A diary of sorts ...

[dichbeimir-deactivated20211208]

What’s your most desired fantasy?

to be loved honestly

[lexisfeelings]

feeling like you’re disposable to literally everyone in your life is the worst feeling ever. like, what am i even here for at this point ?

[lexisfeelings]

i’m so in love with you.

[lexisfeelings]

i’m fucking terrified because i know i’m gonna lose you. it’s always so easy for people to let me go.

[lexisfeelings]

things changed so quickly ... when did i stop being the person you loved cuddling? when did my lips become less desirable to you? when did i become part of the background to you ...

[lexisfeelings]

fucking ANNOYED.

[lexisfeelings]

ouch.

[lexisfeelings]

i’m sick and tired of not being okay.

[lexisfeelings]

it’s the way your lips curl when you smile at me, the way the hands fit perfectly in mine. it’s the way you make me laugh when i don’t even feel like smiling. and the way when i picture my future, i see you in it.

[lexisfeelings]

hopelessly devoted to you

[lexisfeelings]

I love the way you make me feel about myself

[lexisfeelings]

i gave such a large part of myself to you. you’ve got that connection to me always. i regret none of it. because i love you with all of me.

[lexisfeelings]

you fall asleep talking to me every single night, i’m so glad i’m the last thing crossing your mind before you drift into sleep.

[lexisfeelings]

it’s 4am and i can’t sleep. i’m like a kid on Christmas Eve because I get to see you in a few hours.

[lexisfeelings]

i’m so much more productive lately ... i’m getting through everything a little more easily.

[lexisfeelings]

being in love is beautiful. everything is so much more exciting.

waking up? easy.

smiling? a lot more.

crying? a lot less.

feeling? yes.

[lexisfeelings]

you had her and then you lost her? are you insane? she’s everything. thank you for making her realize she deserves so much more.