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TRICKS  OF  THE  EMPIRE  /  MAKE  HAPPY  KIDS  AIM  HIGHER.   HIGHER  UP  THEY  WET  FIRE  /  FOOLS  OF  THE  EMPIRE.

CANON  MULTIMUSE  /  WRITTEN  BY  CJ         * previously reprisale + leftoverfear

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leftoverfear-a:

this blog is archived!    moved to @brutaely​

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it’s not 100% done but i’ve been working my ass off to get to this point anyway  ----    i’m archiving this blog and moving to a new one @brutaely.      i’ve had this blog for over a year and a half and it’s gotten so cluttered and i really need a fresh start.     exclusives  /  current plots  /   a majority of my muses will move over there too   (   though i have edited the muse list!   )      i plan to move most of my current threads over there too,    but i may drop some that are unplotted,   old,   etc.      feel free to continue any threads of mine that you have if you want  ----   just tag my new url in it pls!

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graveribs.

“    what  have  i  ever  done  to  lost  your  trust?     ”     not  telling  her  about  her  mother  had  been  for  her  own  protection;    with  all  of  her  friends  dying,    she  didn’t  have  to  worry  about  her  addict  mother  on  top  of  it  all.      “     i  told  you  she  was  okay.    and  she  was.     ”     out  of  the  three  of  them,    her  mother’s  the  safest,    kept  far  away  from  a  town  soaked  in  blood.     “     there  is  hope.      i  know  things  are  bad  right  now,    sweetie,    but  they’ll  get  better.    miguel’s  working  on  finding  the  killer.    things  will  go  back  to  normal.     all  lakewood  needs  is  hope  to  keep  going  long  enough.     that’s  what  i’m  trying to  show  everyone.    ”  

❝    what  have  you  ever  done  to  earn  it?   ❞         she  instantly  shoots  back,         voice  shaky  yet  STERN,      something  she’s  perfected  in  most  arguments  with  her  father.          ❝     how  am  i  supposed  to  believe  that?        with  no  proof,       no  contact,       no  nothing!     i  couldn’t!       i  saw  you  hiding  a  body,    ❞        she  reminded  him.         ❝    and  i  hadn’t  spoken  to  mom  in  months.        i'm  not  CRAZY  for  wondering.    ❞          she  wouldn’t  stop  reminding  him  of  that.       eyes  look  up  at  the  ceiling,      her  head  shaking  slowly.         ❝    you  have  to  say  that.      you’re  the  mayor.     it’s  your  job.       but  i’m  not  random  citizens  of  this  town      ------      i’m  your  daughter.      DON’T   lie  to  me.    ❞        she  knows  better  than  him,       she’s  seen  all  of  this  first  hand.          ❝     don’t  you  get  it?       MURDER  is  the  normal  here.   ❞ 

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disconection.

“     it’s  just——     i  trusted  him.   he  told  me  he’d  never  do  anything  to  hurt  me,   and  i  believed  him.     ”     no  matter  how  wrong  it  was,     sean  was  the  one  she  turned  to  whenever  it  all  got  too  much,    when  even  the  pills  weren’t  enough  to  take  her  mind  off  everything.    to  think  that  he’d  been  a  part  of  this  all  along  makes  her  question  everything.     “     i  know.    i  know,    it  was  messed  up.     it’s  not  that  i  wanted  to  leave  you.     i  just——      i  hate  living  like  this.    i  hate  being  too  afraid  to  even  look  at  my  phone.    ”      elisia  had  to  understand  that,    right?     they’re  both  going  through  the  same  thing;     hailey  couldn’t  possibly  be  the  only  one  to  consider  running  away,    could  she?        “      i  should  have  just  bought  three  tickets  instead  of  two.    just  you,   me,   and  rowan.     ”      but  even  if  they  left,    would  everything  stop,    or  would  they  only  be  followed?    she  has  no  idea  just  how  far  the  zoo’s  membership  extends.    for  all  she  knows,    the  same  thing  could  be  happening  in  california.    maybe  there  was  no  escaping  this,    even  outside  of  town.      “     it  just  needs  to  stop.     ”

❝   he  made  you  feel  good.       he  made  you  feel  normal,    ❞         she  notes,      mostly  out  of  her  own  experience.      it’s  how  ash  always  made  her  feel,      as  if  she  was  always  such  an  EMPTY  GIRL  yet  whenever  ash  was  around,      she  finally  felt  whole  again.         he  could  fill   the  void,       yet  when  he  was  GONE,      she  felt  like  nothing  again       (     she  felt  helpless.    )        and  maybe  that’s  the  same  way  for  hailey,     she  can  understand  that.         she  knows  what  it’s  like  to  try  to  hold  on  so  tightly  to  the  one  good  thing  you’ve  got,     even  if  logic  tells  you  it’s  wrong.         ❝    you’re  not    -----      you’re  not  the  only  one.       it’s  happening  to  all  of  us.       hailey,      you’re  not  alone,    ❞         she  reminds  her,     eyes  shooting  back  up  at  her.       ❝    so  don’t  .    .    .         don’t  leave  us  here  without  you.       we  can’t  go  through  it  together  if  you’re  not  here.    ❞          it’s  her  way  of  saying  PLEASE  DON’T  GO,       I  DON’T  WANT  TO  DO  THIS  WITHOUT  YOU.       she  never  imagined  having  a  friend  like  hailey,     but  now  that  she  has  her,      she  can’t  let  go.          her  head  falls  back,      a  sigh  leaving  her  lips.        ❝    they’re  tormenting  us  online  too.       we  can’t  escape  that.      they’ll  just    -----      ❞       find  us  again.       she  doesn’t  want  to  say  it  out  loud.        ❝    i  wish  it  could,    ❞        she  speaks  softly.         ❝   it  has  to.   ❞  

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susceptibles.

❝     uh,     don’t worry about it.   i’m sorry.    ❞       nolan understands.   he knows it was difficult to talk about the falters underneath.  despite his own fear being poorly hidden ,   he wouldn’t exactly want to discuss it in detail either.   IT’D JUST BE A REMINDER OF HIS OWN WEAKNESSES.   he knew he had them.  other people knew he had them.  but it’s the last thing he wanted to continue confirming in everyone’s eyes.    he had to start  sucking it up and dealing with it,    no matter how  DIFFICULT  it’d prove to be.   the image of edgar’s body laying there while spiders poured out of him would never leave his head.   not anytime soon,  at least.   but was it really his place to bring that up?   would it change anything?   it wouldn’t make anything better.   he scoffs at being called by his last name,   head lowering all the while.   ❝     alright.    just do me a favor and …  don’t get yourself killed,  diaz.   the lacrosse team still needs a good captain.    ❞  

❝    ----    it’s fine.   ❞         every time he’s harsh with nolan,      he always wants to reel it back in immediately.       he knows that nolan is probably just as lost as him      (     even MORE so    )          and if he knows how difficult it is for him to get through this,      he can’t imagine what nolan’s feeling like either.      they have to stick together;      tearing nolan down will do him no good.      he can’t help but wonder if nolan NEEDS to talk about it   -----    sometimes gabe feels like he should stop bottling it up,      worried that it might combust later in a disastrous way,      yet he can’t force himself to do that.     it’s too daunting,     the thought of actually reliving all the things they’ve been forced to do.      head tilts up,     eyes looking back at him as he realizes what nolan is doing  - ----   at least from what he’s seeing.      and gabe cares whether or not nolan lives,   too.         ❝   dude,    we’re not going to.      not if we stick with them.      that’s what they’re doing  -----   right?    keeping us alive?    ❞       RIGHT? 

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bittenrage.

❛    if you   KNEW   what you were    doing    then wouldn’t you have gotten the position instead of me in the    first place   ? ? ?   ❜    liam    knew    how much gabe wanted to be captain,    but the way gabe acted he didn’t    deserve    it.    he’s seen him    &&    the way he treated people.    definitely not captain material.   liam himself didn’t even think he was captain material himself,    but at least he has straightened up his act    &&    kept himself clear of trouble up until recently as his    anger issues    have slowly started to crawl back.

❝     GOOD QUESTION.      i’m the better option.   ❞        but insecurites have reminded him that he’s clearly not,       not if liam has beat him out and he can’t seem to work around it,     even when liam’s absent.        ❝   kind’ve ironic to me.      captain doesn’t show up to practice,      but coach praises him anyway.       you and finnstock got some secret deal worked out or what?    ❞       it’s what he tells himself to convince himself it’s not his fault he’s not captain like he always should have been    (    his mother’s voice rings in his ears.    )    

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knowingtruth.

                                        ❝    is  this  town  really  that  bad?       those  weird  ghost  riders  weren’t  the  first  thing  that  happened  here,     huh?       we  all  must  be  blind  then,    ❞     she  scoffed,     though  a  small  grin  lingered  on  her  lips.        however,     there  was  FEAR  there.        there  was  something  unknown  and  something  that  had  been  going  right  over  all  of  their  heads.        ❝    a  thank  you?       you  protected  me  all  on  your  own  doing.        i  never  asked  for  it,    ❞     she  reminded  with  a  grin.        ❝    —–    what  kind  of    ‘  thank  you  ’    do  you  want?    ❞     she  grumbled,     a  playfulness  behind  the  annoyance.       ❝    i  can  handle  taking  care  of  myself  and  you  still  choose  to  keep  me  safe,     so  why  i  can’t  i  do  the  same?    ❞      she  questioned.       a  quizzical  look  entered  gwen’s  expression,     head  cocking  to  the  side.        wouldn’t  protecting  gwen  put  hayden  even  further  into  the  line  of  fire  should  something  happen?        ❝    how’s  that  work?    ❞

                                           mouth  dropped  slightly,       but  she  soon  shook  her  head.        ❝    there’s  more  than  even  i understand  yet,      but    ——    i  don’t  know  if  we’re  all  just  BLIND.       more  like     .    .   .       hesitant  to  believe  in  something,       i  guess.       i  know i  was when  i  first  found  out.     ❞         she  had  punched  liam  in  the  face  as  soon  as  his  eyes  glowed,      but  it  wasn’t  just  because  of  that.        he  just  told  her  that  HER  eyes  glowed  too     ———      she  was  terrified,       but  looking  back  on  it,      should  she  really  be  that  surprised?        the  things  her  sister  had  dealt  with  before,     it  shouldn’t  have  been  so  shocking.       mouth  fell  open  with  a  laugh,       her  eyes  rolling  back  at  her.        ❝     if  i  knew  you  were  so  STUBBORN,      maybe  i  wouldn’t  have  tried  to  save  your  life  so  hard,    ❞       she  taunted,      head  moving  in  a  mocking  manner.       of  course,      she  still  would  have,     because  that  was  just  who  she  was.       ❝     a  friend,    ❞       she  noted,     lips  pursing  together  in  a  small  grin.       ❝     sounds  like  we  could  BOTH  use  one.   ❞         she  had  her  own  friends  too,      but  it  was  nice  to  hang  out  with  people  OUTSIDE  of  the  pack,      if  only  to  remind  herself  that  she  was  still  a  normal  teenager in  some  way.         ❝   FINE,    you  win.      we  can  look  out for  each  other.   ❞        that  wasn’t  the  worst  thing.         ❝      are  you  REALLY  questioning  me  right  now?      just  shut  up  and  let  me  keep  you  alive,    ❞     she  teased  with  a  playful  laugh.

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                   independent hailey jensen.    written by aly.

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tag replacer was the best thing to ever happen to this site

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honey i’m HOME

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no offense @ myself but i’m so excited to move blogs

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disconection.

“     okay,    but   why?    what  even  happened  with  you  two?    ”     she’s  not  asking  for  elisia,   exactly;     the  other  girl  doesn’t  even  know  she’s  here,    but  even  though  her  grades  are  slipping,    hailey  isn’t  stupid.    she  notices  things,    even  if  they  aren’t  what  she  should  be.    considering  everything,    elisia  and  ash’s  break  up  should  be  at  the  bottom  of  her  priorities,    but  it’s  almost  relieving  to  focus  on  something  more  normal  for  once.     even  if  a  part  of  her  suspects  it  might  be  all  connected  somehow.    she’s  too  scared  to  ask.    “     no,   i’m  going  to  question  it.     she  needs  you  right  now.     with  jake  gone,    all  she  has  is  rowan  and  me.     but  you’ve  known  her  longer.     you’re  important  to  her.     and  you  know  that,    so  what’s  wrong?     ”

he  offers  a  glare,        trying  to  make  it  obvious  she’s  pushing  a  line.       normally  he  didn’t  mind  talking  about  elisia       (       sometimes,      he  felt  like  she  was  the  only  good  thing  about  his  life.     )       but  now,      lives  were  at  stake  if  he  talked  ABOUT  her  or  TO  HER.         if  it  was  his  own,      it  might  be  different   -----    he  might  risk  it.        but  this  is  about  elisia  too.           ❝     seriously,     jensen,      i’m  not  talking  about  this.    ❞            he  wishes  there’s  a  way  to  give  her  a  hint,        to  tell  her  that  it’s  NOT  HIS  CHOICE.        if  it  was  up  to  him,      he’d  be  with  her  now.        if  only  he  could  show  her  that  it’s  king  cobra  leading  his  every  move  for  him  now,      then  they  could  all  save  each  other  the  heartbreak.        ❝    elisia  doesn’t  need  anyone.        if  you  haven’t  noticed,       that  girl’s  stronger  than  most.    ❞       spoken  from  a  place  of  admiration,       almost  making  it  quite  obvious  his  love  for  the  girl  is  still  so  strong.           ❝    definitely  not  me.      she’s  got  you  two,        you’ve  been  good  to  her.      just    -----     keep  doing  that.       keep  being  good  to  her.        please.   ❞      voice  cracks,      because  he  knows  she’s  right.      SHE  NEEDS  HIM,      AND  HE  CAN’T  BE  THERE,      because  the  only  way  to  protect  her  now  is  to  stay  far  away.      

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“      you  don’t  think  there’s  more  people  like  monkey  man,    do  you?     ”       it  should  have  been  over;     even  if  the  way  things  ended  wasn’t  at  all  what  she  wanted,      the  fear  should  have  ended.     but  their  relief  didn’t  last  for  long,     not  with  the  message  they  received  so  shortly  after  dunbar’s  death.     it’s  all  she’s  been  able  to  think  about,     eating  away  at  her  nerves,     making  her  afraid  to  even  touch  her  phone,     much  less  open  it.     (    and  then  there’s  the  pills;     she  told  rowan  she’d  stop,     but  there’s  an  itching  need  to  ask  ash  again,    all  to  ease  the  worry.     )       “     because  of  that  video.    ”     she  wants  to  think  it’s  a  prank,    but  she’d  assumed  the  same  thing  after  the  shotgun  video;     she  knows  better  by  now,    and  that’s  what  worries  her  most.      /      @leftoverfear​  for  rowan.

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there  has  to  be,      right?       WHO  SENT  THAT  VIDEO?       it’s  been  occupying  her  mind  for  days,      yet  she  doesn’t  know  how  to  stop  it.    it  haunts  her   -----   seeing  him  standing  before  her      (     i’m  right  here!      i’m  standing  right  in  front  of  you!     )        she  can’t  ever  shake  the  image  from  her  head,      because  even  when  she’s  able  to  think  of  something  else,       it’s  that  video    -----     always  a  cycle  of  terror  in  her  mind.          ❝   hales,      you  know  i  want  to  say  NO,     but   ------     ❞        she  doesn’t  go  on,       that’s  answer  enough.     she  can  tell  hailey’s  uneasy,      and  although  she’s  the  same,      she  finds  it  much  more  important  to  comfort  hailey  now      (       doing  so  will  do  the  same  for  rowan.    )        a   hand  reaches  over,       gently  grabbing  her  hand  as  her  eyes  lock  on  hers.       ❝    it’s  not  him.       monkeyman’s  dead.      ❞       SHE  KNEW  FIRSTHAND.        ❝   so  whoever  this  is,        they’re  probably  just  trying  to  mess  with  us.       for  real   this  time.      we’re  ahead  of  it  now,       we  can  deal  with  it.       no  one  else  is  dying.    ❞ 

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nctafailure.

FRUSTRATION  was  immediately  rushed  through  him,     lips  pursing  and  brows  furrowing.       ❝    a  few  days?    ❞     he  shot  back,     SPITE  clear  in  his  voice.        ❝    i  don’t  want  to  wait  a  few  days!        this  is  your  job     ;     you  should  have  it  now.    ❞        it  wasn’t  fair.         he  was  asking  for  more  and  more  lately  with  his  current  mental  state.       of  course  he  was  running  tiny  dry.       but  theo  needed  this  NOW.         ❝    —–    if  you  don’t  have  it  soon,     i  will  get  it  from  someone  else  and  you  lose  a  customer.    ❞

❝    YEAH,      and  i  usually  have  it  for  you  right  away.       just  like  i  did  the  LAST  time  you  asked  me.    ❞         which  was too  recent,     in  tiny’s  eyes.         ❝    come  on,      you  don’t  have  to  do  that.       i’m  just  saying,      man.      maybe  you  should    ——-     COOL  IT.      for  just  a few  days,      shouldn’t  be  a  big  deal.   ❞          this  wasn’t  like  theo;      he  wanted  to  make  him  see  that.       ❝    you  know  i  work  my  ass  off  just  to  justify  giving  you  a  discount  because you’re  my  bro.      but  MY  BRO  doesn’t  rely  on  this  crap,      so  what  gives?    ❞

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i get home from work and everyone’s posting indIRECTS ABOUT ME

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“    he was here.    m-monkeyman.  he   was  HERE.    ”     she’s   pacing    his    room   within   the   grotto,   french   manicured  nails   combing   through   now   wild   curls.   she’s   barely   escaped   the  pit   where   raven’s   dead   body   laid.   he’s   the  closest   person   geographically   &    how   could   she   explain    why   she   was   here   to     rowan     or    elisia  ?    “      you    were   supposed   to   meet   me   down  there   with   pills.      where    were   you  ?     ”

         @leftoverfear for ASH.

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he was never good at answering his phone,     always reading a text and complying to their question or leaving it for later.      with hailey,     he was used to showing up when she needed him and disappearing when necessary.       it was how he acted with many clients   -----   it was SAFER that way.         ❝     what do you me?      i didn’t say that   -----      i got your text and was coming to find you.    ❞      he hadn’t sent her that text to meet him,       but he’s starting to regret not giving her any heads up on where he planned to meet her.         ❝     you came HERE?        what happened  ------    did you see him?   ❞