers. Her favorite though, and James didnât have to know that, had always been the raven haired Black boy, whoâd brought her sweets whenever he came, and always had a story up his sleeve when she needed cheering up.
When she first came to Hogwarts last year, a lot of the older girls teased her about hanging out with the troublemakers so much. Gossip had it that she âhad an insane crush on the older Blackâ, but that couldnât have been further from the truth.
âHeâs five years older than me, for Merlinâs sake, get a gripâ, sheâd tell anyone, who actually came up to her to ask.
Still quite deep in thought, she hastened her steps, pulling her cart in tow. She was nearing the end of the train when all of a sudden, someone crashed into her from the other direction.
The force of the collision had made her lose her balance, and she fell backwards, over her trolley. Her head came into hard contact with the floor.
Dammit. She closed her eyes for a second, trying to clear her vision. When she opened them again, a hand, that likely belonged to the attacker, appeared in her peripheral.
Staggering, she hastily accepted intent on telling them off, but she only got as far as opening her mouth. When they came face to face, the words had suddenly died down in her throat.
The guy standing in front of her was like the underworld version of Sirius Black: a pair of incredibly familiar grayish blue eyes, heavy like a thunderstorm in the summer, with short raven locks and striking, statue-like facial features. Except that the air he carried around him was somehow.. darker.
Hailey was at a loss of words. She knew that Sirius had a brother, but theyâd never met in person before. The older Black had spent so much time complaining about their differences that sheâd written him off as someone.. less visibly striking.
Meanwhile, the mysterious stranger stared back at her with wide, alert eyes as a hint of a derisive smirk appeared at the corner of his lips. That was finally enough to snap her out of her trance.
âYou should watch where youâre goingâ, she remarked, mindful of the sharp edge to her voice.
âPardon me my ladyâ, the boy bowed his head theatrically, and she gruesomely recognized the resemblance once again âit wouldnât hurt to mind where youâre going either, you know.â
Hailey grumbled internally. Of course. Even his demeanor resembled Sirius, though it was more pessimistic than sheâd ever heard him.
She tried to conjure the details sheâd heard of the younger Black before. He was around two years older, now in his fourth year, and, as Sirius liked to say âsour as a rotten lemon all the time.â
Funny, she thought. Now, as she stood in front of him, sheâd found âancient greek statueâ more fitting.
âI wonâtâ, she muttered, and grabbed her trolley with the intention of maneuvering around and finally leaving this conversation.
She made a mental note to strangle Sirius later for forgetting to mention that his younger brother was a menace.
The said boy, though, seemingly had other plans in mind. Hailey gave up after a few seconds, glaring at him in pointed annoyance. âYouâre in my way.â
âIf you tell me your name, Iâll let you goâ, he flashed her a slow, lopsided smile.
There goes the famous Black charm, Hailey thought. Sheâd seen the other Black do the gesture several times: loud, and over-confident, not even questioning that it would send butterflies flashing in most girlsâ stomachs.
But this.. this was different. His gaze fell on her without wavering, stare silent, colder, and calculated, as if he was weighing her reaction by the second. Like a spider that was slowly, obviously observing the dying pray, second away from swallowing them whole. She grew more agitated by the second.
âNo.â
The raven haired stranger arched a brow, lazily steadying himself against the wall. While Hailey tried her best to look anywhere but at him, she noticed the green tie that lay loosely around his neck, and her heart skipped a beat. âWould you enlighten me as to why?â
Oh right. And heâs in Slytherin too. âI donât know yours eitherâ, she shrugged.
She wouldâve loved to snap, âcause youâre a snakeâ , but she knew it was only her wounded pride speaking, and she refused to subdue to his level.
âRegulus Blackâ The words hung in the air for a few seconds. He kept looking at her, eyes entirely devoid of emotions and she felt herself shiver under the weight of his gaze.
He was probably trying to get a reaction out of her, she recognized, but she refused to give him the satisfaction. âHailey Potterâ, despite her intentions, her voice came out a bit short of composed. The younger Black noticed it too.
They stood still for a while, keeping up the staring contest until Hailey broke the silence. âYou can let me go now.â
Surprisingly abiding by his promise, the boy stepped aside without a word this time, and she didnât think twice before making a beeline towards the first available booth.
His voice echoed like an eerie melody behind her as he spoke, âSee you around, Potter.â
She didnât look back to see he was smiling.
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âSo youâve met Regulus, huh?â, James hummed half an hour later, âIâm surprised Pads havenât actually made an introduction yet.â
Hailey was in their compartment now, safely tucked away from curious glances and lingering Slytherins. Sheâd been right to assume James was otherwise preoccupied earlier but to her luck, Sirius and the others remembered she was still away, and found her a few moments after sheâd ran into the younger Black boy.
Thank the Heavens.
âItâs cause Regâs a menace. He doesnât like any Gryffindors, especially not the ones acquainted with meâ, Sirius, who was perched comfortably in the corner, remarked lousily.
He acted like it didnât bother him whenever his brotherâs name emerged in a conversation, but everyone knew that out of all his family, Regulusâs hatred was the only thing that somewhat managed to shatter Siriusâs heart.
âPerhaps more than heâd ever admitâ, as James said once.
âHe doesnât seem all that bad considering heâs your brother, Padfootâ, she remarked, though the fervor from earlier had mostly dissolved from her voice.
Sirius, whoâd been playing with her hair until then dutifully feigned a stab through the heart. âI canât believe youâd dare compare the two of us, sweets.â.
Remus chuckled on the other side. âYou know, I agree with her, Sirius. He seemed nice enough whenever I talked to him.â
âYeah thatâs cause youâre a prefectâ, the raven haired boy rolled his eyes, âRegâs allergic to questioning authority.â
âOr, Iâm just not as much of a knucklehead as you areâ, his friend retorted with a pointed look, âYouâre perfectly aware Slytherins can be coaxed too, if you act normal enough around them.â
âIf by coaxed you mean as hexable as Snivellus then sureâ, James quipped, half munching on a cracker.
âIf youâre so intent on winning Miss Know-it-Allâs heart then you should leave him alone for a whileâ, said Hailey.
It was a widely known secret that Lily and Severus had long given up their friendship, but the red-headed girl still sneered whenever the Marauders picked on the greasy haired Slytherin.
Hailey didnât like him anymore than the others from the Green house, but his well being was non-negotiable in earning Lilyâs favor. âCâmon, heâs unbearable Hailsâ, James groaned, âitâs like, you look at his face and it screams âhit me.â â
âI canât decide if youâre a prick, or youâre just stupidâ, his sister hummed ironically.
âRemember, when you describe him youâre describing yourself tooâ, Peter chimed into the conversation seemingly for what was the first time in hours.
A chorus of cheers erupted from Sirius and Remus, while James just crunched his nose. âThat was a low blow, Wormtail. Even from you.â
Hailey chuckled to herself, and as her thoughts drifted back to the eerie confrontation with the Slytherin boy from earlier, the conversation slowly melted away into the background.
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1976, September 7th
Hailey was on her way back to her dorm, her steps almost inaudible on the empty corridors of the castle. Sheâd sneaked out to send a letter to her parents earlier, and realized a tad too late that sheâd forgotten about the time.
Her best chance now was to get back while avoiding any attention, especially the patrolling prefects. Though sheâd known one of the girls who was elected this year, no one from Gryffindor was on duty tonight.
Just her kind of luck. She tried to calm her nerves by reminding herself that an acquintance wouldnât have necessarily guaranteed avoiding the loss of house points anyways.
She took a sharp left turn at the next corner, swiftly disappearing behind the portrait of a moody Victorian lady. James had showed her the secret pathway last year, and sheâd taken it several times since.
As the darkness enveloped her figure, she let out a small sigh of relief. No one ever really came down this way, so all she had to do now was get back to the Gryffindor tower, and..
A tall figure suddenly crashed into her out of nowhere. The collision sent her staggering back, her body hitting the wall with a soft thud.
Who the hell.. ?!
She whipped out her wand, still a bit fogged from fright, as she muttered the spell, and lifted the small flame in front of her. âStay where you are!â
A muffled, but distinctively male voice responded from a few feet away. The next moment, a shadow fell over her figure as the stranger stepped closer. He was wearing a navy jumper over a shirt and pajama pants, and as the light fell onto his face, his eyes looked pale and hollow like a statue.
âWell, arenât you full of surprises Potter?â
Hailey held her breath as she locked eyes with Regulus Black. She hadnât really seen him since they ran into each other on the train last year, and though the darkness didnât exactly help, she immediately noticed heâs gotten even taller since.
Suddenly grateful for something that guided her against his overbearing presence, she did her best to seem calm and collected as she spoke. âYou can stop hovering over me, Blackâ, she made sure to keep her voice low, âand hello to you too, by the way.â
âIâm not hoveringâ, Regulus muttered, blinking rapidly as he raised his hands over his eyes, âBy Salazar, would you at least put that light away? Itâs damn blinding..â
She rolled her eyes, but eventually lowered the tiny a flame a bit. âGet a grip, Black. You keep knocking me over like itâs a healthy habit.â
Regulus tilted his head to the side slightly, letting his hands fall to his sides. A ghost of a smile had crossed his lips, but his body was annoyingly stiff compared to the melodic lilt of his words that followed. âSo you remember the last time?â
âYeah, I remember hitting my head on the bloody groundâ, she sneered.
âHuhâ, he lowered his voice as if he was saying something conspiratorial, âThatâs funny. I thought you brave Gryffindors only ever do what you wantâ.
The backhanded joke landed like a dagger, and she hated how skillfully polite he managed to sound while delivering it. âYeah well, right now I want to smack you in the face. Wouldnât you be happy if I did that, too?â
Regulus huffed, gently leaning against the wall in front of her. He found his footing all too quickly for her liking. âI wouldnât do that if I were you, Potter.â
Hailey puffed her chest, stepping up towards him, as she repeated his words from the train. âWould you enlighten me as to why?â
Regulus leaned forward. Still several inches away, his gaze locked on her like that only could keep her glued onto the ground. A sly smirk appeared at the corner of his lips. âWell, for one, you were just caught violating curfew.â
She held his gaze, feeling adrenaline lighten up her veins. âOh yeah? And what will you do, deduct house points?â
The Slytherin smirked, seemingly in thought for a bit. âHow could I? You know only prefects can do that..â.
He waited patiently until a triumphant grin broke across her features before he continued, âitâs a shame Iâm being late from my shift, held up by a sneaky Gryffindor. If we count that, and breaking curfew.. i donât know. Fifty points, give or take?â
The blood drained out from Haileyâs face about as quickly as sheâd tumbled over a few minutes beforehand. âYou..â
Regulus seamlessly lifted his jumper to show the bright emblem etched onto his perfectly white shirt. The light that burned in his eyes was almost striking, as he spoke. âYeah Potter. Iâm a prefect.â
Hailey felt her face burn hot with shame. How could she have been so stupid? All this time, he was busy luring her into a trap and she didnât even notice..
âYou absolute prat!â, she gritted her teeth, but that did nothing to help her predicament.
Regulus clicked his lips jovially. âCareful there, Potter, you want me to take points for swearing too?â
âWhat do you mean swearing, you had just..â
But she changed her mind before finishing the sentence. The realization came like a cold bucket of water. This was his plan all along.
Rile her up until she lost her temper, then use it to his advantage. Sly like a Slytherin. And she was giving him exactly what he wanted.
Merlinâs Godforsaken beard, she hated being wrong. But not enough to act like her brother when he bullied Severus Snape.
She hung her head, as she tried to even her breathing. If any of the Marauders could see her now theyâd be laughing their arses off. âFine. If youâre actually gonna do it then go ahead. Iâd like to get back to my dorm now.â
She expected him to chuckle, maybe laugh even. But there was silence. Hailey didnât immediately look up, but her patience ran out after a few seconds and she became curious. When she lifted her head, she found Regulus gazing at her intently.
She didnât know why her heart skipped a beat. âWhat?â
He didnât immediately answer. âArenât you planning to yell at me?â
Hailey arched a brow. What the hell has gotten into him? âYeah, and wake all the paintings? Câmon Black, iâm not that stupid. â
Regulus kept staring her as if he was debating the very same thing. She gulped, trying to swallow her pride. She mightâve been polite before but that didnât mean she wouldnât actually smack him if he tested her patience.
âInterestingâ, he said at last. There was something different about his voice, but she couldnât have pointed out what it was for the life of her.
âInteresting? Whatâs interesting?â
Regulus left her without a response. Instead, he stepped aside, motioning towards the darkness. âGo.â
He said.. what?
Hailey gawked up at him like heâd grown a second pair of ears. All this show of revealing he was a prefect and now heâs just.. letting her go? âAre you seriously..â
âNowâs not the time to play deaf, Potterâ, he muttered, his tone slightly tense ânow go, before that daft sod Lockhart notices youâre here.â
Hailey stepped around him. She was staggering a bit, though the dizziness she had felt earlier was completely gone.
For a second, she wanted to say something. Thank him, perhaps?
But then, she remembered he was the one who knocked her over in the first place, and quickly changed her mind. She turned around without a word, and the next moment, she bolted into the darkness.
Regulus watched long after her figure had completely disappeared onto the narrow pathway.
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1976, October 10th
The sun was high in the sky as the two Slytherins walked towards the abandoned green house.
âSo Reg, you gotten around chattinâ the Potter girl up yet?â
Regulus barely refrained from rolling his eyes. Ever since his friendsâd heard about his little incident with the flimsy Gryffindor a month ago, they just wouldnât shut up about it.
Glancing at the boy in by his side, he shook his head. âStop being disgusting mate.â
Evan Rosier, his best friend and the single-handed reason behind the story becoming public knowledge in the first place, simply grinned at him. âBut youâre not denying it.â
He huffed. âI might as well give up, since youâve been talking the entire bloody houseâs ear off.â
âCome one, come all, gather! Regulus Black, Slytherinâs picture perfect prefect let James Potterâs little sister, a Gryffindor and a baby Marauder, get away with breaking curfew free of charge. Of his own volition. Wouldnât Salazar impale at hearing that?! I donât know about you, but I think someone finally melted the Ice Princeâs heart..â
The effects have been horrendous. No one from the other houses wouldâve guessed, but Slytherins actually loved to gossip.
While during the day they spared no effort in maintaining the spotless, superior reputation expected from young aristocrats, by night the green common room turned into a busy hub of relentless gossip. Regulus often wondered how they havenât decided to run their own school paper about it yet.
Topics varied, but the session would commence every night without exception. Whether the subject wanted to be discussed, didnât really matter. Once they were out of public eyesight, his housemates became truly determined, and vicious, so much so that even the famously untouchable Black boy could barely escape being brought onto the table.
Once having pulled of the escape, he seriously considered hexing Rosier into a cursed bludgeon. He didnât hesitate to inform him about it either, but now, strutting behind him proudly as ever, Evan didnât seem the least bit reproachful. âWell, am I wrong?â
Regulus didnât answer him.
Yeah he found the Potter girl attractive, so what? Sirius would kill him before he even thought of making a move anyway.
âThe point isnât the truth, itâs that youâre a proper gossip. I should tie you up with Potter, sheâs got a pretty big mouth on her too. â
Evan huffed. âYeah I think weâd get along pretty well if she manages to put up with your moodsâ, he gave him a pointed look, âAt least you donât look at me like you wanna snog every time we talk.â
Regulus snapped his head around before he could finish the sentence. âDo you want to be hexed, Rosier?â
Anyone else, well maybe except Potter, wouldâve melted into the ground under the weight of his gaze by now, but his best friend wasnât having it.
âStop threatening me, you tosser, and use your head for a second. Yeah you like her, so what? Itâs not like this would be the biggest scandal Hogwartsâs ever seen.â
The Black boy pursed his lips.
What was even there to think about? Just because he was stupid enough to fall for the little sister of his brotherâs best mate, didnât mean he was going to act on it.
âIf you think this is a reason Sirius will finally talk to me over, then youâre wrongâ, he huffed.
He could feel Evanâs expectant gaze burn holes into his shoulders. âYou know I dislike those self-absorbed muppets just as much as everyone, but.. whatever Aunt Walburga told you, heâs still your brother mate. No amount of that blood-obsessed shit is ever going to change that.â
âYeah well, try telling him thatâ, Regulus muttered.
Evan arched a skeptical brow at him. âStop brooding, will ya? Sirius might not listen to us, but iâd bet a hundred galleons that little girlfriend of yours could talk some sense into him if she made her mind up about it. All you have to do is just talk to her.â
The Black boy left him without an answer. He knew that Evan was right, and it sounded like he could get something he wanted for once. But life wasnât a fairytale, was it?
Seeing he wasnât about to continue the conversation, the Rosier boy turned towards a bunch of girls walking a few steps behind them. He knew his best friend well enough by now to know when to let him meddle in his thoughts.
Otherwise preoccupied, none of them noticed the short, brunette girl who sat at the edge of the woods, glancing as they walked by in the distance.
Hailey wandered if she should say hi, but she quickly changed her mind. She couldnât just wave Regulus Black over like a five year old schoolgirl, Merlin..
If she missed his voice, their bickering, or the rare moment of seeing his eyes crinkle when he actually smiled, then he didnât have to know about it.
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1977, March 7th
Slughornâs party was a bore.
Hiding out at a corner as she slowly sipped her drink, Hailey didnât know if she regretted agreeing to come, or deciding to stay more.
It was a fun idea while her friends teased her about it. In theory, sheâd dance with a few boys, get a bit tipsy, and satisfy the sloppy professorsâs aspirations of her networking skills.
In truth, she was stuck in a barely lit, moss-colored room with a bunch of people she didnât know, listening to ear-deafeningly melancholy music as she tried to avoid the hungry stares of a bunch of sixth year boys from Ravenclaw.
Sheâd been successful so far, with a doe-eyed look, and a half-hearted excuse along the lines of, âOh sorry, my feet are hurtingâ, or âYeah, iâm just waiting for someone.â But as more and more time passed, her luck was wearing thin and she didnât have much of a chance left to ward off the annoyingly adamant âfine gentlemenâ (according to Slughorn), if she didnât come up with something creative.
Maybe if she pretended to feign illness.. Just then, a tall sturdy boy whom she recalled was a chaser for Ravenclaw, slid towards her in the crowded room again. It was the third time that evening.
Hailey looked around in despair, but the professor was busy blabbering to some older guests heâd obviously invited as sponsors. Well if he wouldnât notice..
Ducking down, she quickly tossed her drink to a nearby shelf and bolted towards the door. No one really paid her attention, as she slid out to the dark corridors, and ran until she could make sure her figure wouldnât be seen in the darkness.
Then, she leaned towards the cold, stone wall, letting out a sigh in relief. That was a close one. People really donât appreciate the art of being sneaky enough, apparently.
If only Sirius could see her now, heâd probably..
âArenât you forgetting something?â
Hailey almost jumped out of her skin, but thank Merlin, her reflexes clicked in last minute and she covered her mouth with her hands. What even.. âWhoâs there?â
Regulus Black appeared in front of her, swiftly like heâd just materialized out of the darkness. Something in his hand sparkled as he lifted it for her to see. âEvening, Potterâ
Haileyâs heart skipped a beat when she recognized the small, heart-shaped pendant. âWhat the.. where did you get that?â, she muttered, immediately wanting to backtrack at how weak her voice sounded in the quiet of the castle.
The Slytherin stepped closer, though she could only guess more than see by the tell-tale scent of his perfume. Pinewood, incense and something husky that unmistakably screamed âI love snakes.â âYou dropped it while you were running out of there. Nice fleeing act, by the way.â
Hailey huffed, muttering under her breath. Of all the people she couldâve ran into, did it really have to be him? âCanât have been that nice if you managed to follow me.â
Regulus chuckled in a low voice. âYou might be good at sneaking, Potter, but this is Slytherin territoryâ.
âCareful Blackâ, she muttered, âI might end up thinking you want to compliment me.â
Regulus leaned against the wall, swiftly caging her between him and the corner. âWere you actually planning to dance with anyone tonight, or did you just show up to play teacherâs pet?â
Hailey arched her brows, as she crossed her arms in front of herself. She didnât want to admit how close sheâd came to losing her balance under the intensity of his gaze.
The arrogant prat. So what, has been stalking her the whole night? âWhy, is that what youâre doing?â, she shot back.
His gaze didnât falter. âYour silence screams guilt.â
Hailey was grateful for the touch of cold stone on her neck, that cooled her running a nerves a bit. She tried to grasp the feeling before she spoke. âNot like yours doesnât. Seems it is true youâre allergic to questioning authority.â
Regulus stayed calm, but it was clear he immediately guessed where the information mightâve come from. âCâmon now, Potter. I thought Gryffindors didnât run from a challenge.â
Breathe, Hailey told herself. She wasnât about to fall for the trap for a third time. âAre you that desperate for an answer or do you just love being annoying?â
âI think, if you were actually annoyed youâd be busy getting it back instead of talking to meâ, he retorted, glancing at the pendant.
Hailey rolled her eyes. Every fiber of his being radiated that aristocratic arrogance Siriusâd constantly rant about, and yet, the more they spoke, the more she began thinking the older Black never actually took the time to get to know his brother.
How else would he have failed to recognize that they were like two sides of the same coin?
Where Sirius became loud, he quieted down. Where the older Black seeked the attention of crowds, Regulus chose silent observation. But that didnât change the fact they were both incredibly skilled at, and addicted to, deflation.
Whether that, or something else, was the reason she decided to be open with him, she wasnât sure. âConsidering you were secretly watching me all night⊠â, Regulus opened his mouth but she cut him off before he could say something, âthat wasnât a question Black.â
He smiled, which was nothing new, but she noticed that his eyes crinkled just slightly, as if he was actually entertained for once. Hailey found the gesture quite captivating. âWould you have said yes in my place?â
Regulus didnât immediately answer. âNo I wouldâve hexed themâ, he shrugged at last, âstarting with that dimwit Mclagen. The first two times were just painful to watch, but then he goes back for a third? And they call us selfish.. â
The Potter girl almost chuckled. Almost. She managed to bite her tongue in the last minute, glancing up at him expectantly. âDidnât it ever cross your mind to help me while you were busy stalking?â
Regulus clicked his lips with a smirk. âWhy, would you have said yes if I asked you to dance?â âWell, you didnât ask me, so it doesnât actually matterâ, she huffed.
As they locked eyes again, a small, foreign feeling began bubbling in her chest: no matter how annoying, Regulus Black still wasnât at all awful to talk to.
Instead of focusing on that, however, she glanced up at him expectantly, motioning towards the pendant. âCan I get it back now?â
He didnât even have to step back, he just moved it over his head where she surely couldnât reach. âNu-uh. This has a price, Potter.â
She felt herself grow agitated. âThatâs what you got an honest answer for. Now Iâd like my property back please.â
Regulus arched a brow at her, making sure to keep his hand high enough so she couldnât reach it.
His eyes seemed bluer than usual as the teasing sparkle penetrated his otherwise spotlessly stoic armor. âHonesty was your decision, I never gave any promises.â
Hailey stomped on her foot like that would give her any advantage. âIâm not above using alternative methods, Black. Donât say you didnât get a warning.â
âSalazar, donât threaten meâ, he smirked jovially, âif youâre as good with threats as you are with running away then I might have to fear for my life.â
She smirked, feeling adrenaline rush through her veins as an idea crossed her mind. Perhaps it was the night that gave her courage to pull it off, or the all too distracting presence of Regulus himself that enveloped her like he was a second layer of the darkness.
If she dies, at least no one can tell her she wasnât inexplicably bold Gryffindor beforehand.
Ignoring her crashing heartbeat, she yanked him by the collar, pulling him towards her swiftly. Their lips met with a soft clash, and she used the momentum to guide her fingers through his curls.
The Slytherin froze on the spot, just as sheâd expected. But her victory was short lived.
The next moment, she felt his arm loop around her waist as he leaned down, pushing her against the wall. His tongue darted into her mouth with surprising fierceness, and Hailey sighed, entirely unprepared for the intensity of the kiss.
In one last meager attempt to push through, she lifted her hand to snatch the pendant away, but she only came as far as his shoulders.
Regulus, alert as ever, snatched his fingers around her wrists, pinning them swiftly against the wall. He pulled back just slightly, but enough so they could lock eyes. âPotter.â
Hailey felt a really strong urge to crawl into a hole in the ground. She was down now, and down bad, because despite everything, she didnât mind what he was doing in the slightest. âBlack?â
Regulusâs voice was low, and uncharacteristically husky. âDid you seriously expect that to work?â
Hailey smacked her lips, while she let her head fall against the cool stone. âI asked nicely two times. You canât say you didnât get a warning.â
Regulus gave her a pointed look, that doubled her heartbeat on the spot.
They stared at each other for a few seconds, before the inexplicable boldness loosened her lips again. âIs this what you do to every girl when a kiss doesnât work? â âShut the hell up, Potter.â
Haileyâs cheeks were warm. For once, he was obviously turned on too much to maintain the terrifyingly stoic impression. Knowing it was all because of her made it a little too enjoyable. âWhy? Is there something the matter?â
Regulus released her wrists, but only so that he could steady himself against the wall. Hailey had no intention of running away, but she wouldnât have been able even if she wanted to.
Eyes still cloudy like a thunderstorm, Regulus seemed to contemplate his words for a long moment before he replied. âYeah. If you keep running your mouth, iâm gonna do more than just kiss you.â
Hailey temporarily forgot to breathe.
Her mind felt hazy. All she could sense was his perfume, as if suddenly, the castle had melted away into the storming, bluish grey orbits that were Regulus Black.
So all this time, she wasnât imagining things? Could it have been that heâd noticed the spark growing between them too? âWell who said Iâm complaining?â
Regulusâs brow twitched.
âWell you should..â, leaning closer slowly, he let his lips hover over the nape of her neck while he skillfully clipped the pendant back in place,â iâm a big, bad Slytherin cornering a poor, innocent Gryffindor in the dungeons of the darkâ, his eyes glinted with very certain intention, âSalazar, the things that could happen..â
Haileyâs cheeks felt like they were on fire. Her voice barely reached beyond her throat but she refused to loose her courage. âI donât know if you realized, but Gryffindor is also very very stupid.â
Regulusâs eyes crinkled with something eerily resembling adoration. âYeah. Why else would she have voluntarily gone to the den of the snakes?â
Hailey lifted her fingers to his curls. She was a bit hesitant at first, but the moment her skin touched his hair, Regulus closed his eyes. âLike I said, sheâs incredibly stupid. And she happens to think snakes arenât as bad as theyâre said to be.â
The Black boy blinked his eyes open slowly, his face tracing the features on her face. âMhm. Would she happen to agree to go out with a snake, by any chance?â
Hailey grinned ear to ear. Her heart fluttered in her chest like it had suddenly grown not one, but two pairs of wings. âIf he stops treating her like a nun, sure.â
Regulusâs blue, stormy eyes widened for just a second. Then, he gave her a look that wouldâve made her knees weak even while sitting down. âDo you want to be able to walk tomorrow, Potter?â
Hailey didnât even try to mask the exhilaration in her veins. If she ever thought she could outperform the mystery that was Regulus Black, she was horribly wrong. âUnless youâre gonna carry me to Hogsmeade in your arms, Black, yeah iâd like to.â
âDonât tempt meâ, Regulus smirked darkly, before leaning onto her lips, ânow shut that pretty mouth of yours, Potter, and come here.â
Hailey had no complaints.
ââ
BONUS:
1978, July 5th
Loud banging interrupted the in-itself absolutely boisterous daily life of the Potter household. The two siblings rushed to the door, almost knocking each other over on the stairs. âComing!â
âLoser cleans the brooms tonight!â âYouâre on, Hails!â
They reached the door at the same time, but Jamesâs hands were on the doorknob a second faster. Switching the lock, he hollered loudly. âGot ya sis!â
The whole room brightened as the sunlight filtered into it through the doorway, revealing two, dark haired figures on the other side. Stepping in first, Sirius greeted them both with a hug, motioning behind his shoulder. âI brought a stray.â
Jamesâs eyes widened in surprise. âIs that..â
Regulus lifted his foot hesitantly over the threshold, clearly in foreign territory. âGeez Potter, you didnât tell me you live in a mansion.â
He couldnât say anything else though, because the next moment Hailey was already in his arms as she latched herself onto his lips. Regulus managed to catch a glimpse of a baffled look on their siblingsâ faces before he caught her midair, steadying her legs around his hips.
âHAILEY?!! What in MERLINâs Godforsaken beard..?!!â
âGet your hands off of my sister THIS INSTANT Black!!â
Chuckling, Regulus pulled back slowly but Hailey latched her legs around his hips tightly before he could even begin to lower her onto the ground.
âWould you two chill out? Itâs not like heâs gonna eat me alive geez.â
James wheezed like heâd just been annihilated. âWhat do you mean heâs not.. heâd almost just bloody DEVOURED you a minute ago! Merlin, how am I ever gonna get the sight out of my head???!â
Sirius was still busy darting his gaze between the two of them. âI canât fucking believe.. how long has this been going on?â
Hailey and Regulus exchanged a quick look before she answered. âLike.. two years?â, she glanced back at her boyfriend with a teasing lilt, âIf you count all the times your dear little brother almost ran me over on the corridors âby accidentâ.â
Regulus just rolled his eyes, gently squeezing her thighs where the other two couldnât see. âOh shut up Potter, as if you didnât enjoy it.â
âWoah woah, you cannot flirt like that with my little sister in front of me!â, James held his hands in the air, âand for Godâs sake Hailey, get off of his hips!â
Sirius looked like he couldnât decide which one of them hurt his feelings more. âMy little princess and my brother.. got together behind my back???? â
âWell you couldâve known sooner, if you werenât as busy ignoring me, Siriusâ, Regulus smirked jovially, finally lowering the girl in his arms to the ground, but he didnât let her further than an inch.
âYou do not get to use that against me!â
âSirius, I love you but please stop whining like a babyâ, Hailey rolled her eyes, laying a quick peck on her boyfriendâs cheek, âyes, weâre together, yes I love him, and no, we didnât forget to use protection.â
James grimaced like he had been tortured by actual physical pain. âOkay okay thatâs enough. I really donât need to know the details, geez.â
âI love her too, Potter, in case you were wonderingâ, Regulus added, the smirk still glued to his lips.
âWell I guess then we canât object, can we Prongs?â, Sirius crossed his arms, sighing.
âFuck no, I need time to process my baby sister is in a full blown relationship.â
The two younger siblings laughed, as the whole air seemed to loosen up a bit.
âJust donât get your knickers in a twist too much, James. I heard Lilyâs coming around Godricâs Hollow todayâ, Hailey remarked innocently.
His brotherâs face lightened up brighter than the sunlight filtering in through the windows. âWait, REALLYY??â
âYeah, sheâs apparently visiting some âmuggle-led wizarding bookshopââ, the younger Black shrugged, âbut Iâd take my chance if I were you, Potter.â
âWait, how do you know about that?â, Sirius arched a brow suspiciously.
âBecause my girlfriend actually tells me about her life, you dimwitâ, Regulus retorted flatly, earning a chuckle from Hailey, still glued to his side.
âDonât kill him yet, love, I need all of you if weâre bringing Lily over for a visitâ, Hailey murmured into his ears, loud enough for the older Black to hear.
Sirius just rolled his eyes. âWow Hails, iâm flattered to know you havenât forgotten all about me yet.â
The younger Potter simply darted her tongue at him.
summary: you find yourself in detention with Oliver Wood, who seems to have gone the last seven years without noticing you, or so he thinks.
content: fluff, idiots to lovers ?), just a long chat
wc: 9k
âIf you donât write anything weâll be here all nightâ
For a moment you think he might not have heard you, but the way your voice echoes in the empty classroom makes it obvious thereâs no way thatâs the case. Oliver is sitting on the other side of the room, having left a whole desk between you two, completely ignoring your presence. You play with the piece of parchment in front of you, making it spin underneath your index finger. His resting completely untouched at his desk, it doesnât seem like he has any intention of writting the essay McGonagall has told you to write during detention. Heâs completely slumped on his seat with arms crossed in front of his chest and legs stretched freely. The subject, âwhy I shouldnât break curfewâ should be easy enough.
âIt should be enough just writting that there is a maniac on the loose, right?â
âThat just makes you sound dumb"
Oliver has no asnwer for that, instead you see his shoulders come up and down with a heavy sigh. The lit candlesticks hung on the wall offer very little light, but you can see heâs frowning. You donât need light to know that, however, Oliver Wood always seeming to wear a scowl on his face whenever something inconvenienced him even if just a little. He canât deny that he was at fault for being out of bonds after curfew, but how was he supposed to plan for practice without his notes? If Angelina and George hadnât broke into that small kerfuffle about the Canons game he wouldnât have forgot to take it with him, too busy lecturing them on how Jenkins needed to get his shit together if they wanted to win. He hadnât counted on running into you in the hallway, the news of Sirius Black lurking nearby in the back of your heads and making you scream bloody murder, waking half the castle. McGonagall had already been in a foul mood when it came to Oliver after he had insisted on letting Harry Potter use the possibly hexed firebolt, so she was almost happy to give him detention.
âAnd why were you outside?â he asks, a sharp edge to his voice that makes your sink a bit in your seat âSeems like Iâm not the only stupid oneâ
If Oliverâs behaviour is anything to go by, he seems to blame you for getting caught. As McGonagall sent you to the empty classroom he had walked ahead of you with haste, pushing the wooden door until it had bounced back on the stone wall behind it with schreeching protest. He had then sat on the desk and hadnât said anything until you spoke to him. You finish writting the first line on your essay, the soft scratch of quill against parchment oddly comforting in the tense silence.
âI didnât call you stupid, I called you dumbâ you mutter, not sure if you want him to hear you or not âI was trying to study at a quiet place, okay?â
âDonât you have a common room for that?â
His head falls back slightly against the back of his seat, as if trying for his voice to reach you better. Thereâs no need for that, any sound feeling too loud in the quiet of night.
âItâs quite hard to concentrate with all the yelling and horsing around in there, you know?â
âWhat house are you in?â
Your hand stills, the soft taps of your quill tip against the glass bottle coming to a halt. He can probably feel the hole you are burning in the back of his head, and whether is that or the unsettling silence, his face turns slightly towards you.
âGryffindor. Weâve been in the same class for seven yearsâ
The frown that has caved in over his eyes so deeply since he ran into you softens and disappears in embarrassment. He starightens himself on his seat, and you hear him clear his throat.
âYeah, I think I remember youâ
âSureâ
You dip your quill on the ink again, getting rid of the excess before writting another disjointed sentence to your essay. You donât notice how he peers at you over his shoulder.
âBut, we donât have classes together now, right?â
You exhale loudly, sucking at your teeth in an annoyed manner.
âMuggle Studies and Herbologyâ
âOhâ Oliver nods, pensive âDo we sit close?â
âDoes it matter?â you ask, tone a tad angrier in an attempt to to hide your embarrassment. You have known Oliver since your first year, and while not particularly close nor aquintanced with him you were at least aware of him. You guess thatâs too much to ask for someone suchs as yourself âEverybody knows you donât pay much attention to anything but Quidditch anywayâ
âYeah well, Iâm planning on going pro, so...â
You spare him a glance, intrigued by how quiet his tone had been towards the end of that sentence. Heâs playing with his fingers, his posture slightly turned away from you.
âWow. I understand now why you donât have time to spare any time to a mere peasant like meâ
âIs not---â he trips over his words and his chest heaves with a sigh âDonât tell anyone I said thatâ
His voice shakes slightly, no trace of the coldness it had been laced with just a few minutes ago. You let your shoulders ease, anger dispelling on your chest and an amused smile finding its way to your lips.
âI wonât. Just like when you went into the girls bathroom in your third year and scared a poor girl out of her witsâ
You donât see him jump on his seat, but you definitely hear it. Heavy wood against stone, loud and uncomfortable, making you wince thorugh your smile.
âWhat--- I donât know what you are talking aboutâ
âSureâ
Silence stretches between you two but you know it wonât last. You can hear his silence, the way heâs not moving, stiff as a statue. He doesnât turn when he finally asks:
âWho told you that?â
âNo one. As I said, I wonât tell anyoneâ
Oliver turns to you, confusion set in his brow so deeply you think heâs back at being mad at you.
âThat was you?â
âYou are so smartâ you shoot at him, feeling brave enough in his embarrassment to take a jab at him âHow many NEWTS are you taking? Ten, twelve?â
You let yourself smile but it freezes as soon as you see how seriously heâs looking at you, fingers gripping your quill a bit tighter. You almost feel bad, but there is something about the way heâs looking at you.
âWhy were you crying?â
An uncomfortable feeling sets itself on your chest, but you know you only got yourself to blame for bringing it up.
âWhatâs that?â
âWhen I got into the--â he looks around the room as if expecting someone to be hidding nearbyâ-- the girls barthroom. By accident might I add. You were crying, wereât you?â
âI donât rememberâ your quill hovers over your parchement, so far only two sentences written on it. Oliverâs eyes are still on you for a few more seconds before he turns around, the weight of them liftting from your shoulders. Maybe you just donât want to sit in silence, or maybe you donât find him unpleasant, but you tell him âI wasnât paying attention during charms. I accidentally got my own hair cutâ
He chuckles before turning around again, arm resting over the back of his chair.
âI do remember some girl cutting her hair back thenâ
âOh, so that you remember. Thatâs niceâ
âAt least I remember somethingâ
âYou laughed at me, thoughâ
That seems to offend him âNo I didnâtâ
âPretty sure you didâ
You know for a fact that he had found it quite amusing. His face was one of these that had been burnt on your memory as you had risen from your seat, the sound of the chair dragging against the floor muffled between the laughs of your classmates. You could remember him sitting at the back of the class near the door, a surprised chuckle leaving his mouth as his eyes became wide as you ran past him.
âIf I did... I apologizeâ his words are slow and measured, and you are taken aback by how mature he sounds âIt grew wellâ
Thinking about it, you are not sure of what impression youâve had of Oliver all these years. Heâs quite hot-headed in the pitch, almost imposing in the way he commands his team, even when you see him getting teased by them. In class however he has always been quiet but surprisingly applied, in fact you were shocked when you didnât see him in Defense Against The Dark Arts at the beginnign of his sixth year, having always excelled at it. You had almost asked him for help once with a particular spell, but if you are being honest, he scared you a bit back then. He always walks like heâs got somewhere to be and heâs a bit late, barely sparing people around him a glance. Thinking about it, is not that weird to think he has never noticed you.
âWhat were you doing in the girls bathroom anyway?â
âNo reasonâ
âYou do realize saying that makes it worse, right? Come on, you owe meâ
âFor what?â
âFor running into me at my lowest in the girls bathroom?â
Oliver hesitates for a moment, finally slumping on his seat, distracting himself by picking at a thin thread dangling from the edge of his worn sweater.
âI was hidingâ he finally says after a brief pause, voice low âFrom Marcus Flinchâ
That was odd. You donât know much about Oliver but if thereâs something everyone knows is that heâs not one to run from confrontation. In fact, some might say heâs got a good mouth for getting into trouble, blunt and straightforward as he is.
âWhy?â
âHe ran into me in the hallway and, funnily enough, threw some charm at me. We had been swept by Slytherin the day before and he was taking the piss out off me. It burnt a lot so I ran to wash my faceâ
âWhy didnât you go to the Hospital Wing?â
He shifts uncomfortably on his seat. âWell, it was my eyes, and they hurt. So, you know...â
You blink for a moment and then chuckle. You notice him looking at you from the corner of his eye, ears slightly pink.
âSo we were both crying in the girls bathroomâ you say, and he turns around with a deep frown.
âThatâs not--â he stops when he sees your smile. He finds himself fighting back one of his own âShut up. Donât tell anyoneâ
âI never didâ
Itâs true that no one has ever mentioned it to him. He had felt his blood run cold and burning hot all over when you had mentioned what he considered to be one of the worst moments of his whole school life. Truth to be told, he had been crying for more than the charm.
âIâm sorryâ you hear him say.
âWhat about?â
âLaughing at your hairâ
Your eyes rise from your parchment to him. Heâs turned slightly towards you, and you are almost sure he has forgotten heâs supposed to be writting an essay.
âIâm sorry I screamed so hard that you fell to the floor. Knowing you were half blind makes it less funny nowâ
The pink hue at the tips of his ears crawls down to his cheeks.
âOkay, stop remembering things about meâ
âOh, but I do remmeber thingsâ
âLike what?â
âIâm not telling youâ
âWhy?â
You can tell heâs nervous, probably wondering how many more secrets youâve got about him. You are enjoying seeing him squirm like this, even though if it makes you feel guilty.
âBecause you not knowing I exist makes me having memories of you seem like a crazy personâ
âI can remember you, I just did!â heâs about to say something else when his eyes widen in relaization âTRY-OUTSâ he exclaims, and you feel like McGonagall might come back and give you double detention for waking everybody else again âYou tried for the Quidditch team a few years backâ
âYou can remember that but you canât remember us taking Herbology together today?â
âI donât care about Herbologyâ
âI can tellâ
Oliver rolls his eyes âIs not a you thing. Iâm sure that if I try to remember anyone from class I wonât be able toâ
âSo you are not awful to me, you are just awfulâ
âI donât think awful is the word, it's a bit harsh donât you think?â
You give him a look.
âYou called me stupid beforeâ
âSorry about thatâ he slouches on his seat, eyes darting around the room âMy head is just on the pitch, you know?â
âWe all knowâ
âGoing back to that, you tried for Chaser, right? You were quite good, nice passes, good reflexes, very good broomâ You put your quill down, crossing your arms over your chest as you take a more defensive position on your seat âDo you still have it?â
âOh, so now you remember?â
âAs I said, head is in the pitchâ he taps his temple with his index finger, a proud smirk tugging at his lips.
You shake your head in disbelief, your body shaking with a chuckle.
âThatâs actually quite impresiveâ
âThank you. You didnât make the cut, thoughâ
You poke the inside of your cheek with your tongue, deciding whether to bite it or not.
âObviouslyâ
âIs nothing personal is just--â
âIt was personal, thoughâ maybe you wonât bite it âYou havenât changed the team since your fifth year, no new players at allâ
âI have a solid teamâ he says matter of factly âI canât remove the Weasleys, obviously. Harry is our star and our Chasers are---â
âSubpar, at least two of themâ
You pretend to lower your voice, but keep it loud enough for him to hear.
âOi, watch itâ that seems to irk him, but you are past the stage of being intimidated by the harshness of his tone âDo you think you could do better?â
âWeâll never find outâ you say drily, your mood turning sour. Itâs something that would come back to you from time to time, but you hadnât thought youâd still be this upset. After a few seconds Oliver seems to realize the conversation is over on your side. He huffs slightly and turns to his own paper, dipping his quill on the ink for the first time and proceeding to write absolutely nothing for the next few seconds, focused on the sound of your writting. His head perks up fast when he hears the sound of your chair dragging against the floor, light footsteps settling in the desk that stands between you two âWhat team?â
âWhat?â
âWhat team will you join when you go pro?â you say it nonchalantly, attempting to liven up the mood.
Oliverâs first reaction is to assume you are making fun of him, but your voice must have sounded sincere enough, as you can see his stiff shoulders lowering with a soft exhale. He taps at the table with his finger before answering.
âPuddlemere would be niceâ he mutters, embarrased.
âAre you a Pudlemere fan?â
He shrugs.
âSort of, would like to play with them. They got a decent coach, but I think I have a few ideas they could try to better themselvesâ
âSo... you think you have it in you to better a professional team?â
Oliver shrugs âYesâ
He scans your reaction, almost expecting you to laugh at him. Your eyebrows are raised and your mouth parts in a loopsided smile, but not a trace of mockery in sight.
âOkayâ is all you say.
âWhat?â
âNothing, you are funnyâ
âWhatâs funny about what I said?â his cheeks flush pink under the warm ligth of the candles.
âNothing, you sounded kind of coolâ thereâs nothing in your demeanor that seems malicious, so despite his embarrassment Oliver accepts the compliment, his chest swelling a bit with pride âYou are fun to talk to tooâ
His head cocks your way, you can tell he wasnât expecting that. The truth is that this is the first time anyone has ever used these words to describe him, aware of how he comes across. He has heard it all: stubborn, quick-tempered, overbearing... the kindest way his friends would describe him was âa nice blokeâ which he was very happy with. Until now.
âYou are alright too, I guessâ
âYou guess?â
Oliver spreads across his seat, limbs hanging from the chair almost like a ragdoll. He has no intention to write at all, does he?
âDo people say things about me?â
His eyes look away when they meet yours, confusion shinning past them.
âWhat do you mean?â he shrugs almost like he doesnât care âI donât know. Why would I knowâ
âYou seem to pay attention to meâ
âExcuse me?â your voice rises in outrage, reverberating on the stone walls and making Oliver flinch âThis is just how normal people interact with each other! I donât pay attention to youâ you mutter.
You canât see Oliverâs face as heâs resting it against the palm of his hand, but his body is shaking with laughter.
âOkay, jeezâ The remaints of laughter lace his words, he coughs a few times with a smile.
âBut since you mentioned it... there was talk of you having a crush on Katie Bellâ
Oliver straightens on his seat in one sharp, swift motion, making you close your mouth in a expression of comical shock.
âWhat? I donât!â he says, the way you are looking at him making heat crawl up his neck âI seriously donât! Who said that?â
âThatâs just what I heardâ
âWhereâ
âThe common room? I donât knowâ
âWell, I donât. Sheâs a fine flier and all but--â your eyebrows rise and his face reddens âShe is! She takes good care of her broom and she doesnât complain about drillsâ
âYou are not helping yourself hereâ
âI donât fancy her!â
âFine!â you say and Oliver gives you something akin to a warning look that is hard to take seriously when his cheeks are so flushed âPeople donât believe you can experience any non-quidditch related emotions anyway, so I wouldnât worry much about itâ
Oliverâs bottom lip potrudes slightly as he looks at you out of the corner of his eye.
âI canâ
âMake up your mind, mateâ
âOh, wait!â Oliver rises from his seat, a crooked smile on his face as he points his index finger at you. You have a very bad feeling about it âYou had a crush on Fred, right?â
âShut upâ
Oliver is delighted by the way the smile disappeares completely from your face as you sink in your seat.
âThat was you, wasnât it?â
âWhy do you even know that?â
âBecause--â just as yours had done, his smile stills and falls, his expression turning serious.
âWhatâ
âNothingâ
Oliver sits down again, facing the wall with his back facing you.
âItâs obviously somethingâ
âI got it wrong, sorryâ
âWhat is it!â
Your gaze sticks to the back of his head, and his fingers drum nervously on the table, knee starting to bounce. He can tell you are not going to let it go. He tursn to you slowly, scratching the back of his head as his eyes fixate on the stone floor.
âYou.. gave him candy for Valentineâs a few years backâ he says almost as if itâs a question. You nod and so does he, something tells you he was hoping you wouldnât  âSo... thatâs whyâ
âOkay... so whatâs all that about, Oliverâ his gaze shoots up at you when he hears his name. It feels weird somehow, hearing his name for the first time in someoneâs voice âWhat is it?â
âSo... it was at the Common Room, on the table. I guess he left it thereâ He clears his throat and starightens himself a bit on his seat âWe were talking Quidditch and you know... me and some other people might... have... eaten it. We didnât see the note until it was done!â he bits his lip, analizing your reaction. When he sees none, just your eyes on him, unreadable, he continues âWe all felt really bad about it, you know, when you were kind of looking at him for a while after thatâ
He can remember now him and the others sitting at the dining table that same day. Of course, how could he had forgotten what house you were in? He can remember you sitting there, a few seats away from him, staring as Fred passed by and sat with them without so much of a glance your way. The sight had made his stomach turn then and it did now that your face was more clear in his memory, vivid.
âDid he read it though?â you ask âThe note. Before you ate it?â
âWell, we didnât want to tell him because we knew heâd get upset. He got a bit of a temper. And he gets so much stuff anyways so we knew he wouldnât notice--â
âOh, that makes me feel betterâ you cut him with a humorless chuckle âI thought I had gotten rejected and ignored but in reality I was just... whatever. I wasnât expecting him to say anythign anywaysâ
It was true that you hadnât expected anything from Fred, obviously. However there had been that painful bit of hope that never seemed to go away, longing for the small possibility that maybe... just maybe; a pitiful âwhat ifâ. There had been nothing of the sort, not even a simple thank you, and that had been more painful than any rejection. Fred was known for being a riot, but he was also kind, and yet he hadnât spoken a single word to you. Oliverâs knee started bouncing nervously, his eyes set on the way yours seem to be lost miles away, your jaw tensing slightly. He stood up from his seat, moving to sit next to you on the desk, grabbing his parchment carelessly and making it wrinkle as he brought it to the table.
âIâm really sorryâ
âIt was ages agoâ you shake your head, tone softer in response to how sincere he sounds âI donât even like him anymore, so... whateverâ
âOh, well. Thatâs good thenâ
âIs not like it would have mattered if he ate itâ you reassure him, attempting to also ease the ill feeling in the pit of your stomach you hadnât felt in years âWasnât going to make him notice me anywayâ
He can hear the faint attempt at a smile in the way you speak these words and his chest aches a bit, guilt pressing against his ribcage.
âI think heâd like you, if you talked to himâ
The statement doesnât make you feel better, if anything it makes you feel worse. Thereâs nothing about you that could endear Fred Weasley, thatâs a simple fact. You know Oliver means well, but pity is the last thing you need right now.
âSureâ
âNo, I mean it. You are... niceâ
âWow, thanks. I feel so special nowâ
âYou areâ he says before turning mockingly serious âI think this might be the longest conversation Iâve had in the last seven years, actuallyâ
His delivery makes you burst into laughter, and he smiles with a satisfied grin, breaking character.
âOh, you are funny now!â
âI guess I amâ
âIs this the first non Quiditch related conversation youâve ever had?â
He ponders for a moment, lips purisng in concentration.
âJokes aside? I think it might beâ
Your laughters mix together and the room feels full, brighter despite the long shadows spreading through the dimly candlelit chamber.
âWell, you have to be serious if you want to join the Puddlemere soonâ Oliver smiles but looks away, still feeling embarrassed about having told you that âDo you really not spend time on anything else?â
Oliver shakes his head âNot reallyâ
âSo you donât fancy Katie Bell?â
His mouth opens and closes a few times before sighing, a resigned look on his face as he turns to you.
â... I did for a bit, okay?â he admits in confidence, sounding defeated âHow did people even find out?â
âMaybe you are easy to readâ
âIt was awful. I got teased a lot by those two pricks and the giggles and everythingâ his eyes meet yours, falling to your amused smile âYeah, those little smirks too, I hated them. Leave me aloneâ
He waves a hand at you, turning to face forward, obviously flustered by the memories of all the teasing that had gone down back then. Katieâs awkward smile every time they had met each other in the hallways and during practice had haunted him for years, a feel of shame and embarrassment of a kind he had never felt before or since.
âOnly one parchment away for that to happen. You should hurryâ
Your own parchment is still practically empty, and you stare at it with heavy eyelids, already feeling the weight of sleep forcing them close. You write another disjointed sentence, hoping McGonagall wonât actually read it.
âWhat will you do, when you graduate?â
The scratchy sound of quill dragging against the parchment stops as you ponder on the question. Itâs been something you have tried not to think about and yet it seems to follow you into every room, every conversation.
âIâm not sure. Maybe Iâll become a pro quidditch playerâ you joke.
âWhat do you want to do?â he insists.
âI donât knowâ His interest earns him a confused look from you, and a moment passes between you two âIâm not like youâ
âWhat do you mean?â
âAgain, you are... kind of coolâ
Oliverâs eyebrows presses over his eyes, his foot still tapping against the floor almost imperceptibly.
âWhy?â
âYou know what you want to do... you are doing it. In the meantime I feel like...â you shrug, letting your silence fill in the blanks.
âWell, I also feel... sometimes, you know?â he stirs on his seat, pulling at his sleeves again âLike, Iâm working so hard, right? I can say thatâ He pauses and looks at you with a slight turn of his head, as if asking for confirmation âIf for some reason thatâs not enough... then itâs over. Iâve got nothing elseâ
His voice is bare and low and maybe thatâs what makes you scoot a bit closer to him. You notice his fingers fidgeting with a string dangling from the edge of his sweater, his adamâs apple bobbing as he swallowes drily.
âGood thing that you are going to be the youngest professional player in the country thenâ
Oliverâs head turns to you ever so slightly. You can see a smile tugging at his lips, eyes turning into a crescent under its weight. He doesnât fully turn to you, looking in the opposite direction and his fingers still, resting over the wooden desk.
âAre you making fun of me?â he teases âI know some people doâ
His laugh is quiet but still reverberates through the room with a soft rumble. Your mind travels somewhere else, not realzing a small spot of ink expanding through where you have rested your quill for too long now.
âCan I tell you something?â
âSureâ he replies, way too quickly.
You both stare at each other for a second too long before you build up the courage to bring it up.
âLast year... when you lost against Ravenclawâ your words are cautious, knowing how deep that cut was, Gryffindor had taken a good few weeks to recover from it. No one had taken it as hard as Oliver though, that you knew better than anyone else âI couldnât sleep and went down in the common room... late at nightâ
You say that last part with certainty, knowing that he will understand. Sure enough, Oliverâs face turns a bit solemn, eyes falling down at his lap.
âYou saw that?â
You had, actually. It had been one of these nights in which there were way too many thoughts swarming your mind and no matter how tired you were, sleep didnât seem to catch you. After tossing and turning you had gotten out of bed, making sure to not wake anyone up and walked down the stairs of the Girlâs Dormitory to the Common Room. When you set foot on it you heard a noise that made your skin crawl. You hid under the stairs, heart beating wildly as you tried to adjust yourself to both the silence and the pitch dark of the room. With a hand over your mouth you stayed completely still until you heard the noise again. It had startled you so horribly that your brain hadnât been able to process what it had been, but now it was clear. Someone was crying in the dark room, not a small fire nor a single candle lit.
âWell, listenedâ you say âIâm sorry. I walked in and I saw you and I... stayed on the stairsâ
âOn the stairs? Just, listening?â his question is halfway between amused and confused.
You remember peering behind the wall of the stairs into the room, Oliverâs shape familiar yet hard to make out in the dark. It wasnât until the moonlight had seeped through the cloudy night sky and through the high windows that you could see his face.
âIâm not sure. I think it didnât feel right leaving you aloneâ you admit, feeling embarrassed right away âI kind of wanted to go and pat your back and say... I donât know, comforting words or something, but we didnât know each otherâ Your hand moves to you neck, it feels even hotter under Oliverâs eyes which you are trying to avoid âAnd now I know that you didnât even knew I existed so I just... stayed there, thinking about how cool itâd be to be a good person and cheer you upâ
You let out a small laugh, trying to ease your embarrassment.
âI think I wouldâve liked itâ he finally says.
âYeah?â
âNoâ Oliver chuckles and casually nudges at you with his elbow âI would have gotten really embarrassed and walked away. Iâd probably have been rude too, so you did the right thingâ
âI would have been terrified if you had been mean to meâ
âIâm sorry. In a hypothetical wayâ
âOliver Wood knows the word hypothetical?â
âOi!â
He playfully pushes you away with his arm, and you become painfully aware of how athletic his frame is, his slight touch moving you away with ease.
âHypothetically speaking...â you start, and you both share a look âI think we could have been friends, at some pointâ
Your draw out the sentence, abashment apparent but not unwelcome.
âMe tooâ
âIf only you had been aware that I existedâ
âI was! Itâs just...â
âIâm just not on your Quidditch board?â
âExactly!â
âI could have, if you had put me in itâ you turn away from him, facing the front of the class âBut itâs okayâ
Oliverâs lips part in an amused yet offended expression.
âThatâs lowâ
âIs it? I think itâs valid criticismâ
âI have very good judgement when it comes to my teamâ
You nod to yourself as if preparing yourself to release your tongue from the grip youâve had it in all night.
âSo, no one making the team had nothing to do with the fact that that was the year you had a crush on Katie Bell? Who weâve stablished you liked and is also, statistically speaking, your worst Chaser?â
âSo you know statistics now?â
âAm I wrong?â
âThatâs...â
He opens and closes his mouth, his eyes walking around the room looking for a way to deny what he knows he canât. He knows youâre right, he knows he didnât want to put Katie on reserve, having been worried to hurt her feelings. He bites the inside of his cheek, lips trying really hard to not press into a smile as he looks away from your accusatory gaze.
âI knew it!â you say, savoring the sweet taste of victory âEverybody knew it, actually. Thatâs how people relaized you liked herâ
âDo you people want me to have feelings or not?â he snaps, finger pulling at the neckline of his sweater, the room feeling hot out of nowhere.
âI donât personally careâ
âOh, I think you doâ
âI just wanted you to admit it. You remembered me quite well from the try-outs so Iâm assuming you thought a lot about it. Itâs cute, reallyâ
âCan we change the subject?â he asks, voice raising in a plea.
You pretend to ponder for a moment, finger tapping at your lips.
âFine by meâ
âSo, why did you fancy Fred?â
âActually letâs circle back to Katieâ a laugh rips through Oliverâs chest, head hanging back and you catch yourself staring at him a bit too long. Is loud and foreign and it stretches your lips into a smile. When the laugh dies he stares at you and you shrug âHeâs... funâ
âDebatableâ cuts Oliver âSo is Geroge though, so are a bunch of other peopleâ
âWhy are you asking?â you hide your face between your hands, feeling a blush starting to creep up.
âBecause I could tell you really fancied him. Like, really fancied him. The way you stared at him...â his smile turns into a short pressed line. Thereâs guilt in his insistence "And Iâm assuming youâve never talked to him so... Iâm just curiousâ
A short silence stretches between you two but he doesnât hurry you, letting you search for the right words. You take your time, looking back and within yourself to try to find a plausible way to explain the soul crushing crush you had developed seemingly out of nowhere.
âItâs like... when he enters a room, it feels like heâs setting it on fireâ Oliverâs eyes look up, head nodding in understanding âI dont know, one day you stay longer at the common room because heâs there, and you look forward to lunch because you can see him and you get sad the days yo donât see him at all and... I guess that's itâ
âIâm sorryâ
âFor what?â
âHe might have talked to you if I hadnât eaten itâ
You shake your head with a reassuring smile âYou just said he got a bunch of other giftsâ
âYeah but heâs not a jerk, he thanks every girl that sends him somethingâ
âSo what? He would have said âthanksâ and I wouldâve frozen in place and just be really awkward and he would have walked away. The endâ
âHe could have fallen for youâ he insists.
You turn to him, face twisting in a sour smile.
âAre you taking the piss right now?â
âNo Iâm not, just...â Oliver massages his forehead trying to put his reasoing into words, hand passing through his hair and making it stand in an awkward way âHeâs not dumb. Heâs got a good eye for peopleâ his brown eyes bore into you and you can appreciate how long and many his eyelashes are, they kiss at his skin when he blinks at you âThatâs why I think he might have liked you. If he had just talked to you back thenâ
You become aware of how much the gap between you has closed, his voice while still low and clear in your ears. His knee graces yours under the table and you notice a jolt runs through your body.
âYeah, well. Weâll never knowâ you finally say, you voice a bit high pitched âIs not like I still like him, so, stop feeling bad about it. Go back to not knowing I exist and itâll go awayâ
You give his shoulder a firendly pat and straighten up in an attempt to keep a bit of distance, his presence suddenly suffocating. You donât move your knee away though, and neither does he.
âToo late, Iâm too aware of your existenceâ
âReally?â
âYou talk a lotâ his eyes unconsciously move to your lips, which doesnât go unnoticed by you.
âIâm so sorry, should I shut up?â
âYes, please. I have to finish this parchment if want to get out of hereâ
âMore like you have to start the parchment first, you mean?â
You eye his parchment, completely blank with the exception of a few ink stains. Yours however displayed three written lines that somehow seemed to vary in size and handwritting. McGonagall wouldnât grade this, right?
âWell, youâve been distracting me, so...â
âI have been distracting you?â you feign offense, hand at your chest as if hurt.âMr. Why-Did-You-Like-Fred-Weasley-Two-Years-Agoâ
âYou keep talking to me about stalking me in the common room and knowing about my crushes, itâs kind of weirdâ he narrows his eyes at you, accusatorily âI think you might be obsessed with meâ
âWell you are... whatâs the opposite of obsessed? Like obssesively unaware of someone?â
Oliver pretends to think for a moment, his lips pressed together while trying not to laugh.
âI think thatâs just me not caringâ
âThatâs way harsh, Oliverâ
He finally breaks into a smile, bottom lip cuaght between his teeth as he lets the way you say his name ring in his ears.
âJust, let me write my thingâ he says, finally peering his eyes away from you. He waves his hand in front of you, facing forward and leaning over his parchment, quill in hand.
For a while you both focus on writting something that resembles an essay. The satisfactory sound of quills scratching the parchment settles in the room only accompained by the soft rustling of your arms moving across the table. Your arms bump together whenever you reach the end of of your parchment, making you look forward to it with every sentence. He sighs once, twice. Thereâs something on his mind.
âYou didnât say why you were out so lateâ
His voice interrumpts your train of thought, and you forget where your sentence was going. You frown as you dip the quill in ink.
âYes I didâ
âYeah but you didnât say whereâ
âDark Lakeâ you shrug âThinkingâ
âAbout what?â
âI thought you were going to write? Whoâs distracting who now?â
âItâs kind of relevant to the topic, so...â
You bit down a smile, your hand slows down as you write another messy line on your essay.
âI was just... I needed some time aloneâ
âGot a lot on your mind?â he asks quietly, looking at you over his shoulder âAnything bothering you?â
âYou are suddenly interested?â
âI amâ
âYou are doing great progress in the social aspect--â
âAre you alright?â
Your eyes stay on the parchment, your forced cheerful tone still echoing in the room when you fall quiet. You wonder when did he notice, what did you say?
âWhat are you on about?â you try to scoff but your throat is dry and you choke a bit.
âWell, we keep talking about me. I joked that itâs because you are obsessed with me, which I still stand byâ he jokes, aware of how stiff you have become âBut I think that... maybe you just donât want to talk about yourself?â
You wet your lips which feel suddenly dry, your uneven breathing making it worse. You want to clear your throat, try to make your heart go back down to your ribcage, but the silence has become so deafening you donât want to make a single noise.
âMaybeâ
You can feel the weight of his stare on you and you donât dare to look up. He nods almost imperceptibly, before softly saying:
âOkayâ
He doesnât ask any further, but there is something in the way he looks at you. You give him a small smile, itâs heavy and is honest, and he drags his arm a few inches to bump it softly against yours. He goes back to his essay, falling quiet once again. He can tell you are not writting, your arm not moving, instead still resting dangerously close to his. You can feel the warmth of his proximity, oddly overwhelming despite such a light touch.
âI can tell you anything you wantâ you say, attempting to get back into conversation.
You find yourself missing the sound of his voice in the silence that you had so desperately seeked refugee in a few hours ago.
âWhatâs your Quidditch team?â he asks.
âI donât have oneâ
âAre you serious?â he turns to you with look of disappointment âThatâs unnacceptableâ
âI guess I was just waiting for you to join oneâ you say in a quiet voice, shrugging mischeviously. There is a shift in his eyes âIâm going to buy sweaters and hats with your name on it and have posters in my wall with you in them and I will get into fights at bars to defend you even if you suckâ
His hand stills, something soft and unguarded behind his eyes as his gaze holds onto yours for a heartbeat too long.
âPlease donât get into fights at bars for meâ his voice comes out in a soft plea, but itâs obvious that he isnât completely opposed to the idea, he sounds strangely flattered.
âSo is everyhting else okay? The sweaters, the posters---â
âYeah, thatâs fineâ
Oliver has given up on the essay, looking at you like you are the only thing worth his attention. The weight of it presses down on you, unyielding, eyes darting across your face as if reading you. Itâs suffocating and it makes you want to run away, and yet you stay still, anchored on your seat and letting the heat climbing up your neck reach your cheeks.
âMake sure to remember me this time? When you are famous?â
For a moment Oliver remains completelly still, eyes dragging heavy through your features, his lips slightly parted as if heâs about to say something that ultimately remains unspoken. He leans forward and your breath catches on your throat, the warmth in his proximity making the room seem way smaller and the silence much louder, only interrupted by the sound of his bretahing, shaky and short. He stops himself, not really waiting for you to cross the little distance left, but savoring the charged quiet between you two. You havenât crossed it, but it almost feels like thereâs no need for it. Your nose brushes against his almost intentionally, a ghostly caress that lets him know he isn't unwelcome. His eyes come into focus with slight difficulty, and he sucks his bottom lip into his teeth when they met yours.
âWow, Oliver Woodâ you whisper, hot breathing meeting his as he draws in a soft gasp, coming back to his senses.
His eyes shut tightly as he lowers his head, forehead almost resting against your shoulder but not brave enough yet to touch you.
âShut upâ heâs embarrassed, and his words fan against the skin of your neck.
You tilt your head just enough to press your cheek against the his hair.
âWe should finish our essaysâ
âYeahâ
McGonagall had come back into the room two hours later. She was obviously agitated about something, not even bothering to look at your essays as she rushed you out of the classroom. Oliver doesnât hurry this time, measuring his steps carefully to stay by your side as you walk back to your common room. You feel his hand brush against yours once, twice, making your heart beat so fast you had to sigh multiple times to get some air in.
âWhere was your Common Room?â he asks when you are almost in front of the Fat Lady âWhat house are you in again?â
âVery funnyâ you push him playfully, hand wrapping around his bicep. It makes you blush how strong he is âWas that going be your first kiss?â you tease.
âDonât know what you are on aboutâ
He rushes up the last few steps and speaks the password, you can see how pink the tip of his ears are from behind. The Common Room is empty, the darkness welcoming you two home as you step in. You accidentally bump into the armrest of the couch and you hear him snort and hold back a chuckle, hushing you as your giggles reverberate through the room. You both walk to the bottom of the stairs, waiting for one of you to go first.
âI guess Iâll see you aroundâ you say, and you think your voice sounds too loud, or maybe you hate how obvious your are. Oliver doesnât seem to mind.
âWe have Muggles and Herbology together so, canât miss youâ
âIâm not sure of that. Youâve managed to do it for while nowâ
You say it as a joke, but there is a hint of fear that it might happen. That he might walk into class tomorrow and spare you a small smile and a nod and just continue with what heâs always done.
âItâd be nice to talk again. Preferably out of detentionâ
âOh no, but what will we do then?â
âWe can study together, properly. Have lunch... walk?â
âAnything else?â he doesnât catch it right away, not only he sees the way you are looking at him with a teasing smile that is costing you all your courage to give to him. The heat is too much and you deflect âIâm jokingâ
You look down at your feet, fire prickling at your skin and all over your body.
âShameâ he mutters, eyes lowering and staring straight at you before looking away when you look up at him. He clears his throat and thanks Merlin is so dark in here âAnyways we should goâ
âYeahâ
He lets you go first, and you canât see the way his hands hover behind your back in case that you take a wrong step. The staircase is dark and you both need to keep a hand on the uneven stone wall, meeting one another a few times on your way up.
âBe carefulâ
He whispers behind you when he hears the way your foot bumps into one of the last steps. You stop walking, making Oliver almost bump into your back. You can hear him draw in a breath about to speak, and you let it out before he can say anything.
âI want to talk to you againâ
He doesnât take long to answer, but it feels like forever. Despite the lack of echo, your words hang in the air, you wonder if you can take them back.
âMe tooâ Oliver finally says and you realize just how close he is to you. There is the faintets hint of a smile when he says it âI just said itâ
âYeah, wellâ you shake your head âNevermindâ
âNo, tell meâ he holds onto your hand when you attempt to keep going up.
âIâm just being weird. Is lateâ
âI want to knowâ he gently tugs at your wrist, making you go down the steps until you are in front of him again. You plan on stopping two steps above to leave enough space and stay above him, but he tugs one more time until you are almost touching him, his nose brushing your forehead if he moves too close âIâve been trying for you to talk to me all night. This is a victory for meâ
âI donât know why I said itâ You keep your head down, his touch warm where heâs still lazily holding onto you âLike, maybe you will change your mind. Because this is a bit crazy, isnât it?â
Maybe is not enough for him to understand, because it takes him a bit to say anything back. You can feel his eyes on you, though, you know he wants you to look back at him but you canât. Not when you already feel this breathless and bare.
âI actually have practice in three hoursâ you are so close to his chest you can see it expanding as he breathes in deeply âI know itâs a bit early but itâd be nice if you came to watchâ
âOh... thatâs---â
âToo early, I know. Itâs better if you rest and sleepâ
âYeah, I should. Iâve got Arithmancy first in the morningâ
âRightâ
He lets go of your wrist slowly and passes his hand through his hair with an airy chuckle. Your head falls back slightly, enough for you to look at him.
âSo Iâll see you in the pitch in three hoursâ
It takes a few seconds to distinguish his features in the darkness, the proximity of his body almost flushed against yours becoming more overwhelming once you can see him. You feel his nose drag alongside your forehead when you look up at him, his breathing fanning against your face when he finally letâs go of a breath he was holding.
âYou donât have toâ
âI knowâ you shift your weight, and he brings an arm to hover on your side when he feels you move, not really touching you but close enough for you to feel it âBut Iâm your first fan, I need to set an exampleâ you expect him to laugh at that, to feel his smile on your face, but he doesnât. He leans down and you feel the light touch of his lips over yours. They are soft but dry, warm and hesitant in the way they set on yours before he steps back. You can barely register the kiss before you are trying to ease the worry you can feel coming from him âWow, Wood. Again?â
This time he laughs, relieved and light and you know he must have woken someone up by now.
Include: Harry , Ron , Fred , George , Oliver , Neville and Cedric
Harry Potter
tied down @hollowdeath
you and harry potter, the biggest flirt at hogwarts, have been secretly hooking up for weeks after playing hard to get. harry's been dragging his feet when it comes to making things official, so when his flirty tendencies get him in trouble, you decide to play him at his own game and win.
harry james potter x fem!reader
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untitled @hollowdeath
you and harry have been working on a project involving amortentia, the most powerful love potion to exist, and when harry tests your device the night before it's due, he has some rather intense side effects.
harry james potter x fem!reader (18+)
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smut / mdni
hopeless , the both of them @lumosflairr
Hermione and Ron watch you and Harry in awe from a distance as you both share a moment in the snow.
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personal fav !
she loves me @lovel4nita
A flower and a gentle breeze remind Harry that her heart is his.
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the eye of the snake @dearlizzies
Regulus died. Everyone knew it. Sirius had the same fate, but not without regretting before not having talked to his niece, you. Everyone knows who you are and the story that involves you, a pretty girl at Howgarts, but that was not what attracts the most attentionâitâs the fact that youâre dating the chosen one. Post-war/7th year.
harry potter x RegulusâDaughter!reader
dance pratice @junezsq
professor mcgonagallâs dance class suddenly gets interesting when you have to dance with your best friend turned crush
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he's like a poem i wish i wrote @fear-less
In which, harry finally confesses his feelings towards his closed off friend.
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almost was ours @nocturnao
She was Harry Potterâs constantâhis secret keeper, his sanctuary, the girl who stitched him together when the war threatened to tear him apart. A quiet Ravenclaw who stood by him when no one else knew how, she never asked for anything⊠except maybe for him to see her. But as the world began to heal and the noise returned, Harry reached for the girl who burned bright in publicâGinnyâand left behind the one who had carried him through the dark. Years later, when fate crosses their paths again, Harry is haunted by what he lost: the girl who loved him in silence, and who walked away with all the parts of him he never knew he gave. A story of almosts, aching regrets, and the kind of love that gets remembered in every timelineâbut never chosen in the one that mattered.
harry james potter x ravenclaw fem reader
day one @darcellexxx
the Boy Who Lived and Draco Malfoy are known to hate each to the core, but what about another Malfoy loving Harry Potter with the same intensity? Itâs good that Harry likes the colour red and that heâs a Gryffindor, because thereâs no way that he would actually get out of the âHarry Potter Wears Lipsticksâ situation without a bit of his smugness. The second best thing is Dracoâs expression, after he finds out his darling sister dates his nemesisâŠ
Harry James Potter x Malfoy!fem!reader
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only by name @slytherinsimp12
Y/N spent her entire life at beauxbatons. Her whole world turned upside down when her mother she never met escaped Azkaban, forcing her to transfer to Hogwarts in her 5th year for her safety. Harry knows he should stay away. Sheâs a Lestrange, the daughter of the woman who destroyed part of his world. But the more he sees of Y/N, the harder it becomes to believe that blood decides who we are.
Harry Potter x Lestrange!reader
we would have been timeless @fear-less
everyone at Hogwarts saw it coming when you and Harry started dating. To most, you were just another sweet couple. but to the professors, you were a reminder of two people they had lost. In your smiles, your arguments, and the way you looked at each other, they saw echoes of James and Lily. not a repeat of the past, but a new beginning filled with hope.
harry potter x f!reader
beneath the silence @elytriumm
harry has always been more than a best friend to you, but as of late, his coldness and distance have left you wondering if itâs you heâs pushing away. best friends to lovers.
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green and gold @lumosflairr
when you, a sharp-witted Slytherin express interest in joining Dumbledores Army, you soon find yourself caught between not only house loyalty and whatâs right - but an unexpected bond with Harry Potter.
harry potter x slytherin reader
personal fav !
so obvious @junezsq
hermione has always been smart, but you never wouldâve thought sheâd so quickly figure out who you have a crush on⊠or were you just being really obvious?
harry james potter x fem!reader
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baby names @ravenclaws-stuff
with the due date rapidly approaching, you and Harry discuss baby names.
Harry Potter x Longbottom!Reader
cherry pink , cherry kiss ! @mokkiaun
harry loved his girlfriend, but a dream made him wonder if youâd taste better in sweet, red cherry lipglossâ and what happens when your lips appear redder and honeyed the very next day?
harry potter x fem! reader
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Ron Weasley
steal my girl @yasministration
for some reason, every one in ron's family has been trying to steal his girl, so he has to fight for a moment of privacy with you
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flustered feelings @angelphie
"ron weasley has been friends with you since you were both children, but he's developed feelings for you and he finally takes up the courage to tell you unexpectedly"
ron weasley x fem!reader
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don't fall in love with my brothers , please @holysmokesblog
His only request: don't fall for his brothers. But love, sometimes, is the most disobedient of all.
words : 1.7k
i love you first @blondykebarbie
Ron is used to feeling second.
ron weasley x gn reader
words : 538
untitled @slvqtore
you, oblivious as ever, hadnât caught on to ronâs not-so-subtle signals about his feelings for you.
ron weasley x fem!reader
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sneaky visits ! @bvrnesher
spending christmas at the burrow and having to sneak around the creaky floors because Molly doesn't want you sleeping in the same room
ronald weasley ! fem. reader
a weasley gift @jijournal
Ron surprises you with something very special in the Weasley household.
blushing in the bookstore @rottenherbs
In a cozy Hogsmeade bookstore, Ron Weasley finds himself smitten with someone heâs never seen before ~ leading to shy glances, soft laughter, and the start of something sweet.
words : 758
not a game @luv4freddie
You were a well known flirt, the Slytherin maneater. But now youâve set your sights on Ron Weasley, and heâs not sure what to believe.
ron weasley x slytherin fem reader
words: 1.5k
loving him was red @cipheress-to-k-pop
You'll be allowed to date Ron Weasley over Draco's dead body
words : 8.5k
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Fred Weasley
the trick @ilovelygood
Y/n attends Hermione and Ron's wedding, but decides to bring her deck of cards to prove that, even though she is a Muggle, she can also do magic, catching the attention of a certain red-haired twin.
Fred Weasley x Muggle!fem!reader
little sister , my arse @cipheress-to-k-pop
You were âlike a little sister to himââor so Fred said. Please. Anyone with half a brain could see there was something way more between you two.
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christmas at the burrow @alexadolly-8
your first christmas at the burrow being fred's gf
words : 669
4me 4me @biscuitz707
Itâs Easter break and instead of being home, youâre stranded at Hogwarts prepping for N.E.W.T.s. Stuck studying inside the library, you surprisingly find yourself accompanied by Fred Weasley.
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amortencia @binchidavinci
âWhen you have to make Amortentia in Slughornâs potions class, the last thing you expect to smell is Fred Weasley; Fred doesnât expect to smell you, either.â
verituserum @maria021015
Fred, George, and Lee have been avoiding you all day and youâve had enough. When you blackmail your way into the Gryffindor common room to confront them, you donât expect Fred to start bombarding you with strange compliments. You definitely donât expect what comes next.
lingering perfume @yasministration
harry has warned you that if you don't stop stealing his sweaters, he'll tell your parents about your boyfriend. but your parents are very much aware of your relationship, so harry goes one step further.
fred weasley x potter reader
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never planned @lqveharrington
you and fred had been friends for so long that it never occurred to the both of you that everyone thought you were dating.
fred weasley x gryffindor!reader
pains and promises @marvelwitchergilmore
A rivalry that has been going on for four years suddenly begins to change when you help Fred's little sister.
Fred Weasley x slytherin!reader
wrong twin @yasministration
for a long, gruelling minute, angelina is under the impression that her best friend has a crush on her boyfriend. but no, that's the wrong twin.
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"you really can't tell ?" @oc3anlvsu
Fred Weasley has a huge crush on his brotherâs best friend, but sheâs completely oblivious. Between teasing her about her handwriting, stealing her food, and randomly braiding her hair, Fred thinks heâs flirting â she just thinks heâs annoying
Fred Weasley x Ronâs best friend
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george weasley
dazed and devoted @lumosflairr
George gets knocked out during Quidditch practice. When he wakes up, confused and concussed, he flirts with his girlfriend like heâs never met her before. And honestly? Itâs kind of adorable.
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cool about it @hunnyisland
When Fred notices youâve taken a liking to his brother, he formulates a plan to wingman you.
george weasley x gryffindor reader
words : 6k
saint like @rottenherbs
Molly Weasley doesnât hide her disapproval of you, being Georgeâs girlfriend, it made things awkward every time you visit the Burrow. But when George loses his ear and you care for him with gentle dedication, Molly begins to see you in a new lightâslowly warming up and starting to accept you as part of the family.
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someday @ravenclaws-stuff
Five times George Weasley says he's going to marry you and One time he actually does.
George Weasley x Lovegood!reader
sticky situation @weezyweasleys-fg
A young rivalry blooms between you and the supposedly "quieter" twin of the Weasley family's sons. Despite the teeth-grating relationship you two had grown to have being quite new, things got heated up pretty quickly. Now stuck because of each other in detention with no real way out but getting through with itâburning down the classroom felt better than being stuck in a room with George Weasley.
reasonless hatred @yasministration
Severus snape's daughter causes him nothing but chaos, hatred where love should be in their relationship. but she is finally given a real reason to hate her father, and she decides to give him one to hate her too.
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patience @kittyminion
george finds a way to entertain you, despite your introverted nature at a party
george weasley x introvert!f!reader
hands @lcvecials
in which george is just trying to have a conversation with you, and you canât stop staring at his hands.
george weasley x gn reader
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i won't say (i'm in love) @drowsyhope
Youâve been trying to convince yourself that you do not like George Weasley. sure, he has nice hair, a handsome smile, and those eyes? Yeah, youâre in love â but you wonât say it!
words : 3k
his little fox @rottenherbs
George has spotted a wild fox that has taken to his liking, little does he know itâs the girl he canât keep his eyes off in the halls.
george weasley x animagus reader
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Oliver Wood
captain's favorite @drowsyhope
being apart of the Gryffindor Quidditch was surely not for the weak because of the captain â Oliver Wood. so, when you came back for your 5th year, you strived to be the best! funny enough, the Prefects keep watch on you for some odd reason?
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in the background @incantatem
you find yourself in detention with Oliver Wood, who seems to have gone the last seven years without noticing you, or so he thinks.
words : 9k
mobility exercises @yasministration
oliver wood doesn't expect to walk onto the quidditch pitch to find the slytherin team finishing up their post workout stretches. nor does he expect to be flirted with by their captain
words : 1.3k+
a bit suggestive
the chocolate frog conspiracy @toffeetonks
To the students at Hogwarts, Oliver Wood is Gryffindorâs beloved Quidditch captain. But to Y/N L/N, heâs the boy who keeps sliding her Chocolate Frogs during her study sessions... Like sugar can disguise the fact that heâs falling in love with her.
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so possessive @lumosflairr
Oliver gets jealous when he seeâs you and the twins messing around. More specifically, when they have their hands on you.
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thicker than a broomstick @jijournal
Quidditch is brutal, but nothing compares to Oliver Woodâs hopeless attempts at flirtingâtoo bad the only person who doesnât realize heâs asking you to the Yule Ball is you.
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an A minus @vaanny
remembering your parentsâ promise of not letting you come back home for the holidays if you donât meet their expectations, you find yourself considering an offer that is too good to refuse.
the party & the after party @spencersmopbucket
After three years of dating, you and Oliver come to the conclusion that you're better off without each other. A few months later, at the start of 7th year, you realize just how wrong you were. Oliver had always had a quick temper, but seeing you being flirted with at a post-victory party seemed to push it to new limits.
ye alright ? @nyxthedeity
Everyone's getting struggle in finding a date for the Yule Ball, but for Oliver? Oh, he already got his eyes on someone far longer than the Yule Ball. The only problem is how he's going to ask her out.
Oliver Wood x Ravenclaw!fem!reader
ring @soupandsimple
moments that Oliverâs wedding ring amplify the butterflies in your stomach
the hate game @heartthrobin
 the only thing more grating than Oliver's foul moods and his permanent scowl, has to be the fact that he's so damn pretty. you fucking hate him for it.
oliver wood x female!reader
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Neville Longbottom
gamophobia @cipheress-to-k-pop
Gamophobia (noun) | /ËÉĄĂŠmÉËfÉÊbiÉ/ An extreme or irrational fear of long-term commitment or marriage, often resulting in avoidance of deep emotional intimacy despite genuine affection.
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greenhouse blues @ssspark
Nevilleâs clumsy moment in the greenhouse before class surprisingly gives him a little bit of hope.
Neville Longbottom x Hufflepuff!Fem!Reader
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obvious enough @yasministration
it seems that the only person in the entire castle who doesn't know about your feelings for neville is neville himself. your signals become increasingly more obvious, but even asking him out to hogsmeade doesn't seem to be obvious enough for him.
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the alchemy @kyber-crystal
thereâs a special sort of alchemy thatâs involved in falling in love and finding the âone.â luckily, you donât need to try so hardâheâs already out there waiting.
words: 3k
my wish @ravenclaws-stuff
Neville makes one wish for his birthday.
palmistry @yasministration
when you begin learning advanced palm reading with professor trelawney, you don't only uncover new truths about you, but those around you â particularly one boy you have your eyes on.
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yeah , I do @httpvomitello
One day, you looked at Neville Longbottom and saw something new. Something you had never noticed beforeâthe way he had grown, the quiet strength in his eyes, the way his smile made your heart stutter.
neville longbottom x f!reader
between the pages @leturmindwonder
A study session in the library leads to some truths being revealed.
your voice is my favorite sound @yupthisisshe
Nevile begins rambling about plants and Neville apologizes for talking too much. Reader assures him that they do not mind at all.
Maybe I'll make you see through my words and my actions exactly just how much you mean to me. @drearydaffodils
You spend an afternoon in the presence of your lover, and have a sweet date <3
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Cedric Diggory
platitude @artyteah
there's nothing more used and reused than popular students falling for the one student that isn't interested in them. for cedric, it started with curiosity. for reader, it certainly is a bad joke where she is the punchline.
the alchemy @blossominmist
you were hogwartsâ golden couple â both quidditch captains, both prefects, both hopelessly in love. until your family forced you to break his heart. a year later, the feelings are still there, stronger than ever, but so are the rumours about cho chang. when cedric is chosen as hogwartsâ champion, you finally speak to him again. not to win him back⊠just to help him survive.
cedric diggory x fem!reader
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personal fav !
where the snow remembers us @taycherouzz
Cedric and you end up in a chaotic snowball fight that accidentally exposes a photo heâs kept of you for years.
Cedric x fem!reader
rough day ? @mmeskywalker
CEDRIC DIGGORY has just gotten done with quidditch practice. a rough one at that. if the word rough even began to cut what that poor man experienced. heâs upset, heâs grouchy, yet heâs completely and utterly yours.
the golden labrador and pretty blues @mokkiaun
cedric diggory was the golden boy of hogwarts, his charming smile and soft gestures had every girl swooning. so what happens when mr perfect stumbles into a sweet and beautifully dazed beauxbaton girl?
cedric diggory x beauxbaton! fem! reader
your champion @rottenherbs
Youâre Harryâs sister, close in age and fiercely protective of one another. At the Quidditch World Cup, you meet Cedric Diggory, and the connection between you is instant. Harry disapproves of the budding relationship, worried about Cedricâs intentionsâbut when the second task of the Triwizard Tournament puts you in danger, Cedric steps in to save you, proving just how much he cares.
cedric diggory x potter reader
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a lover's ruse @mentally-in-northern-italy
Your agonizing courtship and Cedricâs need to spite his ex are both ailments that have a very simple cure: a fake relationship, obviously.
Cedric Diggory x fem!gryffindor!reader
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a promise kept @jijournal
Before the Triwizard Tournament, Cedric makes you promise that, no matter what happens, you wonât cry over him. After his death, you struggle to keep that promiseâuntil you find the letter he left behind.
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only you , my girl @lumosflairr
While you and Cedric are in a happy relationship, some girls canât comprehend the fact heâs taken and shamelessly flirt with him. While your aware he wouldnât dare give them a second thought, it hurts a little. However, Cedric being the amazing boyfriends he is - comes up with an idea to cheer you up!
the extended potter family @luv4freddie
now that you and Cedric have gone official, itâs time to finally give your parents what they want. A holiday visit to the Potter home quickly becomes chaotic.
Summary: Youâre just as confused as everyone else when your mortal enemy wakes up fully convinced that youâre the love of his life. (Spoiler alert: literally no one else was surprised)
It was cold and windy and wet as you stepped off the quidditch pitch, rain soaking you to your core. Thank Rowena you didnât have to play an actual match in this weather. No, that honor went to the Slytherins and Gryffindors and you did not envy them at all, regular practice was enough for you.
As you make your way back to the locker rooms you see students and staff already beginning to fill the open stands and shake your head with pity. No amount of drying or warming charms were going to make it a comfortable match to sit through.
Just as you're about to turn into the locker rooms you feel yourself jerk back as a green robed shoulder slams past you, nearly knocking you off your feet.
âWatch it dolcezza,â a familiar voice slurs over the rain, condescension dripping from his words.
Despite your better judgement, you turn to find yourself facing none other than Theodore fucking Nott, broom in hand, and signature cocky smirk pasted across his face. God you hated that boy.
âCall me sweet again you pompous git,â you snap, glaring up at the Slytherin.
âWhy waste my breath on you?â He retorts, matching your steely gaze, his lip curling up in a sneer.
You had never gotten along with Theodore. It was no secret among your classmates that the two of you hated each other. Despite being in many of the same NEWT level courses, sharing a love for quidditch, and both of you basically residing in the Hogwarts library, you simply could not tolerate one anotherâs presence.
It was strange perhaps, youâd done the analyzation yourself. By all accounts you two should probably be friends. But no amount of similarities or shared interests could make up for the fact that Theodore Nott was an insufferable, arrogant arse who only cared about maintaining his perfectly curated reputation.
"You're right Theodore, save a tree a bit of work why don't you. Rowena knows that tree is doing more for the world than you are," you reply coldly.
Theo opens his mouth to respond, but for maybe the first time ever, you see the boy falter, if only for a split second, before he's back to his usual stoic self. He scoffs.
"Just forget it, you're not worth it," he mutters under his breath, rolling those pretty blue eyes as he turns to go.
You shake your head at the boy, scoffing yourself.
"Yeah, do your best to forget me Nott, because I won't hesitate to forget you."
"Don't be mad."
"Just hear us out."
Oh dear god. As soon as you hear the combined voices of Mattheo Riddle and Lorenzo Berkshire, you know that you're about to be in for a ride. You look cautiously up at the pair from your seat in the library, on edge because wherever these two were, Theodore was sure to be nearby.
"He's not here if that's what you're worried about," Lorenzo offers with a nervous smile.
It's the kind of smile you would offer a skittish cat that you've cornered in hopes it doesn't bolt, and you had an unfortunate feeling that you were the cat in this scenario. Still you feel your shoulders relax a bit as the two carefully sit down at the table across from you.
"So uh. We heard about your, ah, little tiff, with Theo today," Lorenzo starts out awkwardly, looking like he'd rather be anywhere else in the castle at this moment.
"Bloody tosser never shuts up about you," Mattheo mutters so quietly you almost miss it.
You raise in eyebrow at the two boys in front of you, waiting for them to get to the point as Lorenzo gives Mattheo a sharp jab to the ribcage.
"Anyway," Lorenzo continues a bit too loudly, "There was a bit of an incident at the quidditch match today."
"Yeah, Slytherin lost. Again. I heard," you cut in, trying to wrap this up.
"Okay, ouch," Mattheo mutters once more, earning a glare from both you and Lorenzo.
"Did you also happen to hear that Theo was knocked of his broom?" Lorenzo asks.
Oh shit. As much as you couldn't stand Theodore, it's not as if you wanted the boy to get hurt. And you knew from personal experience, any quidditch injury should be taken rather seriously. But then, why were Theodore's two best friends sitting here in the library with you and not in the hospital wing with him?
You narrow your eyes at the boys across from you.
"So what does this all have to do with me? Nothing good could possibly come of you two starting the conversation with 'don't be mad' and 'just hear us out'."
Lorenzo fidgets nervously, shifting in his seat and Mattheo refuses to make eye contact with you. You truly had never seen the ever stone cold Slytherin boys look so wildly uncomfortable before.
"He got knocked out and when he woke up he was convinced the two of you are madly in love," Lorenzo rushes out, flinching back as if waiting for you to yell at him.
"And now the smitten tosser is requesting the presence of his beloved. He's really torn up about it too," Mattheo adds looking the most serious heâd been, probably ever.
But you were having none of it.
"Alright, hahaha, you almost had me there, you two actually sounded pretty sincere for a bit, but seriously it's not funny anymore. There's simply no reality where Theodore is in love with me, that's disgusting and I'm not stupid."
Mattheo and Lorenzo glance at each other with knowing looks before sighing in unison.
"On Salazar's good name, we are not lying or joking about this," Mattheo says solemly.
"And we didn't want to involve you in this whole thing anyway. We know about how well you and Theo get along. It's just that Madam Pomfrey is concerned that, until she's able to brew something to get Theo's head back on right, any world crushing stress or shock might have lasting, long-term psychological effects or what have you," Lorenzo finishes, emphasizing his last point rather strongly.
You continue to stare at the two boys in front of you as if their heads had been replaced by hippogriffs, slowly understanding what they were asking of you.
âOh absolutely not. Thereâs literally no way. Iâm not going up there.â
You hated the smell of the hospital wing. It was far too... sterile. Unnervingly so. The last hour of your life had been a blur and frankly you still weren't entirely sure how Lorenzo and Mattheo had managed to wrangle you all the way up to the hospital wing, but here you were.
As you make your way to the large double doors that lead into the infirmary, you send one last pointed glare to the pair of Slytherins behind you before turning, steeling yourself as you prepare for the worst.
The first thing you notice when you enter the brightly lit room is how strangely peaceful it is. As you quietly approach the rows of narrow hospital beds, the second thing you notice is how normal Theodore looks lying there asleep. There's no snarling lips, raised eyebrows, or biting words, it's just Theo. Tilting your head a bit, you're able to really admire the boy for the first time, not worrying about what insult he's going to throw at you next. He actually was rather attractive, you could see why so many of your classmates practically threw themselves at his feet. Maybe you would too if he weren't such an insufferable prat.
Just as youâre about to finally feel a bit more at ease, Theodore has to go and ruin it, because of course he does, by shifting a bit in his bed, eyes fluttering before settling softly on you.
âMorning dolcezza, finally come to see me hm?â he asks, lips curling up into a sickeningly sweet smile. You can see the adoration in his eyes as he looks up at you.
It shouldâve been a sweet moment. Something straight out of a romance movie perhaps, but all you could hear was the way he had snarled âdolcezzaâ at you earlier that day. Nothing but hatred and malice on his face. Not, this. Whatever it was.
âPlease donât call me that,â you blurt out, your body subconsciously stiffening, ready for whatever Theodore was about to throw back at you.
Instead though, he looks hurt. A frown flickers across his face making him look like a kicked puppy and you instantly feel a wave of guilt crash over you.
What the hell had happened out on that quidditch pitch.
Before the situation could get any more uncomfortable than it already was, Madame Pomfrey saves the day as she comes whisking into the hospital wing to check up on her charge.
âHello dearie, you must be the one Mr. Nott has been going on about all evening,â she says with a knowing glance as she gives Theodore a quick inspection. âNow itâs been my understanding that Mr. Nott hasnât quite been, well, himself since he woke up. Unfortunately, the specific brew thatâs needed for these kinds of things takes a full moon cycle to whip up. Until then...â
You stare at the witch in horror. The idea of being stuck with Theodore for the next month made you want to vomit.
âI feel fine,â Theodore protests, shoving himself into a sitting position and reaching out to clasp onto your hand.
It takes everything in you to not recoil away and you shoot a look at Madam Pomfrey, hoping sheâd speak some reason into the boy.
âWell, if youâre sure,â she says instead, âMr. Nott is clear to go, but do come back if you start feeling dizzy again, I simply wonât have another student fainting in the corridors.â
With that, she ushers Theodore up and out of bed before shooing the both of you out of the hospital wing.
Once the metal doors clang shut behind you, you feel Theodore reach out, grabbing your hand once more.
âLet me walk you to your common room then?â He asks, giving your hand a light squeeze, already tugging you in the direction of Ravenclaw tower.
Resistance seemed futile at this point, so you let the boy drag you along doing your best to avoid conversation and eye contact. You receive several very bewildered stares as you pass your classmates in the hallway, but thankfully no one says anything. Not to your face anyway.
When you finally arrive at your common room door, even the golden eagle mounted to the door looks baffled by your choice of Slytherin companion.
Before you can pull away, Theo presses a soft kiss to the top of your head and you jerk away from him.
âUm, Iâll see you tomorrow carissima,â he murmurs, eyebrows furrowed a bit before he turns and disappears down the corridor.
The first week with Theodore glued to your side is, for lack of better words, literal hell. The next morning on your way down to the great hall for breakfast you simply want to melt into the floor in horror when you find Theodore waiting outside your common room door, garnering a good number of whispers and stares from your fellow housemates.
He takes hold of your hand once again and you begrudgingly follow, silently cursing the brunette boy and the rest of his bloodline.
âHave you finished the charms essay Flitwick assigned last week?â Theodore asks as you stroll through the corridor.
You want to burst out laughing at how comically mundane the question was given the absurdity of the whole situation, but you do your best to keep it together.
âNot quite, just have to wrap up the last few lines I think,â you reply, trying to keep it short.
âWe can finish up in the library together tonight then,â Theodore decides.
You open your mouth to protest, but close it just as fast. If you were going to be stuck with this tosser, you might as well extort him you think begrudgingly to yourself.
You can feel several pairs of eyes on you as you sit down next to Theodore at the Slytherin table. Your blue robes stick out like a sore thumb making you rather self conscious. Still, his friends all greet you as if itâs the most normal thing in the world to have you sitting with them and you feel like youâve entered the twilight zone.
As the rest of the week goes by, itâs all more of the same. Trying to hold back a grimace every time Theodore takes your hand or kisses your forehead good night, pretending you werenât completely weirded out by the way his friends had so easily adapted you into their little group, ignoring the whispers and side eyes from other students.
Objectively speaking, this could be much worse. Theodore was actually rather tolerable to be around when you werenât throwing insults back and forth. The real issue was that every time you thought to yourself that Theodore Nott might not be all bad, youâd get a sudden flashback of him and his friends picking on some innocent first or second year, or playing a particularly foul game of quidditch, or the time theyâd hexed poor Hermione Grangerâs teeth to keep on growing like a beaver's and youâd feel sick to your stomach.
You really didnât think your hatred for Theodore was all that misplaced. When it came down to it, he and his friends could be down right bullies and you loathed the way they acted as if they were above others. Even now when it came down to it, your whole part in this little cooked up scheme was to protect Theodoreâs ego.
It's in the second week that your perception on things begins to crack. You'd been spending a lot of time with Theodore and his friends and, you didn't really know what you had expected, but, it wasn't this.
It was the first time you'd ever been in the Slytherin common room. All dark and cold and dreary. Nothing like Ravenclaw tower, but they were on two opposite ends of the spectrum you supposed. You were sat next to Theodore, buried in your book, one that he had given you, and trying to ignore everything going on around you when a group of first year Slytherins come stumbling into the dungeons, huddled around a young boy who's skin was an alarming shade of electric purple.
You're not prepared for the way the students around you jump into action. Daphne Greengrass is by the boy's side in moments, wiping tears from his cheek as Lorenzo and Pansy interrogate some of the other's as to what had happened.
It had been some second year Gryffindors, one girl said her lower lip trembling. Apparently they had gotten their hands on some of the Weasley twins' underground candies and tricked the poor boy into eating a few.
You watch silently as Draco and Blaise examine the boy before ushering him off to their dormitory, confidently telling him a cure would be easy enough to brew.
In all the commotion, you don't notice Mattheo and Marcus Flint sneaking off to go find a certain group of young lions. But Theodore does.
"Better go make sure they don't take things too far," he sighs, rising from his place next to you and giving your hand a squeeze before following the other boys out of the dungeon. You don't even have time to protest.
You're about to just return to your common room and call it a night when Daphne finds her way over to you, having calmed down most of the shaken up first years, and sits down next to you.
"Sorry you had to see all that," she sighs looking tired and worn down.
"I didn't realize you all were so close," you state, gesturing to some of the older students who had seemingly taken some of the younger ones under their wing now.
"We have to be. If we aren't on our own side, who else will be?" she replies.
When she's met with silence she gives you a tight lipped smile before turning, ready to go.
"So when Theodore and Mattheo get into fights, is it always becauseâ?" You let your words trail off, not really sure where you were taking this and Daphne turns to face you once more.
"Honestly? No. Sometimes they can just be massive pricks. They usually make up for it though." Daphne says as you nod your head in response. "We really do appreciate what you're doing for Theo," she says, switching topics. "I know you don't exactly see eye to eye, and honestly I can't blame you. I know how the boys can be. But between you and me, I've always suspected that he actually liked you, at least a little bit. Maybe this knock to the head got him to finally come to his senses," she laughs.
"I don't know about that. I'm pretty certain once Madam Pomfrey whips up that potion, he'll be right back where we left off," you reply, adding in your own nervous laughter.
"You're only saying that because you don't know what he was really like before. You don't have to believe me, but if you really gave him a chance- you never know."
"Maybe, but I'm pretty sure about this."
Daphne shrugs her shoulders.
"Suit yourself, but um, if you wouldn't mind, maybe don't go spreading this whole incident around the school? We try to keep these kinds of things, discreet. Don't want the other houses to see us sweat and all."
You take a good look at the girl beside you and then at the room full of Slytherin students around you, realizing for the first time that it really did seem as if they had the whole school against them.
"No, of course not. I didn't see a thing," you tell her.
Daphne gives you a grateful smile as she rises to leave.
"He'll be back in a bit. Probably be glad to see you still here," she says before disappearing to her own dormitory.
It's not long before Theodore finally returns, his face lighting up when he spots you still tucked cozily away in your corner, nose buried in the pages of your book.
Theo was very confused to say the least. It had been almost three weeks since he'd been knocked off his broom in that match against the Gryffindors, and things just felt, off. Truth be told, he couldn't really seem to remember much of anything since before the fall. Not clearly at least. It was all fuzzy shadows and warped conversation, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't make sense of it all.
The only thing he was really certain about, was you. He remembered dreaming about you while he was asleep in the hospital wing, and how angry you had been that day before his match, though he couldn't quite place why. He had worried that that was why you weren't there when he woke up, maybe you were mad at him.
But then the next time he opened his eyes you were there, gazing down at him, and everything had just felt right. Your hand had slotted perfectly with his and he was sure that, out of everyone, you were the person he could trust the most.
So why did you look like you were in pain every time he approached? Why did you flinch away whenever his lips brushed the top of your head? Why did it feel as if you were holding him at an arms length?
All this swirled around in Theo's mind as he sat on the library sofa next to you, watching the warm glow of the fireplace dance across your face.
"Have I done something to make you upset carissima?" Theo asks, the words leaving his mouth before he can stop them.
You look up at him, startled by the abrupt question as you snap your book shut.
"No, why do you ask?"
Theo watches you turn your body to face him now, tilting your head as he furrows his eyebrows, trying to put the words together.
"I just, remember things being different, I think," he replies, hating how his brain wasn't letting him form cohesive thoughts.
"Oh?" You look surprised at his statement, eyes darting away from him and Theo can tell he's onto something.
"Was it before the match? Before I fell? Were we fighting about something carissima?" He asks again.
It's obvious you're thinking hard about what to say as Theo reaches out to take your hands in his. For once you don't flinch away from his touch, instead just staring at your intertwined fingers.
"It was something like that," you mumble as Theo rubs careful circles around your knuckles.
âI donât think I remember a lot very clearly. Itâs frustrating sometimes,â Theo admits. âBut I remember you.â
âYeah? What do you remember about me?â
âI remember how you always say hello to the painting outside of the charms classroom. And how you like to sneak snacks into astronomy. I remember the time in third year when we were flying on the quidditch pitch and you were about to get hit by a bludger so I had to move you out of the way.â
You blink at the last memory Theodore shares. You knew what he was talking about, but thatâs not how you remembered it. You had been flying yes, when Theodore had come out of nowhere, shoving you while in the sky and then turning, laughing while calling you an idiot. Youâd never even seen the bludger.
âI remember kissing you under the bleachers, and holding you by the fireplace. I remember you telling me you loved me.â
And that's where he lost you. Those memories, you didn't know where they came from, but for Theo, they were real. And who knew he was such a sap? You'd never thought the boy was even capable of having emotions.
"Can we start over? I don't remember why you were upset. But I'm sorry. I just want what little memory I have to go back to normal."
Theo watches as you let out a deep sigh. Every word out of Theodoreâs mouth was like a punch to the gut, absolutely devastating any sort of resolve you had still been holding.
âSure Theodore.â
âJust Theo,â he corrects as he pulls you into his arms, tucking your head snuggly under his chin.
The last week you have with Theo, or at least with this version of him, you spend trying not to get too attached. You'd grown rather used to having the boy appear by your side to carry your books or to sneak snacks into the library for you when you'd spent the last several hours putting the final touches on your ancient runes essay. You didn't even mind having to constantly tell him and Mattheo to quiet down anymore.
As it turned out, Daphne had been right about one thing. Theodore and his friends could absolutely be obnoxious, arrogant, pompous pricks, but they did have their ways of charming their way back into your favor. The little parasites. They'd grown on you.
You knew that Madam Pomfrey had finished brewing the elixir before Mattheo could open his mouth just by the guilty expressions on his and Lorenzo's faces when they walked into the Slytherin common room. You'd been frequenting the dungeons a lot more recently, but it looked like that was about to come to an end.
"It's ready then?" you ask, tucking your book away as your hand falls to rest on Theo's arm.
Mattheo just nods his head as you all turn to look at Theo who's still focused on his own book.
"Hey. Madam Pomfrey says she wants to give you one last check. Just to make sure your head is on straight," Mattheo says, thumping Theo on the shoulder.
"Why? I feel fine," Theo replies, an air of annoyance laced in his voice as he's torn away from his book.
"Don't know mate. Just humor the old bat," Enzo sighs.
Theo rolls his eyes before reluctantly rising from the couch, offering you a hand up as well.
"Coming along carissima?" he asks, already reaching out for your hand, but you dodge away.
"I think I'm going to head back up to Ravenclaw tower actually. It's getting pretty late," you reply, feigning a small yawn.
As you exit the dungeons, Enzo catches you by the arm.
"Are you sure you don't want to come with? We don't know for sure that he'll, ya know, go back."
"It's fine Lorenzo. I just- I really can't be up there. We all knew this wasn't a real, permanent thing. I just want to finish my book," you reply, backing away. "I hope Theodore feels more himself, I guess."
You can see Lorenzo's face visibly shift as you revert back to Theodore's full name, his whole demeanor stiffening.
"Right well. Have a night y/n."
And then he's gone.
When you finally make it all the way back to your tower, you collapse onto one of the sofas overlooking the castle grounds, eager to distract yourself by diving back into you book.
"Just come back from the dungeons?" the voice of Marietta Edgecombe asks, dragging your attention away from your novel.
You nod your head, hoping your short answer would encourage the girl to move on quickly.
"I called that one so early on. I've been telling Cho for years, those two are going to end up together, I just know it. And I was right!" she says gleefully, giving your shoulder a little squeeze before flouncing off.
âYou came,â Theodoreâs voice rings out from his spot on one of the stone benches that lined the walls of the astronomy tower.
âI did,â you reply carefully, watching as he leans back inviting you forward.
It had been almost two weeks since the antidote had been brewed and Theodore looked like he hadnât slept at all in that time frame. Youâd spent that time avoiding him, and all the Slytherins really.
You were confused and you hadn't known what to expect when Theodore came back down from the hospital wing. It had been a strange past month, and now you weren't sure where it left the two of you. What did he remember? Did he care?
You take slow steps forward, Theodoreâs eyes never leaving yours until youâre standing directly in front of him. He continues to just stare at you, the silence becoming deafening.
âWhat do you want, Theodore?â You ask finally, growing frustrated as you let out an agitated sigh.
âJust to talk, dolcezza,â he replies lazily, patting the spot on the bench beside him.
âDonât call me that,â you mutter, rolling your eyes but taking a seat anyway.
âDonât call me Theodore,â he shoots back.
You feel your eyebrows raise.
âSo you remember then?â You ask.
âI remember. Everything from the past month. And before.â
Thereâs another pause, less uncomfortable this time though as you both consider his words.
âSo why am I here Theo?â
âCause I canât keep you out of my head mostly,â he replies, rather resigned to the fact.
âHave you tried?â
Theo gives you an exasperated look.
âObviously. If I could, Iâd just loose feelings for you, but itâs not exactly easy to fall out of love with someone youâve been holding onto for so long. What do you think Iâve been doing for the last two weeks?â He grumbles stubbornly.
"What do you mean 'holding onto for so long'?" you ask, giving the boy a puzzled look. You'd hardly call a month a long time.
Theo just looks at you again as if silently willing you to simply read his mind. Unfortunately for him, that's not how osmosis works. With another long, drawn out sigh, Theo rests his elbows on his knees letting his head fall into his hands as he mumbles incoherently into his palms.
"Huh?"
He mumbles something again, louder this time. You squint at the boy, trying to make something out.
"If you're trying to confess your undying love for me, you're doing an awful job," you tell him.
This gets Theo to glare up at you, a pout almost visible on his lips. Oh how the mighty fall.
"I've liked you for years," he mutters, his chin resting in his palms now as he refuses to look at you. Pride really was a strange thing.
"Well, you've been truly terrible at showing it, you insufferable prat," you say, giving his shoulder a light shove.
Theo just let's out a grunt, watching your hand on the bench next to him from the corner of his eye. Dear Rowena, you had no idea how you'd ended up falling for this prick.
"But, I suppose you've been, significantly less insufferable this last month or so," you finish, carefully resting your head on his shoulder.
"If you're trying to say you like me too, you're doing an awful job," Theo responds, causing you to immediately tear yourself away from the boy once more.
A smile finally cracks Theo's lips as he smirks playfully up at your deadpan reaction.
"I take it back. I actually hate you. You are the worst."
"Aw, come on now carissima, did the last month mean nothing to you?" Theo asks, pulling you back into him, the same way he did that one night in the library.
"It meant literally nothing. You were being weirdly nice and clingy the whole time," you reply, begrudgingly feeling yourself melt into him.
It wasn't your fault you'd been going through withdrawals the last two weeks, okay? Theo's chest shakes with laughter against your head.
"Contrary to popular belief, I can be somewhat tolerable sometimes."
"Then why the fuck have you spent the last several years being such a prick? It was just pushing me away you know."
"That was kind of the point," Theo says, making you scoff. "Love is weakness and all."
God, the emotional whiplash was going to make you sick.
"Well, which one is the real you?"
"Can't it be both?"
"Not if you want me to put up with your sorry arse."
Theo lets out another quiet laugh.
"Well, you might have to learn to love both sides, because I do fear you're stuck with me," Theo responds, pulling you closer to his chest. "Now come here you little minx."
Before you can protest, Theo's hand has found your chin, tilting your head up just enough for him to capture your lips with his own. It's soft, hesitant at first, as if he's not sure if you'll pull away or not. But your hand finds its way into his hair, pulling him closer still as you move your lips against his, nipping, teasing. You can feel the smile grow on Theo's face as he deepens the kiss, his other hand finding it's way to rest on your thigh.
When you finally pull away, you can still feel his warm breath on your face as he presses a gentle kiss to your forehead.
"For the record, I still hate you," you say, still slightly out of breath, a teasing smile playing across your lips.
"I'm sure you do carissima. I hate you too," Theo replies before engulfing you in his arms once more.
Summary: After your boyfriend cheats with your best friend, you enlist Theodore Nott in a fake relationship to get revenge
A/N: I fear this was better in my head
credits to @cafekitsune for the divider!
There comes a moment in every girlâs life that cements itself into her mind. It takes up a corner of her brain and becomes the foundation for every action she takes thereafter. It rewires her chemistry, ensuring that, years later, it will resurface unbidden, vivid and relentless.
She remembers it as though itâs happening right then. Every detail is etched onto the canvas of her mind with the precision of a master painter. She recalls every word, every inflection, every syllable. She feels again the rush of emotions, as if the pit of her stomach were reliving the moment in real time.
That was how it felt when your eyes landed on your boyfriend making out with your best friend, the girl who had been by your side since first year, the one you trusted implicitly. You stepped into the Hogâs Head that night, and your vision tunneled the second you saw them in the booth, lips locked.
The clinking of glasses around the pub sparkled mockingly in the dim light, a cruel contrast to the way your heart sank, your body shutting down as ice ran through your veins.
First came confusion. Perhaps youâd seen wrong, perhaps your mind was playing tricks. But as the seconds passed, certainty settled in, burning the image into your brain.
What do I do?
In any instance where you had been betrayed like this, your first instinct would have been to go to your best friendâthe girl who had stuck with you since your first year when you were placed as dormmates.
Stuck in your place, your brain was short-circuiting, trying to, but in the end unable to do anything else but stare at them.
For fuckâs sakeâare they scuba divers? Are they ever going to come up for air?
It seemed like they heard you, finally parting, and it seemed that your boyfriendâor rather, ex-boyfriend, and if heâs so lucky, not late-boyfriendâspotted you first, his face going pale the second he saw you.
You scoffed.
They were doing this in a public place, and he had the gall to look surprised when you managed to spot them?
And then you felt itâthe emotion that managed to crush through all of the others like a tidal wave, filling your body and clouding your thoughts. Rage. Fury.
You spun on your heel, barreling through the crowd toward the door.
â(Y/N)!â Your boyfriend called behind you, but you ignored him, sidestepping another patron as you charged and left him in your dust. It seemed like your anger had managed to blur the edges of your vision, and you collided with another student.
âWatch itâ!â
Theodore Nott stood at six feet tall, towering over you more than your boyfriend ever had, jawline so sharp it could cut youâif not for that, his words certainly would. He glared down at you with stormy eyes that you couldnât quite call blue but couldnât call green.
You heard your boyfriend call your name once more as he approached you, and it seemed the desperation on your face was apparent to someone as apathetic as Theodore, who only raised a brow at you.
And in that instant, you made one of the most reckless decisions of your life.
Your hands curled around the lapels of his jacket before you could even command your body to do otherwise, yanking Theodore toward you and leaning up on your tiptoes to close the gap, pressing your lips to his.
A split second passed, and your head was spinning, body coming back to life.
Have I lost my mind? Iâve just been utterly humiliated by my boyfriend and my best friend. Now Iâve kissed one of the notorious snakesâwithout consent, no lessâwhich makes me literal scum. Heâs going to push me away any second, probably hex me, and make this humiliation ten times worse.
All those self-deprecating thoughts came to a silent standstill the second his arm looped around your waist, another hand cupping your cheek as you tilted his head to deepen the kiss.
The moment stretched, every second dragging out as if the world itself had decided to pause and watch. His lips moved against yours with a deliberate, almost teasing patience that sent a shiver down your spine, making your knees threaten to buckle. You could feel the heat radiating from his body, the subtle press of his chest against yours, grounding you even as your mind screamed in disbelief.
Your hands tightened on his jacket, nails digging in slightly as if anchoring yourself to reality. Your mind screamed in protest, reminding you of every reason this was recklessâthis was Theodore Nott, the last person you should be doing this with, and yet⊠you couldnât stop.
The kiss was urgent, hungry, but also careful, as though he could sense the storm raging inside you and wanted to meet it without drowning you completely.
Finally, reality slammed back into you. You broke the kiss with a gasp, eyes still closed, trying to catch your breath after being so violently knocked out of orbit by a kiss you could only describe as divine.
When your eyes met his again, you were rendered speechless.
Oh, you better admit yourself into St. Mungo's tonight, you imbecile.
âOh myâuh⊠IâI shouldnât haveâI'm sorryââ You stammered, tearing your hands from his jacket and stepping back. Embarrassment burned hotter than your anger had moments ago.
You swallowed, shamefully looking down as you moved toward the exit once again, "I'm gonna goâ"
Your voice trailed off, choked by a mix of embarrassment and disbelief. You wanted to disappear, to vanish from the pub before anyone could process what had just happened. Before he could.
You pivoted toward the door, picturing yourself in the cool night air where your face might finally stop burning.
But before you could take another step, a firm hand caught your wrist. You froze, the warmth of his grip rooting you in place.
âIf you leave first,â He said, his voice low and smooth, carrying that unmistakable edge of challenge, âyou lose."
You didn't even know if your ex-boyfriend was still there, you had lost any awareness of your surroundings the second your lips met his.
Your eyes widened, and you stammered, âI⊠Iâm not⊠I donâtââ
The corner of his lips twitched as though he was fighting a smile at your pathetic state, a teasing glint in those stormy eyes that made your knees threaten to give out again. âWhy donât you⊠join me and my friends?â
You swallowed, heart hammering, and glanced back at your ex. He was still standing there, awkward, flustered, clearly humiliated. It was⊠satisfying, in a small, dark way.
If you left now, before they did, it would look like you had something to be ashamed of. You didnât deserve that.
They didnât deserve to enjoy the rest of their night undisturbed. They deserved to squirm in their seats, to feel the weight of your stare drilling holes into them. They deserved their night ruined. Their lives ruined.
ââŠFine,â you whispered, almost against your will. Your voice trembled with a mixture of exasperation and something dangerously close to thrill. âBut only for a little while.â
Theoâs grin widened, that teasing glint in his eyes sharpening. âOh⊠I donât know,â he said, placing his hand on the curve of your waist, leading you to the table that had been taken by the other Slytherins, "We can be quite a fun bunch."
Theodore guided you through the Hogâs Head, arm casually looped through yours, like youâd belonged there all along. You couldnât help but notice the way the pub-goers glanced at you, whispers flickering through the crowd. Your stomach fluttered with a mix of nerves, shame, and something you didnât dare name.
When you reached the table, his friend's eyes immediately lit up. They were lounging casually, drinks in hand, and the smirk on Blaiseâs face made it clear that they had clearly witnessed your make out session.
"Well, well, well, looks like someoneâs been busy." Mattheo drawled, his wicked grin hidden half behind his glass as Theodore pulled out a chair for you and then slid his own closer.
It took everything in you to not look so startled when he wrapped his hand around your shoulder, trying to hide your incredulousness at how seamless this act managed to come to Theo.
You lowered your gaze from Mattheo's who was set on staring at you with an ear-to-ear grin like an imp, only to catch Theoâs eyeâhe seemed to read your thoughts instantly and, without missing a beat, chucked a fry at his best mate, "Stop ogling my girl, you prat."
âOhhh,â Mattheo drawled, leaning back in his chair, "She's your girl now? That's the first I've heard of this."
Draco snorted, smirking at Theo, âYeah, Theo, since when? You never mentioned a girlfriend before.â
Before you could even sputter, Theoâs calm, controlled voice cut through the teasing. âYeah,â He said effortlessly, as if stating the weather, âWeâre dating.â
You froze. What?! You were still reeling from the kiss, and now he was lying with such ease that it made your brain stutter. You were so caught off-guard, so out of your comfort zone that you couldn't even say anything.
He didnât even flinch, "And we're not first-year girls that I should tell you everything."
Enzo let out a low whistle. âWow⊠Theo, good for you, man."
You felt like your chest had been sucker-punched. How could he lie so effortlessly? So convincingly? You were still fumbling over your own thoughts, heart racing from the kiss, and he was⊠untouchable.
Theodore leaned slightly closer, voice low enough that only you could hear. âRelax. Just play along. Trust me.â
Trust him? You barely knew him. And the two people youâd trusted most in the world had just ripped you to shreds.
This was a bad idea.
But you didnât move. You couldnât. Because Theodore was rightâif you left, your ex would see it, and youâd lose.
So you stayed. You plastered a grin on your face and let Theodore enjoy himself with his friends. You tried your best not to glance at the betrayersârefused to give them the satisfaction of knowing they occupied even a single neuron in your brain.
When tears threatened to prick your eyes, you bit the inside of your cheek hard and reached for Theoâs drink, taking a slow sip to ease the tightness in your throat.
Thankfully, it seemed they werenât as shameless as youâd feared. They looked too uncomfortable to enjoy themselves, shifting in their seats, eyes flicking toward you before darting away. The sight of them leaving some time later brought you a sliver of satisfaction. However, that was made very bitter at the realization that they were leaving together.
You held out for another twenty minutes before finally turning to Theodore with a tired smile. âWalk me back?â
He didnât hesitate. He stood immediately, earning a chorus of jeers from his friends about being a âsimpâ who couldnât let his girl walk alone. Theodore just flipped them off before guiding you out with a warm hand at the small of your back.
The walk was quiet. Snowflakes gathered in your hair and clung to your coat, the world muted by the thick white dusting over Hogsmeade. Then, halfway down the path, you stopped abruptly.
Theodore turned to you, âWhatâs wrong?â
You stared down at the snow-covered road, tears burning at the edges of your vision, âSheâs back at my dorm.â
You pressed the heel of your gloved palms into your eyes, your chest trembling with the sobs youâd been holding in all night, âAnd if sheâs not⊠then Iâll be left wondering if she's with him for the rest of the night.â
Theodore sighed, steering you toward a small alcove behind the pub. It overlooked the rest of Hogsmeade, quiet and dim under the glow of lanterns. You sank down against the fence, not caring about the wet snow soaking through your clothes, hiding your face in your knees as the dam finally broke.
The image of them at the pub replayed relentlessly behind your closed eyelids, no matter how much you willed it away.
Theyâd done it so unabashedly, so arrogantlyâher practically in his lap. Comfortable enough to humiliate you like that in public meant it couldnât have been the first time.
Your mind reeled back to every time theyâd both been absent, every âwe just ran into each other in the hallwayâ excuse, every occasion theyâd been âtoo busyâ to join you in Hogsmeade.
Theyâd done this where other students could see. Had no one thought to tell you? Did your other friends just⊠choose to stay silent? Were they ever really your friends at all?
Theodore didnât say a word. He just stood beside you in silenceâuntil the soft clink of his lighter broke through your thoughts. You looked up, face blotchy and eyes raw, just in time to see him take a long drag from a cigarette, the smoke stark against the winter air.
âCan I have one?â You asked.
"No," He glanced down at you, âTake it from me, sweetheartâonce you start, itâs very hard to stop.â
You exhaled sharply, lowering your forehead back to your knees. You tried to breathe deep, to steady yourself, to make sense of any of it, âWhat good even are you?â
There was another beat of silence.
âIâm sorry,â He said, and you looked up again, âI sprang that whole thing on you. If you donât want to, Iâll take it back. Make it seem like I was the one mistaken. You donât need to worry.â
âWhy did you do it?â You asked quietly, âYou couldâve easily pushed me away. I mean, I was the one at fault there.â
âBecause,â He said, taking another slow drag, âyou looked desperate.â
You huffed a humorless laugh, âIâm swooning.â
Theoâs mouth twitchedâalmost a smile, but not quite. âBesides,â He added, tilting his head so the dim light from the pub hit the sharp cut of his jaw, âI wasnât about to let them see you run off like youâd done something wrong.â
You blinked at him, caught between wanting to roll your eyes and wanting to thank him, âSo you just⊠decided to announce to half the school that weâre dating?â
âItâs better this way,â He said simply, like it was the most obvious thing in the world, âRumors spread fast. By Monday, everyone will think youâve moved onâand not just moved on, but traded up.â His gaze flicked to you, calm but deliberate, âLet them choke on it.â
Your throat tightened, but this time it wasnât from wanting to cry.
"And what do you get out of this arrangement?"
Theodore glanced at you through the thin curl of smoke leaving his lips. His expression didnât flicker, but there was a spark of something behind his eyesâmischief, maybe, or calculation.
âLetâs just sayâŠâ He exhaled slowly, the smoke catching in the cold air like ghostly ribbons, ââŠI have my reasons.â
You swallowed and then sighed, watching as your breath became visible in the cold air, tears now dry on your cheeks, âI want them to pay for it.â
Theodore smirked, the corner of his mouth curling like heâd just been waiting to hear those words, "And so they shall."
You pushed open the door to your dorm, ready to collapse onto your bed and pretend the last twenty-four hours hadnât happened. After talking with Theodore for a while, youâd waited until well past curfew to sneak back into Hogwarts, hoping your ex-boyfriend and exâbest friend had either gone to sleep separately or she was holed up in his dorm.
Honestly, at this point, you didnât care where they were or what they were doing. Theyâd been dead to you long before you saw them at the pub tonight.
All you wanted was a bed. Sleep. Silence.
Theodore had still given you the option to change your mind about him â told you heâd take the blame if you wanted to pretend you didnât know each other. But you were too wrung out from crying, too hollow to think. Your body was ready to collapse the second your face hit the pillow.
Except the moment you stepped inside, sleep vanished.
She was there.
Sitting cross-legged on her bed, biting her thumbnail â that nervous habit of hers you hated that you knew.
Your mind started firing questions faster than you could breathe. Was she nervous? Guilty? Regretful? Did she feel anything at all?
Her head snapped up.
âHey,â She said softly, eyes wide with something dangerously close to guilt, âCan we talk?â
You froze. Part of you wanted to say yes. Sheâd been your best friend, the person youâd cared about more than anything. You didnât want to lose her.
Your heart almost opened the door.
Your mind slammed it shut.
âNo.â
She blinked, flinching like youâd slapped her, âPlease, justââ
âI said no.â You moved past her toward your bed, shrugging off your coat, âWhatever you think you need to say, save it. I donât care.â
â(Y/N), please! I didnât mean for it to happenââ
You laughedâsharp, humorless, âYou didnât mean to kiss my boyfriend? How exactly does that work? You trip and fall face-first onto his mouth?â
Her jaw twitched. Then she scoffed, âFine. If youâre gonna act like youâre so perfect, maybe remember youâre not exactly a saint either.â
Your head snapped up, âExcuse me?â
She crossed her arms, chin tilting higher, âWe all saw your little show with Nott earlier. Donât think you can sit there acting holier-than-thou when you cheated too.â
Heat surged under your skin.
âWhat I was doing with Nott is none of your business. But donât you dare pretend that makes you right. You are the lowest, ugliest, skankiest slag Iâve ever met in my life.â
âThatâs rich,â She spat, âComing from the slag who spread her legs for the first guy she saw. Nott probably thought you were easy, didnât he?â
You took a step forward. Then another. She backed up.
âTheodore has nothing to do with this, and neither does anyone else. The person Iâm pissed at is you.â Your voice shook now, not from fear, but fury, âYou were supposed to be my best friend! How could you betray me like this? Humiliate me in front of everybody? Go behind my back? I would never have done this to you. I wouldnât have even thought about it!â
With each sentence, you jabbed a finger into her chest, until you finally shoved her, the force surprising even you.
She didnât back down.
âYou deserved it, didnât you? Acting all high and mighty â then turning around and doing the same thing.â
Something in your chest cracked. You looked at her, really looked, and realized you didnât recognize her anymore.
You laughed, breathless and disbelieving, âThe only difference between us is I didnât throw away seven years of friendship for some asshole who can only think with his dick. You think he wonât turn around and do the same thing to you that he did to me? Youâre deluded.â
One more shove.
Then you straightened, voice quiet but lethal.
âIf you ever approach me again, Iâll kill you. Until then?â You took a step back, smirking like she was something youâd scrape off your shoe, âHave fun with my sloppy seconds, slut.â
The next morning, the corridors were alive with the usual rush of students heading to the Great Hall, but your thoughts were still tangled in last nightâs chaos. You tightened your coat around you, trying to focus on anything but the memory of their faces, when a familiar voice cut through the din.
â(Y/N)!â Your ex-boyfriend called, catching up just as you reached the entrance to the Great Hall. His face was flushed, a mixture of anger, embarrassment, and confusion, âWhat the hell was that yesterday?â
You froze for a heartbeat, then let a sardonic smile creep across your face, âOh, that? I thought your tongue down my best friendâs throat was a pretty clear indication that we were both seeing other people.â
His face burned red, guilt and humiliation flickering across his features. You barely felt any satisfactionâwhat you felt yesterday had been raw, scorching, and unshakable. This was just a pale echo.
âLook, Iââ He began, his voice tight, âI didnât mean for it to happen.â
âDidnât mean to cheat on me with my best friend? Or didnât mean for me to find out?â You let each word land like a slap.
His jaw clenched, his gaze hard, âYouâre one to talk, acting like you didnât leave with Theodore Nott of all people yesterday.â
You tilted your head, cool and deliberate, âI did. So? That doesnât give you the moral high ground to lecture me. If you think youâre the victim here⊠think again.â
He stepped closer, lowering his voice to a dangerous murmur, âWaitâare you serious? Are you actuallyââ
And then you saw him. Theodore Nott, leaning against the wall with that impossibly calm expression, arms crossed, watching like the world had paused for his amusement.
Your chest tightened, but you squared your shoulders. âYes,â You said clearly, deliberately loud enough for both of them to hear, âI am dating Theodore Nott.â
The color drained from his face, the clever retorts dying on his tongue. You didnât give him a chance to recover.
Theoâs smirk sharpened, eyes flicking between you and him, silently daring him to challenge your words, to give him a reason to rearrange his sorry mug this fine morning.
You started walking, leaving your ex behind, and Theodore fell naturally into step beside you. His presence was calm, confident, infuriatingly infuriatingâand comforting at the same time.
âYou promised, Nott,â You murmured, your voice low and dangerous, âWeâre going to make them pay.â
Theoâs grin widened, the corner of his mouth lifting into that familiar, teasing arc. âOh, donât worry, mia cara,â He said smoothly, eyes glinting with mischief and you felt your ears get hot, âWe're gonna make them regret ever messing with you.â
Side by side, you stepped into the Great Hall. Whispers began immediately, flickering through the crowd like wildfire. And as the studentsâ eyes turned toward you, you realizedâthe game had officially begun.
The chatter of students filled the Charms classroom as you stepped inside, your nerves buzzing the way they always did when eyes might follow you. You hesitated in the doorway for a fraction too long, scanning the rows of desks. Usually, your spot was second row, left sideâthe place you always shared with your best friend. But now? The thought of sitting there made your stomach twist. Should you take it anyway, claim your ground, and glare if she had the audacity to join you?
Before you could decide, a warm hand brushed against the small of your back.
âOver here.â Theodore murmured, voice low but commanding. He didnât give you room to argue, guiding you through the rows with a confidence that ignored every curious glance that followed. You ended up in the second-to-last row, his chosen territory.
You dropped your bag to the floor and slid into the seat he indicated, shooting him a quick, reluctant smile. Almost instantly, you became acutely aware of the heat of his knee brushing yours beneath the desk.
Theodore leaned back in his chair with practiced ease, stretching his arm just far enough to rest casually along the back of yours. âThatâs better,â He said, deliberately louder now, his voice carrying through the classroom. His smirk deepened, âNeed my girl next to me.â
The effect was immediate. The two Hufflepuff girls in front of you whipped their heads around under the pretense of adjusting their books. They tried to be subtle, glancing sideways from the corners of their eyes, but the way their shoulders pressed together and their whispers turned sharp made it obvious who they were talking about.
Theo noticed too. His smirk widened, one eyebrow arching as if to say exactly as planned.
You resisted the urge to elbow him in the ribs, ducking your head instead as heat crept up your neck. Subtle was not in Theodore Nottâs vocabulary, apparently.
Your heart jumped when the door opened again and she walked inâyour exâbest friend, sliding into the classroom like nothing had happened. She looked tired, as she always did on mornings like this; Charms was the earliest class on your schedule, and she never managed breakfast before dragging herself out of bed. No, instead she always smuggled in a handful of Honeydukesâ cockroach clusters, nibbling on them through class.
And sure enough, there they were, sitting in a paper bag on her desk.
Your lips curled into a knowing smirk.
How could she be so careless? She knew you better than anyoneâhad known every one of your tricks, your habits, your moods. She should have known you wouldnât leave her unpunished.
You waited until Professor Flitwick had begun explaining wand movement on the board, until the room was full of the faint swish of quills and the scratching of parchment. Then, when her hand dipped into the bag, you flicked your wand under the table. A silent transfiguration. Smooth, clean, precise.
She popped the cluster into her mouth. Chewed once.
And then froze.
Her eyes widened just a fraction, and then she gagged, clapping a hand over her lips. You bit down on your own smile as, with a sharp cough, she spat onto her deskânot a melted chocolate, but a fat, wriggling cockroach that skittered across the wood.
The room erupted.
Screams, laughter, the scrape of chairs as people leapt away. Someone shouted, âBloody hell, theyâre moving!â as two more clusters in the bag twitched and burst into chittering, crawling life. Your ex-best friend shoved her desk back in panic, her face pale as the cockroaches spilled out in a wave across the floor.
You didnât react like the rest of them, watching as chaos struck and she turned green in the face, barely able to breathe. You lifted your feet and bag from the ground, careful to avoid all the cockroaches that seemed to multiply from her bagâthe replenishing charm you cast on the bag doing wonders.
Theodore didnât even glance at the teacher; instead, his attention was entirely on you, on the way your chest rose and fell, eyes still sharp, just barely contained.
With a single fluid motion, he pulled your chair a little closer, resting your legs in his lap. You froze, breath hitching, heat crawling up your spineâbut there was no time for that. The room still hummed with whispers and laughter, and you could feel every pair of eyes glancing back at the scene.
âElegant work, sweetheart.â He murmured low, the words meant only for you. His fingers brushed lightly along your ankle, light enough to be intimate, heavy enough to claim attention.
You suddenly understood why in the olden days showing ankle was considered scandalous, judging by the set of shivers Theodore's thumb against your ankle had sent up your spine.
âDetention! For eating in class and causing this disruption! Minus ten points!â Professor Flitwickâs squeaky voice rang across the room.
You fought the grin tugging at your lips, eyes sliding back to your former best friend, who sat frozen, cheeks burning with humiliation.
Oh, poor girl.
That pitiful, shocked face only made you hate her more.
The library was quiet, the soft rustle of pages and the occasional scratch of quills filling the otherwise hushed room. You were bent over a stack of textbooks, notes scattered across the polished wooden table, eyes straining to keep focus as the afternoon sunlight streamed through the tall windows.
You were so absorbed in your work that you didnât notice the shadow falling across your page. A soft, familiar warmth pressed against the back of your chair, and a low chuckle reached your ears.
âCanât study forever, you know.â A deep voice murmured.
Before you could turn around, a pair of lips pressed gently against the top of your head. A small, contented sigh followed as Theodore rested his chin lightly on your shoulder.
âMissed you, sweetheart.â He said softly, his words meant only for you, though the air between you carried them enough for nearby students to murmur.
You froze for a heartbeat, pencil hovering mid-note, then tilted your head slightly, allowing him the small indulgence. His hand slid to rest on yours, fingers brushing against your notes, grounding you in the moment.
A few whispers floated through the library, subtle but unmistakable: âIs thatâŠ?â âTheodore Nott andââ âWow.â
The heat rose in your cheeks, but it wasnât embarrassmentâit was the thrill of being seen with him, the quiet intimacy, the silent power you both held over anyone watching.
Especially the power it held over you.
You didn't know how he was able to touch you so intimately, pretend like you had a long history, hold you close and fake that look in his eye that made you feel like you were the center of his universe.
It was baffling.
Theodore rested his head for a moment longer before leaning back just enough to peer at your notes, âThough⊠youâre really focused, arenât you? Iâd almost feel guilty interrupting.â
You gave a small smile, eyes still on your parchment, âYou could say that, yeah.â
He chuckled, nudging your shoulder gently with his own, âThen Iâll just keep you company⊠silently.â
And with that, he settled next to you, close enough that his warmth was constant, silent enough that you could still workâbut every so often, he leaned in, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple or brushing a strand of hair from your face.
Then you sensed movement behind you. Glancing up, you caught sight of your ex and your former best friend sneaking into the room, eyes immediately locking on you and Theodore.
They didnât just glanceâthey stiffened, shoulders squared, and suddenly it was like a performance. She leaned close to him, laughing a little too loudly, brushing against him in a way that screamed look at us, weâre happy, look at what youâre missing. Your ex mirrored her, puffing out his chest and whispering something that made her giggle.
It was painfully obviousâthey wanted you to see them, to feel jealous, to react.
You didnât.
Instead, you reached up, grabbed Theodore by the collar, and pulled him down into a deliberate, teasing kiss, letting them watch the undeniable spark between you. He responded immediately, moving his hand to your waist, deepening the kiss and cupping your cheek.
But of course, they werenât going to give up that easily. Determined to âout-doâ you, they moved to the far side of the library, your ex hugging her from behind and peppering kisses to her neck as she giggled. They ducked into the alcove at the back that was notorious for students fooling around.
Theodore raised a brow, lips curling into that maddeningly flirtatious smirk, leaning to press his lips to your ear, âWhat do you say, love? Feel like beating them at their own game? Iâm sure weâd have a better time anyway.â
You chuckled, shaking your head, trying to ignore the heat crawling up your neck.
With a subtle glance toward the librarianâs desk, you caught Madam Pinceâs attention. Quietly, you waved her over, corners of your mouth tugging into a grin.
âOh, you love it.â You murmured, still holding his hand. You pointed to the bookshelf where they were hiding, leaning back with a sly grin.
What happened next was beautiful chaos.
A shriek echoed through the libraryâsharp, furious, unmistakably theirs. Madam Pinceâs voice rang out, shrill and indignant: âWhat on earth are you two doing in here?!â
You and Theodore exchanged a glance and stifled laughter as you heard her yelling, her wand flashing to confiscate their belongings, and chasing them down the aisles, half-dressed and completely humiliated.
The whispers and stares of the other students only added to the spectacle. You suppressed another laugh as you watched points being deducted from their house records, their humiliation complete.
For now.
The stands were packed, the cold wind whipping your hair around your face as you and Theo leaned against the railing, watching the match unfold below. You watched as your exâs team began collecting points, you and Mattheo booing their every move at the top of your lungs.
âYOU CALL THAT FLYING?!â Mattheo yelled, and you cupped your hands around your mouth, âMY GRANDMA CAN FLY BETTER THAN THAT!â
You coughedâcold air and screaming taking their tollâbefore a scarf was gently draped around your neck. You turned in surprise to see Theodore, not even looking at you, more intent on wrapping it carefully so it covered your ears and nose without smothering your mouth. When it proved impossible, he conceded and settled for placing a warming charm on you.
You smiled bashfully, hiding your pink cheeks in the scarf, âThank you.â
âAnytime, bella.â
âDisgusting behavior in public.â Mattheo muttered under his breath, earning a soft chuckle from you.
Everything seemed normalâuntil the golden blur began acting strangely.
Even for a snitch, its movements were erratic. But this was worse than usual. It seemed to purposefully avoid the opposing team, darting exclusively toward your exâs side. The match ground to a halt as the players floated to a stop, confusion spreading across the pitch. Madam Hooch called everyone together, frowning as she tried to assess the situation.
When the groundskeepers and referees inspected the field, the truth became clear: the snitch in play wasnât real. Someone had swapped it.
Confusion rippled through the stands as whispers grew louder.
âWhereâs the real Snitch?â The head referee demanded, scanning the players.
A quick locating spell revealed it immediatelyâtucked neatly in your exâs bag, as if he had accidentally carried it with him. The real snitch sat there, innocently gleaming in the sunlight, waiting to be discovered.
A collective gasp swept through the crowd. Every eye in the stadium turned to him.
Your exâs face drained of color, hands fumbling over the bag in shock. âIâI didnâtâ!â He stammered.
But the damage was already done. The spectators murmured furiously, teammates muttering accusations, and whispers of âhe cheatedâ began circulating instantly.
Theo leaned back against the railing, smirk spreading across his face, and whispered in your ear, âAre you enjoying the show, my love?â
You bit your lip and nodded, trying not to laugh aloud, and reached for his hand under the railing, giving it a subtle squeeze. No words were neededâthe humiliation was working exactly as planned.
âDue to tampering with the snitch, itâs an automatic loss for RavenclawâHufflepuff wins!â Madam Hooch announced, confirming the disaster.
âAnother impeccable plan. Iâm impressed,â Theo murmured in your ear, voice teasing, âYou make it look easy.â
The crisp Hogsmeade air nipped at your cheeks as you stepped off the train, Theodoreâs hand sliding easily into yours. The village was bustling with students, their laughter echoing over the cobblestone streets, but all you could feel was the warmth of his grip and the soft pull of his presence beside you.
Theodore was actually the one to suggest that you guys spend the day together. At first, you were going to opt out, feeling bad that the last couple weeks had been revolving around you and wanting him to get some time with his friends but he insisted, saying that you couldn't spend your Hogsmeade apart or people would talk.
You couldn't argue with that.
But even then you found yourself looking forward to it.
Despite this being only a temporary arrangement with no feelings behind it, Theodore was actually great company. He was thoughtful and considerate, he liked hearing you talk and a quality people didn't really appreciate a lot was that he was hilarious.
You couldn't go five minutes without him prompting a belly laugh from you.
You paused in front of a small shop, your eyes catching a delicate necklace in the display window. A thin chain with a tiny, intricate charm glinting in the sunlightâit was beautiful. Your breath caught.
âOh⊠thatâs gorgeous.â You murmured, pressing your palm lightly against the glass.
Theodore leaned over, following your gaze. His eyes softened when he saw the necklace, âYou like it?â
âI do⊠butâŠâ Your voice trailed off as you peeked at the price tag. Your eyes widened, âbut I do not love the price tag.â
The bell above the shop door jingled as you both entered. You wandered near the counter, trying to convince yourself it was just a dream. Theodore approached the shopkeeper, exchanged a few words, and before you could even process what was happening, the necklace was being handed to you in a small, neatly wrapped box.
You stared at it, then at him, âNo⊠no, you canât. This is way too expensive. I canâtââ
âItâs only ten Galleons.â He said, clearly perplexed by your reaction.
âOnly⊠ten Galleons?â You repeated, your voice rising slightly in surprise, âThatâs⊠thatâs like⊠my entire pocket money for the next two months!â
Theodore smirked, as if your shock were the most amusing thing heâd seen all day, âYes, and? Youâre my girl. You like it, you get it. Whatâs the problem?â
The problem was you weren't really his girl.
So, why was he going out of his way to behave like you were? This was a question that had stayed in your head since that first night in Hogsmeade. What was he getting out of this? Why would he be so readily enthusiastic in your plan when it was clear you were the only one truly benefitting from this?
When you met his eyes again, stormy blue that looked green in some lights, the questioned died on your tongue.
Because whatever the reason, you weren't sure you wanted him to stop.
You stared at him, half in disbelief, half in awe, âYouâreally? Youâre just⊠giving it to me?â
You laughed, shaking your head in disbelief as you let him fasten the necklace around your neck. The charm glinted against your chest, and the warmth of the gesture left you grinning.
When you turned to meet his eyes again, you smiled bashfully up at him before leaning in to press a soft kiss against his cheek.
Theo froze in surprise the second your lips touched his cold skin, and the sight of his startled expression made something warm bloom in your stomach.
It wasnât like you hadnât done more than thatâin fact, in your persistence to prove to your exes that you were well past moved on, youâd taken to making out with Theo in nearly every public space Hogwarts had to offer. And if it wasnât that, it was the way he always had an arm around you, casual and possessive, no matter where you went.
So the fact that something as small as a cheek kiss could knock him off guard made you smile. Made you feel like all the intimacy you shared wasnât just a front. Wasnât all fake.
âThank you.â You whispered.
You settled cross-legged on the soft carpet of the Slytherin common room, leaning back against Theodoreâs legs as he sat comfortably on the couch. His hands were busy in your hair, while his scarf lay draped across your lap. Carefully, you threaded the fringe at the end of the scarf, showing him how to braid it so he could mimic the motion on your hair.
âSo then you take this left strand and bring it overâit becomes the new center strandâand then you bring the new right strand and bring it over.â You explained, feeling the occasional tug on your hair. You immediately noticed the braid slipping.
âIt keeps slipping⊠your hair is too greasy.â He muttered, brow furrowed.
You scoffed, feigning offense, âI think you mean⊠smooth and silky.â
âThis isnât working.â He grumbled, letting go of your hair and starting over, separating it into three neat parts.
âBaby, this is the easiest braid ever. Youâre going to faint when I teach you about a Dutch braid.â You teased, tugging gently on a strand to demonstrate.
Before he could respond, the door creaked open and Mattheo sauntered in, smirk plastered across his face. âOhhh, what do we have here?â He drawled, â(Y/N) (L/N), Hogwartsâ first houseless student considering we never see her in her own common room, and Theodore Nott, her loyal⊠dog.â
He then grimaced at the sight of the two of you, âCan yâall not do this in a public space? Some of us think the sight of happy couples is enough to induce projectile vomiting.â
Theo didnât flinch, though the corner of his mouth tugged into a small smirk. You felt a small thrill as his thumb grazed the space under your ear, leading to your neck, grounding you in the moment.
You raised a brow, voice dripping with mock menace, âYou really wanna piss me off when Iâm at prime height to punch you in the balls?â
Mattheo rolled his eyes and collapsed onto the couch, still grinning, âYouâre coming to Theoâs birthday next Friday, right? Considering you practically live here.â
You hesitated, unsure, âI⊠I donât know. I meanââ
Theo leaned over you, pressing a soft kiss to the crown of your head. âYou'll be there right?â He murmured, voice low and coaxing, the simple gesture making your chest tighten, "Please?"
You bit back a smile, looking up at him, and realized there was no way you could say noânot when he asked like that.
You stepped into the Slytherin common room, barely able to hear your own thoughts over the bass that rattled the walls. It thudded deep in your chest, vibrating through your bones as you descended the staircase to the dungeons.
The room was packed, bodies moving together in a blur beneath the strobing lights, faces indistinguishable in the chaos. But your eyes found Theo instantly. He was surrounded by his friends, laughing at something Mattheo said, until his gaze landed on you.
His entire expression shiftedâlit up like you were the only thing in the room. Without a second thought, he left them behind and crossed the room to meet you at the base of the stairs.
His eyes swept over your little black dress, the necklace he gifted you resting prettily on your collarbones, and his hands found their way to your waistâlow, possessive, warm against the thin fabric,
"Che bella, carissima."
"Happy birthday, Theo." You murmured, your palms resting lightly against his chest.
"Grazie, dolcezza." He replied, voice low and smooth as he leaned in. His mouth met yours without hesitation, your fingers sliding into his hair. Lip gloss smudged against his skin, and the artificial taste of lollipop lippie flooded both your mouths.
If you hadnât been so caught up in the kiss, maybe you wouldâve questioned it. Why you were kissing Theo when neither your boyfriend nor your best friend was anywhere in sight. Why you were feeding into the rumor mill in the shadowy corner of the common room instead of center stage where everyone could see.
Maybe you wouldâve wondered why you shaved your legs, wore the dress that made your breasts look perfect, took extra time curling your hair, and reached for the expensive perfume you saved for special occasions.
But with Theoâs fingers brushing bare skin along your spineâthanks to the low back of your dressâthose thoughts didnât stand a chance.
You pulled away, laughing softly at the sight of glittery gloss smeared across his lips. You tried to wipe it away with your thumbs, but that proved nearly impossible when he kept catching your fingers in quick kisses.
"I have a present for you." You whispered, revealing the small gift bag youâd kept tucked behind your back. Theo pressed a kiss to your temple before taking it, digging through the tissue paper until he pulled out a steel flaskâcool, heavy, and etched with intricate designs like something stolen from an ancient temple.
When he felt the liquid slosh inside, he unscrewed the cap and took a sip, brows lifting in surprise when the familiar taste hit his tongue.
"I cast a replenishing spell on it," You explained, "When it runs out, itâll refill on its own."
His lips curved in a slow smile, still holding your gaze.
"I was just thinking about that day you said youâd miss my cocoa," You added, "SoâŠI thought youâd appreciate it."
Theo chuckled quietly, looking down at the flask with an expression you couldnât quite readâsomething deeper than amusement.
"Do youâŠnot like it?" You asked after a beat.
He shook his head immediately, "I adore it, pretty girl."
Before you could respond, Mattheoâs voice cut through the music.
"If you guys are done ASSAULTING OUR EYEBALLSâ" You both rolled your eyes in perfect unison, "âITâS TIME FOR CAKE!"
You followed the crowd toward the long table where the cake waited, candles flickering under the dim lights. You expected to melt into the group somewhere between Enzo and Blaise, but before you could even drift in that direction, Theoâs hand shot out, curling firmly around your wrist.
âWhere do you think youâre going, Dolcezza?â He murmured, tugging you to stand at his sideâhis spotâright in front of the cake.
âTheo,â You hissed under your breath, âitâs your birthday, I should beââ
âYou're exactly where you should be.â He cut you off smoothly, eyes glinting in the candlelight. His hand didn't lift from your waist, keeping you pinned to his side, the faint smell of smoke and cocoa clinging to him like a second skin.
You didnât have time to argue before Blaise slid over, holding out a small slip of parchment and a quill, âHere you go, mate."
Your brows furrowed, âWhatâs this?â
Theo took the quill without hesitation, his head bending low as he scribbled something on the paper in quick, sure strokes.
âItâs an old Nott thing,â Mattheo explained, âBirthday boy writes down a wish, folds it, and keeps it with him until it comes true. Youâre not supposed to tell anyone what it is.â
Theo didnât even glance up, just folded the parchment neatly, tucking it into the inner pocket of his jacket with deliberate care.
âAnd you keep it on you?â You asked, curiosity getting the better of you.
âAlways,â Theo said simply. His gaze met yours, sharp enough to make your stomach twist, âA wish doesnât work if you let it out too soon.â
You shouldâve looked away, but there was something about the weight of his stareâlike whatever heâd written down was more dangerous than anyone else in the room realized.
âNow,â Mattheo groaned, breaking the tension, âcan we please sing so I can eat some damn cake?"
You laughed, but your mind was already racing, replaying the way Theoâs lips had curved just slightly when heâd sealed the parchment away.
And for the first time, you wondered if that wish had anything to do with you.
The common room was a haze of dancing bodies, flashing lights, and the faint tang of cider and punch. Youâd just come back from the corridor with Theo, the warmth of his hand still lingering on your waist, when Mattheo leaned over with a mischievous grin.
âYou need to try this,â He said, holding out a tall glass filled with a neon-colored drink. At the bottom, a small, bright candy rested like a hidden treasure, âItâs our latest cocktailâsweet and sour. The sweetness of the drink with the sour candy at the bottom is fucking good.â
You raised an eyebrow, examining the glass that looked radioactive, "This looks cursed."
"It's good, baby," Theo said smoothly, eyes sparkling as he handed you the glass, âYou should give it a try.â
With a shrug and a laugh, you took a sip. At first, it was sweet, almost pleasant. Then your tongue hit the candy, and your eyes widened in shock. Your face scrunched up immediately.
âOhâoh my god,â You choked out, spitting it back a little, "This is awful! I feel like I'm sucking on a lemon!"
Theo chuckled low, leaning closer, his hand brushing against yours as he reached for the glass. âGive it here.â He murmured, voice teasing.
You held the candy between your teeth, letting him tilt your head and take it into his mouth. The kiss that followed was slow, teasing, and intimate, the world around you fading as he skillfully removed the candy without breaking the connection between your lips. Your hands found their way into his hair, fingers tangling naturally like it does whenever you kiss.
When he finally pulled back slightly, forehead resting against yours, his eyes shone with playful delight, "You're crazy," He said, swishing the candy around in his mouth, "This is delicious."
"You two are disgusting." Mattheo muttered again, shaking his head.
Youâd slipped out into the quieter corridor for a momentâs reprieve. The cool dungeon air was a relief after the heat of the crowd.
You were seated on one of the stairs, catching your breath, when footsteps echoed down the hall. You didnât turn, but the scent of Theo hit your senses the moment he draped his jacket around your shoulders and settled beside you.
âHi.â You murmured, leaning your head down to rest on your knees, offering a small, tired smile.
âHi. You alright?â
You nodded, âJust a little tipsy. I needed some air.â
âOh, I know just what to do about that.â He teased, reaching into his jacket and pulling out the flask you had gifted him. You chuckled as he opened it, handing it to you, steam curling into the cold air. You took a few sips, letting the warmth spread through you.
âWhen I said I was going to miss your cocoa,â He began, a hint of mischief in his voice, âI didnât mean you should give me a lifetime supply.â
Your brows furrowed, a pang of worry settling in your chest. Did he not like the present?
"I donât want the flask if it means you wonât be around to share it with me,â He said softly, leaning closer so only you could hear, âIâve always just wanted you."
You took a sharp inhale, your heart beginning to pound against your ribcage.
"AreâAre you being serious?"
He didnât answer immediately. Instead, he reached into his pocket and held something out between two fingersâa folded slip of parchment, worn at the edges, looking as though it might crumble if handled too roughly.
You frowned, âWhatâs this?â
âMy birthday wish from last year.â He said simply.
You blinked, âWonât giving it to me mean it wonât come true?â
His lips curved into that maddening, calm smile, âTake a look.â
You hesitated, then unfolded the paper. The ink was slightly smudged, but the words were unmistakable:
I wish for (Y/N) to notice me.
Your stomach flipped in disbelief, âTheoâŠâ
âIâve been in love with you for as long as I can remember.â
The air seemed to thin around you, your pulse loud in your ears, âYou⊠youâre serious?â
He nodded, âIâve felt this way for a long time. I thought last year would finally be the year I made my move, but then you started dating him, and I thought I lost my chance.â
âI didnât know you felt that way.â You whispered.
âI was ecstatic when you finally turned your attention to me that night. Not the way I wanted at first, maybe, but I was never going to let that chance get away from me.â
You didnât know whether to laugh or cry, your chest tightening with a mix of disbelief and relief. Theoâs eyes were locked on yours, calm and steady, but filled with something so raw it made your heart thrum.
Your hands trembled slightly as you reached up to brush a stray lock of hair from his face, fingers lingering at his jaw. âSo⊠all of thisââ you gestured between the two of you, ââthe fake dating, the kissing, the⊠everything⊠it wasnât just to get back at them?â
He chuckled softly, shaking his head, âNo. That part was fun, Iâll admit. But it wasnât the real reason I wanted to be close to you.â His hand slid over yours, palm warm against yours, grounding you, âIâve wanted this⊠wanted you⊠for longer than you can imagine.â
Your heart lurched, a mixture of relief and longing flooding through you, âTheoâŠâ
He leaned closer, forehead resting against yours, voice just above a whisper, âSo, what do you say? No more pretending. No more games. Just⊠us.â
Something inside you brokeâyears of tension, uncertainty, and longing unraveling in a single heartbeat. You cupped his face in your hands, leaning into him fully, âOkay,â You breathed, âJust us.â
His grin widened, a triumphant glint in his stormy eyes, and he kissed youâslow, deep, and deliberate, every touch and press of his lips sealing the promise between you. No pretense, no lies. Just the two of you, finally, fully together.
The two of you stayed there for a while, wrapped in each otherâs warmth, the distant thrum of the party fading into nothing. The world had narrowed to just you, just him, and the long-awaited start of something neither of you wanted to hide ever again.
Bonus:
Breakfast in the Great Hall felt different that morning.
Youâd think that after months of this routine with Theo, another morning spent at his side wouldnât feel so significant. But it did. Everything felt sharper, warmer. You didnât feel like you had to prove anything anymore. You didnât feel like you had to put on a show. The hand holding yours was hidden beneath the table, but you didnât care if anyone sawâor if they didnât. It didnât matter anymore.
And yet, despite everything shifting, you and Theo were still the sameâfalling into that easy rhythm, voices low as you traded quiet jokes. Only now, you noticed the way it felt different. How intimate it was when Theoâs gaze lingered not just on your eyes but flickered, unconsciously, down to your lips. How he looked at you like you were the only thing in the room, even in the middle of the bustling Hall.
How had you missed all the signs before?
Theo was brushing a crumb from the corner of your mouth with his thumb when the bliss cracked.
âEveryone!â
The word boomed too loud, slicing through the clatter of cutlery and low chatter. Your entire body stiffened before you even turned around. Of course. Him.
Your ex stood in the aisle, puffed up with self-importance, chest thrown back like heâd just mounted a stage. He had that smug gleam in his eyes, the kind that screamed heâd practiced this speech in the mirror ten times over.
âI think itâs time you all knew the truth about Theodore Nott and (Y/N) (L/N).â He announced, every syllable dripping with fake triumph. He cut a sharp look at you, then Theo, then back to the sea of students now staring.
The Hall quieted, curiosity winning out. Even the Gryffindors craned their necks, waiting for drama.
âTheyâve only been pretending to date,â He declared, letting the word hang in the air, âTo make me jealous.â
His voice swelled with self-satisfaction, like heâd just solved some grand mystery.
Your hand tightened around Theo's.
âYou donât have to keep pretending just to get back at me. I get it. I was angry too when we ended, butââ He paused, putting on his most magnanimous smile, âIâll forgive you. Iâll take you back.â
The silence that followed was⊠brutal. Half a beat too long.
Slowly, you let your gaze driftânot at him, but across the Hall, to where his so-called new love sat, her expression crumbling as her boyfriend publicly begged for you.
A smirk ghosted across your lips, satisfaction unfurling in your chest. I warned her, you thought. You told her heâd betray her the same way heâd betrayed you. Youâd just assumed heâd run to someone new. But noâheâd come crawling right back. Pathetic. Maybe you really were just too good to forget.
A ripple of laughter broke out along the Gryffindor table. Somewhere down the line, a Ravenclaw girl snorted so hard pumpkin juice sprayed out of her nose. Even some of the Slytherins traded incredulous looks, smirks curling as if to say, is he serious?
"He has officially lost the plot." Someone muttered loud enough for half the Hall to hear. Someone else chortled in response.
Your exâs confident smile faltered.
Blaise Zabini leaned lazily on his elbows, his voice carrying just enough to cut through the hush. âPretending?â He gestured toward you and Theo with a casual flick of his hand. âMate, the whole castleâs been gagging on their PDA for months.â
Someone else piped up, "Yeah. If thatâs pretend, then they deserve Oscars. The way he looks at herâlike sheâs the only thing in the worldâyouâd have to be blind to miss it.â
You chuckled, dropping your gaze from the pathetic sight in front of you and turned back to your current boyfriend, who only smirked at you, though you could see the tenderness that lay underneath, "See? Everyone else could see I was gone for you before you did."
Bonus bonus: (Ten years later)
The day you first kissed Theodore Nott was arguably one of the worst days of your life, despite all the good that eventually came from it. The betrayal of seeing the person you loved cheat on you with your best friend was a wound so deep it had reshaped you.
Theo had always claimed he was glad heâd never experienced anything like it. Until the same thing happened to him.
âThis is killing me,â He muttered, pacing the length of your shared bedroom like a man awaiting his execution. His hands dragged through his hair, his voice raw, âI hope you know that.â
Your throat tightened, but you forced an eyeroll, masking your sympathy with irritation, âTheo, itâs not that big of a deal. Will you stop getting your knickers twisted?â
He whirled on you, eyes blazing. âNot a big deal? Not a bigââ He broke off, laughing bitterly, âYou were so betrayed when this happened to you that you practically tore their lives apart. And now you expect me to justâwhat? Pretend Iâm fine?â
You scoffed, folding your arms, âWe are not comparing the biggest betrayal of my life with your daughter having a crush on Mattheo.â
The air went still.
Theo staggered back a step, like youâd struck him. His face twisted in horror as his hand clutched his chest. âDonât say it out loud.â He croaked, his voice breaking.
He looked genuinely wounded, muttering under his breath as though mourning a death, âI raised her better than thisâŠShe used to want to marry me!â
Before you could roll your eyes again, the shrill ding-dong of the doorbell cut through the tension.
Theo froze mid-step, every muscle in his body going taut. Slowly, his head turned toward the door like a man staring down a firing squad.
And thenâ
âHEâS HERE!â
Your three-year-old's shriek echoed down the hall, followed by the thunder of little feet pounding against the floorboards. She practically skidded into the foyer, hair wild, socks sliding on the wood as she lunged for the door.
âBianca, you know you're not allowed to open the door without us!â Theo barked, but it was too late.
The door swung wide.
Mattheo Riddle stood there, casual, self-assured, hands shoved in his pockets. A faint, rakish smirk tugged at his lips. With the leather jacket and helmet under his arm, it was easy to see why your daughter was utterly smitten. Had you not known the fool he was during school, you might have been just as captivated.
âHi.â He drawled, eyes immediately landing on his god-daughter.
âUNCLE MATTHEO!â Bianca squealed, launching herself into his arms without hesitation. He caught her with practiced ease, lifting and spinning her once before settling her on his hip.
Mattheo shifted her higher onto his hip, grinning like he owned the place, âAnd whoâs my favorite girl?â
âMe!â She squealed, giggling as she buried her face into his shoulder.
Theoâs jaw clenched so tight you swore you heard it crack. His knuckles whitened at his sides, and he took one menacing step forward like he was about to snatch his daughter back by force.
Mattheo, utterly unbothered, tilted his head, smirk widening. âI see someoneâs cranky.â He teased lightly, holding Bianca closer with a teasing flourish.
"(Y/N) did not go through 14 hours of aggravating labour for this horrendous display."
âNow you know how I felt all those years back at Hogwarts, watching you two glued to each otherâs lips like a bad romance novel.â
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summary: neteyam keeps coming to your tent; first with wounds, then excuses, then nothing at all. teasing and care turn to trust and unspoken feelings. it isn't until he returns with a serious injury that the truth finally unfolds.
warnings: pure yearning. mostly fluffy and a bit of pining, but there is also some angst.
word count: 1.9k
tsakarem - tsahĂŹk-in-training.
paysyul flower - water lily.
The first time he limps into your healing tent, heâs all arrogance and sharp edges. Â
A gash runs down his thigh; deep enough to need stitching, shallow enough that he insists itâs nothing. Â
"Sit," you command, voice steady despite the way his towering frame fills the space. Â
He smirks, blood dripping between his fingers, but obliges. "Didnât take you for the bossy type, tsakarem," he teases surveying your features for a reaction.
You ignore him, gathering yalna bark and spider silk. When you kneel beside him, his breath hitches, just once, as your fingers skim his skin. Â
"This will sting," you warn. Â
He leans in, voices a low rumble. "I like it when it stings."Â
You swallow hard.
With practiced care, you smooth the thick paste along the wound, nimble fingers gentle against his skin. Taking the thread, you begin stitching the edges closed, each careful pull precise and steady, your focus unwavering as you work to ease the pain and ensure the wound heals cleanly.
He barely moves beneath your touch, jaw clenched as he watches you from beneath his lashes. You murmur soft reassurances as you work, reminding him to breathe, your thumb brushing lightly over his skin whenever his muscles tense.Â
When the last stitch is tied off, you press a clean cloth over the wound, checking your work with a quiet nod, before sending him off.
Three eclipses later, heâs back â this time with a bruised rib. Â
"Fell off a branch," he mumbles, wincing as you prod the swelling. Â
You arch a brow suspiciously. "You? The great warrior⊠fell?â
His laughter is warm, and closer than necessary. "Maybe I just wanted to hear you scold me again."
Your hands hesitate over his ribs. His heartbeat thrumming beneath your fingertips. âYou need to be more careful, Neteyam,â you chastise, unimpressed at his new-found clumsiness.
Your hands still, clicking your tongue. âOne day I wonât be here to patch you up.â
You reach for the salve anyway, smoothing it over the bruise with gentle pressure. He hisses, then relaxes, leaning subtly into your touch as if the pain is worth it just to be here; under your careful hands and watchful gaze.
His smile falters, just a fraction, at your words. âYeah,â he murmurs, quieter now. âBut you are now.â
A soft smile tugs at your lips. You glance up at him, warmth settling in your chest as your thumb traces a soothing circle near the bruise.
âYou enjoy this too much,â you mutter, face falling serious, trying to sound stern.
âMaybe,â he replies softly, eyes fixed on your face. âBut I trust you.â
The next time, his excuse is thinner than mist. You have to suppress the urge to roll your eyes.Â
A shallow scratch across his palm; barely deserving of the poultice you press to it.
But when your fingers linger, he turns his hand, his touch grazing yours, almost â almost â intertwining. The contact sends a quiet jolt up your arm, unwelcome yet undeniable.
âTell me, healer,â he murmurs, fingers brushing over your knuckles, voice low and deliberate. âDo you tend to all the warriors⊠or just me?â
Your pulse stutters. âJust the reckless ones,â you scoff, forcing a lightness into your tone as you dab the salve more firmly than necessary.
He doesnât pull away. Instead, his grin widens, all trouble and fangs. âLucky me.â
You finally look up at him then, catching the way his eyes linger â soft, searching, entirely too familiar. For a fleeting moment, neither of you moves, the air between you taut with something unspoken, before you clear your throat and tug your hand free, pretending your heart isnât racing.
âAll done.â
He gives you a knowing look, head tilting slightly. Your gaze does not meet his, and your fingers writhe gently in your lap. He rises silently uttering a careful âthank youâ before disappearing behind the flaps of your tent.
Then comes the night he arrives with no wound at all. Â
Just a single, perfect paysyul flower â rare, delicate, glowing softly in the dark. Â
"For you," he says, uncharacteristically quiet. Â
You stare at his outstretched hand offering you the delicate bundle of petals. Your body is enveloped by a warmth akin to the sun-soaked shallows of the forest, where the water holds heat long after the day has faded; it paints your face with a faint violet tint, and causes a familiar fluttering sensation in your chest.
His fingers brush yours as you take the flower, his touch too deliberate to be accidental. The petals glow softly between your hands, casting shimmering reflections across his face, illuminating the quiet intensity in his golden eyes. Â
"You⊠brought me this?" you ask, voice barely above a whisper. Â
He steps closer, close enough that you can feel the heat radiating from him, and can catch the scent of earth and morning dew clinging to his skin. Â
"Couldnât think of a better excuse to see you," he admits, voice rough at the edges. His thumb grazes your wrist before he adds, softer. "Missed you."Â
The confession lingers in the air between you, fragile as the flowerâs glow. Â
And then âÂ
His hand slides up to cradle your jaw, tilting your face toward his. Â
"Tell me to stop," he murmurs, lips hovering so near yours you can taste his breath, sweet with the nectar of the forest. Â
You donât. Â
The moment hangs, heavy with anticipation. His thumb is tracing circles on your jaw, his gaze locked on your lips. You can feel his breath against your skin, warm and just slightly desperate. Â
And then, from outside the camp, the sound of footsteps and a familiar voice rings through the nightâŠÂ Â
"Neteyam!"Â Â
His head snaps up, eyes flashing with irritation, before he lets out a sigh, almost annoyed. "Damn it,â he mumbles with a small huff.
"What is it?" he calls back, not taking his hand off your cheek. Your skin burns where he holds you, blush deepening into a plum hue.
A few moments later, a figure appears behind the tent flap. Loâak peers curiously, his gaze flicking between you and his brother for a beat. He arches a brow, taking in the sight of Neteyamâs fingers now shifted underneath your chin, before an amused smile creeps onto his face. Â
"Whatâs this?" he asks, feigning surprise. "Am I interrupting something here?"Â
Neteyam shoots him a warning glare. "What do you want, Loâak?"
Loâak doesnât miss your reaction, or the way Neteyamâs grip tightens slightly, his thumb pressing into your skin like heâs silently staking a claim. Â
A slow, shit-eating grin spreads across Loâakâs face. Â
"Ohhh," he drawls, crossing his arms. "So this is where youâve been sneaking off too lately." His eyes flick to you, mischief dancing in them. "Funny how you only seem to get hurt when sheâs on healing duty, bro."Â Â
Neteyamâs jaw clenches â hard.Â
"Loâak," he growls, voice low and dangerous. Â
But his little brother just laughs, backing away with his hands raised in mock surrender. "Alright, alright! Sorry to interrupt... whatever this is." He wiggles his eyebrows. "But dad wants you for something."
And with that, he ducks out of the tent, leaving behind only the sound of his fading laughter and tension thick enough to choke on.Â
Neteyam stops showing up with flimsy excuses. The playful tension between you fades into something quieter, made of lingering glances, fleeting brushes of fingers â but nothing more. Â
Then, one night, the tent flaps burst open. Â
Loâak stumbles in, panting, Neteyam slumped heavily against him. Blood soaks through his chest wrap, his breaths ragged. Your stomach plummets. Â
"What happened?" you demand, already moving, hands steady despite the panic clawing up your throat. Â
"Stupid ikran hunt," Loâak grits out, lowering him onto the mat. "Tried to show off â got clipped mid-dive."Â Â
Neteyamâs eyes flutter open, hazy with pain. But when they land on you, his lips twitch weakly. "...Missed you," he slurs, delirious. Â
Your hands tremble as you peel back the fabric, revealing the deep gash across his ribs.
"You idiot," you whisper, pressing a dapophet pad to the wound. "You couldâve died."Â Â
His fingers brush your wrist, barely a ghost of touch. "Worth it⊠to see you⊠scowl like that." Â
Loâak groans. "Oh my Eywa, half-dead and heâs still flirting."Â Â
You ignore him, focusing on the way Neteyamâs breath hitches when your fingers trace his skin; gentle, but firm. Â
"Donât you dare bleed out on me," you murmur, voice thick. Â
His hand finds yours, squeezing weakly. "...Wouldnât dream of it, baby."
Your heart pounds out a desperate rhythm as you work, trying to stay focused on the task at hand, but he keeps making it worse. Every ragged breath, every brush of skin, every stolen glance sends adrenaline surging through your veins. Â
Loâak watches quietly from the side, his amusement replaced with concern. He knows better than to distract you, but his eyes flit between you and his brother with growing curiosity. Â
Neteyamâs gaze is hazy, fever-bright, but still filled with an almost reverent fascination. His fingers find your wrist again, a little firmer this time. The salve stings, but Neteyam doesnât flinch. His eyes stay locked on yours, even as sweat beads at his temples, even as his fingers twitch against the mat.Â
You lean closer, checking the stitching. "Youâre lucky it didnât puncture your lung," you mutter, trying to ignore the way his breath hitches when your fingers graze his bare ribs. Â
His hand suddenly catches yours, pressing your palm flat against his chest, right over his pounding heartbeat. Â
"Feel that?" he rasps. Â
You freeze. Â
"Thatâs you," he continues, voice rough with pain and something else entirely. "Every time you touch me â every damn time â it does that."
Your breath catches. Â
Loâak, still hovering near the entrance, makes a strangled noise. "Okay, Iâm out. Iâll justâ go tell Dad youâre not dead."Â
The tent flaps swish shut behind him, a silence following.
Neteyamâs thumb strokes your wrist. "Stay," he murmurs. Â
"Iâm your healer," you whisper, trembling. "I have to."Â Â
He shakes his head, wincing at the movement. "Not⊠what I meant."Â
And then â weak but determined â he tugs you down until your forehead rests against his, his breath mingling with yours. Â
"Stay after," he clarifies, voice raw. "When Iâm not just⊠another wound to fix."Â
Your pulse thrums where your skin meets his. Â
Outside, the wind rustles the leaves. Inside, something fragile and long-avoided finally snaps.
You let out a breath shakily, his words settling deep within you. He had stumbled his way into your tent â your life â and had made a home out of your heart.
"I could never leave you," you begin. "You know that. I've always been hereâ waiting." You take another breath, letting it fill your lungs before you continue, "I will always be with you.â Another breath.
âI see you.â
His grip tightens around your hand, desperate and reverent, words feeling as though they are caught in his throat.
âSay it again," he breathes, voice cracking. Â
You donât hesitate. Â
âI see you.â
A shudder runs through him â half pain, half relief âbefore he tugs you even closer, your lips hovering just above his, sharing the same air, the same heartbeat. Â
"Took you long enough," he rasps, but thereâs no bite to it, just warmth; just yours. âI see you.âÂ
And when his eyes finally flutter shut from exhaustion, his fingers stay tangled with yours. Â
the deets â lo'ak is the black sheep in the family, clinging to honor by a precarious thread. you are the well-loved songstress in the tribe. he should resent you for being everything he's not, but his fickle heart can't bring him to do so.
the who â lo'ak x fem omatikaya!reader
the word count â 10.2k (rip yall)
the tags â (one-sided) rivals-to-lovers, angsty angsty, hurt / comfort, reader gives lo'ak a big ol smooch (perhaps more than one), loâak is the biggest dumbass and because of this heâs mean asf, reader has a big ol heart and just really wants loâak to like her, aged!up characters for maturityâs sake.Â
the warnings â language, lo'ak is in luv but doesn't realize it, he's in denial that the feelings could be reciprocated, this is super dramatic so put your seat belts on!
the notes â was feeling extra sad and wanted to write something self-indulgent. this lovely anon requested something, and i used their ask as inspiration to finish this beast. fine line, bags, and love in dark are the three main songs i listened to finish this, so if you wanna be in your feels, have a listen LMAO. despite all the support, iâm still so mf nervous posting this ejsjsjdjs
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SOMETHING UGLY KINDLES IN THE PIT of Lo'ak's stomach at the mere mention of your name. It's sour on his tongue, bitter in his brain. He doesn't know when he's started to feel like this, started to feel absolutely dreadful anytime he'd hear the timbre of your voice.Â
It's warm, thick like nectar and it makes him sick.Â
Ever since you all were little, the elders crooned over what a great girl you were growing into; strong, intelligent, beautiful. It made him boil how much they'd sing your praises, the high esteem everyone held you in as one of the clan's most talented.Â
Something dull would pick at him being compared to his older brother, but nothing burned more than being compared to you.Â
Maybe it's because it's always implied whenever your names share the same sentences, that lingering implication that he could be more like you. The clan fans the flames of your mere existence while Lo'ak is snuffed out like a dying fire.Â
He hates it. He hates you.Â
He thinks.Â
It'd be easier to, if you were awful behind the scenes. Arrogant, stuck up, but you're none of those things. You're kind, gentle, mighty when you need to be. It doesn't help that you shine like the brightest star, engulfing everyone in your light, in your warmth.Â
But Lo'ak resists. He sees right through you, sees right through every saccharine smile you send him. He can see it in your eyes, how you really see him. Despite standing a full head taller than you, he sees the way you look down your nose at him.Â
It grates his nerves, how disgustingly sweet you are towards him despite all attempts to rebuff you.Â
Certainly doesnât soothe his ego when you always seem to be around the bend every time he gets bitched at by the clan, eyes soft and filled with pity. To add insult to injury, you frequently tail him like a shadow after these moments when all he wants is to be alone.Â
Like now, you linger.Â
It's after dinner and Kiri and Spider stand before him. They come together like the three points of a triangle and you stand an awkward distance away from them.Â
Kiri notices you first, her face splitting into a big smile as she waves you over.Â
Lo'ak breathes a deep sigh before locking eyes with Spider who tries his best to suppress an amused grin.Â
âHi,â you chirp and Lo'ak can't help but roll his eyes.Â
Spider and Kiri greet you eagerly. Lo'ak simply nods his head in acknowledgement before tightening his fist around his dagger.Â
âWe going or what?â he finally says.Â
You perk up.Â
âWhere are you guys heading off to?â you ask curiously, hands clasped behind your back.
Spider opens his mouth to answer, but Lo'ak cuts him off quickly.Â
âNo where important,â he says, unsure if you'll blab about their whereabouts to the elders, or worse, his parents.Â
You roll your lips and shift on your feet.Â
âCan I come?â you ask hesitantly, eyes hopeful.Â
Kiri's smile grows as she links her arm with yours.Â
âNo,â he says sharply. âAbsolutely not.âÂ
Your face falls and something pulls inside his chest when you fail meet his gaze, your frown barely perceptible.Â
You make a move to pull from Kiri's grasp, but her arm tightens through yours. She levels Lo'ak with a weighty glare and you fidget uncomfortably under his narrowed eyes.Â
âDon't worry about it,â you say, like someone's hit a reset button. You smile that pretty smile and Lo'ak wants to scream. "It's okay, I think Rutan needs help with clean up."Â
You slip from Kiri's grasp and the three watch you walk off.Â
âDo you always have to be such a bitch?â Spider scoffs a disbelieving laugh.Â
âShe's just gonna tag along so she can snitch,â Lo'ak grumbles.Â
âOh c'mon,â Kiri argues. â________ just wants friends.â
Lo'ak sneers.Â
âI don't want to be friends with her,â he says firmly, knuckles white around the handle of his knife.
âWeirdo,â Spider mumbles. âSheâs cute. Think she likes you.â
Lo'ak's spine stiffens.
âIt's an actâ Lo'ak grumbles. âShe just wants to look good in front of the elders to keep up whatever nice girl show she's putting on.âÂ
Kiri rolls her eyes hard.Â
There are moments when Lo'ak thinks he's being harsh, but he can't help himself. It's like he loses all semblance of a filter when it comes to you.Â
âHi, Lo'ak,â you greet him sweetly, lowering yourself onto the fallen log he's perched on, fashioning arrows to practice with later on in the evening with Neteyam.Â
He shifts away from you, putting the distance of two bodies between the two of you as he pauses his task at hand.Â
âHi,â he says flatly.Â
âCan I help?â you ask tentatively, fingers twitching towards one of the untouched sticks in a pile next to his feet.Â
His kicks them closer to himself, out of your reach before leveling you with a sharp glare.Â
âNo thanks,â he says quickly and you recoil slowly, letting out a shaky laugh before fixing that stupid smile on your pretty face.Â
âOh, sorry,â you apologize, straightening in your seat.Â
A silence so uncomfortably palpable settles over the two of you as you shift so that your knees are turned towards him.Â
His throat bobs when his gaze travels from your little toes all the way up to your inquisitive gaze, golden and searching. It makes something unruly settle in his gut and he turns his attention back to carving his arrows.Â
âDo you need something?â he breaks the silence finally. âI'm kinda busy.â
You bite your lip before scooting a little closer to Lo'ak's hunched figure.Â
âMy birthday's coming up,â you start.Â
âI'm aware,â Lo'ak almost scoffs.Â
It's all the clan has been able to talk about for the past few days. How they'd be able to prepare for the golden girl's next birth cycle and what they'd be able to do to make you smile the brightest.Â
âYour birthday is a week before,â you state and his head whips towards you.Â
âHow do you know that?â he asks sharply, accusation heavy in his gruff tone.Â
You flinch and he falters for a moment before your smile simply widens.Â
âWe grew up together, Lo'ak,â you say and the way his name sounds from your mouth sounds absolutely heavenly. âYou're my friend.â
Friend.Â
He scowls at the term.
âWe're not friends,â he bites back.Â
If the statement bothers you, you don't show it, simply tucking a strand of hair behind your ear before putting on a brave face.Â
âI want to celebrate with you,â you say shyly.Â
âHard pass,â he says too quickly, gathering his sticks and fashioned arrows under his grasp.Â
He leaves you in the clearing on your own.
You must be fucking with him. You have to be. It'd be the only explanation for why Jake pulls him aside a few nights later and tells him that you've requested to work with him and Neteyam during archery practice.Â
âNo,â he says stiffly, shaking his head.Â
His dad levels him with a hard glare and Lo'ak sighs deeply.Â
âShe's a nuisance, Dad,â he argues. âMe and Neteyam are making good progress with our training and we'll have to start at square one if she joins.â
âLo'ak, this isn't an ask,â Jake says sternly.Â
âBut, Dad!â
âLo'ak.â
Lo'ak huffs, snatching his bow and quiver angrily before storming off.Â
âYou're doing great,â Neteyam says to you once the three of you have convened in the training circle.Â
The three arrows you've shot have all landed within centimeters of the mark and to say that Neteyam is impressed is an understatement. Lo'ak, on the other hand, fumes not-so-silently as he tears his arrows from his target.Â
Yet again, you have another person wrapped around your finger and it makes his blood simmer as he assumes his position at the marker and loads his arrow. It splinters through the air and hits the target right on the bullseye. The arrow punctures through the hide and lodges its way into the wood from the sheer force of Loâakâs shot.Â
You start at him moon-eyed, lush lips breaking into a full smile.Â
âPerfect shot,â you observe. âThat was awesome.âÂ
Loâak scans your features hesitantly before his gaze flits to his older brother, waiting for any acknowledgment that heâd done a great job, but Neteyam is taking notes on the arrows still stuck in the fabric of your own target.Â
His heart sinks.Â
âFuck this,â Loâak grumbles, bundling all of his belongings.
He stalks through the clearing, past his brother, to leave you two.Â
He doesnât know what fuels the fire more, the fact that Neteyam didnât even bat an eye at the feat theyâd been practicing for for the past three weeks because he was too immersed in you, or the fact that you bore witness to his first clean shot and gave him that sickeningly sweet smile that made his stomach turn.Â
âWhere are you going?â Neteyam sighs.Â
âSomewhere you two arenât,â he grumbles under his breath, ducking through the brush of the lofty forest.Â
You lick your lips, locking eyes with Neteyam as you give him a bashful grin and slowly break away to follow Loâakâs path.Â
He isnât far ahead as you push through the vines and low-hanging leaves, the path lined with large plants and the spindly roots of the looming trees. The grass is plush between your toes as you scamper to follow Loâak from a distance, watching as his lithe body climbs through the dense flora.Â
âWhy are you following me?â he calls after a few dozen paces, stopping in the middle of the path to whirl on his heel.Â
His golden eyes are syrupy, warm despite the edge, and you canât help but flash him your pearly whites in a genuine smile that takes up your dimpled cheeks.Â
âWhyâd you run off?â you ask him. âYou were doing so well!âÂ
His chest rises and falls with a scoff.Â
âYou can give it a rest, you know?â Loâak says flatly, fist so tight around his bow he feels like heâll crush the wood.Â
Your expression morphs, eyebrows furrowing in a way that makes Loâak throat bob, something pinching behind his ribcage.Â
âWhat?â you ask, frown marring your pretty face.Â
âI donât know what youâre playing at, but you can stop acting like you wanna be friends with me,â Loâak says matter-of-factly.Â
âYou are my friend,â you protest quietly.Â
Loâak rolls his eyes.Â
âDude, whatever,â he mutters, turning his back on you.Â
âIs it so wrong?â you murmur and he stops in his tracks, refusing to meet your gaze. âTo be friends?âÂ
Friends.Â
That stupid fucking word again.
Loâak bites his tongue and stalks off, leaving you on the path.Â
Neteyam rips him a new one when he sees him at dinner later that night. Loâak hangs his head as Neteyam digs in.
âIs it so hard to be nice?â Neteyam asks, hand squeezing his shoulder as they stand a handful of meters away from the main circle.Â
As his eyes wander, he notices you sitting with his sister, head thrown back in laughter that glitters and wafts with the rising smoke of the fire. He swallows turning his attention back to his older brother.Â
âJust donât like her,â he admits. âI want her to leave me alone.âÂ
âYou donât like her or you like her too much?â Neteyam asks, brow bone raised.Â
Loâakâs face scrunches.
âEw, no,â he blurts. âWhy would Iââ
â________ just wants to fit in,â he sighs. âShe has trouble making friends.âÂ
âYeah, I wonder why,â Loâak mocks. âI donât know why Kiri and Spider are always up her ass, sheâsââ
âLoâak,â Neteyam warns.Â
âDude, everyone is always ________ this, _________ that! I donât understand whatâs so great about herââ
A throat clears and the brothers both turn their attention to the newcomer. Loâak could groan in frustration seeing that youâve abandoned your seat and now stand nearby with two wooden plates.Â
âTheyâre going to start cleaning up soon,â you say hesitantly. âWanted to bring you some.âÂ
Neteyam takes it graciously from you, nodding his head in thanks while Loâak stares down at the plate youâd arranged for him, abundant in vegetables and thick cuts of meat.Â
âNo thanks,â he says flatly.
You try to coax him.Â
âCâmon Loâak, you say gently. âI know you havenât eaten yet.âÂ
âNo thanks,â he repeats stonily, holding his hand up.Â
You offer up the plate again.Â
âLoâakââÂ
âI said no thank you,â he grunts, annoyed.Â
Heâd only meant to push it back towards you, but one second itâs in your hands, the next youâre wearing dinner, the plate clattering onto the ground.Â
âLoâak!â Neteyam scolds.Â
âShit, I didnâtââ
âItâs fine,â you breathe an airy laugh and Loâak freezes when he hears your breath hitch. âIt was an accident.âÂ
âOh, ________âŠâ Neteyam sighs, but youâre picking up the plate and scurrying off, ignoring the nearby snickering.Â
âWhatever you got going on, you need to cool it,â Jake scolds him in the family tent after dinner that night. â________ is a good girl, sheâs trying to find her place. Canât really do that if youâre gonna be a jerk to her all the time.âÂ
Loâak resists the urge to roll his eyes because, yet again, someone is sticking up for you, admonishing him about how he could be nicer, how he could take you under his wing, how heâ
âWhat about me?â Loâak argues. âI tell her to leave me alone all the time, but she doesnât listen. Why do I have to be nice to someone who doesnât respectââ
âCut the bullshit,â Jake thunders. âYou havenât even tried being her friend.âÂ
âWhy should I?â Loâak counters.Â
âBecause maybe you two are more alike than youâd care to learn,â Jake says knowingly. âNow go apologize.âÂ
âDad!âÂ
âGo, Loâak.âÂ
Loâak sucks in a deep breath before squeezing his eyes shut and blowing out through his nose.Â
âFine, fine, whatever,â he grumbles, ducking from the tent into the humid night air.Â
He starts into the jungle, fingers brushing over the leaves and petals of the plants and flowers. He takes the moment to regulate his pounding heart in his chest before trying to wrack his brain for any words that he could scrounge into a believable apology.Â
When he crosses the glowing waters of a skinny brook, something rustles nearby and his hand is on the hilt of his dagger in the blink of an eye.Â
He turns to face the noise, knife drawn, but then you emerge and his body relaxes a fraction.Â
âFuck, ________, you scared me,â he sighs in relief.Â
You fidget and swallow down the lump in your throat.Â
âSorry,â you say sheepishly.Â
A brief silence dawns the two of you and Loâak notes that youâve cleaned up from the evening mealâs debacle, now wearing a longer loincloth threaded with round pearlescent beads that refract the luminescence of the surrounding forest.Â
Your grasp tightens around a leather bound journal and for a moment, he wonders what you could be writing about.Â
When you follow his gaze, you shyly tuck the journal behind your back and give him an uneasy smile.Â
âI wanted toââ
âI came toââ
Your words clash and you breathe a little laugh through your nose as you gaze at him with brilliant eyes. You start closing the distance and Loâakâs hands grow clammy.Â
âYou first,â you offer.Â
Whatever threads of an apology heâd crafted in the moments prior have evaporated now that you stand before him, absolutely glowing.Â
âLoâak?â Your head tilts and his cheeks warm.Â
âSorry,â he says hoarsely. âFor what happened at dinner.âÂ
You shake your head quickly.Â
âYou donât have to apologize,â you assure him, reaching out to touch him.Â
He recoils, clearing his throat as he retreats to put an ample amount of distance between the two of you.Â
You eye the berth and something shutters across your face as you rock back on your heels and flash him another uneasy smile.Â
You havenât even tried being her friend, his dadâs words echo like a call in the night. Maybe you two are more alike that you care to learn.Â
Were you? You and Loâak were as different as they come, you molded by the love and adoration of the clan, him built up by the lessons and lectures he received from his parents and Neteyam.Â
âWhere are you going?â you ask, blowing by the previous conversation.Â
He shrugs.Â
âDunno,â he admits. âI was looking for you.âÂ
The way you freeze is almost covert, your lips rolling as you try to hide the smile threatening to split your face.Â
âOh,â you hum. âWanna go for a walk?âÂ
No, he wants to say. He absolutely does not want to spend anymore time with you than he has to. Likes to believe that he wouldnât even bat an eye if he were to never see you again, but youâre looking at him expectantly and his dadâs words are like a mantra in his head, so he agrees begrudgingly.Â
Itâs awkward at first, silent except for the natural soundtrack of the vicarious jungle. But like you do so well, you break the silence and Loâak has to resist rolling his eyes for the third time that night.Â
âWhat are your favorite colors?â you ask suddenly.Â
âI dunno, green?â he offers.Â
âAre you sure?â you laugh quietly.Â
Loâak thinks a moment before nodding his head.Â
âYeah, green,â he finalizes. âAnd blue.âÂ
He barely notices that youâd fallen behind, and when he turns to look over his shoulder, he sees that youâre scratching something into your little journal.Â
âAnd your favorite fruit?â you press, nose still between the pages.Â
Loâak breathes out a laugh and your head shoots up.Â
âWhat? You gonna send this list to the lab?â Loâak asks.
You give him a shy smile, shifting on your feet.Â
âNo,â you say softly, then whisper to yourself, âjust compiling a list to win your heart.âÂ
Loâak barely hears you, ears twitching as his eyes narrow in confusion.Â
âWhat?â he asks.Â
You snap your notebook shut, shaking your head quickly as you pad through the grass to catch up to him.Â
âNothing.âÂ
Something ripples in the fabric after that night, you and Neteyam both notice when Loâak enters the training clearing the next afternoon and greets you with a nod instead of flat out ignoring your presence like he had the last training session.Â
And you think that the moment is fleeting, a one off, but as the days progress, you realize that maybe Loâak is finally softening around you.Â
He stays for entire lessons, the most minute of smiles twitching at his lips whenever you compliment his shots. He waits near the edge for you as you pack up your things, and while the walk back to the village is a quiet one, you bask in his company, triumphant when he doesnât run off.Â
And while your evening walks are few and far between, you savor the moments he affords you, wedging yourself between him the crumbling walls of his facade.Â
Tonight is one of those moments, sitting on adjacent branches overlooking the lively forest, when Loâak lets you peek farther into his life than heâd originally intended.Â
âHe never understands,â he sighs, popping a few berries from his satchel past his lips.Â
Tonightâs topic is his father and you listen intently, eyes fixed on the way he reclines on the branch and looks up at the stars.Â
âI try hard, you know? To make everyone proud, but all they see is my failure,â he says, obviously annoyed. âNo matter what I do, itâs not good enough.âÂ
âYou do great things, Loâak,â you say quietly, the first words youâve said all night.Â
And like your voice is a reminder, Loâakâs spine goes rigid, throat bobbing as he realizes that he may have said too much to you. Heâs getting too comfortable and youâre all the willing to absorb every insecurity and every worry he has.Â
But something about quiet moments like these makes him loose-lipped, eyes fluttering to where youâve got your notebook balanced in the seam of your thighs, scrawling something on the pages as you eat your own berries.Â
The words are leaving him before he can stop them.Â
âEasy for you to say,â he murmurs. âYouâre perfect.âÂ
The laugh that escapes you startles him and a few of the berries he was about to devour slips from his fingers and plunk down the leaves.
âIâm not perfect,â you assure him.Â
âOnly someone whoâs perfect would say that,â Loâak grumbles, peering over the edge of the branches to spot his fallen fruit. âThe whole village loves you, everyoneâs always so ready to bat for you.âÂ
You look down at the pages of your journal with a sad smile.Â
âItâs a lot of pressure,â you admit quietly. âEveryoneâs watching your every move, waiting for you to mess up.âÂ
Loâak shifts uncomfortably.
You continue.Â
âAnd most of the villagers our age donât like me,â you say, thumbing one of the pages. âThey say I kiss ass, that Iâm always trying to keep a leg up.âÂ
Loâak winces, knowing that heâs the source of at least one of those sentiments.Â
âThe elders think youâre honorable,â Loâak argues gently. âYouâre talented, you have something to offer the people.âÂ
âHonor means nothing if youâre bound by it,â you say finally, closing the cover to your journal. âIf anything, I want to be more like you.âÂ
âLike me?â Loâak asks incredulously, eyebrows furrowed in confusion.Â
You nod, smiling at him.Â
âYeah,â you whisper. âI think youâre brave, fearless. And even if you care what people think, you do what you want.â
Loâak is quiet, taken aback by your confession.
Before he can respond, youâre gathering your things, bidding him a warm farewell as you begin climbing down the tree to disappear into the night.Â
After that night, you think that maybe youâre just imagining things, that youâre reading too much into the fact that Loâak has begun to finally act like you exist, but then Kiri says something and the hope sends your heart soaring.Â
âSeems like he finally got his head out of his ass,â she says a few mornings later as you two stand near a shallow stream, eyes peeled for any fish you two could bring back to the village.Â
âThink so?â you ask nervously, arrow trapping the flailing fish to the pebbles of the streamâs bed.Â
Kiri shrugs.Â
âHe actually pays you mind now,â Kiri observes. âThatâs a step up for sure. I think you just need to spend more time with him.âÂ
You smile, splashing through shallow waters to capture the fish and add it to the growing pile in the basket between you and the middle Sully.Â
âYeah?â you wonder
So you test the theory, basket filled with various peeled fruits and a little container of nectar you squeezed from the petals of a flower.Â
It doesnât take long to hunt him down. When you enter the training circle, heâs packing up his things, quiver strapped to his back and bow in his fist.Â
Before you make yourself known, heâs turning on his heel to face you, eyes wild as he swallows down the lump in his throat.Â
Heâd be the last to admit that the last night you two spent together was branded in his brain, that his mouth had dried up so much so he felt his tongue could crack.
There were so many implications in your words and it horrified him, scared him so much that he knew he couldnât let you that close again.Â
But now you stand before him, pretty as can be, hopeful even, and heâs at a war with himself, absolutely caught between resenting you for being everything heâs not and giving into the draw.Â
âHi,â you greet, basket heavy in your hands.Â
You look more radiant than usual, skirt brushing the forest floor, the woven vine of your top banded to expose your midriff.Â
âHey,â he replies hesitantly.Â
âWhere you going?â you ask curiously.
His throat bobs as he gestures behind him.Â
âHunting,â is all he says.
âDo you want to go for a walk?â you ask eagerly.
He doesnât. He shouldnât. Because things are shifting and heâs not sure if heâll be able to stomach the change. If heâll be able to admit to himself that youâre wearing him thin, that you make him feel things heâs never felt before and that it makes him feel like he has no control.Â
Because when it boils down to it, you make him lose control, make him lose his filter, and make him feel every emotion twice as hard.Â
âNo,â he says.
And in that moment, you feel like youâre back at square one, watching as his eyes turn stony and his jaw sets firmly.Â
âYou shouldnât go hunting on your own,â you say softly. âWill someone be with you?âÂ
âItâs fine,â he argues. âIâm fine.âÂ
âI can go with you!â you offer. âI thought maybe we could sit by the stream and talk, but we can go hunting instead. We canââÂ
âNo,â he says again, pinning you with eyes so lethal, it makes you wonder if you really had imagined the moments you shared with him, if you had imagined Kiri telling you that she saw it too.Â
You try again anyways.Â
âItâll be good practice andââ
âI said no, ________,â he barks. âYouâre dead weight and I want to be alone.âÂ
Your lips seal and you bite the inside of your cheek.Â
Loâak could nearly scream in frustration when he notices the way your shoulders sag and it makes something in his heart cinch.Â
âOkay,â you agree, nodding quickly. âBe safe andââ
The words die on your tongue when you notice the look of annoyance on Loâakâs face.Â
Loâak is in deep shit, you come to find out hours later.Â
You sit outside of the training circle, knowing that Loâak will return down the path after his hunting trip. What you donât expect, however, is Jake and Neytiri emerging with the entire line of Sully kids and Spider.
Jake grips the back of Loâakâs neck tightly as they march past wandering eyes, straight to the family tent. You donât miss his wounds though, varying in depth, some bleeding, some sore.Â
Youâre hot on their heels, standing right outside of the entrance as Jake tears into the middle Sully.Â
âTime and time again, I have to get on your ass for doing the complete opposite of what I ask you to do!â Jakeâs voice is thunderous inside the tent. âDo you not realize that you not only risked your life but your sistersâ too?â
Thereâs a beat of silence before Jake continues, obviously pacing from the way his volume fluctuates.Â
âAnd what were you thinking bringing Tuk? Sheâs nine, Loâak!â he shouts, the anger and the hurt evident in his tone.Â
âIâm sorry,â Loâak mumbles.Â
âYeah, I bet you are!â Jake scolds. âI donât ask for much. All I want is for you stay in line. Just stay out of trouble and work hard on your training. I paired you with ________ and Neteyam in hopes that maybe youâll tighten up and be more like them, but youâre always disappointing me.âÂ
You frown.Â
Whatever Loâak had done probably didnât warrant such deep admonishment and something tugs especially hard at your heartstrings knowing that all he wants to do is make his dad proud.Â
âYouâre surrounded by good influences, but you always have to go against the grain, Loâak,â Jake says, the edge in his tone softening. âIâm getting tired of the bullshit, son. You need to clean up your act. Hear me?âÂ
âYes sir,â Loâak says quietly, voice almost a whisper behind the hide of the tent.Â
âNow go get yourself cleaned up,â Jake huffs.Â
Your spine is straightening when you hear foot steps closing in, holding your breath as the flap to the tent billows open and Loâak is emerging.
His eyes flit to yours and his expression sours further.Â
âLoâak,â you murmur, reaching out to him.Â
Heâs shrugging you away, wincing when a wound on his shoulder stretches especially taut.Â
âYouâre hurt,â you say quietly. âIâllââ
âLeave me alone,â he says, eerily level.Â
âBut youâreââ
âI said leave me alone, ________,â he warns, pushing past you in what should be the pursuit of his grandmotherâs quarters.
Instead heâs making a beeline for the jungle.Â
Youâd seen the look in his eye before he stonewalled you, seen the hurt and heaviness that most people didnât seem to notice because he was always so adventurous and carefree.Â
You follow after him.Â
âLoâak, you know heâs only worried for you,â you try to reason gently, fingers reaching for his own as you duck under massive leaves and fluttering insects.Â
He whirls to face you, swatting your hand away.Â
âDonât fucking touch me,â he bites. âYou donât know anything.âÂ
You swallow, holding your hand to your chest as you watch him lay down every brick to wall himself off.Â
He hates it. He hates how you look at him, how you seem to pity the life he has to live. It makes him sick, thinking that you two have it the same. Heâd rather be hated for being great than hated for being a let down. Itâs insulting, how you think you know how it feels.Â
âLetâs go back. Iâll wrap your wounds andââ
âOf course, clanâs golden girl is gonna patch me up and make it all better, huh?â he seethes facetiously. âJust fuck off!âÂ
You flinch, blinking at the boy you holds so much rage in front of you.Â
âI know youâre hurting, but you donât have to be mean,â you whisper, taking in a shuddering breath to will yourself not to cry.Â
âMean? Mean?â Loâak bristles. âIâve tried telling you to lay off nicely, tried telling you to just leave me alone, but you donât listen. You just pry and overstep and you make every little thing about you! Oh, itâs so much pressure, villagers our age hate me, of course they would! You already have everything and just have to go rub salt in the wound!âÂ
You shrink, eyes welling as your lip trembles.Â
âLoâak, stop,â you whimper.Â
âWeâre not friends, ________.We never were and we never will because I donât like you,â he spits. âNow please, for the love of god, will you just leave me alone!âÂ
The forest is silent save for Loâakâs ragged breathing, fists clenched as he glares down at you.Â
âI-â Your breath hitches and you choke out an apology. âIâm sorry.âÂ
Loâakâs heart softens a fraction as you take a step back, turning quickly on your heel.Â
âFuck, Iâm sorry,â you rasp, tripping over your own feet as you stumble into a run, putting as much space as you can between you and the middle child who stands in the middle of the forest, unable to wrangle every harsh word heâd said to force back down his throat.Â
You dropped your journal.Â
Loâak is sure youâre looking for it, know that youâve always got your nose stuck in it. You had dropped it running off and now he has its leather bound in his hands.Â
Itâs been a couple of nights since the faithful evening heâd blown his top and heâd only seen whispers of you. It was so unlike you to disappear, to not be entertaining the masses as they fell to your feet.Â
Heâd cooled off significantly, and when he replayed the conversation in his head, he winced, body folding in on itself as he realizes how harsh heâd been.Â
âAre you actually thinking thoughts?â Spider claps him on the shoulder, startling him so badly he drops the journal.Â
It lands spine down, the pages fluttering open.Â
He chances a peek before Spider is rounding his lithe figure to pick up the notebook. All he makes out is a rough sketch.Â
âYou write?â Spider asks, intrigued.Â
âNo, itâs ________âs,â Loâak answers.Â
âOh, your little girlfriendâs?âÂ
Loâak gives the human a cross look, snatching the book from his grasp as he stands up.
âTrouble in paradise?â Spider pries, scurrying to keep up with Loâakâs long strides.Â
A beat of silence before Loâak finally answers.Â
âMade her cry,â he mumbles, embarrassed.Â
Spider winces behind him.Â
âYou serious?âÂ
Loâak sighs.Â
âYes, dude, fuck,â he breathes, hand coming to the back of his neck. âI donât know what came over me. Dad was ripping me a new one and Neteyam already chewed me out before they got there and she was being annoying, so I justâŠâÂ
âBro,â Spider scoffs in disbelief, scratching the back of his head. âYouâre a real dickhead sometimes.âÂ
Loâakâs eyes wander as he shifts uncomfortably, feeling incredibly small as his friend glares up at him.Â
âI mean, I told her I wanted to be left alone!â Loâak tries to defend weakly. âI- I didnât mean to.âÂ
âShe likes you a lot, dude,â Spider reiterates. âShe just wants you to like her back.âÂ
Despite the glaring signs, Loâak has trouble believing that your feelings for him far surpass charity work. They couldnât, it was impossible. Because at the end of the day, youâre you and heâsâŠhim.Â
He opens his mouth to say something, but Spider beats him to it.
âDid you at least apologize?âÂ
Loâak squirms.
âDude!âÂ
âLook, I know, I know,â he tries to assuage the situation.Â
â________ is literally the sweetest girl in the entire clan you justââÂ
âI get it, bro, I get it!â Loâak huffs.Â
âGet your head out of your ass,â Spider says. âShe might not stick around long enough for you to realize.âÂ
âRealize what?â Loâak snaps.Â
âAre you really gonna play stupid right now?âÂ
He blinks at the human.Â
âYou like ________,â Spider says matter-of-factly. âYou always have, ever since we were kids.âÂ
âOh, piss off,â Loâak grumbles.
âDude, youâre literally my best friend, but I sometimes I wanna shove my foot so far up yourââ
âI do not like ________,â Loâak says sharply.Â
âEveryone sees it but you, dipshit,â Spider scoffs. âYou like her, but youâre scared. Sheâs perfect and she intimidates you. Think sheâs gonna see you for what you really are and turn her back on you like everyone else does when you fuck up, but sheâs not like that, Loâak. Sheâs been there whether you like it or not. But she might not always.âÂ
Loâak swallows down the knot in his throat, fingers tightening around the notebook.Â
Loâak throws him a final narrowed glare before stalking off.Â
Itâs Loâakâs birthday and just like every orbit, he spends it alone in the forest.
At first, heâd been burdened with the weight of hurting your feelings, but now his conversation with Spider weighs heavy on him as he climbs dirt walkways and flowered paths.Â
It doesnât help that your notebook weighs heavy in his satchel, a silent reminder that he still has a piece of you while you cling to his peace of mind.Â
I think youâre brave, fearless. Theyâre the words you uttered to him that fateful night you turned the reality of you two on its axis.Â
As he splices all the moments you two shared like a reel, he realizes that itâs endless. That youâre always there, youâd always been there, like a layer of impenetrable atmosphere surrounding him.Â
He really should apologize, he knows this much, but youâve disappeared like a wisp of smoke. Training sessions have returned to a sibling affair and heâs too prideful to ask about you.Â
Itâs almost eclipse when he begins making his way back for the evening meal, knowing that a scolding will await if he arrives even a minute late.Â
After what had happened with you, he was lying low, trying to diminish his blip from the radar.
As he closes in on the villageâs main circle, he notes that itâs quiet. A little too quiet. It puts him on edge, makes him draw his bow and feel around for an arrow in his quiver.Â
A few more paces and heâs broken into the clearing, a few stragglers milling about. Another half a dozen steps and itâs like the forest melts into a celebration, whorls of blue pouring into the circle as villagers begin trilling.Â
Loâak is hoisted into the air as the dying fire in the center of the camp begins to slowly roar.Â
âHappy birthday, baby bro!â Neteyam caws loudly as they begin jostling him into the air, chanting and dancing as the dense crowd of clanspeople celebrate him.
Itâs like time slows as he peers from side to side eagerly, seeing the way Spider, Kiri and Tuk dance happily among his people. Jake and Neytiri stand near the fire, smiles wide when they see the look of awe on their middle sonâs face.Â
When heâs finally set on his feet, he wobbles, childlike as he turns, taking in the glowing streamers that crisscross between the tents. Flowers of green and blue thread through the vines, gleaming like lamplight as the forest buzzes around them.Â
âWhaâ What is all this?â Loâak croaks in disbelief, eyes flitting wildly as he notices Norm and Max standing next to a table theyâd hauled from the pod to the circle, piled high with meats and vegetables wrapped in leaves.Â
A platter of yovo fruits, his favorite, are at the center, surrounded by a painted sign with his name and the handprints of dozens of villagers on it.Â
âYou survived another orbit!â Neteyam laughs heartily, head-locking the younger boy before roughly digging his knuckles into the top of his head.Â
A laugh bubbles from Loâakâs lips, swatting his brother away as villagers and clan members heâd grown up with approach him one by one to greet him.Â
As the night progresses, he doesnât even realize heâs searching until your mother approaches and his spine goes rigid, cheeks warming under her piercing gaze.Â
âFrom my ________,â she says, setting a pouch into his palms. âShe toiled over these for many eclipses. Please take care.âÂ
Loâakâs nod is delayed as his satchel shifts on his shoulders, a dull reminder that your journal still remains with him, begging to be read.Â
âWhereâ Where is she?â he asks suddenly, feeling your absence all the more now that your gift sits in the palm of his hand.Â
âMy daughter does not feel well,â your mother says simply. âShe wished to be excused from the festivities.âÂ
His chest feels hollow, stomach tight as his cheeks burn. Youâd mentioned this to him, all those days ago in the training circle, about wanting to celebrate with him.Â
His eyes flit to the flowers looped through the vines, the mountain of yovo fruits, the gift in his hands. He doesnât want to be presumptuous. Doesnât want to fuel the tiniest ember of hope in chest, but he canât help it.Â
He canât help but read into it, into the implications of this celebration youâd planned all for him, into every word you uttered to him in the quiet of the forestâs chirping.Â
Itâs all it takes for him to lock himself in his own head. The feast melts into the background, dull, as his eyes cut the crowd for you.Â
You have to be here, gotta be hanging around the outskirts silently. The idea taunts him, makes his gut twist hard as images of you dancing in the circle, singing to him, celebrating him, loving himâ
Loâak freezes, blinking incredulously at the thought thatâd just crossed his brain. It makes him queasy, makes the regret and the guilt gnaw at every nerve ending as your crying face flashes like an unwanted slideshow in his brain.Â
Itâs all he can think about as the festivities die, as villagers begin turning in the for the night and he helps his family clean up the aftermath of another orbit finally finished.Â
Spider helps Tuk and Neteyam near the fire, and as Loâak moves through the motions like heâs caught in a tide, Kiri watches, knowing all too well what consumes her brotherâs mind.Â
It isnât until Loâak is shrouded by the stillness of the early morning, his family tucked in their tent, bodies and limbs splayed as they sleep together, that he sits in a swinging hammock, your journal and the pouch in his lap.Â
It feels wrong, the way he thumbs the cover, working up the courage to turn it open. But Ewya, fate, would have never left it in his wake if it wasnât meant to be read.
As his finger ghosts the etchings of the front cover, worn and loved by you, something tickles his leg as he admires the leather. He blinks in disbelief when he sees a singular woodsprite resting against his thigh.Â
Before he loses his nerve, heâs opening the pages with bated breath.Â
Recipes, nature notes, short thoughts fill the sheets and Loâak feels like heâs reading into your brain, seeing all the little things no one bothers to know.Â
he is like the sun,
shines so bright,
but burns the closer you get.Â
Loâakâs pointer finger glosses over the ink, over your curly handwriting.Â
he is so incredible, but he doesnât even know it. i want to shout it to every creature in the forest, every tree and every flower. oh, how i wish to be as fearless as him.Â
His chest heaves as the words blur.Â
Fearless.Â
Fearless.Â
Fearless.Â
In this moment, he feels everything but. He feels like a coward.Â
He continues to flip, throat lodged as he sees drawings, both rough sketches and full renderings. He hadnât even known that you liked to draw, yet here he was, observing his home through your artistic eye.Â
Flowers, leaves, trees, creatures, insects, fruits mar the stained papers, etched like itâd been caught in real time.Â
likes green and blue.Â
likes yovo fruits.Â
The entry from the day youâd first walked with him through the forest.Â
When he turns the page, his breath hitches.Â
In full color, youâd captured his bullseye from your first training session. His back taut from the release, expression shaded stoic. He looked mighty, like the strongest warrior, and it was all through your eyes.Â
Loâak doesnât even realize heâs crying until the bullseye in the illustration bleeds from a fallen tear. Another one drips from his chin, then another.Â
The next page is the night you two had poured your hearts out to each other. Again, in full color, heâs watching the stars. You donât leave out the glow of the freckles that smatter his face and body, donât miss the smile that plays at his lips as he quietly points out that his dad had come from a star.Â
He flips again and different iterations and designs for what seems like jewelry litters the pages, shaded with different colors of blue and green, marked with varying notes, xâs marking through ideas you didnât like.Â
Loâak remembers the pouch, sitting untouched in his lap, and his shaky fingers undo the ties. He shakes the contents on the flat of the notebook and the most intricate beadwork fits into the crease.Â
His eyes widen as he picks up the necklace in a trembling hand, the eclipsing sun catching the etching in the flat stones.Â
Four five-fingered hands and four four-fingered ones, each separated by jewels scavenged and cleaned from the bed of the glowing river.Â
A small scroll flutters from the pouch and Loâak chokes back as sob as he unrolls the hide.Â
Happy Birthday, Loâak. I am always grateful to know someone like you. May your next orbit be filled with endless blessings from Ewya and may you see yourself how I see you.Â
You see him, he realizes. Youâre his supporter, a silent force that consumes every insecurity and swallows every doubt. You believe in him more than he believes in himself.Â
He stands from the hammock and runs.Â
Youâre sitting in the same tree the two of you had rested in the night youâd confided in Loâak, watching as the sun eclipses and begins to light up the sparkling forest.
Something rustles and you sit up, hand on the hilt of your dagger as you search the area for movement.
As your eyes lock on the source, you almost wish it had been a beast coming to devour you whole. But as Loâak climbs the branches of the tree quickly, you feel the dread begin to solidify in your veins.Â
You take your satchel, hanging from a nearby branch and sling it over your shoulder, pulling your shawl over your head to prepare for your escape.Â
â________, wait,â he chokes breathlessly. âPlease.âÂ
You feel like crying all over again, feel so unbelievably stupid thinking that Loâak would ever see you the way that you see him.Â
You pause a beat as he settles on the branch across from yours, chest heaving as he tries to catch his breath.Â
Something glints in the sun and your eyes widen when you see that Loâak has fastened the necklace you made him around his neck, right above the the leather chain that holds his beloved claw charm.Â
âYouâre wearing it,â you whisper, lips twitching into a frown as you try your best to keep your tears at bay.Â
âIâm sorry, ________,â Loâak apologizes hoarsely. âFuck, you donât understand how sorry I am.âÂ
The tears well on their own.Â
Weâre not friends. We never were and we never will.Â
The words haunt you like a broken record and you shake your head, moving from your perch to move down the branches.Â
âI hate you,â you whisper. âI hate you, Loâak.âÂ
He freezes, watching as you balance on a branch below.Â
âI tried so hard to be your friend,â you whimper, angrily wiping away your tears. âYouâre amazing. Youâre strong, and youâre fearless, and you are everything I want to be, but youâre heartless.âÂ
Loâak lets out a shuddering breath, a chill running down his spine as you look up at him like heâd smashed every star in the sky.Â
âI wanted to be with you, you know?â you let out a watery laugh. âI hoped that maybe if I stuck it out, youâd see how much I cared, how badly I wanted to be with you, even if it was from a distance.âÂ
âI do, _________, I do!â he argues.Â
He hadnât always, but he sees it now. He sees you.Â
You shake your head again.
âYou donât,â you sigh, voice trembling. âItâs my fault anyways. You were right. You told me to leave you alone and I was being too much.âÂ
âStopââ
âLet this be the last time,â you assure him. âLetâs justâ Letâs pretend we never met.â
âNo, _________. Wait!âÂ
Youâre climbing down the tree and disappearing into the brush and, like a fleck of ash, youâre disintegrating into nothingness.Â
Most people think heâs being moody, that heâs just been scolded by his father or older brother, but Neytiri knows better.Â
She sees the way her son has changed over the course of the past few weeks. She knows there is a great burden that he carries, but much like her beloved and her eldest, he suffers in silence.Â
âMaitan,â she says quietly, brushing a braid from his face as he folds the leaves around a chunk of steaming meat.Â
Loâak pauses almost imperceptibly, but continues his task.Â
It isnât like him to stay home and work with Neytiri. If anything, heâd be the first one out of the tent, Tuk, Spider, and Kiri tailing after him as they galavant through the endless forest.Â
âSomething weighs heavy in your heart,â she tries again, hand coming over his.Â
Loâak stops and leans back, unable to meet his motherâs searching gaze.Â
âI hurt someone,â he says quietly.Â
Neytiri stiffens.
âWhat?âÂ
âI hurt someone I care about,â Loâak admits. Youâd called him fearless, strong. He needed to live by your word. âI hurt her and I donât know how to fix it.âÂ
âOh, Loâak,â she murmurs, squeezing his hand gently.Â
Her face has softened as she takes in his stony expression.Â
âMy son, some things cannot be fixed,â she says honestly. âBut all things require great effort. Sometimes those efforts will fall through, but that is the natural order of life.âÂ
Loâak swallows.Â
âWhoever this special person is, if you have hurt her, she deserves the full effort of your heart, no?âÂ
You do, he knows you do. You deserve every last effort. But a niggling streak of insecurity tells him that you donât deserve someone like him. You donât deserve someone who takes your affections for granted. You deserve someone who will love you with every breath, who will love you fearlessly.Â
âThe night I first met your father, Ewya gave me sign,â she says. âHe has a pure, strong heart. You do too.âÂ
Loâak swallows.Â
âBe brave, Maitan,â she says. âSometimes that is enough.âÂ
Loâakâs fingers hurt from picking berries.
His cuticles bleed, pricked by the thorns of the fruitâs bush. Kiri hums beside him, weaving a little bag out of ropes of thin vines.Â
âYouâre not gonna help me?â he whines.Â
âWhy should I help you with your mess?âÂ
You look beautiful under the glow of the evening mealâs crackling fire. Itâs the first time youâve emerged since before Loâakâs birthday feast and youâre being flocked by elders and villagers, wishing you well and asking about your supposed ailment.Â
He sits across the fire, fists tight as he searches for a lull in the crowd.Â
Spider snickers next to him, devouring the contents of his plate like heâs starved, watching Loâakâs useless pining like a show.Â
Be brave.Â
Heâs standing to his feet before he can back out, crossing the circle to approach you. The villagers watch like they know something he doesnât and the nerves are eating away at him as he steps into your space.Â
You look up from your conversation with a girl your age, the smile slipping from your lips.Â
âCan we talk?â Loâak asks, eyes wandering to watch the way everyone watches him.Â
You remain jaded.
âNowâs not a good time,â you say quietly and a few onlookers snicker in the background.
â________,â Loâak tries again.Â
You stare up at him, the shadow of the fire dancing over your features as you seemingly look right through him. Itâs humiliating, the way you remain seated and watch him fidget, but he figures he deserves the cold shoulder after months, years of casting you to the side.Â
âLetâs go?â you ask the girl, nodding your head over your shoulder.Â
The girl chances a glance between you and Loâak, noticing the telltale sign of your work etched into the stones of the choker he hadnât taken off since his birthday.Â
She gives him a sympathetic smile as she follows after you.Â
Heâs going to have to try a lot harder than he has, he realizes as your birthday looms right around the corner. The next eclipse, in fact.Â
Heâs losing hope, losing courage, but he canât give up on you two just yet.Â
He makes sure the berries he picked the days prior are packed tightly in his bag, the lid to the nectar fastened, and his present wrapped nicely.Â
Itâs his last hope, his last shot to make things right.Â
Spider, Tuk, and Neytiri surround him, Neteyam and Jake off on a hunt.Â
Theyâd all been privy to the fact, aiding him in his endeavors as he organized his final grapple with your heart.Â
âKiri said sheâll bring her right before eclipse,â Spider says, peeking from the flap of the tent. âThatâs in, like, minutes.âÂ
Loâak is nervous. Doesnât know what heâll do if he loses you for good, but he knows he has to give it his best effort. Itâs the least you deserve.Â
Be brave. Sometimes that is enough.Â
Loâak glances at his mom and she gives him a warm smile, ruffling his braids.Â
âYou are the son of Toruk Makto,â she assures him, pinching his cheek. âThere is nothing you cannot do.âÂ
The words are carved into his brain as he rushes through the forest, the the stream that the curls and bends through the forest. It glows beautifully at night and that is his final push.Â
âWait, give me like three seconds, I left something.â Kiriâs voice is muffled behind the trees.Â
âHuh?â Loâak sees the way your head tilts through an opening in the foliage.Â
âIâll only be a second!âÂ
âWait, Kiri!âÂ
Kiri is running straight for him, comes barreling through the bushes, and continues down the path.Â
âGood luck, egghead!â
Loâak takes in a final breath to quell the tremor in his hands before ducking through the bushes to reveal himself.Â
Youâre sitting on the embankment, on a woven mat that Kiri had laid out for you two, decorative vines edging the seams.Â
âOh, you wereââ
You peer over your shoulder and your expression falls.Â
âLoâakâŠâÂ
âHappy birthday, ________,â he breathes.Â
You donât look amused, slinging your bag over you shoulder as you rise to your feet.Â
âKiri and I are hanging out,â you tell him.Â
He scratches the back of his head.Â
âIâŠI had Kiri bring you here because I knew that you wouldnât come with me if I asked,â he admits. âAnd of course, I donât blame you, but Iâ I just really need to talk to you.âÂ
You bite the inside of your cheek, unable to look him in his eyes as he draws nearer.Â
âJust give me some time, please,â he pleads.Â
You finally meet his gaze, searching his eyes as he looks down at you earnestly.Â
You give him the tiniest nod, reluctantly shedding your satchel to reassume your seat on the mat.Â
The waters rush gently, like a song as Loâak lowers himself next to you.
His palms are clammy as he fidgets in his seat, the scent of herbs and flowers wafting from your dewy skin. He canât bring himself to look at you, afraid that every sentiment heâd crafted in the hours of the night will escape him, so he watches the bubbling of the stream.Â
âWell?â you whisper, like you donât want to shatter the fragile sheath of peace that layers you.Â
âIâm sorry,â he says quietly. âI know Iâve said it already, but I really am, ________.âÂ
âI know,â you murmur and his gaze flits to yours. âEven if you donât act like it, you have a good heart, Loâak. You feel everything, even the things you donât want to.âÂ
He swallows.
âI didnât mean it,â he says carefully. âI was mad and I took it out on you. That wasnât fair.âÂ
You sit silently, knees hugged to your chest. Your cheek rests against your knee, watching Loâak with seeing eyes. It makes him trip over his words.Â
âMy whole life, Iâve always been compared to Neteyam,â he says. âThe entire village would whisper about me and how I was nothing like the mighty warrior.âÂ
When he glances at you, he notices your fingers twitch, like you want to reach out to him.Â
He squashes his fears and turns to face you, five-fingered hand coming up to thread with your four. You watch the union, uncertainty obvious in the way you tense, but Loâak squeezes.Â
âAnd then when we started growing up, you were just another person I had to live up to,â Loâak whispers. âYouâre perfect, ________. Youâre kind, and youâre smart, talented. Youâre everything Iâm not and it made me hate you.âÂ
You shrink, but Loâak pulls you towards him, hand coming up to brush your cheek.Â
âBut youâre all of that and more,â he continues, the words gushing like a river. âYouâre always there, you support me and you defend me and see things I donât.âÂ
You become shy under his gaze because for the first time, heâs seeing you. Heâs seeing you for every single thing youâve been to him and it makes your stomach knot.Â
âI have something to tell you,â he says. âPlease donât be mad at me.âÂ
Your gaze is soft, palm still in his as he turns and reaches into the bag he discarded next to him. Your eyes widen when he produces your notebook, edges curled the slightest as he hands it to you.Â
âMy journal,â you say, taking it from him quickly. âIâve been looking for this. Why- Why do you have it?âÂ
He looks guilty, lips rolling as he avoids your gaze.Â
âDid youâŠâÂ
âI wasnât going to,â he admits. âBut there were woodsprites and I knew it was a sââ
âLoâak this is private,â you murmur incredulously. âWhy would you read this?âÂ
âHow long, ________?â he asks quietly, grip on your hand tightening.Â
âLoâak, donâtââ
âHow long?â he presses desperately.Â
Your eyes are watering, like that wicked night all over again and Loâak begs Eywa for the final push.Â
âSince we were ten,â you whisper brokenly. âIt was my first performance and it was so stupid, but I was throwing up because I was nervous and you talked me through it.âÂ
Loâak is stunned, the memory like the faintest of outlines.Â
âWe didnât even know each other that well,â you hiccup. âBut you patted me on the back and you gave me thisââ
You pull your fingers from his grasp and flip the journal to the last page, revealing a hidden pocket. Your nimble fingers pull a tattered string, the remnants of a vine, threaded with wilted flower petals, preserved from being pressed inside your notebook.
âYou said that they made you make it during lessons,â you say, breath hitching. âThat itâd be my good luck.âÂ
Heâd forgotten all about the memory completely, too caught up in driving whatever wedge he could between you two, building up walls to seal you out.Â
âAnd you kept it this whole time?â he asks, face scrunched in disbelief.Â
âIâd hold on to anything you give me,â you admit in defeat. âHeartbreak included.âÂ
He lets out a shaky breath.Â
â________, Iâm so sorry,â he repeats, hand coming up to your neck. âYou have to know that. Iâm really fucking stupid, but if you give us a shot, I wonât mess it up.âÂ
Your hand comes up to his wrist, crumpling as you bow your head.Â
âDonât do this to me,â you beg, moving to break away from him.Â
âPlease.âÂ
His hold tightens, other hand twining with yours.Â
âIf IâŠif I give myself to you, Iâm giving you everything,â you say hesitantly. âIf you break this, you break me. I donât think I can come back from this.âÂ
Loâak presses his forehead to yours, breath warm against your lips as he searches your gaze for any semblance of hope.Â
âThis is me being fearless, ________,â he whispers.Â
You melt, pressing your lips to his tentatively. Heâs frozen for the shortest of moments before relenting, pushing up onto his knees to deepen the kiss.Â
Heâs cradling your face and your hands are wandering and Loâak canât help but think he could get used to loving you.Â
To being loved by you.Â
BONUS
âI was gonna give it to you on your birthday,â Loâak says sheepishly a few nights later under the stars. âBut, you knowâŠâÂ
Your usual place among the branches of the looming trees have a lot of memories both bitter and sweet, but you suppose you could make new ones.Â
âYou donât have to give me anything,â you say sweetly, tail swishing to wrap around his ankle. âYouâre all I need.âÂ
Loâak doesnât think heâll ever get used to your saccharine words if the pounding in his chest is anything to go by.Â
His hands are shaky as he pushes the hide towards you, a bow made of vine tied neatly around the gift.Â
âWanted to,â he says simply, moving the hair from you face to see your reaction better. âOpen it.âÂ
Youâre gentle with the present, like you are with most things, but eager to see what heâd gotten you.Â
A tiny gasp falls from your lips when you finally see it, wide eyes meeting his as you free the jars of paints heâd mashed up, the brushes he fashioned, and the brand new journal he bound himself.Â
âLoâak, wowâŠâÂ
âSo you can paint me more,â he says, then adds timidly. âOr maybe us. Maybe you could paint us.âÂ
an â holy shit guys, this was such a big project for me because i really wanted to dive into so many different things in this fic. to everyone who was waiting patiently, thank you sososo much. as usual, i took a lot of creative liberties with this one, but i hope you guys enjoyed nonetheless! although requests are paused for me to catch up, like always, if you wanna chat with me about literally anything, my askbox is open. lots of love hehehe :) xx
Tags (CW): Loâak Sully x Fem!Reader, SFW, aged-up (16+), headcannons, best friends, wholesome, sweet, fluff, Loâak as your best friend, reader can be naâvi or human
Synopsis: How I think Loâak would be as your best friend.
Word count: 624
A/N: Something quick and cute for my first post. I wrote this just now off the top of my head so forgive me if it seems a little rushed or if there are any grammar errors!
Best friend!Loâak who swears youâre just one of the boys but gets caught checking you out, more than once.
Best friend!Loâak who has your schedule memorized, so that he knows when he could bug you with no consequences.
Best friend!Loâak who damn near loses his breath every time your scent hits his nose, sometimes letting his primal urges takeover his senses in the best way possible.
Best friend!Loâak whoâs tail stands up at attention every time your skin so much as brushes against his.
Best friend!Loâak who tunes everyone out when heâs busy thinking about you and the way your ears do that thing when youâre really focused on something. Heâs absolutely obsessed and canât hear a thing, including the orders his father has given him before the war party dispatched.
âLoâak⊠Loâak!â
âHmm?â
âDid you even hear a single word I said, son?â
âUh, yes sirâŠâ
(No, he didnât.)
Best friend!Loâak who would softly pinch your tail when you least expect it, just to get a reaction out of you. (He gets it from his father. <3)
Best friend!Loâak who loves to play fight and bicker with you every chance he gets because he finds it funny. (Itâs also his preferred way of flirting.)
Best friend!Loâak who hates the idea of hurting you in any way, shape, or form. So, when he is a little too rough while the two of you are play fighting, he breaks down immediately.
âIâm so sorryâŠâ
âItâs fine, Iâm okay Loâak...â
âAre you sure youâre okay, youââ
âYes Loâak, Iâm fine I promiseâŠâ
â...Are you sure..?â
Best friend!Loâak whoâs always trying his best to impress you.
Best friend!Loâak who would practically run to ask you how his hair looked immediately after his mom had finished braiding it. (Your opinion is the only one that matters to him.)
Best friend!Loâak who frowns everytime you praise a guy thatâs not him, immediately telling you that he could do better.
âDid you see how quickly Tansek took down that yerik? Iâve never seen one so large!
âMtch. I could kill one biggerâŠâ
Best friend!Loâak who is lowkey whipped for you, willing to do almost anything you ask but if you ask him about it, heâll deny it to the ends of the earth.
Best friend!Loâak who struggles to hide just how infatuated he is with you from his own family.
Best friend!Loâak who doesnât realize just how deeply in love he is with you until Neteyam and Tuk find him making you a woven necklace (to match his) for your birthday, and they decide to tease him about it.
âAhh, look at my little brother, finally deciding to start courting the woman that he lovesâŠâ
âLoves..? Courting?â
âOooh, is that necklace for Y/N? Loâak loves Y/N~ Loâak loves Y/N~ Loâak lovesââ
âI hate you two.â
Best friend!Loâak who is sent into a spiral as soon as he realizes that heâs fallen in love with his best friend.
Best friend!Loâak who avoids you for days afterwards, scared that anything he might say or do will give him away and ruin you guysâ friendship.
Best friend!Loâak who is surprised that when he does finally man up and tell you, you tell him that you knew the whole time.
âWhat?! What do you mean you knew?â
âYou thought you werenât obvious about it?â
Best friend!Loâak who is happy to finally be able to show you his true feelings for you. Even if it means he has to deal with you teasing him for waiting so long to tell you. <3
Best friend!Loâak who definitely still calls you bro on accident even months after he has officially started courting you. T.T
âč summary : in which i'm slowly crawling back to my avatar hyperfixation and i decided to make a band au!except I'm right (or not take this with a grain of salt hehe) and I frl can't see them playing any other roles
âč author's note : let this not flop in eywa we pray đ and yes, Daisy Jones and the Six is my favorite book, how did you guess?
âč warnings : mentions of bleeding, scabs, swearing obv
It all started one balmy afternoon when Lo'ak and Spider were blowing off their biochemistry homework lying down on the floor staring at the cieling fan undeviatingly oscillate above them. Then, Lo'ak suddenly sits up from his spot causing Spider to look at him.
"What's up?" Asked Spider.
Lo'ak looks at him, a newfound determination in his wide eyes. "Dude, what if we start a band."
Spider frowns. "A band?"
"No, but hear me out for a second." says Lo'ak bristling in his spot as Spider sits up.
Although wary, Spider hums. "Alright."
"Think about it, school's almost over, we barely know anybody in this town, are we seriously gunna hangout in the beach all summer trying to make friends?"
Spider chuckles. "I think I'm missing the point where that's a bad idea."
"Spider, come on bro- look at us, we're losers alright? We're practically throwaway fish to the kids at school- but if we start a band, who knows how many people'll wanna be a part of it, we'll score a couple of life long friends AND it'll be our one solid excuse not to be at home" Lo'ak's riposte was proving to make sense, with a toothy smile to cap it off, but of course Spider- considering he was two years Lo'ak's senior had to pop his bubble with the pragmatic pin of reality.
"I don't know dude, it sounds kinda lame." Spider replies hesitantly, propping himself up by his elbows. "We've been trying to start a band since 7th grade, we always end up calling it quits on the 3rd week."
"This time it'll be different."
Spider scoffs. "Uh-huh? How "
Lo'ak nudges his right shoulder upwards. "We'll ask Neteyam to help."
Spider shoots him yet another look. "If he doesn't want to help?"
"We make do," Lo'ak shrugs. "What's wrong with a two man band?"
"Almost everything." Spider snorts.
â lo'ak ââââââââ electric guitar
when they used to live back in high camp, he found an old silvertone in their attic that used to belong to jake during his marine days along with scores of 70's rock bands' songs on yellowing paper fraying at the edges and folds.
He spent 3 months learning a song with 4 chords by ear and performed it at the school talent show
When he got into 6th grade he did not only beg, for an electric guitar he GROVELED. He suddenly wanted to do all the chores in the house, he suddenly got C's instead of D's in tests, it was terrifying because who the hell WAS this and what did they do to the real Lo'ak???
Jake and Neytiri didn't give him one until he was 13. Jake just picked him up from school one day and all of a sudden just asked: you wanna get that electric guitar?
LO'AK WAS OVER THE GODDAMN MOON.
got a classic red stratocaster.
The first song he ever learned to play on the guitar was buddy holly by weezer...
Come on you guys what were you expecting
likes picking at his finger scabs and does it until neteyam or tsireya tells him off.
has multiple guitar picks but always uses this specific one he made into a necklace and wears it everywhere.
THEN PROCEEDS TO LOSE SAID GUITAR PICKS
tuk keeps hiding them around the house waiting for lo'ak to lose his mind.
he can play any song by ear, just watch.
plays around with riffs more often than not.
â neteyam ââââââââ back up vocalist / lyricist
never even wanted to join the band but was bullied into joining (kiri joined when he said he wouldn't just to spite him)
has perfect pitch (are we surprised though)
YOU'D SNEEZE AND BITCH ASS CAN FIGURE OUT WHAT NOTE IT'S AT.
uses it to nitpick Lo'ak when he's straying from the original pitch.
lo'ak will then threaten to cave his face in with his capo.
his favorite artists are frank ocean and kendrick lamar.
no one in his entire school woulda guessed he could sing. Nobody.
was made to sing in family events... (iykyk)
loves musicals. his favorite's Hamilton...
Jake and Neytiri took him to see Hamilton once in New York when he was 11, he's never been the same since.
HAS MAJOR FUCKING STAGE FRIGHT I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH. HE WILL NOT GO ON STAGE UNTIL YOU SMACK HIM IN THE HEAD SO HARD HIS BRAIN RESETS AND SUDDENLY HAS THE BALLS TO FACE THE AUDIENCE.
Once he's out there though he totally changes, he gets more confident, when he's really feeling it then his braids start flying everywhere... it's becoming an issue really, he might take someone's eye out with how solid his hair beads are...
hurled his guts out one time before they had to perform at the end of year school fair.
â kiri ââââââââ pianist
there are always four types of gays. English Teacher Gays, Art Teacher Gays, History Teacher Gays, and Music Teacher Gays.
Kiri was definitely the last one.
lo'ak got her a shirt that says "key master" with her face horribly photoshopped onto the keys of a piano.
she burned it the night she got it.
til this day lo'ak never knew what happened to it.
Suki Waterhouse as Karen Sirko in the DJATS live action? Brain chemistry = altered
Stevie Nick's and Lindsey Buckingham's performance of Silver Spring in Fleetwood Mac's Reunion concern in 1997? = Roman Empire.
was in the school choir and would play the piano in their choir director's stead.
has been playing the piano for 9 years but always gets confused when asked to play a flat or a sharp (it takes her 4 tries to figure out where C minor is)
her favorite piece to play is over the waves by juventino rosas.
when she wants to show jake a new piece she's been working on, by the first minute he's out like a fucking light. SHE'S JUST THAT GOOD.
also when she wants to play a piece with too many chords she never wanted to play it in the first place.
once she messes up she's definitely one of those people who spams the keys.
one time when she was playing a piece her fingers cramped mid-song and she freaked out.
â spider ââââââââ drums
his dad's military friends taught him how to play the drums.
lo'ak dared him he couldn't do a drumroll for an hour.
spider did it in two and a half but stopped cuz he got hungry LMAO.
impresses kiri with various drumstick spins, it dosen't impress her.
practically worshipped that one vine of those two kids.
was definitely one of those kids that played with overturned pots and pans and pretended it was a drum set (it annoyed the hell outta norm)
once lost his drum sticks and used chopsticks (ps. they weren't the same)
scribbled their band logo on his bass drum and was very proud of it.
INSISTED they would call themselves "the seven skxawngs"
nobody listened to him.
when they held auditions for their drummer he went "You guys know I can play the drums right?"
has never watched whiplash.
uploads drum covers on his tiktok account with 70 followers.
makes dumb jokes if the others can't figure out a certain chord or note he'd go "guys maybe it's at H!"
the most chillest person in the band though frl.
somehow always manages to pull??? The amount of game this man has solely just because he's the drummer is wild.
they once performed at an event with 50 people and Spider was wearing addidas slides the entire time and nobody noticed.
â tsireya ââââââââ main vocals/lyricist
When I tell you this kid can SING SHE CAN SING.
frl the real life ariel I swear evrrytime she opens her mouth everyone's wishing on her downfall because she's such a talented singer, her vibratro is so measured, her runs are so clean, she's just so UGHHHH.
is such a theatre kid oh Lord.
was made to sing at family events too (it's practically a canon event atp guys.)
has a special journal where she writes her song lyrics that she takes with her everywhere (give her 5 minutes and she can write a song with just her hand as paper and eyeliner as a pen.)
joined in singing competitions when she was a kid and when she was 10 joined a televised singing competition and managed to make it to the semi-finals.
it's why she's the lead singer of the band anyway.
she always has pearls threaded into her hair every time they perform and it's been her signature look ever since.
her voice is fucking angelic ya'll istg.
is a soprano. enough said.
is amazing at reading sheet music.
she and neteyam wrote 3 original songs that the band performs everytime they get a gig.
aside from singing she can play piano and violin too.
she's a fucking wordsmith too like she's so eloquent and knows all these big words and she's good at expressing her pent up emotions through songwriting.
the literal it girl. Everyone in their band gained more popularity ever since they opened for a popular band from L.A. but everyone in their high-school knows her name. Everyone.
her vocal control is amazing.
she really knows how to liven up a crowd.
â aonung ââââââââ rhythm guitar
has been playing guitar since he was 7.
took up guitaring because his dad introduced him and tsireya to playing instruments at a young age.
collects guitar straps.
neteyam's always on his ass about if what he's playing sounds right or not (50% of the time he's not)
it isn't practice without neteyam and aonung almost throwing hands at least thrice.
almost always smokes while practicing.
oddly enough only has one guitar pick and he hasn't lost it yet unlike lo'ak who buys new guitar picks every other month.
obsessed with black nailpolish, you won't see him go on stage without black nails istg.
he didn't even audition for the band. He was just always there at the Sully residence to pick Tsireya up from practice until one day Tsireya told him to come inside the house, when he did he finds out they needed someone for rhythm guitar and that Tsireya let it slip that Aonung knew how to play.
he's been a part of the band ever since.
he's just incredibly good with his fingers, enough said.
after the first time they performed their first gig at some girl's house party, he, rotxo, and lo'ak got high on the rooftop of Aonung's house (yk until Lo'ak slipped and started dangling from the gutters and fell into the pool)
his outfits always eat every time they perform.
james hetfield the goat.
always experimenting with new riffs and runs and adds them to the songs mid-performance and without any warning (just to piss neteyam off)
â rotxo ââââââââ bass guitar
the glue and heart of the band frl.
the sweetest basist you'll ever meet.
his family actually owns a popular guitar shop in Awa'atlu, he first started playing the guitar at the ripe age of 5.
Bro is a prodigy but dosen't want to admit it.
aonung bought his first guitar at rotxo's family's shop, they hit it off ever since.
Always brings his baked goods to practices (then kiri devours the entire tray when you aren't looking)
actually fucked up his audition for the band but then Lo'ak found him sobbing in a janitors closet and gave him a second shot at an audition with just Lo'ak and Spider and he was able to redeem himself.
(really only auditioned cuz he played bass, they were finding a bassist, and not because kiri sully was their pianist)
is an introvert but he's so fucking funny that you wouldn't suspect it.
can perform riffs in his sleep (no he actually does though it freaks aonung out when he spends the night in his place.)
kiri made him a resin guitar pick with fragments of coral from the beach when they had their first date.
has a "maturing is realizing bass is the superior instrument" tshirt.
one time wore finger condoms so his scabs wouldn't re-open and bleed all over his guitar đ
summary: neteyam is always watching you⊠and maybe thatâs not a bad thing.
note; english is not my first language so please if something is wrong or sounds wierd let me know so i can fix it
The first thing you learned about Neteyam was that he watched before he spoke.
The second thing was that when he did speak, it was usually to push you just far enough that you noticed him.
You noticed him now.
Standing ankle-deep in the shallows near Awaâatlu, the seafoam licked at his calves while he pretended not to look at you. Pretended poorly. His queue hung loose down his back, beads clicking softly when he shifted his weight.
You adjusted your spear against your shoulder and looked at him.
âIs there something you need, forest boy?â you asked, not bothering to soften your tone.
Neteyam smiled. Not wide. Not smug. Just that quiet, knowing curve of his mouth that always made your grip tighten on whatever you were holding.
You scoffed as he didnât answer. âYouâre staring.â
âIâm observing,â he said back almost immediately.
âThen observe somewhere else. Someone else.â
He took one slow step closer, water rippling outward. âYou get angry very fast."
âAnd you talk too much.â
That earned a soft laugh. He didnât look offended. He never did.
You turned away, stalking toward the weapon racks near the reef edge. You could feel him following without needing to look. His presence was like a tideâ steady, inevitable.
âYou fight well,â he said after a moment, voice quieter now. âYour stance today was different. More grounded.â
You paused despite yourself. âYou were watching me train?â
âOnly when you werenât looking,â he replied, then added quickly, âwhich was most of the time.â
You spun on him, eyes flashing. âYouââ
But he was smiling again, gentle this time, hands raised in mock surrender.
You stared at him, breathing hard, then huffed and turned away again.
âYou enjoy this.â
âI enjoy you,â he corrected, not teasing now. Just honest.
That made you stop for real.
The sea breeze carried the distant calls of ilu riders, the soft hum of the village behind you. You faced him slowly, your heart beating faster in your chest.
âThen stop,â you said.
âNo,â he said back at the speed of light. âI donât want to.â
Something in his voice made your chest tighten. You searched his face for the usual mischief and found none. Only patience.
âThatâs dangerous,â you murmured.
âFor me or you?â
You didnât answer. Instead, you reached for your spear again, adjusting the leather grip. Neteyamâs fingers brushed your wrist as he helped, a feather-light graze meant more to steady than to claim. He withdrew immediately, eyes flicking to your face, checking.
You didnât pull away.
âYouâre always watching me,â you said, noticing.
âSo are you watching me. I noticed,â he said, tilting his head, looking at you with a soft, teasing smile.
You frowned, blushing slightly. âI am not.â
He tilted his head. âYou know when I stop talking before I do. You know when Iâm behind you without turning around.â
You opened your mouth to argue, then closed it.
âYou donât hate me,â he said gently.
âYou donât know that,â you said, but your eyes betrayed you. Of course you donât hate him.
âYou donât.â
The truth settled between you like warm sand. You exhaled through your nose, shaking your head.
âYouâre so sure of yourself.â
âI know,â he said, grinning.
âYou make it hard to think.â
âI try not to,â he replied. âBut I wonât lie.â
That almost made you laugh. Almost.
You turned away from him again, jaw tight, eyes fixed on the line where the water darkened and the reef dropped away. The village sounds felt farther now, like you were standing underwater instead of ankle-deep in it. You adjusted your grip on the spear for the third time in as many breaths, aware of how pointless the motion was.
Neteyam didnât speak.
That was new.
Usually he filled silence the way the sea filled gaps in the sandâ slow, patient, inevitable. Now he let it stretch, let you sit with your own thoughts, and that somehow felt more deliberate than anything heâd said.
You hated how aware you were of him behind you. Not just that he was there, but how he stood, ready to move if you did. You could picture it without looking: shoulders loose, weight evenly distributed, eyes on you like you were something he was studying, not something he meant to take.
It made your skin feel tight.
You could feel him in the way the air felt heavier, warmer. In the quiet behind your shoulder. He didnât crowd you, didnât force himself into your space he just occupied it, steady and unavoidable, like he always did.
âYou should go,â you said.
He shifted slightly, and the beads in his queue clicked, soft but sharp in the silence. âIf you wanted that,â he said, âyouâd already be walking away.â
Your jaw tightened. You hated that he noticed things like that. Hated that he was right.
You bent to rest the spear against the rack, fingers lingering on the shaft longer than necessary. It gave you something to do with your hands, something solid to anchor yourself. When you straightened again, he was closer. Close enough that if you leaned back even a fraction, youâd hit him.
You frowned despite yourself and glanced back. He wasnât smiling now. His expression was open, calm, almost thoughtful.
âYou always do that,â you said.
âDo what?â
âStand like that,â you snapped. âLike youâre waiting for me to move first.â
His lips curved faintly. âI am.â
You turned then, too fast, and nearly collided with him. The sudden closeness knocked the breath from your lungs. His chest was right there warm, solid, unmoving. You could smell him clearly now: salt, woodsmoke, the clean sharpness of the forest carried into the sea.
Neither of you stepped back.
Your pulse jumped, loud in your ears. You lifted your chin, refusing to give ground. âYou donât scare me.â
âI know. I wasnât even tryingâ His voice was low enough that it vibrated against you. Not quite touching, but close enough that your skin prickled where the sound reached it.
âThen what are you doing?â you demanded.
He glanced down to where your hands were clenched at your sides. Then back to your face. âStanding,â he said. âStill.â
You swallowed. The space between you felt thinner now, stretched taut like a line about to snap.
âYouâre too close,â you said.
He didnât move. âYou havenât asked me to step back.â
That was unfair. He knew it. You knew it. Your fingers twitched, half-expecting them to brush his chest by accident. The thought sent a sharp jolt through you.
âYou feel that too,â he said, more accusation than question.
You shifted your stance, feet sinking slightly into the wet sand. âYou talk like you know me.â
âIâm learning,â he said. âYou donât make it easy.â
That almost earned him a real laugh. Instead, you exhaled sharply through your nose.
âThatâs why I stay near the edges,â he continued. âI donât step where Iâm not welcome.â
âThatâs not what youâre doing now.â
He met your eyes. Held them. âIt is.â
Something about that made your chest tighten again. You took a step back without meaning to, water splashing softly around your ankles. His eyes followed the movement. He didnât follow this time.
Good, you told yourself. Good.
The sea surged in, cold around your calves, then pulled back again. You focused on the sensation, grounding yourself in something physical, something real.
The truth of it settled heavy and unwelcome. You looked down at your spear, tracing the worn leather wrap with your thumb. It had been repaired more times than you could count. You liked things that endured damage and kept going.
Neteyam was watching your hands now.
âYou think Iâm playing with you,â he said quietly. âBut Iâm careful. With you.â
That made your chest ache in a way you didnât have a name for.
âCareful would be leaving me alone,â you muttered.
He stepped closer again, just enough that you could feel the warmth of him, the faint scent of salt and resin and something unmistakably forest-born. He stopped short of touching you.
âCareful,â he said, âis not asking for more than you can give.â
You swallowed.
âI want to know when youâll push me away,â he said. âAnd when you wonât.â
Your breath caught. âAnd what happens if I donât?â
His jaw tightened slightly. The first real crack youâd seen in his calm.
âThen I stop,â he said. âBefore it becomes something you regret.â
That shouldnât have made your chest ache. It did anyway.
You stared at him, searching for the arrogance you could throw back in his face. Instead, you found restraint. It unsettled you more than confidence ever could.
âThen you should leave,â you said again.
He leaned in just enough that you could feel the heat of him along your arm, his breath stirring the short hairs near your ear.
âI will,â he said softly. âIf you step back.â
Your body betrayed you. You didnât move.
The moment stretched thin, electric. You were acutely aware of every inch of space between you, of how easily it could disappear. Your heart hammered so hard you were sure he could hear it.
Neteyamâs gaze dropped to your mouth just for a second, then snapped back to your eyes. His restraint was visible now, etched into the tight line of his jaw.
âThis is where I stop,â he said.
Then slowly, deliberately he stepped back.
The loss of warmth was immediate, jarring. The air rushed in to fill the space he left, and you hated how empty it felt.
âNext time,â he said quietly, âyouâll know exactly what youâre choosing.â
He gave you one last look with this smile of his. Like he knew what would happen next time.
Then he turned and walked away, water rippling around his legs, leaving you standing there with your pulse racing and your hands curled into fists. Angry not at him, but at how badly you wished he hadnât stopped.
WARNING: contains spoilers from the movies, and my unfiltered personal opinion
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1 Loâak and Tsireya come together first over anything
-for him, it was easy to choose: she was the first to see him, not the troublemaker or a little brother whoâll never be good enough, but him
-she slowly becomes more and more devoted without realizing it, until sheâd be willing to be cast out for him
-theyâre the little siblings, who never got the chance to make their own way in anything in their lives, so when they do, they donât ever let go of it
-my pookies are in love, and they donât even know it:33
2 thereâs an OC who always braids Aoânungâs hair
-probably a girl from their tribe, who was never officially asked but she always does it nonetheless
-Aoânung tells everyone he hates it, then goes back for more every time
-she always smiles at him when sheâs done, and he wonât ever admit to anyone he likes it
-the two probably get married once he takes over his father as Oloâeyktan
3 Jake never wanted to be a father
-be happy? Yes. Prove himself to the people? Sure.
-he loves Neytiri with his whole heart, and heâd do anything for her
-but that doesnât mean he ever dreamt of being a father
-he mightâve decided to have a family with Neytiri, because he can imagine himself having one with her, not because he wouldâve done it in the first place
-I just think he hasnât completely made peace with his younger self and that shows in how he separates his children (intentionally or not, but he does)
-I think he detests Loâakâs behaviour so much because heâs practically him in a younger version, and that means someone he canât control
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Thatâs all for now, but let me know if youâd like some more :33
đŹ 4  đ 1  â€ïž 43 · Lost over the Reefs · Aoânung x fem!reader
Part 1
Synopsis: sneaking out at night obviously comes with its risks, especi
Part2
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Part 2
Synopsis: when you find out about your strange saviorâs identity, you
Part 3
đŹ 4  đ 1  â€ïž 27 · Lost over the Reefs · Aoânung x fem!reader
Part 3
Synopsis: a quiet night over the reefs can change many things.. especi
Part 4
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Part 4
Synopsis: hearts begin to flutter as the two of you start to realize your
Part 5
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Part 5 (Final)
Synopsis: it takes two tulkuns, a little help from Eywa, and a brig
Synopsis: it takes two tulkuns, a little help from Eywa, and a bright sunrise when the two of you finally find each other
OR Aoânungâs feelings finally become stronger than his resolve
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->for the sake of the fic please overlook technicalities and timelines etc. (this is pure yearning, fluff and chaos :33)
->reader is an OC from another Metkayina tribe
THE FIC CONTAINS SPOILERS OF AVATAR: THE WAY OF THE WATER but does not follow the plot!!
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The Valley of the Tulkuns was a scary place. At first, you braced yourself with a beating heart when you thought youâll be going there. But when you approached the entrance, Aoânung turned to the side, pulling you to a wider, more open clearing where the Tulkuns usually pastured.
A few moments later, you noticed the mighty bull venturing between the coral reefs. Tseâtuk was young, but strong and clearly known for it. He moved gently, as someone well aware of his size, which did nothing for your nerves. Tulkuns never attacked anyone, sure, but that didnât mean they didnât look frightening.
You halted slightly at the thought, fear creeping into your system. Aoânung slowed his movements, squeezing your hands a little in encouragement. âItâs okayâ, he signed, âHeâs not going to hurt you. He knows weâre coming.â
You wouldâve like to know exactly how he knew that, but instead, you just nodded, letting him guide you closer. Tseâtuk turned his head as he saw you approach, dipping his head in greeting.
Aoânung swam up to him, giving you one last smile before he let go of your hands. The Tulkunâs eyes watched you for a moment, before they turned back to his brother. The waters juddered as the deep sound gurgled from his chest.
âSo, at last I meet the girl who managed to steal the heart of the future Oloâeyktan, the Tulkun mused.
Aoânung rolled his eyes with a smile. âBe gentleâ, he signaled, turning away so Leyra couldnât understand him, âSheâs scaredâ
Tseâtuk obviously wasnât about to let go of the topic. âYou didnât tell her, did you?â
He frowned, making sure she couldnât see him before he responded. âNo. Iâm not ready yetâ
The Tulkun glanced at him as if all the teasing from his friends wasnât already enough. And now, even Sully is mending in his business, the skwang. âThat doesnât sound like the warrior I bonded. Your heart is brave. Listen to that, not your fears.â
Aoânung rolled his eyes, though his heart was beating frantically. âAre you done with the lesson?â
Tseâtuk gurgled some water up at him. âBring her forward, but be slow. My mateâs coming and she doesnât like rambunctious strangers.â
Aoânung nodded, turning towards you as he extracted your hand. You sent him a bright smile and his heart fluttered at the sight. He wasnât sure if heâll ever have the guts to tell you just how beautiful he thought you were.
âEverything alright?â, you asked, a little nervously. The two stayed talking for a bit longer than youâd anticipated, and you began to worry a little whether the Tulkun had changed his mind.
Aoâungâs eyes sparkled as he smiled. He offered his hand and you took it, after a slight bit of hesitation. âCome. He is looking forward to meeting youâ
You bit your lower lip, as he pulled you closer to the mighty animal. You did your best not to shiver: you knew that Tulkuns could sense fear, just as well as they could feel the true strength of a Naâvi.
The Tulkun glanced at you, its yellow eyes glinting with friendliness. âI see you, Tseâtuk, brother of Aoânungâ, you greeted as a sign of respect, though your hands shivered a little through the movement.
You didnât notice Aoânungâs endearing smile, while he watched you. Tseâtukâs eyes narrowed, resembling a smile that you found surprisingly adorable. The waters juddered as he responded.
âHe says it is equally nice to meet youâ, Aoânung translated, though you noticed the twitch of his lips before he spoke.
Tseâtuk looked at him, then back at you as he spoke again. You sent a questioning glance to Aoânung, who furrowed his brows a little. âHeâs asking why havenât you talked to a Tulkun before.â
You focused on slowing your breath, making sure you maintained your composure before you spoke. âI had an accident when I was littleâ, you signed, refusing to think about all the images that flooded your memory âa calf swallowed me while we were playing. It wasnât his fault, but my tribe never gave shelter to Tulkuns after that.â
Aoânungâs eyes widened behind you, but you didnât notice. Tseâtukâs response came slowly. âHe says, âyou have brave heart to dare talking to a Tulkun after something like thatâ â, the Metkayina boy translated. Tseâtuk kept talking.
âIt is a disgrace to injure any Naâvi for our kind. If that calf caused such harm to your life, he must be an outcast by now.â
As he translated, Aoânungâs eyes widened even more. You sent him a brief glance before shaking your head. âOur tribe and the elders of the Tulkun held a great council afterwards. My parents spoke for the calf, and he was forgiven. In return, the Matriarch gave her word that they would steer clear of our waters.â
For a moment, Aoânung forgot he was supposed to be translating as he turned towards you with a shocked expression. âWait, really?â
Before you could reply, though, Tseâtuk spoke again. âHe says, âthat is not why he is outcastâ â Aoânung signed, â âhe has betrayed the way of the Tulkun, and disobeyed orders. He was cast out for his own good.â â
You hung your head, a sad but apologetic smile on your lips as you replied. âIâm sorry that happened to him.â
Aoânung eyes darted quickly between you and his brother before he signaled something to Tseâtuk. âThat cannot be. Are you talking about Payakan, brother?â
The Tulkunâs tone darkened. âYes. The outcast has bonded a forest boy who was lost over the reefs.â
Something twisted in Aoânungâs stomach because the forest boy happened to be over the reefs that day because of him. âAre you going to tell her?â, he asked, the knot tightening in his stomach.
The Tulkunâs intelligent eyes studied him for a few moments. âWhatâs done is done. It is Payakanâs decision whether heâll reveal himself to her. But he might tell his brother first.â
And Sully will definitely tell Leyra as soon as he finds out. Aoânung wasnât sure he was ready to consider that possibility.
Meanwhile, the object of his desire floated beside him, mostly oblivious to the discussion. âAoânungâ, she signed, touching his shoulder, âwhatâs going on?â
âTell her to come closerâ Tsuâtek spoke, âShe can swim with us if she wishes.â
He turned towards her, taking her hand into his. âHe says you can touch him if you want.â
Leyra bit her lower lip nervously. Aoânungâs eyes followed the gesture, and he pushed all the thoughts that flooded his mind aside. It wasnât the first time he thought about kissing her, and it wouldnât be the last.
She thought for a few more seconds, before nodding slowly. âYeah. Okay.â
Aoânungâs smile was proud, because he thought that was better than showing how much he admired her for her bravery. He saw right away how scared she was, and yet, her eyes spoke of nothing but determination.
He squeezed her hand once, before slowly pulling her towards his brother. He stood behind her while she lowered her fingers onto the Tulkunâs skin slowly, and tried not to smile when she shuddered a little at the contact.
She turned around in his arms afterwards, sending him a clear, bright smile, and Aoânung was sure his heart would leap out of his chest if she began doing that more often. âThank youâ
âAnytime, starfishâ, he mumbled, internally smiling. If his sister saw him right now, sheâd tell him he was an idiot in love. No point in denying that.
Just then, another Tulkun approached them from the other side, swimming close to greet them. Leyra turned around suddenly, jumping a little from surprise as her eyes became wide with fear.
Aoânung didnât know why that was his first instinct but he pulled her to his side by the waist, and she didnât push him away.
âDonât be afraidâ, Tseâtuk said and he quickly reminded himself he had to translate,â thatâs just my mate, Eyok.â
The female Tulkun observed them for a few moments before she remarked cheerfully. âYou brought your beloved to our watersâ
Aoânung gave up trying to count the times he repeated the same sentence. He made sure to sign quickly enough to that Leyra, who still clung to him, couldnât understand. âShe isnât.. I havenât told her yet.â
Eyok laughed, sending a spur of gargling water towards them. Leyra recognized the sound, seeming a little less terrified as she turned towards him. âShe.. doesnât mind that Iâm here?â
The female Tulkun responded with gentle patience. âThe brother of my mate is a brother of mine. His beloved is equally as welcome.â
Aoânung refrained himself from rolling his eyes, as he turned towards the girl in his arms. âShe says you may swim with us, if youâd like. She doesnât mind.â
Eyok chirped sassily. âDid I say that?â
âGently, ma yawntu (my love/dear)âTseâtuk interrupted gleefully, âLetâs not pester the youth. She is scaredâ
Leyra, who floated beside them, was still blissfully unaware of the discussion. Her mouth opened slightly from surprise at his words, before she smiled, turning towards the newcomer Tulkun. âI see you Eyok, beloved of Tseâtuk. My name is Leyra.â
Eyok chirped gleefully. âShe says itâs nice to meet you tooâ, Aoânung translated, intentionally ignoring the bickering of the two beside them as he turned fully towards her.
Leyra looked up at him with those big, beautiful eyes, and he couldnât find the strength to tear his gaze away. âSo..â, he signed, grinning, âare we going for a swim?â
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It was a while later when the two of you said bye to the Tulkuns, as you began swimming towards the shore. You felt comfortably numb from all the joy and adrenaline: you met not only one Tulkun but two, and you even swam with them.
Who wouldâve ever thought that was possible? All thanks to the boy swimming beside you.
Aoânung was seemingly lost in thought, his fingers woven into your own as you neared towards the surface. You were grateful for his help: your muscles felt sore, after all the swimming.
Once at the reefs, you pulled yourself up to the cliffs, shaking the water out of your hair as you waited for Aoânung to arrive after you.
He came a few moments later, barely able to hold back a smile. âWhat is it?â, you asked chuckling as you stepped towards him.
He lifted his hand, revealing a small, purple flower between his fingers. âI found thisâ, he mumbled, the softness shining through his eyes, âit reminded me of you.â
Your heart fluttered in your chest. You took his hands into yours, examining the small, intricate patterns. âOh Aoânung, thatâs beautiful! Thank you.â
As you lifted your eyes to look up at him, you found his eyes already focused on you, and you blushed. He smiled, gently tearing his hands away as he raised them to sneak the flower between your braids.
You kept looking at him, your heart thumping frantically in your chest. The sun had began to rise, and as the first streaks reached the cliffs they fell onto his features, highlighting the blue in his eyes.
He was long done with the gesture but his hands still lingered around your frame until you eventually placed them onto your waist.
Aoânung glanced at you, surprise flashing across his eyes but he didnât move away at all. You gave him a cheeky smile. Then, you stood onto your tiptoes and kissed him.
It was a bold move, and you didnât know where exactly did you get the bravery to be so reckless. Maybe it was all the things he showed you tonight, or maybe youâd just decided to finally do something you wanted for a while now.
Aoânung melted into the kiss slowly, his grip becoming firmer on your waist as he pulled you closer. He deepened the kiss, probably without thinking, so that by the time you pulled away you were both slightly out of breath.
He leaned towards you, resting his forehead on your own, and you probably wouldâve blushed from the intensity in his eyes even if it wasnât the umpteenth time you saw it. âIf thatâs what I get for one time, Iâm going to introduce you to the whole Tulkun clan, starfish.â
You giggled, wrapping your hands around his neck. âShut up you skwang, and tell me you love me.â
Aoânungâs eyes glinted in amusement, that turned into something much deeper at your words. âOh I donât just love you. I want you to be my mate, starfishâ, he said, switching to the tongue of the Metkayina. His voice was probably the rawest, most vulnerable youâve ever heard him, âI want you to be the mother of my children, and be my Tsaâhik once Iâm allowed to have one. I love you like I havenât loved anyone else my whole life. I was a fool, for not saying it sooner.â
You stared back at him, a few tears brimming at the corner of your eyes. You didnât even want to hide the smile that threatened to crack your face anymore. âI see you, Aoânungâ you replied, the same softness brimming in your tone, âyou are brave, compassionate, caring and you have a good heart. I canât imagine myself mating anyone else, even if you can be an incredibly big skwang sometimes.â
He laughed, lifting you up into his arms as he winked at you cheekily. âDoes that still mean Iâll get another kiss?â, he teased, leaning into your lips.
âOnly if you promise to introduce me to the whole Tulkun clanâ, you grinned back, wrapping your legs tightly around his waist as you kissed him firmly.
He made sure to leave you panting once more before he responded, staring into your eyes with a flame you now recognized as love. âAnything for you, starfish.â
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We bid goodbye to our loverboy (for now) :33
BONUS:
Loâak sat on the large fin of the outcast Tulkun, as he listened to Payakan tell him about the latest development between the chiefâs son and the girl he accidentally swallowed once. Tsireya was by his side, his arm hanging loosely around her shoulder while he watched the Metkayina girl gawk at all the new information.
âI canât believe my brother would hide something like that..â, she muttered, looking up at him, âand even Leyra didnât tell me!â
Loâak grinned, his heart fluttering like it did every time Tsireya said something to him. âWell, you know them. I have a feeling your brother will announce heâs chosen a Tsaâhik for himself in front of the tribe very soon.â
Tsireya tilted her head, sending him a cheeky smile. âNo sooner than I convince my mother to let you stay with us. She canât hold me much longer from choosing a mate once Aoânung declares his choice is from an another clan.â
The Sully boyâs lips parted in surprise, as he glanced at the girl he loved, in his arms. Tsireya smiled shyly, giving him a kiss on the cheek before she dove into the water, resurfacing to smile sweetly towards him. âCome on. I want to be there when they present themselves to the clan.â
Loâak followed, though his mind was far away, fluttering somewhere over the coast along with his heart. He didnât even try to hide the smile that stayed plastered to his face for the entire night afterwards.
Synopsis: hearts begin to flutter as the two of you start to realize your feelings for each other. The question is, will anyone have the guts to talk about it?
OR the Sullies immediately become united in faith when it comes to being wingmen
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->thisâll have more parts
->for the sake of the fic please overlook technicalities and timelines etc. (this is pure yearning, fluff and chaos :33)
->reader is an OC from another Metkayina tribe
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THE FIC CONTAINS SPOILERS OF AVATAR: THE WAY OF THE WATER but does not follow the plot!!
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Something shifted between the two of you after that. It wasnât too obvious, but it was there, and both of you knew it.
Firstly, you noticed Aoânung talking to the Sullies more often without the usual tension hanging in the air. At first, you were suspicious. Then, with a flutter in your heart, you realized he had simply taken your advice.
Youâd gotten confirmation of that one day, as you were flying around with Neteyam on his ikran. You once told him how much youâd love to experience flying like that, so he offered, and then you made a silent pact to do it more often.
âYou know..â, the Sully boy mumbled as he gently guided the animal between the cliffs, âAoânungâs become a lot more bearable lately â
You quirked a brow, grinning. âIs that so? â
Neteyam nodded, sounding a bit thoughtful. âYeah. I donât know what you did to him, but heâs acting.. different. Iâm starting to think heâs not actually as much of a skwang as he seems. â
Something fluttered in your heart, though you werenât really sure about the reason. âWhat I did to him?â
The eldest Sully brother smiled at you behind his shoulder, a knowing look glinting his eyes. âYou know exactly what Iâm talking about. He came back after the fight all patched up, he apologized to Loâak, and theyâve been hanging out since. Iâm pretty sure it wasnât any of his relatives who convinced him to do that. â
You bit your lower lip, becoming slightly embarrassed. âWell I mightâve pointed out you guys arenât as different as he thinks. Itâs all been him after that. â
âWell, if thatâs all it took to make him listen than you might be more important to him than you thinkâ Neteyam replied, âjust saying. â
You shrugged it off then, but the words stuck with you for a long while.
Truthfully so, Aoânung didnât just make peace with the new comers. The more the days passed, the more you found yourself hanging out with him for no obvious reason at all. You walked along the reefs, dived deep into the sea under the guise of competing against each other, and coordinated The Sulliesâ swimming lessons together on occasion.
The more you got to know of him, the more you recognized that not only could he be much less of an asshole if he wanted to be, but also that he had a whole, interesting personality under the obnoxious facade.
He was compassionate, intelligent, and deeply devoted once he began to like something. He also got annoyed easily at things, but now you were slowly becoming to notice the difference between when he was actually honest, and when he decided to hide his true feelings. Which he did surprisingly often.
He was also a true-born leader at heart, though youâd never tell him you recognized that. The boys in their tribe trusted and respected him, acknowledging his status even though he didnât actually have it yet.
You noticed because after a while, even the Sullies began to listen to him to a certain extent, including Loâak, whoâs otherwise been busy running around with Tsireya.
But what most surprised you was his general ability to get people to listen to him. When he taught the children, he told them stories and they all sat frozen in awe, with sparkling eyes. When he reprimanded the boys his age, he was firm, calculated and impossible to misinterpret. Aoânung could threaten mostly anyone with just a glance, and a few words from him were enough to get all the other boys running off with their tails between their legs.
He could also maintain order just as easily as he created commotion. Once, he reprimanded a group of boys for insulting a little girl who was playing away with Kiri. He didnât tell any of the parents, but the group had been making a new sailboat for the two girls for an entire week afterwards. The only reason you found out was because Tuk once began blabbering with exceeding joy in her eyes about the new toy Aoânung got for them. You didnât know which one of you were more amazed: you, or her siblings combined.
In the end none of you mentioned it to him, but when everyone began to go their separate ways, Neteyam bumped into your shoulder, a coy smile playing on the corner of his lips. âSee? I told you.â
âTold her what?â, Loâak joined in, hitting his brother playfully in the back.
âThat Aoânungâs head over heels for her.â
âOh thatâ, the younger Sully grinned, nodding vehemently in agreement, âyeah bro, heâs smitten. He canât even hide it anymore.â
You rolled your eyes, trying your best to hide the frantic drum of your heartbeat. âAnd you concluded that from one act of kindness? Câmon guys, thatâs a little far fetched.â
Loâak quirked a brow, exchanging a glance with his brother. âHe never told you why we got into that fight, did he?â âNopeâ, you shook your head, the flame of curiosity ignited in your chest, âjust that he didnât start it. â
The younger Sully rolled his eyes. âMaybe not with a punch, but his mouth ran like usual.â
âYeah, cause you were the first who punched him, skwangâ, Neteyam remarked.
âBecause he accused me of planning to knock up his sister!â, Loâak hissed, acting like his usual dramatic self, âAs if Iâd ever do something like that.â
You, on the other hand, felt absolutely flabbergasted. âHe did what?â
âYou should tell her what you told him firstâ, Neteyam interrupted, giving his brother a meaningful glance.
Loâak grinned coyly. âJust the truth. That he can keep messing with us if he wants, but everyone knows that he doesnât have the balls to tell a girl how he feels.â
âAnd that someoneâll eventually steal you if he keeps fucking it up like thatâ, the older Sully continued with a lopsided grin, âfor once, you speak truth brother.â
Loâak rolled his eyes, punching his brotherâs arm. âShut up, skwang. Not everyone can be perfect like you.â
At other times, youâd have joined in on their shenanigans but now you were too shocked from the freshly revealed information. âSo what youâre saying is.. you guys got into a fight over me?â
âTechnically, we got into a fight cause Aoânung is an assholeâ, Loâak replied swiftly, âbut yeah. I havenât seen anyone as stupidly in love as he is. Heâs just too much of a skwang to tell you.â
âYeah well, then you clearly havenât seen yourself broâ, Neteyam grinned, ducking the younger boyâs head under his arm. You both laughed as he tried to wriggle out of the chokehold. âOi! Let go of me!â
âWhoâs the skwang now, huh?â, you teased, grinning at Neteyam who smiled back wholeheartedly.
You didnât notice Aoânung, who stood a little further behind, watching the exchange with gritted teeth. He was initially going to steal you away, and ask you to walk with him when he found you with the Sully boys. You were laughing. With them. And he hated it.
You never knew, of course, because heâd never mention anything about it. In the end, he just turned around, stomping off to the reefs that were far enough so the wind wouldnât carry your voice.
Meanwhile you, blissfully unaware to his thundering thoughts, were preoccupied with conflicted feelings of your own. Though you didnât want to admit it, you found you began to like Aoânung. More than youâd ever thought you would.
You just wished heâd tell you something, anything really, thatâd mean he returned your feelings. Though this new information sounded convincing, you didnât hear that from Aoânung himself.
By now, his whole way of interacting with you had changed. He did small things, and he didnât say much. But whenever he looked at you, his eyes talked, more than anything, and you couldnât find it in your heart to tell yourself that it was hopeless.
But what little hope you had, often got crushed when you remembered how important his parentsâ validation was to him. What if all of this was just to get into their good graces?
Above all, you were an eldest sibling too, and you couldnât forget about your future, and your responsibilities. You also knew quite a lot about pleasing elders, and so, it wouldnât have surprised if Aoânung had fallen victim to the same.
You just wished that your heart didnât ache so much every time you pondered over the likeliness of that possibility.
â
A few nights later you were laying out over the reefs by yourself, when you heard familiar footsteps. A few moments later, Aoânung lowered himself swiftly beside you.
You turned towards him immediately, propping yourself up on your arms as you gave him a small smile. âWhatâs a chiefâs son doing all the way out here?â
Something flickered through his eyes. You noticed he seemed a bit more tense than usual, but he masked it with a grin before you could study him any further.
âLooking for his Tsaâhikâ, he replied with a wink. He flirted like that with you sometimes, but you didnât scold him for it and he didnât take it any further.
âMhmâ, you turned on your stomach, looking up at him, âany particular reason?â
Aoânung glanced down at you with a softness in his eyes that you knew he didnât think youâd notice. âMost of your clan came for the festivities. I went to look for you but you werenât there.â
âI didnât feel like itâ, you shrugged, glancing towards the plants that glowed gently in the night, âMy parents are holding council with the elders anyways.â
âAnd you didnât want to use that chance to sneak out?âAoânung retorted, suspicion rising in his voice.
âNot everythingâs about sneaking out you knowâ, you remarked, hoping the change of topics would make him let go of the question, âLoâakâs had a bad influence on you. Youâre starting to sound like him.â
Aoânung stared back at you with a humorless smile at the corner of his lips. âYouâd know what thatâs like for sure.â
His voice sounded sharp, not entirely obviously, but you noticed the difference. âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
He averted his eyes with a huff. âNothing.â
Well that was weird. He wasnât usually liked this unless something was irking at his skin, but youâd die before you dared to ask him about it. Mostly, because then the question wouldâve gone along the lines of, âSo what, are you jealous?â
The two of you lay in silence for a while, until your thoughts riled you up enough to turn towards him. âI heard the Tulkuns got back today.â
Aoânung glanced at you only for a moment before he turned his eyes back towards the night sky. âYeah. I met my brother, Tseâtuk. He says theyâve had a fruitful voyage.â
You hummed, smiling quietly to yourself. âI wish could do that.â
He quirked a brow down at you. âDo what?â
âUnderstand their language. Our tribe doesnât bond with Tulkuns so I never got close enough to learnâ, you mumbled with a sigh.
You found these creatures mesmerizing, though truthfully, they could also be dangerous. As someone from the outside, it wasnât advisable to approach a Tulkun without good reason.
Aoânung was silent for a few moments, seemingly pondering over something before he responded. âI could take you.â
You, preoccupied in thought, didnât hear him at first. âExcuse me?â
He propped himself up on his elbows, leaning a little forward and you acted like you didnât notice all the defined muscles in his figure. âCome with me into the watersâ, he repeated a little more confidently, âTseâtuk likes strangers, I could introduce you to him.â
Your eyes grew wide in surprise. The idea sounded thrilling and terrifying at the same time. You bit your lower lip nervously. âI donât know, I.. donât think thatâs a good idea.â
Aoânung tilted his head in suspicion. âWhy?â
âItâs just.. what if the Matriarch sees us?â, you mumbled, though you second-guessed yourself the moment the words left your lips, âIâm guessing not many would approve of strangers randomly going into their valleyâ
Thatâs the most ridiculous excuse anyoneâs ever invented in all the Naâviâs lifetime. Aoânung saw through it immediately. âOh come on, youâre just scaredâ
You huffed, crossing your arms, adjusting your top to make sure it didnât slide into the wrong place. Aoânungâs eyes followed the movement but he didnât say anything. âAm notâ, you muttered.
âYes you areâ, he grinned back, leaning forward so he could level with your eyes, â I know when you lie, starfish. Admit it.â
You gritted your teeth. You didnât know when refusing to break the eye contact became so intense with him. âYou want the truth? Fine. Why donât you tell me why you actually got into a fight with the Sullies?â
The smug grin broke off of Aoânungâs features, fading into a frown of confusion. He probably aimed for sounding indifferent, but you noticed the storm behind his eyes. âWhat?â
âNot so confident now, are you?â, glancing into his eyes you tried to muster your most demanding glance, âIf you lied to me, nowâs the time to speak up.â
âIâm gonna break Sullyâs neckâ, Aoânung gritted his teeth.
âYou will not lay a hand on Loâakâ, you retorted, leaning after him before he could try to run off. He huffed, but he didnât try to snap your hands away, âor Neteyam for that matter. Is that understood?â
The storm became thundering behind his eyes, if possible, as he leaned forward, the cocky smile returning to his lips. âReally? Or what?â
âOr I might change my mind about youâ, you retorted, sending him an expectant glance, âitâs not their fault you refuse to be honest with me.â
He looked hurt, slightly, if youâd ever seen him. âThe only reason I havenât drowned them yet is because you asked me not to. You should consider that before you keep judging me.â
âYou remember that now, huh? Anything else stuck from that night, or is it just your ego that got bigger in the process?â
Aoânung kept smiling, but there wasnât anything genuine in the gesture. âI do happen to remember I lied to my mother.â
The unlikely remark caught you off-guard, throwing you a little off balance in the invisible chess match. You furrowed your brows, the anger in your mind numbing down a little. âWhat?â
Aoânung avoided your gaze while he spoke. âShe asked me how disgraceful did I think myself to ask Reyâka to patch a wound up for me. I just told her she must be in her good graces to have agreed.â
Your lips parted in surprise, warmth slowly flooding to your cheeks. So his mother, the Tsaâhik.. mistook your work for your motherâs? Another Tsaâhikâs?
And he took the blame for it? âWhy didnât you correct her?â you mumbled, a little nervously, âshe mustâve given you one hell of a timeâ
Aoânung shrugged it off, though a small, shy smile played at the corner of his lips. When he looked at you, his eyes gave you the apology he could never muster in his words. âYeah well. I promised to take someone to the Tulkuns. Iâm just wondering if sheâll still come with me.â
You tilted your head, huffing as you rolled your eyes with a smile. âShe might. If you promise to stop acting like the skwang you were tonight.â
The Metkayina boy looked you in the eyes as he stood up, offering his hand with a grin. âOf course. Where else would I get a Tsaâhik who actually endures me?â
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*smiles* So whoâs coming for part 5?
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Part 5 (Final)
Synopsis: it takes two tulkuns, a little help from Eywa, and a bri
summary: fluff! human reader is a nurse, treating the fallen naâvi and avatar friends of the lab when needed. one (possessive...) patient seems to keep having minor accidents; neteyam needs an excuse to see her whenever!!
a/n: do people care if I capitalize or not⊠Iâm thinking of starting to do it for all future fics but does it ruin the aesthetics.. idk đ«Ł
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The lab was like a boundary between worlds- human constructed but softened by the Naâvi influence around, woven vines creeping up the metal beams. Bioluminescent plants grew across (what once were) sterile white walls. It smelled faintly of antiseptic, but also your perfume, a scent that kept you awake.
You werenât a soldier, and not a professional scientist like Norm or Max. You were a trained medic, sharp and the best at your job given the circumstances. Somehow, you had earned a place among the Omaticayan that few humans could reach. You treated whoever needed treating, remaining respective of the TsahĂŹk way. You learned names, customs, boundaries; you respected Pandora as if it were not something to be studied, but a place to be thanked. This respect was easily returned.
Naâvi warriors came to you without hesitation now. Hunters let you tend their wounds. Elders even nodded when you passed. You spoke the language well, though your Naâvi wasnât perfect, still rough around the edges but near fluency. You had never asked to use an avatar, satisfied with the way you were and always had been. Still, you belonged.
It was like the Sully family had claimed you early.
Tuk adored you with a ferocity that bordered on possessive, constantly at your side, tugging on your sleeves and demanding stories while braiding your hair with flowers that stained your scalp purple. Sometimes, when you stayed out late in the forest, you told Tuk the human stories you had learnt yourself - old fairy tales and legends of lost princesses, brave girls, and a variety of magical forests. Neteyam listened too, sitting cross-legged and just as invested as Tuk. He found himself loving the way you spoke dramatically, a gentle method you used to translate the magic of your world into his sisterâs.
As for the others, Jake trusted you fully. Neytiri watched you with sharp eyes, but they softened when she thought you werenât looking. You earned her approval the way everyone else did, with competence and skill that she felt matched her own.
Neteyam though, he had always liked you. Not in the same careless, loud way Loâak once did. That phase of his had been short-lived. Loâak was perceptive in his own way. He noticed the way Neteyam watched you with admiration, and how his shoulders would tighten if someone elseâs attention lingered too long.
Loâak laughed once, clapping his brother on the shoulder after being asked why he was so close to you.
âDonât worry, bro,â he said lightly. âI see what youâre doing. I donât want her like that.â
Neteyam looked away, not bothering to counter.
You and Neteyam existed in a relaxed orbit; flirty without being reckless, no crossing lines. He brought the injured to you, even when they didnât need guidance, and you teased him for hovering. Neteyam was one of the strongest, most precise fighters that you had known in your career.
And somehow, he always ended up in your lab.
Nothing ever serious, of course. A shallow cut on his forearm, a bruised shoulder, or a miniature scrape across his abdomen. Injuries that made absolutely zero sense considering his skill. Each time he arrived, shy with a hand rubbing the back of his neck, youâd glance up at him over your laptop and say something like,
âPeople are going to start thinking Iâm bad at my job if you keep this up.â
Heâd return a calm, composed look. One that suggested he was a disciplined warrior that simply needed some human assistance.
âI am a cautious man, sevĂŹn-tawtute.â (pretty human)
âNo, youâre dramatic, hiyĂŹk-tsamsiyu.â (funny warrior) youâd reply, tightening a bandage hard enough to make him blink hard. You smoothed your hand over the bandage and giggled, not missing the way he took a deeper breath.
His tail was first to betray him when it came to you. A flick, slow curl, just never still.
Even his family noticed.
Loâak made exaggerated coughing sounds whenever Neteyam was caught staring into the direction of the lab, tail curled on his thigh.
âFeeling sick, bro?â
Kiri raised knowing brows, smiling to the others when he came home with another bandage day after day. Jake said nothing, but he tracked Neteyamâs habit of visiting you in his mind. Neytiri pretended not to see, which meant she saw everything and was definitely gossiping with Jake about it all after hours. Tuk, unfiltered and innocent, announced once to a room full of companions as you all ate lunch near hometree:
âI think Neteyam likes the healer more than his bow.â
Neteyam had gone still, his ears flicking back and down in embarrassment. But you and Kiri, you laughed so hard you had nearly dropped your bowls on each other.
Despite it all, Neteyam never pushed for anything. He lingered because he wanted to, and he came back again because it gave him an excuse to be near you without risking rejection. You couldnât turn away a patient, right? He knew you werenât dumb, but he didnât realize how obvious he was being with this crush of his.
You never missed the way his gaze softened when he looked at you, only you. How his shoulders eased when you spoke to him in Naâvi, tail flicking with his attention caught. How he stood a little taller, smile widening, when you praised his leadership and skill.
You liked him too. That part was undeniable. You just hadnât figured out how to approach that yet.
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Relâyan, the Naâvi warrior sitting on the edge of the treatment table was far too relaxed for someone with a gash along his forearm.
âYou are very gentle, little human,â he said, watching your hands with a careful admiration. His smile was smug, eyes bright. âI think I will come to you next time, as well.â
You hummed softly, tightening the wrap with ease. âTry not to get injured too much then, thereâs only one of me here.â
He laughed. âPerhaps I will simply visit.â
Before you could say something, the air in the room shifted. You turned to look at the entrance.
Neteyam stood in the doorway, watching with observant eyes. His eyes flicked from the warriors smile to your hands, and the distance - or lack of - between you two.
âHello, sevĂŹn.â he said, voice quieter than usual.
The warrior followed your gaze and turned his head. Recognition sparked, followed by amusement.
âAh,â he sighed. âI am finished, yes?â
You nodded . âAll set. Keep it clean, please.â
He lingered for a beat before giving you a nod. As he moved to leave, he brushed a hand briefly against your shoulder, passing Neteyam on the way out. Neteyam followed his figure with raised brows, tail lashing once against the hard floor.
You exhaled, turning back to your supplies with a smile on your face.
âIf it isnât my most frequent visitor.â
âYou are⊠busy today?â
You glanced up, eyes deliberating following the left hand that hovered behind his back.
âBusy is good,â you said lightly. âKeeps certain warriors from finding creative ways to see me.â
His ears flicked, and he bit the inside of his cheek to suppress a smile.
He hesitated. Then, he relaxed his jaw, a grin revealing itself on his face. He brought his hand forward.
A fresh cut across his palm.
Your eyes narrowed.
ââŠNeteyam,â you said slowly, dragging the âmmmâ. âThat looks exactly like the cut you had last month.â
He cleared his throat. âDoes it?â
âAnd last month,â you continued, already reaching for antiseptic, âyou told me it was from a tree.â
âCorrect, tawtute.â
You looked at him. âWas this the same tree?â
âYep.â
You paused mid movement, lips curling into a smirk. âWow. Sounds like a personal vendetta.â
His ears flushed the faintest shade darker. âIt is a very⊠sharp tree. A large one.â
âMhm.â You gestured for his hand. âDid you⊠accidentally brush past it... again?â
He placed his hand in yours without hesitation. âI was not paying attention.â
You hummed, cleaning the wound carefully. âFunny. Youâre usually very focused, Neteyam.â
His fingers curled slightly around yours. Just barely, but enough to catch your eye.
âNot always,â he murmured.
Your breath hitched, but you recovered quickly, taping the bandage into place.
âOkay, sayrĂŹp. (handsome) Try not to pick a fight with that tree again.â
He opened his mouth to respond and Loâakâs voice cut through the room.
âWow,â Loâak said, leaning against the doorframe. âThat tree must really like you, bro.â
Neteyam rolled his eyes.
Loâakâs grin widened. âWhat happened here? You slip and fall into the healerâs lab again?â
âLoâak,â Neteyam warned, ears burning.
You shook your head, still smiling as you stepped away. âYouâre done, warrior. Go. Before he injures himself further.â
Neteyam stood quickly, suddenly very interested in the floor, while simultaneously not being able to keep his eyes off of you.
âThank you,â he said, voice a little rougher than before. âFor treating me, again.â
Any composure he had left evaporated when you added, softly, âAnything for the prince.â
He nodded onceâtoo fastâthen turned and left, shoulders tense, cheeks unmistakably flushed.
Loâak watched him go, then looked at you.
âYou know,â he said, smug. âHe practices what heâll say before coming in here.â
You stared at him. âHe does not.â
Loâak laughed and walked out.
You leaned back against the table, pressing your palm to your warm face, still smiling like an idiot.
Somewhere outside, Neteyam was probably cursing a tree that had never touched him once.
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the next dayâŠ..
During breakfast, laughter echoed through the trees, children weaving between seated friends, the air thick with the smell of roasted meat and fruits. The Sully family sat close together, Kiri with Tuk, helping her peel something that glowed faintly in her hand.
Neteyam sat with his arms resting on his legs, posture relaxed in appearance only. He was halfway through his meal when he saw him. Relâyan. The same warrior from yesterday. Neteyam had been keeping a watchful eye on him since his arrival to breakfast, so when Relâyan rose from his place, he almost did too. The warrior glanced toward the far end of a path, the one that led directly to your lab.
Neteyamâs jaw tightened, the chewing of his food coming to a halt. Loâak clocked it straightaway.
âOh, here we go,â he said, nudging Kiri. âHeâs doing the thing.â
Neteyam tore off a final bite of his skewer, chewing fast, eyes never leaving Relâyan as he stepped off the platform onto the path.
âEat slower,â Neytiri said, voice sharp. âYou will choke.â
âI am finished.â he replied, mouth still full of food but already standing up.
Loâak tilted his head to the side, grinning.
âBro⊠not even gonna pretend anymore, huh?â
Neteyam shot him a scowl. âWhat? Iâm checking something.â
Loâak followed his gaze. âSure you do. Do you have to check something⊠healer-shaped?â
Neteyam groaned under his breath, forcing a swallow down of the last of his food before stepping off the platform entirely. As he walked past, Loâak made a makeshift speaker with his hands.
âTry not to trip over a tree on the way!â
Neteyam didnât respond. He was already moving fast, long strides carrying him down the path. He hadnât even walked this kind of fast during hunts. To his surprise, Relâyan seemed to be on his own mission too. Neteyam felt his ears flatten when he saw him slipping into the lab from a distance, heartbeat picking up instantly. His chest tightened. A plan formed in his mind, one that came with no thinking at all.
He scraped past a low-hanging branch, dragging it deliberately across his entire abdomen. Sharp enough to sting and leave a faint mark.
By the time he entered the lab, his breathing was shallow and urgent. He practically leaped through the door, only to find the warrior already speaking with you, leaning against your table far too comfortably.
âYou again, Relâyan?â you said, amused. âThought I fixed you.â
Neteyam stepped forward loudly before he could reply, hand pressed onto his stomach. âI need help.â
Both of you turned, but your eyes went wide.
âNeteyam?â
He winced, sounding genuinely hurt. âNow.â
The urgency in his voice made your stomach shake. You moved fast, gesturing him forward to the table. The other warrior watched impatiently.
âI was planning to-â
âLater.â Neteyam cut in, tone so firm that Reyâlan appeared startled. You shot Neteyam a warning look, pulling and stretching your gloves on.
âSit. What happened?â
âTraining,â he said quickly, arms still holding his front and postured caved, hiding the small wound.
The warrior stood mindlessly, arms crossed and clearly confused.
âI will return,â he said to you.
Neteyamâs tail slammed on the metal table. âDonât waste her time. You donât look like you need to come back.â
The warrior scoffed but backed off, muttering something incomprehensible as he left. You reached for Neteyamâs wrist, guiding it away from the site of injury. âOkay, tsamsĂŹyu. (warrior) Let me see.â
He lifted his arm slowly.
You stared at the skin. The cuts were shallow, barely bleeding, just red. Then, you looked up at him.
âYouâre kidding.â
His ears flushed dark. âI am most certainly not.â
You tugged your gloves off, then resting your hands on either side of his thighs.
âNeteyam. This is nothing. Even Tuk wouldnât come to me for this.â
âI wanted to see you, alone.â
You lowered your voice. âSo, you scared me on purpose?â
âI did not mean to scare you, sevĂŹn.â He said quickly. âOnly to stop him.â
âStop him from what?â
He stayed quiet, gaze dropping to your mouth.
You shook your head, laughing softly. âYou are unbelievable.â
He grabbed the end of your shirt, pulling you closer. âHow else was I supposed to get your attention?â
You looked up at him, the way his restraint was fading, obvious by the way his hands hovered just over your waist.
âYou donât need to keep hurting yourself for my attention, Neteyam.â you said, voice gentle.
He settled his hands on your waist now, pulling you even closer. âApparently, I do,â he replied.
âYou are a difficult one to steal, tsawke.â (sun)
He dipped deliberately, brushing his nose against yours, smirking when your breath caught.
âI donât think I am.â
Your hand lifted, fingers tracing the strong curve of his jaw. He leaned into your touch instantly, skin warm on your hand.
âSay that you want me,â he whispered. âSo I do not have to keep inventing ways to bleed for you.â
You laughed, a blush forming on cheeks. âNeteyam, I see you.â
âI see you.â
He came forward and his lips met yours, slow at first, no rush. His hands wrapped around you, protective, trapping your smaller figure between him. You tilted into him, fingers clawing into the skin on his neck.
The kiss deepened quicker than expected, full of heat, breath, all of your precious mental boundaries unraveling.
When he pulled back from the kiss, foreheads touching and heaving chests, his voice was rough. âI will stop hurting myself now.â he said, rushed.
You laughed breathlessly. âGood. Iâm running out of bandages.â
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