I Am Art

I am a poet, an amateur pianist and a hopeless romantic.

[letammie]

all for nothing

my chest tightens it’s getting hard to breathe i kept screaming but noone is listening something is growing drowning me from the inside like a lion that wants to roar sink the whole city, you said but all I did was running away. shed the old skins bury the ashes i know you’re hurting but we’re doing so much better now at least, we can pretend to be can’t we? all these dream…

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mahogany trees

4:30 i was riding my bike over the bridge the sun was setting over those sky high buildings was it just me or were the mahogany trees dancing the sky seemed bluer and my heart fluttered at the thought of you. your voice was like honey you set fire where i thought was a dead lane you came into my life like the first summer rain slow down, hold my hand show me the way as i might go…

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rescued

all my life i was waiting to be rescued, to be loved, to be pushed away, and at the end, you would pull me close and tell me that i was enough. looking for answers in foreign places told myself i needed the cure for all the wrong things that i am, be treated badly because it was the only way, it had to be. have you ever got so tired? did you plan an exit? if this was all…

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free

forgive me for all those times i forced you to carry all these burdens no wonder why your shoulders tightened your back hurt, your voice silenced i know, such a funny thing noone has ever clasped our wings yet, we couldn’t escape our own wicked minds tricking us to keep pushing the stone couldn’t you see, how free we could be maybe, all this time we already are.

[letammie]

Learn

Learn to set your boundaries Learn to say no Learn to know when is enough Learn to take care of you first Learn about what feels right (and wrong) Learn to love better Learn that it’s okay to feel not okay Learn to appreciate the small things Learn that pain is only fleeting Learn that you are loved Learn that you can love too Learn to get back to what you used to love Learn that…

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storm

Only when there’s a storm swirling inside your mind, then you’ll start to wander and the words are pouring out like rain, like thunder only then, you’ll start to live your truest self t.l.

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waves

there’s always this depressive, catastrophic and concealed wave lurking in the dark, ready to rise unexpectedly from the pit of the ocean right when I was supposed to be “happy” to bring me back to who I really was. t.l.

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love

is it so wrong to hold on to give it all to let you in and hand you the rope? the table is full take what you want take what you need my source of happiness my cave of pain my anti-depressants my love. t.l. promise you’d hold on too.

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goodbyes

my life is a series of goodbyes and i don’t know how to make it stop. t.l.

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scattered

unfamiliar faces sorry, i said the wrong things quickly, think of something else divert their attention say something interesting you’re always the smart one but, tell me what are you even doing who are you fooling, trying to happy and sociable? shake my legs and trying to get out you’re already in too deep do you know that nobody cares whether or not you’re faking it breathe, you…

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worthwhile

an author said, how misery feels as if time has stopped oh god how, it feels so good to hurt i wonder if i ever stopped. if i could become water and flow upwards to find the source of all my despair if i could love myself the way you are loving me maybe i would have been more worthwhile, more right, for you. t.l.

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happy new year

two-way street where’s the beginning is this the end? my favourite folk song bitter but uplifting clinical but hopeful isn’t that the only way to be ? driving my bike down the unfamiliar hill it’s the holiday but why everything is so empty? firecrackers scattered on the ground i don’t know if i should let go both of my hands and just let the sunset take me away these celebratory…

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winner

how to avoid the hurt but to self-create something more agonizing so you forget about what’s really aching? am i addicted to pain am i incapable of happiness why this urge to destroy every last thing that’s good? what am i missing why do you make me this way being in war with myself and the darker part always managed to win. t.l.

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Stuck

isn’t it better to live in the future where all your dreams become true isn’t it better to live in the past where all your pain runs loose i keep forgetting who i am wearing this forever changing shell, unhappiness dwells onto me like gum at the bottom of my new shoe my cat is screaming at midnight the hour seems longer each day i’m so tired but i can’t stay here otherwise i’ll never…

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happiness

how can your source of happiness can also be the source of immense pain? t.l.

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train-wreck

as you were waiting for the right train to arrive stepped closer to the platform you did it unconsciously you went for the next available train that would pick up your rotten soul going somewhere you don’t wanna go but how could you get off it’s nice in here so familiar, yet so exciting the pain you’re feeding it’s real, it’s addicting you know now there’s only option…

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live

things are left unsaid i haven’t made any progress no poem nothing to see i feel empty , disconnected, scattered . yet i still want to live i want to know how things will turn around so much more than ever more than ever. t.l.

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