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filipino but pretty english proficient EME

[leimeurab]

finally finished watching from (tv series) up til the most recent season (season 2) and this is not gonna be a review per se but a theory as to somewhat might be the origin of the township is. ‼️SPOILER ALERT‼️

i have this theory after watching the last episode of season 2 that the haunted kids tabitha keeps seeing are kids that were part of some ritualistic thingy and that they are some form of "sacrifice" or whatnot and that they started the curse on the township. ive thought of this after that scene with jade entering the underground caverns and seeing a vision of the haunted kids in a circle placed on rocks and above them is the mysterious symbol.

i've also thought of maybe the light from the lighthouse determines the range of the "cursed land" but meh, definitely not most likely.

[leimeurab]

just finished watching mallari and, boy, was that film something. there is so much i liked about this film and overall, it has the potential to become an influencial filipino horror film.

i've read a review on facebook that says the film is not without its flaws but can really be the start for more creative filipino horror films and i just have to watch the film for myself, and i did.

at first, there are some interesting editing choices that didn't sit right with me; like the sudden cuts for scenes that one would expect them to be long shots. it feels weird to watch a character turning and it suddenly cuts to them already shifted. i get to appreciate it towards the end though, for me, it adds to this ominous atmosphere.

the kills are oh so brutal and i loved the scenes with the kills. the first kill of the movie was shot and directed beautifully and acted greatly with the victim. the detail later of them actually getting chopped really adds to the brutality of the kill; and while the victim is being hunted and killed, it's already pretty brutal. i thought mid film that this might be a slasher and it definitely is.

it having this slasher plotline is not really that unexpected but i'm glad they went with it. again, we need more filipino slashers.

the story is so packed of storylines that it might feel convoluted but they executed it pretty well, in my opinion. i said in my previous post that leaving the movie as is and not answering questions is what i really like about kampon but with this film, i liked that they really tied the stories well because the film can be really confusing without those answers towards the end.

the astral projection storyline can be really confusing and i understand how this can be off to some but i really dig with it. it's really interesting for me and i liked this plotline.

as someone who's really fascinated by the aswangs and more creatures from filipino folklore, the whole aswang plot of it all is really enjoyable for me. another interesting choice to go with this supernatural plot and i really enjoyed it! in filipino horror films it's really on the supernatural horror that they focus the films on and it's definitely not new but the way they executed this film is just making me smile while watching it.

my problem with this is with the cg, the most off for me is with a character's aged body looking too cg for my liking. certain decisions feel dumb but those didn't ruin the movie for me, really.

if you can't tell already, i really liked the film. it's the kind of film that heals my inner child HAHA the kid me really wants his horror films and this delivers and would definitely be enjoyed by little me. it could still definitely be better but overall, it's great and i loved it. i agree that this can kick off more creative filipino horror screenplays and i really really hope this will be the start of the rise of more fresh and creative filipino horror films.

[leimeurab]

so i went and watched kampon, a filipino film released last year at the metro manila film festival but had a wider release thru netflix just recently. i went in with this blind; really blind. i didn't know what the movie is all about going in and boy, was i surprised. this horror film felt fresh for me. as a filipino, we don't really have much horror films to offer (just one or two a year if we're lucky enough) but when we do have them, they are either hits or misses and no in betweens. with this, i get why people would not like it much. it's weird. but that's what i liked about it the most.

i randomly clicked play on this movie without really knowing anything about it. the opening scene really intrigued me with their attention to detail. it's also spooky, to say the least. some might say the pacing is slow but i think the pacing is appropriate with what the film should be. i was surprised with that dream sequence slash flashback of derek ramsey's character with the (SPOILER ALERT) whole 'monster' thing or whatever it is, the movie didn't really elaborate on it and i find it as such an artistic choice not to explain too much. the violence in this movie is OUTSTANDING coming from a filipino film. the torso of loretta might come out as silly for some (even me at some point) but i was really shocked by seeing it that it didn't matter for me that much. i go in watching filipino horror films with on the ground low expectations and them showing loretta's literal chopped up torso without its head and arms and legs came out as both shocking and impressive, i really loved it. the kills in this film is also great, they went OVER with the brutality.

again, what i liked about the film is its mystery element. we as the viewers get to feel the character of derek not knowing anything about what's really happening. though the movie left us with more questions than answers, i respect the decision to leave it at that. if the filmmakers by any chance can see this post and read this though, can you please tell the whole story with the creature that killed the police officers and the thing with loretta? i would really appreciate the information but leaving the film not answering these questions is really such a great decision, movie-wise.

this film (no disrespect intended though) joins haunted mansion (more on haunted mansion in future posts, this is my favorite filipino horror film and it deserves a dedicated post for it) as the films i feel like they were intended to be a segment in the shake, rattle, and roll franchise. they just have that spooky, scary, mystery element that i really want to see in the srr franchise and i feel like they really do fit the franchise's theme.

yeah, if you can't tell by now i really enjoyed the film. i really wish the filipino film industry gets to release more great horror films. just the other day i got bored and wanna watch filipino slasher films but there aren't many; wikipedia only have fewer than ten, even. not just the slasher genre though, the horror genre in general. there are only few of them around and i really wish there will be more greater ones in the future. kampon is a proof that the filipino horror genre is not dead and can still be really creative.

[leimeurab]

hung out with my best of friends and drank and got tipsy tonight. really enjoyed it. i get to really appreciate my best friend of the longest time with what she said about my greatest qualities; a question i was asked by a randomizer. she basically said how i have the smarts and how she can tell me things and just trust me with it. i can feel she's quite tipsy and so am i but thank you self for allowing me to hear and understand her thoughts on me. it really touched me, you know? we get to talk more about the future and the uncertainty of it. i just hope we get to live more of the future and spend more time together living life to its fullest. today i was reminded of another reason i want to continue living.

[leimeurab]

im bored and i have nothing to do nor someone to yap about my random thoughts so i guess i'll just leave them here.

i really miss high school. i long for the carefree freeling of high school. i don't know, it just went by, you know? like, the world is moving so fast for me; i can't keep up. i am a sentimental person and this is very hard for me. i have to live with the fact that i have to move on everytime or else i'll just live by my past and not enjoy today. i'm afraid i won't be able to keep up and i'll just be here all alone and not knowing what to do next.

another thing for me is that i can't live on my own. i've come to a realization that i am not ready for the world and i'm still not doing anything to prepare me for what's about to hit me in the future. i need my mom, i need my best friend, i need my friends; i need everything. i'm scared there wouldn't be anyone for me in the distant future. i'm scared of losing my mother early, hell, i'm afraid of just losing her in general.

one more thing i'm scared of is the thought of me reaching my limits in terms of learning. i've got this fear of not being able to learn topics, like, at all. what if i don't get to know how computers really work? or how to code? i mean, it's my dream to code (though i still have no idea as to what am i really learning coding for, all i know is just i want to learn coding and computers). math is another thing, i just know there's gonna be a point where it won't make sense to me and i'm scared of it.

i really enjoyed my first year college. it went by so fast also but the end didn't really felt like the end. maybe it's the thought that i made friends of a lifetime and i just know these friendships i made will last. i guess i'm comforted by that thought.

i liked to think i really aced calculus. i really really love calculus that i want to master it. it's just so beautiful, you know? also physics. though i really struggled with the application and with my exams, i get to really know physics on a surface level. i enjoyed it, thanks to such a brillant professor (thank you sir kite, i will be forever grateful for the help and for the teachings that i will forever treasure 🫶).

in these boring times, i get so many random thoughts. there are times i just want to write a calculus textbook for the pleasure of learning the subject more (i really love learning, if you can't tell). i want to have everything written so that i won't be able to forget them, specially now that i am feeling forgetful and i just know this is not gonna end well for me. i also struggle at learning at times, i feel like i have a serious mental health issue and it is scaring me. i don't want to be forgetful. i'm scared i would just randomly forget everything on a random tuesday while going home from school and i wouldn't be able to find my way home. i fear for my life.

there's also this story i want to write. i want to write a mystery-thriller about a serial killer offing people in the most brutal ways but perfecting the scenes is one thing; there's also my struggle with characterization, like, i can't even think of names to my characters. this was once my dream, you know? to be a successful writer, if not a director. that dream was re-lit after doing this short film for our ethics subject where we're given the topic of kantian ethics/deontological ethics/duty ethics and i thought of this brillant story where a killer targets people who failed to do their duty. i remember thinking of the name, "kantian ripper" for the killer while on a jeepney ride to school far from home so i really have some time to think inside my head. my vision for the film shattered with lack of time and resources though so i thought i should write a story on it. up til now, i haven't got anything started but ideas for the kills.

i don't know what i really should be doing in the future but i know i can't be a civil engineer. well, plot twist, i enrolled at the civil engineering program. i hate myself but also love myself for doing it. i don't know what to do in life. im confused. i'm pretty sure you can tell by just reading this blog how confused i am with everything. it's just like this in my head: everything is all over the place. i've decided now to take yhe computer engineering program as i think i can see myself working with computers and softwares and stuffs. should've taken IT but it's a long story. long story short it was not my decision, i just took it.

i really wish i can get to have a more organized mind, you know? i don't knlw what's wrong with me or if this is even really wrong for a person but i don't like how confusing my brain is. the thoughts are just overlapping in there and blanking is really the more prominent result from it. im always blank. i just said thoughts that come up because i can say them. confusing, i know. here it is again, i am blanking. i don't know how to deal with this and it's really affecting my well-being. i fear there will be a time where i really lack of any thoughts. at all. i'm scared i'll be blank forever.

this is really getting long but i guess this helps me let out thoughts that would rather bug my mind. i fear of people not knowing how i really feel about them (unless i hate them, of course) but i'll leave these here if ever it has come to a point where i wouldn't be able to tell my mother this:

i love you so so much, mother. i appreciate everything you have ever done for me and raising me alone must've been really hard for you. i'm sorry if i can't really help you everytime with your struggles. i wish i could've helped more. but please, i love you so so much. i just wish i get to die first because i cannot afford to lose you.

i really wish i get to be better.

[callmebliss]

Y’ever read something and have understanding that has eluded you interminably suddenly stop, curl up, and snuggle neatly into a fold in your brain because a new way opened to it?

[leimeurab]

just finished watching the adaptation of turtles all the way down and to sum up my thoughts: "well that was different".

the film is very different from the source material by mr. john green. the film relies more on the cinematic drama-esque theme of the book and might left out or changed important details from the book. i could talk all day about how they differ as i also just read the book like a week ago or something but the film is far different from the book. im pretty sure you could just do a quick google search on the differences but i suggest you read the book and watch the film yourself.

the addition of professor abott makes the explanation for turtles all the way down so much impactful in my opinion. in the book (spoiler alert) they just talked about it at such a random moment towards the end without an explanation whatsover as to how it relates to the story; the explanation is left for the interpretation of the reader. but with the film, they gave it to you. and the chicago storyline makes for so much of a great story and a more dramatic first kiss of aza. in my opinion. it just gives much impactful justification for her thought process for me.

on the mystery aspect of it, however, i feel like i dig with the book's mystery more than the film. i suggest reading the book for a better take on pickett's disappearance. the film just kind of ignores it and just took care of it at the end. pickett (spoiler alert) hinted to have taken his own life in the film doesn't sit right with me. the book really elaborates on his story more and i liked it about the book. the jogger's mouth detail not being known by daisy until they found pickett's jacket (?) is also a drawback for me. it just came out of nowhere towards the end, unlike in the book where it really did stuck with them and the readers and did not feel too random or "pushed" of a detail.

i liked both the book and the film, i feel like they did great for what they deliver to the audience. with the drastic changes however, i cant help but come to a thought of how the book lacks something that the film has and how the film lacks something that the book has. again, i liked both versions. i liked the book for it's mystery element and how it tackles the relationship between the characters. these, i feel like the film lacks (in my opinion). i liked the film as it tells the same story on a different take and i like their take. justifications are made for things the book doesn't really deliver that much.

overall a great story. thank you, mr john green for this incredible book. the film also did a great job with it though it was eventually just have to change things for understandable reasons. like, why would they show a whole-ass tuatara enclosure? the film is worth the watch, i'll tell you that. i recommend, and trust me when i tell you it is a must, reading the book turtles all the way down by mr john green. this is personally my first western/english book to have finished reading but it really is great! fantastic work, mr john green. hoping for more to come! 🫶

[leimeurab]

okay, will definitely consider this as a safe place to express the thoughts i just feel like expressing, you know? consider this as a blog full of random thoughts. i have no concern with this being public as hardly anyone i know uses tumblr anyway-

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