I've been thinking about you so much over the past few days. I've been thinking about how short lived your life was. How unfair and abrupt it all was. You were taken away far too early, but when I think about all of that I also think about how much you actually LIVED in the years you were alive. I was around you the most when we were young but I watched you grow up with my brother. You were always smiling your devilish grin and laughing from the very bottom of your tummy. I think about all the stories my brother used to tell about you guys. And I think about how full of life you were. I saw you at the wedding for the first time in a year or so but it was like you were never out of my life. You still treated me like I was your little sister and I loved that. When I think about the life you lived it makes me feel so damn selfish for the way that I live and the way I see others live. I know that you had problems because everyone does, but you never let those problems get the best of you. You pushed through all of them and you kept a smile on your face the entire time. You didn't have enemies because no one could resist that smile or laugh. And if you did have enemies you made sure that it didn't last long because you weren't about that. You just wanted to have a good time and enjoy life which is something that not everyone does nowadays. You were so motivated to do the things that you wanted to do with your life. You shared so many ideas and beliefs with so many people. And you had so many friends and you impacted SO many lives. I will never forget how many people showed up to your memorium and to your funeral. The room was so packed at the funeral that we had to line up chairs. It was such a beautiful thing to see all those people come together and hear all those stories. You were there with all of us and we could all feel it. All the memories we got to hear from all of your friends were so comforting.
I guess what this whole random writing is about is to say thank you. Thank you for being that light in a lot of our lives. Thank you for showing us to live life and let go of the little things. And to befriend everyone no matter who they are and where they come from. And to do all the things we want to do in our lives because life can be cut short in the blink of any eye.
"May your neighbours respect you Trouble neglect you, Angels protect you And heaven accept you.."
