anonymity

needed something not bound to myself in real life

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I want to tell you im sorry. But i know you dont want to hear from me. And i respect that. I know you have forgiven me, but the more time that passes. The more guilty I feel. I have not forgiven me.

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Blurb of thoughts

Disconnected, anxious... blurring between what is dreaming and what is awake. Getting over being sick so my sleep schedule is off but i need to be at 100 percent tomorrow for work. I want to be able to get up early so i can get some breakfast. I want spend some time with my friends that i havent been able to see lately. I keep feeling more and more disconnected from everything. My sidework is slumping. Health is bleh. Ability to see my friends, or courage to see my friends is hard. I feel tired. I was doing so well. I made this Tumblr because i needed one that my friends couldnt see. But now i want to let one of them in. This might be an active night for me on this thing.

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Sober. Missing you. Tired. Cant sleep. Sunday i will be doing mobile recording for a young aspiring musician who has has had a spark of creativity and wants to write and record his own music. Need sleep because 730 am call time. Dont know exactly whats going on with me. Dont know why ive been so evasive of my friends. :-/

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Days are a little better with meaningful interaction. How do i promote meaningfup interaction? How do ingo about doing this?

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Words are hard

Current task at hand, creating goals. Task completion at 0%

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As random as it may be. I wish we were closer in proximity because i want to go hang out with someone that i dont know and just wander around in the middle of the night in an unfamiliar place.

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A new outlet

Because i made the mistake of mentioning i had a tumblr to my friends. I am starting over. Because i need an escape. Nobody can see what my other tumblr is, even though they are bound to the same account, right? Anyway, cheers to new ways of letting go.