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[lepusquilegit]

hi! welcome to my studyblr sideblog :)

my goals for this year:

-finish 7 notebooks

-read fifty books

-finish a novel draft

-finish the mac demarco "one wayne g" album

books read: 37

notebooks finished: 3

i wish all of you wonderful days, and happy learning :) be cringe and free my friends

[lepusquilegit]

dog decided that a phenomenal way to wake her human was by nibbling his arm. and you know what, i sleep through every alarm i set each morning, so i appreciate that well enough. only issue was that her time of strike was 4am. ough. not optimal, but hey! i'm awake!

today's schedule:

writing: i'll work on filling out a oneshot, and do some cultural worldbuilding for my novel.

reading: still haven't gotten around to finishing my flash comic... but i've got like, 30 pages left or something, so i'll be done in, haha, a flash. then i'll read the long game.

tv: like many queer eleven year olds, i discovered the heartstopper comics as a kid. the show came out a while later and watching it became my first act of defiance against crappy friends. it's special to me, though i've sort of outgrown it. anyways last year i was in a situation that left me no time to do things like watch a show, so i didn't get to season three properly. now i'm #free, the series has come to a close, and i'm rewatching it for a kid who (in a rather unconventional way, compared to the reasons this is usually the case) felt like he wasn't allowed to. it's honestly very true to what being a highschooler felt like. messy kids with good hearts making decisions from minds that haven't lived long enough to be stable yet. people dog on heartstopper for being unsubstantial or shallow, but i don't think so. i think it's a chance for queer people to have a cheesy romance drama, like straight folk have plentifully. it's not a genre we often get to occupy, and this one is cute. anyways, it's been a fun rewatch, and i really feel like i'm looking at my tenth grade self. good stuff.

french: articulating pain is a really important thing to practice!!! i have a good opportunity to work on that, and have found that i'm missing a few important words!!! i'll do a french journal entry to keep myself in the practice of writing.

latin: grammar revision

asl: alphabet + practice greetings

art: finish a character sheet

psych: therapy notes. call that being your own model

workout: taking it easy, and my legs are feeling much better, so i can officially exercise those muscles again. nothing too strenuous all around but it'll feel great to get back into movement like that.

cleaning: lightly go through the bottom floor, and finally strip my bed

alright! my neck is still weird as hell, but i'm adaptable. i'm figured out how to move like this, and own't push myself until it'd properly healed. i get my wisdom teeth out in less than two weeks, i'm really hoping that this is smoothed out by then. anyways, i only want to spend an hour and a half cleaning the middle floor, so i need to start that asap. off i go!!! all my love friends!!!

[lepusquilegit]

You have an eloquent way of speaking, it's nice

Must be peaceful to be around you :3

-from your shy anonymous

why thank you!!! it's funny, i write in the same voice i think in and i speak in an entirely different manner. i'm not sure why that is. i really appreciate you saying this! i try to be both peaceful and well spoken, but i doubt i live up to the effort most of the time. i don't really think it's a bad thing, it's just that different feelings make me express in different ways, because that's human truth. anyways, i yap. thank you kindly anon! you're very sweet! sorry for getting to this late, it's been busy busy busy.

[lepusquilegit]

less than optimal entry, i have pulled something quite full of nerves in my neck. yowch. i'll be taking it as easy as i can today, which means none of the cleaning i wanted to get at will be done... not what i wanted, mais c'est la vie. i try to never take health for granted, chronic pain really irons in that lesson, but i never considered how lucky it is to face forwards freely. it fucking rocks, dude, and i miss it. hopefully i'll recover quick, because this blows!

today's (easygoing) schedule:

reading: finish absolute flash!!! it's pretty solid. i love wally west, love the art, and the thing they're doing stylistically with the tought boxes?? hooo boy. sick as hell. the story's sort of bland, but no real complaints from me. nearly done a cool read.

art: digitally, the shadows on a portrait i did on my plane ride the other day. one of my weakest points artistically is light, and i'm trying to change that, because visually it is SO stunning and i want to understand it.

tv: i wasn't planning on watching more than one episode of the summer hikaru died, but i'm very much Stuck on the Couch, so i've got limited options here. i might watch some more of that one, which is phenomenal so far, and i might watch one of the twilight movies because i'm in the middle of them. well, actually, at the start. i'm in the middle if you only count the first three. or maybe i'll watch something else!!! i've been meaning to get to lala land, and my friends are all into jjk, and my to-be-watched list is almost as long as my to be read. i've got lots to pick from once i find the remote, haha!

psych: already finished this, but i'm proud and want to mention it, but i did finish reading a massive paper on ptsd today!!! huzzah!!!!!

french: i'll articulate the pain in my neck out loud i guess? i've never tried to explain pain in french before, beyond being like six and going <<j'ai un boubou :(>> and that's probably an important thing to be able to articulate in a language you need fluency in! so i'll really go ham on that lmao.

alrighty, that's all i can muster typing right now. beware the muscles in your neck! they deserve the utmost respect and care!!! they've got power for real!

[lepusquilegit]

I AM BACK! sorry for disappearing! i've been lazing about in all honesty. sometimes you need to log off for a minute! i think i'll be switching to a different list format and approach to this blog. i don't actually update this blog with the things i actually study, which sort of defeats my goal with it!! i'll be focusing on telling you all about my daily language practice, media consumption, and the like. i'm happy to write here again, it's such a highlight of my days and i've missed it!!!

today's schedule:

reading: either crime and punishment (gets me all philosophical) or the long game (i've been writing a, albeit very different, queer sports story for a few years now, and i want to see what's been done in the genre, and what i'd like to take in a new direction) and finish the absolute flash, which i LOVE!!

writing: draft a chapter for my fic, and some miscellaneous novel worldbuilding. also, i want to get back on my words of the day! today it's inured.

french: talk to my dogs (good casual practice, lmao. one of them seems to understand that <<ouai>> and <<bien fait>> are positive terms) and some grammar revision

latin: grammar revision

asl: alphabet revision + practice signing my name quickly

psych: ptsd readings

art: shadow practice, character profile study to get back into traditional art. i haven't done any in two weeks because i didn't want to bring a sketchbook with my, direct count, 6 other notebooks. exciting!!

workout: my typical stuff (maybe lightened a little because i've fallen out of practice), and roll the HELL out of my leg, because it's really killing me.

alright guys, here we go!!! getting back on the grind. we are a go!!! all my love!!!! happy studies! scary storm today, i hope anyone affected by bad weather is alright. ,wah!!

[lepusquilegit]

final day of vacation!! too busy for a list. i'm pondering university applications, because pretending that doesn't need to #happen can't continue for too much longer. i'm not sure what my plan is. i'll do my characteristic journaling and philosophising and engaging in encouraging media to help decide. where do i want to take my life? i don't really know. but the decisions won't make themselves! time to enjoy the end of my break.

[lepusquilegit]

i didn't post yesterday! oops! sorry friends, t'was busy. i've only got two days of vacation left and i'd like to really make the most of them. i'm here to relax, after all!! that's a skill i'm really working on. i've got a good feeling about today, and i'm excited to bring my plans about. yay!!! off i go friends!!!

today's schedule:

-take photos

-some reading

-some writing

-some art

-do and eat and see the things i can only do and eat and see here!!!!!

-get some stuff ready for my flight (downloads)

-retape my knees before i fly!!! both to finish the roll so i have a tiny bit more space in my suitcase and because i did a terrible job last time and will NOT settle for blisters all down my legs

my allergies out here seem to get worse every year. is it because the place is dusty??? or just some allergen i don't come into contact with at home?? no clue but it's MAD aggravating. my eyes r so dry, my nose so runny, my throat so sore. you win some you lose some! i'm glad that this is the only time of year i really end up with bad allergies. anywho!! i'm really trying to be present, to dodge distractions, and live lovingly. i'll do my best to keep up with that, among all my things!! it is of course the priority. all my love! i hope you all have great days!!

[berdlystudying]

August 4, 2026

What do you truly want?

i know ive been drawing a lot more than usual these days but i truly do miss making art the way i made art back in 2024. i was able to complete this dope ass sketchbook which is my favorite one out of all of them honestly, but these days i havent been able to get around to doing something like that again.

i have an all or nothing mindset about everything, constantly. if i need to make time for something, i need it nailed in place. if im doing anything important, i hammer it in no matter the cost, which is great and all that i get things done, but it also means that i cant ever seem to calm down.

so this week, im reconsidering my priorities. turns out: i dont care about math enough to pursue it as a career. maybe i'll find love for it outside a formal setting, but this year? likely not.

another thing: im failing my social communication classes and thats fine. it seems that a good majority of teachers who have anything related to social communication in their class arent fond of reserved people (Me!) but they dont understand the unique conditions i grew up in so i dont really care. i dont need to justify my flaws for people who are willing to act on ignorance rather than compassion.

finally: to what extent am i willing to be helpful? i always end up putting a wacky amount of effort into everything i do, intentionally or not, but this isnt sustainable in the long run. if i took every project seriously i'd just end up burning myself up for nothing. im an artist, im a writer, i Do Stuff, i dont have the bandwidth to care about everything forever when i need to be using that heart for my dreams.

i do a lot because im here on 0 pressure that my grades will affect my future whatsoever and i dont want people i have to work with to be dragged down by that carefree attitude, but then again, if youre leaving all the work to me, then how important is it to you? because im willing to match the energy of every go-getter, but you cant blame me for spitting out a lukewarm drink.

i simply wont stay up at 2am with you. if there is no time, then itll have to get done tomorrow with deductions, or not get done at all. if youre truly desperate for a grade then youd sort your schedule out accordingly, otherwise its the fault of the school for assigning tasks that cannot be finished at a reasonable hour. i dont care who it is, i will never blame anyone for putting their health first. if you can ease up on something to take care of yourself, then do so.

im going to set a boundary here with myself. from now on, no more skipping dinner or sleep to finish school work. get it done at a reasonable hour or face the consequences.

[lepusquilegit]

too much to do today to write in the lists!! i'm trying to keep my days bright. i'm having some serious trouble sleeping, so i suppose the time i spend awake should be that much more enjoyable. i'm hoping to do some serious reading, writing, drawing, and planning!!! when i get home from this trip, i plan to make my school year outline journal :)))) super exciting!!!! i also need to work out today, i've been seriously falling behind on that!!! all my love, friends!!!

[lepusquilegit]

alrighty. today is going to be balanced. some fun stuff, some student stuff, and some family stuff. we go to commemorate a late family member later, which we haven't been able to do properly in years. lots on our plates.

today's schedule:

-crime and punishment, which i am so mesmerized with. this is SO relevant. rip raskolnikov you would have been the worst on reddit

-the happiness trap

-kings rising

-gaming

-supernatural!!!

-art practice!!!

-writing

alrighty!!!! i'll bring my drawing tablet and latin dictionary out on the town today. i'll #practice. best of luck to all y'all!!!

[lepusquilegit]

today i'll be out for a long while, but i'm hoping to practice lots of latin and read some crime and punishment when i'm home again. i'll put together a photo dump later too!!! good work on making it through july everyone, i'm proud of you all :) all the best, friends!!! whoever you are reading this, you rock !!!!!

[lepusquilegit]

it's a pretty day outside and i want to do lots. i dunno, i just feel off today. i reckon some journaling will help. no list today because i'm feeling quite frazzled. hopefully i'll calm that down. all my love friends!!! best of luck with your studies!!!

[lepusquilegit]

yesterday sucked! and that's that. no fun in letting yesterday pull me down, so i'm going to make today swaggy as hell. i think i'm doing to much. i'm on vacation, so i should focus on relaxing a little more than i have been. let's see if i know how to do that!!

today's schedule:

-crime and punishment

-little genshin quest for funsies

-character sheets

-some fic work

-supernatural!!!

-type up a good copy of an advent poem

at least the moon was beautiful last night. anyways, i wasn't able to find a souvenir yesterday, because i'm picky and Everything Is So Expensive, but maybe i will today! i should be going out again i think. anyways, all my love friends! happy studies!! hoping to get in some solid french practice with my daily french work. i feel my grammar slipping and that is NOT optimal.

[lepusquilegit]

okay!!! today i want to get some things DONE. i want them out of the way. it'll be busy!!!! my lovely, lovely aunt is coming to visit us today, and she's one of my favourite people on earth, so i'm super excited. we might even get to go shopping!!! i buy a lot of presents, but rarely do i find myself buying a souvenir for myself. i just don't want a lot of things. but i really like souvenirs, and maybe i can find something today :) i feel like i deserve the treat. also, i'm desperate for a sugar cookie or a blondie. i'll report back on that.

today's schedule:

-therapy

-the happiness trap

-crime and punishment

-world building

-finish writing one fic, start another, character sheets for a third. lmao

-king's rising

-type up an advent poem!!!!

-work on my show

i also really wouldn't mind watching some supernatural. exciting stuff today!!!! huzzah!!!! also, do any of you notice how many bots there are on studyblr? exhausting. i don't want to see ai profile pictures and ai posts and ai attempts at the feelings of a hardworking student. take the robot costume off big dawg. i want AUTHENTIC grammar mistakes, not artificial ones. where's the fun??? and the humanity????

[lepusquilegit]

WOW writing is so hard. i’ll write for thirty minutes more before taking a break. words just aren’t coming the way i want them to today.

[lepusquilegit]

okay!!! today i want to get some things DONE. i want them out of the way. it'll be busy!!!! my lovely, lovely aunt is coming to visit us today, and she's one of my favourite people on earth, so i'm super excited. we might even get to go shopping!!! i buy a lot of presents, but rarely do i find myself buying a souvenir for myself. i just don't want a lot of things. but i really like souvenirs, and maybe i can find something today :) i feel like i deserve the treat. also, i'm desperate for a sugar cookie or a blondie. i'll report back on that.

today's schedule:

-therapy

-the happiness trap

-crime and punishment

-world building

-finish writing one fic, start another, character sheets for a third. lmao

-king's rising

-type up an advent poem!!!!

-work on my show

i also really wouldn't mind watching some supernatural. exciting stuff today!!!! huzzah!!!! also, do any of you notice how many bots there are on studyblr? exhausting. i don't want to see ai profile pictures and ai posts and ai attempts at the feelings of a hardworking student. take the robot costume off big dawg. i want AUTHENTIC grammar mistakes, not artificial ones. where's the fun??? and the humanity????

[lepusquilegit]

turns out, the house has some good latin tools, so my latin work is going to be off the charts out here. it's really nice to see family out here. i actually got to watch a video of me as a child, singing with my late grandmother. let's just say that i'm sure no one puzzled that i'd be a writer, because i said about three words in the whole video. it was more grandma singing. i can say with some confidence that i not know the lyrics to, get this, the anthem. really great stuff. it was a really sweet video to watch :)

today's schedule:

-the happiness trap!!!

-finish part one of crime and punishment, which i am LOVING. the tensions are so good. this is a fantastic vacation read, my intuition was so spot on.

-fic work + drafting

-writing prompt (one of my favourite ways to do this is with an atmospheric song; writing whatever the melody inspires. i love it.

-finish a hc list i started a while back. it's good character work, which is good practice. ppl discredit fanwork but there is genuinely so much to learn from it it's unreal. #cheatcode

-type up one of my advent poems, which are both fully written out in my poetry journal!!! yay!!!

i'm proud of finishing the super long and super dry introduction to crime and punishment. GOD that was hard. but now i'm onto the text and i love it!!! yay!!! perseverance pays off. it's time to get to reading that, i reckon. exciting!!! have a good day!!!

[lepusquilegit]

it's a lovely day. my favourite weather. i'm super grateful for that, it's so lucky!!! today is lot's of driving, but i'm hoping to get some stuff done while i'm in the car. here's the agenda:

today's schedule:

-the happiness trap (which i'm liking)

-oneshot character study

-the fanart i didn't finish yesterday

-king's rising

-twilight

-draft the next chapter of my longfic

-family time

-crime and punishment

-advent poem!!!!

lots of ideas on my brain. excited to get some things done!!!