I have NO apologies to offer..
This morning you guys blew up
my phone away, with messages saying:
"Your friend Alex committed
suicide in the early hours."
"Yeah, right, as if he had
the guts to ever do that❕"
Only to find out hours later
that my own group of friends
still hadn't found a way to tell me.
he was a roomie, his girlfriend had
two jobs then i saw him more often.
Other characteristic we had in common
was that we liked to look for sweets
And this type of convos would come up
when i sat on the floor instead
of the couch in front to him..
How's you situationship going ooon❔
He: I see myself becoming a father
in my current situationship going ooon❕
Meh: I see myself being the godmother
of your children in your situationship
(We would even try to laugh silently,
throwing ourselves on the floor
while eating ice cream or
A few months ago, when she
Three weeks ago, when my boss asked me
to pick up these documents for her on the
street, he was loitering around her work
place, and i was passing by coming
from the other side from my new werk.
Meh: Stands on top of a small wall in a
square behind him: What are you doing❔
He: Gets scared saying: WOW❕
He: Ah❔ I'm not quite sure of what i'm doing❔,
but she told me we could be very good
Meh: Riiiiiight❕.. Look❕.. There's no
problem to offer yourself to take her home
"Every single day" then that she arrives
safe, like the good friend you are being.
He: And like the good friend you are,
thanks, it was what i needed to hear.
I didn't know this info till today..
She told him that day that they were going
to stop seeing each other because
she was already talking to other guy
who would pick her up later.
When he leaves her work in the late
afternoon, he raises his hand and
While running, passing nearby.
When i try to break free and continue,
he holds me tightly, pulling me
He: It's going to be.. a nice memory.
Meh: For the niiight, right❕
(I slowly let go of him with my other hand.)
I'm a few steps away from turning
the corner and i look at him, confused.
He looks up at the building, then smiles,
gets on his motorcycle, then leaves.
(He couldn't conceive the idea of
his world didn't revolve around her.)
it's a neurological condition.
•None of us shed a single tear.
He already knew that we know
he was an adult and could make
He too knew how we would react.
"We're all mad about his decision."
He knows that we will remember him
as the only one who could keep us up
in the early hours to make us laugh
with his future plans to become the
bestest stay-at-home dad.
