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Not gonna lie my cards were pretty brutal and the messages I got are very direct and not exactly put in the most eloquent way. So, just a heads up if you are already in a bad mood this may not be something you wanna click on, and i think all three piles are pretty particular so if you don't feel called to any or even if you're not struggling that much or as if you don't need to do shadow work, this post will not resonate with you. And this is overall a general reading so don't your panties in a twist if you don't like the message!
Decks used were from Tarot of the Divine by Yoshi Yoshitani and Woodland Wardens by Jessica Roux
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Hello pile one, The cards that I got from Tarot was the magician in reversed, knight of pentacles in reversed and for the oracle card you got the racoon and sycamore reversed.
First thing that stuck out like a sore thumb was your cards all are reversed, that to me tells me that is internal work you need to do because it is causing blockages to opportunities that can come to you. The magician card is usually all about bringing in all you can to bring things that you need or want to your life but with it being reversed I can see that you cannot proceed at all in your life. I see depression, self hatred, laziness and apathy reeking from your energy overall. When looking at the animal that the oracle deck picked for you, we can see a racoon and racoons are these very curious creatures that are always going towards what interests them, but the reversal shows you cannot do the same. Now for the knight card, typically when upright its about going towards whatever suit they are represented in, which for you would be coins/pentacles. For you pile one, the knight card highlights all the bad traits you are stuck in, tarot is showing me that you are being very immature, overly pessimistic and not stable at all, and honestly I'm getting major bum energy.
Pile one you are being lazy and you act the exact opposite of what people your age should be acting like. Spirit is telling me that you been needing to get your shit together and you always manage to find any possible way to not do that. Honestly, do you even know what goals you want to set for yourself or are you just gonna assume it will naturally come to you one day? I am getting a lot of people who are in this pile are most likely unemployed, dropped out of college/not in school when they know they should be, and if you are currently working or in school. You are not setting yourself up for success and almost working against your own self interest. Like someone who consistently shows up late to work, class, or isn't putting their 100 into relationships with others. Or someone who just loves to consistently go home after barely working. Maybe you're a job hopper too and never feel like you wanna work at all. Which is totally relatable, but at the end of the day, everyone has to get their shit together at some point. Stop making it take longer than it needs to be.
I pulled two more cards and I got those two cards in reversed . . . . pile one please go get therapy, you cannot let your depression get any worse, stop making excuses, you can find ways to work through your own issues without money. You can journal, you can get a shadow work tarot deck, or if you're religious and find solace/peace in your faith go back to it, and you can also choose to walk away from certain behaviors and mindsets or even people if that applies to you. There's also plenty of therapists, self help grugrus, and even doctors online on YouTube with hours of videos, please take the time you do have, and focus on breaking through that depression and negativity. And most obvious get actual therapy and maybe go seek a psychiatrist to get diagnosed and maybe get medicated if that will help. Now for the two cards I asked spirit what exactly do you guys need to know or be told to help you get past this hardship of apathy and being in a rut. You got the six of coins/pentacles and the knight of wands (both cards in reversed). So i am picking up a few things, some of y'all are in a relationship that is bringing in a lot of the worse in you. And i wanna point out that some people are placing a lot of blame for why they are the way that they are on this other individual. Now I will be honest I do think some of ya'll are not necessary being honest with yourself because you can always walk away or find a way out. If you are dealing with a toxic person in your life, you have the means to leave or you can also learn to go about it in a mature way whilst figuring out your own short comings as well.
I can sense some of y'all do place more blame onto others than what is needed. And here's the thing, you cannot continuously stay in an environment where you feel your needs are not being met so you will be defensive and stay stagnant. If you're parents, partner/situationship is leaving you burnt out, what have you been doing to make it even harder? Or are you just a victim that is stuck? Because no, everyone plays a role. Are you purposely allowing yourself to be hurt because this person who you love keeps bring you down and you don't have it in you to stand up for yourself? Have you talked about it? How did you do it? How do you act to keep this dynamic so negative? And if it's so bad why are you allowing yourself to not walk away? Can you walk away? Or are you lying to yourself and telling yourself you can't?
And everything I am saying is far easier said than done. Walking away or even walking towards conflict in the most healthiest way is not easy. Especially when it feels like you're not even the "evil" or toxic one. You can only change how you act and see things, you cannot force someone to treat you how you want to be treated. I know it sounds like this dynamic is black and white, they are bad then leave, but nope, you can also learn how to stay and also grow, that obviously will be far more harder but if the other person is willing to grow with you, it wont hurt to work on your relationship with your partner or parent.
Now for those of pile one who are depressed but aren't in any toxic dynamic with someone else, you are using your own perception of all the bad traits of yourself to stop yourself from working through anything. Like. there's some people here who get in their own head and choose to stay in there own head because they cannot handle working through any mental challenge. And spirit wants you to know you are missing so many blessings and opportunities being like that.
Listen, I used to be a caregiver for a lady in her late 60's who was very anxious and depressed. She self medicated through xanax and weed nonstop and she never was truly happy, she's alone and she only has caregivers in her life because she pushed away any romantic interest and she has no family left, as everyone had passed on. I remember for the first few months when I took care of her, I spent weeks tryna figure out how to help her with depression and how to get back on her feet, because she quite literally forgot how to walk because she got sick and it forced her to be bed bound and since she had a fall with another caregiver and she was to weak to stand on her own, she regularly would just sit depressed every hour and minute in her life and just reflecting on her own misery. I am not tryna blast my old clients business, but I do think of her whenever I think to myself "damn am i really gonna stop tryna learn this? Or should i just quit this job? My partner has been leaving me feeling unloved should i just leave him already? Or choose to not follow this type of career path for myself because maybe I won't succeed?" the scary thing for me was that I saw myself in her in so many ways, she would tell me stories about her life and we would watch and talk about a lot of things and we were so similar, and i am thankful for working for her because honestly she helped me realize who I could end up becoming and while she generally was a nice person she also was such a unhappy person and oh my gosh I want to be the exact opposite of her. She's alive but not living her life at all. She has been in a rutt for most of her life and now she's in an even harder spot to get back on her feet because she was pretty stubborn and refused to try to work through any sort of help and trust me it's not like she did not have any other choice to not do anything. Me and her other caregiver, who regularly worked with her, did our best to make sure she could go to her appointments, we suggested so many activities and opportunities to get up and she always had a reason for why she wouldn't even think about doing anything. We would suggest healthier food choices, and encourage her to do her bed bound stretches/exercises and she would never try and when she did try she would not be consistent for any reward.
Please don't be like that. Don't let yourself end up miserable, because life will not get better if you are actively not doing what needs to be done to get better.
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Welcome, pile two. You got the eight of coins/pentacles upright, the four of swords in reversed and for your oracle card you got the quail and the gooseberry. I know I didn't display the actual cards that get pulled with my reading, I am just writing the message I am interpreting. But with the tarot card imagery, both show blood and pain depicted. The eight of coins for the deck I used shows a lady bleeding while holding and she is surrounded by shrubs which are filled with thorns and they are in the pentacle symbol. Then we have the four of swords, which is showing me a wolf that has a small blade through its snout and its tied and bleeding. So i am sensing pain or a physical injury as your current hardship.
You also did get the quail (a bird) and in the eight of coins it even has swans flying above the lady, and when most people think of birds what is one of the first things people connect them with? Freedom. Even with the sword card, that has a tied up wolf, shows me there's a clear image of a lack of freedom. And I think this has to with finances. I am picking up that some of you guys are working yourself to the bone. Or at least a warning to those who don't think they are over extending themself, because if you are not careful, you are going to injure yourself. No offense to pile one, but i know for a fact you did not pick that pile because this is the exact opposite messages I am getting.
I also am getting that some of y'all are surprised by how things ended up. Like I am getting that some of y'all are facing something (a blockage, pain or injury, or even an unexpected outcome) that you were not prepared for or struggling to cope with. Like i think some people who picked this one want to work harder than they can but for whatever reason they physically cannot due to an injury or maybe a disability. Or you were surprised to find out that barely sleeping, and neglecting your own health for so long to get that bag or be financially free has landed you in a spot where you are being forced to rest.
I pulled two more cards from tarot as to what message needs to relayed to help you overcome this hardship and I got six of swords upright, and four of cups upright. The four of cups did bring to my attention that some of you guys are getting burnt out from a work or study that you been focusing on and you realized it may not even be something you want to go towards or you got the job and realized it was not what you thought it would be and if that resonates with you good news because the six of swords is showing me that you can always go towards something else or that small feeling of stagnation will go away at some point. You might have to change your path. However, if you are struggling with an injury or pain the six of swords does suggest to that it will go away. And if you are struggling to stay positive in a period where you wanna work but can't and it's driving you up the wall, you could maybe go back to old hobbies or interests that you haven't dove into since you been working so hard lately. Please allow your body to rest and continue when you actually recovered. Sorry pile two your message was pretty short but it honestly was the best one outta all three.
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Hi pile three, and first things first this one is the most harsh one so fyi if you know what I am describing you dose not match then clearly this is not the reading for you. But anyways, I got ten of swords upright, the star card upright and for the oracle card you got the turtle and the coriander reversed.
Pile three, stop being a bitch. There I said it, and it wasn't meant to be said in a cute or funny way. Not gonna lie spirit is showing me through the turtle that you are not satisfied and it's leading you to complain and whine a lot about every single small thing. And for the people who know about the star card and are a tad bit confused as to why the messaging that was heard is so harsh it's because the star card is generally a positive card and it's also a major arcana card as well but, I think the purpose for the star card is to point out the desire and longing for what you are yearning for rather than it being the overall representation for the message for you, because that's what i pulled the oracle for. I felt more pulled on the ten of swords moreso than the star card as well. Also everyone reads tarot differently as well.
Now with the turtle, we have an animal that moves slow but remember, the turtle wins the race against the hare, you may not be satisfied now but you have to understand some things take time. And whining about them is not gonna make it go by any faster. I also think that both tarot cards that were pulled are opposites, one is a positive omen and the other a negative omen. That contrast shows me that there's a balance that's in the background and i think the hardship makes much more sense when I pulled the additional tarot cards out (i did this with all piles), at first I was under the hardship was a lack of satisfaction from not having what you want right away. But then I got one card, I was gonna get two like the rest but no cards wanted to come out because I believe the messaging all tied in enough with just one card. You got the King of Cups in the reversed. And guess what, its not a positive card at all. It's showing me that your lack of satisfaction and happiness gets directed and it's also pulling that balance i was talking about towards negativity.
I can see that the way you behave when you are interacting with someone or even just any person ( weather it be online, in person or both) is the hardship. Pile three, you're hardship is that you're so damn rude or mean towards others. And its rarely from a place that even would justify your negativity. Pile three your life could be worst. I know it may not be the exact ideal life, but spirit is calling for you to learn to settle down, reel in that negative talk to others and reflect. Someone or something not meeting your expectations is not an excuse to warrant abusive or manipulative behavior, and pile three you are incredibly emotionally unintelligent. You are not just blunt and "tell it like it is", pile three you are a disrespectful person and rude.
Pile three I can see you are cut throat and you have had to be like that and while that behavior served you at times dose not mean you have to be like that for the rest of your life. I can see whoever picked this pile, struggles with avoidant tendencies. You know that saying that people who end up seeking therapy do it because other people who didn't choose therapy refused to do it, you are that "other" person. You are the person who should be seek it out but for some reason isn't and your behavior/tongue leaves others hurting.
And the thing is I don't even think some of you guys are unaware of this, some of you guys honestly remind me of BoJack Horseman, who is a man horse who actively makes bad choices but he also hates himself so he uses that as an excuse regularly to make themself feel like less of an asshole. Like definitely you need to do some heavy healing, its not even like pile one who also need to do heavy healing but feel like they cant, this pile needs to do it but refuse to do it because they think they don't need it or they just don't care to not think about others over themself. Please work on your shadow side. Being jagged isn't a cute look and you need to bring at least a level of balance.