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I Applied To Be A Content Writer At A Popular Media Firm But They Don't Care About My Health

I Applied To Be A Content Writer At A Popular Media Firm But They Don’t Care About My Health

Like every fresh-eyed graduate, I excitedly hop on the job-hunting bandwagon and scramble to find the rice bowl that would feed me. And like many fresh-eyed graduates, my portfolio is teeming with internship experiences as well as other freelance stints. Having been a freelance writer for years, I have come to realise the value of having some corporate experiences. They are invaluable because…

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Cold, and slightly afraid

I am at the hospital, clad in its blue striped uniform, warded. I am cold, feverish, and yearning the comfort and warmth of my super single mattress. It’s been a whirlwind for the past couple of weeks. Early symptoms of URTI surfaced on the 25 March, some two weeks ago. They persisted and I found myself visiting the doctor again on 29 March. This time for a blood test, a chest X-ray, and my…

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cooped up

You know your family has been cooped up for far too long that they start to get involved in the least pleasant way — that is, to encourage you to throw your possessions.

And yes, that includes books. Books that have seasoned well with the years, with its pages stained yellow and smell of warm coffee. Or books that were bought on impulse that have yet to be devoured in earnest. Or books that…

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12:55

Whenever I take a deep breath, my heart stutters and my vision fades. I have not been sleeping well. And the caffeine in my blood that runs in my vein is probably why. I haven’t been happy or satisfied with a lot of things. I hate the work I am producing. I hate the level of productivity at work. I hate not eating healthily. I hate not having the energy to head to the gym too. When I look in the…

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2018 fin.

I’ve spent enough time travelling to know that plane rides are best reserved for building-up and internalising some random musings or philosophical nothings.

And as I find myself on a flight to the land of the rising sun, comfortably confined for the next 7 hours, I figured I’d better do some timely reflection.

MILESTONES

The past year has been a year of – you guessed it- learning and growing up.…

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あの人の答え　…

私：「ね　お母さん、もう少しで、二年後で僕は卒業ですから、君は卒業式に行きませんか」   はは：「私はあなたの卒業式に出て欲しい？」   私：「え。。。欲しいです。」   はは：「面倒な。。。」   あの時は僕は本当に悲しいかった。。。   二年前に僕の閲兵があった。ははのこたえはもうおなじでした。   残念ですね。でも、友達があるので、未来はだいじょうぶですよ。

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My Hustle Story

My parents were once hawkers who sold prawn noodles in Eunos Crescent. When I was younger, I would plea my guardian to let me visit them and when I did, I would sit from afar and observe my parents at work. I remember how Ma would man the storefront, fearlessly handling the forthcoming slew of orders and managing the cash register, while Pa would hold the fort in the kitchen, singlehandedly…

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ね、頑張ってね 誰よりも転んで 誰よりも泣いて 誰よりも君は 立ち上がってきた  

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Ma & Love

When I was young, I didn’t live with Ma.

Many thought the both of us weren’t close. But distance has a way of bringing the hearts closer, and we were, as cliche as it sounded, the best of friends.

At 10pm every night, knowing Ma was home, I would pick up the cordless phone, lie on the sofa, punch her number, and call her. And we would chat.

When I was young, school was everything I cared for.…

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Writing for the sake of writing is still writing

Writing for the sake of writing is still writing

I have had very differing opinions on this.

One moment, I can hate those who write for the sake of writing. (For those who know me, I’m pretty sure ya’ll would have guessed who these groups of people are. But no, Nicole Choo is something else.) And almost instantaneously, I can empathise with them. I am pretty sure they have their reasons, and I wonder if I have had done something along the lines…

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ughasff

somehow cny doesn’t feel like cny i am overthinking alot i hate the feeling of suffocation that’s in my chest i wish i am a faster worker i wish i am a better reader i wish i can an efficient reader academic rigor? im not used to it ugh ugh ugh i didnt sign up for this. my father did.

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update

I think I am happy because I have friends who care, people who eat lunches me, and people who compliment me. I think I am also mildy sad because things are happening in me, and it’s not puberty. I wish it was though. I was also told that things happen because they are meant to be. I no longer believe in destiny. It’s not bullshit but nothing is really happening. On a brighter note, I was also…

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Open Heart, Open Mind

I told you the word it takes for me to crack and crumble, and I told you to tell no one else because I want you to be the only one, who knows and be the only one to hold on and never let go. I told you who my favourite band is, why I like ‘Misery Business’, and why red was never my colour even though it is yours. You told me cryptocurrency was the way to go, and you build me the way fools would…

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Yea boi'

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February

(I) Come February, lanterns hang in bursts of neon red and orange, when smiles smear surreptitiously and faces gawk in contempt. The room stretches longer, and shadows blush a shade darker. I gird myself in the sheets waiting, for the cut that follows the fall. The stench of tobacco and phlegm lingers droopy, a pebble daggling on a thin thread by the uvula. I imagine myself turning blue, lungs…

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夜

(一) (二) 雲おりおり 頓て死ぬ 人を休める けしきは見えず 月見かな。 蝉の声。

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Throwback to colder and better times, alone yet not lost.