I’ve been going through some intense mental illness. So much change happening that I can’t grasp reality. A lot of anniversary dates have been stirring the already overflowing cauldron. I’m exhausted both physically and mentally. I try coming up for air to be brought back to suffocating, choking on fear, feeling that I’m strapped down to some sort of torture contraption that no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to escape. I remind myself that this is just emotion and this is not me, part of me feels like I’m Jim Carry in sunshine of the spotless mind, confused, sad, angry, can’t differentiate reality from sickness. I argue with myself from both sides, telling myself what I should be doing and at the same time the worse case scenario of what could happen with the next step I take. Looking from the outside it seems I am haunting myself. I have a powerful mind that is plagued with sickness that makes me believe that I am weak. It’s like one of those abusive relationships that you see your friend in, you wonder why they put up with all that negative shit, not being able to live a normal life, they say they are done but they always end up going back. How do I escape this? What will fix this? Are the two questions I ask myself the most. I have a huge adventure that I want to run towards not away from. I will do my best to stick this out and take necessary steps to get better. Side note: I share my personal experience openly because I want to raise awareness for mental illness. Someone can have everything they want in the world and still suffer mental illness. If you suffer from any type of mental illness you are not alone. **Feel free to share** . . . . . #SoulRebel #SerialEntrepreneur #CreativityConsultant #Artist #MotivationalSpeaker #Picker #OutOfTheBox #Networking #Opportunist #KnownTheWorldOver #HUNGRY247 #MakeMoves #MakeMovesThatMoveYou #letyourmindgrow #Hustle #Business #Grind #Entrepreneur #Motivation #Inspiration #positivity #Blessed #entrepreneurlife #entrepreneurship #entrepreneurlifestyle #knowledge #faith #universe
