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17 | In love with my french teacher, A. Feel free to message me and tell me or ask me stuff. l 23 year age gap l 16/12/2013

[tc-flowers]

How am I supposed to pretend, I never want to see you again?

Vampire Weekend, Campus (via tc-flowers)

[praying]

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parents at my deathbed: shouldnt you be studying 

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you dying cause you on that phone

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person: you look dead

me: thanks

[hellish-daddy]

Remember the day we first started talking to each other?

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[lets-tcrush-blog]

I might’ve actually never been this frustrated in my life lmao

[lets-tcrush-blog]

Me: finally crushes on someone.

crush: lives at the other side of the city

           leaves the contry

           has a crush on someone else

           is a fuckboy

           is a teacher

[heartfeltnotions]

I even like the way you smile right before you stab me in the back

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When you don’t know how old your TC is and you’re too shy to ask, so you just wait for that moment when they tell you what they did in life or how old their child is, so you can start doing the math

[tc-maths]

Everything is over. No more lessons. He’ll have new students. It’s over.

[lovestvck]

i always expect to see him everywhere and i create the excuse that it’s because he lives near me but really i could be in another country and i’d still imagine him walking past me.

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“I want to write about you but it hurts.”

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Hey everybody

He came for the first time in 9 years to the school's graduation ceremony to see me I dead

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long update

Hi everybodyy. So I know I have been inactive for the past few months. However a lot of thing have happened on this period of time so I thought I would update you on everything that has been happenning between A and I. Also because I don’t want to forget the initial aim of this blog which is for me to somehow make a record of the moments that I think are important. 

my classes ended almost two months ago, but I still got to go to school almost everyday as I had a month to prepare for some exams in order to get the italian diploma. one of these exams is oral and I had to present a speech of 10 minutes and in it I had to talk about three subjects. So I obviously picked french as one of the subjects as I’m good at it and also because A was going to be my tutor so he had to help me write that shit. Anyway, I did see him everyday but we only had small talk until one day I was finishing the speech and needed A to correct it. He told me to look for him at the end of the day because he was still giving class, so I went to the library to finish the speech. When it remained like an hour for me to go look for him he showed up at the library (idk how he skipped his lesson) and corrected my speech. it took us like half an hour to talk about my project and at some point the conversation escalated to more personal stuff. So he told me some personal (very philosophical) reflections and also told me that he saw me as a friend, more that as as student, which had never happened to him with anyone after 8 years teaching at our school. He told me a lot of nice things, he said that I seemed as a really chill person with a cool aura, and I also got to tell him some things that I have always wanted to tell him just because I thought if he knew them he would understand my behavior a little bit more. I didn’t confess and I have never planned on it to be honest. He told me he was having a nice time talking to me so he asked me to stay and talk to him until they closed the library. we talked for hours about our families and our perspectives on life and about some quite deep shit. I honestly didn’t know how to feel because it was so weird to me that he felt a deeper connection between us (which kind of creeped me out tbh) but I was also very happy to be able to know him more and to realize that I didn’t only had a crush on him but that I actually admire him and respect him as a person, and I’m glad I got to know him even if nothing happened. So then I decided I had to leave the crush behind and keep in touch with him (as he suggested) so we could be friends. The days after that I saw him a few times and we had the same small talk or only said hi as there was more people so it would have been awkward to ask personal stuff to eachother right there. However, I would go everyday to the library to study for my exams with my friends and he would go there too to read on his free time (he told me he hates the teacher’s lounge). It was so weird for me that he was that open to me about his personal stuff because he’s always very professional and almost shares nothing with us, and i really appreciated the fact that he told me he saw me as a friend and that he thought he could talk to me about serious stuff. I also got to know him so much more so to me it became a less idealized crush and more like a huge admiration for him. 

there will be a Part 2 for this update as I still have a lot to write and I want to let it all out little by little (also because it’s kinda frustrating to not know how to express myself in english as well as I would want to)

[myteacherrcrrush]

I would ask why are you so perfect but instead… Why are you so… illegal?

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illegally perfect*

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