tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us

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[lesbvan]

Uh, no. Never in life have I blushed. Russians do not do this.

[lesbvan]

MONSTER (2023) dir. Hirokazu Koreeda

[lesbvan]

lovro wanting to crawl out of his skin the entire time during the date, clearly being so uncomfortable he was trying to take up the least amount of space in the room and ivan noticing, knowing that and looking sad about it cause he has seen lovro comfortable and free and happy before and that was Not it + lovro smoking which is something he does whenever he feels like he wants to run or hide or not be there, a coping mechanism if you will

VS

ivan joining him in the smoke and then inviting him to go somewhere, anywhere outside to get lovro to not be miserable the entire time. lovro holding onto ivans sleeves in the scooter smiling a little bit asking are you kidnapping me but looking so much more like himself as opposed to before

[lesbvan]

i might be reading too much into it but it's interesting to me how when sonja was talking about lovro she kept whispering so he wouldn't hear but ivan refused to do the same even after she asked him to. in fact he didn't seem to want to engage in the "gossip" behind lovros back

also sonja and ema being the ones liking the escape room but lovro and ivan not being that interested in it besides the cool props and sounds... much to think about

[lesbvan]

i do think some of you shouldn't be allowed to engage with queer media if you can't have at least a small amount of media literacy and understanding of what it's like to be queer cause clearly sram's message is flying right above your heads.

[alistairlowe]

PET 22:19

[avadaniels]

HEATED RIVALRY 1x01 "Rookies" | 1x02 "Olympians" ⇒ requested by anonymous

[lesbvan]

the idea that ivan is already manic or having an episode is a possibility sure, i just think that its just his personality to come out with random stuff to grab lovros attention, i mean he invited him to his house after barely knowing each other... i think thats just ivan. it is true however that considering he might be on meds, the whole mixing alcohol with the stuff might have helped with feeling a bit more loose so to say.

i just don't like this idea that everything ivan does is because hes manic or because he has bipolar that some people seem to have. that's not true. regardless of this being the beginnings of an episode or not that doesn't make ivans feelings any less true. they just become heightened when he's in a manic state but theyre not Fake! all remakes have taught us that one way or another lol. and i do trust that sram will do his mental illness justice and hopefully bring awareness to not fall into stereotypes many people seem to believe in.

[lesbvan]

i really thought it was interesting how ivan got a little snippy with lovro when lovro told him he thought he didnt drink. im not sure if the translation was missing something but it seemed like ivan got snippy cause he might have felt like lovro was controlling him/judging him about drinking when that obviously wasnt the case. id say lovro was curious/worried same way he was when he asked ivan about his knee when they were playing basketball

[lesbvan]

i personally think its in character for lovro to push ivan away lol... lets not forget he didn't invite him to the party and even started to add some distance between them. it's text book internalised homophobia, he's scared of being gay/doesn't want to be and im sorry but this is not something only a few interactions can fix... hes scared of how his friends will see him, how the world will see him and mind you ivan was about to kiss him IN PUBLIC!!!! with both their gfs (they had kiss hours before) and everyone else in there!

lovro IS NOT isak. hes based on isak. same way ivan IS NOT even, just based on him. i think some of you need to realise not everyone is the same/behaves the same, these are remakes theyre not supposed to be copies of the original.

[lesbvan]

ivan is soooooooooo messy

"so that's why you didn't invite me, so there isn't too many people"

"so he met with you when he cut class?"

"skating isnt a sport?" "you get what i mean" "i dont get what you mean. explain it to me."

[alistairlowe]

[lesbvan]

pouring my heart out about ivan cause he truly is so special to me top contender with sander so ill just copy paste here what i say to val in dms

something i just cant cant cant possibly let go of and will keep bringing up to you is they added this extra thing to ivan where he is sooooo touchy BUT TENDERLY! with lovro which is there to show the lack of toxic masculinity ivan has and also signify how ivan is so confident in how he is and himself that he doesnt care how people see him. i truly love how careful he is being with lovro cause he can tell lovro is having an inside battle and he'll probably even notice how his environment shapes him to have to be this shell of himself

croevak couldn't be more perfect for each other and I MEAN IT!

[lesbvan]

ivan being such a sweetheart and overall a very tactful person with lovro and you can tell lovro seems either unused to those types of random friendly touches or just scared about what it could all mean considering he likes him or is starting to

not wanting to be feed something even though its just a friendly thing, constantly flinched and/or being confused about random touches. he looks scared whenever it happens oh my lovro

[lesbvan]

i think it speaks a lot to how ivan was clearly trying to make lovro comfortable around him and right when lovro was becoming more open and comfy sonja arrived and he got spooked and left

[lesbvan]

ivan being such a sweetheart and overall a very tactful person with lovro and you can tell lovro seems either unused to those types of random friendly touches or just scared about what it could all mean considering he likes him or is starting to

not wanting to be fed something even though its just a friendly thing, constantly flinching and/or being confused about random touches. he looks scared whenever it happens oh my lovro

[lesbvan]

"you're enough" followed by a nose boop i think we should all *** if itd make ivan happy

[phantom-threaded]

PHANTOM THREAD 2017, dir. Paul Thomas Anderson