Sapphic Poetry

Anonymous poetic musings for and by a sapphic romantic

[lavender-lady-love]

excuse me if I do not jump anymore

when someone tells me they love me

that i keep my feet firm and flat against the earth

when in my heart,

i am leaping

i am swollen with smiles, and rivers of euphoria course through me

i am warm, arms outstretched, and desperate for embrace with those who confess such feelings

i am painfully open to new bonds

and i love, love, love to be loved

and to love

i am love

and i have spread it far and wide and bestowed it freely to all who have held it out to me

but that love doesn't always keep

like all things, time changes love

it spoils, and it sours, and it melts away into rot when it is not maintained

contempt and resentment mold over the edges

what was once a sweet, savory bond has turned sticky, a cling to the skin one can never wash off

i will not jump anymore for mere words

lesson learned

not all who speak love can nurture it

not all who love me can truly see me

[lavender-lady-love]

Hello Friends

It's been a while since I've tickled the keys for this blog. My love life has calmed. I'm no longer brimming with sad sapphic poetics that need an anonymous place to rest. But I still write. And I am now published. For anyone who still reads this blog, or found solace in my words, please know I could not have come this far without you. I intended for this to be my anonymous space to vent - and now, as a published author, I post again to encourage your continued support. My first poetry collection is also a coloring book. It was just published hours ago, and will become available for softcover purchase in about a month. I will keep my words free and accessible to all for as long as I am able. But if you can support me in my endeavors to keep publishing my work, please consider picking up a copy from my website.

Thank you again for being here and helping me make my dreams a reality.

Your support means the universe to me.

www.AsterVaughn.com

[lavender-lady-love]

How would you feel about someone putting some of you poems to guitar?

I think that could be beautiful! As long as I get to hear it :)

[lavender-lady-love]

Lol I saw this blog and thought it was a Lavender Ladies fanblog at first lol

Nope! Just my space for posting my poetry without the eyes of my ex’s, friends, and family knowing I wrote them.

[lavender-lady-love]

Wait are you a part of the lavender ladies podcast

I am not! I didn’t even know that was A Thing to be honest.

[lavender-lady-love]

“When the wind blows And the trees are thick with dancing branches Swaying, snapping, roaring Giving sound to a feeling That’s what it’s like when you kissed me”

— Maybe I’ll feel that again with you

[lavender-lady-love]

I've settled into it the monotony of solitude the stale comfort of my own company. oh but I dream of a love so powerful it shakes me from my self-made fortress, That riles me from a hundred year sleep, The glimpse of a wave from my window Cause me to race down stone stairways, Through sunlit corridors, dim great halls, Barefoot and gasping for a breath of fresh air after so many sighs of resign Tired, breathless, I will swing open the locked doors She will force open the garden gate They creak with age and rust blinking, sweating, heart racing She will come into focus and I will collapse in her arms Finally, she is Home.

let the sun in

[wlwriot]

I’m a lesbian so I’m legally allowed to write bad poems and no one can say shit

[lavender-lady-love]

And if our lips should ever touch, I swear upon the moon I will never be unkind to you

[lavender-lady-love]

I used to imagine the white dress

The new shoes

The lace veil

The bouquet

I used to plan my playlists

The meals

The rings

The scenery

The season of Death, because of its brilliant color

Deep in the woods, lit by fairy lights

Lanterns

A bonfire

The sunset cascading down the treeline

Our vows spoken

We kiss at dusk and embrace in the cool night air

There is cheering

Bottles popping

A race of friends to embrace in a group hug

Happy shouting and laughter

Howling to the rising moon

Dancing until our bare feet ache

Caked with earth

Bellies filled with cake

Sleepy attendants crawl into their tents

Some stargazers wander out for a better view

But I have the best view

My life partners hand in mine

As we slow dance during sunrise

Sleepy eyes blurred with tears, wine, love

We fall into each other

Gaia our witness

To a forever together right now

[lavender-lady-love]

And I will drift

And I will fade

And I will become but a mist

Not missed

And thought of fondly for moments in time

A memory

A pleasant sound

A fondness for smells of diesel and coffee

I loved you

And that too will be an imprint

The image of something that was there

Forgotten

❄️

[lavender-lady-love]

My first love

She was my best friend

Tall, fair, rude to boys

Wheat blond hair, piercing baby blues

She had hands made for making

And breaking

She taught me how to be myself

Although I felt safe in her shadow

She taught me how to stand alone

When she left

My next love

The sunset, the rainbow

Fierce orange hair wild with curls

Stone blue eyes that hold

A world of secrets

I ached to know them all

She taught me how to fall in love

How to open my heart and feel

She taught me there is strength in surrender

And that some secrets

Will destroy you

Next love? Perhaps

I have yet to meet her

Or perhaps I already have

And have yet to realize it

Or perhaps

She is in the mirror

The one so desperate to love & be loved

The one that saves herself

[lavender-lady-love]

My heart swells at the thought of her

Glowing in the afternoon haze

Sweat tickling her temples

Radiant and joyful

As we embrace by the sea

She is warm

Damp with sweat and ocean

Wet hair

Wet hands

Wet mouths

We chase the gulls and kick up sand

Pull each other to the shore

Sounds of waves and laughter

and waves of laughter

Eyes open and shining

Heavy breaths

Heavy hearts

I fall into her arms

She is my favorite summer

The tide is high, but I’m holding on

[lavender-lady-love]

Sunsets

To me, you are sunsets

The most beautiful thing Mother Nature created

The daily reminder that Endings are natural

That Change is natural

That nothing humanity makes can ever rival

The beauty that the Earth & Her atmosphere produce

Except you

Humanity made you

Fate walked you into my life

And it’s been a terrible feat to get my heart to let you go

To me, you are sunsets

Beautiful endings

Romantic summer color palettes

Faded to black nothing

To me, you are the greatest thing Mother Nature ever produced

And like a sunset

In fleeting moments

You are there, and you are gone

And the only thing that rivals a Sunset

Is a Sunrise

And I will meet her someday

[lavender-lady-love]

Autumn always reminds me of you

Beautiful

Cold

Unpredictable

And beneath the colorful canopy

Death

Decay

Endings

The leaves fall like memories forgotten

Let go of their bonds

Fallen

Flying

Fleeting

As our love was, it sparkled like frost

And it stung just the same

I am ready for Winter again

[lavender-lady-love]

Late October; Your hair matches the hues of the treetops, golden-red and glowing; Your eyes rival the cerulean sky; But your kiss, a once shared gift, a means to bring together warmth on these chill days, is not there; Your arms, once eager to wrap me, never reach in my direction; My heart is as bare as the branches become; Heavy with dead weight, aching to let it all go.

Autumn Always Reminds Me Of You

[lavender-lady-love]

Just when I thought

My heart could break no further

I watch another piece

Hit the floor

The Longest Heartbreak Starts With A Crack