LIEUTENANT.

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@godforsakenthing / continued.

         ❝ Do I look like I eat fondue? It’s a bucket of cheese, right? Melt some over a camp stove. ❞

        He’ll never get fondue. But regardless..

         ❝ They got good drinks on the menu? ❞

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drags my carcass on here. things coming shortly

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resilientboned:

               counter with puppy eyes, make him forget why he’s mad. make sure you’re not in deep shit. you don’t want to be in deep shit. you’re adorable, remember that. make him remember that too. 

        the puppy eyes are a sweet touch, and he knows he’s being played like a fool here, but he softens up-- just a bit. mainly because he’s not aggressive anymore, but also because---- goddamnit. ❝ done looking at me like that? ❞

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        ----the you’re in some deep shit look. must mean you’re in some deep shit.

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💑

sex + romance headcanons.

💑 what are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner?

        Just make him feel like he is not the hollow shell of the person he once was.

        Russell just needs someone really, really patient. It’ll be rare for him to look for anything serious, but on the off occasion that he does, he’ll need someone who’s willing to wait for him to take as long as he wants in opening up, in getting comfortable with them. He’ll need someone who understands that he wants to avoid sleeping beside them for a while because of night terrors, because of some tossing and turning in his sleep, thrashing when it’s at its worst.

        Additionally, for God’s sake, make him laugh. It’s honestly not something he really looks for, but he really needs it. Have a sense of humor, bring a smile to his lips every now and then. Coax a little more out of him than curt, choppy replies by dialing up the fun and charm.

        Finally? You’re going to have to let him worry about you. It’s part of his mentality, looking out for those around him. He’s naturally going to worry, going to want to protect you where he can from whatever it is you need to be protected from. He’s not overbearing, but it might be exhausting sometimes; again, be patient. Let him know calmly.

        Also he needs someone who makes sure he eats and sleeps regularly good lord.

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🎆 Is my muse into monogamy?

sex + romance headcanons.

        Sure. Trust and loyalty can happen between two people if they’re both devoted to one another, and if he finds someone who is willing to or wishes to stay monogamous with him he'll oblige them if he’s as devoted to them. Otherwise, he won’t lead them on, will call whatever the arrangement is off right there so as to not keep someone hanging onto the possibility of being something special.

        That’s not to say he doesn’t think the same trust and loyalty can’t happen between more people. Polygamy’s not bad, either. He hasn’t ever found himself in the situation for it, but he wouldn’t rule it out of things he’d try.

        Basically, he’s indifferent to monogamy / polygamy, as in just do your thing and what makes you and your loved ones happy. If he finds himself in a monogamous relationship, great. Polygamous? Cool.

        He’s not really much of a relationship guy though, so it’s not like these are things that happen often.

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carisiisms *sticks leggy out*

makes sure sonny’s fit as a fiddle.

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sex+romance headcanons!

Send me a symbol. Please note that some answers may be NSFW.

🌟 What is my muse’s sexual/romantic orientation? 💦 At what age did my muse lose their virginity? 😘 Would my muse have sex on the first date? 😊 Would my muse ever ask someone on a date? 👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking? 😉 What are my muse’s fetishes/kinks? 💬 When did my muse go on their first date? 💯 What is my muse’s ideal date? 💗 Has my muse ever been in love? 👠 What was my muse’s last serious relationship like? 👰 Would my muse ever get married? 🌼 Would my muse prefer a big wedding or a small wedding? 🍬 Is my muse a sub, dom, or switch? 🏩 What was my muse’s first time like? 🎆 Is my muse into monogamy? 💕 Would my muse ever be in a polyamorous relationship? 🔥 Would my muse ever be up for a threesome? 👮 Has my muse ever had sex in public? 💔 What was my muse’s first heartbreak? 💑 What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner? 💋 How many people has my muse slept with? 👀 Is my muse the type to sleep around? 👎 Would my muse ever cheat on their partner? 😳 What was my muse’s worst romantic/sexual relationship? 💲Would my muse ever date/marry/sleep with someone because they were rich? 👓 Would my muse ever lie for sex? 👿 Would my muse ever blackmail someone into sex? 🎥 Who is my muse’s celebrity crush? 🎀 Who would my muse sleep with if nobody ever had to know? 💍 Has my muse ever had a one-night stand? 💝 Does my muse like Valentine’s Day? 💘 What are the ways my muse says ‘I love you’ without actually saying it?

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when russ helps u stretch the hammies.

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"You can't keep treating yourself like this."

profound sentence meme.

        Should be pretty impressive that it’s not something he hears often, he thinks, that he’s relatively good at keeping himself put together. Far as most people around him are concerned, he’s just a quiet man with military experience under his belt who knows how to give orders, and who earned his respect in his precinct.

        So it’s pretty jarring, being seen, read like a children’s book. Then again, since getting wrapped up with the angel, with the hunter, with demons and whatever the hell else they hunt out there, they’ve even seen him nearly die. And that? That’s him at his worst, that’s followed by a long period of absence later. If there is ever a time to see Russell in fragments it’s when his life is slipping between his fingers, when he can do little more than lie in wait.

        It’s never because he’s desperate to live. It’s because he’s so quick to surrender, because dying doesn’t seem all that bad, and it just makes him tired, and he’s had it coming for decades.

        Surviving. Surviving is the hard part.

        He feels gone, for lack of a better term, has felt like this for a while. He wants to feel here, whole, but every time he tries to find some light to latch onto he’s beating himself back down again, reminding himself that he shouldn’t be here, some fatal combination of survivor’s guilt and just guilt.

        Guilt that’s there for a reason.

        Castiel’s talking bullshit.

        ❝ Like what? ❞ There’s a bite to those two words, and Russell’s head tilting inquisitively, daringly all at once. He’s not good like this---- can’t quite seem to get a hold of himself.

[hydradirtbag]

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Character Development Questions: Hard Mode

Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Does your character remember names or faces easier?

Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

What does your character like in other people?

What does your character dislike in other people?

How quick is your character to trust someone else?

How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

How does your character behave around children?

How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

How does your character behave around people they like?

How does your character behave around people they dislike?

Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

How does your character treat people in service jobs?

Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

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godforsakenthing replied to your post:

bro hug without eye contact or mention of feelings

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deviincta:

doesn’t take even an ounce of effort to haul him to his feet. if he wasn’t so completely wasted, he might have noticed that little fact. normally she’s more wary; more dismissive of strange men in bars. she’s been around long enough to know better than to trust them. but he’s so drunk he’s practically dead on his feet. she’s strong enough she doesn’t need to worry about it. so she’s letting her caution slip, just this once.

wolfin grunts, turning away to leave the bar. she keeps her ears focused on the sound of his footsteps behind her to make sure he’s following.

both of them reek of alcohol. watching them walk down the street together must seem almost comical; wolfin striding confidently ahead into the darkness while he staggers after her like a lost dog. like two lovers after a drunken argument.

“uh huh.” she gets the idea without him finishing the sentence. it’s pretty obvious; she’s repeated it to herself plenty of times. wolfin doesn’t need him to make excuses. doesn’t need him to try and make small talk. that’s not what she’s bringing him home for. she’s bringing him home simply because it would be unfortunate if a drunk cop found himself in a bad situation. and she doesn’t need anyone asking if she was in the bar that night.

“you got a name?” one more block to go. “or should i just call you officer? don’t worry, i’m not gonna tell anyone.”

        it’s a lot more effort than he’d like to admit, walking upright. he’s already prepared to collapse and call it a night, wake up in the morning feeling a lot like shit, but a lot more alive than he has been feeling in a while if he’s lucky. the hangovers probably do him as much apparent good as the drinking in terms of his coping.

        which isn’t healthy, but it’s coping, so there’s that.

        russell’s distantly aware of her having done some serious drinking, too. doesn’t look like it, as composed as she looks, but maybe her tolerance is better than his. maybe she’s got him beat in how many times she’s been at the bar drinking her troubles away. he really, really can’t manage much brain capacity to consider it for much more than a moment, and then it’s back to shit’s spinning, i need to sit down.

         ❝ russell. ❞ lieutenant, he wants to correct, but shit---- the less she knows about him, the better. he drags a hand over his face in some halfhearted attempt to rub the drunk off, like he can sober himself that up that way.

        he might actually fall over before they make it, and if it weren’t for appearances, he might be willing to sleep on the sidewalk. as it is, a new york city police lieutenant passed out on the pavement isn’t a good look. it’s bad enough he’s out drinking his troubles away, for god’s sake. he needs to get himself together.

         ❝ you? ❞

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"You're trying to get yourself killed! Ever since it happened, you've been trying!"

profound sentence meme.

        Not actively. Never actively. He’s just careless. Has been for years, decades. He’s not sure if it’s his blessing that he hasn’t died thus far or if it’s his damnation, because it feels like the latter. Figures that getting wrapped up in this hunting deal is just all the more opportunity to potentially end up broken, torn to shreds, maybe devoured. Opportunity he’s waltzing right into without second thought because there is good being done, there are lives being saved, and paying the price with his own doesn’t seem too bad.

        ❝ Don’t try to get myself killed. ❞ A shrug. A wordless shit happens, essentially, before he realizes that’s probably not a good answer. But he’s veering away from the root of the problem, wants to leave that where it is.

        ❝ Fuck’s it matter for, anyway? If one man ends up dead. Know how many lives I can save? ❞

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"I'm not fragile. I'm not going to break if you talk to me about it. I'll listen and I'll care. That's it. I promise." // from charlie ;^)

profound sentence meme.

        that’s a nice, easy thought. she’ll listen, he’s sure, but there might be a certain point in the story where she just stops, realizes the shit he’s done, the scale of it, the blood on his hands. talk about it, he’s been told over and over, hundreds and thousands and maybe millions of times at this point. it drives him crazy how often he’s told to open up. only people he can really speak about it with are soldiers that were there, soldiers that pulled their triggers with him.

        the ones that are still alive. the ones that won’t slip into a fucking panic attack when he brings it up. he never does.

        what’s it going to be? monster? child killer. some other shit the iraqis yelled at him and the other soldiers. it’s all in his head, echoing, and so are that little girl’s screams.

        ❝ war’s ugly. ❞ it’s all he says. it’s all he’s willing to say. ❝ think you’re gonna come back feeling like you have purpose. most of the time you don’t come back at all. ❞

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Profound Sentence Meme

"People care about you, too, you know."

"What, and it's alright for you to save us, but never the other way around? Why not?"

"Don't you know how much you're loved?"

"You're trying to get yourself killed! Ever since it happened, you've been trying!"

"It's like you have a death wish."

"You're addicted to the adrenaline and sooner or later it will get someone killed. You, probably."

"What happened to you? Why are you like this?"

"This ISN'T okay."

"You can't keep treating yourself like this."

"I hear you crying sometimes, when you think nobody is listening."

"Do you know how sad you look sometimes?"

"What are you hiding from me? Just TELL me!"

"Something is eating you up from the inside. Something happened, or you've done something, or someone left. You need to share. Otherwise you're never going to feel okay again."

"Why are you like this?"

"Since when was doing THIS okay?"

"It's okay to talk to people."

"I'm not fragile, I'm not going to break if you talk to me about it. I'll listen and I'll care. That's it. I promise."

"You can't run away from this."

"I'm not going to leave you the moment you do something I disagree with."

"You're not secretly an irredeemably awful person!"

"What's going on with you?"