i do a backflip every single day of my life

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[lesbianmako]

at this point this post is lit just whining text posts and nsfw art of my otps wow

[manhuajia]

Yuri fan art of POI by  二木子布  | 1, 2, 3, 4

[lesbianmako]

i’ve let go of rly aggressively defending my Whiteness bc Technically Some Romani Are Ethnically XY!!! crap because my entire life is one long history of ethnic discrimination for being a filthy gypsy and it doesn’t make sense to pretend that these experiences in any way fit alongside yer typical anglo saxon who’s never had to fear for their life because of their ethnicity or was tailed around a store bc people could recognize that they were a thieving zigeuner or whatever

but at the same time the fucked racial politics wrt to romani and also in europe in general and the fact that i can pass as white in very specific situations and company doesn’t make me feel comfortable claiming to be a #person #of #colour in any way so i’m basically just stuck in some limbo and it’s just

exhausting is all

[lesbianmako]

man i don’t wanna sound like i envy people who have absolutely no way to pass as white under any circumstances because i don’t but it’s exhausting when whether you’re considered white or not changes depending on who’s looking at you so you never know what you’re supposed to expect and how to position yourself

[lesbianmako]

i love being bipolar and starting a new year in a weird mood equilibrium because i get to play a fun game i like to call ‘hell, brimstone, hellfire’ in which i try to guess which personal hell my brain is gonna inflict on me first

is it gonna be depression (a classic safe bet)? maybe it’ll be mania and i can properly welcome 2016 by scaring the shit out of all my acquaintances. or maybe we’re in it to win it and going straight for a mixed episode this lovely january who knows??? not me

winner gets 2 pennies, a piece of lint and the desire to shove my head into an industrial oven

[lesbianmako]

i just need to stop letting assholes on the internet get to me and stop thinking some rando’s opinion of me actually defines me but unfortunately my borderline ass will take one person not liking me and apply this to literally all of my relationships so yikes

[lesbianmako]

Someone: why do u always say u feel sick

Me: because, my sweet dude, I literally cannot determine the line between my mental illness and physical unwellness anymore. I am Literally Always Ready To Die I am in a constant state of uncomfort my guy it always makes me feel like I'm gonna be ridin the queasy train to regretville

Me: haha

[lesbianmako]

when will “physically disabled people are privileged over mentally ill people” discourse Die The Fuck Out

[lesbianmako]

everytime i ask people to hang out with me they’re like “oh idk yet i’ll let you know” and then they never do like? just tell me straight up you’d rather not hang out with me so i don’t keep my calendar free for nothing lmao i hate those kind of “white lies” 

[waywardcatsblog]

Guys congratulations and all but I’m trying to monitor the breach here….

(i saw a pic on draw your OTP but i can;t find it…)

[pixiepunch]

Um….I just kind of felt like drawing some kissing. So there you go. 

[lesbianmako]

my entire life rn is just one long string of “tfw no gf” can someone please just end my torment and kiss me

[shinji-flower-deactivated201709]

neurotypical people do not understand the level of exhaustion someone who suffers from borderline personality disorder experiences. imagine living through the most intense emotion you have ever felt; rage, depression, hopelessness, guilt, elation. imagine this emotion consumes you entirely, so much so that you cannot focus or function normally. that sounds tiresome, right? now imagine experiencing these intense emotions several times a day every day for years. that is what having borderline personality disorder is like. a constant stream of too much too much too much followed by short periods of nothing at all, then repeat.

[pimentopimenta]

He is so talented! I love him!

[areies]

when yr paranoia is rlly vague so its just like

[fundead]

[lesbianmako]

it’s fcuked up that i’ve just had to make peace with the fact that my own damn personal blog is regularly being linked elsewhere so people can laugh at it and ridicule me and it’s fucked up that i know that at this point in time there are still at least 2 people who regularly monitor eveyrthing i post like!! get a life!!!!