There’s this moment that’s popped up between them. It’s… intimate… PERSONAL. He can’t place it. He can’t interpret it. When did everything get so… close. Patty had been a friend, someone to laugh with, share things with. Now, here they are… HOLDING each other close. It’s become like a life line. To give someone that power… It’s terrifying. He’s scared of this closeness. He’s scared of getting HURT. There’s always been some sort of hurt in his life. Now, now things are out of control. It’s… okay. It should be okay… Maybe he’s just SCARED of it… But it’s okay.
Their hearts are beating. He’s realized his is racing, fluttering fast, fast as his mind. He’s racing through thoughts, feelings, experiences. They’re all so different. They’re close. Now it’s Patty comforting him. They’re family… They’ve become so close. He built this… He let these two pistols into his life… He doesn’t regret it. No. The pain, tears, joy… All of it. THEY’RE IMPORTANT. Protecting them is something he treasures. He’ll lay his life down for them. Patty will never cry again. Never be scared again.
❝ Remember at your own pace…
I’m here for you… Patty. ❞
Her soothing voice… Her promise to not leave. He clings onto every word of hers. For all of this… They’ve come out STRONGER than before. They’ve become stronger FRIENDS. Everything is different. He’s different… She’s different. Nothing will ever be the same. Of course not! The fits, the laughter… everything. It’s different, but it’s for the better. He’ll accept all of it. Hands let go of her, but he’s stepping back. He’s stepping back to take her hands in his.
❝ Not now… but some day…
I just… worry the truth will
BREAK you… I don’t want
you to get hurt. ❞
A small nod is given in response. She was trying. That’s what mattered, right? This intimacy is something she’s holding dear to her. To be so close to someone like this other than her sister is a farther step than she ever believed she could take. There may be days where part of her wishes that she had had a normal life and a GOOD family that cared for her and didn’t walk out. And then there are days like this where she realizes she has that now. This was about as normal as her life as a weapon would get minus the few set backs.
It’s still eating away inside that she is unaware of what she has done. Liz doesn’t keep many secrets from her. She was even blunt when it came time to tell her that their mom had just left them on the streets with nothing. Though this seemed much worse because there was a silence any time certain things are brought up or she asks questions. It had been the same with everyone recently. She couldn’t lie but that breaks her more than finding out what she had done.
It had been something Shinigami-sama had been teaching them all along right? Along with Marie? We would need to take responsibility for our actions, but no one is letting her do so. Whether they really were protecting her, or the school.
She inhales deeply before he takes a step back, and blue eyes settle on his hands grabbing her own. A simple smile forms as she squeezes his hands and eyes move to lock with his.
❝ It will hurt, but if what I did was really bad then I need to go through that hurt. ❞ There’s a small hint of sadness slowly glazes over her eyes. ❝ I have you guys to help me through it. I know I have someone to help put me back together. I just... don’t wanna feel like this forever. ❞
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