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[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

Looking back and seeing how we didn’t mean anything I recollect the words you used to keep me in I loathe you for putting the bait on the hook I hate myself cause I’m the one who bit and didn’t look I should’ve swam away, when I had the chance When I had the chance, I asked you to dance. From the first night when I looked at you I saw nobody else The rooms were always empty that’s a thing I couldn’t help I should’ve ran away, when I had a head start You took my hand, squeezed it, and then you took my heart. I’ve lost battles before But none have hurt me more…

Should I blame you for the lies or myself for believing them? Should I hate my friends? Or hate myself for leaving them Who do I put this on? Who deserves this pain But from loss, within it is there something that we gain? You wanted one for the books, then here it is I hate you and I hate feeling like this. I hate the fact that you toyed with me yet I implore… And I hate the fact my heart screams that it loves you more.

I can’t be repetitive in my words, but I was so in life Doing the same thing for three years and thinking I could get it right. For the past 1000 days there is only one way I have felt I looked at you and you always looked at someone else. That’s why I have to turn away, Ignore the things you might say. Ignore what I might think Before I start to sink. I tend to love hard, and I lament even deeper I fell down the mountain, but I guess her slope was steeper. You made me feel like I wasn’t carrying enough weight Does she do it all for you? I guess that’s why with her you stay.

If it’s what makes you happy I can say it makes me too, But we both know that lying is not something I can do. There’s so much good here, but not good enough How can someone break me down, then inspire me to get tough? I never wanted more for myself, but I always wanted the best for you And I set upon doing things the best that I could do. Oh to be so close, to be actually in the race. Only to find, “the pain of second place.”

[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

I haven't been writing everyday like I planned, an example of my inconsistency. This must've been the great reason why she's evicted me. I can get it right in a good years time, or perhaps even sooner. Just assuming no girl comes by, for the chance that I might ruin her.

[wnq-writers]

It was all very predictable. And still it was painful, and still there was that hurtful shock.

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[wnq-music]

I have a tendency to sabotage relationships; I have a tendency to sabotage everything. Fear of success, fear of failure, fear of being afraid. Useless, good-for-nothing thoughts.

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[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

And everyday with these feelings. I swear it just gets worse...

Jonny Craig

[wnq-writers]

You know you really love someone when you don’t hate them for breaking your heart.

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[wnq-writers]

When you kiss my lips I feel peace. It is the same peace I feel under bridges when the rain pauses for just one moment, when the world falls silent until the roar of raindrops begin again.

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[wnq-music]

There’s nothing like music to relieve the soul and uplift it.

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[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

Girl I’ve only been writing about you lately.. And I know everyone must be going crazy. Tired of hearing me down, and seeing how I am without.. I tried so hard but another victor came out.

Girl these words sound so cliche to me.. And I’m so sick of saying the same ol' things. But I’ve been distraught the pass few months And I don’t know if I could share this with anyone.

Girl you knew I had a fragile heart.. And you took advantage from the word start. Now I’ve become just another lump on this big ol’ log. Writing trite words about where it all went wrong.

Girl this was never anything to you.. You’ve admitted it to me now, but I’ve known it to be true. My ignorance was bliss to me, been knew that this was rotten. But learning I could love is the greatest gift I’ve gotten.

So, Girl live your life with the one that you love.. Do all the things we should’ve never done. The worst part about this all for me Is that your new girlfriend lives right across the street.

[wnq-writers]

I know that things don’t always work out how you planned. But man does it hurt when you put so much energy into what turns out to be nothing.

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[wnq-writers]

Today, I had nothing in common with myself. Maybe someday I will.

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[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

The bomb has been dropped and the demolition was near total The fuse was burning the whole time, running express, Thought I was on the local. This could've went a whole different way had you been more vocal. Can't fault a liar for not being honest when they believe their own words The assumptions or the truth.. Could never figure which is worse My only talent is my words but the words seeking a muse Is equivalent to saying something and hoping it becomes true. I've told you all about my love in the most indelicate fashion A loaded gun seems harmless to a poet lost in passion. There is no make up for a lacking You either have it or you don't. I don't have anything so try is what I won't

[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

Thursday September 10th, 2015

It's almost 12 so it's almost Friday. I had a dream last night that she was in. Everything was peachy and we were in a friend group going to the park around here, drinking, doing normal twenty something things. When all of the sudden a man on a bike wielding an axe takes a chop at us. I dove away and all my friends scattered but he lost his balance and came for me. A bus came and I did the coolest dream jump ever and jumped a half a block to the bus and landed in the doors and diverted the attention to me. For a person with pretty real dream feel and a bit of control of myself in a dream this all felt too real. The point of the story is even if you did what you did to me, I still tried to save you. Perhaps this means I am indeed not over you Because even in my dreams I try to save you. Even over myself or any other... But we're not right for each other. I have to accept something I never believed in I have to accept... The end of our sequence.

[lecaptainsanonymous-blog]

Wednesday September 9th, 2015

It wouldn’t be right for me to do it to you. Maybe in another time we could see it through.

The memories of you are haunting me. Every white car reminds me of days in your front seat… I don’t want you to live in my words I want you to live across the street (with her) I have to walk home having mini panic attacks Do you know how many white cars park around my house daily? It’s actually a lot more than I can care to accept. And I can cover up the pothole with cement but nothing has changed. She’s a cool girl but I’m still dreaming of your face She’s a world away and I see reminders of you always Every street should be named after you Because no matter how many times I turn Or how far I go I still end up on you.

I have to focus the energy I have into other things. Or at least what all the people say.

I focused my energy on a distraction when I should focus it on myself. No distractions. No nothing. Just progress begetting progress

[wnq-writers]

Once people are given the chance, they’ll stick a knife 7 inches into your chest—then ask you why you’re having such a hard time breathing. And if its the person you love, you’ll respond by sticking the knife in a little deeper and claiming that it hurts less to just keep it there than it does to actually remove it.

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[wnq-writers]

You saw something in me worth taking But nothing worth keeping

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[fy-perspectives]

If you find yourself constantly trying to prove your worth to someone, you have already forgotten your value.

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