@learnhowtolaugh - Tumblr Blog

heavenly mother above, will i ever find love and a name that feels familiar?

this year is taking and taking and i’m scared for what will happen when i run out of things to give

hurts to love you but i still love you

it’s just the way i feel

#c

i keep hoping to see the lost delivery man

but he’s not coming

he’s not coming

you’re not coming

#this isnt even anything #c

i can’t sleep thinking about what you found and if it feels anything like what i lost

#c

i just meant to tell you that i don’t want to be let down

that i don’t want to get you wrong

it’s a cruel kind of twist that you’d leave like this

drop my wrists and say “well that’s us done”

say what you mean

#c

i know you do better when you’re by yourself

and i havent brought it up cause i’ve done so well this week

but i thought if i tried a little harder you’d change your mind

i have nowhere to be and i don’t do so well when no ones worried about me

when i talk i just taste regret

you’re all that i want and im all that you dread

but the harder i swim the faster i sink

#c

i know you said you’d take me any way i came or went

but i’ll push you from my brain

see, you’re too gentle baby

i couldn’t stay, i would only cause you pain

#s

sometimes the hardest thing to learn

is what you get from what you lose

and i feel like a fool for believing it could work out

like some things do

#a

only the wrong relive their lives

i wish i could go back and find the letters i wrote you in my mind

perhaps i could unknot us from this awful bind

love is not a sickness

but it is cured by time

and all bruises end up benign

only the strong survive

but i won’t write a woman with a man on my mind

im just struggling to understand why only the strong can survive

#n

i don’t want you, i don’t need you, but i’ll stay

and magnify my place in your life

i know you’ll be with somebody else by dawn but i’ll stick around

there’s so much i could say but i’ll save it for another day and that’s how i’ll get by

i’ll be alright as long as you and i never really ask why we keep living lies

was it something i did to make you fade?

i know my feelings are deadly

i know that you don’t love me

#a

take me back, i love you

pity me, i need you

i know it’s wrong

it has to be wrong

you asked me blind once if i was a child once

i said, “im really not sure”

we were a pair once of so much despair

we were a child then, i’m sure

if we were a child then we are children no more

#n

we haven’t spoke since you went away

comfortable silence is so overrated

why won’t you ever be the first one to break?

why won’t you ever say what you wanna say?

even my phone misses your call by the way

maybe one day you’ll call me and tell me that you’re sorry too

but you never do

#n #i have been thinking about you so much lately #not that i am never not thinking of you

i hear of your coming and your going in The Town

the darkness can descend and we can relish all the pain

but i know that’s what you love because you know i love the same

but where are you now? do you ever think of me

in the quiet or in the crowd?

#n

i hope you think of me as often as i think of you

at this point i’d die for the reassurance that you think of me at all

#a

he means to ride me on

he sees a battle he doesn’t want to face alone

i bolt upwards and shake him off my back

i can’t be your horse anymore

you’re not the warrior ive been looking for

i see what you mean to do with me

i cannot protect you from who you want to be

go face the lord on your own

he fearing solitude began to beg

when he saw i was sure he stuck a knife into my leg

where is my warrior i’ve been looking for?

#m

Trending Blogs

Recently Viewed Blogs