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[lethimwhoiswithoutsin]

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hey gamers!

i'm lookin for rp partners! i usually write in third person past-tense but i'm open to present-tense, semi-literate to literate. i usually just matching the length of my partner's messages. ideally looking for someone who can reply at least once a day. dm me if interested!

hansry - i'm open to playing either hans or henry but i think i have a preference for henry! i'm also open to other kcd ships and rarepairs

theresa and bianca could be fun!! i also like pious x henry and would be willing to try angsty stuff with henry and erik and istvan :) i think hansry has to be endgame though

merthur - i think i prefer playing as merlin?

also merwaine and mercelot! i'm also open to morgwen :3 idk i like a lot of bbc merlin ships

Jimcurly - i think that's their ship name?? jimmy and curly from mouthwashing. i've never rpd them before but i think I could play as either

for jayvik, i prefer to play as viktor :]

and in caitvi/violyn, i prefer to play vi <3

zaundads/vanco - i'd play as silco!

i'm okay with trying modern AUs or canon settings. fluff, angst, smut, romance, hurt/comfort, domestic living, slice of life, whatever really!

i rp on discord so we can make a server with separate channels for rp talk and non-rp talk.

i prefer to rp as a bottom/s-type but i'm okay with non-kink queerplatonic relationships too, if that's preferred! irl i'm a primal puppy submissive and masochist so do with that what you will.

and if rp doesn't work out, i'm open to just casual talking or sending each other memes too :] i'd love to have more friends in the same fandoms as me!

[hessadv]

And if I said that Merlin's devotion to Arthur has less to do with Arthur himself and more to do with Merlin continuing to lose more at the altar of destiny,and gets increasingly obsessed with making those losses,all that pain mean something? To prove that it was somehow worth it if the prophecy was fulfilled and the golden age came to be?That it has very little to do with arthur at all? What then?

[lethimwhoiswithoutsin]

i'm so sorry to make this anti merthur post into a merthur post but i need a fairytale ending to counter the devastating canon ending

EDIT: okay this is actually a bittersweet but hopeful ending!!! as a salve to soothe the canon ending's sting. please consider:

but maybe arthur chases after merlin. maybe he doesn't realize it immediately, maybe he tells himself he's hunting merlin to make him pay for his crimes.

he learns about magic while he does research to hunt merlin down and he learns about magic on his travels. he becomes obsessive just like how captain ahab becomes obsessed with killing moby dick.

maybe some of the knights and merlin's closest friends argue in defense of merlin, maybe they flee camelot because they can't serve under arthur after he's given his verdict. maybe some of them remain loyal, while others live in service to the kingdom but not the king.

after years of study and obsessively tracking his quarry, after seeing how all his interpersonal relationships have suffered after his condemnation of merlin and magic, arthur realizes that maybe merlin was his better half. he realizes that his anger and hurt are making him cruel just like his father.

over time he realizes that he hasn't been hunting merlin to kill him; he just wants merlin back.

arthur longs for how things used to be, before fear and heartache disguised as anger turned him cold and cruel and callous. his whole world turns on it's head again, and he doesn't know how to go on.

he's made his bed, and now he must lie in it. he's driven those he loves away, and all he can do is try his darndest to be better going forward. maybe he wants to legalize magic, but how can he possibly do so after this unholy crusade he's waged against magic, against merlin? how can he abandon the conviction he's had for his whole life?

meanwhile, merlin is on his own, constantly on the move and searching for meaning, running from the anger and hurt and sadness he feels after arthur's reaction to his magic reveal. maybe he does find others who love him, and he loves them too, but he aches for what once was. after years, maybe, his anger softens into resignation. he doesn't hate arthur, the man, but he hates the king and the kingdom that oppresses magic and it's kind.

and maybe--because of fate, the triple goddesses, the dragons, or merlin's own magic acting on its own accord--merlin accidentally reveals his place of hiding. arthur is able to find him through the magical shroud he's hidden under and traveled with. arthur comes to him like a sinner, begging on his knees for forgiveness. maybe he knows of merlin's power, or maybe he doesn't know yet. regardless, he wants merlin back. he thinks having merlin back will be his salvation. he thinks it'll free him from the misery he's been drowning in for so long.

but merlin isn't like the christian god. sin means nothing, neither does salvation nor repentance. emrys may be magic, he may be immortal, but merlin is still a man.

even if his heart forgives arthur, even if they're both flooded with relief, bearing hearts as if at confession, this isn't happily ever after. wounds take time to heal, and trust is a fragile thing that can't be forced.

arthur has become like his father in more ways than one. merlin doesn't forgive him, because arthur's regret does not absolve him of guilt. he has caused real harm, and although merlin cares for him, he will not accept any less than proper penance.

arthur works to repeal the ban. he works to right his wrongs. maybe he can never undo what's been done, but he does what he can. he tries to be a better king, a better friend, a better man.

and things may never be what they once were, but they're getting better. and even though mistakes have been made, and there are many regrets between them, they try. it's not a happily ever after, but time goes on, life goes on, and each day is another chance to make things better.

sorry to be all #hopecore on you, there's so much hurt in the world already 😭

i like to think that fantasy can be a blueprint for reality. be hopeful and keep trying!!! <3

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Things you might not have known you could do in KCD2

Contains spoilers

Hans can be found poaching during a side quest in the Trosky region. I didn't complete it during my first go, so I had to wait until my second playthrough, but it involves speaking to all the gamekeepers about their poaching problems.

If you fall asleep in Hans' bed, whether it be at the camp or in his room in Trosky, he'll greet you the next morning and you can respond to him. (requires waking up at 5:00, and getting into bed before he gets the chance:P)

During For Whom The Bell Tolls, you can sneak into the area that Hans is locked in and speak to him. Makes for a very hilarious distraction from Hans afterwards to help you get out without being seen.

You can admit to Lord Vonbergow that you killed Vashek and his men, which leads to a heartbreaking scene that shows Henry being locked away and, later on, executed.

Romance Black Bartosch - Von Berow's bodyguard, at the feast. You've got to talk to him and introduce yourself before said feast, or you won't get the dialogue option that allows you to try, which is why it's easy to miss.

You can find Black Bartosch in the cells in Nebakov after smoothing things out with Zizka, and give him some things to help his and Littlehead's condition. (Tip: You have to trigger the conversation by talking to Littlehead.)

You can also find Jaromir locked in the cells, while Hans is speaking with the imposter. Doing this will not only give you some different dialogue during the interrogation, but saves Hans the humiliation during the feast. I had just assumed that Hans being fooled was all part of the storyline, so once again, didn't see it until my second playthrough.

If you head back to the Trosky region after making it to Suchdol and did NOT raid Semine, you can talk to Lord Semine about what you discovered regarding his son.

If you climb into the "mouth of hell" and activate the quest before speaking to the priest, he and the locals will confront you as you're climbing out and accuse you of killing the cattle. You can convince them that you're innocent by picking up the Knight's Contract.

If you steal the guild sword before speaking to Menhard first, it gives you some alternate yet amusing dialogue.

If you take the man who attacked Hans in Bozhena's hut and bury him before she asks, you'll get a subtle change in dialogue.

Taking gamekeeper Varel straight back home instead of bringing him to his hideout/going after his horse is also an option. He gets upset with you for not saving his horse, but ultimately is glad to be home again.

If you can't find anywhere to sleep, are overloaded and it's a long way to your bed, etc. just steal Hans' bed before he gets into it. He's incredibly nice about it :)

Feel free to reblog with stuff not mentioned here. This definitely isn’t everything.

[lethimwhoiswithoutsin]

hello gays gals goons and goblins

i've decided to just make this one side account associated with my ao3 profile and roleplay stuff bc having a million different fandom specific rp accounts that i never use is annoying!

i'll eventually make posts searching for roleplay partners n fandom friends but uhhh i am too tired atm to be assed :)