manic pixie d*mb b*tch

beti, 28, she/her, white, mostly hxh, aa, some jjba. <- actually this has changed its a shitton of higurashi umineko and pmmm now

[lesbixch]

hxh tag master post since its been almost 7 years now

gon: short shorts and dangerous situations + long hair short life for his suicide nen restriction self in chimera arc (couldve originally been w the smile of an angel :’) )

killua: never fight an enemy you cant beat (in the beginning it mightve been a joke about ripping my heart out but I settled on a line that made an impact on me re his character wehhh)

kurapika: my beautiful wife, kidpika

leorio: and leorio

Bisky: BISKY !

canary: i forgot it was actually #butler daughter but i also have her tagged as canary

alluka: sladurana (also nanika is subsumed in this, but now I have a #allunanika tag as the two of them interacting)

killua and alluka: bonbons

other zoldyck sibs: zoldyck sibs

main 4: Hunter exam fam

killugon: youre fun to be around

leopika: class vs swag occasionally I switched the order to swag vs class 🙄

pof: pouf

pitou: my evil cat ant spouse or just my cat ant spouse

palm: pal Siberia or ant palm is best palm

meruem: what the fuck is this a ninja turtle

Komugi: sweet sugar bun

merumugi: het X hell or the slightly outdated but still accurate #the cinnamon roll soaked in the blood of the beef

ikalgo: IKALGO !

ging: kill ging. ironically i like ging but it is the instinctual reaction sometimes even when I like ging (im mitokin)

pariging: i hope you die I hope we both die (unfortunately tagged inconsistently sometimes with periods in the middle of the tag)

hisoka: hisoka for ts or more informally #kill him

illumi: illumi for ts

hisoillu: hisoka and illumi are neither friends nor lovers but every wednesday they go to hisokas house and pluck their eyebrows together (check wording i once had this one memorized ..)

canary/amane: the yuri hxh needs but not the one it deserves

beans: BEANS !

old kite: Kite is fucking dead

new resurrected redhead kite: kite is not fucking dead

machi: nen stitch em up

chrollo: with a name like that

zodiacs: hxh zodiacs (geru and cheadle by name)

Spiders: #phantom troupe I think

#hell X hell is for posts that haunt me or I’m obsessed over and #fave X fave for favorites that usually make me laugh , hxh meta for meta , i had a chimera arc tag and also smth like #double / triple pain combo for parallels in caa

other beloved characters like knuckle shoot colt morel pakunoda and some of the princes oito morena prudo theta and the like are just tagged by name :)

stick dinner: stick dinner

[wwwwwdotcom]

together forever

[falkesignalis]

hand jumper is really good in how it portrays Sayeon has very smart, but more importantly, wrong

she believes that she can change the system once shes reached the highest rung in the ladder, not realising that she is already becoming like everyone else in a position of power

the aberrant corps trains people to be ruthless and heartless, because if they aren’t, and don’t prioritise their own survival above everything else, they will die. That is what the corps is designed to do.

this is all to say that people who are smart can be suckered into cult like mentalities just as easily as everyone else

[falkesignalis]

She’s already practically identical to captain han

[iris-of-the-lambs]

big hand jumper dump

"when desperation looks this good on you" cmon sayeon you cant be talking about women like that

[thenightraze]

Jinhee vs “Heejin”

I’ve been examining Jinhee Young and Ryujin “Heejin” Kang since they seem to be set up as foils this arc, in association with Sayeon.

Going back to the names. They both use the same written characters, just in a different order.

Hee (희) can mean Joy/Delight, or Bright/Shining. 

Jin (진) can mean Precious/Treasure, or True/Real.

It might indicate that they both represent a type of “shining truth” to Sayeon? However, one that is real and one that only seems real?

Another interesting thing I noticed is that Jinhee and Ryujin both had dragon plush toys when they were younger. I was trying to figure out the symbolism and have come up with a theory:

In ep. 118 Algol, we see Jinhee hugging her dragon. They are both in the same frame.

“Algol” can mean Satan’s head (reference to Medusa’s head). Dragons can represent the Devil (godling?). Could it represent accepting a fake truth?

In ep. 89 Promise, we see Ryujin fighting the dragon to rescue the princess. Ryujin is in a separate frame.

“Promise” in this context is the promise to save. To rescue the princess (Sayeon) from the Devil (godling?).

I also noticed some interesting framing in the recent episodes:

In ep. 118 Algol, Ryujin is ignored as Jinhee rushes to Sayeon.

Next Ryujin overtakes her. What is most interesting is that we visibly see Ryujin overtake Jinhee in this scene. Her worry and care, breaks through and wins here.

However, Jinhee rushes forward again to overtake Ryujin. We see them in the same frame again as she does this.

In ep 121 You Were Warned, Ryujin follows Sayeon again because she is worried. They are together again, it is Ryujin’s care that makes her act.

Jinhee overtakes Ryujin again. Again they are seen in the same frame.

Jinhee reaches Sayeon again. She is surrounded by those sparkles that seem to represent zeal or worship.

In this scene, Ryujin is placed behind Jinhee, with Jinhee’s hair still in view, making Ryujin seem left behind.

I don’t think these framing are a coincidence, just like their names, the scenes are set up as Jinhee vs “Heejin”. Who will reach Sayeon? The Worship or the Love?

Also if Ryujin symbolizes Jesus Christ, is it possible then that Jinhee, who seems to be “Heejin’s” foil, is meant to be the false prophet, the “anti-christ”?

Will Jinhee lead Sayeon astray? Will an act of love intervene?

[ace-and-the-rpg-horrors]

massively underrated scene btw. these lines live in my head rent-free. Sara Lee the absolutely terrifying woman you were... her words here give me chills every time i read them. utterly horrific way to talk to your eldest daughter regarding your youngest (her beloved little sister who was a toddler at this point) no one is doing it quite like her

[green-fellow]

Imagine being Samin Lee and your mother is the worst person you know and you spend your entire life avoiding becoming anything like her and then one day you make a mistake and accidentally become to your dear, sweet sister what your mother was to you and then in her desperate attempts to not become like you, your sister becomes like your mother. I’d blow up the everything.

[ashimarose]

Asa and Yoru sketch that i will never finish

[l-0puko]

get lost!

[my-fancy-hat]

id ego superego

[twyvernt]

The Symbolism of the Ant Spiral

What inspired this theory was seeing people theorize about the symbolism of the ants in episodes 103 and 118. In both panels, the ants are in a death spiral. From Wikipedia: "Army ants, separated from the main foraging party, lose the pheromone track and begin to follow one another, forming a continuously rotating circle. [...] The ants might eventually die of exhaustion."

This is the second time in recent episodes ants have been used, which seems to specific to be a coincidence. I think the ants symbolize the inevitability of certain events, which ties into the recurring theme of fate in Hand Jumper. The ants don't choose to enter into the death spiral; they're forced to by their very nature. I think the ants shown represent aberrants and how all the aberrant groups are constantly fighting each other, yet none of them are making any headway.

In ep 104, Minguk Gyeon thinks: "They'll use Captain Han, wear him down to the bone, and then dispose of him. Such is the fate, I suppose, of the Aberrant Corps at large."

The reason death spirals are called death spirals is because the ants trapped in them can die of exhaustion, unable to break out of the cycle. When Sara Lee put her hand in the spiral, her interference was unable to stop or change the cycle at all. The ants simply continued along moving over her hand. Despite Sara Lee's actions regarding other aberrants, she was still unable to make any meaningful changes to the status quo.

The ants on the cat's eye I think symbolize the inevitability of that event. Throughout episode 118, the concept of people being born with a specific fate or a certain amount of luck is explored. The cult woman was always going to end up where she is, and no amount of interference could've changed that. Everything played out to a predetermined outcome.

It'll be interesting to see if the ants show up again later and if they still hold the same apparent symbolic meaning. Feel free to tell me what you think the ants represent, I'd love to see everyone else's theories!

[thenightraze]

Back in episode 116 I wondered if Sara had future sight, and if she did, how far in the future could she see? The answer to that I think is answered in the same episode.

When Sara was talking about the unpredictable she hugged this cross essence here. I remember thinking that it looked really familiar but couldn't place it, but then had a sudden realisation:

It’s Sayeon activating her gift. To be precise it's the exact same one that's on the cover of the series, but a different color.

Does this mean she could see all the way to the current time?

Why do I have a feeling Sara planned far more then we know?

[embersblooming]

shout out to tiktok and twitter user zoetropist/1004ngels for recording some of sleepacross' qna answers from her discord live stream! i found this slide to be the most interesting.

[ace-and-the-rpg-horrors]

she hand on my jumper til i rapidly become more and more consumed by my powers to the point of believing that consequences such as the permanence of death no longer apply to me and start undoing not only genuinely dangerous situations but also simple conversations therefore abolishing the need to take accountability for my words and actions as they can simply be taken back all while the value of human life subconsciously decreases in the back of my mind by seeing the people around me as nothing more than chess pieces i need to place correctly to achieve my own selfish goals that i dress up as being for the good of society

[koiwynn]

thinking about sayeon and her guilt.

ryujin carries a tremendous amount of guilt for having precipitated the death of her family, yet she is still able to recognize that, ultimately, she was just a child who wanted to do good. what happened to her was profoundly unfair, and not the fault of a well-intentioned child acting with limited understanding. of course that doesn’t stop her from feeling guilt, but it allows ryujin to situate her actions in a broder context and therefore recognise the larger actors at play that are the actual root of why that happened.

sayeon, by contrast, views herself as the sole component responsible for everything that happens. she avoids directing frustration toward the actions of others because, in her view, “blaming others” inhibits self-improvement. as a result, she dismisses the behavior of others as something not worth dwelling on, and instead concludes that she should have anticipated and accounted for their actions in advance. and of course sayeon assumes blame for every negative outcome. because if she’s at fault then the situation must have been within her control; and if it was within her control that would entail she has the power to fix everything. this mindset is foundational to sayeon’s world view. accepting limits to her responsibility would also mean accepting limits to her ability to remedy what goes wrong, something she is unwilling to concede. a good example of this is the juxtaposition of ryujin and sayeon’s approach to the aberrant corps. ryujin views the system itself as fundamentally unsalvageable. conversely, sayeon believes that even a decades-old structure like the aberrant corps system can be fixed, and that she herself has the capacity to do so.

everything sayeon does is fueled by a guilt that has been gnawing at her since she was a child. throughout her life, she has lived with the singular aim of purifying herself of her family’s sins. the irony is that she is not responsible for her family’s actions; she did not make those choices, nor did she participate in them. but she still insists on carrying the weight of it, because in her mind the burden must be borne by someone. and since her family lacks the conscience or willingness to confront their wrongdoings, the responsibility naturally falls on her. and since this is the idea that sayeon has internalised, her identity becomes inextricably tied to atonement for wrongs that were never truly hers.

she did everything by the book, striving to become the perfect rule-abiding, dutiful citizen in an effort to compensate for the wrongs committed by those around her. she dressed in a deliberately feminine and modest manner; she even set her sights on attending law school, pursuing a path associated with order, justice, and propriety. she allowed herself to be pushed around at school and never defended herself against the degradations her classmates directed at her. because this was her penance.

i mean, sayeon’s guilt extends even to her own existence, believing as she puts it, “the world will never become a better place as long as there’s someone like me living in it”. but if she believes that she’s in control, she can fix everything, including and especially herself. however, if she were to concede that she is not responsible for everything, then she would also have to contend with the fact that she was never fully in control, and if that’s the case, what if she’s someone that can’t be fixed? what course of action should she take then when she firmly believes that the world will never improve for as long as she still lives? should she just cease to exist then, if she’s nothing but a net-minus to society, and she can’t fix herself?

[vyrion]

[therealsquidiq]

been rereading hand jumper (cause it’s peak🤔🤔) and finally managed to drag myself out of the eternal artblock I’ve been experiencing since July houuuuuuuuuuugggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

would love to do more hj art so I may lock into that 😛